Showing posts with label anxiety dream. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety dream. Show all posts
Sunday, 26 April 2020
Saturday, 6 July 2019
AJR's Dream
On the evening of 5 July 2019, I had a telephone conversation with AJR where I told him about the dream I had (same date) from my sleep the night before - Dream 1003 - 'Amalgamaze'.
AJR has never shown any real interest in dreams - he usually just humours my 'weird' interest in them. He has said that he has experienced some lucid dreams in the past, but rarely tends to dream at all. I have told him that it is not that he does not dream, but rather than he has poor dream recall.
AJR was excited to tell me that the previous night (so either 4 or 5 July) he had woken up from a dream and remembered having it. He did not want to get out of bed and put on the light to find a pen and paper, so just repeated the dream over and over in his mind to consolidate the memory so that he could tell me about it when we next spoke (this is a technique I often use, with varied results). I did not contemporaneously record AJR talking to me about his dream, as I was not prepared for this while on the phone (calls from prison landlines are expensive and time-limited, so I did not want to stop the conversation to then get my mobile phone for voice recording etc). Therefore this account of AJR's dream is from what I remember from our conversation, as close to how he described it as possible.
AJR said the dream was set in a time in the future. He referenced a movie which he thought starred Sylvester Stallone, who got 'frozen' and woken up in the future, where society is different. AJR could not recall the movie or if he had recalled it properly. He could not describe the state of the society other than it was authoritarian and oppressive (he did not use those words, he used synonyms, but I have a clear recollection of what he meant). He said me and him existed in this future. We were in some kind of large building and I left - someone informed him I had left. He said I had not really left - then said, I had left, but it was really an ambush for him. He was worried for my safety having left the building alone, so he went to follow me. Then he was ambushed. He said a group of men jumped on him and began beating him violently. He was tasered in the back. He was unable to move or fight the men off and felt the shock of the taser repeatedly. When the men stopped beating him, he was laying on the ground, frozen and unable to move at all. He said he could not get up. The taser was still in him (I think he said it was sticking into his back) and still shocking him repeatedly. He could feel the pain in the dream. He said while he was laying there, unable to move, it felt like days passed in the dream, but could not describe this (I know what this dream time passing feels like). Eventually he was able to get up and move. He spoke to a man (I cannot recall how he described this man). AJR asked where I was, worried about my safety. The man was mocking him. He told AJR that I had been tasered too - and had 'screamed like a bitch'. He then made some comment about my ass (AJR's favourite physical feature). AJR pretended to accept the comment and walked away, but this was a trick. He wanted to seek revenge on the man for hurting an disrespecting me, and also for how he talked about me to AJR (who referred to me as 'his missus'). AJR then secretly got a large knife, which he used to stab the man who had been mocking him.
- Having done some research into the movie AJR was referring to, it appears he is thinking of Demolition Man (1996), which does in fact star Sylvester Stallone
- I had wondered if this dream was about AJR being released from prison - he did not seem to think the dream was related to prison, but rather avenging my honour. However, having read the synopsis of Demolition Man, it appears that the movie did influence AJR's dream more than he perhaps appreciated (given he only had a vague memory of the movie and wasn't entirely sure he'd remembered it correctly). I have included the plot synopsis below - and cannot wait to tell AJR what I discovered about the movie which influenced his dreams in more ways than he was aware of:
In 1996, psychopathic career criminal Simon Phoenix kidnaps a number of hostages, and takes refuge with his gang in an abandoned building. LAPD Sgt. John Spartan uses a thermal scan of the building; finding no trace of the hostages, he leads an unauthorized assault to capture Phoenix. Phoenix sets off a series of explosives that demolish the building, and the hostages’ corpses are found in the rubble; Phoenix claims Spartan knew about the hostages and attacked anyway. Both men are incarcerated in the city's new "California Cryo-Penitentiary", where they are cryogenically frozen and exposed to subliminal rehabilitation techniques.
In 2032, Phoenix is thawed for a parole hearing and he escapes. Lieutenant Lenina Huxley has Spartan thawed to help stop Phoenix. She explains to Spartan that San Angeles - a metropolis that combines the former Los Angeles, San Diego, and Santa Barbara - is a peaceful utopia, and the police are no longer equipped to deal with violent crime. Spartan finds the new future depressing and oppressive; human behavior is tightly controlled, physical contact and swearing are illegal, and anything else deemed 'bad' is also banned. Likewise, others on the police force find Spartan's behavior brutish and uncivilized.
Spartan anticipates that Phoenix will attempt to secure firearms. He and Huxley head to a museum and find Phoenix already there. Phoenix escapes with the weapons and encounters Dr. Raymond Cocteau, the evangelistic pseudo-pacifist who has been running San Angeles since the 'Great Earthquake' of 2010. To his confusion, Phoenix finds that he is unable to shoot Cocteau, who reveals that he had orchestrated Phoenix's escape all along. As a safety measure, Cocteau implanted a command that prevents Phoenix from harming him. Cocteau wants Phoenix to assassinate Edgar Friendly, the leader of a resistance group called the Scraps that resists his rule.
Spartan and Huxley witness this exchange on security cameras and review the cryo-prison records. To their shock, they find that Phoenix's rehabilitation program has been replaced with combat training programs and the information necessary for his escape. Spartan meets with the Scraps in time to ward off an attack by Phoenix and other criminals who have been thawed out of cryo-sleep to help assassinate Friendly. Phoenix taunts Spartan, revealing that he had killed the 1996 hostages before setting off the bomb, meaning Spartan has spent 36 years in prison for no reason. Phoenix escapes, and Spartan arms himself with help from the Scraps.
Phoenix returns to Dr. Cocteau with his men, and has one of them kill Cocteau. They return to the cryo-prison and begin to thaw out more convicts. Spartan enters the prison alone to fight Phoenix, heavily damaging the facility in the process; he uses the cryogenic chemical to freeze and kill Phoenix. Spartan escapes the prison as it explodes. The police fear that the loss of Cocteau and the cryo-prison will end society as they know it, but Spartan suggests that they and the Scraps work together to combine the best aspects of order and personal freedom. He then kisses Huxley and the two go off together.
- AJR is facing a Parole Hearing next week after serving 16 years in prison on an IPP sentence, which is considered to be an unjust and inhumane sentence, abolished in 2012
- I have been telling AJR about changes in society since he has been in prison - especially the rise of political correctness. AJR will also be under strict licence conditions upon release, which prevent him from certain conduct which does not pass the threshold of unlawful
What do you think about AJR's dream? Do you think it reflects his anxieties about leaving prison and being released into a society which had changed drastically?
Friday, 7 July 2017
Dreams 844 - 847
Dream 844
'Touching Hair & Floating on Water'
Date: 26 June 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a room which was brightly lit. I am not sure what kind of room it was, as I could just see that there was a long table or work surface in front of me, about waist-height. I was standing at this table, with some random dream characters, who I am not sure if I knew in the dream. The dream character standing next to me was a black man, in his 20s or 30s, with an Afro hairstyle. I started touching his hair, but then realised how offensive this was (I HATE when people find it appropriate to touch someone's hair unsolicited/non-consensually, as it often happens to me - it's far more offensive when the touching person is doing this to a person of colour, or because they are 'intrigued' by the texture of someone's hair). I felt guilty and wondered why I was acting against my own judgment here. The man told me it was OK, but I thought I had acted terribly and kept apologising. I add here there I have no curiosity about touching textured/natural hair and this is what was so confusing, even within the dream itself.
Scene 2: A Forest - Dusk
I was in a forest - walking down a path between the trees/foliage. It was dusk as the sky was darkening. I was alone. I saw a pink handbag laying on the path in front of me, with some of the contents spilled out - there was a purse and other items you might find in a handbag. I left the bag where it was, and went someone else - I cannot recall where, but it was an interior, and whilst there, I had conversations with some (unrecalled) dream characters who I knew in the dream. The conversations led me to choose to go back to the forest and find the bag again, to take it. I went back and did indeed find and take the bag. Inside the purse there was some cash - banknotes - which made me feel happy.
I then found myself on my university campus, in an area near the lake, which I often visit in real life. This area is quite secluded, as there is a path alongside it, so very few people ever wander into the wooded area. I saw a white male dream character, which shocked me, as I thought I would be alone. It didn't seem quite so dark as it had been earlier in the dream, so I could see clearly. The male looked human - i.e. he was 3-dimensional and looked like a modern young man, wearing casual clothing, but I got the impression that he might be 'a ghost' because while he looked solid, at the same time, he appeared to be translucent or too pale. I then noticed that he was floating on the water of the stream which flows from the lake, rather than being on the ground. I ran away, scared.
Scene 3: An Interior - Time Unknown
I went to an interior - I am not sure where this was, but in the dream the location was familiar, and the dream characters there were known to me in the dream, although I cannot recall them. There was a police raid - I am not sure why the raid happened or what the police were investigating, but I was worried that I was going to be arrested for taking the handbag I had found in the forest, so I hid it before being questioned by a male police officer. I was not arrested. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a room which was brightly lit. I am not sure what kind of room it was, as I could just see that there was a long table or work surface in front of me, about waist-height. I was standing at this table, with some random dream characters, who I am not sure if I knew in the dream. The dream character standing next to me was a black man, in his 20s or 30s, with an Afro hairstyle. I started touching his hair, but then realised how offensive this was (I HATE when people find it appropriate to touch someone's hair unsolicited/non-consensually, as it often happens to me - it's far more offensive when the touching person is doing this to a person of colour, or because they are 'intrigued' by the texture of someone's hair). I felt guilty and wondered why I was acting against my own judgment here. The man told me it was OK, but I thought I had acted terribly and kept apologising. I add here there I have no curiosity about touching textured/natural hair and this is what was so confusing, even within the dream itself.
I was in a forest - walking down a path between the trees/foliage. It was dusk as the sky was darkening. I was alone. I saw a pink handbag laying on the path in front of me, with some of the contents spilled out - there was a purse and other items you might find in a handbag. I left the bag where it was, and went someone else - I cannot recall where, but it was an interior, and whilst there, I had conversations with some (unrecalled) dream characters who I knew in the dream. The conversations led me to choose to go back to the forest and find the bag again, to take it. I went back and did indeed find and take the bag. Inside the purse there was some cash - banknotes - which made me feel happy.
I then found myself on my university campus, in an area near the lake, which I often visit in real life. This area is quite secluded, as there is a path alongside it, so very few people ever wander into the wooded area. I saw a white male dream character, which shocked me, as I thought I would be alone. It didn't seem quite so dark as it had been earlier in the dream, so I could see clearly. The male looked human - i.e. he was 3-dimensional and looked like a modern young man, wearing casual clothing, but I got the impression that he might be 'a ghost' because while he looked solid, at the same time, he appeared to be translucent or too pale. I then noticed that he was floating on the water of the stream which flows from the lake, rather than being on the ground. I ran away, scared.
Scene 3: An Interior - Time Unknown
I went to an interior - I am not sure where this was, but in the dream the location was familiar, and the dream characters there were known to me in the dream, although I cannot recall them. There was a police raid - I am not sure why the raid happened or what the police were investigating, but I was worried that I was going to be arrested for taking the handbag I had found in the forest, so I hid it before being questioned by a male police officer. I was not arrested. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
None of note
Dream 845
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- I was acting out of character
- A man was floating on water
Day Residue:
- I had been explaining the concept of 'theft by finding' in a conversation with DL
- I regularly take a walk through the secluded part of the forest. One afternoon, I was sitting in the forest by myself, when I became aware of someone behind me. It was a young(ish) black man with a carrier bag, dressed in casual clothing (a burgundy tracksuit). He had some facial hair. He was standing behind me, staring at me. He seemed alarmed when I turned and saw him, and he hurried away. I then heard footsteps/rustling and turned to see he had doubled back and was standing in the bushes, watching me - like he was curious. I turned and started directly at him, hoping he could see that I was perturbed by him watching me. He left. Again, several minutes later, he returned and was standing staring at me, from the bushes to the side of me. I said: 'Can I help you mate?' and he ran away. A few days later, I was in the same spot (by the stream) when the same man - dressed the same way, with a carrier bag in hand, was lurking behind me again. When I turned and saw him, he said: 'Hello' and I responded with the same. He again, walked off, only to sneak back and start watching me again from the bushes. I raised my eyebrows at him and stared back, and he left. I honestly do not think that this guy wants to harm me or had ill-intentions. He seems to be intrigued about seeing a woman sitting by herself in the forest. If necessary, I could run to safety or be heard screaming, so these incidents have not prevented me from doing my usual activities. I haven't seen the guy again, but I have noticed Rizla packets and beer cans in this area which were not there before
- On the day of this dream I had been listening to an audiobook version of Stephen King's IT (1986) - which had plenty of references to 'floating' and contains a scene where Ben Hanscombe sees Pennywise, posing as his dead father, floating on water at the Derry Standpipe
Waking Reactions:
None of note
Dream 845
'The Affair'
Date: 27 June 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: My Former University Accommodation, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was with a man who I had very strong romantic/sexual feelings towards - he was white, tall and slim, with shaved head and in his 30s, dressed in casual sportswear/urban clothing. We were in 'a hotel room', relaxing on a double bed, but I noticed that this was actually a room I used to live in when I was an undergraduate student in my university (the building this room was in - Waveney Terrace - has since been demolished and new buildings have replaced it). I was aware that we were in a hotel because I was visiting this man. We were getting on really well and he seemed to be enjoying my company as much as I was enjoying him. We started to have sex and I recall that we were kissing (I am not a fan of kissing in real life, and in the dream I was aware that I was 'making an exception, because I liked this man so much). There was nothing really to note about the sexual activity. It was not a 'wet dream' in that I did not experience real life arousal or orgasm from it, but it was fulfilling and more than anything else, I felt so happy to be with a man I felt so strongly for.
The man's friends then came - about 2 or 3 males, all dressed in a similar style to him. They entered the room, which seemed to now be part of a bigger environment, with other rooms attached to it, including one which appeared to be a lounge. The friends (unknown to me in the dream), were telling my lover that he needed to go somewhere at '17' which I took to be a time (perhaps 17:00 hours?) He then told me that I should leave because he was busy and needed to attend to whatever it was his friends were telling him about. I was disappointed, but started to log onto a laptop in the lounge area, to find a bus/train to leave. There was one the next morning, but I did not want to stay that long, so I told my lover that I would call a taxi to come and collect me. He then started begging me to stay for as long as I could before he had to leave. I told him that he couldn't have it his own way - I would either stay or go, but was not able to wait around to suit his plans. He told me that I should stay and asked him friends to leave. We returned to the bed.
I cannot recall what else happened.
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: My Former University Accommodation, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was with a man who I had very strong romantic/sexual feelings towards - he was white, tall and slim, with shaved head and in his 30s, dressed in casual sportswear/urban clothing. We were in 'a hotel room', relaxing on a double bed, but I noticed that this was actually a room I used to live in when I was an undergraduate student in my university (the building this room was in - Waveney Terrace - has since been demolished and new buildings have replaced it). I was aware that we were in a hotel because I was visiting this man. We were getting on really well and he seemed to be enjoying my company as much as I was enjoying him. We started to have sex and I recall that we were kissing (I am not a fan of kissing in real life, and in the dream I was aware that I was 'making an exception, because I liked this man so much). There was nothing really to note about the sexual activity. It was not a 'wet dream' in that I did not experience real life arousal or orgasm from it, but it was fulfilling and more than anything else, I felt so happy to be with a man I felt so strongly for.
The man's friends then came - about 2 or 3 males, all dressed in a similar style to him. They entered the room, which seemed to now be part of a bigger environment, with other rooms attached to it, including one which appeared to be a lounge. The friends (unknown to me in the dream), were telling my lover that he needed to go somewhere at '17' which I took to be a time (perhaps 17:00 hours?) He then told me that I should leave because he was busy and needed to attend to whatever it was his friends were telling him about. I was disappointed, but started to log onto a laptop in the lounge area, to find a bus/train to leave. There was one the next morning, but I did not want to stay that long, so I told my lover that I would call a taxi to come and collect me. He then started begging me to stay for as long as I could before he had to leave. I told him that he couldn't have it his own way - I would either stay or go, but was not able to wait around to suit his plans. He told me that I should stay and asked him friends to leave. We returned to the bed.
I cannot recall what else happened.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
This dream made me happy - as most sex dreams do. I also liked the feeling of being around someone I had strong feelings for, as in real life I am single and often miss male company or the physical touch of another person.
Dream 846 - False Awakening
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- I was in a room in a building which has since been demolished
- The room changed and became part of a bigger environment
- '17' was a valid time
Day Residue:
- I had been discussing travel plans with a friend prior to this dream
Waking Reactions:
This dream made me happy - as most sex dreams do. I also liked the feeling of being around someone I had strong feelings for, as in real life I am single and often miss male company or the physical touch of another person.
Dream 846 - False Awakening
'Grey Crawler'
Date: 29 June 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night
I woke up - in my own bedroom, in my bed, as normal. It was dark as I would expect. At first, I assumed I was really awake, but something drew my attention to my desk, which is to the right side of my bed, across the room. On the desk, there was a grey creature, which looked like a cat-sized centipede or other multi-legged insect-like creature. It was walking along the back of the desk against the wall and was making a rattling sound (like a rattlesnake). I was instantly aware that this was a False Awakening, although I did not appear to have any sleep paralysis. As I was lucid, I was not too scared, but I did not want to look around the room or see anything else, as I can be quite frightened even in a lucid false awakening situation, even though I know it is a dream state. I then noticed my laptop, which was on a chair next to my bed (it would be there in real life, as I put it there to watch videos while I fall asleep). The screen showed a man in a balaclava, with only his eyes and mouth showing. It was either a still image or he wasn't really moving, but this made me feel uneasy. I must have fallen back into a deeper sleep as this is the entire experience I can recall.
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night
I woke up - in my own bedroom, in my bed, as normal. It was dark as I would expect. At first, I assumed I was really awake, but something drew my attention to my desk, which is to the right side of my bed, across the room. On the desk, there was a grey creature, which looked like a cat-sized centipede or other multi-legged insect-like creature. It was walking along the back of the desk against the wall and was making a rattling sound (like a rattlesnake). I was instantly aware that this was a False Awakening, although I did not appear to have any sleep paralysis. As I was lucid, I was not too scared, but I did not want to look around the room or see anything else, as I can be quite frightened even in a lucid false awakening situation, even though I know it is a dream state. I then noticed my laptop, which was on a chair next to my bed (it would be there in real life, as I put it there to watch videos while I fall asleep). The screen showed a man in a balaclava, with only his eyes and mouth showing. It was either a still image or he wasn't really moving, but this made me feel uneasy. I must have fallen back into a deeper sleep as this is the entire experience I can recall.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
False awakenings often terrify me - this one was not so bad, but it did make me feel very uneasy at the time, even though I was aware of what was happening. I chose not to try and transform this into a full lucid dream (by getting out of bed and walking around or trying to change the dream scene), as I just wanted the experience to end as quickly as possible.
Dream 847
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
This was a really unusual dream, which was very vivid when I first woke up from it, although specific memories have faded between me experiencing it/writing contemporaneous notes and now writing it up as a dream report.
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- This was a false awakening, so I was aware I was in a dream state by noticing my dreamsigns
Day Residue:
- A few days before this dream I had listened to a recording of the Night Stalker which was illustrated by a photo of a man in a balaclava
Waking Reactions:
False awakenings often terrify me - this one was not so bad, but it did make me feel very uneasy at the time, even though I was aware of what was happening. I chose not to try and transform this into a full lucid dream (by getting out of bed and walking around or trying to change the dream scene), as I just wanted the experience to end as quickly as possible.
Dream 847
'I Can't Explain How I Know'
Date: 2 July 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: A Classroom - Day
I was in a classroom which was filled with dream characters - all of whom were female as far as I can recall. The teacher was also female. I knew many of the dream characters - either in the dream or from real life. One of them was JS, a Facebook friend. I am not sure what course we were on, but it seemed to be something to do with the military. I was summonsed to the front of the class to answer a problem - not a maths problem as such, but it was something which required a calculation (in real life, I have dyscalculia and find simple mathematics extremely problematic). I went to the front of the class and found myself standing beside the teacher, in front of a large chalk board. I was gesturing wildly with my hands, while I gave the answer to the 'problem' posed by the teacher. When asked to 'explain my calculations' I said: 'I know the answer, but I can't explain how I know'. I was sure that my answer was correct, even though I did not know how I had arrived at it - and it appeared that this was the case.
Something happened in the classroom to make 3 of us rebel against the teacher - myself, JS and another female dream character, who I think is someone who I know in real life, but cannot recall. We mounted an aircraft which belonged to the RAF - but instead of being a plane, it was more like a hand glider, with a big metal frame which we could sit astride.This was inside the classroom and we were not supposed to be using it. We were referring to it as 'a tank' and were planning to use it to 'joyride'.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: A Classroom - Day
I was in a classroom which was filled with dream characters - all of whom were female as far as I can recall. The teacher was also female. I knew many of the dream characters - either in the dream or from real life. One of them was JS, a Facebook friend. I am not sure what course we were on, but it seemed to be something to do with the military. I was summonsed to the front of the class to answer a problem - not a maths problem as such, but it was something which required a calculation (in real life, I have dyscalculia and find simple mathematics extremely problematic). I went to the front of the class and found myself standing beside the teacher, in front of a large chalk board. I was gesturing wildly with my hands, while I gave the answer to the 'problem' posed by the teacher. When asked to 'explain my calculations' I said: 'I know the answer, but I can't explain how I know'. I was sure that my answer was correct, even though I did not know how I had arrived at it - and it appeared that this was the case.
Something happened in the classroom to make 3 of us rebel against the teacher - myself, JS and another female dream character, who I think is someone who I know in real life, but cannot recall. We mounted an aircraft which belonged to the RAF - but instead of being a plane, it was more like a hand glider, with a big metal frame which we could sit astride.This was inside the classroom and we were not supposed to be using it. We were referring to it as 'a tank' and were planning to use it to 'joyride'.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- I was in a class with JS
- The RAF hand glider/tank object
Day Residue:
- I had been talking about Ewan McGregor's brother, Colin McGregor, who is in the RAF
- I had recently had a dream which may have been influenced by Tank Girl - see Dream 839 - 'Female Darth Vader'
Waking Reactions:
This was a really unusual dream, which was very vivid when I first woke up from it, although specific memories have faded between me experiencing it/writing contemporaneous notes and now writing it up as a dream report.
Monday, 5 June 2017
Dreams 823 - 831
Dream 823
'R3A Dream'
'R3A Dream'
Date: 22 May 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: A Bedroom - Time Unknown
I cannot recall anything about this dream, other than I was in a pale-coloured bedroom, which was not one I can recall from real life. It seemed to be minimalist. There was some sexual activity involving me and - I think - R3A.
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: A Bedroom - Time Unknown
I cannot recall anything about this dream, other than I was in a pale-coloured bedroom, which was not one I can recall from real life. It seemed to be minimalist. There was some sexual activity involving me and - I think - R3A.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- R3A as a dream character
Dreamsigns:
- None of note
Day Residue:
- None of note
Waking Reactions:
I cannot recall enough of this dream to be able to comment on it at all.
Dream 824
'The Robbery'
Date: 24 May 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an interior, and it was very dark, indicating that it was night. The interior seemed to be a domestic building, but it is not one that I can recall from real life and I am not sure what furniture/decoration was there. I felt like I was in familiar territory - as if this was my home in the dream or somewhere I regularly visited.
I was with some dream character - at least 2, who I think were male. They were known to me in the dream, but I cannot recall who they were to say if they were real life persons. We were standing beside a work surface, table or bench. I had a handbag with me, which was on the table.
Suddenly, 2 male dream characters ran into the room - wearing black balaclavas - or items covering their faces and black clothing. I was aware that they were violent criminals, about to commit a robbery. One of them grabbed me from behind, but it felt more like a hug than an assault. I screamed at him: 'I'm pregnant!'. This was a lie, but I was trying to discourage him from physically assaulting me, He let go of me and then men demanded that I empty out my handbag for them to take items. I had a cannabis grinder and some cannabis in my bag. One of the men told me to hand it over. I asked them not to take it, and said that it wasn't worth their while, as it was only a small amount. The men took it anyway. They then disappeared into another area in the house, telling us to stay where we were. We stayed.
I then had a conversation with one of my male friends who had been victim of the robbery. I told them that my cannabis had been stolen. I then looked in my bag and saw the cannabis grinder was there. I opened it and my cannabis was inside. I discovered that the criminals had actually stolen my mobile phone, and I was annoyed, wondering how I would be able to contact anyone.
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an interior, and it was very dark, indicating that it was night. The interior seemed to be a domestic building, but it is not one that I can recall from real life and I am not sure what furniture/decoration was there. I felt like I was in familiar territory - as if this was my home in the dream or somewhere I regularly visited.
I was with some dream character - at least 2, who I think were male. They were known to me in the dream, but I cannot recall who they were to say if they were real life persons. We were standing beside a work surface, table or bench. I had a handbag with me, which was on the table.
Suddenly, 2 male dream characters ran into the room - wearing black balaclavas - or items covering their faces and black clothing. I was aware that they were violent criminals, about to commit a robbery. One of them grabbed me from behind, but it felt more like a hug than an assault. I screamed at him: 'I'm pregnant!'. This was a lie, but I was trying to discourage him from physically assaulting me, He let go of me and then men demanded that I empty out my handbag for them to take items. I had a cannabis grinder and some cannabis in my bag. One of the men told me to hand it over. I asked them not to take it, and said that it wasn't worth their while, as it was only a small amount. The men took it anyway. They then disappeared into another area in the house, telling us to stay where we were. We stayed.
I then had a conversation with one of my male friends who had been victim of the robbery. I told them that my cannabis had been stolen. I then looked in my bag and saw the cannabis grinder was there. I opened it and my cannabis was inside. I discovered that the criminals had actually stolen my mobile phone, and I was annoyed, wondering how I would be able to contact anyone.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- The robbery
Day Residue:
- I may have read or watched something about robbery
- I had to speak to some students about cannabis use on campus (5 days before)
Waking Reactions:
This dream seems as if it would be quite scary, but I did not experience it as a nightmare. I felt calm, even though the situation felt quite traumatic. I did not feel under physical threat after the criminal who had grabbed me let me go.
Dream 825
'Alien Politics'
Date: 26 May 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: The Two Lifeboats Hotel, Sheringham - Day
I was in the Two Lifeboats Hotel, which is the pub where my Mum and I used to work when my Mum was the Manager/Landlady/Head Chef. We were not working there in this dream. I was standing in the 'Duncan Bar' (which is the traditional, old-fashioned bar which does not face the seafront, but rather, the high street). I was standing with unrecalled dream characters, looking directly at the bar, which was lit up in a bright yellow light. There was a female dream character behind the bar, who was someone that I know in real life, but am not friends with. I cannot recall who it was, but I thought that I disliked her and could not believe she was here. The bar gave me the impression of a TV studio, being set up and I suddenly become aware that this was the scene of a political broadcast and current Prime Minister, Theresa May had been invited to deliver a political speech. I was annoyed, as being a liberal, my worst fear is that another Conservative Government under May will be elected on 8 June 2017.
The female dream character (whom I disliked) was being bossy and annoying. She was carrying a clipboard and ordering people about. I did not see Theresa May. However, I did see some aliens - they just appeared and I cannot recall if this was explained in the dream and I have simply forgotten some of the dream narrative. I think there were 3 of them. They looked like the stereotypical 'Grey aliens' like the ones associated with Roswell. The main difference was that these aliens were yellow and glowed very brightly. They were around the size of a human child and seemed to be benign. They did not make any sound or perform any overt action, they were just standing still, near the bar. I did not feel surprised or scared in any way - I accepted this as normal, or at least, the whole event seemed strange to me, but the presence of the aliens did not shock me at all.
I was then looking at my mobile phone and realised there was a horizontal crack, running along the length of the bottom of the screen. If I touched this with my finger, this was raised, I wondered how I had managed to break my phone and when I could get an upgrade to replace it.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: The Two Lifeboats Hotel, Sheringham - Day
I was in the Two Lifeboats Hotel, which is the pub where my Mum and I used to work when my Mum was the Manager/Landlady/Head Chef. We were not working there in this dream. I was standing in the 'Duncan Bar' (which is the traditional, old-fashioned bar which does not face the seafront, but rather, the high street). I was standing with unrecalled dream characters, looking directly at the bar, which was lit up in a bright yellow light. There was a female dream character behind the bar, who was someone that I know in real life, but am not friends with. I cannot recall who it was, but I thought that I disliked her and could not believe she was here. The bar gave me the impression of a TV studio, being set up and I suddenly become aware that this was the scene of a political broadcast and current Prime Minister, Theresa May had been invited to deliver a political speech. I was annoyed, as being a liberal, my worst fear is that another Conservative Government under May will be elected on 8 June 2017.
The female dream character (whom I disliked) was being bossy and annoying. She was carrying a clipboard and ordering people about. I did not see Theresa May. However, I did see some aliens - they just appeared and I cannot recall if this was explained in the dream and I have simply forgotten some of the dream narrative. I think there were 3 of them. They looked like the stereotypical 'Grey aliens' like the ones associated with Roswell. The main difference was that these aliens were yellow and glowed very brightly. They were around the size of a human child and seemed to be benign. They did not make any sound or perform any overt action, they were just standing still, near the bar. I did not feel surprised or scared in any way - I accepted this as normal, or at least, the whole event seemed strange to me, but the presence of the aliens did not shock me at all.
I was then looking at my mobile phone and realised there was a horizontal crack, running along the length of the bottom of the screen. If I touched this with my finger, this was raised, I wondered how I had managed to break my phone and when I could get an upgrade to replace it.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- There was a political broadcast with Theresa May arranged in the Two Lifeboats Hotel
- Strange glowing aliens
Day Residue:
- I had been discussing my time working in the Two Lifeboats recently - I can recall the conversation, but I cannot recall the context nor who I was talking to
- Theresa May, the Conservative Party and the forthcoming General Election is constantly in the media and public conversation at the moment
- Shortly before this dream I heard a section of the Ricky Gervais and Stephen Merchant XFM radio show (via Youtube) where Karl Pilkington referred to 'Roswell' as 'Boswell'
- My Mum had reminded me that I would soon be eligible for a phone upgrade (7 days before)
Waking Reactions:
This dream was strange, but did not feel as strange as you would imagine it to from the description. I found it more odd that the disliked female dream character was present, and involved in a political broadcast with Theresa May in a small seaside pub/hotel, than the fact there were aliens there.
Dream 826
'Weird Pregnant Woman'
Date: 28 May 2017
Time: 03:30 - 11:00 (I woke up naturally from this dream)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: Hospital Interior - Time Unknown
I was in what appeared to be a hospital interior. It was very dark and seemed to be much more 'technical', more like the inside of a spaceship or a sci-fi set than a hospital, it was a dark blue/black colour, with little spotlights in the walls.
Beside me there was a woman lying on a bed, with no bed linen. It looked like a black leather bed. The woman was unknown to me, and white with mid-brown hair, approximately 20s/30s in age. She was wearing a black hospital gown and I could see she was pregnant. A male dream character, who I assumed to be a doctor, although I cannot recall seeing him - he was several meters away to my right side, preparing something - said: 'We can caesarian her now'. The woman then lifted her gown and I could see she was wearing black lace lingerie. She tensed her stomach, and she no longer looked pregnant - I could see she had very ripped abdominal muscles. I said: 'Where did the baby go?' because I could not see how she managed to suddenly look so thin and athletic, whereas before she looked heavily pregnant. She said to me (laughing): 'I wished it into myself'. I understood what this meant in the dream.
Scene 2: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
The screen of my laptop was falling off - it was hanging by a hinge and swinging around. I wondered if I would be able to get it fixed and whether it would still work, as I was anxious to retrieve important files from it and save them elsewhere. This scene continued with me just fiddling with the broken laptop and being anxious about it.
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: Hospital Interior - Time Unknown
I was in what appeared to be a hospital interior. It was very dark and seemed to be much more 'technical', more like the inside of a spaceship or a sci-fi set than a hospital, it was a dark blue/black colour, with little spotlights in the walls.
Beside me there was a woman lying on a bed, with no bed linen. It looked like a black leather bed. The woman was unknown to me, and white with mid-brown hair, approximately 20s/30s in age. She was wearing a black hospital gown and I could see she was pregnant. A male dream character, who I assumed to be a doctor, although I cannot recall seeing him - he was several meters away to my right side, preparing something - said: 'We can caesarian her now'. The woman then lifted her gown and I could see she was wearing black lace lingerie. She tensed her stomach, and she no longer looked pregnant - I could see she had very ripped abdominal muscles. I said: 'Where did the baby go?' because I could not see how she managed to suddenly look so thin and athletic, whereas before she looked heavily pregnant. She said to me (laughing): 'I wished it into myself'. I understood what this meant in the dream.
Scene 2: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
The screen of my laptop was falling off - it was hanging by a hinge and swinging around. I wondered if I would be able to get it fixed and whether it would still work, as I was anxious to retrieve important files from it and save them elsewhere. This scene continued with me just fiddling with the broken laptop and being anxious about it.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- Pregnancy
- Broken technology
Dreamsigns:
- The strange hospital scenario
- The pregnant woman was able to create the impression of a '6 pack' with her abdominal muscles
Day Residue:
- I had met my Mum at the hospital when she was there for tests on her kidneys (9 days before)
- I had been watching some Darth Vader scenes - in particular the scene in Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005), where Vader's burned and mutilated body is put into his cybernetic suit while he is strapped to a medical table - this scene actually happens concurrent with that of his wife Padme Amidala giving birth to twins
- I had been talking to DL about someone who was pregnant, although I cannot recall who this was (2 days before)
- I saw an online article about a woman who had a calcified foetus in her womb for a number of decades (days before)
Waking Reactions:
I often have dreams about broken technology - usually my phone or laptop. I think this is because I use the internet for almost all of my socialising and hobbies/interests, so these represent my links to the outside world. Without my phone or laptop I couldn't engage in the things I do the most - research, blog, write, watch videos, play games or talk with my friends over social media.
Dream 827
'Two Sidebitches'
Date: 29 May 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Exterior Scene - Dusk/Early Evening
I was sitting outside, although it felt like it was inside. The sky was darkening, which made me aware it was dusk or early evening. I was with a male of Chinese ethnicity - I think it was my ex-boyfriend, HL. We were sitting on a slope of very green grass, looking down at an area of concrete, which reminds me of the area outside the music block on my university campus. HL was doing something on his phone. In the dream he was not my boyfriend.
Something happened with the phone and the social media (perhaps Facebook) which HL was using to speak to someone online (a female with ginger hair, named 'Sue') - I am not sure what I did, but in some way I was responsible for writing/communicating something on HL's social media which made him angry. The social media just looked like a friend's list, rather than a chat/message box and I cannot recall typing anything, just grabbing the phone and looking at the screen. Only Sue's avatar/icon stood out to me, as it was at the top and she had very brightly coloured hair.
HL said to me that I had stitched him up and grabbed the phone back from me. In the context of the dream, it seemed that he was annoyed that I had let 'Sue' see that he had more than one casual relationship (not with me, but with another unknown female). He said to me: 'I have more than one sidebitch!' He had been trying to keep these women separate so they did not find out about one another. Suddenly everything became apparent and I understood the situation clearly, even though I did not know I had been confused until this point.
Dream recall: Normal recall
Scene 1: An Exterior Scene - Dusk/Early Evening
I was sitting outside, although it felt like it was inside. The sky was darkening, which made me aware it was dusk or early evening. I was with a male of Chinese ethnicity - I think it was my ex-boyfriend, HL. We were sitting on a slope of very green grass, looking down at an area of concrete, which reminds me of the area outside the music block on my university campus. HL was doing something on his phone. In the dream he was not my boyfriend.
Something happened with the phone and the social media (perhaps Facebook) which HL was using to speak to someone online (a female with ginger hair, named 'Sue') - I am not sure what I did, but in some way I was responsible for writing/communicating something on HL's social media which made him angry. The social media just looked like a friend's list, rather than a chat/message box and I cannot recall typing anything, just grabbing the phone and looking at the screen. Only Sue's avatar/icon stood out to me, as it was at the top and she had very brightly coloured hair.
HL said to me that I had stitched him up and grabbed the phone back from me. In the context of the dream, it seemed that he was annoyed that I had let 'Sue' see that he had more than one casual relationship (not with me, but with another unknown female). He said to me: 'I have more than one sidebitch!' He had been trying to keep these women separate so they did not find out about one another. Suddenly everything became apparent and I understood the situation clearly, even though I did not know I had been confused until this point.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- I was with HL
Day Residue:
- I had been listening to the Ricky Gervais and Stephen Merchant XFM radio show (via Youtube) where Karl Pilkington constantly talks about Chinese people and Chinese culture in a very confused and bewildered manner. HL and his brother used to love Ricky and Karl, and find Karl's discussion of Chinese people hilarious (1 day before)
- I had been chatting to a guy who was interested in me and told him that I knew one of his Facebook friends - another local man of Chinese origin who is friends (and now extended family) with my ex, HL
- I was sitting outside the music block and commented to DL that it 'reminded me of a Roman Colosseum' (it's nothing like a Roman Colosseum, it's just a small slope of grass, with some steps, leading down to a small patch of concrete where there are occasionally performances/busking by music or drama students, with the audience sitting on the grass slope (3 days before)
Waking Reactions:
I found it odd that HL was in my dream when I first woke up, but thinking about my Day Residue, it doesn't seem quite so unusual. I found this dream to be a 'revelation' although it's difficult to explain why. I think the dream was communicating to me that I do not have any man in my life who focuses on just me, given I am not in a committed relationship. As I prefer casual no-strings 'linking', I think the dream was telling me that in this scenario, I am never the 'number one' and given the way these relationships/interactions work, there may always be 'other sidebitches' involved with any man I choose to see on this basis. Of course, I am already very much aware of this fact, and accept it, as I myself have chosen this type of relationship over commitment or monogamy, but in the dream it seemed like the message was being communicated to me on a more subconscious, deeper level, like the dream wanted to me to pay attention to this.
Dream 828
'Knocking & Twisted Screens'
Date: 30 May 2017
Time: 23:30 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Dream Fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was in my room, sitting on or in my bed. There was constant knocking on the door to my room, but I did not want to answer it or see who was there, so I ignored it, frustrated.
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was in my room, sitting on or in my bed. There was constant knocking on the door to my room, but I did not want to answer it or see who was there, so I ignored it, frustrated.
Scene 2: My Bedroom, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was with an (unrecalled dream character) and we were looking at my laptop which was broken in a way that it bent very unnaturally (as if it was made of a very pliable material). The laptop was where it would be in real life - on the desk chair beside my bed. I think the dream character and I were sitting on my bed or standing beside it. The more I touched the laptop, the more the screen was becoming detached from the keyboard and twisting out of shape. The dream character was telling me that I would not be able to get it fixed, which really annoyed me.
I think this dream took place as I was naturally waking up. I cannot recall anything else as it was fragments of a dream.
I was with an (unrecalled dream character) and we were looking at my laptop which was broken in a way that it bent very unnaturally (as if it was made of a very pliable material). The laptop was where it would be in real life - on the desk chair beside my bed. I think the dream character and I were sitting on my bed or standing beside it. The more I touched the laptop, the more the screen was becoming detached from the keyboard and twisting out of shape. The dream character was telling me that I would not be able to get it fixed, which really annoyed me.
I think this dream took place as I was naturally waking up. I cannot recall anything else as it was fragments of a dream.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
No specific waking reactions, other than confusion as to whether there had been knocking in real life. Dreaming of a broken laptop is very common for me because I think this would be an event which would cause severe disruption and inconvenience to my real life.
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- Broken laptop
Dreamsigns:
- The way the broken laptop looked
Day Residue:
- Previous dream of broken laptop (see above)
Waking Reactions:
No specific waking reactions, other than confusion as to whether there had been knocking in real life. Dreaming of a broken laptop is very common for me because I think this would be an event which would cause severe disruption and inconvenience to my real life.
Dream 829
'Family Incest'
Date: 1 June 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a domestic interior, which in the dream was a family home (not sure who lived there, but it felt familiar in the dream). I was with my cousins HM and CAJ and my Mum and (now deceased) Granddad. I will add herein that my Granddad was pretty much estranged from the majority of our family prior to his death a number of years ago. My Mum had been in contact with him after he had become unwell in his old age, but the relationship was strained due to his mental illness which made him impossible to deal with (he had bipolar disorder, paranoia and other problems). Until my Nan divorced my Granddad (due to his behaviour and ill-treatment of family members - I don't think she was ever happy with him), my Mum and I lived with them both (and some of my Aunts/Uncle in my Nan's current home. Even as a small child I knew my Granddad was impossible to live with. My Nan would still take me to visit him in his bedsit on Saturdays when I was a child - we would go to the pub for lunch, while my Mum was working there, then go to the shops, in particular, the secondhand bookshop (my favourite thing to do, as I could buy lots of cheap adult horror novels and art books), then we would go next-door to have a cup of tea/coffee with my Granddad, even though my Nan pretty much hated him.
In the room, within the dream, there was a bed with white bed linen. My Mum and Granddad were sitting on the bed. My Mum told me that she was 'in a relationship' with my Granddad. She did not refer to him as 'her Dad' in the dream, but I was aware that this was an incestuous relationship and I was horrified by it, as were my cousins. My Granddad started mocking me with a smug, evil look on his face. I begged my Mum to end the relationship, but she said she was happy and would not. My Granddad took delight in my upset and horror.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Dream recall: Weak recall
Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a domestic interior, which in the dream was a family home (not sure who lived there, but it felt familiar in the dream). I was with my cousins HM and CAJ and my Mum and (now deceased) Granddad. I will add herein that my Granddad was pretty much estranged from the majority of our family prior to his death a number of years ago. My Mum had been in contact with him after he had become unwell in his old age, but the relationship was strained due to his mental illness which made him impossible to deal with (he had bipolar disorder, paranoia and other problems). Until my Nan divorced my Granddad (due to his behaviour and ill-treatment of family members - I don't think she was ever happy with him), my Mum and I lived with them both (and some of my Aunts/Uncle in my Nan's current home. Even as a small child I knew my Granddad was impossible to live with. My Nan would still take me to visit him in his bedsit on Saturdays when I was a child - we would go to the pub for lunch, while my Mum was working there, then go to the shops, in particular, the secondhand bookshop (my favourite thing to do, as I could buy lots of cheap adult horror novels and art books), then we would go next-door to have a cup of tea/coffee with my Granddad, even though my Nan pretty much hated him.
In the room, within the dream, there was a bed with white bed linen. My Mum and Granddad were sitting on the bed. My Mum told me that she was 'in a relationship' with my Granddad. She did not refer to him as 'her Dad' in the dream, but I was aware that this was an incestuous relationship and I was horrified by it, as were my cousins. My Granddad started mocking me with a smug, evil look on his face. I begged my Mum to end the relationship, but she said she was happy and would not. My Granddad took delight in my upset and horror.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
I do not have much to say about this dream - other than the obvious fact that I did not enjoy it in any way and felt disgusted by what was happening whilst I was dreaming it. When I woke up, I was able to see the humour in the situation, given the impossibility of this scenario ever having arisen while my Granddad was alive.
Dream 830
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
I really enjoyed this dream - it felt exciting to be around SHN and I was anticipating us being able to spend time alone together.
Dream 831
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- None of note
Dreamsigns:
- My Granddad was alive
- My Mum was in an incestuous relationship with her own father
Day Residue:
- I had mentioned my Granddad in a conversation with ML (approx. 3 days before)
Waking Reactions:
I do not have much to say about this dream - other than the obvious fact that I did not enjoy it in any way and felt disgusted by what was happening whilst I was dreaming it. When I woke up, I was able to see the humour in the situation, given the impossibility of this scenario ever having arisen while my Granddad was alive.
Dream 830
'I'm an Expert at Tiptoeing'
Date: 3 June 2017
Time: 05:00 - 13:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1 (Dream Fragment while falling asleep)
I had this micro-dream while falling asleep, before my proper dream started. In this fragment, which took the form of fleeting thoughts, I was aware that there was a new rule that anyone could say whatever they wanted, whether it was true or false, fact or opinion and each expression would be treated the same, with no judgment or criticism.
Scene 2: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an interior, which I knew was not my home, but I am not sure where it was. It felt like a pub or some other kind of community-based location. I was with some male dream characters and SHN - someone I knew back in my hometown of Sheringham, who used to be a semi-pro skateboarder and was a pretty cool, popular type of guy. He was older than me and I used to fancy him a bit - on one occasion I got to 'third base' (or whatever the term for sexual contact without full intercourse is/was back then) with him, but we never dated. His family uses to socialise a bit with my Mum and her circle of friends in our small town. They were quite liberal and the type of laidback people I have often met living in a small seaside town. I haven't really thought of him in recent times.
In the dream I really fancied SHN and wanted to get closer to him. He seemed to be keen for this to happen and I was feeling that excitement when someone you like seems to reciprocate your feelings. I was sitting next to him in this interior, by a window, where there was sun streaming in from outside. One of the other older male dream characters (a white, middle-aged Bohemian-looking guy with shaggy grey hair and scruffy clothes) was there and I just wanted him to leave so that I could be alone with SHN.
Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day
There was some reference to ZS, a female I only know from the fact she posts on one of the groups I follow on Facebook - I am not sure of the context here.
I was in the 'front room' of my Nan's house - this being a reception room full of photographs and ornaments and not one used regularly. I was looking in the chest of drawers for an old school project, which was a creative writing assignment. I found this - I was aware I had done this many years before. It was a piece of creative writing, which I had illustrated. The writing was in pencil and looked like the handwriting of a schoolchild. I could see from the front page that I had written the story in a series of short chapters, one per page. The teacher's marking on the front (also in pencil) said: 'There are many different styles of writing and your's is very unique, but this is a fail'. I wondered why I had failed. I opened up the book, which was a series of A4 pages of plain paper, stapled together. Inside, I saw a colour drawing of witches and realised that my story was about witchcraft and ghosts etc. I then realised that my writing was actually very accomplished and the teacher had been wrong in failing me. This made me feel better about the criticism, knowing that I - as an adult - knew the teacher was wrong in her judgment. I wondered why I had been penalised for a 'unique' style of writing.
Scene 3: A Street - Day
I was then with SHN and the bohemian male dream character once again. We were leaving a building and stepping down some concrete steps into a street, which was narrow, with tall buildings on either side. It seemed more like an alleyway than a street and we were heading for another building. The concrete was damp as t had just been raining. I realised that I was barefoot and SHN expressed concern that I would be OK walking on the damp concrete without shoes. I said to him: 'I'm an expert at tiptoeing' and believed this to be a true fact. I started tiptoeing and felt very tall.
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1 (Dream Fragment while falling asleep)
I had this micro-dream while falling asleep, before my proper dream started. In this fragment, which took the form of fleeting thoughts, I was aware that there was a new rule that anyone could say whatever they wanted, whether it was true or false, fact or opinion and each expression would be treated the same, with no judgment or criticism.
Scene 2: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an interior, which I knew was not my home, but I am not sure where it was. It felt like a pub or some other kind of community-based location. I was with some male dream characters and SHN - someone I knew back in my hometown of Sheringham, who used to be a semi-pro skateboarder and was a pretty cool, popular type of guy. He was older than me and I used to fancy him a bit - on one occasion I got to 'third base' (or whatever the term for sexual contact without full intercourse is/was back then) with him, but we never dated. His family uses to socialise a bit with my Mum and her circle of friends in our small town. They were quite liberal and the type of laidback people I have often met living in a small seaside town. I haven't really thought of him in recent times.
In the dream I really fancied SHN and wanted to get closer to him. He seemed to be keen for this to happen and I was feeling that excitement when someone you like seems to reciprocate your feelings. I was sitting next to him in this interior, by a window, where there was sun streaming in from outside. One of the other older male dream characters (a white, middle-aged Bohemian-looking guy with shaggy grey hair and scruffy clothes) was there and I just wanted him to leave so that I could be alone with SHN.
Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day
There was some reference to ZS, a female I only know from the fact she posts on one of the groups I follow on Facebook - I am not sure of the context here.
I was in the 'front room' of my Nan's house - this being a reception room full of photographs and ornaments and not one used regularly. I was looking in the chest of drawers for an old school project, which was a creative writing assignment. I found this - I was aware I had done this many years before. It was a piece of creative writing, which I had illustrated. The writing was in pencil and looked like the handwriting of a schoolchild. I could see from the front page that I had written the story in a series of short chapters, one per page. The teacher's marking on the front (also in pencil) said: 'There are many different styles of writing and your's is very unique, but this is a fail'. I wondered why I had failed. I opened up the book, which was a series of A4 pages of plain paper, stapled together. Inside, I saw a colour drawing of witches and realised that my story was about witchcraft and ghosts etc. I then realised that my writing was actually very accomplished and the teacher had been wrong in failing me. This made me feel better about the criticism, knowing that I - as an adult - knew the teacher was wrong in her judgment. I wondered why I had been penalised for a 'unique' style of writing.
Scene 3: A Street - Day
I was then with SHN and the bohemian male dream character once again. We were leaving a building and stepping down some concrete steps into a street, which was narrow, with tall buildings on either side. It seemed more like an alleyway than a street and we were heading for another building. The concrete was damp as t had just been raining. I realised that I was barefoot and SHN expressed concern that I would be OK walking on the damp concrete without shoes. I said to him: 'I'm an expert at tiptoeing' and believed this to be a true fact. I started tiptoeing and felt very tall.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- Academic failure
Dreamsigns:
- I was with SHN
Day Residue:
- I had been talking about skateboarding which may have subconsciously brought SHN to mind (days before)
- I had a conversation with DL about history - particularly feminist histories which are taught as 'an alternative' to standard history - during this conversation we discussed women being suspected of witchcraft in the middle-ages (1 day before)
- I have been working with a student within my role in student welfare. She is not easy to work with and I do not enjoy it. She is studying creative writing (recent, ongoing)
- I had been thinking about my style of writing (recent. ongoing)
Waking Reactions:
I really enjoyed this dream - it felt exciting to be around SHN and I was anticipating us being able to spend time alone together.
Dream 831
'Alien Moon Globes Falling into the Lake'
Date: 4 June 2017
Time: 23:00 - 05:00 (I woke up from this dream due to the sound of someone knocking loudly on a window outside)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: Outside by a Lake in the Forest - Night
I was outside in a forest, sitting by a lake. It seemed to be very similar to an area DL and I often sit and chill. However, the lake here was larger. The moon was shining on the water. I then saw something in the sky - I looked up and saw it was a globe shape - about the size of a pound coin, right above the lake. This globe was black and had stars and a crescent moon in glowing yellow inside it. Suddenly, the globe glowed green and fell from the sky into the lake. Another one appeared in the sky and the same thing happened. I stood up, scared. I perceived this to be 'aliens'. I had been using my laptop to do some studying (in the dark forest at night!) and I was wearing a backpack. I stood up and gripped my laptop to my chest so that I could run with it, safely. I started to run away from the lake, to avoid the alien activity. I could hear other people some distance away (I perceived them to be students of my university) who also scared of the alien objects in the sky, falling to the ground. I cannot say what the threat was - the objects were literally just a globe with stars and a moon in them and nothing happened when they fell to Earth. I wasn't even surprised that it happened, just scared.
Scene 2: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night
I returned home to my bedroom and found that my work phone (the on-call duty phone we use in our work in Student Support) was on the floor, near my wardrobe. I was shocked as I had not been aware that I was on duty and I must never leave the phone unattended as I must respond immediately to students contacting me. On the phone was a text - which appeared to be from the mother of a female student who was trying to get hold of her daughter in an emergency. The text was from 2.5 hours ago and I was worried and anxious that I had not done my job properly.
I went to an outside area where I found a group of female students and my housemate/colleague, SC. I told SC about the text and how I had not seen it until now. He told me not to worry and said we would find the student in question and tell her to contact her mother. The area we were in was not one I know from real life. We were sitting on some benches. I saw one female, with a very round freckled face and long straight blonde hair sitting right at the edge of the bench. I asked if she was the student whose mother had tried to contact me, but she was not - I was mistaken. SC, the female students and I all got up from the benches and walked into one of the residential blocks on campus. It is not a 'real life' area of campus, but a dream-like approximation, which felt normal in the dream. We congregated in the corridor for a while and had a conversation while standing there.
SC and I then went into a room within this building. It was very dark and it seemed like a student study-bedroom, as I could see a single bed and a sink in the room. A female student - white, with brown shoulder-length hair - was sitting on the bed. There were other people in the room. I knew that SC and I must take the female dream character to a 'safe place' as she needed help in some way. Then, a male dream character entered the room. He was an older man, with a very pointed, evil looking face. He had white, wrinkled skin and a long, sharp nose, with small eyes and mouth. He looked 'witchy' and was dressed in dark clothing. I thought that he was a 'paedophile' or a 'sex offender'. He was trying to get the female student to go with him and I instantly knew that he would groom female students and then 'anally rape them'. I was horrified and was trying to convince the female student - now sitting, crying in fear - to come with SC and I, who would take her to safety. I knew that many impressional female students had been anally raped by this sex offender, who prowled the university campus trying to find victims. He would then 'adopt' the victim and take them away from university to live with him. I needed to convince the female students not to trust this man and not to leave the campus with him.
There was some kind of creature - it was bear-like, but not a bear. It also looked a little like a Wookie, but it walked on all-fours. It wasn't any animal I can identify. I am not sure how this creature related to the rest of the dream narrative.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream at present.
Extra Information:
Dream recall: Strong recall
Scene 1: Outside by a Lake in the Forest - Night
I was outside in a forest, sitting by a lake. It seemed to be very similar to an area DL and I often sit and chill. However, the lake here was larger. The moon was shining on the water. I then saw something in the sky - I looked up and saw it was a globe shape - about the size of a pound coin, right above the lake. This globe was black and had stars and a crescent moon in glowing yellow inside it. Suddenly, the globe glowed green and fell from the sky into the lake. Another one appeared in the sky and the same thing happened. I stood up, scared. I perceived this to be 'aliens'. I had been using my laptop to do some studying (in the dark forest at night!) and I was wearing a backpack. I stood up and gripped my laptop to my chest so that I could run with it, safely. I started to run away from the lake, to avoid the alien activity. I could hear other people some distance away (I perceived them to be students of my university) who also scared of the alien objects in the sky, falling to the ground. I cannot say what the threat was - the objects were literally just a globe with stars and a moon in them and nothing happened when they fell to Earth. I wasn't even surprised that it happened, just scared.
Scene 2: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night
I returned home to my bedroom and found that my work phone (the on-call duty phone we use in our work in Student Support) was on the floor, near my wardrobe. I was shocked as I had not been aware that I was on duty and I must never leave the phone unattended as I must respond immediately to students contacting me. On the phone was a text - which appeared to be from the mother of a female student who was trying to get hold of her daughter in an emergency. The text was from 2.5 hours ago and I was worried and anxious that I had not done my job properly.
I went to an outside area where I found a group of female students and my housemate/colleague, SC. I told SC about the text and how I had not seen it until now. He told me not to worry and said we would find the student in question and tell her to contact her mother. The area we were in was not one I know from real life. We were sitting on some benches. I saw one female, with a very round freckled face and long straight blonde hair sitting right at the edge of the bench. I asked if she was the student whose mother had tried to contact me, but she was not - I was mistaken. SC, the female students and I all got up from the benches and walked into one of the residential blocks on campus. It is not a 'real life' area of campus, but a dream-like approximation, which felt normal in the dream. We congregated in the corridor for a while and had a conversation while standing there.
SC and I then went into a room within this building. It was very dark and it seemed like a student study-bedroom, as I could see a single bed and a sink in the room. A female student - white, with brown shoulder-length hair - was sitting on the bed. There were other people in the room. I knew that SC and I must take the female dream character to a 'safe place' as she needed help in some way. Then, a male dream character entered the room. He was an older man, with a very pointed, evil looking face. He had white, wrinkled skin and a long, sharp nose, with small eyes and mouth. He looked 'witchy' and was dressed in dark clothing. I thought that he was a 'paedophile' or a 'sex offender'. He was trying to get the female student to go with him and I instantly knew that he would groom female students and then 'anally rape them'. I was horrified and was trying to convince the female student - now sitting, crying in fear - to come with SC and I, who would take her to safety. I knew that many impressional female students had been anally raped by this sex offender, who prowled the university campus trying to find victims. He would then 'adopt' the victim and take them away from university to live with him. I needed to convince the female students not to trust this man and not to leave the campus with him.
There was some kind of creature - it was bear-like, but not a bear. It also looked a little like a Wookie, but it walked on all-fours. It wasn't any animal I can identify. I am not sure how this creature related to the rest of the dream narrative.
I cannot recall anything else about this dream at present.
Extra Information:
None of note
Recurrent Dream Themes:
Dreamsigns:
Day Residue:
Waking Reactions:
This dream was really strange and unsettling for a number of obvious reasons. Some of this dream can be easily explained by reference to Day Residue, but the rest cannot be readily interpreted. This dream was very long and complex and when I first woke up (startled by the knocking sound from outside), I was able to recall pretty much all of it. However, the fact I was writing up a number of dreams this morning, means that my precise memories of this dream have faded somewhat. I think that some of these memories may return to me subsequently, as I went through my usual process of closing my eyes and running through the dream narrative in my head immediately upon waking, which helps me consolidate and process dream memories. Sometimes, the memories fade before I can record them, but then come back to me later, when triggered by something during my waking day. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below.
Recurrent Dream Themes:
- My laptop
- Aliens
Dreamsigns:
- The scene by the lake with the falling 'alien' globes
- The paedophile/sex offender dream character grooming female students
Day Residue:
- My laptop battery is defunct - and my laptop can only operate for a couple of minutes while not plugged into the electrical mains. I had been emailing a student who I am helping in my Student Support job (unplugged, due to my own stupidity) when it started to shut down. I had to pick up my laptop and run to my room to plug it in before it shut down and lost all my work (1 day before)
- Various recent work-related issues: parents contacting us trying to find their children who have not been in contact; colleagues not seeing texts when they are received on the phone (through no fault of their own, as we do not tend to encourage students to text the phone in case it doesn't wake us in an emergency); colleagues forgetting they are on duty as per the rota (recent, ongoing)
Waking Reactions:
This dream was really strange and unsettling for a number of obvious reasons. Some of this dream can be easily explained by reference to Day Residue, but the rest cannot be readily interpreted. This dream was very long and complex and when I first woke up (startled by the knocking sound from outside), I was able to recall pretty much all of it. However, the fact I was writing up a number of dreams this morning, means that my precise memories of this dream have faded somewhat. I think that some of these memories may return to me subsequently, as I went through my usual process of closing my eyes and running through the dream narrative in my head immediately upon waking, which helps me consolidate and process dream memories. Sometimes, the memories fade before I can record them, but then come back to me later, when triggered by something during my waking day. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below.
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