Dream 1014

'Tranakin Skywalker (Instagram Influencer), Neil Breen (Incompetent ICE Agent) & Manny MUA Being Problematic - A Trio of Terrible People'

Date: 23 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I don't know where I was when this dream began, but I think I was inside an interior location. I was with Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars (i.e. Hayden Christensen). Despite him being my real life crush, in the dream I did not fancy him or even like him, because he was really annoying and intense. He seemed awkward and creepy, but not dangerous. Just someone you wouldn't want to be friends with. I cannot recall what we discussed, but I had a clear recollection of being annoyed and irritated. Anakin told me that he wanted to become transgender so that he could become famous as an Instagram influencer. I am not sure that I questioned it in the dream, but looking back now I am awake, it did not seem like he was saying he was a woman - more than he was purposefully trying to become transgender for the sake of it. Anakin said that we should find a doctor or I knew he wanted to find a doctor. I am not sure how we tried to contact a doctor, because the next section of this dream appeared to be like a movie - as if I was watching it from a removed, third-party perspective, like I wasn't present alongside the other dream characters. I am not sure if Anakin saw it from this perspective, as later we discussed what we saw as if we both viewed the same thing? (see below).

The movie scene played out as the following: I saw my Mum walking into a shower room, which was all very clean, white tiles - and had a lot of steam. My Mum was wrapped in a white towel. I saw this from a position behind my Mum - looking in through the open doorway of the shower room.

Cut to another scene - by a brick wall. There is a girl - who I do not recognise in real life - and I am not sure if I knew her in the dream. I remember thinking she looked/seemed 'cool'. If I had to describe her I would say she looks like Audrey Tautou in Amelie (2001) or Noomi Rapace (or rather, the way I thought Noomi Rapace looks with short, dark hair - upon searching for images of her now, I am not quite sure why she was the person who first sprung to mind when recalling this dream. I thought about Audrey Tautou after reconsidering the way the girl looked). I knew the girl was a musician and to me she seemed very 'Bohemian' and arty. She was wearing grunge-style clothes, I cannot recall specifics, but I remember thinking she had good fashion. She had an instrument with her, I cannot recall what it was as it was in a case and I cannot remember the shape. The girl was sitting on the ground. I cannot recall the scenery or weather.

I then saw her getting off a train in an old-fashioned, or at least, grand and traditional-looking, train station, where the dominant colour was gold or bronze - highly decorative walls and ceiling. It also gave me the impression of a grand hall of some kind as everything seemed really ornate. I realised it was Christmas, as there was a large decorated Christmas tree in the building, this stretching up to the ceiling. It had baubles, tinsel and fairy lights on it. There were a large number of other dream characters present - which also made it feel like a large public space. It felt like I was watching this scene from above, somewhere near the roof, looking down at the girl from an angle. I noticed that she was wearing brown leather lace-up shows with white socks and a black mid-calf length skirt. I thought this outfit was 'one of her worst' and had a strong reaction of dislike and disappointment in her shoe choice. Someone called to the girl from behind, and I saw Neil Breen running towards her. He was dressed as an old Hollywood leading man - in a smart suit with a long overcoat and a hat. I knew he was an ICE Agent (USA Immigration and Customs Enforcement), but I also knew he was the doctor that Anakin and I were trying to contact. The man seemed to know the girl and he said something to her. He then lunged towards her and kissed her breasts, which were large, with a lot of cleavage on show, as she was wearing a black dress, with a low neckline (with a brown coat on top, I recall seeing her outfit clearly throughout this scene). Neil Breen seemed to 'wipe' his mouth across her cleavage for a long time, and I remember thinking this was one of the grossest things I had ever witnessed. The girl was shocked and upset at the sexual assault. I then realised that Neil Breen had been under investigation within ICE because he was 'incompetent' and had permitted vast quantities of Xanax to be trafficked into the USA illegally. 

It then cut back to me talking to Anakin about Neil Breen as a doctor. I said he should not trust Neil Breen to perform gender-reassignment surgery - this was based on what we knew from the scene with the girl (which makes me think we had both watched the same thing as Anakin was also aware of Neil Breen's history). Anakin was fretting and was still being annoying in his behaviour - there was a lot of 'indecision'. I think he was pacing about. I told him he should ask people on Instagram what they thought, because it appeared Anakin was already an Instagram influencer to some extent. 

Anakin said that Manny MUA (Manuel Gutierrez) could perform the gender-reassignment surgery for free if we went out with him to eat octopus. I knew the octopus would be served raw and I did not want to go to eat it. I am not sure how Anakin contacted Manny MUA, as I did not experience that part of the dream, or I do not recall it. Manny MUA was going to do Anakin's gender-reassignment surgery bit-by-bit, taking each section of his body, starting with 'hair and makeup'. I remember feeling uneasy about this, but I am not sure why. 

I cannot recall if anything else happened in between the scenes of this dream, as it seems to jump to after Anakin had the gender-reassignment surgery from Manny MUA, and I feel like I might have met Manny MUA in the dream - but I actually cannot even recall definitely seeing him! 

Anakin came into a room, through a white door. I distinctively remember the door had gloss paint on it and it being shiny. Anakin was now a trans-woman, but I could not see her body as she was wearing Anakin's brown Jedi robes from Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002). Anakin now had longer hair, which was very 'bouffant', and very '1980s' makeup (blue eyeshadow, a lot of blusher, bright pink lipstick). I thought she looked out of style and wondered how she was going to be an Instagram influencer with that style. Anakin told me that Manny MUA was suing me because I had refused to eat the octopus with him. Anakin's expression was 'smug' or patronising - she seemed pleased to tell me this. I felt enraged and betrayed by Anakin and said I was going to expose Manny MUA for fraud (pretending to be a doctor? doing bad hair/makeup on Anakin? not sure what I was exposing) - this felt like a good idea and a way of making things right. I decided I would do this through 'Royal Channels' which was a TV show hosted by Neil Breen and involved people telephoning during a live broadcast to receive counselling about personal matters. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
• I think about Anakin Skywalker all the time and he is the screensaver on my phone
• The day of this dream I had been involved in a Facebook discussion about transphobia in comments sections
• On the day of this dream I had been rewatching some of my favourite online movie reviews - one of them was of Stephen King's IT (1990) - the TV mini-series - I distinctly recall the review mentioned the shower scene where Pennywise first introduces himself to Eddie. I had also been watching reviews of Neil Breen movies. While on the subject of things I had watched online the day of this dream which obviously influenced it in terms of Day Residue, I had watched some drama channels discussing Manny MUA's most recent 'dramas' (specifically, the fact he is late in launching a summer palette). I had also began watching the US version of The Office - and saw the Christmas episode from Season 2 on the day of this dream, which features a Christmas tree
• I mentioned Noomi Rapace in a conversation with DL a few days before this dream - in the context of her role in A Nightmare on Elm Street (2010) remake - he did not correct me at the time, but I have just realised from searching for the Wikipedia link to the movie, that all this time, when I had Noomi Rapace in my mind - not only as the person I mistook to be in A Nightmare on Elm Street (2010), but also as the person the girl in this dream resembled - I actually meant Rooney Mara! So, my subconscious, dreaming mind made the same mistake as my conscious one! 
• I had seen a lot of online discussions about the controversies surrounding the operation of ICE 
• On the link between ICE and a corrupt doctor - a few days before this dream, I had seen an online discussion in which people were comparing ICE detention facilities with Nazi concentration camps. In a separate conversation with DL around this time, Dr Josef Mengele, the SS Officer and Chief Physician at Auschwitz, who performed human experimentation
• I had a (telephone) conversation with AJR about sexual assault the day of this dream (or at least the word 'nonce' was mentioned, which has connotations of sexual misconduct)
• I saw a video thumbnail of a girl eating an octopus and also saw a clip of Belle Delphine playing with an octopus/squid a couple of days before this dream
• On the day of this dream I had been finding and following a lot of Instagram accounts themed around old Hollywood, vintage fashion etc - I saw male Hollywood movie stars wearing the kind of outfit seen on Neil Breen in this dream. In fact, Neil Breen and the girl may have been influenced by stars such as Humphrey Bogart (1899 - 1957) and Audrey Hepburn (1929 - 1993) as I saw photographs of both these old Hollywood stars on the day of this dream, and Neil Breen's outfit resembled Bogart's classic look, and the girl did resemble Hepburn. I also saw the kind of hair/makeup seen on Anakin, on some 1970s/1980s themed accounts
• Thinking about the mix of exposing drama and counselling/therapy - I had watched some Youtube videos criticising Rewired Soul which is ostensibly a 'therapy' and mental health channel (despite the creator not being a qualified therapist, although I am not sure if he actually claims to be a professional or not), yet descended into drama/commentary, which was generally considered to be problematic

Dream 1013

'Imminent Flood Risk'

Date: 21 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I am not sure where I was at the start of this dream, but I assumed I was in an interior. Member of my family (I recall my Mum, Stepdad and Nan being present) told me that a massive flood was imminent and we would have to barricade ourselves in a shelter or bunker for months until it was safe. I did not believe the threat of the flood to be real and/or severe enough to require being in a shelter/bunker and no-one else but my family were worried. I was resistant and wanted to rebel against my family. My Mum ordered that we gather supplies and clothing. I thought this was a huge and unnecessary task and wanted to refuse to do it - my aim was to find a way to refuse being barricaded in the shelter/bunker. Everyone in my family were acting as though I was crazy for resisting and being difficult.

Something compelled me to actually go to my wardrobe and start packing clothes. I found myself in my own real life bedroom, looking in my actual wardrobe. I saw there were shelves in the wardrobe where the space for clothes to be hung on a railing were and specifically noticed a mint green jumper (which I do not own in real life). 

I looked out of a window at an unfamiliar landscape. It was daytime, but not sunny. I think it was overcast. All I could see was flat land - like scrubland, with weeds and a large, far-stretching body of water which appeared to be a large silver lake, reflective like a mirror, and a number of palm trees dotted about, which looked out of place in this landscape.I thought it looked beautiful, not threatening and saw no danger of the alleged flood. 

Scene 2: A School/University of Hospital - Day
I was then with my family in an institutional building which may have been a school/university or hospital. We were standing on an upper level, on a landing, just near the long staircase. We were standing next to the railings. There were lots of dream characters present. Suddenly, for no apparent reason, my Mum reached between the landing railings, her hand also going through the railings to the stairs. She pushed 2 elderly white males, who fell down the stairs and died. 

I was aware my Mum was going to be charged with a double murder. I was desperate to find her a lawyer, and in the dream I was going to go back to my former colleagues at the criminal defence law firm I used to work in. I was trying to recall the name of a female legal executive I used to know - but could not. I considered my former colleague, AS - knowing he was very thorough with his work, but the fact he was a legal executive and not a solicitor made me think I needed to find someone else. My former boss - and senior partner of my former workplace, IF (who I had a workplace dispute with prior to me leaving this job) appeared and said he was going to defend my Mum, even though I had not instructed him. He leered in my face, looking evil and twisted - an exaggerated version of how he used to appear in real life. I was not happy to see him, but I knew that he was a very good lawyer. My Mum was sitting at a wooden desk, with her head resting on her arms. There were legal files on the desk. 

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream - or the day previous - I recall AJR mentioning another prisoner had barricaded himself in his cell
• On the day of this dream I had been discussing the fact I do not like the colour green very much, and do not own many green clothes, in a conversation with DL. During the conversation we specifically noted that a cup I was drinking coffee out of was a shade of mint green
• I think the lake in this dream is a reference to the large lake (or 'broad') which is just outside my home - a short distance across the field. In the sun is appears silvery and mirror-like and I had noted this while sitting there on the day of this dream (I sit by the lake almost daily as it is so tranquil and relaxing)
• I LOVE palm trees and had recently asked AJR if we can one day have a palm tree in our garden
• On the day of this dream I had been playing Sims 3 and had designed a prison - part of this design involved selecting landing and stair railings which resembled a real life prison
• On the day of this dream I had a conversation with 2 German students I had randomly met outside by the lake, which involved talking about age and the fact they work with the elderly in care homes - my Mum also works (and resides above) a care home
• Contemporaneous to this dream, I had been trying to secure legal representation for AJR 
• Recently I have been trying to recall the name of the female legal executive I was trying to remember in the dream - because I had heard a rumour that she was working as a solo practitioner and I wanted to approach her to ask how she obtained a legal aid contract for this (if it was indeed true) - I had a number of discussions with AJR about this woman and had even asked a local friend RPJD (who had once been her client when I worked at my former law firm) if he could remember her name (he could not). Therefore even in my dream, I was still searching my memory for the name of this former colleague!
• Note that this dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!

Dream 1012

'Wall of Dreams & AJR 'The Excavator''

Date: 20 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a dark interior location which was unknown to me in the dream and in real life. All I could see was a wall which was dotted with pinholes of light, coming through from the other side. My first thought was that they were bullet holes, but I then somehow became aware that they were 'dreams', with each pinhole of light representing a 'future dream' of mine. I became aware AJR was present - all I can recall about him was that he was wearing a brown apron. He told me he was 'The Excavator', which I did not understand, causing me to feel panic. I did not know why I was panicked. I noticed some other (unrecalled) dream characters were present, but I did no pay much attention to them, if any. I heard a bell ringing, somewhere, but did not know the source. AJR said that the bell sound was for the 'Excavators' to warn them about wild animals in the tunnel (I did not know I was in a tunnel until he said this) - and I was confused as I didn't think we were in a tunnel, I could just see the wall, which stretched higher than I could see when I looked up. 

I then realised that someone (unrecalled) had changed the notification sounds on my phone. AJR told me this was the sound of my dreams 'becoming solid' - i.e. becoming physical objects - the pinholes of light.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had downloaded the Awoken app so that I could do a review of it for this Blog and my Youtube channel. I think the reference to my dreams and the reference to the changing of my notification sounds on my phone (I had set a specific notification sound for Reality Checks and Dream Cues within the app - called 'Totem Sounds') were clearly influenced by the app. It maybe that the Totem Sound penetrated my dream (as intended) or that my dream was reflecting day residue - i.e. a memory of setting notification sounds for a lucid dreaming app just prior to me going to sleep. To read my introductory post for Lucid Reviews | Awoken Lucid Dreaming App (Android), click on the title link - this post provides all relevant information about the Awoken app and has a number of screenshots from my own phone to illustrate its functions and features

Lucid Reviews | Awoken Lucid Dreaming App (Android)

I've decided to begin doing 'Lucid Reviews' of lucid dream and dream-related products, devices, techniques, methods etc - and possibly creative content themed around lucid dreaming and dreaming. 

For my first review I decided to get over my aversion to using modern technology to assist with my dreamwork. I have always avoided trying apps that claim to help induce lucid dreaming. However, being a skeptic as to whether these contemporary devices, programmes or apps actually increase the likelihood of achieving a lucid dream, I may be the perfect critic or reviewer. My aim is always to give an entirely honest, unbiased, objective review. Right now, I will be finding products (to use this as a generalised term) by searching online. I anticipate I will be reviewing free products, and am not sponsored or affiliated with any of the products featured unless I otherwise state clearly. I am very happy to take recommendations for what products you would like to see me review - remember, I am also very interested in reviewing creative content such as movies, documentaries, TV shows, books, art etc which is themed around dreaming and lucid dreaming, so if you have any recommendations in that respect, also please let me know! 

If anyone has a lucid dream/dream related product of their own they would like me to honestly review, you can also get in touch! 

Lucid Reviews | Awoken Lucid Dreaming App (Android)

My review of this product will take place after a 2 week period of trying it out every day as per the instructions for this app. I may ultimately use the app for longer than the period of my review, pending how much I like it or how it seems to be working. 

On each day of the testing period, I will record my dreams as usual on this Blog, and where appropriate, comment as to whether I think the app has had an effect/influenced by dreams in any way, in the analysis section of each dream report. I will link all relevant dreams from this period on my final review post. I will be posting screenshots from my first day of using the app below, but I will not do this for every dream journal entry recorded on my phone, due to not wanting to create extra work for myself. I will show you the dream journal function of the app below, with my dream from the first day recorded to show you an example of this function. This dream will also be recorded on this Blog as usual.

Before showing you what the app looks like (screenshots from my phone), I will give you some information about the app. 

The Awoken app is described as a 'lucid dreaming tool' and was developed by Andreas Rudolph. It is available on Android from the Google Play store (click here for the link). The app, which has been available since 2013, has had +500,000 downloads and many 5 star reviews, with an overall rating of 4.5 stars. The Google Play reviews have many anecdotal claims of success. The app can be downloaded for free, with the option to purchase premium features, which I did not myself do. 

The app focuses on tried and tested lucid dream inductions techniques, such as improving dream recall and identifying recurrent dream symbols (dream patterns) or dreamsigns; and performing reality checks. These traditional techniques are combined with smartphone technology, to enhance the practice of training your mind for lucid dreaming.

You can find out some information about lucid dreaming on the app itself. As you can see, the premium features such as unlocking dream patterns (this archives all dream patterns - recurrent dream symbols which you record with hashtags in your dream journal); the ability to add more than one sketch to a dream journal entry; speech-to-text features (which can record your sleeping sounds by recording them as text or simply enable you to record your dreams verbally, upon waking); and removal of adverts. You can also unlock the dark theme across the entire app, which is provided for night/morning use, reducing the amount of screen glare you are exposed to. 

There are 3 core features for this app: Reality Checks (and 'Dream Cues' - Reality Checks you perform in the dream state); Totem Sounds and Dream Journal.

Reality Checks

Here you set an time interval for the period when you will be awake. Above you can see that mine is set for 12:00 - 05:30 hours - because it was already 04:00 hours when I was downloading and setting the app, and I planned to go to sleep at 05:30 hours and wake up at 12:00 the next day. The next day when I had a better idea of my sleep/wake pattern, I was able to adjust the times/interval of my waking hours for the Reality Check function.

You can also see you are able to set the number of Reality Checks you want for your waking hours. Mine is set at 5, but I later changed this to 10. 

The Reality Check function operates by notifying you it is time to perform a reality check. This is an action you perform to 'check' you are awake and not dreaming, training you to become more aware of you conscious state. My personal reality check is to consider my surroundings, what is happening and how I feel to check if I am awake or in a dream. I then try to push the fingers of my right hand through the palm of my left - in reality my fingers cannot go through my palm. If something else happens - this would be a sign I am dreaming and performing a reality check in a dream state. Don't worry if you don't know how to perform your own reality check - the app not only gives you an audio notification, but also a visual icon, which if you open, instructs you on how to perform a simple reality check and and gives you an option to select to say you are aware you are not dreaming.

Just like with your daily Reality Checks which are set to take place during your waking hours, you also set the time interval  for when you will be asleep, and the number of Totem Sounds you want to use as Dream Cues. These Dream Cues are the Totem Sounds which will penetrate the dream state and trigger your dreaming Reality Check. As you will see, I initially set 10 Dream Cue Totem Sounds between 05:30 and 12:00 hours, which I later adjusted to better suit my sleep/wake pattern.

Totem Sounds

You can choose your own 'Totem Sound' for your Reality Checks - mine allowed me to select any notification alert available on my phone. I would advise that you select a unique notification alert which you are not using for any other app on your phone, so that you can easily distinguish it as your Totem Sound. I selected a notification called 'Daydream' for my Totem Sound. The Totem Sound will condition or train your brain to perform a Reality Check. As you will also be using Totem Sounds during your sleeping hours (as 'Dream Cues'), this will hopefully lead to the performance of a Reality Check within the dream state, triggering a lucid dream, as the Totem Sound will 'penetrate' your dream and act as a cue for a Reality Check within the dream. 

Dream Journal

The Dream Journal function has Cloud Backup, allowing you to synch your entries, for an extra level of safety and security. In addition, there is the option of pin protection. The Dream Journal stores all your dreams in a searchable list for easy access.

You can set a (silent) reminder for your Dream Journal for your time of waking. Not only can you record the text of your dreams, but there is also the option to sketch them. 

If you opt for the premium, paid version of the app, the Dream Pattern Analyzer feature which processes and organises the words and hashtags from your Dream Journal entries so that you can identify and explore recurrent dream symbols and themes better. This is helpful, as recognising something as a 'dreamsign' (something which happens in a dream which makes you consciously aware you are dreaming i.e. lucid) is a common means of triggering lucidity. Additionally, simply using 'Dream Patterns' to explore your dreams and recurrent symbols or themes can be incredibly insightful, giving you a more indepth view of your subconscious mind. I have not purchased the premium features for this app, so I will be unable to comment on how this functions in practice. In my example Dream Journal entry, I have used hashtags for illustrative purposes, but as I have not got the Dream Pattern Analyzer, this will have no effect. 

For each Dream Journal entry, you can record whether or not this was a lucid dream.

When you exit the Awoken app hub, you get a message - 'there is no spoon' - a reference to The Matrix (1999). 

Other features of this app worth mentioning are the fact it is possible to pause and resume your lucid dreaming training at any time, for your convenience; and inclusion of an 'Oneironaut Achievements' section, where you can track your progress and statistics. I can anticipate this feature will add an extra layer of motivation for users, by providing something tangible to aim for, which can be an effective means of rewarding dedication and highlighting improvement and success. 

I have linked a Youtube video about this app below, if you would like additional information. I will return in due course to give you mu review of the Awoken app for lucid dreaming!

Dream 1011

'Wu Tang Clan Party & Hand Job Declined'

Date: 18 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in an interior location - I think it might have been a house, but it was not familiar to me in real life. There were others present - people who I know, who I think I also know from real life - I believe they were people from Sheringham, who I know from school days. I was aware that a party was taking place that night and that it was being hosted by Wu Tang Clan, however, in this dream 'Wu Tang Clan' were actually a group of boys I knew from my school days - skateboarders known for being rebellious and quite popular. They all drank underage and smoked cannabis and I used to socialise with this group. In the dream, it was a privilege to be invited to this exclusive party, so I was very excited. There was some further action, which I cannot recall.

I was then sitting behind a very high wooden object with a former friend, CG. The wooden object looked like the top of a desk, which was about 3 - 4 meters tall and made of a very orange looking wood. It felt as if we were in a courtroom, although I cannot say for sure. It seemed like something very formal was happening amongst a group of (unknown) adult dream characters, in front of us, about 10 meters away at the opposite end of what was a large room. I noticed that the walls of the room were also made of orange coloured (panelled) wood. The dream characters were mostly male and wearing grey suits and ties (I only recall seeing a lot of grey suits). AJR entered the room and approached CG and I. I could tell that CG was scared of AJR and was not talking to him. AJr was wearing a white T-shirt I told AJR that we were going to a Wu Tang Clan party that night - I was still excited. AJR said: 'I hope Gronty is there'. 'Gronty' was a new member of Wu Tang Clan, which I knew when he said it to me. He had a burned face and wore a leather mask over it and was very big - I knew this because I saw an image of Gronty in front of me as if he was present, but it was an image in my 'mind's eye' instead. He was wearing clothes that made me think he was a construction worker - but in real life, I would not have come to that conclusion - it was just a dirty light-coloured shirt and some brown trousers. He was wearing a lot of multicoloured, plastic beaded bracelets on his wrists. If I had to describe him in real life, I would say he did pretty much resemble Jason Voorhees from the Friday the 13th franchise.

Scene 2: A Bedroom - Time Unknown
I was then in a bedroom, but all I knew was that I was in a  double-bed with a white duvet on it. CG was also in the bed. There was some (unrecalled) conversation, and then I became aware that CG was masturbating. He then removed his jeans (blue) and leaned over me to throw them on the floor on my side of the bed. I felt shocked and annoyed by his behaviour. It became apparent - I am not sure how, but I think he might have said verbally - that CG expected me to give him a 'hand job' (literally give him a hand!) I was scared and intimidated by this, and got out of the bed.

Scene 3: A Hallway - Time Unknown
I ran out into a hallway which was very beige and long, so this made it seem like I was in a hotel, although I am not sure. I did not see the doors to any other rooms. There were 2 security guards in the corridor - dressed like security in uniforms. Both were older men. I told the security guards about CG wanting me to give him a hand job and said it was disrespectful to AJR. One of the security guards pointed at a sign which was on a small (knee-height) sandwich-style noticeboard - it said: 'you can only have consent' in black typed words. I knew this meant that CG was now in trouble and I said that I did not want him to be in trouble. I cannot recall what else happened in this section of the dream.

Scene 4: The Wu Tang Clan Party - Night
I then went to the Wu Tang Clan party, which was a house party and filled with dream characters. Many of them were people I went to school with - looking as they did when we were in school. The lights in the room were very blue coloured and it was quite misty/smoky in the room. Everything looked fuzzy. Against one wall of the room was a chaise lounge - seated on it were various members of the Wu Tang Clan - but they were actually boys I went to school with - I recall seeing MS1 and JSS in particular. They were lounging back causally. They looked as they did when we were in school too. Everyone was drinking alcohol and smoking. I cannot recall if there was music in the party.

AJR then ran up to me, looking panicked. He said: 'Gronty drowned in the sea'. He was upset about this, but I did not really care, as I thought Gronty was a bad person.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but there was a lot more detail, which I have forgotten, as I fell asleep again after first waking up with good recall of this dream.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had been watching Youtube videos - Storytimes with Tana Mongeau - this made me reminisce about my own youth and the rebellious things I used to get up to (and away with!)
• CG is from Manchester and would fall (broadly) into the same category of boys referred to above - although he was also into heavy metal music and alternative culture
• I was building a courtroom in Sims 3 - which had a lot of wooden panels and a bench made of orange wood, which I changed it to a darker wood with a better texture, because I felt it was too orange
• I had been watching a Cinema Snob review of Freddy v Jason (2003) - which accounts for the facial burns and weird mask 'Gronty' was wearing
• I had a conversation on my Facebook with an online friend, SLD - about the predatory behaviour of men online. SLD tried to argue that men are acting on impulse of evolutionary sexual behaviours and cannot control how they approach women they are sexually attracted to - I was objecting to this and made a comment that I found men who approach women with partners (my relationship status is on my Facebook) are being disrespectful. I also said that no-one would dare disrespect AJR if they knew him

Dream 1010

'Laundry Day'

Date: 17 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an interior location - I think it was a home, but I cannot quite recall. I knew it was daytime. My Mum's friend, CC was present for some of this dream, but I cannot recall what happened. AJR was also in part of this dream as I recall having a conversation with him, seeing his face close up, but I cannot remember this part of the dream in any detail either. 

The only part of the dream I do recall is deciding to do some laundry, and kneeling down by a washing machine which was on a raised platform. I used a pound coin, which I put in a payment slot near the washing machine buttons at the top. I speaking to someone (unrecalled) standing behind me. I then watched the clothing spin around in the washing machine, specifically recalling a black and white gingham item.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#5, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this was a successful dream! My dream trigger was a pound coin - which appeared in this dream!
• The day before this dream, I had mentioned my washing machine to my friends and also happened to see the Circuit Laundry logo (this is the company which manages laundrette services on my university campus

Dream 1009

'Mass Exodus of Prisoners'

Date: 14 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Exterior Location - Day
I cannot recall this dream because I woke up from it, with fairly good dream recall, then realising it was only 05:00 am, fell back asleep without recording it. I can now only remember a single fragment of this dream. 

I was talking to AJR (maybe on the phone?) and I was asking him to come somewhere or meet me (or maybe have a prison visit? I cannot recall the context). He told me that the entire population of prisoners was being removed from the prison under circumstances I cannot recall. This was a big event and I was confused about what was happening. 

I then had a vision of hundreds of male prisoners walking in single file in a sunny outside environment (no details recalled, other than the prisoners were all wearing prison regulation clothing and all appeared to be the same height and age - i.e. 20s and 30s).

Additional Notes:

• Clearly influenced by AJR's circumstances and my work in prisons, but cannot think of anything specific in terms of Day Residue

Dream 1008

'The Naughty Nurse Strikes Again!'

Date: 13 July 2019
Scene 1: Unknown Location - Time Unknown
I have forgotten much of the details of this dream. It occurred on the night after AJR's long-awaited Parole Board Hearing was adjourned for a matter beyond his control, which is the direct influence for this anxiety dream. 

I was aware that AJR's Parole Board Hearing was adjourned for a period of 3 months in the dream. I was talking to his mum (I think on the phone), and said I hoped he would not be back in contact with a toxic person, LPB given he would be in prison for longer than expected.

I had a conversation with AJR (I think on the phone, although I did actually see him). He had a piece of A4 paper in his hand, and told me he had been in contact with LPB because he needed her to give him medical treatment. I was angry and upset, but was unable to persuade him otherwise. I felt betrayed and unappreciated.

I cannot recall anything else about the dream.

Additional Notes:

• Note that AJR and LPB have never had any kind of romantic or sexual relationship - she was a former friend who helped him out while he was in prison, but ultimately used and abused his trust and loyalty in the worst possible way - she is truly evil and manipulative and AJR wants no further contact with her now that he has successfully removed her from all aspects of his life
• I had a dream which led me to discuss LPB in the Additional Notes section of the dream - see Dream 1005 - 'Bare-chested Nightmare Stalker Woman & Beanstalks' (PARTIAL NIGHTMARE)
• AJR and I often joke about how LPB is his real girlfriend and I am just his 'side piece' - we refer to her as a 'naughty nurse' (see Dream 1005 for the reasons behind this)
• AJR and I had been discussing medical reports on the day of this dream

Dream 1007

'Something Was Sold to Me'

Date: 12 July 2019
Scene 1: Sheringham Train Station - Day
I was sitting in a shelter at Sheringham train station with my Mum. My Mum's hair was longer - long enough to braid into 2 short pigtails, which I found odd. There was some conversation which I cannot recall.

Scene 2: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was then in an interior which appeared to have glass walls. There was a small table and sofas up against the walls. I cannot recall much detail. There was an object on the table, which I cannot recall - but in the dream I think I was confused about what the object was - as in it was abstract and vague. Beside me were 2 dream characters - 1 (female) was straddling the other (facing forwards and leaning down). I could not see the dream character on the bottom (the one seated on the sofa), but I knew it was a male. In the dream I knew these dream characters. I could see the female dream character straddling the male was wearing jeans and a black bra - the label was showing at the back, I distinctly noticed this, despite forgetting a lot of other detail. Without turning to face me, the female dream character told me that they would sell me the item on the table for a very low, bargain price. I was pleased with this. 

I cannot recall anything else about the dream.

Additional Notes:

• I was recently at Sheringham train station, after visiting my Mum
• On the day of this dream I watched a Trisha Paytas video in which she had very short pigtails, similar to my Mum's hair in the dream
• A couple of days before this dream I had seen a friend of a Facebook friend's profile (while browsing) and on it were a number of modelling photographs where the girl was asking for people to vote for her in some contest. Her favourite image showed her bra to be twisted and not clasped properly, with the label on show - which she stated ruined the image
• A couple of days before this dream I had been joking with AJR about 'straddlegate' - an incident where I had straddled him in a prison visit and we nearly had the visit cancelled. Later AJR received a letter which wrongly referred to him straddling his visitor (this would not even made sense!) - the prison used quotation marks about the word 'straddled' which made us laugh

Dream 1006 (LUKE SKYWALKER SEX DREAM)

'Older Luke Skywalker Seduces Me Again, this Time in a Slime-Covered Hotel Room, in Breach of his Probation'

Date: 10 July 2019
Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Day
I was in a house, which in the dream was my home, but is not one I recognise from real life. It was a normal, terraced house with a front garden. I cannot recall the furniture or decor of the house, but nothing stood out as odd. I was in the living room, looking out at the front garden and the street in front of me - which was a suburban street. This is how I knew it was daytime and that the house had a front garden. The garden was very green and lush - quite overgrown with grass, weeds and wild flowers. I think it was sunny - it was bright outside. I felt like I was waiting for something or someone to arrive at the house. I cannot recall if there were any other dream characters present. 

At some point, I saw Mark Hamill (Luke Skywalker in Star Wars) arrive and I knew that he was the person I was waiting for - and he was late, but this felt 'normal' and 'expected' of Luke Skywalker (I was aware that this was Luke Skywalker - so his character from Star Wars existed, rather than him being his actual self - note that he was his real life age, not a young Luke Skywalker). Luke Skywalker was holding a gift box which was wrapped up in pink shiny paper. I knew this was a gift for me and was excited. I let Luke Skywalker into the house. He was dressed in brown Jedi robes, but looked really scruffy and dirty and in a bad mood. I was given the gift, and I saw the wrapping paper looked holographic. I opened it and inside was a crescent-shaped piece of cheese, which looked extremely like a banana, although I am not sure if I actually noticed this in the dream or whether this is just my conscious recognition (see my Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment (QDI#4) below - in which the dream trigger was a banana. Luke Skywalker told me that the cheese was 'Quebec' (this was the type of cheese it was, not where it was from). I knew in my own mind that Quebec cheese was made from crack cocaine, so I did not want to accept the gift, although I also did not want to directly say this to Luke Skywalker because I did not want to offend him. We were standing together and I cannot recall what we talked about, but I think there was some conversation here. 

Scene 2: A Hotel - Night
Luke Skywalker and I then went to a hotel together. I am not sure of where the location was, but it was in the same town we had been in when inside the domestic interior of Scene 1 - the reason we had gone to the hotel was because Luke Skywalker was worried that he would be found by his Probation Officer, because he wasn't allowed to be near 'areas of nature' (meaning anything where there were plants, or so I understood in the dream). The hotel was at the seaside and was a big, white wedding-cake style hotel (my favourite type!) on a cliff. I was wondering if grass counted as 'nature' under the terms of Luke Skywalker's probation, but I did not ask Luke Skywalker this, because I was aware he was already angry about something (I am not sure if I ever knew what he was angry about - if I did, I have forgotten). Inside the hotel, everything was purple and very old fashioned/classic British seaside hotel style. There were a number of dream characters in the lobby area. We went to a hotel room, which was on the ground floor. It was really awful inside the room, because everything was slimy - it was as if someone or something had coated every single piece of furniture with a thin layer of clear slime, which was repulsive to me, even in the dream. I did not know where the slime had come from or why it was there. I am not sure what happened in between, but the next thing I recall from this dream was going into the ensuite bathroom with Luke Skywalker and having sex with him in the bath, which was not slimy - it was white, probably porcelain (I am guessing). The bathroom was the only clean area of the hotel room. In the dream the sex I had with Luke Skywalker was really satisfying and passionate (in missionary position only, as far as I recall). I do not think this was a wet dream (as in I do not think that I experienced a real life orgasm) but it felt climactic in the dream itself and I really fancied Luke Skywalker. In the dream it appeared that I was single - i.e. not dating my real life boyfriend AJR, as there was no thought of cheating or infidelity and I was not trying to hide the fact I was on a date with Luke Skywalker. There was a knock at the hotel door and I was trying to tell Luke Skywalker not to answer it because I wanted to have sex with him again. It appeared that we had not taken our clothes off to have sex because we were already fully clothed at this time. Luke went to answer the door. It was his Probation Officer, telling him that he had breached his probation by being next to nature (I think he must have found out Luke Skywalker had been to my house earlier). Luke Skywalker was arguing that he had not breached his probation and he had proof, because the 'vlog' would show this (it seemed like he might have been vlogging our journey to the hotel? I'm not sure what he meant by this). I came out of the bathroom into the bedroom part of the hotel room and noticed that it was very dark. I could see that Luke Skywalker's Probation Officer was Jason Nash (of the Vlog Squad, and ex-boyfriend of Trisha Paytas). He was standing in the doorway of the hotel room, wearing a navy uniform which I thought made him look like an old-fashioned police officer and I wondered why he was dressed like this. I also thought that Jason Nash was very hypocritical to be warning Luke Skywalker about breaching his probation, because he was a Youtuber and therefore, did not need to be earning money as a Probation Officer. Luke Skywalker was told that he had to go to court in the morning so that he could be tried for breaching his probation. I told Jason Nash that the vlog footage wouldn't be edited by then and the case should be adjourned, but Jason Nash said he didn't care. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream after this scene.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place within the 24 hours I was attempting Quickshot Dream Incubation | QDI#4 (see my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1 and my video for QDI#4, below) - I had some partial success here! Stay tuned for QDI#5!
• On the day of this dream I had been talking to DL about Mark Hamill being the voice actor for Chucky in the 2019 remake of Child's Play (1988)
• AJR is coming up for parole in the next couple of days, so the reference to probation conditions relates to that - and we specifically discussed probation breaches the day of this dream
• I had been watching a Jason Nash video on Youtube on the day of this dream

Previous Luke Skywalker/Mark Hamill Dreams:

• Dream 619 - 'Luke Skywalker' (3 May 2016) - me being in a hotel with either Luke Skywalker or Mark Hamill (not sure which) as his younger self - getting him to perform a phone-related task I did not want to do myself
• Dream 683 - 'Fried Eggs' (22 August 2016) - dream fragment involving Mark Hamill and a large fried egg
• Dream 875 - 'Lightsaber Fail' (False Awakening/Lucid Dream) (September 2017) - a simple reference to me having possession of Luke Skywalker's lightsaber
• Dream 902 - 'Sex with Luke Skywalker' (30 January 2018) - amazing sex dream in a hotel room with an older Luke Skywalker
• Dream 914 - 'A Star Wars Redux' (13 January 2018) - re-making Star Wars with a young Mark Hamill reprising his role as Luke Skywalker
• Dream 962 - 'Thieving Pigeons & Mark Hamill's Lack of Help' (9 March 2019) - Mark Hamill fails to adequately help to decontaminate a wardrobe following an infestation of thieving pigeons
• Dream 975 - 'Adopted Twins' (7 May 2019) - this took place during my Dream Incubation Experiment - A Star Wars Adventure and was a simple reference to the fact Luke Skywalker as a male twin 'adopted' at birth, within the Star Wars movie franchise (i.e. I recognised him as a fictional character)

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Dream 1005 (PARTIAL NIGHTMARE)

'Bare-chested Nightmare Stalker Woman & Beanstalks'

Date: 10 July 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Night
This dream was very vivid - perhaps as a result of REM Rebound Effect and also the Vitamin B6 in the Vitamin B Complex pills I have been taking. I woke up briefly from this dream and then fell back asleep before doing anything to consolidate the memory or record the dream. I was awoken from the second period of sleep by a telephone call from AJR on my landline. This means that I have forgotten a large amount of this vivid and complex dream, which is unfortunate as I remember that I found this very interesting and extraordinary when I first woke up from it and was excited to record it on this Blog. 

The first scene took place in an interior, which I cannot recall. My cousin HM was present, along with some other (maybe 2?) female dream characters, who I know are familiar to me in real life - I think they may have been girls I went to high school with. In the dream I found it odd that my cousin knew them and was socialising with them. I had a distinct feeling of being isolated and left out. I wanted/needed to buy gifts for my cousin HM - I am not sure why. I was confused as to what gifts would be age-appropriate for her, as she seemed to be a child (she is 3 years younger than me in real life, and a married mother). HM and the other female dream characters were sitting around a table, closely, heads bowed, talking about something, or doing some kind of unseen activity - there was a sense of secrecy about what they were doing. 

I left and went to what I think was a section of the WH Smith shop in York Train Station (I feel that this shop has appeared in previous dreams - which at the time of writing this dream record, I have not yet investigated/researched - I will do this and post my results below. I have not been to York or the train station there since my undergraduate degree days in the early 2000s). I was looking at a shelf of items - it is not clear what items were on the shelves - I did recall when I first woke up, but I have forgotten. I remember that I selected a few items, but were doubting if they were appropriate for HM. I cannot remember exactly what items I bought as gifts, other than there was a pot plant, a doll or teddy bear and a colouring book. I was unsure about these gifts. 

Scene 2: AJR's Mum's House - Night
This was the most interesting dream scene in my memory, and it is the one I have forgotten the most detail about, which is a shame. I was in AJR's mum's house (I have never been there before in real life - I will visit for the first time when he is released from prison). The house was very open plan and the lights were very bright. There were sliding patio doors leading out to a garden and the room appeared to be a kitchen and lounge area, although I cannot recall anything else about the decor or furnishings. I had come running into the house in a panic, from outside. AJR's mum showed concern as to why I was scared and I told her I was being stalked by a small woman. AJR's mum was talking to me about this, when the small woman attempted to enter the house via the patio doors. She was small - about 4.5 foot i height and very bent over and crooked. She was white and had messy brown hair - and appeared to be older than myself and AJR's mum, but I cannot recall anything else about her appearance, other than she was wearing a white top which was torn at the front and was exposing a bare breast, which had a very prominent lactating nipple. This made me feel even more scared of her. I knew the woman had bad intent towards me, although the details of this have been forgotten. AJR's mum said that the cats (apparently there were a number of cats in the house) would deal with the situation. The idea was that the cats would be used to scare the bare-chested stalker woman away. I felt terrified and was trying to stay away from the patio door in case the woman got to me. I cannot recall what happened, but I know that either AJR's mum or the cats did manage to get her to leave and I was unharmed. This section of the dream felt like a nightmare. 

Scene 3: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
There was a large quantity of this dream scene which I have forgotten. I remember feeling very unsettled during this part of the dream, although I cannot recall why. There was a very strange feeling. I was in an interior, which I cannot remember, although I had a thought about the Two Lifeboats Hotel, Sheringham, where I used to work with my Mum. Something to do with wanting to work that day and not being able to. I saw my cousin HM and the other female dream characters from Scene 1 - they had the gifts I had purchased for them earlier in the dream. The small pot plant had not grown into a huge beanstalk (still in the pot), which extended for hundreds of meters into the sky (which meant that the ceiling was extremely high and I could not see it). I was surprised by this - and again, very unsettled, as it did not appear to be 'normal'. I still felt isolated and ostracised - no-one was directly acknowledging me. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• I am sure I have had a previous dream set in York train station, and specifically the WH Smith's shop there, but I cannot find it on this Blog, which leads me to believe it might be a false memory. I have a distinct (real life?) memory of being in that shop and flicking through a magazine which was running a story about Mariah Carey's mental breakdown, her 'feud' with Jennifer Lopez and the fact she thought Marilyn Monroe was communicating with her through a piano she once owned that Mariah had bought. Searching Google about this latter incident reveals articles dating back to 2001 - which would have been the period during which I was an undergraduate at the University of York, and regularly travelling by train (I used to go to Manchester on the weekends as I was dating someone, CW, who lived there). I will keep investigating this, as I was 99% certain I had a dream which referenced these real life memories, which stand out so clearly in my mind
• I had a telephone conversation with AJR's mum shortly before I went to sleep and had this dream
• AJR's mum said she would be 'sorting' some things out - this involved not only purchasing certain household items for AJR, but also in relation to a problematic woman with bad intent who has a fixation on AJR
• AJR's mum mentioned she had hedgehogs in her back garden
• As I was falling asleep, I was watching a Youtube video from Nexpo, which involved a mysterious incident involving home security cameras, cats and a presence causing fear in a Reddit user. I noticed that the next video on autoplay was about an experience with a stalker
• On the night before this dream I was preparing thumbnails for my latest video - part of The Dreamhacker Series, which teaches dreamwork. Initially I had considered using an image of myself on the thumbnail and the one I had selected showed me wearing a white top which dropped down and exposed my shoulder 

UPDATE

I continued to search this Blog for a dream involving York Train Station and WH Smiths, and eventually managed to find one - looking at this dream, I am shocked beyond belief at some of the content - I have copied the dream below - rather annoyingly, I had labelled this dream 'Lucid Dream Report 2 - Explanation of an Orgasm Dream' (28 January 2012), meaning that it does not follow my usual sequential numbering system for recording my dreams. I hate re-reading past posts on my Blog as everything seems inconsistent and messy! However, I want to spend some time explaining why this dream seems so odd and prophetic to me.

"The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream"

28 January 2012

This wasn’t a full lucid dream, but I have recorded it as if it were one due to the fact that, during this particular dream, I experienced the most successful application of the MILD technique yet. I feel as if this dream was some form of ‘breakthrough’ in my lucid dream training.

Techniques/triggers

Mental/training

• MILD technique (20 minutes, accompanied by alpha binaural beats – see below)

I devised a new mnemonic technique over the last few days to see if it would be more effective. I began practicing the MILD technique at random, but regular times throughout the day (usually during a study break, when I was able to lie in a quiet room). I formulated a new mnemonic over a period of 2 – 3 days, starting with the phrase ‘Awareness, control, recall’ (i.e. ‘next time I dream I want to be aware I am dreaming; in control of my dream; and able to recall my dream on waking’). This was gradually condensed in meditation to a simple mental repetition of ‘ACR’. When I focus on this mnemonic, I picture the infinity symbol (a horizontal figure 8), as it seems to come naturally to mind when I meditate on my mnemonic. I also mark the back of my hand with the letters ‘ACR’ as a form of lucid dream trigger during waking hours.

• WBTB (Wake-Back-to-Bed) technique (woke after 7 hours of delta sleep; remained awake for 20 minutes, then returned to above MILD technique/sleep)

Binaural beats 

• 20 minutes of alpha beats during MILD (before delta sleep)
• 90 minutes of delta beats (to properly induce delta sleep)
• 20 minutes of alpha beats (following WBTB/MILD technique)
•   1 hour of theta/gamma mix beats following alpha meditation (to induce REM sleep/lucidity)

Lucid dream supplements

• High strength cod liver oil enriched with omega 3, 6 & 9 (3,600 mg)
• Multivitamins A – Z with evening meal
• Sea kelp (iodine) (90 mg)
• CoEnzyme Q-10 (150 mg)
• Gingko Biloba (120 mg)
• Vitamin B Complex & added vitamin B6 (10 mg)
• No 5-HTP (experimenting without to test improvement in dream recall)

Time of dream

During 1^st hour of morning sleep following WBTB technique (after 7 hours of delta sleep)

Content

No lucidity at the start. I was standing watching a race/athletics running track. Running towards me was a white female nurse in full uniform, wearing sweatbands on her wrists and holding a notebook in front of her in both hands. She seemed to be massively tall – perhaps 7 foot tall. I didn’t try to communicate with her, but I realised that the race track was exactly the same as a local one in real-life which PS had used for shooting a music video (although the rapper in the video was a black male of normal height). I think this may have been a clue that I was dreaming – I was able to recognise what I was seeing in my dream as being ‘inspired’ by something I saw in real-life. The dream scene transitioned and suddenly I was sitting backwards on a dining room chair. I realised I was naked, but for a white thong. I was sticking my butt out and I turned round to check whether I really was naked, seeing my bare flesh. Suddenly I felt a male’s hands on my lower body, squeezing the flesh. I heard a voice say; “I still think you are the sexiest woman alive”. I didn’t recognise the voice exactly – it wasn’t one known to me in real-life. I then found myself walking down a corridor of a building and through double-doors – I wondered if it was a hospital – the decor was all brown and drab and the double-doors were made of rough wood, with circular windows cut out (I was reminded of the series of Doors paintings by British contemporary artist, Gary Hume). I stepped out onto a train platform – I noticed straightaway that it was York (where I attended university for my first undergraduate degree, although I have not visited in many years). I remembered (a real-life memory, recalled whilst in the dream) that I had once read an article in a magazine about Mariah Carey’s mental breakdown (several years ago) whilst standing outside by the glass-walled waiting rooms. I went into the WH Smiths store and looked at the magazine rack – sure enough, a magazine featuring a story of Mariah’s breakdown was prominently placed on the shelf – my eyes were instantly drawn to it. I wondered if I had gone back in time. I walked onto another platform (the one I used to depart from when visiting Manchester – i.e. westbound). There was a male character there, in addition to many other bystanders, all going about their business. The male was white with medium brown hair – unknown to me in real-life, and fairly non-descript. I would age him at approximately 20 – 25 years. I didn’t really care about getting to know him or finding out why he seemed to be waiting for me on the platform, but I knew I was supposed to speak to him (it was as if it were a ‘necessary chore’). The male asked me what an orgasm was and I found myself explaining, although I was finding it very difficult as I’m not an anatomical expert, nor a doctor. I was using crude, non-medical terminology and no matter how many times I tried to explain, the male couldn’t comprehend the concept of an orgasm whatsoever. I was becoming frustrated. I asked him what his name was. He answered; “ACR” and instantly I became lucid. I felt absolutely elated and recognised the fact this was my lucid dream trigger in operation. I then had the following realisation: ‘I bet I’m in York because earlier I told a friend and mutual fan of writer/actress Julia Davis (my favourite woman on British TV and idol) that she had attended York to read English & Drama and this has influenced my dream location’. I didn’t know what to do with my lucidity as I felt so excited. I said to the male character: “I’m in control of this dream, I can do what I like”. He said: “go on then”. I didn’t have a clue what I should do. I remembered that two days before when I was on a train to London, we had been trapped onboard due to a fatality (someone getting severed by the train) which had become a potential crime scene. I thought: ‘should I push him into the side of a train?’ I heard a train approaching the platform at speed. I changed my mind. Instead, I took my index finger and poked him in the forehead. I felt my finger push through his skull into his brain. He fell down dead on the platform. I said (in reference to a conversation I had being having earlier in my waking-life, about the footballer Diego Maradona): “hand of God!” I thought that I had better leave the scene and almost immediately I found myself standing in a glistening skyscraper, looking out to a glittering metropolis (it seemed to be in America to me, or at least that is the association my mind made). The sun was so bright and hot, it was bouncing off the millions of glass windows and the cars below. I could see wide sandy-coloured roads and luscious palm trees and thought: ‘California’. I then knew it was not the present time, but sometime in the golden age of the 1980s economic boom – I could see people at street level with 1980s fashion and primitive mobile telephones – yuppies. I felt very happy and positive – everything seemed to be buzzing with life, business and success in this city. I couldn’t get myself down to ground level – I was stuck in the skyscraper looking out. If I wanted to see what was below me in closer detail, I could - but it was more like a mental projection – I was always standing in the office space above, by the floor-to-ceiling window, feeling the sun radiate onto my face and obscure my vision. I was content, but as I found myself only able to watch the actions of others, I decided to try to move to another location. I thought about going to Cromer (as in real-life I am planning to view some flats for rent there). I was standing on a residential road which runs parallel to the beach/sea. There is a hotel situated on this road, which is the main coastal route into Cromer. I was standing outside the hotel, with various members of my family across on the other side (closer to the promenade/sea). I had a drink in my hand and I realised that it was carnival time (it seemed to be early evening and although I could not see any carnival floats/persons in fancy dress, there seemed to be a celebratory atmosphere with throngs of people, of all ages, milling about and standing in gatherings, drinking and laughing). I wanted to cross the road to get to my family. I pushed my way through the crowds of party-goers to get to the road-side, but before I could cross, the scene transitioned (beyond my control). Suddenly, I found myself in the Jarrold’s Department Store in Norwich. It was just before Christmas and the store was buzzing with customers, everything brightly lit and decorated with gold, red and green. It was quite dark outside. I was aware my Mum and Nan were somewhere in the store and that we were all taking part in a shopping trip. I saw a make-up counter and decided I wanted to get some free luxury brand make-up, but felt the instant need to pee. Over the tannoy system, a female voice said (in an overjoyed tone): “it’s the ‘90s!’ I was incredibly happy, as I have always vowed to use lucid dreaming to re-live the 1990s, my favourite period of recent cultural history, as the adult ‘me’. However the need to pee was so distracting and I thought to myself: ‘I can’t go to the toilet in the dream in case I wet the bed in real-life’. I concentrated on waking up, disappointed to have to cut my lucid dream short. I woke up, still desperately needing to pee, but in a very dry bed (fortunately)!!!

Analysis of this past dream in a 2019 context

• I have recently made a Dreamhacker video which mentions the Wake-Back-to-Bed method, mnemonics and Vitamin B6 (as well as 5-HTP and REM Rebound Effect)
• Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream refers to a mnemonic I was using at the time to help induce lucidity in a dream - 'ACR'. Bear with me, while I attempt to explain why this appears to be so odd reading this back in 2019 within the context of this current dream. During my conversation with AJR's mum I mentioned 2 women who (for very different reasons) appeared to pose a threat to my relationship with AJR at one point in time. One of them was the woman referred to above in the Additional Notes section, who I will refer to as LPB. The other was a friend of AJR's, NJ - who is now a friend of mine on Facebook. NJ has a son, who I will refer to as 'AC' (this is literally how you pronounce his real name). Therefore, the reference to ACR in Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream (bearing in mind the connection to AJR - who's last name begins with R, and the context in which NJ's son was mentioned) is especially pertinent. Even more pertinent is the reference to the 7-foot woman dressed as a nurse in Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream. LPB is a care assistant and is extremely large - both in height and width. It is a running joke between AJR and I that LPB (who was infatuated with JR) once sent him a photograph of herself wearing a latex naughty nurse's outfit (I have seen this photograph, and without being too negative, it is extremely unpleasant and unsexy, revealing a lot of cleavage and taken from a strange upwards facing angle, which a lot of filter on the face. AJR told me he had recently found this photograph in his paperwork and had destroyed it
• There is nudity referenced in Lucid Dream Report 2 -  The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream - specifically, my naked butt. AJR tells me he likes small boobs and large butts (which is my body type)
• Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream clearly outlines the memory of being in WH Smiths in York Train Station, and seeing the magazine containing the article about Mariah Carey's breakdown
• 2012 is the year in which I randomly dreamed of AJR (during a period in which we had had no contact at all for nearly 6 years, and ostensibly no reason to even think about one another - see STORYTIME: I DREAMED OF THE FUTURE LOVE OF MY LIFE MANY YEARS AGO (EVIDENCE PROVIDED!) and Dream 70 (2 August 2012) - I wonder if the white male dream character who was waiting for me on the train station platform in Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream was actually representative of AJR? This might be somewhat of a stretch, as there were no defining characteristics which would lead me to come to this conclusion - obviously, the thing which would stand out the most would be if the male dream character was a criminal convict/prisoner or wearing the E-list (anti-escape) suit I associated with AJR whenever he randomly popped into my memory (this being the outfit he was wearing when I first met him). In Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream, I was explaining the concept of an orgasm to the male dream character, and it felt like a chore having to speak to him (reminiscent of all the pointless, trivial legal visits AJR had requested of me, when I first met him in 2006/7?) He said his name was 'ACR' - which is strikingly similar to 'AJR'. AJR and I have another running joke about female anatomy - based on some screenshots from social media which I had described to him due to their humorous nature (one was from a webcam model - a Facebook friend - who had posted a screenshot of a webcam chat in which a male customer had said 'your clit's tight' and the other was in a Facebook group, showing a text conversation in which the male participant had referred to the female's 'clickoris') - we had been joking about 'tight clits' and 'clickorises' in our telephone conversation on the night of this current dream. AJR and I had also discussed 'control' and 'doing what we wanted' in a joke context. Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream refers to 'hand of God' and me killing the male dream character -  whenever I say the phrase 'Oh my God', AJR jokes that I should say 'Oh my AJ[R]' - this was said during our telephone conversation on the night of this current dream, and I had also made jokes about killing AJR when he is released from prison (we always joke about violence, as we have a dark sense of humour)

I could analyse this (Lucid Dream Report 2 - The Explanation of an Orgasm Dream) much more, but a lot of what I write would be assumptions or trying to find spurious links between this, the current dream and my real life. However, I am genuinely bemused at how significant some of these links appear to be.