Tuesday, 20 February 2018

Dream 917 (DREAM INCUBATION EXPERIMENT SUCCESS!)

'I'm a Person, and My Name is Anakin'
Date: 19 February 2018
Time: 02:30 - 08:45
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: Sheringham - Day
Unfortunately, given this was a successful Dream Incubation Experiment dream, I have forgotten many elements of this dream and can only remember a few details. I forgot the majority of this dream upon awakening, which is not surprising to me as I have recently received some bad news which has had a significant impact on my mental and emotional health, including my sleep. 

I was in Sheringham and there was some kind of celebration taking place, but it was quite underwhelming. A large bank of television screens had been set up in the town, near the seafront. I am not sure what purpose this was to serve, but I think I did know in the dream. I was with various members of my family. I remember the weather was overcast and cloudy, but it was supposedly summertime. 

A short distance away there was a group of dream characters, who I think were local residents of the town, but who I cannot recall specifically. Amongst them were some fishermen who had some musical instruments with them, outside on the pavement. I recall a piano/keyboard and a cello, but there were more. A small child was with the fishermen and I realised that it was young Anakin Skywalker, looking and dressed exactly as he appears in Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999). I did not become lucid when I saw Anakin - my strongest emotion wa disappointment that it was young Anakin, not adult Anakin. I started complaining about this to someone - I think it may have been my Mum. Anakin overheard me and became upset at the 'rejection'. I approached him and found that I was standing beside the sea wall on the promenade. He said some words which were all out of order and unintelligible, but I knew he was saying/trying to say: 'I'm a person, and my name is Anakin'. I am sure that he mentioned that his name was Anakin before he said that he was a person, so the quote may have been back-to-front. My response was: 'You're an annoying person'. I said it in an angry way. Anakin was crying, but he had no tears. He just made a high-pitched wailing sound and his face looked very red. The fishermen (2 of them, both old white men wearing yellow waterproof waders and other items of clothing associated with their profession) told me that I was evil to reject Anakin because he was just a child. I said I did not care and walked away to rejoin my family.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Star Wars as a dream theme
  • Sheringham as a dream scene location
  • My family as dream characters

Dreamsigns: 

  • I met young Anakin Skywalker

Day Residue: 
  • I fell asleep watching a comedy review (Mr Plinkett via RedLetterMedia on Youtube) of Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999) which obviously features a lot of footage of young Anakin Skywalker and includes the scene where Anakin says: 'I'm a person, and my name is Anakin'
  • On the day of this dream I had been playing Sims 3 - 2 of the 4 instruments sims can learn to play are a piano and a cello. My sims got married in a ceremony which took place in a venue with a stage with these instruments in place on it

Waking Reactions: 
This was a successful Dream Incubation Experiment as I had a dream which featured Anakin Skywalker. However, even within the dream I was disappointed to meet Anakin as a young child - my aim is to meet the adult Anakin. Nevertheless, this was an exciting dream, signalling some progress in my Dream Incubation Experiment, which I will be continuing for the near future.

Saturday, 17 February 2018

Dream 916

'Guns on the Bus'
Date: 16 February 2018
Time: 07:30 - 13:00
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: A Bus - Day
I was on a bus and was aware that terrorists were onboard. These 'terrorists' were a group of young male dream characters, some white and some Chinese. There were 5 terrorists sitting on the back seat of the bus - all dressed in casual clothing - jeans and sportswear. There were some other terrorists sitting on the seats just in front of the back seat. Most of the terrorists were holding large guns - assault rifles. 

I was at the front of the bus and in front of me, further down the aisle - i.e. closer to the terrorists - was another male dream character who was an ally. Someone behind me was trying to pass another assault rifle down the bus to the terrorists at the back. This would involve getting the gun past myself and my ally. I had a plan. When the person passing the gun (a young white male dream character) threw it to a passenger seated in the middle of the bus, ordering them to pass down to the back, I would intercept the gun and pass it to my ally, preventing the terrorists getting hold of it. 

The guy with the gun threw it to a female passenger who was seated halfway down the bus. I shouted at her to throw it to me, which she did. I then shouted at my ally to catch the gun and use it to shoot the terrorists. I threw it to him and he immediately passed it to a Chinese male who was seated on the seat just before the back seat - one of the terrorists. I could not believe he handed the gun to one of our enemies when I had told him to use it to defend the bus and shoot the terrorists. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • Terrorists with guns on a bus

Day Residue: 
  • On 14 February 2018 a school shooting took place in Parkland, Florida (Nikolas Cruz) - this obviously received huge amounts of coverage in the media/on social media
  • The day before this dream I watched a Louis Theroux documentary about gun crime, murder and drug dealing in Philadelphia
  • The day before this dream I was discussing Chinese culture with a friend

Waking Reactions: 
From the limited amount I am able to recall about this dream, it is clearly heavily influenced by Day Residue.


Friday, 16 February 2018

Dream 915

'Spatchcocking Chicken'
Date: 14 February 2018
Time: 05:00 - 10:30
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: Unknown Exterior Location - Day
I was in an outside location (unrecalled) with some male dream characters who I think may have been sailors/seamen. We were spatchcocking a number of raw chickens and throwing them in plastic containers on the ground, for cooking later. I was cutting the chicken along the spine with a pair of scissors. I think I viewed myself performing this activity from a third-person perspective.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I saw myself from third-person perspective

Day Residue: 
  • Link between sailors/seamen and semen - based on a conversation I had about semen earlier on the day of this dream. This could also have an association with the 'cock' element of the word 'spatchcock'
  • Just before I went to sleep I watched a food programme with my friend and we discussed veganism

Waking Reactions: 
I was sharing an unfamiliar bed with my friend and as a result I kept waking periodically, as I often do when in new surroundings. This is why I can only remember this single fragment of the dream, despite me remembering other fragments each time I awoke. If I recall anything further, I will record it below.


Dream 914

'A Star Wars Redux'
Date: 13 February 2018
Time: 04:30 - 11:00
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: A Family Home (Sheringham?) - Day
I was in my family home - but not one I know from real life. I am not sure which of my family members lived there, but many of them were present in the dream - my parents, my Nan, my Aunt VF (and possibly other Aunts/Uncles) and some of my cousins. 

At first there was some interaction with VF - who appeared as she did when she was very young - in her 20s. VF had got herself into some kind of trouble - I cannot recall exactly what, but I think it involved clothing. I was talking to VF, who seemed stressed.

I saw that my eyebrows were very full and elegantly shaped and felt surprised that they looked so good. I thought: 'the Vaseline has worked'.

I was then in the lounge of the house. There was a table, around which some of my family were seated, and some blue sofas which were positioned in an L-shape. Some of my family were seated on these sofas, some of them were laying down on them. Present was also a male dream character - an older white male, who was a powerful and famous movie director, who was remaking Star Wars - I think it was the original Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope (1977), as it was going to star a young Mark Hamill as Luke Skywalker. The director was a family friend and he was with my family as they were involved in the remaking of Star Wars. I was questioning how Mark Hamill was young again and why the new Star Wars director was entrusting my family to help with the new remake. The meeting in the lounge was to go over the script for the new movie. I saw - in my mind's eye - some of the new scenes which were being discussed. One of these scenes involved ancestors of Padme - a historical King and Queen of Naboo who were riding in a golden chariot adorned with an arch of flowers. I thought these characters were sterile and not of any interest to Star Wars fans - I wondered how they would fit these characters into the new movie, given we were remaking A New Hope, and this King/Queen lived in an era which was well before the events of Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999). I tried to voice my dissent from the idea of including these random, meaningless characters, saying something about 'temporal' (meaning 'time' - I recall specifically using the word 'temporal' but I am not sure of how I articulated it specifically). No-one was listening to me, and the director seemed to think my family's input was invaluable and inspired. 

Scene 2: A Foreign Apartment Complex - Day
We (my family, the new Star Wars director and cast - including Mark Hamill) and myself) were then on location. The location was 'abroad' but I am not sure where. It was a ruined apartment complex in a location which was mainly sand. The buildings were white tower blocks which were all in disrepair, and there were various dirty/old-looking vehicles parked in the area, which in addition to the sand, was littered with trash and debris. Many of the tower blocks had smashed windows and scaffolding - the entire place looked like a building site. 

It was very hot and sunny, and I realised this filming location was supposed to represent Tatooine. Everything was very pale, desaturated and dusty yellow or white in colour, other than the sky, which was a pale blue and made me think that it was very early morning. I thought this was a silly place to shoot the Tatooine scenes, due to the fact it was a very run-down apartment complex (a holiday resort?) in which we were all staying during the duration of the movie shoot. It did not resemble a Star Wars location, but rather a place on Earth and not even an aesthetic one. My family and the director were seated at some plastic patio tables on a small balcony area which overlooked the set. We were drinking coffees while we chatted about the movie. I was again trying to voice my opposition to the creative choices being put forward by my family and accepted wholeheartedly by the director. I thought that the new Star Wars movie would be awful and no-one would watch it. A short distance away, young Mark Hamill - in his Luke Skywalker costume - was standing on the back of a pickup truck, practicing his lightsaber skills. Han Solo - played by a new younger actor, not Harrison Ford was also practicing some scenes. I was not interested in what he was doing and I thought he was trying too hard to be the 'main star' of the new remake, as the actor seemed to have a huge ego and kept making up new lines/scenes which he wanted to include to pad out his own plotline.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My family as dream characters

Dreamsigns: 

  • The unfamiliar family home
  • VF was young again
  • My family were heavily involved in the remaking of Star Wars
  • Mark Hamill was young again

Day Residue: 
  • I have been putting vaseline on my eyebrows and eyelashes to see if it helps hair growth. On the day of this dream I had applied makeup and felt that I had shaped my eyebrows really well. In a conversation with a member of staff at university (an emergency plumber who attended when my lounge/kitchen was flooded) I had referred to my eyebrows in a conversation about how Iranian women wear a hijab which in some cases must cover their eyebrows
  • On the night of this dream - as mentioned above - water flooded through my lounge/kitchen ceiling from the flat above (shower overflowed due to a blockage and soaked through the carpet). Me and the plumber moved my sofas - which are the same shade of blue as those in this dream - out of the way of the leak, meaning they are now in a different position
  • Star Wars and the fact that on many of the forums I participate in online, many fans are angered by the direction Disney is taking the franchise in and the introduction of new unpopular characters
  • I had been playing my modded version of Sims 3 on the day of this dream. My sim had visited a location in the 'Bayside' area of the city which reminded me of a really awful holiday resort - I had placed many dilapidated, rundown tower blocks, some with smashed windows and scaffolding on my map. My sim also stole a pickup truck
  • I posted a meme about the new Han Solo origin movie - Solo: A Star Wars Story, basically referring to the fact I was not interested in the Han Solo movie, There has been loads of publicity about this movie in the media - unsurprising given it's Star Wars! The fact it is the story of a young Han Solo may have influenced the fact that my dream involved young versions of the characters (the age they would have been in Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope

Waking Reactions: 
A Star Wars dream at last! In this dream, the Star Wars movie felt really sterile and unnecessary and I strongly felt that it would be unpopular with fans. Note that I love the new Star Wars movies and the prequels are my favourite, given they were the ones which were released when I was young. I both loved and felt disappointed by this dream. I loved it because it was related to Star Wars and therefore signalled me getting closer to the theme selected for my Dream Incubation Experiment, and also because it was so bizarre. I was disappointed because everything felt so misjudged and badly-conceived. 

Dream 913

'Forced & Choked'
Date: 11 February 2018
Time: 02:15 - 07:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Firstly, I will introduce a dream character, rather than include all relevant details in the Day Residue section. It is essential to know some information about the real life person in order to understand the possible subconscious associations/connections my mind made in this dream.

ROL is a very tall, black male who makes hip hop music. His artist name involves the word 'light' and his former crew have 'darkness' in their name. I met ROL and TD a long time ago when I lived in London and my ex-boyfriend was performing at an open mic night in Camden alongside them. At the time, I cannot specifically recall ROL, but found his crew to be pleasant and friendly. 

Last year, ROL contacted me via Facebook and Instagram (which I do not use - but which is under the same name I use for this Blog). I found it weird he would contact me on both, because although my Facebook is under my real name and my Instagram is under my nickname (the one I use on here), I had the same profile picture at the time, and I post material from this Blog on my Facebook, hence linking the accounts (plus my real last name begins with 'Ghash').

ROL started off by being OK, but then annoyed me by being to pushy to meet him, despite me saying I was not interested. He apologised for his behaviour and we went on to talk more. He then continued to harass me to meet him and each time I politely informed him I was not interested in any meeting at all. I did not remind him that I had met him several years ago in London, as clearly he did not recognise me or care about me as a person enough for that to be important. On one occasion ROL asked me to come and see him at a show he was performing at - some distance away. I refused, saying I would not travel, spending cash and time to go and see a man I am not interested in and staying with him in a hotel, as that was clearly going to be sending signals I had no desire for him to misinterpret. He kept being forceful, I kept reminding him to respect my wishes. He then told me that his 'cousin' had told him that I was 'bukie' (i.e. not trustworthy/suspicious - it's a negative slang word regardless of its precise meaning). I knew this was a sorry attempt at trying to anger me, as he had no clue who I was and furthermore, was contacting me via Instagram which is under a 'fake' name - without even realising I was the same person as the Facebook friend using my real name. In addition, when I was living in London, I rarely socialised and was always with my boyfriend. No-one ROL is friends with would even know me, let alone know anything about me to justify him making this comment. He was being a 'fuckboi' as I pointed out - unable to accept I was not sexually attracted to him and did not want to meet him or anything. He was very easily angered by me being truthful about this. I have re-read the message thread and see that I restrained myself and was quite nice throughout the conversation, despite his hostile, bitter attitude. He kept referring to me as 'Shadowcat' and 'an enigma', 'a mystery' and 'a myth', despite me being extremely clear that I was just not interested in him. He became abusive, so I blocked him on Instagram, but left him on my Facebook friends list. 

A number of months later, ROL messaged me on Facebook. I reminded him that I had blocked him on Instagram over his previous behaviour. He denied this (clearly not realising I was the same person) and demanded screenshots. I told him to just check Instagram messages for himself, as I did not need to provide proof, when he could either remember his own bad behaviour or just leave me alone anyway. I had no investment in 'proving' he had acted like a fuckboi, I was just explaining why I was not wanting further contact. ROL then must have checked the Instagram messages and seen I was telling the truth as me messaged me again, apologising for his behaviour and saying it was out of character. I said I did not care, it was fine, but I was still not in any way interested in him. He was literally begging me at this point, referring to the fact that he was going to draw my portrait and send it to me so that I could hang it on my wall and wonder about what might have happened between us. I thought this was hilarious and just stayed neutral, but firm. He also said that he wanted to show me the luxury of being around a rapper. I think he is grossly over-exaggerating his status in the UK hip hop scene, and I pointed out that I already know plenty of artists who are more popular and well-established than him - some of whom are my close friends offline. I also said that as a grown woman I was not influenced by the idea of being a 'groupie' for some low rate mixtape rapper, as this does not impress me. I spent years of my life around musicians - it's just normal to me. He was still being weird, but given we had already discussed his previous bad behaviour and he had acknowledged it and apologised (it really was really awful and harassing), he didn't resort to being overtly nasty again, just passive-aggressive and persistent. I left the conversation.

I then found out that during the period when ROL had been chatting to/harassing me he had been in some form of relationship with someone who is a friend of DL. He had acted badly and at the time of this new, second attempt at trying to chat with me, was in the process of harassing that person too. I also found out that he had acted badly to other people in his social circle and was not considered very positively - I think money was involved somewhere along the line. DL and I had been talking about the events regarding ROL and DL showed me some of ROL's artwork, which was so amateur and terrible that I wondered if he had some form of learning disability, which might also account for his other very poor behaviour towards me and inability to read clear signs of discomfort and rejection of sexual advances. The 'art' was mainly centred around his anger at the other woman he had cheated on and disrespected. If I had to describe the age I would attribute to the 'artist' had I not known it was his artwork (which he is now attempting to sell for considerable sums of money), I would say 'a talented 8 year old'. Universally, anyone who has seen the artwork finds it shockingly bad. Note that when DL and I were laughing at ROL's artwork, I mentioned that even the purposefully awful artwork I make while roleplaying as 'Force Ghost Anakin Skywalker' is more skillful than ROL's best efforts. DL agreed and said that even when I am trying to make intentionally bad art, I display better draftsmanship. 

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior (Sheringham?) - Day
So, in the first scene of the dream DL and I were looking at a large computer screen - possibly watching something. A chat window popped up at the bottom of the screen - on the left side, but very similar to when using Facebook on a desktop. The message was from ROL, saying he was coming to visit me. I said to DL that this was weird and creepy. I messaged ROL back and said he should not visit me. He said that it was too late as he was already there. I felt panicked and harassed.

There was a knock on the door and I went to answer it. I saw at this point (although it did not register in the dream itself) that the interior of the house was completely different to any interior I know in real life, but the front door and hallway area were very similar to that of my Nan's house. When I opened the door, ROL was there, wearing a Hawaiian  shirt. I said that I did not want him in my house (as in the dream, his real life interactions had actually taken place and were the basis for me disliking him). ROL pushed his way into the house. 

The dream scene continued with ROL following me around and me not being able to get rid of him. At this point DL was not visible in the dream. I felt quite scared to be around ROL. I left him for a moment, to try and go somewhere to summons help in getting rid of him. He came out of the the room he was in and tried to choke me in the crook of his elbow, really hurting my throat and neck (Anakin force chokes Padme in Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005) and obviously, Darth Vader is known for force choking victims who don't comply with his orders). 

I ran away into another part of the house. I was standing in a doorway of a room when I saw DL again. He was able to see the bruises on my neck and I informed him that ROL had assaulted me. DL seemed concerned. 

I went into another room - my bedroom in the dream. It looked a lot like my childhood bedroom in my former family home in Pine Grove, Sheringham, although the furniture was very different. There was a bed with white bed covers on it in the corner of the room and a coffee table. ROL was sitting on the bed. I saw my mobile phone was on the coffee table. It was face-down and had a cork drinks coaster placed on top of it. I knew I would not have left my phone in this way, so I told ROL that I knew he had touched my phone. He said he had - he had looked through it to 'find out who I was linking' (i.e. if I was seeing other men). He then taunted me that he had been able to access my bank account details via my phone and that he could use those to steal my money. I felt angry and violated. I retrieved my phone and left the room to call my bank to alert them to the potential theft/fraud. 

At this point, I looked outside the front door of the house, and noted that it was my Nan's house - at least the road the house was on and the front garden were like slightly larger versions (there are images of this house on other dreams on this Blog, and notably dreams I have had during the currency of this Dream Incubation Experiment, linked on the main page). I could see an vehicle parked outside which in the dream was an ambulance, but which did not look like a real life one - it was bright orange and had ladders on a roof rack, making it seem more like a maintenance truck. There was a very tall black male dream character standing on my Nan's front garden. He was about 7 foot tall and very athletic/strong looking. I felt relieved to see him as I knew he was a 'vigilante' who had arrived to help me escape the abusive, assaulting presence of ROL, who would not have left my house without a larger male threatening him to do so. As ROL is extremely tall, this new vigliante dream character was the only person who was more physically dominating than him. The vigilante was very sympathetic to me and showed concern when he saw the bruises on my neck where ROL had attempted to choke me. At this point ROL came up behind me at the doorway. The vigilante grabbed ROL and they brawled on the grass - wrestling and throwing punches. The vigilante got ROL in a headlock and choked him out. ROL became comatose. The vigilante was part of the ambulance crew, so he helped another male dream character (paramedic?) load ROL onto a stretcher and place him in the back of the ambulance, ready to take him to hospital. The vigilante told me that ROL was completely quadriplegic and brain damaged now - virtually dead. I was in shock. The vigilante left in the ambulance with ROL. 

Scene 2: A Pub, Location Unknown - Day
I then found myself in a pub, which I do not recognise from real life. Present in the pub were a group of Irish travellers - all men. The head of the travelling family, a mature man, asked me to join them. He showed me a large mural on the wall of the pub, which was a series of different images which formed a circle. This mural depicted the link between my family and the travellers - via my cousin HM's paternal side of the family. The main man told me that because of this link between our families, they would protect me and help me out whenever they could. He seemed to be suggesting that it was them who had sent the vigilante to my house to sort out ROL. I was so grateful and felt very safe. I was enjoying being in the company of these men. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Nan's house as a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 

  • The entire dream was a dreamsign - other than the fact that DL was my best friend in the dream, the front entrance to my Nan's house looked familiar and the history of my negative interaction with ROL (described above) had taken place in the dreamworld also, all other events were dreamsigns, so I do not plan to list them all individually here

Day Residue: 
  • Clearly the conversation about ROL's bad behaviour and artworks influenced this dream heavily
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching a deep web browsing video from SomeOrdinaryGamers on Youtube - which featured a website purporting to sell cloned credit cards
  • I had been playing my modded version of Sims 3. I noticed that one of the modded 'violence' interactions involves a 'force push' (inspired loosely by Star Wars, I guess). I also have social groups as a mod - including vigilantes. During my gameplay there was a story progression pop-up which referred to one of the vigilante NPCs sorting out crime in the neighbourhood. My sim also got into a brawl in the front entrance of his property with an NPC sim, who had arrived to burgle his home
  • A couple of days before this dream, my cousin HM had messaged me on Instagram. She is the only person to have messaged me on there other than ROL, which may explain why there was some link to HM in Scene 2 of this dream

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was so bizarre - I am sure I could analyse this much further in terms of Day Residue and potential links to the theme of my Dream Incubation Experiment. I was surprised by how cohererent the narrative of this dream was and how much it relied on my actual waking memories of events, which were then woven into the dream narrative in meaningful and coherent ways. I do think there there are many associations between this dream and my Dream Incubation Experiment. I have obviously covered some of them above, but for completeness, include them as a list below:

  • ROL and TD refer to 'light' and 'dark' - like the sides of the Force, which Anakin switches between, transforming himself from Jedi to Sith
  • Choking occured on 2 occasions - first me, as the helpless female victim, and then ROL as 'revenge' by the vigliante there to help me. Force choke is Darth Vader's signature attack of course!
  • The link between the real life ROL as an unintentionally terrible artist and myself creating terrible art while roleplaying as Anakin's Force Ghost online
  • Anakin is essentially quadriplegic after his lightsaber fight with Obi-Wan Kenobi on Mustafar at the end of Revenge of the Sith as he no longer possesses any of his organic limbs. He had already lost his right arm in combat against Count Dooku in Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002), and then had his left arm and both legs because he 'tried it' (i.e. a futile advance) after Obi-Wan reminded him that he had the 'high ground'

Dream 912

'Attending a Trial'
Date: 10 February 2018
Time: 04:45 - 10:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: My Parents' Flat, Sheringham - Day
I was in my parents' flat/apartment in Sheringham. The lounge seemed somewhat different - larger, but in the dream I knew this was where we were. Various members of my family were present, including my Mum and my Nan. Whereas my Mum is usually the assertive, organising person at a family/social event and my Nan would defer to her on everything, in this dream, my Nan was the assertive person. 

I saw an image of some patterned fabric - I think it was floral. It seemed that I was looking at this image on a computer/mobile phone. It represented the art of a female dream character, who was not actually present in the dream. My family and I discussed the art for a short while. It then became apparent that my family were organising a trip or visit to somewhere. I was not aware of what we were supposed to be doing. I was told by my Nan that we would be going to court to attend the criminal trial of the female artist's younger brother, who was charged with some kind of offence involving a bicycle. We knew this male vaguely and my Nan said we would be going to support him. He did not appear in the dream either. I wondered if this court visit would 'annoy' my family who would find it boring, despite the fact they were the people telling me we would be attending. 

I cannot recall anything else about the dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My family as dream characters

Dreamsigns: 

  • My family were attending the trial of a random young male, which appeared to relate to a real life criminal case which appeared in the media (see below)

Day Residue: 
  • Recently I had been discussing the case of Charlie Alliston with DL. Alliston was a young man who was charged with a very rare offence of 'wanton or furious driving' involving a modified professional racing bike which had no front brake. Allison accidentally collided with a pedestrian, causing her death. The case received massive media attention because it highlighted a gap in the law (offences involving cycle use causing injury/death). The male dream character was clearly based on Alliston, who was convicted and sentenced to custody in a Young Offender Institution
  • On the day of this dream I had mentioned how much I enjoyed attending Crown Court when I was working in criminal defence

Waking Reactions: 
This was a really weird dream, but clearly influenced by Day Residue.  

Dream 911

'English New York'
Date: 8 February 2018
Time: 02:45 - 10:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: 'New York', 'USA' - Day
I cannot recall all of what happened in this dream, but I was in a location which I perceived to be 'New York' in America (where I have actually visited before, with SL, my ex-friend). However, every location I saw in this dream was clearly in the UK - and more specifically, reminiscent of York, where I did my first undergraduate degree (where I met SL). The particular area of York it reminded me of was a residential area midway between where I lived on Milton Street (a street off the main Hull Road) and the city centre. There are many redbrick terraced houses in this area. I have included a Google Maps image of the road I lived on in York below, for reference. This was not the area I saw in my dream. I did take a virtual tour of the area on Google Maps, hoping to find the one specific little side street which appeared in my dream, but it was impossible due to memory issues and the fact the areas in question have inevitably changed in the decade or more which has passed since I was last there.

I was with BC - an online friend who I met through DL (and have met in person). We were in New York to get some cannabis and it felt like it was going to be a difficult task, which was making me frustrated. BC and I were standing at a bus stop for a short while, then we walked down a road, turning into a residential side street. For some (unrecalled) reason we had to crouch behind a small wall which was outside a house. It was as if we were hiding from someone, but the situation did not feel scary. I said to BC that the location did not feel like New York, but instead reminded me of York, England. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • York as inspiration for a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 

  • New York was really a location in the UK
  • I was with BC trying to find some cannabis in 'New York'

Day Residue: 
  • I had been interacting with BC online - and I feel that my previous dream (Dream 910 - 'Blast from the Past') was inspired by Day Residue/waking interaction with him
  • On the day of this dream someone on Tinder had contacted me and within a couple of lines of introduction was asking if I knew how he could get hold of cannabis
  • Dream 910 involved a young man who strongly resembled Kurt Cobain. I feel that this dream may have been inspired by my interactions with BC which involved his status about mature women being unattractive and teenagers being superior. I work with teenagers. One of the teenagers I recently had to deal with in relation to complaints of smoking cannabis in his residences had the same pair of 'Jackie O' sunglasses I own - these being strongly associated with Kurt Cobain (see below image). I feel that the earlier dream involving the teenage Kurt Cobain lookalike (inspired by BC's status about young people) and this dream involving BC and cannabis may all be linked through Day Residue and connections my subconscious made
Waking Reactions: 
I have had previous dreams in which I was in New York, but it felt more like I was in the UK. I feel that the fact I was able to notice the discrepancy within the dream means that I could have lucid had my mind fact-checked more.

Dream 910

'Blast from the Past'
Date: 7 February 2018
Time: 01:30 - 08:45
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I was in unknown (unrecalled) location and present was PM - a boy from the year below me at high school who strongly resembled Kurt Cobain (and styled himself on Cobain, being a Nirvana fan). I was always attracted to PM while at school - both his looks and his personality/musical talent. In the dream time had passed between high school and it may have been the present day, but PM looked as he did at school (I have no idea what he would look like now, as I have never met him as an adult). I wanted to show him I was attracted to him, but I felt he was far too young for me. A female dream character - a mature woman with grey hair - was present at some point and I told her that it would be inappropriate for me to make advances on PM as he was too young.

I cannot recall what else happened in the dream.

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • PM looked the way he did in high school and there seemed to be an age gap between us (more than the actual 1 year)

Day Residue: 
  • Around the time of this dream I saw a post by BC stating that women over 30 are sexually unappealing - this is his typical of his trolling personality. My response was that men over 30 are also on the decline. There is no point reacting negatively to BC. I also saw a number of posts on Facebook tag groups where men - incel/neckbeard types - were expressing the same sentiment, or sharing memes comparing teenage girls to 30-something women. Given these groups are intended to highlight distasteful, offensive or problematic posts online, I react more genuinely here than on my friends' satirical posts

Waking Reactions: 
I wish I remembered more about this dream. I thought it was really weird that PM was the person who appeared in this dream as although I did have a crush on him more than 20 years ago, it wasn't a particularly 'strong' or 'deep' crush, more like appreciation. If I had really fancied him, I could have made him aware back then. I have vague recollections of other dreams that involved PM. It inspires me to try and make contact with him, but I feel that this would be weird and creepy and other than a band website which has not been updated in years, there is no trace of him on social media.

Friday, 9 February 2018

Dream 909

'Penis Bellybutton'
Date: 6 February 2018
Time: 04:00 - 10:00
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: Unknown - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior and I was able to see myself in third-person perspective. I was naked, because I could see my lower body unobstructed by clothing, but I could not see or did not look at my chest/genital areas, only my bellybutton. My bellybutton was a huge penis - about 3 foot in length and flesh-coloured, although the room was very brightly lit, and everything had an orange glow. I was really concerned and worried about my bellybutton. A male dream character - perhaps a doctor - was present and he was telling me not to be worried, as this was completely normal, but I knew that it was not. At some point, my bellybutton went back to normal and I was relieved. I experienced this 'normality' from first-person perspective.

I was then looking at an older female dream character using a PC. She was trying to show me something on the computer screen, but I was distracted by the fact that blue pompoms were emerging from the sides of the monitor. I was actually quite scared as I assumed this meant that Pennywise the Clown from IT (1986/2017) had taken over/infected the computer. I was anxious, waiting for him to appear in person. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
100 mg Vitamin B6 taken

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I saw myself in third-person perspective
  • The penis bellybutton
  • The computer grew blue pompoms which I associated with Pennywise

Day Residue: 
  • The day before this dream I had watched some Youtube videos showing extraction of 'navel stones'. I then checked my own bellybutton to see if I had signs of navel stones (I did not), but I found that my very old, unused navel piercing needed cleaning
  • The day before this dream I saw a woman an image of a woman online who had a very strange, protruding bellybutton
  • On the day of this dream a man who I had met once contacted me to tell me he was interested in me and wanted to see me again. He mentioned he had a 'huge cock' that I could 'ride' whenever I wanted to. I was not offended by the message, despite it being an unsolicited sexual comment and me finding it distasteful and unnecesary
  • A couple of days before this dream I saw a Grav3yardgirl video in which Bunny showed a new makeup brush which looked like a blooming flower - I think this influenced the way in which the pompoms 'bloomed' from the computer monitor

Waking Reactions: 
This was not a nightmare, but is was a very disturbing dream, particularly the scene with the 'penis bellybutton' which was not a pleasant image to see. 

Tuesday, 6 February 2018

Dream 908

'One Big Confusing Day'
Date: 4 February 2018
Time: 01:30 - 07:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

This dream was part of my current Dream Incubation Experiment - Anakin Skywalker Dream. Please click HERE for my post on the Dream Incubation Experiment, the Methodology I am using (with instructions for those who also want to attempt to incubate their own dream) and links to my previous Dream Incubation Experiments and previous Star Wars-themed dreams. On that post you will also find an Index for all recorded dreams which take place during this experiment.

Scene 1: Norwich - Evening
I met with Sam Chapman from the Pixiwoo Youtube channel -she is local to Norwich, but I have never met her in real life. I noticed how beautiful Sam looked when not just seen on a video - she was wearing a bright red lipstick. She needed my help for something and I was surprised that she had come to me for this help. I wondered how she ever knew who I was or trusted me to help her. I don't recall what she needed help with, but I agreed to it and she accompanied me to my home in Norwich. 

We were in my lounge/kitchen and my Nan was present. She was cleaning my kitchen and putting things into my fridge, wearing an apron (I have never seen my Nan wear an apron in real life). Sam and I were standing in front of the ledge which separates the kitchen from the lounge (it is like a very high, narrow breakfast bar, which I use as a shelf). The rest of my flat was as it looks in real life, other than the dining table was not present - as we were standing where this should be).

My Nan did not seem pleased to see me - she was annoyed at me for something. I tried to introduce Sam to my Nan, and tell my Nan how exciting it was for me to be with a Youtuber and Businesswoman I respect so much, but my Nan was ignoring Sam and just being really hostile towards me. I was embarrassed by her behaviour given Sam was with me. I asked my Nan what was wrong and my Nan said that she had been with my Mum for a week, looking after her. My Mum had been to the doctor in relation to a 'non-serious problem'. My Nan would not tell me what the problem with my Mum was, which caused me anxiety and worry. It appeared that my family had been hiding this problem for me, and keeping me away from my Mum. My Nan's vagueness and secrecy was making me frustrated, but I was aware that I needed to help Sam with something. Sam and I took a couple of steps towards the front door of my flat and she showed me her latest Youtube video on a mobile phone. I said I would be willing to do whatever she needed from me, but I had to go and see my Mum.

Scene 2: A Domestic Interior - Evening
I went to see my Mum and found her in a domestic interior, which I do not know from real life. It was a dark room with a large wooden dining table in it. My Mum was polishing the table and also - like my Nan - wearing an apron while performing this household chore. I stood on the other side of the table and told my Mum about my concerns for her wellbeing and my concerns that my Nan had tried to keep me away/unaware. My Mum tried to reassure me that nothing was wrong. I asked her why she had to go to the doctor and why my Nan had told me that she was looking after my Mum. My Mum stopped polishing the table and smiled at me whispering words to the effect of: 'I went for a number 1, but I could not do a number 2'. I perceived this to mean that she had gone to pee, but could not take a shit, and was whispering/using euphemisms out of politeness. I felt relieved at first that the problem seemed quite minor, but then I wondered if I was being lied to, to stop me from worrying about a more serious problem.

Scene 3: Peter's Bookshop, St Peters Road, Sheringham - Evening
I thefound myself in Peter's Bookshop - the secondhand bookshop I used to visit every week when I was a child, often buying horror books, which were on a shelf by the entrance. This bookshop is situated a 30 second walk from my Mum's home, so perhaps Scene 2 was supposed to take place in my Mum's home (she lives in a flat about her workplace, a nursing home for elderly people). This would explain why I was able to get to the bookshop so quickly after visiting my Mum (although I had managed to transport from Norwich to Sheringham without travelling/passing of time). I was disappointed to find that the horror section had moved and there were not many books downstairs (the shop is very ramshackle and shabby, with thousands of books just piled everywhere if they do not fit on the crowded shelves). I saw the male owner of the shop at the cash register. I walked through to another section of the shop and found that there were stairs leading to an upper level. Upon going upstairs, I wondered if this was really Peter's Bookshop, or a version of a secondhand bookshop which I had visited in an earlier dream (so I was questioning my dream, but not lucid or in any way aware I was dreaming. It was more like I was thinking: 'This looks different, it reminds me of a place from a dream'). 

The upstairs level had many small rooms filled with different genres of books. There were also other things in the rooms - such as a stand with red teacups on it, and another room with children's toys. I was confused as to why these items - which appeared to be bric-a-brac, were in a bookshop, but decided that perhaps the shop now sold other secondhand items. There were a couple of dream characters in some of the rooms upstairs, browsing the books, but I knew that the shop was about to close and the experience in one of my favourite shops felt isolating, lonely, sterile and rushed - it was as if I could not enjoy looking for books and felt confused by the slightly unfamiliar surroundings. 

Scene 4: An Unknown Interior, Location Unknown - Night
After I left the bookshop I went elsewhere - to a domestic interior which I do not know from real life. I looked at my mobile phone and saw that there was a hole in the screen. I realised that I already knew about the damage to the phone, so was not shocked - I had just forgotten about it. The hole in the screen was a perfect rectangle and about 1 cm long and 0.5 cm wide, It was very deep, meaning the glass phone screen was at least a couple of centimetres thick. I could see my usual phone screensaver was now something blue, which was also visible through the hole in the screen.

I was then looking at a laptop which was logged into my Facebook. There were some (unseen) dream characters present and I think that these persons were those who I will describe as interacting with me on Facebook - therefore they were present in my physical space, but instead of interacting in person, the interaction was happening in real-time on my Facebook and I did not pay attention to their 'physical' selves in the same room as me.

I was aware that a female dream character (not known to me in real life or the dream) had befriended several of my friends. This female was called 'Gill' and I knew that it was spelled this way, rather than the more common 'Jill'. 'Gill' was linked in some way to Myra Hindley - I think I knew she was dating the actual Ian Brady, who in the dream was alive and a young man (i.e. the way he was before his arrest and detention for the notorious Moors Murders). Gill was threatening to reveal online that I had had sex with RDTA and MSN. I think she was now dating one of them, and wanted to disclose my sexual relations with them to spite me. I was very anxious that she not to do this, because I was not ashamed I had had sex with them, I did not want RDTA to know I had previously had sex with MSN, because I preferred RDTA and I didn't want him to think I had tried to 'replace' him with MSN. I was trying to get Facebook friends - including MSN himself to stop Gill from spreading rumours about me, but everyone seemed to be suggesting that they could not stop Gill and therefore I was trying to think of a way to limit the damage she could cause and seek some form of revenge against her. This whole incident was distressing, annoying and frustrating. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
No Vitamin B6 taken (forgot)

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Nan as a dream character
  • Conflict with my Nan
  • Human shit
  • RDTA as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was asked to help Sam Chapman and she came to my house
  • The scene with my Mum
  • My mobile phone screen
  • Peter's Bookshop was very different inside - and reminded me of another secondhand bookshop (which I am not sure if is based on one I have visited in real life, or visited on another occasion in a dream)
  • The weird phone screen situation
  • Dream characters were interacting with my on Facebook whilst also being passive persons in my physical presence
  • The dream character 'Gill' who was linked to Myra Hindley

Day Residue: 
  • A couple of days before this dream I had watched a Pixiwoo Youtube video in which Sam revealed that she has been seeking help for depression. I work with people with depression and mental health issues, so this may have been linked in my mind
  • I run parody social media accounts as Force Ghost Anakin, a 'therapist' in the Netherworld of the Force
  • In a conversation with someone on the day of this dream, I mentioned that I used to read a lot of books as a child, but now I tend to read material from the internet and am quite poor at reading books, despite this being something I very much enjoy
  • On the day of this dream I had been showing someone my screensaver which is Ewan McGregor as Obi-Wan Kenobi in Star Wars: Episode i - The Phantom Menace (1999)
  • On the day of this dream I had seen a person on Facebook mention that they had not been online recently as they had cracked the screen of their mobile phone
  • On the day of this dream I had read an online article about one of my favourite Pre-Raphaelite paintings - John William Waterhouse, Hylas and the Nymphs (1896) which had been removed from public exhibition (in January 2018, Manchester Art Gallery) over concerns that it depicted nude adolescent girls and was therefore pornographic. This reminded me of another one of my favourite artworks which was controversial and subject to public vandalism when it was displayed at the Royal Academy of Art, London - Marcus Harvey, Myra (1997). I actually saw this painting as part of the Sensation exhibition when it moved to the Saatchi Gallery in London. I think the linking of these aspects of my dream come from the idea of art censorship generally, and the fact that I once bought an artbook on the Pre-Raphaelites from Peter's Bookshop
  • The day before this dream I had been dealing with an incident at work where Student A was complaining about Student B sending messages/spreading rumours about Student A to friends of Student A who did not really know Student B

Waking Reactions: 
This dream felt so bizarre and significant to me - because it was long and complex and felt like it took place in real time across the span of 24 hours. Many aspects of the dream caused me some distress and anxiety, and these feelings were particularly acute. This was a dream where my recall was incredibly vivid, and although I can never ever be certain, it felt like I remembered the dream narrative in its entirety. This is probably impossible, but certainly, recalling this dream upon waking was a similar experience to recalling the plot of a movie that I have just finished watching - I might miss some of the finer details or subtle aspects, but all the main themes, locations and characters were very easy to remember. It was really odd that during Scene 3, when I visited Peter's Bookshop, I started questioning why the shop looked different and whether it was really Peter's Bookshop, or rather a secondhand bookshop I had visited in a previous dream. In other circumstances, this questioning (logical fact-checking) might be sufficient to enable to me to become lucid, but this did not happen in this dream. I will investigate earlier dreams in which a secondhand bookshop has featured and try and discover why I had this thought in this current dream (i.e. did I really dream of a bookshop like this in an earlier dream - the 'memory' or 'dream deja-vu' was strong enough to make this think this is a possibility).


John William Waterhouse, Hylas and the Nymphs (1896)

Marcus Harvey, Myra (1997)