Monday, 25 July 2016

Dream 665

'Lost Makeup'
Date: 24 July 2016
Time: 19:00 - 02:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally, then fell back asleep again) 02:30 - 05:15 
Type of dream: Vivid dream 
Dream recall: Weak/moderate recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Initially, when I fist woke up from this dream, I remembered most of it in detail. However, because I then fell asleep again, I forgot large amounts of it and on the second waking, the memories of this dream were very vague, especially Scene 2. However, I hope that I might recall more of this dream later, as this sometimes happens when I have processed the dream memory effectively on first waking, then subsequently forgotten some of it.

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was sitting on the floor beside the sofa in my Nan's living-room. I think my Mum was sitting on the sofa. My cousin, CAJ was present somewhere in the room. I knew CAJ and I were both enrolled in a class together (despite the age difference and the fact we have both pursued different academic interests/careers in real life). We were also in competition with each other to see who could get the best grades. I was looking at a list of school subjects - written in two rows across a piece of unlined A4 paper, which was horizontal (landscape format). The subjects were: English, Maths, Science and 'Machinery' (which I crossed out and replaced with 'Technology'). There were some other subjects written down, but I cannot recall what they were. I started writing grades underneath each subject - typically they were Bs and Ds. I then said something to my Mum, but I cannot recall what it was.

Scene 2: Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I had a makeup collection, but was aware that one of my favourite lipsticks - an orange red - had gone missing. I thought someone had stolen it and assumed it might be my cousin, HM. My makeup was piled on a large table in the room, which was quite empty other than this table. I felt annoyed about the lipstick. 

I then spoke to my Mum, who was holding a metal rack (like a smaller version of one of the rotating shop displays where products - such as makeup - are held). This rack had a number of lipsticks, all in the peach plastic packaging like my favourite real life lipstick, which is a Kate (Kate Moss) for Rimmel product (in a peachy nude shade). My Mum was telling me that I might be able to replace my lost lipstick with one from the display rack. She showed me one, which I swatched onto the back of my hand. It was a deep burgundy colour - like red wine, but much darker, almost like a 'black cherry' colour. I said to my Mum: 'I am not a goth'. My Mum then held up another shade of lipstick (same packaging) and said: 'This one is orange red'. I looked at it and said: 'No, that's a light coral colour'. I felt dissatisfied. 

There was more action/discussion regarding the lost lipstick, which I cannot recall. There was some action involving a male dream character, which I cannot recall. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character
  • Learning/school/classrooms
  • The colour red

Dreamsigns: 
  • My cousin and I were competing in an academic course

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I had seen my cousin CAJ post photos on Facebook and noticed she was wearing lipstick
  • On the day of this dream, I had been writing horror fiction and had considered what school subjects my main character in one of my short stories might excel/fail at
  • I have been making makeup videos recently. In one video, I used the peachy nude Kate/Rimmel lipstick and remarked that the packaging is a good example of my favourite colour. I also referred to the fact that orange red is one of my favourite lipstick shades
  • The day before this dream I had seen an article about how Kirsten Dunst would be directing Dakota Fanning in a movie version of Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar (one of my favourite books by my favourite poet) - in the images attached to the news article, Dakota Fanning was wearing orange red lipstick and Kirsten Dunst was wearing red lipstick
  • The day before this dream I had been looking through a Tumblr page dedicated to my icon, Julia Davis - one of the comments was about how perfect it was that Davis portrayed Sylvia Plath in comedy series Psychobitches, which also starred Rebecca Front, who appeared in Davis' own show, Nighty Night (one of my all-time favourite TV shows)
  • The day before this dream I had been listening to a Creepypasta which was about The Sims - the story mentioned 'Bella Goth' who is an NPC Sim favourite. On the same day I had also seen reference to Bella Goth fan fiction posted on The Sims fanpage I follow on Facebook

Waking Reactions: 
I really regret not staying awake after my first wakening to properly record this dream while I still had a good memory of it, because I know that it was much longer, complex and interesting than the details I can recall at present. I know that this was not a successful dream incubation, but I found that the effect of my day residue and the way in which the day residue became interlinked in this dream was fascinating. If I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.

Sunday, 24 July 2016

Dream 664

'Holiday'
Date: 23 July 2016
Time: 17:30 - 02:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream 
Dream recall: Weak/moderate recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: A Clothing Shop - Day
I was in a clothing shop with my Mum. The shop seemed familiar to me - not from real life, but from an earlier dream - Dream 553 - 'The Worst Gym Ever' (note that when I researched this dream, I discovered the shop/shop assistant related back to an even earlier dream, Dream 254 - 'Thuggin, Freddie Gibbs & the Little Shop of Horrible Clothes'). I was trying to buy clothes for some form of holiday or day trip - the details were not clear, but there was a feeling of anticipation. I noticed that all the clothes in the shop were white or grey. I cannot recall anything else about this particular dream scene. 

Scene 2: Interior (A Classroom?) - Day
I was then in a room which appeared to be a classroom - there were long desks around the edges of the room, but there was no teacher. The only dream characters I recall were 2 males - neither of whom I recognise from real life, but one of whom I was interested in, in the dream. There was also a female - someone from Sheringham, who I know in real life, but I cannot quite recall. All I can remember is that this girl was someone I was not friends with, but did not dislike - I just found her boring (in real life - that was the impression I got from the dream - that she represented someone I did not pay too much attention to at school). I was wondering why this female was with us. I was also worried that the male I was interested in - a tall white male, with brown hair (this is all I can recall about him) might like her more than he liked me. 

There was the sense of the holiday being in the near future, and that these dream characters were coming with me. I am not sure of any of the other details of the holiday. There was some discussion or action involving getting money - earning or saving money, or collecting it in some way. The details were hazy. At some point I was standing beside some drawn curtains, which looked like the curtains in the living-room of my Nan's house in Sheringham, but we were still in the original location. There was also some red lace knickers - I cannot recall how they featured in the dream. 

Scene 2 continued for some time - there was a feeling that I wanted to get rid of the female dream character - that her imposing presence was holding me back or stopping me from getting what I wanted somehow.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I recognised that the clothing shop in Scene 1 had appeared in earlier dreams - this was a form of dream deja-vu

Day Residue: 
  • Just before I had this dream, I had been watching one of my favourite shows, Nighty Night during which there is a scene in S01E03 in which Jill Tyrell (Julia Davis) removes a pair of red lace crotchless knickers and plants them in the pocket of her married love interest, Dr Don Cole (Angus Deayton) to convince his wife that he is cheating on her

Waking Reactions: 
There was nothing special about this dream, although I know that I have forgotten quite a bit of the details, especially in Scene 2. There was no indication that my Dream Incubation Experiment influenced the content of this dream in any way. However, I find the elements of dream deja-vu (and particularly the fact that I have had the same experience, relating to clothing shops where  I am usually with a female member of my family, occur in a number of previous dreams). Hopefully, if this dreamscene location/action occurs again in future, I can use it as a dreamsign. 

Saturday, 23 July 2016

DREAM INCUBATION EXPERIMENT - EMINEM / MARSHALL MATHERS III DREAM

So, I have been having a few problems with dreaming/dream recall recently, due to a number of reasons which I have outlined in my new Youtube video (click here to be taken to post with video links - opens in a new window). In order to refocus and invigorate my dream work, I like to conduct experiments from time to time. I find that this gives me a goal and motivates me to try harder with my dream practices. I have noticed from the comments/messages from my subscribers/followers, that my Dream Incubation Experiments are pretty popular and often some of you lovely people like to follow along with me and try your own Dream Incubation Experiment, using the same methodology (see below). I love hearing about your dream incubation experiments and whether they are successful! 

I find that the more vague and general my Dream Incubation Experiments are, the more likely they are to be successful. If I try to be too strict or prescriptive about my chosen Dream Incubation Experiment theme, it tends to fail. This time, I have picked a recurrent dream theme as my Dream Incubation goal - Eminem! Although as a hip hop fan, I have always rated Eminem's technical ability and lyricism, I have never really been an enthusiast of his music. Nor did I find him particularly attractive - until I had a series of dreams in which I was romantically/sexually involved with him. After my subconscious exposed me to Eminem as my dream husband/lover/interest, I started to consciously view him differently in my waking life and even started to find him incredibly sexy! 

Due to the fact that many of my dreams have featured Eminem as a dream character and I have honestly really enjoyed meeting him and being intimate with him in my dreams, I have decided that he is the perfect subject for my new Dream Incubation Experiment! I am not going to select a particular desired context for my dream (such as 'being married to Eminem' or 'going on tour with Eminem') - instead, I am just aiming to dream about Eminem in some way. 

The methodology for this Dream Incubation Experiment is listed below, in case you want to do your own dream incubation or simply want to know how it works! Just scroll down past the Eminem visuals!

I am not going to set a timeframe for this Dream Incubation Experiment - I am just going to let it run it's course and see what happens! 

Previous Eminem Dreams:


 I will do the following to incubate my chosen dream theme:
  • Perform the MILD Technique for lucid dreaming on a daily basis. If this dream is a lucid dream, it will therefore be a DILD (Dream-Initiated/Induced Lucid Dream).
  • Incorporate elements of Tholey's Combined Technique for lucid dreaming, which has been reviewed as the most successful (cognitive) method for lucid dream induction. I will adapt the key steps of critical reflection, intention and auto-suggestion so that I not only encourage myself to become lucid, but use these as a way of incubating my desired dream theme.
  • Use visual aids - such as photographs relating to my dream incubation theme - as well as immersing myself in material relevant to my dream incubation during my waking hours. I will also keep the written prompt for my dream incubation under my pillow and make sure I read it before going to sleep each night.
  • Where possible, I will perform the Wake-Back-to-Bed method.
  • Incorporate my chosen dream theme in both my daily reality checks (15 - 20 per day) by thinking clearly and positively about my incubated dream theme after each reality check.
  • Train myself to spot dreamsigns when reflecting on my Dream Journal entries each day following a dream - then hopefully, if my dream incubation is successful, recognising the dreamsigns within the dream (i.e. meeting a dead celebrity would be a dreamsign in the context of this experiment) and reality checking will trigger me to become lucid.
  • Meditate on my incubated dream theme for at least 10 minutes before sleep and perform specific affirmations alongside the normal MILD Technique/Tholey's Combined Technique ones ('I will lucid dream about [incubated dream theme] tonight, and I will remember it') - this should also encourage successful dream recall.
  • Use Dream Visualisation before sleep - using my previous dreams based on the incubated dream theme as inspiration.
  • 100 - 150 mg of 'lucid dream supplement' Vitamin B6 (2/3 x 50 mg pills)

I have had some successful and unsuccessful previous dream incubation experiments, which you may like to read:

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Dream 663

'Hairloss'
Date: 19 July 2016
Time: 04:00 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream 
Dream recall: Moderate recall

Scene 1: My Bathroom in my Temporary Accommodation, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was in one of the 3 bathrooms in my current temporary accommodation. My Mum was in my accommodation. I had dyed my hair bright red (I used to actually have hair this colour) and cut it short to my shoulders. While I was standing in the bathroom, I started to brush my hair and was shocked to see massive amounts of it falling out - handfuls at a time. I was extremely worried about going bald. I called out to my Mum, who joined me in the bathroom, but she did not seem concerned about my hairloss and was just joking and not taking me seriously. I touched my head and noticed that my hair felt very thin and balding. There was a male dream character (unrecalled) who also entered the bathroom and didn't seem to think my hairloss was a problem. 

Scene 2: Outside my Normal Home, Norwich - Day
I was standing in the outside area which is between the alleyway leading to the laundrette on one side, and my normal (i.e. permanent term-time) home on the other. I had my duvet (the current one on my bed) with me, laying on the floor. I wanted to take it to the laundrette, but something had made me stop and stand still. I then realised that I had 2 clean sets of bedding at home and didn't need to use the laundry right now, which was a relief, as I hate doing laundry, especially when it is an emergency. I then saw my former housemate, SH, walking from the direction of the laundrette. She was carrying one of my clean duvets - a green and white one. Instead of heading towards our former shared home, she started heading up the concrete stairs (next to our home) which would lead to my (her former) place of employment on campus. The stairs were not at a 90 degree angle to where I was standing, as they would be in real life, but were facing the opening of the alleyway. So from where I was standing, I had a good view of SH. I asked her what she was doing with my clean bedding. She said (nonchalantly): 'I used your other one for my friend, but it got dirty, so I need to use this one now'. I was furious that she would not only take one set of my clean bedding without asking permission, but then also take my remaining clean set and act like she had the right to do so, especially as she and I did not really get on when we were living together. I told her she could not use my bedding and must wash the set she had already dirtied, but SH was refusing, acting like she didn't need my permission to touch my belongings. I was arguing that I no longer had a clean set of bedding and because of her, I would need to clean one of the 2 dirty duvets, which was unfair. SH just walked off with my clean duvet over her shoulder, ascending the steps. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • My current temporary accommodation as a dreamscene location
  • My university colleagues as dream characters - 'Ben' from Dream 662 and SH in this dream - we all do the same parttime job at university

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I watched a Youtube video where the MUA, Kandee Johnson had her hair dyed red - this reminded me of when my own hair was dyed the same colour
  • In the summer my hair sheds noticeably more
  • Shortly before this dream I considered how I would feel if I lost my hair, because my identity and image seems so connected with my long, thick black hair
  • Living in temporary accommodation with 4 male friends has been a much happier experience than the previous year, during which I shared my home with SH
  • I had recently been thinking about the need to do laundry

Waking Reactions: 
The hairloss in Scene 1  was pretty anxiety provoking - but then hairloss is often interpreted as a symbol of anxiety in waking life, so perhaps this is the explanation for this dream scene, combined with the clear day residue which was present. The events of Scene 2 left me feeling angry and 'mugged off' by SH and upon waking and reflecting on this dream, I wish I had been more confrontational and assertive in the way I dealt with her - both in the dream and in real life. 

Dream 662

'Sink Vomit'
Date: 16 July 2016
Time: 03:00 - 10:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream 
Dream recall: Strong recall

I went to bed after a night out clubbing, during which I consumed a large amount of alcohol - white wine and some bottled drinks. I was definitely intoxicated when I went to sleep and had this dream. Earlier in the night, I had walked through broken glass with bare feet and knew I had fragments of glass stuck in the sole of my foot. I couldn't be bothered to deal with this when I got home, so I just washed my foot and went to bed, hoping to sort it out in the morning. To be honest, it didn't hurt at any point (during the incident or when I removed the glass with a knife and tweezers) because I have a pretty high pain threshold. The bleeding was fairly intense, but only in the minutes after I first injured my foot - I actually  temporarily forgot about it when I went out dancing shortly afterwards!

Scene 1: My Bedroom in my Temporary Accommodation, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was in my current temporary accommodation, in my bedroom, which looked slightly different from how it normally should. There was a knock at the door and before I could open it, the door burst open and 3 males - in Maintenance uniforms - pushed past me into the room. It turned out that I had vomited a purple and orange substance all over my sink, causing a blockage which affected the entire building. I went to look at the sink - it looked more like a well in the corner of the room, or at least some form of industrial water pump, with a pipe in the middle, where water was running from. The vomit was filling the 'sink'/well. The vomit was lumpy and bright in colour and there was so much of it, it would not be humanly possible for one person to produce so much. I felt shocked and disgusted at myself. 

The Maintenance men were pouring buckets of water into the 'sink' to try and flush the vomit away, but it was unsuccessful. One of the men told me in an angry voice that I would be charged 'hundreds of pounds' for the blockage to be cleared and the sink fixed. I tried to argue with this, saying: 'Have you tried to run the cold water?' - hoping that this would be the solution to the problem. I was told that this would not fix it. I walked to the 'sink' and noticed that the vomit was clearing. One of the Maintenance men was kneeling beside the 'sink'/well and he said: 'Running the cold water cleared it'. I felt vindicated (that my suggestion had actually worked) and relieved that the situation was now resolved, so I would not be charged for damage. 

Scene 2: An Exterior Scene (Location Unknown) - Day
I was outside during the day - the sky was blue and I think it may have been sunny. Standing on the side of a road/edge of a pavement were a number of men wearing business suits. In the dream (not real life), I recognised these men to be lawyers - practicing lawyers who I work alongside in my pro bono work; and also academic lawyers who are members of the Law School faculty (none of these dream characters were similar to any of my colleagues in either respect, but I was aware of who they represented in the dream). They were discussing who should be hired as the replacement for the girl who works alongside me in my pro bono work. I indicated that my university friend Ben would be perfect for the role and the lawyers seems impressed with my idea.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • The sink in my bedroom looked like a well
  • The amount of vomit could not come from one single person

Day Residue: 
  • Due to refurbishments in my normal accommodation, I am currently living in temporary accommodation (university halls of residence). Unlike my normal home, I currently have a sink in my bedroom. While my normal home is being refurbished, I reported that the window frame in my bedroom was broken, so it was an ideal time for this to be fixed while workmen are already in the house. The Maintenance Staff were joking withe me, because last year I had to get a hole in my bedroom wall fixed, where my foot kicked through the plaster while I was asleep - they told me I was a liability!
  • My current bedroom has purple paintwork and I have a purple duvet on my bed 
  • I ate a beetroot salad on the day of this dream (purple food)
  • On the night out before this dream, I met a guy called Ben
  • In my pro bono legal work, I am currently needing a partner to help with the workload - I discovered that one of my colleagues ('Ben') who also studies Law might be interested and so I am hoping to speak to him soon and recommend that he replace my colleague

Waking Reactions: 
This was a very vivid dream - and actually a pretty disgusting one. I guess maybe I dreamed about vomiting because I had been drinking heavily before I went to sleep and the alcohol in my system may have prompted this dream theme. It is also possible that the alcohol led to the REM Rebound Effect, which might account for the very vivid dream.

Wednesday, 13 July 2016

THE DREAM EGO / DREAM SELF (PART 2 OF 2)


This is Part 2 of 2 - see previous post for Part 1

THE DREAM EGO / DREAM SELF (PART 1 OF 2)


This is PART 1 of 2 - see next post for PART 2

DREAM CHARACTERS

My Second Channel - Tallulah Zombieface


My second channel for those of you who like to hear me chat. This is a MAKEUP CHANNEL. I love applying makeup and recreating celebrity looks in my bedroom, but have limited skills - I always end up looking like a ZOMBIEFACE version. So for entertainment and chats, I have made this channel, showing me putting makeup on my face, while having a little brainspill! Don't expect good looks - this is bad look, REAL HORRORHOW MAKEUP, but hopefully you will get to know me a bit more in another context other than my love of dreams, Tallulah La Ghash xoxo

ps: the background to my videos is really institutionalised (I like in a Brutalist listed building, and these happen to be my favourite aesthetic styles, but it makes my friends laugh, as it looks like I am shooting videos in a prison corridor :) 

Tuesday, 12 July 2016

Dream 661

'Penis Doctor'
Date: 10 July 2016
Time: 03:00 - 09:30 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm clock)
Type of dream: Vivid dream - extremely long
Dream recall: Weak recall

This dream was very long and complex, however I can remember very little of it. I recall thinking - while half awake, half asleep (I believe I woke up some time before my alarm - unsure what time this would be - because I was conscious, but not fully) I thought to myself: 'That dream was really long and weird'. However, because I fell back asleep for a further period, I have forgotten this dream and can only recall fragments.

Scene 1: Exterior (Location Unknown) - Day
There was a famous male celebrity - I cannot recall who it was - and he wanted to date both me and my cousin HM at the same time. I didn't really mind the situation. With some members of my family (unrecalled) we went for a drive - or a walk - I saw that we were on a road with some trees and fields on either side. I then saw a huge billboard by the side of the road - on it was a photograph of the male celebrity and my cousin HM embracing/kissing. I thought: 'Oh, she got in there first' - basically, she progressed the relationship with the male celebrity before I had the opportunity. I did not feel angry about it.

There was something relating to RBA and social media.

Someone (unknown) passed me something - it was some kind of paper/cardboard and I sniffed a white substance from it - drugs (maybe cocaine?) I was then 'high'. This happened while I was standing beside a car.

Scene 2: A Hospital - Time Unknown
I was then in a hospital treatment room with a young adult male patient (wearing grey trousers) and a female nurse. I realised I was a 'penis doctor' and was overseeing the nurse who was supposed to perform a routine check-up on the male patient. He was sitting on the edge of a bed. The nurse immediately began to stroke his crotch/genital area and he got an erection which was very visible. I thought/said: 'She didn't have to touch it...' and felt embarrassed for the man. I saw his erect penis (covered by the trousers) in close up.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • RBA as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • My cousin and I were both going to have a relationship with a male celebrity
  • I was a 'penis doctor'

Day Residue: 
  • A short while before this dream I had chatted to RBA on Facebook messenger
  • A short while before this dream I was discussing drugs with DL and said that I would never want to snort drugs up my nose as I find the idea unappealing
  • A couple of days before this dream I read an online news article about Billie Piper and her new boyfriend who had a 'wild night out' - paparazzi images showed the boyfriend, musician Johnny Lloyd (singer in a band called Tribes) seeming to snort some kind of substance while standing beside a car

Waking Reactions: 
I wish I could recall more of this dream (not just the parts relating to penises!) If I remember anything further, I will record it below.

Saturday, 9 July 2016

Dream 660

'Queen Taylor Swift'
Date: 8 July 2016
Time: 03:00 - 14:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm clock)
Type of dream: Vivid dream 
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: Town Clock, Sheringham High Street - Day
I was with DL, sitting in the Town Clock in the centre of Sheringham High Street. I checked in my purse and found that I had money and some cannabis, wrapped in clingfilm. in there. I also had a pink plastic shopping bag with me (which I think contained items of makeup). From the window behind where DL was sitting, I saw 2 females approach. I cannot recall who they were, but I know they were girls from the Sheringham area, who I would classify as thugs/bullies back when they were at school and were not my friends. The girls entered the Town Clock and one of them approached me, raising her fist as if she was going to punch me straight in the face. I was too scared and shocked to fight back, but the female did not in fact hit me - both girls robbed me instead and then ran away. I saw that they had taken the pink bag, but was relieved to see I still had my purse with the money and cannabis in it. DL and I tried to chase the girls, but they had a head start and we could not catch up with them.

Scene 2: A Party (Location Unknown) - Day
DL and I were then at a party which had an outside area. I am not sure where this party was, but I think it was still in Sheringham. There was a sort of hut/shack outside, and I was standing beside it. The hut/shack was made of brown sticks or reeds and had an arched doorway. The only thing inside it was a small table which filled up most of the space. Next to the hut/shack was a group of men - dressed in medieval armour. I then realised that I was a Queen - and furthermore, I was actually Taylor Swift. I was wearing a long fancy pink dress - which could be described as the kind of dress a medieval princess/queen might wear, other than the pale baby pink colour. These men gathered around the hut/shack were 'the Queen's Guards' and therefore they were in my service. 

In the distance, I saw the 2 females who had robbed me running into a wooded area, still carrying the pink bag. I realised that I could send my army of medieval soldiers after these girls, and they could retrieve my stolen belongings on my behalf. I send the soldiers after the girls. 

I then saw my head - or at least Taylor Swift's head - in third person perspective. This was still 'my' head. It was large and filled my field of vision. However, I was looking at the 'inside' of the head - the interior of the skull and teeth. It was like the inside of the skull was a room - the top of the skull was the ceiling, the cheeks were the walls and the tongue and bottom of the jar was the floor. Everything was coloured brown. Darker brown stripes were being painted onto the insides of the skull. This was 'contour' makeup and the soldiers - now miniature so that they could fit into Taylor Swift's/my skull were standing on the tongue and trying to organise themselves to 'paint' the bones and teeth. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Sheringham as a dreamscene location

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was 'Queen Taylor Swift'
  • The entirety of Scene 2 was a dreamsign

Day Residue: 
  • Taylor Swift (and Tom Hiddleston) have been in the media a lot recently - amidst speculation that they are dating or fooling the media while making a piece of performance art for a music video
  • The day before this dream I watched a past episode of Celebrity Masterchef where the celebrity contestants were preparing a large meal for a group of people who were involved in a medieval battle reenactment
  • The day before this dream I was recording a makeup video for Youtube. When it came to contouring, I described myself as looking like a 'soldier going into combat with camouflage makeup on my cheeks' and also mentioned 'contouring on bone structure' as well as my 'stereotypically bad British teeth'

Waking Reactions: 
Although this was a very vivid and memorable dream, where may be some aspects which I have forgotten as my recent dream recall has been very poor and this was the clearest dream I have had in weeks. If I recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below. This was the strangest dream though - it was pretty hard to describe Scene 2!

Dream 659

'Sinn Fein'
Date: 5 July 2016
Time: 02:30 - 10:00 (I woke up from this dream, naturally)
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Moderate recall

My recent dream recall has been terrible. This is mainly because I have moved into temporary accommodation and my sleep routine has been even more disturbed than usual. I have also been under a lot of stress from various sources in my waking life, which has an extremely negative impact on my dreaming.

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day
I have forgotten most of this dream, but one scene stands out.

I was in the living-room in my Nan's house, squatting down beside the armchair which is next to the kitchen. My Mum was sitting in this chair, facing me, leaning across on the armrest. She was pencil sketching a cartoon image of a man with some kind of hat. I asked her who she was drawing and she leered/grinned at me, getting very close to my face. She said; 'Sinn Fein' (the Irish Republican Party, which means 'We Ourselves'). I got angry at her and said: 'Not all Irish people support Sinn Fein politically' to which she said: 'No, some splinter off from politics and just like hats'. I am not sure what this means, but the response made me even more angry because I thought she was being ignorant. She was laughing at me and I felt frustrated. I grabbed the sketch from her and ripped it up.

There was some interaction with RBA. I cannot recall what.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Nan's house as a dreamscene location
  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The behaviour of my Mum

Day Residue: 
  • The topic of politics and the idea of being an independent nation may have been inspired by the current political turmoil and civil unrest caused by Brexit - many people are applying for Irish passports so they can be part of the European Union (Ireland is an EU member state, whereas Northern Ireland is part of the UK)

Waking Reactions: 
I cannot recall hardly anything about this dream, but if I remember anything else, I will record it below. I was annoyed during this dream as I could not understand the behaviour of my Mum and interpreted it in a negative way.

Monday, 27 June 2016

Dream 658

'£250 Festival Tickets'
Date: 25 June 2016
Time: 22:00 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream, naturally)
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Moderate recall

Scene 1: Exterior Scene (Location Unknown) - Day
I have forgotten most of this dream - the earliest scene (unrecalled) involved some kind of meat/flesh - perhaps surgery? Not on me, but I was watching. Whatever happened in this dreamscene disgusted me.

I was then walking in the street with a girl who I knew from high school - but not someone I am friends with currently. I cannot recall who it was - but I think it may have been JF, a female with whom I have nothing in common and would not be socialising with. JF told me that she had bought festival tickets for SVF and I - SVF was my best friend at high school/college, but we lost contact as we have both changed phones and SVF does not use social media - none of our mutual friends are in contact with her. JF told me that the festival tickets cost £250 each. I was concerned that they were not worth that price and that it was a waste of money. I wanted to go and visit RBA instead. so wanted to save my money - I tried to work out if I would have any money left once I had paid JF for the festival ticket and also considered whether I might be able to sell it to someone else for a profit. I was trying to calculate what my expected wages, minus £250 would be. I also worried that the festival would be rainy and dirty. 

Scene 2: A Staircase (Location Unknown) - Day
I was walking up a concrete staircase - I am not sure what was on the lower level (where I was coming from), but the stairs led up to street level, and I could see that it was a sunny day. As I approached the top of the stairs, I saw LW and some other females (possibly her sister/cousin or friends from the local area - I cannot recall) coming down. They were standing on the top stair. LW looked the same way she had at school - her teenage self. I knew she wanted to confront me in an aggressive way, but I felt prepared to stand my ground and not be intimidated by her. As soon as LW turned to me and started to say something (which I perceived to be threatening), I started mocking her, pointing at her with my finger. I said to her (I obviously cannot recall the precise words, but I do clearly recall the statements I made and the context in which I said them, due to the fact they are what I would say in real life, in a comparable situation today), words to the effect of: 'You can't do anything to me now. You don't feel so tough now that I'm grown up and can stand up to you and fight back, do you? Why would I care what you say about me or the threats you make towards me? I left this town and went to train to be a barrister. I'm smarter than you, I have done more with my life than you, I'm not scared of you, you are pathetic'. LW looked shocked and was speechless. She started to run away from me down the stairs, followed by the other dream characters with her. I stopped her when she got to midway down. I wanted to have one final say. I said words to the effect of: 'You tried to ruin my life by calling me a whore and a slag when I was just a child, but you're the one who boasted about getting fucked in a bathtub when you were 11 and bragged about your teenage abortions'. LW seemed shocked and embarrassed about me mentioning her past in this way. She said something threatening to me, and although I cannot recall what it was, I responded with: 'Well you can't ever hope to do what I've done academically and professionally in my life, but I could go off and breed with some local loser right now if I wanted to be like you'. The whole confrontation felt triumphant and positive. I was proud of being so brutal to her.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • LW was her younger self - a teenager, not an adult who is married with children

Day Residue: 
  • It is currently festival season - I went to a festival around this time last year, but am not going this year
  • I haven't been paid for 6 months (for teaching Criminal Law at university), due to an administrative error. I will be getting paid tomorrow. I mentioned this fact to RBA when chatting to him the day of this dream
  • My temporary accommodation has concrete staircases - leading to an upper walkway (exterior) and street level at the top/bottom, respectively

Waking Reactions: 
I cannot recall hardly anything about this dream, but if I remember anything else, I will record it below. I enjoyed confronting and verbally abusing LW, because she was a horrible, violent, aggressive, confrontational, dishonest bully when she was younger (apparently, she still has these traits, but has calmed down a little since she is now a married mother). LW used to have a problem with all females (and probably males) who were not in her 'gang' of violent bullies. She once threw a glass milk bottle at me in the street when I was about 14 years old (she was in the year below me at school, her elder sister, DHR was in the year above, and their cousin, RR was in my year - all of them lived on the same 'estate' in Sheringham). I never got beaten up by the sisters/cousins, but I have witnessed some horrific fights involving them, other family members and friends of theirs. LW apparently fell pregnant twice before she left high school, and boasted that she had lost her virginity at age 11 years, in a bathtub, to a boy from our school. She also used to boast of how she had abortions and allegedly also had multiple miscarriages before she even left high school. Despite her open sexuality which she was happy to boast about and use to her advantage, her main tactic was to slut-shame other girls, who most likely hadn't even started to become sexually active. She used to scream 'whore' or 'slag' at me and other local girls in the street, totally oblivious to the hypocrisy and irony of her insults. Eventually, my Mum got so fed up with the situation that she confronted the gang in the street (my Mum has a brutal temper!) - she reminded LW of her own sexual antics and shortcomings and gave her and the gang a dose of their own medicine - at the time I was embarrassed that my Mum got involved, but thinking back, it did scare the gang of violent bullies from targeting me and I would have done the exact same thing if I was a mother of a teenager getting slandered in the street and threatened with violence. One father (of a popular girl who was also targeted by these girls) actually went so far as to physically assault some of the gang after his daughter was attacked by them - I think he was prosecuted for it, but I cannot quite recall. I was a very confident and extroverted teenager, so I never wanted to stay inside the house too long, but this meant that I would often have to confront the gang (because we lived in such a small town, it was inevitable that all kids who were allowed out by themselves would end up in the same locations) and try to avoid or diffuse conflict with them. I was to strong-willed to just stop going out, but this meant I often felt at risk of violence in order to assert my autonomy and freedom to walk the streets. After my Mum retaliated against the girls, they actually stopped all harassment and violence towards me and I was a much stronger person, with a thicker-skin and more nerve and bravery as a result. I have always wanted to confront these girls as an adult and remind them that I know why they were jealous of me - and racist towards me - they were jealous or bitter about the fact I was an academic high-achiever, but still able to get away with not studying and going out socialising (and maybe being a bit rebellious - underage drinking and smoking cannabis). That said, while I was not a particularly well-behaved teenager, I never lied to my family (I have always been open and honest about my life choices and decisions) and I have never been a violent or cruel person who would intentionally harm someone for no reason. I just wanted to skateboard, get stoned, write poetry while sitting alone beside the sea, stay at the top of the leaderboard on my favourite arcade games, listen to hip hop and grunge music on my ghetto blaster at the beach etc etc

Dream 657

'Polish Boyfriend'
Date: 24 June 2016
Time: 23:00 - 08:30 (I woke up naturally from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Moderate recall

Scene 1: An Interior (Location Unknown) - Time Unknown
I was in a room, which I think - in the dream - was my bedroom. I was sitting - perhaps on a bed. Next to me was a male dream character - he had very pale white skin and peroxide blonde hair. His face was long and thin and he had large ears. I think he may have had some facial piercings, although I cannot recall for sure. In the dream, he was my new boyfriend, although at first, I was unsure about whether I was attracted to him, because I thought he was a bit ugly. I learned - from conversation with him - that he was Polish. As we spend time together in the dream - I cannot recall what we were doing, but it felt like fun and we were talking a lot - I started to fall in love with him, and feel more attracted to him. I do not know his name in the dream. My boyfriend and I decided to smoke some cannabis - I then realised that this was my home, as it was a house on university campus (although not my real life university or my actual home). I am not sure if we smoked the cannabis in the room or outside, but I recall my boyfriend and I quickly rushing outside to a balcony, underneath which there were some trees and bushes. It was night by this point, as I could see that it was dark, although I assume the earlier part of the dream occurred during the day, because a long period of time seemed to have passed. My boyfriend threw the joint we were smoking into the bushes to get rid of the evidence.

We then went back into the room, and I was trying to hide the rest of the cannabis. Two people then entered my room - they were dressed as police, in yellow hi-vis (note that campus security also dress in yellow hi-vis). I thought that this was the police, come to search the room, but one of the dream characters - a short female with dark hair, began to empty the bin/trashcan in my room - and I realised they were cleaning staff, just dressed as police. I felt relieved. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • University cleaning staff dressed in police uniforms

Day Residue: 
  • I think the reference to Polish nationality relates to the recent Brexit/EU debate affecting the United Kingdom (referendum results announced on 24 June 2016)
  • Shortly before this dream I moved into temporary accommodation on my university campus while renovation work is carried out on my permanent address. The move was unwanted and stressful. I think the feeling of being at home and on a university campus, but in an unfamiliar room was influenced by recent events in my real life
  • The day before this dream I had a conversation with my friend about smoking cannabis, and how I would never do it on the university campus

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was quite enjoyable, as I was 'in love' with the dream character boyfriend and was having fun in the dream. I cannot recall all aspects of this dream, because since I have moved into temporary accommodation, my sleep routine/dreaming has been severely affected. It seems that I can't recall my dreams, even when I know I have been asleep long enough to have had sufficient REM sleep and also aware that I did experience a dream.

Sunday, 19 June 2016

Dream 656

'Big Lake'
Date: 18 June 2016
Time: 22:00 - 06:00 (I woke up naturally from this dream, then fell back asleep) 06:00 - 10:50 
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall

Scene 1: Exterior Scene (Location Unknown) - Time Unknown
I have forgotten much of this dream, because I woke up after having it, then went back to sleep for a few hours, meaning the dream memories faded.

I called RBA on the phone, and he said that he couldn't speak because 'he was in a dangerous area' - I saw images of grey concrete.

I saw a big lake. There was some kind of creature - maybe an amphibian or insect - I cannot recall, but it was on the other side of the lake (which is the only part of the location I can recall) and my Mum, who was standing beside me, told me that we had to 'get the boxes out of the water'. The boxes were prizes of some sort. If we didn't get the boxes, the creature would destroy them. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The events of Scene 1 generally

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
I cannot recall hardly anything about this dream, but if I remember anything else, I will record it below.

Saturday, 18 June 2016

Dream 655 (LUCID DREAM)

'Drug Rehab School' (LUCID DREAM)
Date: 17 June 2016
Time: 22:00 - 08:45 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid non-lucid dream with lucid dream
Lucidity: Dream-Initiated Lucid Dream (DILD) with no induction techniques & no Reality Check
Lucid dream control: No control attempted
Lucid dream clarity: Good
Lucid dream stability: Good - hand rubbing technique used
Period of lucidity: Approximately 3 minutes 
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: Drug Rehab School, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in a drug rehab school for heroin addicted young people, which seemed to be located where the train station is in Sheringham. It was dark, but still daytime and I cannot recall much about the location. The school was run by a middle-aged woman, with black hair in a bun at the back of her head. She was white, and tall and skinny. She didn't seem to like me much, and told me that I did not belong at the drug rehab school, because I was not a drug addict. All the students/junkies in the school appeared to be young women or girls. I wanted to stay, but was forced to leave. I decided to go home to my Nan's house in Sheringham, annoyed that I had been forced out of the school. While still in the school, I saw a screen - a TV screen or laptop screen, which had a silvery sparkly image on it - I cannot recall what this image was of, but I wanted to stay to find out what it was, because I was mesmerised by it. I recall sitting outside the school at this point, near the shelters where passengers wait for the train to arrive, so the screen may have been outside. This scene is a little vague, but it seemed significant when I dreamed it. 

Scene 2: A Bedroom (Location Unknown) - Time Unknown
I was then in a bedroom, which was not my own in real life, or one I recognise from real life, but was mine in the dream. There was a double bed in the room, with white sheets and a TV screen. I received a message from EG - someone I had a short, unsatisfying relationship with in the past. I was surprised that EG messaged me out of the blue (on Whatsapp) and explained that he had not been in touch recently because he had been busy. He asked if he could come over to my house and I said he could. When EG arrived, he was no longer a tall black man, but instead looked like a Chinese version of Harry Potter. He looked young and seemed very shy. He sat next to me on the bed. I noticed that the TV screen was now a mirror. 

I instantly became lucid with no need for a reality check - by using EG's altered appearance and the change to the TV screen as dreamsigns.  The lucid dream was clear and fairly stable. EG and I were sitting on the bed, sideways, but leaning back on our elbows, so that our faces were close. I said to EG (consciously, intentionally): 'This is a lucid dream, and you are a dream character!' I was expecting him to deny this, since many dream characters will not accept that they are dream characters within a dream. EG said: 'I don't understand'. I said to him, 'Look!' and poked my finger (index finger) through his forehead - it went through the skin and bone of his skull without problem, like it was made with clay. I said: 'You are a dream character in my lucid dream. I can control what happens to you if I want. You don't even look like EG'. EG then accepted the situation, agreeing with me. He said: 'What should we do in the lucid dream'. I actually wanted to leave the bedroom and EG and go off and have a more interesting lucid dream adventure, but I started losing my clarity at this point, I think because it was taking me a while to decide what to do, just sitting on the bed. I decided to do some lucid dream stabilisation techniques, and decided to get EG to perform some as well. I started rubbing my hand together quickly (my preferred method to stabilise the dream) and instructed EG to do the same, telling him that this was a stabilisation technique. He started copying me. The lucid dream temporarily stabilised, and EG started laughing, telling me that he 'had never had to stabilise someone else's dream before'. I said: 'Most lucid dream characters deny they are in a lucid dream' to which EG responded: 'But you showed me your dreamsigns, so I believe it'. His eyes were very dark and large behind the Harry Potter glasses he was wearing - abnormally so. I just stared at him for a while, wondering what to do next and trying not to get too excited by the fact I was lucid. The lucidity was then lost, and I went back into a normal non-lucid dream.

Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day & Evening

I was at my Nan's house in Sheringham and my Mum and Nan were also present, in the living-room. The doorbell sounded and I came down the stairs to open the door. It looked to be a bright sunny day outside, but I was aware it was nearly Christmas time. On the doorstep was a fat white woman, with shoulder-length black hair. I did not know her. She said she was 'Mandy' and was my cousin HM's aunt (I assumed that she must be HM's aunt on her father's side of the family - a person I may not have met, such as the wife of her father's brother; or perhaps an aunt of her husband). I said I was HM's cousin. My Mum came through then, and seemed to know 'Mandy' (my Mum's best female friend is actually called Mandy). She invited her through to the living-room. There was conversation and time passed. I was sitting on the floor of the living-room, beside the TV, which was on. There was conversation about ice cream and limbs - prosthetic limbs.

I was trying to hum a tune to my Mum, hoping she would be able to recognise the song and tell me what it was called and which band performed it. I kept humming(well saying 'der der der' in what I thought was the right tune) what I thought was an obviously accurate version of the well-known song, but no-one could guess it. My Mum said: 'That sounds like a country and western tune', but I was arguing, saying it didn't - it sounded like a classic song she should know. As I was waking from this dream, I became 'aware' that the track I was thinking of was 'A Whiter Shade of Pale' by a band called 'Knights in White Satin' - of course, it is a composite of 2 different songs - 'A Whiter Shade of Pale' on the album Procol Harum (1967) by Procol Harum and 'Nights in White Satin' on the album of the same name (1967) by Giorgio Moroder. It is completely coincidental that both of these tracks were in my mind, and happened to be chart hits released in the same year, as I was unaware of the release date of either, and would have guessed they were written and released in the 1970s. I am not sure what prompted me to think of either. I had wrongly thought of 'Knights in White Satin' as the band name, maybe because I associated it with sounding more like a band name. I have listened to the instrumentals of each song now I am fully awake, and it seems that I was thinking of 'A Whiter Shade of Pale'. 

I then thought I had lost some emerald and diamond earrings - which in the dream were of great value to me. I feared that I had accidentally sold them. I cannot quite remember what else happened at this point in the dream, as I was waking up and feeling the dream fragment. I found the earrings, and started thinking about the song (see writing in blue text above) that I had not been able to get my Mum to recognise.

Extra Information: Possible REM Rebound Effect from recent cannabis use

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum & Nan as dream scene characters

Dreamsigns: 
  • The drug rehab school in Sheringham
  • EG was a different age, ethnicity and personality - recognised as a dreamsign within the dream and used as a lucidity trigger
  • The TV screen in Scene 2 became a mirror - recognised as a dreamsign within the dream and used as a lucidity trigger

Day Residue: 
  • I am in the process of moving into temporary accommodation while renovations are done to my current home - the first option for the temporary housing was awful - a tiny space I was expected to share with a male colleague, the kitchen being so small you could only fit one person in it, with no storage facilities. My colleagues and I complained, and got a better deal. I had described the first, inappropriate accommodation to one the staff in the office where I work as 'smaller than a council bedsit given to a junkie on housing benefit'
  • My colleagues had been using Whatsapp to communicate about the problems with the temporary accommodation
  • I saw that EG is still on my social media - I noticed this the day before the dream
  • The day of this dream, I saw a reference to the Harry Potter movies on the thumbnails of the CinemaSins Youtube account. I also watched an episode of Peep Show (S08E02 - Episode 44 'Business Secrets of the Pharaohs') in which Jeremy describes Mark as JK Rowling and himself as Sigmund Freud
  • The day before this dream I made 2 new Youtube videos about dream characters and the dream self/dream ego - and about how to use dream characters and perception of self in the dream to trigger lucidity
  • The day before this dream I read a news article about a university student who was appealing for a prosthetic arm she had lost while out clubbing - she uses it for aesthetic reasons when going out at night, so didn't realise she had forgotten to put it back on after using the bathrooms. I also read a news article about paralympian, Oscar Pistorius, who has been back in court 
  • The day before this dream, I was packing my belongings and I dropped my (fake, cheap) emerald/diamond earrings while trying to put my jewellery somewhere safe

Waking Reactions: 
I love being able to record a lucid dream experience, even when the lucid dream is quite short or dull. I think if I had tried to exert control earlier in the dream, it may have lasted longer, but I sat around on the bed talking to EG for too long and lost lucidity, even after performing lucid dream stabilisation techniques successfully.