Dream 1006 (LUKE SKYWALKER SEX DREAM)

'Older Luke Skywalker Seduces Me Again, this Time in a Slime-Covered Hotel Room, in Breach of his Probation'

Date: 10 July 2019
Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Day
I was in a house, which in the dream was my home, but is not one I recognise from real life. It was a normal, terraced house with a front garden. I cannot recall the furniture or decor of the house, but nothing stood out as odd. I was in the living room, looking out at the front garden and the street in front of me - which was a suburban street. This is how I knew it was daytime and that the house had a front garden. The garden was very green and lush - quite overgrown with grass, weeds and wild flowers. I think it was sunny - it was bright outside. I felt like I was waiting for something or someone to arrive at the house. I cannot recall if there were any other dream characters present. 

At some point, I saw Mark Hamill (Luke Skywalker in Star Wars) arrive and I knew that he was the person I was waiting for - and he was late, but this felt 'normal' and 'expected' of Luke Skywalker (I was aware that this was Luke Skywalker - so his character from Star Wars existed, rather than him being his actual self - note that he was his real life age, not a young Luke Skywalker). Luke Skywalker was holding a gift box which was wrapped up in pink shiny paper. I knew this was a gift for me and was excited. I let Luke Skywalker into the house. He was dressed in brown Jedi robes, but looked really scruffy and dirty and in a bad mood. I was given the gift, and I saw the wrapping paper looked holographic. I opened it and inside was a crescent-shaped piece of cheese, which looked extremely like a banana, although I am not sure if I actually noticed this in the dream or whether this is just my conscious recognition (see my Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment (QDI#4) below - in which the dream trigger was a banana. Luke Skywalker told me that the cheese was 'Quebec' (this was the type of cheese it was, not where it was from). I knew in my own mind that Quebec cheese was made from crack cocaine, so I did not want to accept the gift, although I also did not want to directly say this to Luke Skywalker because I did not want to offend him. We were standing together and I cannot recall what we talked about, but I think there was some conversation here. 

Scene 2: A Hotel - Night
Luke Skywalker and I then went to a hotel together. I am not sure of where the location was, but it was in the same town we had been in when inside the domestic interior of Scene 1 - the reason we had gone to the hotel was because Luke Skywalker was worried that he would be found by his Probation Officer, because he wasn't allowed to be near 'areas of nature' (meaning anything where there were plants, or so I understood in the dream). The hotel was at the seaside and was a big, white wedding-cake style hotel (my favourite type!) on a cliff. I was wondering if grass counted as 'nature' under the terms of Luke Skywalker's probation, but I did not ask Luke Skywalker this, because I was aware he was already angry about something (I am not sure if I ever knew what he was angry about - if I did, I have forgotten). Inside the hotel, everything was purple and very old fashioned/classic British seaside hotel style. There were a number of dream characters in the lobby area. We went to a hotel room, which was on the ground floor. It was really awful inside the room, because everything was slimy - it was as if someone or something had coated every single piece of furniture with a thin layer of clear slime, which was repulsive to me, even in the dream. I did not know where the slime had come from or why it was there. I am not sure what happened in between, but the next thing I recall from this dream was going into the ensuite bathroom with Luke Skywalker and having sex with him in the bath, which was not slimy - it was white, probably porcelain (I am guessing). The bathroom was the only clean area of the hotel room. In the dream the sex I had with Luke Skywalker was really satisfying and passionate (in missionary position only, as far as I recall). I do not think this was a wet dream (as in I do not think that I experienced a real life orgasm) but it felt climactic in the dream itself and I really fancied Luke Skywalker. In the dream it appeared that I was single - i.e. not dating my real life boyfriend AJR, as there was no thought of cheating or infidelity and I was not trying to hide the fact I was on a date with Luke Skywalker. There was a knock at the hotel door and I was trying to tell Luke Skywalker not to answer it because I wanted to have sex with him again. It appeared that we had not taken our clothes off to have sex because we were already fully clothed at this time. Luke went to answer the door. It was his Probation Officer, telling him that he had breached his probation by being next to nature (I think he must have found out Luke Skywalker had been to my house earlier). Luke Skywalker was arguing that he had not breached his probation and he had proof, because the 'vlog' would show this (it seemed like he might have been vlogging our journey to the hotel? I'm not sure what he meant by this). I came out of the bathroom into the bedroom part of the hotel room and noticed that it was very dark. I could see that Luke Skywalker's Probation Officer was Jason Nash (of the Vlog Squad, and ex-boyfriend of Trisha Paytas). He was standing in the doorway of the hotel room, wearing a navy uniform which I thought made him look like an old-fashioned police officer and I wondered why he was dressed like this. I also thought that Jason Nash was very hypocritical to be warning Luke Skywalker about breaching his probation, because he was a Youtuber and therefore, did not need to be earning money as a Probation Officer. Luke Skywalker was told that he had to go to court in the morning so that he could be tried for breaching his probation. I told Jason Nash that the vlog footage wouldn't be edited by then and the case should be adjourned, but Jason Nash said he didn't care. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream after this scene.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place within the 24 hours I was attempting Quickshot Dream Incubation | QDI#4 (see my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1 and my video for QDI#4, below) - I had some partial success here! Stay tuned for QDI#5!
• On the day of this dream I had been talking to DL about Mark Hamill being the voice actor for Chucky in the 2019 remake of Child's Play (1988)
• AJR is coming up for parole in the next couple of days, so the reference to probation conditions relates to that - and we specifically discussed probation breaches the day of this dream
• I had been watching a Jason Nash video on Youtube on the day of this dream

Previous Luke Skywalker/Mark Hamill Dreams:

• Dream 619 - 'Luke Skywalker' (3 May 2016) - me being in a hotel with either Luke Skywalker or Mark Hamill (not sure which) as his younger self - getting him to perform a phone-related task I did not want to do myself
• Dream 683 - 'Fried Eggs' (22 August 2016) - dream fragment involving Mark Hamill and a large fried egg
• Dream 875 - 'Lightsaber Fail' (False Awakening/Lucid Dream) (September 2017) - a simple reference to me having possession of Luke Skywalker's lightsaber
• Dream 902 - 'Sex with Luke Skywalker' (30 January 2018) - amazing sex dream in a hotel room with an older Luke Skywalker
• Dream 914 - 'A Star Wars Redux' (13 January 2018) - re-making Star Wars with a young Mark Hamill reprising his role as Luke Skywalker
• Dream 962 - 'Thieving Pigeons & Mark Hamill's Lack of Help' (9 March 2019) - Mark Hamill fails to adequately help to decontaminate a wardrobe following an infestation of thieving pigeons
• Dream 975 - 'Adopted Twins' (7 May 2019) - this took place during my Dream Incubation Experiment - A Star Wars Adventure and was a simple reference to the fact Luke Skywalker as a male twin 'adopted' at birth, within the Star Wars movie franchise (i.e. I recognised him as a fictional character)

Dream 1000

'Choosing the Love of My Life in a Dream'

Date: 30 June 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in an interior environment with my ex-boyfriend PS. I cannot recall much about the location of the dream, other than it felt very 'fairytale' - there was some wood and some plants. There was also a bed. I recognised PS was being very weird with me - quiet and vague, as if his mind was elsewhere, or he did not want to be with me. I decided I needed to ask him, and he reassured me he did want to be with me. I was stressed. I noticed PS was wearing a leather belt with some kind of white studs on it - not the style I would associate with him in real life. Although I did not pick up on it in the dream, his jeans were higher up towards his waist - he used to wear them very low, below his butt cheeks. There was something (unrecalled in detail) about a blonde woman who I felt jealous of, as if she was my rival for PS' affections - I am not sure if she appeared in the dream in person, or whether I was just thinking about her. This part of the dream was unclear. I was laying on the bed and PS tried to mount me in the missionary position, while undoing his belt. I then moved away from him, which made him angry with me, because I was avoiding physical contact with him. I said that we should go for a walk. 

Scene 2: A Street - Day
PS and I were then outside, walking, with N the Dog beside us. We were on a city street and it was very overcast - this is something I specifically remember noticing in the dream. I am not sure if I noticed any other dream characters in this outside location, but I do remember seeing tall red brick walls to my right, at a point where it felt like I was standing in front of PS, facing him, rather than standing beside him. It was as if we were in some backlot or wide passageway behind buildings at this point. We were arguing. I cannot recall the specifics of the argument, but it was clear that it was about our relationship and the way we were not getting on. PS told me he needed to go and make a video and he would be leaving me by myself (this was something that used to happen in real life at times, when I was living with PS in London, around the time I began this Blog). 

I was walking alone in the city and I came to a shop window display. I knew it was night now, suddenly, because the window display was illuminated against the dark of the street. I did not think it was odd that the time had changed so rapidly. I am still not sure if there were other dream characters present, but this was a main street. The shop window was displaying diamonds - of all sizes, from very small (which would fit in a modest ring) to huge ones, the size of tennis balls, or perhaps a little larger. The rest of the display seemed to be white and glass, but I cannot recall many details. The window was on a corner of the building, so it had an edge and 2 sides. I was impressed by the beautiful display of diamonds, but not as much as I would in real life - it seemed almost ordinary in the dream. 

A car then pulled up and I got into it, as if it was what I was intended to do - although I do not recall how I knew it was OK for me to get in the car. It was dark - perhaps black or navy, grey etc. The back of the car had a partition between whoever the driver was and those sitting in the back - like a limousine or a taxi. RBA was sitting with his back to the driver, in a rear-facing seat. He was wearing a pair of large aviator shades, with very reflective silver-blue mirrored lenses. I cannot recall what else he was wearing in this dream. I sat opposite him, in the front-facing seat. RBA told me he was in the middle of a weed deal and he was delivering a large quantity of cannabis in a black bin bag to someone on this street (he may have said who, but I cannot recall). I then remember looking out of the car window, to my right (weirdly, I have realised that, because of the way the car approached me (from the right) and how I got into the back seat, behind the right-side driver, this means the car had been driving on the wrong side of the road for the UK). Now it was daylight - and sunny. Again, I did not find this odd. The diamond shop window display should have been right in my field of vision, as we had not driven anywhere at all and had remained parked on the curbside. Everything had a yellow tinge to it, maybe from the sunshine. The shop was now selling 'Oombies', which were small, knitted spheres, the size of pool balls, in a variety of colours. I knew what they were because they were a popular thing - a trend. The outside of the Oombie shop looked like it was made of sandstone and belonged at the seaside. The large window display was gone, and there was a small serving hatch, with a striped sunshade on it, which again looked like it belonged at the seaside. 

RBA told me to try on his sunglasses. I did - and when I looked at my reflection (not sure how I saw myself, as it just seemed as if a mirror popped up in front of me as soon as I tried the sunglasses on). My face was bright red and flushed - I noticed this as being odd in the dream. RBA said: 'they don't suit you' and I agreed with him. He began to exit the car to head into the the Oombie shop, with his black bin bag of cannabis. 

Scene 3: A Bedsit - Day
I then found myself round the back of some buildings, and I knew that I was near to the sea, although I cannot recall if I ever knew what town/city I was in. The sun was shining. The back of the buildings were very rundown - with a lot of rubbish/litter on the ground. The walls of the building I was standing in front of were white and peeling/cracked (looking back on this with hindsight, this was very much reminiscent of Seacliff (aka 'Salty Towers'), a building containing bedsits, on the clifftops of Sheringham (which I happened to refer to in conversation a couple of days before this dream - see below images for reference). However, I do not think I was actually in Sheringham in this dream. This was definitely the back entrance to the property, as I knew it was a block of flats/bedsits and that I was not going in the front entrance. I entered and the building was dark inside and felt either old or unclean, or both. There were doors going off the corridor, and then concrete stairs/steps up to the next floor. I cannot recall any furnishings/decor in this place. I went up one flight of stairs, which curved round. On the first floor, it was similar to the ground floor, but I knew which door to approach. I entered as it was unlocked. I was in a bedsit - it was furnished in a typical way - no specific details stand out in my mind, other than there was definitely a bed and an armchair in the same room, that everything looked old-fashioned or retro in a way I cannot describe, and that the curtains were letting sunlight stream into the room from between the holes in the fabric (blue/green?) AJR was in the room - he was standing by the window, with his back to me. When I came into the room, he turned around. I was there to tell him that I had chosen to be with him, and it appeared that this had been a decision I had always had to make (i.e. within the dream it was not a spur of the moment thing, or as spontaneous as the dream narrative makes it seem), because AJR said to me that he had been waiting for me to make up my mind since I'd come home - the implication being I'd been in a foreign country (I have no idea where, it was just clear to me in the dream that I had been somewhere and that it was overseas - in real life I do not travel and have not travelled since 2005/6 time when I went to Amsterdam for the weekend with my ex-boyfriend HL, prior to my relationship with PS). AJR told me we were going to eat lobster for breakfast, which made me pleased (breakfast appeared to be the next meal, which is in keeping with the weird time skips in this dream). He said we should walk 'down to the traffic lights' to go and collect the fresh lobsters from the fishermen. At this stage - and I recall this clearly - I noticed AJR was wearing blue and white checked tracksuit bottoms (see below image - with hindsight, they resembled chef's trousers, as pictured, due to this being the exact same design I saw in my dream) and a blue T-shirt. I know I only just noticed this, because within the dream I thought it was odd that I'd never seen him wear a blue T-shirt before now (I don't think I have! Maybe I've noticed a blue T-shirt worn under the HMP Wayland regulation shirt).

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• THIS IS DREAM 1000! To celebrate, I will record a Youtube video (with a direct quote from AJR about this dream) and do a detailed dream analysis/interpretation separately from this post - therefore I will comment on specific/particular dream residue events/real life influences in that post, rather than here
• I am so pleased that Dream 1000 seems (on the surface level at least) to have some kind of significance. I had been having trouble remembering dreams which would be recorded as Dream 999 and Dream 1000 - maybe because I was placing so much emphasis on them, and perhaps because I was smoking some cannabis at this time, which has a negative impact on dreaming/dream recall (until you experience the REM Rebound Effect -  click here for an explanation of this phenomena and also click here for an article on the effect of cannabis on dreaming). This dream happened to take place during a short period in which I had not smoked any cannabis, making the REM Rebound Effect a possibility. I had also taken a Vitamin B Complex pill, which, contains Vitamin B6, which is known to have a positive effect on dream recall (I started taking the vitamins 2 days before this dream took place)
• Of course, this dream appears to be very significant due to me 'choosing' AJR over PS. It is also worth noting that I first started dating PS shortly before I met AJR 11-12 years ago - it would have been during the first 6 - 8 months of my relationship, because I had not yet moved to London with PS, and therefore left my law firm, through which I met AJR. I also first met RBA around that time - I knew of him from online (he was/is a successful battle rapper) - I first met him in person at the same time I started dating PS, this being around the same time I met AJR. The fact the dream characters and narrative of this dream all have some contemporaneous link within my real life makes it appear more significant, if that makes sense. I will analyse/interpret this dream more thoroughly in due course. Meanwhile, check out these posts which explain my relationship with AJR and strange dream phenomena surrounding my relationship with him:

• STORYTIME: I DREAMED OF THE FUTURE LOVE OF MY LIFE, MANY YEARS AGO (EVIDENCE PROVIDED!)
• Lucid Dream Phenomena - Telepathic Boyfriend?
• Love on Lockdown | A Very Candid Insight into Tallulah La Ghash 
• Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian' - I'm linking this dream record because at the bottom of this post there is a list of previous dreams which involve my 'Dream Town' - a location which exists as a recurrent symbol/theme throughout my dreams over the years. This post also explains a potential anomaly between the name of this 'Dream Town' and my relationship with AJR - the name of my 'Dream Town' (which I had investigated and questioned in the past) is pretty much that of the nearest town to where AJR will be living when he first comes out of prison. I am hoping to do a through investigation into my 'Dream Town' dreams at some stage, so I will address this there, too. However, I felt it was worth highlighting this ominous aspect of my dreams since it felt significant to me

The following conversation took place during a telephone conversation with AJR, a few days after this dream. I had previously told him the content of Dream 1000, and during this subsequent telephone conversation I asked for his impressions/reactions so that I could put it on record. I transcribed this conversation verbatim during the conversation:

Me: What do you think about Dream 1000?

AJR: I can't remember it. I remember you telling me, but not the details

[I tell AJR the content of Dream 1000 again]

AJR: OK, you want a quote. I wish you'd stayed with him [my ex-boyfriend, PS] for fuck sake!

Me: You can't say that or I'll get demonetised!

AJR: Oh the phone beeped [indicating the phone call is about to time out, after approximately 20 minutes per call] Saved by the bell! I love it when that happens!

The following part of our conversation was not transcribed, so I am recounting it in my own words. When I described the outfit that AJR was wearing, and pointed out I had never seen him wear a blue T-shirt before, he said that he was wearing a blue T-shirt at that very moment - and blue and white shorts (striped).

Dream 884

'Sexy Time'

Date: 10 December 2017

Time: 04:00 - 08:30

Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a house, but not one I know from real life. It was a normal home, nothing out of the ordinary. SS, someone I know from real life, was present. I have not seen him in years and have not had cause to think about him recently. In the dream SS wanted to have sex with me and we went into a bedroom in the house where we started to have sex on the bed, which had white sheets on it. I was on top of SS, riding him, and he was enjoying this, especially as I was able to move my hips really fast and rhythmically. I had a powerful orgasm. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• None of note

Dreamsigns: 

• I was having sex with SS

Day Residue: 

• None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This was a very enjoyable dream experience and I woke up feeling really sexually aroused! I found it odd that SS was the sexual partner in this dream, as I don't find him particularly attractive and hadn't consciously thought about him. 

Dream 861 (FALSE AWAKENING/LUCID DREAM/SEX DREAM)

'Ewan McGregor, My Lucid Lover & Bad Teacher'

Date: 9 August 2017

Time: 22:30 - 05:00

Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening (Fully Lucid with Moderate Dream Control & Moderate Dream Stability)
Dream recall: Strong recall 

False Awakening - My Bedroom
I woke up in my bed, facing the wall, so my back was towards the empty space in the room. I could feel something poking me in my back and felt scared, but strangely accepted this - at this point I was not lucid nor aware this was a false awakening. I just seemed to think: 'Not this again!' Then, suddenly, it was as if my logical reasoning switched on, because I questioned what could be poking my back when I was alone in my house and did not ever sleep with anyone present in the room. I realised this must be a false awakening and I was in a dream state. I found that I did not have sleep paralysis and could move freely, so I sat up suddenly, wondering what I would see in my room. I reached out my hand, in the dark, seeing that my room did look as I would expect it to in real life, other than my duvet was white, not purple. I wished for a knife to come into my hand, so I could be protected (given most of my false awakenings lead to nightmarish happenings, even when I am lucid). A long kitchen knife appeared in my outstretched hand. 

I felt that there was something in the room, just behind the curtain - the window is above the pillows on my bed. I started shouting: 'Come out!' because I just wanted it to reveal itself as soon as possible so that the dream could move forward, as the tension and apprehension was unpleasant. Nothing happened. I decided to change the dream and make it more interesting, so I started shouting: 'Ewan!' hoping to bring Ewan McGregor into my dream.

Amazingly, after I shouted out Ewan's name a few times, I saw him standing against what, in real life, would be my fitted wardrobe, but in the dream version was a plain white wall. Ewan looked as he does while playing Mark Renton in Trainspotting (1996), so very young and skinny. He had his hands out on either side, like a crucifixion. He was wearing a navy T-shirt and jeans. I could see a strip of flesh where his T-shirt was riding up on his waist. He looked like he had been out in the rain, or very sweaty. This image of him was very clear to me, like I saw it on a photograph and looked at it for a long time. It was dark in my room, as it would be in real life, but it was just light enough to see colours. 

I laid back on my bed and opened my legs wide - I was naked (in real life I was wearing shorts and a cropped top). Ewan approached me and - without me seeing/waiting for him to undress, he was naked and we started having sex in the missionary position (click here and here for articles on Lucid Dream Sex; and here for an article on Wet Dreams). 

This was one of the best lucid dream experiences, as I love Ewan and the sex was mind-blowing, I could feel the build up to an orgasm (so, leading to a wet dream), but I lapsed from lucidity and went into a normal non-lucid dream before I could reach the climactic finale of the sex with Ewan. This was obviously disappointing to me when I woke up and thought about this subsequently. 

Scene 1: A School - Day
I was in a school - not one from real life. It seemed to be a high school. AKB - a girl I went to school with was present. There was a school dinner - with baked beans and potatoes and something else on the plate. We were sitting at desks - myself, AKB and other students who may or may not have been people I knew from real life. I was then aware that Ewan McGregor was my teacher. I was in love with him - and he was Ewan McGregor the actor, not just him as a regular teacher, so I felt overwhelmed to be in his class. I cannot recall what Ewan was wearing at this stage in the dream, but I do not think he was wearing the costume I saw him in later. There was an assignment and he was coming round to look at our exercise books to make sure we were doing the work correctly. He looked at the work of a male dream character and seemed to be impressed. The phrase 'common den' was on someone's work - and Ewan read this phrase out. In my waking mind, it may be 'come on then', but my perception was that it was 'common den' as I started thinking about a small room. 

When Ewan came to look at my work, I stood up from my desk. I then realised that the room was open-plan and had no walls - as I could see the corridor behind us. Ewan was not impressed with my work, and furthermore, he seemed annoyed at me and very aloof and rude. I realised that he was able to see - from my writing in the exercise book (which I could not specifically read - and was written in pencil) - that I was in love with him. This seemed to make him act more rudely towards me, and I got the idea that he was trying to exploit me in some way. 

I followed Ewan out into the corridor. He was now dressed as Lumiere from Beauty and the Beast and he started prancing down was looked like a typical school corridor, with lockers and classroom doors on one side, and windows down the other. Groups of students - mainly male - were praising Ewan as he pranced by. He seemed very smug and patronising and everyone seemed to be in thrall of his celebrity status and were telling him what a great teacher he was. I did not think he was a great teacher at all - I thought he was too over-confident and arrogant and did not care for his students at all. I kept trying to stop Ewan so that I could have a rational discussion with him about why his teaching was bad and why I felt angry at his behaviour towards me, but he just kept indicating that we should walk (well, he was prancing, I was walking backwards at one point, facing him, while trying to get his attention) so that we could reach whatever location we were heading towards. This part of the dream was very frustrating. 

Scene 2: A Suburban Area - Dusk
I was aware that I was in a relationship with PS, my ex-boyfriend, who I had had some form of argument with. I was outside a house on a housing estate, which is not one I know from real life. In the dream, PS lived in a semi-detached brick house, which was in a typical suburban street with cars parked on the side of the road. PS was accusing me of having an affair with his friend, LRB, who in the dream had snitched on PS for some criminal activity - maybe it was possession of cannabis? It wasn't clear. I was telling PS that I had not cheated on him with LRB, but he was not willing to listen. LRB turned up in a car - in the dream he had ginger-brown hair, not black hair. He tried to reason with PS, telling him that he had not snitched and I had not cheated, but PS would not listen. The next thing I recall, I was in a public toilet with LRB. It turned out that now we were romantically or sexually involved with each other - we were looking at something in a bag on the floor of the toilet. 

I was then at the seaside with PS, standing on a pier. I was trying to explain events to him and make up with him, as it was him I wanted to be with. However, he was not interested. I tried to hug him and was rejected, which left me feeling very sad. 

Scene 3: A Home - Day
I was then looking at a male dream character, who in the dream was a Youtuber. I am not sure if I was there in person or watching him on a screen, as I was not part of the action, I was a passive observer. The male was young (20s or early 30s) and white, with brown hair. He was quite thin and dressed very casually - I knew he was 'working-class'. He was sitting in an armchair in a normal lounge, slouched and drinking a can of lager. He seemed to be very annoyed and was talking - as if recording a video for Youtube, as it was a ranting monologue, not a conversation. He described going into 'the city' and buying some very cheap jeans - a fact which he was pleased about at first. Then he started talking about a baby daughter who had been treated negligently by a doctor with 'dirty hands' which had led to something going wrong. It wasn't clear what it was. 

Then my attention was drawn to a TV screen, which was playing an episode of a chat show or a morning TV show, which was revealing the incident which happened to the Youtuber's daughter - it was the episode where the child had been treated by the doctor. I just watched this.

The TV show had a normal set - with sofas. There was a male TV doctor - a white middle-aged man, who was wearing a suit. There was a young blonde woman, who was the partner of the Youtuber, and the mother of his child. The child was about 2 years old - maybe younger. She had blonde hair too - but baby hair, thin and wispy. The mother was holding a bottle of water. The doctor picked up the child and held her, with her back to the camera. He asked the mother to pour the water over the child's head, which she did, wetting her hair. This revealed a huge golf-ball sized lump on the back of the child's head. The doctor started talking about this medical condition in a very worried way. 

Scene 4: The Forest Area near my Home, Norwich - Day
I was walking down the footpath which is between a field with horses and the forest. I was walking towards my home. In the footpath, there was a line of dead horses - they were in the field adjacent, but their heads were sticking through the fence into the footpath. I saw the owner of the horses, who in the dream I perceived to be 'the farmer'. I blamed him for the death of his horses. He seemed to be poking at their heads with some kind of garden tool. I was angry with him. I saw a small animal - it was a 'donkey' in the dream, but it was actually a donkey's head with a lamb's body. It was the size of a kitten. I really wanted this animal as it was so cute. I picked it up and started walking over the heads of the dead horses, towards the farmer, wondering if he would try and stop me from taking the miniature donkey-lamb (as I assumed it belonged to him). I thought that if he tried to stop me, I would object on the basis that he had killed his own horses and was not good at caring for animals. I reached the farmer, at the bottom of the footpath. He did not try and take the donkey-lamb from me, but we did have a conversation, which was not friendly and involved me accusing him of killing the horses and him making excuses for it. I looked beyond him, towards the grassy field on my university campus (from the position I was in I would not quite be able to see this part of the campus at this location/angle). I could see a bunch of sheep and a huge animal which was the size of a brontosaurus and appeared to be a cross between a sheep and a giraffe, but was covered in pale grey fluffy fur. I asked the farmer how he would 'shear the sheep' and wondered if he would shave the wool from the miniature donkey-lamb (which I did not want him to do). The donkey-lamb had weird teeth - they were large, square and very blunt, all in a perfectly aligned row. Even though the teeth were completely blunt, I was scared of the animal biting me. I decided to put the donkey-lamb in my handbag as I walked over to some stables. These stables were where the Broads/lake would be on campus in real life. They were made of red brick, and had hay/straw on the floor. There was an open space to enter (no doors), with a number of concrete steps up to the entrance. The animals - full-sized sheep and donkeys - were in pens which had hip-high wooden fencing keeping them in. I was wondering if I should leave the donkey-lamb here. It then jumped out of my bag and stopped on the steps at the entrance. I thought I had lost it for good, but I was able to approach it and catch it again. I put it back in my bag, worried that it would bite me. This was a constant worry. I then remembered that I had prawn sandwiches in my handbag and thought that the donkey-lamb might pee on them and ruin them. I wanted to take the prawn sandwiches out of the bag, but I was scared in case the donkey-lamb bit me. Eventually, I worked up the courage to put my hand in my bag and found that the donkey-lamb had eaten the prawn sandwiches and there was just empty cardboard packaging left in my bag. I was not angry about the sandwiches being eaten, but I was surprised that the donkey-lamb had eaten them. I walked off. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Ewan McGregor as a dream character
• School/learning institution
• Prawns

Dreamsigns: 

• The Lucid False Awakening
• I was back at school - Ewan McGregor was my teacher
• I was in a relationship with my ex-boyfriend and had cheated on him with his friend, LRB 
• The Youtuber who appeared on a TV show - the way this part of the dream took place, it was clearly an event which could only happen in a dream
• The dead horses
• The donkey-lamb and the gigantic sheep-giraffe
• The stables which were on my university campus, where the Broads/lake should be
• I had eaten prawns a few days before this dream

Day Residue: 

• Ewan McGregor is someone I think about every day. The influences on this dream were from images/movies he has appeared in, which I would have been exposed to in my waking day - Mark Renton in Trainspotting (1996); Lumiere in Beauty and the Beast (2017); Obi-Wan Kenobi in the Star Wars prequel trilogy. In a conversation with DL I had mentioned that Ewan had done more theatrical roles as well and we discussed his acting career. The Christ-like pose I saw him in may have reflected the fact that one of my favourite internet memes (see below) is based on the fact so many people mistake him as a depicted of Jesus when he is dressed as Obi-Wan Kenobi. He has actually played Jesus in a movie I have never watched - Last Days in the Dessert (2015). I think the reference to him being a bad teacher was a post I read online about Obi-Wan being a terrible Jedi Master for his padawan, Anakin Skywalker. I discussed this theory with DL also
• AKB works in the theatre industry
• I had been discussing Jeremy Kyle and The Jeremy Kyle Show
• I had been walking in the forest in the area in Scene 4 and seen the horses. During one conversation with DL I said: 'It would be weird to see one of the horses laying dead in the field'
• I had been watching a Youtube video by Bunny Meyer (Grav3yardgirl) where she refers to her 'pony teeth' and tries out a pair of false teeth facades, which did not fit her mouth. I love the fact that Bunny embraces her own 'imperfect' teeth, as I have always been paranoid about my own

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was amazing - firstly because it was partly a lucid sex dream involving Ewan McGregor, and secondly because the non-lucid part was so bizarre and complex and involved many elements of Day Residue. I was disappointed with the events of Scene 1 (because Ewan was not a pleasant character) and Scene 2 (as it was not a positive scene in any way), but overall, I found the dream experience to be fascinating and entertaining to recall. 

Dream 774 (NSFW - ADULT CONTENT)

'Crashing Weddings'

Date: 7 February 2017

Time: 22:30 - 04:00 & 04:40 - 12:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally, then went back to sleep shortly afterwards, where I had a second dream)

Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Day
I was aware that a friend from my university undergraduate days was getting married (this is a boy I thought I was in love with, and hooked up with a number of times, although nothing serious developed and we never had full sex, only foreplay. When this male started a relationship, he would still contact me and refer to his continued attraction towards me, which was frustrating as he only ever seemed to want me when I was unavailable, either because of his own relationship, or because I was with someone else myself). This male, PP was a composite of himself and Anakin Skywalker (so, Hayden Christensen, although PP is half-Asian and looks nothing like Anakin/Hayden in real life). In the dream I thought to myself 'they've been morphed several times to look like that' meaning they have been spliced together (I am not sure who was responsible for this) until they formed the ideal composition of both men - see below for an image I have created of PP and AS as a composite dream character which I made using a Face Morph programme, which is quite relevant to the dream. In the dream PPAS was actually marrying his real life wife, RS. I saw some scenes of what the wedding would look like - they appeared in my head or in the space before my eyes - I saw items draped with white fabric and flowers, with PPAS and RS standing holding hands. I decided that I should crash the wedding to prevent the marriage from happening, so that I could confess my love for PPAS and enter into a relationship with him. This did not seem immoral in the dream; in fact it seemed like the best possible idea and my mind was set on it. I was worried that I might be late for the wedding and miss the opportunity - I knew I only had an hour before the ceremony started, but thought that it might take me longer than that to get to the destination. 

I then woke up for a short while, before falling back asleep and having another dream, recorded below.

Scene 2: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I have referred to this scene as Scene 2, even though it was really a separate dream. I am not sure of how many scenes this dream had - I did not pay attention to my locations or surroundings and have forgotten many aspects of this part of my dream.

I was with R3A - his behaviour was different from usual and I was aware of someone (maybe a dream character, maybe someone I knew from real life) telling me that R3A was an expert on fine cuisine, which I did not believe in the dream (and is not true in real life). There seemed to be some kind of journey that R3A and I took together and me feeling relieved that he was accompanying me, rather than me having to go alone. I was happy to spend time with him. I know there was some interaction which I have forgotten.

I then saw R3A sitting on a chair. I decided that I wanted to have sex, so I began to straddle him. He said to me: 'There is so much wetness' and I was aware that fluid was gushing out from my vagina, a sign of how aroused I was. I positioned myself so that I could lower down onto his erect penis and I started riding him, feeling like I was about to orgasm - making this a 'wet dream'. I woke up during the sex part of this dream, before I was able to fully reach orgasm.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Star Wars 
• Men from my past
• R3A as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

• PP was a composite dream character with Anakin Skywalker
• PP was not yet married
• The interactions with R3A

Day Residue

• I had seen PP post on Facebook
• I see countless Anakin memes online every day
• On the day of this dream I watched a review of the animated movie, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) which features Anakin Skywalker - I had commented to my friend DL that the animation was terrible and none of the characters, especially Anakin, looked like they should
• I had watched a funny review of the Star Wars prequel movies on the day of this dream - in the review relating to Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002), I was reminded of the scene where Anakin secretly marries Padmé Amidala

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure how this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment. I always enjoy dream sex (it is the safest, most drama-free sexual experience for a single woman!) and I regret the fact that I woke up before I was able to achieve orgasm. In relation to Scene 1, I guess many years ago being able to start a relationship with PP would have been a very conscious and real desire of mine - but nowadays I have no residual feelings towards him. He is a married man and a father and to be honest, he doesn't really physically attract me as much as he used to, despite the fact he looks pretty much the same as he did when I knew him at university. 

I am aware I have forgotten some aspects of this dream - especially from the second section - Scene 2. If I recall anything else, I will record it below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 744 (WILD TECHNIQUE - 3 LUCID DREAMS & 'WET' DREAM SEX) (NSFW - ADULT CONTENT)

'Obi-Wan Kenobi's (i.e. Ewan McGregor's) Glorious Lightsaber'

Date: 19 December 2016

Time: 07:00 - 09:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: 3 x WILD (Wake-Initiated Lucid Dream)/Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

This is how I achieved the WILD (Wake-Initiated Lucid Dream). I went to bed physically and mentally exhausted after a long busy day. I was not sleep deprived from the night before. I did not take any dream-boosting supplements or eat a very nutritious diet (French fries & crisps was all I ate). I did some physical exercise before bed. 

My room was completely dark, with no light/sound distractions. I laid in my bed, on my back and relaxed all my muscles, letting them feel loose. My arms were by my side and my legs were slightly apart, so none of my limbs were touching my body. I used deep circular 'yoga' breathing (inhale through the nose/exhale through the mouth), keeping the rhythm regular and slow. To achieve the mind awake/body asleep paradox, I tried not to think about my body or be aware of it, remaining completely still. I began to meditate to keep my mind awake, using Paul Tholey's combined techniques of Intention and Auto-suggestion to focus my mind on the notion of having a successful lucid dream. 

I began to feel sleep paralysis set in - my body was rocking very slightly and falling backwards (it felt like I was on a boat gliding over gentle waves). My body began to 'vibrate' or buzz. Strangely (for me) I did not experiment hypnagogia during the onset of sleep paralysis, which I estimate began after about 10 minutes or so of my relaxation and meditation. As soon as I felt the 'roll over signal' (step 3 of the 'Stop, Drop & Roll Technique', which is used for WILD) become unbearable (the desire to roll over into a comfortable position and sleep), I turned onto my left side and fell asleep, immediately entering the first lucid dream.

WILD #1
I was immediately transitioned into a lucid dream, with no lapse in consciousness - it seemed that as soon as I rolled over and fell asleep that I was outside my house, on the field next to the lake. It was dark and the grass was wet. As there had been no lapse in consciousness, I did not need to perform a reality check - it was obvious that this was a lucid dream.

I could see a number of dream characters in front of me, but they were so far away and it was so dark that I could not make out who they were. I decided to try and summons my friend R3A into my dream, as he is a person who (as a dream character) is quite easy to get along with and can be convinced that he is a dream character, which makes interaction interesting and non-challenging. I called out to him and he shouted back: 'I'm over here!' I walked towards him and saw he was indeed, standing on the field in front of me, dressed in a white T-shirt and grey tracksuit bottoms (which he often wears in real-life). 

I said to him: 'You're in my lucid dream again!' and he accepted this immediately. We started walking and I saw that there was a little gate/fence we had to climb over, which had a gravel path, strewn with white flowers on the other side. R3A climbed over it and then grabbed my hand so that I could get over it too. We walked down the gravel path and I asked him some questions in the course of a private conversation (I do not wish to record the precise conversation here, as it relates to matters which could be private or at least, I have no consent to disclose on my Blog). He answered the questions in a way which made me wonder if these were likely to be his actual real-life answers, as they seemed like what he might say in waking reality. I asked him: 'Are you saying that because you are in my subconscious, or is this what the real you would say?' He said: 'You know me well enough to know the truth'. I am not sure what to make of this answer. 

We walked for a while longer, with some (unknown) dream characters slightly ahead of us. One of them was a female (I only saw her from the back). I asked R3A: 'Is that your girlfriend?' to which he answered: 'You know I don't want a girlfriend'. I accepted this answer, as he has said the same in real life. I just wanted to test him as a dream character to see if the dream version (or at least my subconscious perception) mirrored my real life friend's personality and demeanour. He seemed to be 100% the same as I would expect him to be in real life. 

I then woke up, in my bed. I performed a reality check to make sure I was really awake and that this was not a false awakening. The reality check I performed was trying to push the fingers of my right hand through my left palm. It confirmed I was really awake. I quickly started to perform the WILD technique again, certain I could re-enter the lucid dream state. 

WILD #2
I found myself on the field outside my house again - still dark with wet grass. I shouted out for R3A and he said: 'Yeah, I'm still here!' He approached me and seemed annoyed that I had left him (when I woke up). He said: 'I've been waiting here the whole time'. I told him I had woken up and had to re-enter the lucid dream again. We walked and in front of us was the promenade and beach of my home town, Sheringham. The sky was rapidly lightening, signalling dawn breaking. We approached the 'sea wall' and leant against it, looking out at the sea which was grey and stormy. I said to R3A: 'Do you like being a dream character in my lucid dreams?' to which he replied that he did not care. I asked him how it made him feel. He said: 'You are in control of this' which seemed like he understood the nature of being a character in my lucid dream. I said: 'But I want you to be your true self' to which he responded 'I'm as true as you imagine me to be'. I was pretty pleased that he recognised he was a dream character and that I was in control, but I wanted us to do something exciting. 

I decided that I should continually stabilise the dream, by rubbing my hands together or rubbing my hands on my thighs. The dream did feel very stable and vivid, with good clarity, but I was worried that I might become too excited and wake up prematurely. R3A said: 'Oh, you're stabilising the dream?' and I replied: 'Did you remember me doing that from the last lucid dream?' (he appeared in Dream 689 - 'My Weirdest Dream Experience') and he agreed that he did. We looked out to sea and I said: 'What should we do in this dream?' but woke up.

Again, I performed a reality check to make sure I was really awake and this was not a false awakening - it was not. I immediately started to perform the WILD technique again. 

WILD #3
I was then in a hotel corridor which had red walls and doors. R3A was with me. He asked me: 'Did you wake up again?' I told him I did, and I started to stabilise the dream again. At this point I was aware I was wearing a pair of shorts, as the technique I used was rubbing my thighs with my hands. I did this while standing in front of one of the doors at the end of the corridor, as I wanted to stabilise the dream before I went through the door. I then opened the door and found it led to a dark hotel bedroom, with a chair in the middle of the floor and a big broom in a wicker basket just in front of the window, with the curtains drawn shut.  I decided that since this was a fairly boring dream scene location and I had experienced 2 relatively 'realistic' (i.e. dull) dream scenes with R3A, I would try and change him into a more exciting dream character for some fun - of course I decided on Ewan McGregor, assuming that it would be easy, given both he and R3A have (broadly) similar accents. Also, I love him and have always wanted him to be a lucid dream character in a clear, stable lucid dream. I closed my eyes and visualised Ewan McGregor, dressed as the young 'Obi-Wan Kenobi' in Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999). I imagined him in the room with me and said out loud: 'Ewan?' His answer was in a Scottish accent, but until I opened my eyes, I could not be sure it wasn't still R3A. It was indeed Ewan McGregor, dressed as a Jedi Knight. He was sitting in the chair. I decided this was the perfect (and perhaps only) opportunity for me to seduce him. I closed my eyes again, imagining that I was dressed in the metal bikini worn by Princess Leia in Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983), as this is a fantasy cosplay outfit I have always wanted to own. However, when I opened my eyes, I was dressed in red lacy lingerie instead. I decided that I shouldn't try too hard to change the dream, as this might lead to me accidentally waking myself up, and I was desperate to have sex with Ewan McGregor, while he was sitting captive before me in a hotel room. I could see that he was sexually aroused (I could make a very dirty pun about his lightsaber here - but being blunt: he had an erect penis). I straddled him, pulling my red lacy French knickers to one side and I started to ride him. 

I soon became aware that I was so sexually stimulated - by the fact I was having sex with Ewan McGregor in a lucid dream and also because I got the rhythm just right for clitoral stimulation - that I was going to orgasm if I continued. Ewan was saying to me (breathless): 'I want you to cum, I want you to cum'. The strange this about this dream, is that usually, during (lucid or normal) dream sex, regardless of whether or not it ends up being a wet dream, it feels more like masturbation than actual penetration. This means that instead of feeling the other person's (i.e. the dream character's) body against mine in a physical sense, or the act of penetration, it just feels like clitoral stimulation. With Ewan, I could feel everything in the most realistic way possible. I was staring into his eyes and felt mentally connected to him in a way I have never felt in real life. This was the most intense sexual experience I have ever had. Ewan said (in his Scottish accent): 'Is it good for you?' and I was screaming: 'Yes, yes!' because genuinely, that was all I could say. I really wanted him to bend me over and take me roughly from behind, but I was so worried that if I tried to change any aspect of this dream I might wake up. I just kept riding him until I had the strongest, more awesome orgasm of my life. It was an entire mind/body orgasm which made every single part of me tingle and vibrate and flood with warmth. I felt oxytocin - i.e. the love hormone rush through my brain and I was kissing Ewan McGregor's face all over and he was kissing me back and holding onto my hips. I was aware that he came at the same time as me, but only after I finished coming, as I was so absorbed in my own orgasm that I nearly didn't hear the noises he was making. I will say here - he had the cutest cum face ever. 

I the must have entered a normal non-lucid dream, as after my orgasm was complete I found myself in a different scene.

Scene 1: My Bedroom at my Nan's House. Sheringham
I was in my bedroom in my Nan's house in Sheringham, sitting on my bed, facing the pillow/headboard. R3A was with me. I did not recall the fact I had just had 3 lucid dreams. I was looking at a laptop. A female (unknown who, but in the dream it was someone both R3A and I knew and disliked) had made some videos, victimising us in some way. I was watching these videos, which were Disney animations, featuring a weird, stretchy white rabbit (he had a very long neck and limbs which were bendy). I felt annoyed and threatened by the videos. R3A asked me what I was going to do (he seemed to have no good ideas). I said: 'I'm going to use my legal skills to sue her'. In the dream, I was going to sue her for copyright infringement or something similar and I was confident that I was going to win.

I cannot remember anything else about the non-lucid dream scene, as I woke up soon after that. I knew I was really awake.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• R3A as a dream character
• My Nan's house as a dream scene location
• Law

Dreamsigns: 

• R3A was at my Nan's house 
• The fact a video was used to victimise R3A and I

Day Residue: 

• On the day of this dream, I was watching a movie adaption of Go Ask Alice (1971). I had read that the title of the book was inspired by a Jefferson Airplane song, 'White Rabbit' (1967), which was based on Lewis Carroll's Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (1865)
• On the day of this dream I had watched a short Youtube video of what would happen if you entered a black hole - it showed the phenomenon of 'spaghettification' - which is where the body is stretched and elongated by the gravitational pull of the black hole - this is how the 'white rabbit' character looked like in the dream
• I am involved in a matter regarding my university Student Union which may have influenced this dream
• The day before this dream I had been reading a section of a media law/human rights textbook relating to copyright law

Waking Reactions: 
This was the best dream I have ever experienced. It was clearly not really related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, given that it was a series of lucid dreams. However, not only was it exciting because of the dream content, but also because this represented my most successful attempt yet at inducing a lucid dream using the WILD Technique, which is notoriously difficult and often referred to as 'the holy grail of lucid dream induction'. The fact this was also a wet dream was amazing. There is not much more I can say about this dream.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Sex Dreams - Q & A with Tallulah La Ghash

Out of all of the topics related to dreaming that I research and write on, dream sex (lucid or non-lucid) seems to be the theme which interests the majority of my readers/viewers, judging by engagement with content, search queries I can see in my Blog analytics, or questions asked by my audience. Therefore, I thought I would address the topic from a personal perspective, in the form of a Q & A session. 

What was the first sex dream you ever experienced?

I actually have no idea - I haven't got a written record of it, nor can I remember that far back. I couldn't even give you an estimate of what stage in my life it would have occurred. I do remember having 'wet dreams' when I was a teenager, and really enjoying the experience, although not knowing how to recreate the feeling of clitoral engorgement in real-life (i.e. I did not know how to masturbate, so my sex dreams were my only experience of arousal at that time). I can't remember who was involved in these dreams, although one does spring to mind - 'Shane Parrish' (played by Dieter Brummer), the 'bad boy' character in Home & Away. The sex happened in a convertible car! I was around 13 - 14 years old. I didn't particularly fancy him in real-life, but I remember the dream being pretty exciting.

What was the last sex dream you experienced?

I've had 2 sex dreams in recent times - Dream 608 - 'Weird Sex Dream' where a male dream character told me I had to have sex with SW, a male friend who I went to school with, and am still in casual contact with. The dream involved sexual intercourse, but didn't feel 'sexual'. I then had Dream 610 - 'Weird Weed in Bad Hotel', which was more enjoyable, because it was an actual wet dream where I had an orgasm. Both of these dreams involved me having sex in front of other dream characters in the room. In the earlier dream (Dream 608) I was told I had to have sex with SW, wherea in Dream 610, the sex happened spontaneously.

How often do you experience sex dreams?
Not as regularly as I would like - perhaps once every few months, sometimes more. Usually when I am experiencing a 'dry spell' in real-life.

What was your favourite sex dream?

I can't find the precise dream to link, but it was a dream which involved a male friend - it was just straight sex, nothing unusual. I would also say that masturbating in a lucid dream gave me a very strong and pleasurable sexual response, quite different to anything else I have experienced in the dream state. I didn't even need to touch myself with my hands - I started to meditate and the result of meditating in a lucid dream (via WILD) was experienced as a powerful full body orgasm, during which I was bathed in glowing golden light. I have also masturbated in another lucid dream - I just decided to sit down and touch myself.

What was your least favourite sex dream?

I can't actually think of my least sex dream - I don;t tend to have 'bad' sex dreams, just ones which aren't sexually satisfying or involve people I would not actually have sex with in real-life. In terms of dreams which involve sex, I would say the worst are those which involve family members (I had one in which I was Beyonce and my stepdad was trying to seduce 'me' - as Beyonce); and others where my grandfather (who is dead in real-life) had been sexually inappropriate towards me and my cousin HM. 

Which celebrities have you had dream sex with?

I have had sex with Johnny Depp in a lucid dream (WILD/false awakening) and I was about to have sex with Kurt Cobain in another lucid dream, but was disturbed before it could happen, which was massively disappointing. There have been other celebrities, of course, but these are the ones which stand out in my memory. I would also add that I have a number of dreams where Eminem (Marshall Mathers III) is my husband or partner and as a result I have started to fancy him in real-life, which I didn't before. I haven't experienced sex with him in a dream (that I can recall - although I may have and just forgotten), but I am looking forward to that dream taking place and it may need to be a dream incubation experiment, given my subconscious mind already seems to be pretty fixed on him!

Who is your fantasy sex dream partner?

Well, I still need to have dream sex with Kurt Cobain, since that one ended prematurely! And I am keen to have dream sex with my 'recurrent dream husband' Eminem - because I enjoy being married to him in my dreams. In fact, I would say Eminem is the one celebrity I need to incubate a sex dream about, since I have had so many positive 'romantic' experiences with him in the dream state, and this led me to actually finding him pretty sexy and attractive in real-life - something I had not considered before having recurrent dreams of relationships/marriage, as mentioned above - but which is demonstrative of the power of the subconscious mind on conscious thoughts and emotions. I have included the gif below because this is precisely how I wish to see him in the dream - the way he looked/dressed in 8 Mile (2002).

There are other celebrities I find attractive, for example, Ewan McGregor, which would be a pleasant experience, but I am not that bothered by who I have dream sex with. There is no-one in my real-life who I want to have dream sex with currently - if I want sex with a real-life person I know, the chances are, I would actually approach them for the real thing, not the dream version!

What is the weirdest way in which dream sex has affected your waking life?

I do think that it is possible to start having sexual feelings for someone after dreaming of having sex with them. Maybe those feelings were repressed until experienced in the dream state, which gave the sexual feelings a form of expression which allowed them to be acknowledged. In one instance, quite some time ago, I was not sexually active, and I had a sex dream - out of the blue - about a male friend who I had not ever been sexually or romantically involved with in real-life. I hadn't even been in contact with him for a while prior to the dream. The sex in the dream was pretty regular - normal penetration - but I woke up from the dream and started to want to have sex with my friend in real-life, so I told him about the dream. This encouraged him - without me having to express my wish to have sex with him - to ask me if I wanted to 'hook up', an offer which I gratefully accepted and I ended up eventually having a casual friends-with-benefits arrangement with him, because it was a very satisfying experience - even better than the sex dream which inspired it! I have absolutely no regrets about this!

Do you typically tell friends if you have sex with them in a dream?

If it is a friend who I would normally talk to on a semi-regular basis, I would probably tell them. If it was a close friend, I would definitely tell them. If it someone I know casually, it would depend on what kind of person they are and how they might react. I have had strange reactions to me telling friends I have had dream sex with them - mainly positive. My close friends know I record (anonymously) all my dreams online anyway, and a number of them will be able to recognise their own initials as identifying them, so it doesn't seem to make sense to keep it a secret, given I am an open person with little verbal filter anyway! Most of the responses have been positive - my male friends tend to be really flattered that I have had dream sex with them and occasionally, it leads them to express real-life sexual feelings towards me, such as: 'That makes me wish I could do it for real' or suchlike. However, when I told one of my colleagues about me having sex with him in a dream, I could see he felt uncomfortable and I regretted telling him so blatantly as I had embarrassed him. 

What is the experience of sex like in a dream for you?

I would say on average, 50% of my sex dreams involve an actual orgasm - so are 'wet dreams' - and 50% of don't feel much like sex at all, or are simply unfulfilling. Most of my sex dreams are just regular penetration, no kinky business - which reflects my waking life preferences, as I have no kinks or fetishes. There is never much affection, such as kissing - again, reflecting the fact I am not really a touchy-feely person in my waking-life, and like sex to be raw and animalistic, rather than loving and tender, even with a boyfriend. Often, the sex will take place in a public place, with people watching - sometimes family members of colleagues. This does not bother me in the dream - in fact I quite like it in the dream, which may reflect my exhitbitionist trait and my love of shocking and scandalizing people. It may also reflect the fact I am sexually open and expressive. Often I don't experience undressing in sex dreams - one moment I am fully clothed and the next moment, I am having sex and unaware if I removed any clothing. This is despite having non-sexual 'naked dreams' where I feel liberated by the act of being naked in public. I also experience a lot of sex dreams where the imminent sexual act is disrupted by someone at the precise moment my partner is getting his penis out ready for sex.

Does (lucid) dream sex feel like real sex?

For me, never. Even when it is a wet dream resulting in an orgasm. In normal non-lucid dreams, often the sexual act feels more like 'wrestling' - bodies becoming entangled together, with no particular feeling of penetration. The feeling of the orgasm feels like a normal waking one however, and before the climax, the sensation in my clitoris is almost unbearably intense - like extreme arousal. When I wake up from a 'wet dream' there is no lubrication however. In a lucid dream, the sex feels more like masturbation - I can feel the engorgement in my clitoris and the same strong feelings of arousal I would during foreplay, but I can't detect the feeling of a penis entering my vagina or the body of my sexual partner rubbing against mine. So my body can replicate the feelings of sexual arousal and stimulation, but not actual penetration. 

When are you most likely to experience a sex dream?

I most experience sex dreams when I am not sexually active in my waking life, or have not masturbated for a while. I very rarely have dream sex when I am in a real-life relationship, and I cannot remember ever having a sex dream which involves a real-life boyfriend at the time, although I have had sex dreams involving causal partners and exes. I often have sex dreams around the time of my period as well.

Do you experience same-sex (lesbian) sex dreams?

Yes, I have often experienced lesbian sex dreams, and also dreams which involve other women and men in an orgy situation. I don't get any physical pleasure from the same-sex sex dreams, and often in these dreams I wish I was having sex with a man. This reflects my heterosexual orientation; although I am perfectly comfortable with the notion of having a same-sex relationship and have experimented with women sexually in real-life (but did not feel turned on at all, so engaged in a 'performative' manner for the pleasure of a male spectator) I am only attracted to men and don't really even like women on a friendship basis (as I relate more to boys). The same-sex dreams are not negative experiences, but they aren't sexualy fulfilling either. My same-sex sex dreams often happen on the floor!

Do you have any recurrent sex dream themes?

As mentioned above. often the sex happens in public, with people watching which I enjoy in the dream. I also have had a recurrent sex dream for many years, in which I am kneeling on some stairs, or scrubbing a floor clean, and an unseen male approaches me from behind and starts to have sex with me, doggy-style. I never find out the identity of the male and I find these dreams quite exciting! I have also had several dreams where there is a dead bird either on - or coming out of (i.e. being born from) my vagina. I have yet to discover what this dream symbol means. It isn't exactly sexual, but it relates to my genitals and is certainly a weird theme!

What are the most common sexual positions/acts you experience in a sex dream?

The most common sexual positions are from behind (doggy-style), missionary or me on top which the male sits in a chair. I would say these are my favourite waking-life sexual positions as well, so my dreams largely reflect my real-life preferences. Other than regular, plain penetrative sex, the most recurrent sexual act I experience in a sex dream is oral sex - performed on the male by me. I cannot remember a single dream in which a male dream character has performed oral sex on me though.

What are genitals like in sex dreams?

I have never managed to see my own genitals in a sex dream, so I suppose my own are 'normal' in the dream state. However, penises are often so disproportionately large that it is inhumanely possible - such as metre-long penises which are as thick as an average thigh. Also, I tend to have weird sex dream experiences regarding ejaculation, which often involve too much fluid, or fluid of a weird consistency and colour. Kurt Cobain had a very nice, normal looking penis in the lucid dream where I almost had sex with him.

Do you ever feel guilty about anything which happens in a sex dream after you have woken up?

Definitely not - if I happen to have a sex dream when I am in a relationship (with someone not my partner), then I don't consider it cheating, even if I caused it to happen intentionally in a lucid dream. I see literally no difference between me expressing myself this way and my partner using pornography and fantasizing about having sex with a pornstar (or anyone else) - as long as he doesn't inform me he does it when he has sex with me (which nobody wants to hear, unless it's something the couple actively encourage), then it's harmless. I don't believe anyone should be held guilty for a thought crime and I don't believe anyone should be accused of infidelity for a 'thought f*ck' either. It's harmless compared to a real-life infidelity. In regard to having unpleasant sex dreams - those which have involved family members are disturbing upon waking, but I soon get over it and rationalise it is a dream and has some form of (perhaps unclear) symbolic meaning, or has been influenced by day residue in some way. If I am raped or sexualy assaulted in a dream, I don't tend to carry negative feelings over into my waking life, even though I have been exposed to a real-life sex crime and some people may be 'triggered' by dreaming of such traumatic events. I don't let my dreams affect my waking emotions too much, because as an oneironaut, even a 'bad' dream is better than no dream. 

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