Monday 25 December 2017

Dream 891

'Headphones Give You Blue Feet'
Date: 23 December 2017
Time: 06:30 - 11:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: An Interior - Day
I cannot recall the start of the dream, but I was in a domestic interior with my Nan and some other (unidentified) dream characters. We were all sitting down in a room which I perceived to be a lounge of some sort, although at one point, while I was still seated, I felt like I was sitting in a bus shelter, although I was actually still in the house. There was some conversation which I do no quite recall, but at the end, I must have indicated that I was going to listen to something through headphones. My Nan said to me: 'Headphones make your feet turn blue' or 'Headphones give you blue feet'. I think it may have been the latter phrase, as I am certain I heard the words 'blue feet'. She didn't want me to use headphones because of the danger of feet turning blue. I told her that this was not true and that she was lying to me. My Nan had 'evidence' that it was true, she said she had read it somewhere. I still did not believe her. I asked her if she had read it in the Daily Mail - a right-wing British newspaper known for scaremongering about health concerns. I then proceeded to look up the phenomenon of headphones causing blue feet on the internet - using either a mobile phone or a tablet. I accused my Nan of lying to me.

Then, I saw that there were 2 kittens on the floor - one grey and one beige. One of the dream characters sitting in an armchair in the room said something to me, which I cannot recall. I bent down to stroke the kittens. The beige one was female and friendly, but the grey one, which was male was quite vicious and tried to claw my hand. I was scared of the grey kitten - or at least I did not want to go near it in case it attacked me. Both kittens were laying on their backs on the carpet. 

My Nan went through a doorway into another room. I followed her. This was a large open-plan kitchen with a island counter in the middle of it, and appliances along the walls, with one wall being a large window, through which I could see it was daylight outside. The kitchen felt like it was in some kind of hotel or holiday apartment - or that it was a commercial kitchen of some kind. I cannot explain this feeling. My Nan pointed to the floor and I could see thousands of tiny mice - they were longer and thinner than usual and about the size of a piece of penne pasta. They looked somewhat cylindrical. These mice were swarming all over the white tiled floor. I was scared and disgusted, so I rushed back into the previous room to fetch the kittens so that they could catch the mice. The kittens were sitting on a sofa, hugging one another - they were now young adults - male and female, both white and dressed casually in normal clothes. I cannot recall what the female looked like, but the male had some light brown stubble and was wearing a baseball cap and a gold chain round his neck. I still perceived these people to be the 'kittens' from before and did not find it at all odd that they were now human. I asked them to come and kill the mice and the male kitten said that he would do so. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Buses
  • The colour blue

Dreamsigns: 

  • I felt like I was in a bus shelter while in the domestic interior
  • The appearance of the mice
  • The fact kittens became human

Day Residue: 
  • I  have recently been fascinated by Alan Resnick's This House Has People In It (2016). See Dream 890 - 'Groomed by a Bus Driver' from 22/12/2017 which was a dream influenced by Day Residue relating to This House Has People In It. In that post, I embed the original TV short and also a video compilation of all materials (from the website) in chronological order. In This House Has People In It, blue is prominent, being the shade of Boomy the Cat. In This House Has People In It, Boomy the Cat appears in the video surveillance footage - it is not clear who is in the costume. I strongly believe that the idea of kittens turning into adult humans and the emphasis on the colour blue was influenced by This House Has People In It. The father character, Tom also uses a tablet (or large smart phone) at several points in the footage. Significantly, the main theme of This House Has People In It is paranoia about a mystery (fake) disease, called 'Lynks Disease' which has a number of unusual symptoms. In the additional material for This House Has People In It, you see images of a newspaper dedicated to Lynks Disease. This might account for me dreaming of a mundane activity being falsely thought to cause a strange physical affliction and my Nan - who is susceptible to scaremongering - believing something she has read in an unreliable new source
  • The day before this dream I saw a news article and video of a kitten born with 2 faces
  • The day before this dream, I saw someone post an image of a disgusting dish someone had brought to a family party - it was cream cheese with shrimps in cocktail sauce on top. The mice in the dream reminded me somewhat of shrimps
  • Before I went to bed and had this dream I covered my feet in loads of thick vaseline and then put socks on top so that I could soften the skin on my feet - therefore the subject of feet had clearly been on my mind shortly prior to this dream

Waking Reactions: 
Although this dream seems somewhat benign (it most certainly was not a nightmare) it left me feeling really weird when I woke up from it - I felt a little uneasy for reasons I cannot articulate.

Saturday 23 December 2017

Dream 890

'Groomed by a Bus Driver'
Date: 22 December 2017
Time: 05:30 - 10:00
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Bus Stop - Day
There was some action before I saw myself with DL at a bus stop, which reminded me (slightly) of a bus stop which was near the campus at the University of York, where I did my first undergraduate degree. This bus stop was one which I think I had only been to when catching a bus out of York (it was not the main bus stop and I think I can remember there being a concrete walkway above it). In the dream, the location was a suburban one, with some houses on the other side of the road and some flowers/bushes/trees. It was really sunny. Everything seemed calm and happy. The bus arrived. It was full of people. The bus driver was an old white man, with a grey beard. DL got on first and the bus driver started making conversation with him (I cannot recall what). A passenger on the bus got impatient with the stalling and shouted: 'Get on the bus!' DL went and found a seat. I went to buy a bus ticket. The bus driver asked me if DL was gay. I told him that DL was not gay. It appeared that the bus driver was attracted to him. He invited DL and I to visit his house and said that he had a train set. I saw a vision of baby pink and baby blue trains. 

Scene 2: An Interior - Night
I was then in an interior, which looked like a takeaway, but I am not sure. An online friend, KS was present with another female, who I think I know from real life and recognised within the dream, but cannot recall. They were standing against a large window. They were standing and hugging one another. I went into the corner, where there was a counter - reinforcing the notion that this was a takeaway. I reached under the skirt I was wearing, to remove a tampon. KS and the other female started screaming at me and then spun round on the spot really quickly, before rushing out of the door to the room/building. A male dream character (unrecalled) entered through the door moments later. I asked him what was wrong with KS. I explained that I had been removing a tampon and as women, I thought they would understand. The male said to me: 'They thought you were being raped'. This made sense to me.

I cannot recall the rest of the dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I saw a vision of the bus driver's train sets in my mind while standing at the front of the bus
  • I tried to remove a tampon in public
  • KS was present (she lives abroad)
  • The spinning of KS and the female

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I had been wondering whether to catch a bus into town with DL so that I could go Christmas food shopping after he visited me on campus
  • A few of days before this dream I had been impatient by how long the bus driver on the bus I was trying to catch was taking to give tickets. I was rushing to get into the city to meet DL so that we could go and watch Star Wars: Episode VIII - The Last Jedi (2017) and the queue was super long, meaning I was worried I would be late. I was glad when the next bus turned up, as I could board this much faster. A couple of days later, I was catching a bus into the city so that I could get a train to Sheringham. I was annoyed when the bus was stopped for a prolonged period so that the drivers could switch over
  • Shortly before this movie I saw DL post a meme online which referred to train sets
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching videos about the bizarre, terrifying and fascinating Adult Swim film short by Alan Resnick, This House Has People In It (2016).This is definitely worth watching, so I have embedded the video below. I was drawn to the fact that the film features the colours blue (Boomy the Cat) and pink (the Family Friend) prominently. Most of the characters' clothing is blue or pink, as our decorations and cakes/sweets featured. Only one Youtube theorist mentioned the significance of these colours. I feel the suburban area I saw in Scene 1 may have been influenced by the location in which This House Has People In It is set. I have included some relevant images below the Youtube video of the film
  • I was aware KS has been through a recent traumatic event
  • The day before this dream I had reported a man on facebook for making inappropriate comments about wanting to commit rape
  • The day before this dream I had been looking for something in my cabinet drawer and seen some tampons
  • A couple of days before this dream I had mentioned to my Mum how good the food from my ex-boyfriend's takeaway had been

Waking Reactions: 
For some reason, this dream left me feeling really unsettled when I woke up. It felt really significant and lingering, although I am not able to say why. In Scene 1, the environment in which DL and I caught the bus seemed to be almost too perfect and twee - this felt fake and I woke up with this notion, even though in the dream I am not sure I specifically thought this at the time. I also felt unsettled by Scene 2.


Dream 889

'Crowded House'
Date: 21 December 2017
Time: 02:30 - 06:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: An Interior - Day
I was in a house, which was not one I know from real life, but in the dream, I lived there. KU was present. We were standing in a normal kitchen talking. KU was telling me that he had to go somewhere. 

I walked from the kitchen into the next room, which was my bedroom. I saw that KU had invited a number of people into the house without me knowing - about 8 - 10 people were present. These were all dream characters - male and female. They were all sitting on the bed, using laptops. I was annoyed because they were invading my privacy and the room was a complete mess with food packaging and empty bottles/cans all over the floor. I was angry with both KU and these dream characters. I demanded that the dream characters cleaned the room. While they did this, I stole all their laptops and wallets/purses. I wondered if I would get into trouble for this, but then felt justified because they should not have been in my bedroom.

There was something involving a rocking horse and a ferry - I cannot recall what.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • KU as a dream character
  • Me committing a criminal offence and feeling justified because I was 'wronged' in some way

Dreamsigns: 

  • I lived in a random house
  • I stole laptops and money

Day Residue: 
  • I had a recent conversation with KU about hating random people being invited into my personal space without me knowing - this being something my former housemates have done
  • KU studied computer science

Waking Reactions: 
I was really angry in this dream, and when I woke up, I felt that this would be the kind of situation which would make me feel really angry in real life!

Friday 22 December 2017

Dream 888

'Finger Biter'
Date: 20 December 2017
Time: 03:00 - 10:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: Sheringham - Day
I was in Sheringham, although I am not sure of the precise location. My Nan and my cousin HM were present. My Nan was telling me something and then I saw HM standing at a Pick 'n' Mix sweet counter, being bought sweets by her dad, RC. I cannot recall much about this scene, other than my cousin and I were not being friendly to each other.

Scene 2: An Interior - Time Unknown
I was then in an interior - a house, but not one I recognise from real life. It was quite dark inside and I am not sure what room we were in. I had 2 yoghurts - they were strawberry flavour and very creamy, with a strawberry syrup on top. I was looking forward to eating them. I was aware that there were other dream characters present, but I do not recall who they were. CEC grabbed the yoghurts from me and threw them in a small waste paper bin. This made me angry. I bit her index finger and it came off. This obviously startled CEC and I felt somewhat guilty, but justified in doing so. I wondered if the yoghurts were still OK to eat. I retrieved them from the bin and found they were fine, so I ate them. CEC came back from somewhere she had disappeared to while I was eating the yoghurt. She was walking between 2 unknown dream characters - both tall white males. I saw - or she told me - that she had got her finger reattached. She did not seem to hold a grudge against me.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I bit off CEC's finger and it was reattached

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I went to Sheringham for the day and I thought I saw HM's dad, but it was not actually him
  • A couple of days before this dream, KU and I had talked about Pick 'n' Mix sweets
  • On the day of this dream my Mum had asked me if I had spoken to CEC recently

Waking Reactions: 
This was a really weird dream and I felt quite guilty for biting off my friend's finger when I woke up.

Dream 887

'Dead Girlfriend'
Date: 17 December 2017
Time: 22:30 - 04:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: My University - Day
I was at my university, although I am not sure what specific location I was in at first - I think I was inside a building. I saw BT, a colleague and a friend. I think he came to my house or to the building I was in the dream. He was acting aloof and somewhat unfriendly towards me and I found his behaviour to be odd and out of character. I then found out that BT and I had dated and things had not gone well. I 'found out' because I started talking to another male dream character (who I cannot recall in the dream, only that he was my friend and had been with me in the building I was in when BT arrived). He had 'reminded me' of this. I questioned how this was possible, as BT is gay. 

I was then walking round the lake on campus with SOTD, who is someone I vaguely know, but had no reason to think about. The weather made it feel like it was summer, as it was warm and the sun was shining brightly. SOTD was wearing a T-shirt or short-sleeved patterned shirt and shorts. We stopped halfway around the lake and SOTD got a photograph out of his pocket. It showed a blonde girl female. who for some reason was connected to BT, although I am not sure how. In the centre of the photograph, where the female's face should be, there was a hole. Instead of it being a normal hole, it looked like a 'donut shape' which I am not sure would be possible in real life. It totally obscured her face. SOTD was really upset, crying. He told me that this was a photograph of his girlfriend and that she had died. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I had dated BT and he was heterosexual
  • BT's character was different from usual
  • I was with SOTD at my university campus
  • The photograph of the dead girlfriend had a donut-shaped hole in it

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream BT had come to my house (while I was there with KU) so that he could drop a work phone off at my house
  • I had mentioned a previous relationship to KU - because we were ordering Chinese food from my ex's takeaway
  • On the day of this dream KU had mentioned that it was very cold outside and I had told him it was 'just like Spring' and he should value the reasonable weather as the previous days had been icy and freezing

Waking Reactions: 
I did not have any particular waking reactions to this dream as it was not extremely bizarre, nor interesting. 

Dream 886

'I'm Going to Have a False Awakening'
Date: 13 December 2017
Time: 23:30 - 07:00
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: A Bedroom - Night
I was in a bedroom which I have not seen before in real life. There was more than one bed in the room - I had a bed which was beside a window with (white) open curtains. My bed was just a mattress on the floor, with a pink-red blanket on it. Next to my bed was a single bed of normal height with white covers. I think this was my Mum's bed in the dream. It was time for bed and as I laid down, I was fearful that when I fell asleep I would experience sleep paralysis/a false awakening. This felt like it was a virtual certainty and I was extremely worried. However I fell asleep. 

I think that Scene 2 of this dream could be the 'dream' I had within this first-level dream, but I am not sure. 

Scene 2: My Flat, Norwich - Day
I was then in my own flat and it was daytime. I heard someone ring my doorbell and I answered the door to see that it was my friend ML, who is the partner of my former housemate, SC. ML and I had a conversation and she indicated that she was now somehow involved with KU, which surprised me, as I did not know how they could possibly know one another. The interaction at the door was semi-hostile after I found out this information. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • KU as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

  • My Mum and I were sleeping in a strange bedroom
  • ML was involved with KU

Day Residue: 
  • A short while before this dream I had mentioned to KU that ML was his union officer. They do not know one another

Waking Reactions: 
The most interesting aspect of this dream was the fact that even in the dream I was scared about the possibility of sleep paralysis and false awakening and wanted to avoid this. 

Wednesday 13 December 2017

Dream 885

'Stolen Credit Card'
Date: 12 December 2017
Time: 07:30 - 08:45
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Bar/Restaurant - Day
I was in a bar or restaurant with 2 dream characters - a white male (tall, skinny, with short blondish-brown hair and stubble, wearing casual clothing) and a white female (small, skinny and blonde, wearing scruffy clothing). Both of these dream characters were drug-addicts, although I did not see them use drugs in the dream. I just knew that they used drugs. In the dream they were both acquaintances of mine. We were sitting at a table in some booth seating and I think we had some drinks. There was some conversation and after a short while I left - leaving a pink handbag with them to look after. I do not know why I left my bag rather than taking it with me. 

Scene 2: An Outside Area - Day
I was then with another person - a male friend who I know in real life, but who I cannot recall from the dream. I wanted to get my handbag back. We were walking in a normal suburban area (one I do not recognise from real life). It felt familiar to me in the dream. It was sunny. At some point, I became aware that my bank card and mobile phone were in my handbag, but I felt OK about this, because the 2 dream characters who I had left it with did not know my pin number. I decided to call my bank and did so (although I do not know whose phone I used, as my own was in my bag and I knew this because I was also worried that my phone might be stolen). I was informed that £220 had been taken from my account. I then realised that I have a contactless bank card and therefore it is not necessary to know my pin number. My bank told me that my card had been used to buy cannabis. I wondered if the cannabis had been bought from the bar/restaurant - as the seller must have an electronic card machine. I was really annoyed and asked the bank to refund me the money. I did not get an answer about this during this phone call, so I was left angry and frustrated. 

My friend and I went to find the 2 dream characters who had my bag. I was blaming myself for trusting them. We walked round the back of some buildings to a space which looked like a yard which had been uncared for. There were some garages and the concrete ground had weeds growing up through it, and was littered with broken furniture. The area was enclosed by a chainlink fence. I could see that a backdoor to a property was open. The building was red brick - like a terraced house - and the door was dark green with peeling paint. It looked like a squat. I knew this was where the dream characters lived. As I approached the door, I could no longer see the building, and I found the 2 dream characters sitting in a corner of 2 buildings, on a blanket on the concrete. This was their 'home'. I started telling them that they had to pay me back the money. The male denied that they had used my card and handed me back my handbag, which he told me he had been looking after. My phone was still inside. I was surprised that only £220 had been stolen from me - as this seemed to be quite restrained. I was arguing with the dream characters, but they would not accept responsibility for the theft of my money. 

I walked a short distance away, and while standing in the yard, called the bank again, explaining the situation to them. The bank agreed to refund the stolen money, which made me pleased.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I left my bag with 2 people I knew to be drug-addicts
  • The changing nature of my environment

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I had called my credit card company and successfully convinced them to reverse a charge for late payment on my account, which made me feel pleased
  • On the day of this dream I had been discussing credit card fraud with KU
  • On the day of this dream I had mentioned a friend who is a former drug addict while in conversation with KU
  • On the day of this dream I had been discussing cannabis/prices in a general way (and referring to a previous housemate who was an former heroin user who had tried to establish himself as a weed dealer)
  • The day before this dream I had been watching an episode of Sugar Rush (2005) in which Sugar and Kim steal Kim's mum's credit card and go on a shopping spree as revenge for her infidelity

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was clearly influenced strongly by my Day Residue, as indicated above. I did not have any particular waking thoughts or emotions about this dream. 

Dream 884

'Sexy Time'
Date: 10 December 2017
Time: 04:00 - 08:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a house, but not one I know from real life. It was a normal home, nothing out of the ordinary. SS, someone I know from real life, was present. I have not seen him in years and have not had cause to think about him recently. In the dream SS wanted to have sex with me and we went into a bedroom in the house where we started to have sex on the bed, which had white sheets on it. I was on top of SS, riding him, and he was enjoying this, especially as I was able to move my hips really fast and rhythmically. I had a powerful orgasm. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was having sex with SS

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This was a very enjoyable dream experience and I woke up feeling really sexually aroused! I found it odd that SS was the sexual partner in this dream, as I don't find him particularly attractive and hadn't consciously thought about him. 

Sunday 10 December 2017

Dream 883

'Gender Bending'
Date: December 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Day
I was with KU and my Mum. KU was as he would appear in real life. Nothing was unusual. 

My Mum and I left KU. Some time passed and I think I decided to meet up with KU again. I seemed to be walking across some panels which may have been on a roof top. They looked like flat, white solar panels. When I saw KU again, on the roof/solar panel area - he was female. Other than the fact the woman was black and had a similar body shape (average height/build) there was no similarity between her and KU. This was not a transgender version of KU or KU dressed as a female - the dream character was a different woman who in the dream was KU. She was very pretty and had amazing makeup on - including bright red lipstick. I kept complimenting her on her makeup application, but was so confused that this was KU, who I knew to be male. My Mum was acting as if I was strange for not understanding how KU was now a female. She did not think this was odd and accepted it. She was telling me that I should just cope with it. I did not want KU to be female as I liked him as a male (he is someone I am interested in as a point of note - if he was just a platonic friend, I would have no issue with him changing gender!) The female KU was really nice and I liked her, but still felt uneasy.

I was then on a train/bus at night with my Mum - sitting right at the back. The female KU came onto the train. I thought she seemed like she had been drinking alcohol. She was holding a brochure and told me that she was applying for the same job that I do at my university. She wanted advice on how to do well in the interview. The brochure she was holding contained the written job description. I told KU to read the job description and use this to answer questions in the interview. I asked KU what her understanding of the job was. It was clear from her answer that KU did not fully understand the complexity of some of the work. However, I said that her understanding was fine. KU walked away and I felt like I should have corrected her misunderstanding and told her more about the job so that she could be sure to get through the interview.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

* Normally, I include an analysis under each dream, which includes a discussion of potential/actual Day Residue. As I took a prolonged hiatus from my dreamwork/blogging, I have not been able to do this for the last few dreams I have written up (which occurred during the break). I will be reverting back to my fuller dream reports after today. However, it is worth noting that I had this dream a couple of days after I was talking to my friend LD2 (who is a colleague in my job). During this discussion we talked about KU (who I have only known for a few weeks); transgender persons (we watched an amazing video about a transition; and me being heterosexual and wanting a partner who identifies as male (so a transman would be fine). We also discussed applicants for our job and the fact that some candidates do not seem to understand the job role and are therefore unsuitable or unprepared. Shortly prior to this conversation with LD2, I had been discussing transgender issues with KU. I referred to this earlier conversation when subsequently talking to LD2. It appears, therefore, that this dream was heavily influenced by the conversation I had been having with LD2. 

Dream 882

'Moving Day'
Date: November 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall 

Scene 1: My House, Norwich - Day
The dream started inside my house, but I cannot recall what happened. I was in my lounge/kitchen. I went outside, to the small concrete area in front of my house and that of the house next door (I live on a university campus as I am a postgraduate student and member of staff, so I have an employee's flat). One of the girls from next door was moving out, and it felt like it was the end of the semester, just before the holidays. The girl moving out had stacked all her belongings outside our houses, packed into suitcases and boxes. The pile was really high - almost double my height and there was no way that this would have all fit in a normal student room. I was holding something in my hands - I think it was a piece of paper. 

I cannot recall what else happened. 

Dream 881

'Weird Party'
Date: November 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: My Uncle & Aunt's House, Roughton - Night
There was a party at my uncle and aunt's house - most of my family was there as well as other guests. I cannot recall a lot of what was happening in this dream. R3A was a guest at the party. He was sitting in an armchair in the back of the room with some males either side of him. He was ignoring me and I was aware that he wasn't happy with me for some reason. I was a short distance away, talking with my Mum. R3A - despite ignoring me - kept staring at me in an angry way. My Mum said: 'He doesn't want you to go near him'. This made me feel unhappy.

At another point in this dream I was brushing/combing my hair and big sections of it were falling out onto the floor. It looked a much lighter brown colour (rather than black). I was concerned. 

Dream 880

'City in the Sky'
Date: October 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Outside Location - Night
I was outside at night - I think CR, my colleague was present, along with a few other people. It felt like I was both on my university campus (where CR and I study and work) and standing on the promenade at Sheringham, looking out at the sea - at the same time. It was like a composite dream location. 

We were looking at the sky, which was very starry. There were 2 moons - or at least, the moon and another large planetary object which was orange. There were a number of very large, bright shooting stars flashing across the sky. At this point I thought I was looking out at the sea, because to the right side of me - far out above the sea, in the sky I could see a city floating there. The city looked like a Dr Seuss illustration - the 'buildings' were pastel coloured and very much like those I have seen in his books (see image, below). When I saw the city in the distant sky I felt strangely reassured and happy. CR and I were talking about it - it seemed normal to us that we could see this.

Saturday 9 December 2017

Dream 879

'Seamen & Black Boxes'
Date: October 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Dream Fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall 

Scene 1: Unknown
I cannot recall much about this dream, other than it involved sailors/seamen, wearing traditional costumes and there was something relating to some plain, square black boxes, which were approximately the size which could fit a football inside. These were given to me by an old woman with grey hair (in a bun at the back of her head), wearing a long, black witchy dress. She was not scary in the dream. I think this scene took place outside - I partially recall the sailors standing on a wooden boardwalk or pier, a short distance away from myself and the woman giving me the boxes. I think I could see the sea, or knew we were by the sea. I think it was daytime. 

I have no idea what these boxes were supposed to represent, but within the dream I thought I had discovered a genius idea involving the boxes. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. I think it took place while I was first falling asleep and ended when I actually fell asleep. The most significant aspect of this dream was the fact that I thought it represented an extremely intelligent and meaningful idea. 

Dream 878

'Sideman Drama'
Date: October 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Sheringham, Norfolk - Day
I was in Sheringham and I had a new boyfriend - I think his name was 'Ezra'. He was average height and skinny with black curly hair. I think he was white or mixed-race, but I cannot recall. He was dressed in casual clothing and was in his 20s or early 30s. I am not sure how I met Ezra, but I think he had moved to my local area. My Mum and Nan were in an early part of the dream scene. Everyone seemed to like Ezra and I felt quite happy to be dating him. I recall that we were outside - in Sheringham High Street - and that it was quite busy (like a Saturday) and the weather was sunny, or at least, fair. At one point I was walking behind Ezra as we were passing The Robin Hood Pub. He stopped and turned round and reached for my hand. At this point I wished I was with another man (someone in real life) instead. 

I cannot recall all actions or conversations in this dream. I just recall that generally I was expressing wishing that I was with another man instead of Ezra and everyone thought that I was wrong and that I should be happy with my new boyfriend. Ezra was also upset about my feelings, so everyone's reactions seemed normal int he circumstances of the dream. 

I then found myself on Common Lane/Woodland Rise in Sheringham at night. This is the road which leads to my Nan's house and the precise spot I was standing in is one which has featured in many of my previous dreams. This was on the corner of what we call 'the woods path' which runs parallel to the residential side of the road. I may have been alone, but I think that there may have been other dream characters present. I was looking up at the sky which was filled with stars. I saw a shooting star - it was much bigger than a normal shooting star - it looked to be the size of a tennis ball and was extremely bright. I 'wished' that the other man was in love with me. In the dream seeing the shooting star and the 'wish' was a sign that I was meant to follow the other man instead of Ezra and I felt more free.

This dream seemed significant at the time, as when I woke up my thoughts were that I would rather have a casual thing with someone rather than a boyfriend and my conscious brain seemed to agree with how the dream version of me felt/acted in the dream. 

Dream 877

'Buying Puppies'
Date: October 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Train - Day
I was on a train journey with my Mum. I was aware that we had travelled from our home county of Norfolk, and I was not sure of the destination at first. It was late afternoon and the train was full of other passengers. I was - or became - aware that my Mum and I were going to buy a puppy. 

We forgot to get off the train at out destination - which I think was King's Lynn/Peterborough - or at least a very short train journey from our starting point. I was wondering what we would do as we did not have the correct train tickets to travel any further. My Mum did not seem to care. A male ticket inspector came round and my Mum explained that we had forgotten to get off the train at out stop. Instead of making us pay for the mistake and buy new tickets, the inspector told us that we could get off at the next stop, which was - I think - Manchester. My Mum then told me that we were not going to buy just one puppy, but a whole litter. This made me feel excited. We did not get off the train at Manchester. My Mum said that we were going to stay on the train until we reached either Newcastle or Hull (the previous and current cities where my aunt CJ lived/lives). I was confused as to how we would get back home, but my Mum did not seem concerned. It was getting very late at night. My Mum said that we would get a hotel room and travel home the next day. 

Wednesday 6 December 2017

Dream 876

'The Last Jedi Premiere'
Date: September 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Cinema/Theatre - Time Unknown
I was with DL and we were in a cinema/theatre venue. We were sitting/standing in a balcony area, so slightly looking down at the screen/stage. In front of us was a perspex or glass screen - like bullet-proof glass. There were some other audience members in this area, with the rest sitting in normal cinema seats. We were there to watch Star Wars: Episode VIII - The Last Jedi (2017) and it was the premiere, so everyone was very excited, including myself.

The first scene seemed like we were watching it on a traditional cinema screen. This scene was very long and not much happened. Anakin Skywalker was working in an office. He had been given an administrative desk job by the Empire, because he was 'taking time off from Jedi work due to stress'. The other characters in this scene were Grand Moff Tarkin, a couple of other lower-ranking members of the Imperial Military and some Stormtroopers. They all seemed to be engaged in some office work - looking at documents and spreadsheets.There was some kind of chart/graph on the wall next to a filing cabinet to the left of the office set. Anakin was the office junior and seemed depressed in his job because it was boring. He was sitting at a desk in the centre of the room, with some piles of paperwork in front of him. I cannot recall any specific dialogue from this scene of the movie other than Tarkin was very strict and officious and Anakin was really whiny and petulant. He was dressed in the brown outfit he wears in Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002).

I was telling DL that I wanted to see Snoke and find out who this character was. At this point, the cinema screen seemed to change into a theatre stage. There were no stage props - just an empty stage. I could see the red curtains either side. A man walked out onto the stage. He was middle-aged and white, wearing normal clothes which I cannot recall. There was nothing distinctive about him. He was holding a script and reading aloud from it - as if this was a rehearsal, not an actual play. In the dream, this was still 'a movie' - and the second scene was now the introduction of Snoke. I was shocked that this male actor - looking like a normal human-being - was supposed to represent Snoke. I then saw that the words 'Snoke' and some other text showed up on the glass shield/panel in front of us, as if confirming what was happened in the movie. This looked like it was written in white marker pen. The Snoke character was boring. I said to DL that I thought The Last Jedi was really awful and not at all a proper Star Wars movie. It seemed more like a very badly acted rehearsal of an office-based drama. DL disagreed, saying that he thought this was the best out of all the movies. The rest of the audience seemed to agree with DL as they were cheering and clapping and generally loving the movie. I could not believe their exaggerated reactions and felt like I must be going mad as I was the only person who was having a negative reaction. 

Monday 4 December 2017

Dream 875 (FALSE AWAKENING/LUCID DREAM)

'Lightsaber Fail'
Date: September 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening (Fully Lucid with Moderate Dream Control & Moderate Dream Stability)
Dream recall: Strong recall 

False Awakening - My Bedroom
I woke up in my bed. I seemed to sit up instantly - like something startled me. At first I thought I was really awake, but then something alerted me to the fact I was in a false awakening. I am not sure what it was - I did not have sleep paralysis. I think that everything in my room looked as it normally should - nothing out of place or odd. I tried too get out of my bed and I found that I could not get my legs out from under the covers very easily. It seemed to take me ages to get my feet onto the floor. I walked out of my room. 

Instead of walking through from my room into the lounge/kitchen area of my flat, I walked into a different room, which does not exist in reality. It looked like a large empty room and my first thought was that I was being watched. It was so dark in the room that I could barely see anything. I started worrying about what nightmarish dream character I might see. I was fully lucid, but did not feel particularly in control. For some reason, my brain kept telling me that Pennywise the Clown from IT (2017) was going to surprise me. I decided that I needed a weapon - I used dream control techniques to close my eyes and focus on/visualise having a lightsaber. I wanted to have a Sith lightsaber (red for those not familair with Star Wars lore). I was hoping to have Darth Vader's lightsaber. Instead I got Luke Skywalker's green one. I was not happy about this. The lightsaber was already activated when it appeared in my hand. 

I could now see that there were a number of strange figures/objects in the room. They looked to be 3/4 of my own height and human-shaped, but covered with white sheets (like a bad ghost fancy-dress costume). I was not sure if these were actual living beings or statues. I found myself walking through them. The room felt like a museum at this point. I started trying to attack the white-sheeted figures with the lightsaber, but nothing happened. I could not get it to even cut through the sheets. This was frustrating. 

Someone came in the room and stood in the doorway. I approached the doorway, with the lightsaber held in front of me. I could see that the person in the room was a tall man, but I could not look up to see his face for some reason. I felt scared. I swung the lightsaber at him - it should have made contact, but it seemed to just move through thin air, doing nothing. 

I woke up. 

Friday 8 September 2017

Dreams 868 - 874

Dream 868
'Weird Hair Dilemma'
Date: 24 August 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Weak Recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was with my Mum - but I am not sure where we actually were, other than I think it was inside a building. My Mum was running her hand across my head, under my hair. She said that there was short, fuzzy hair (like soft stubble) under my normal, long hair. I think I saw myself in the third-person and specifically, the back of my head. I was worried about the fuzzy hair underneath my own hair, but then I thought that this was better than being bald - this fuzzy hair was new hair growing.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The weird fuzzy hair growing over my head
  • I saw myself in third-person perspective

Day Residue: 
  • At the end of the summer I always suffer a lot of hair loss - more than usual, given I normally shed what looks to be an excessive amount of hair each day. I researched on the internet and found that summer hair loss is quite normal and healthy for some people. Even though this happens each year, I always notice and worry about it

Waking Reactions: 
Nothing to add - my reactions upon waking were the same as those within the dream itself and I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 869 (MULTIPLE LUCID FALSE AWAKENINGS)

'My New Housemate'
Date: 27 August 2017
Time: Time Unknown
Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening (Fully Lucid with Minimal/No Dream Control & Weak Dream Stability)
Dream recall: Strong recall 

False Awakening #1 - My Bedroom
I went to bed with my bedroom light off and my door wedged wide open. The light from the hallway was on, partly illuminating my bedroom, and beyond this, the kitchen/lounge light was on. I often sleep this way when I am in my house by myself, as I have been for the entire summer. I have a new housemate, CGD moving in shortly. 

I woke up facing my wall, with the duvet on me. I realised after a moment that this was a lucid false awakening. I had sleep paralysis. It felt like I was mummified by the duvet, like it was weighing me down and wrapping round me, preventing me from moving. This is often the way I interpret the feeling of sleep paralysis (the physical sensation) when it is incorporated into my dream narrative/experience. I also had the common feeling of tension and electrified/vibrating atmosphere which accompanies my lucid false awakenings. I was not sure if I was alone, but I got the impression that if I kept thinking about it, that I might conjure something nightmarish into this dream. 

I started shouting: 'Ewan!' hoping to bring Ewan McGregor into my dream. I usually try to bring him into my lucid dream experiences, because it is enjoyable and also reassuring. However, no matter how much I called out to him, he would not appear. I struggled to fight the sleep paralysis, urging my body to move. It felt like I was breaking myself free from some glue - unsticking myself very gradually, while a force was trying to hold me down. I eventually managed to sit up in bed - I could see that my bedroom door was open, but all the lights were off in the house. My room - what I could see of it, appeared as it should in real life, although I knew the hallway/lounge lights should be on. I could not see what was beyond my bedroom because of this. I was scared. I laid down and tried to fall back asleep by closing my 'dream eyes'. I must have been successful.

False Awakening #2
I woke up in another lucid false awakening with sleep paralysis. I could tell that there was a malign presence in the room with me, and I felt terrified. No matter how many times I have these continuous false awakenings or false awakenings accompanied by sleep paralysis and nightmarish beings, I cannot get used to them and stop myself feeling this scared. I could not break free from the sleep paralysis and I tried to call out to Ewan again, but to no avail, so once more, I closed my 'dream eyes' and tried to fall back asleep.

False Awakening #3
I woke up into a false awakening again, and immediately sprung up into a crouching position on my bed, outside of the duvet. However, I was unable to turn around and see what was behind me. In front of me, was my open bedroom door, and the darkness beyond that. I felt a presence in the room, behind me and was petrified, as I could not turn to see what it was or defend myself. I could, however, move my arms freely. I shook them, to maintain the movement, in case I needed to fight something. Again, I shouted out for Ewan, but there was nothing. Knowing that something behind me (unannounced presence, but anticipating an attack from it), I started shouting: 'I will kill you!' Nothing attacked me. I could not shake off the apprehension and fear, so I decided to close my eyes and visualise a new dream scene, as I am aware that this is a technique which can sometimes work in a lucid dream. I could not change the dream scene - I opened my eyes and saw I was still in my own bedroom. I felt trapped. 

False Awakening #4
I woke up again, in a false awakening. I could not believe it! I decided to get out of bed and see if I could transform this false awakening into a different form of lucid dream by leaving my room. I had some degree of sleep paralysis which made my body feel like it was wading through treacle or sinking sand, but I was able to move slowly. I was also quite tangled in my duvet, which is another was in which I experience the physical phenomena of false awakenings with sleep paralysis. I eventually got out of bed, but it was so difficult to walk, that I only made it a couple of steps towards my chest of drawers. I found I could easily move my body to climb on top of the drawers (which are mid-thigh height, so very low). I crouched on top of them and noticed there was s felt-tip pen drawing there, rather than my PhD research. I looked towards my bedroom door, which was still open. This time I could see light. It was not the hall light, just outside my room, but rather the lounge light, which was a deep red colour in the dream state. I could see a large pile of belongings outside my bedroom, on the hall floor. It looked like a load of old junk and I wondered what it was, and who had put it here. I then wondered (lucidly) if this was supposed to represent the belongings of my new housemate. I could see one of the items was a large cymbal, and could make out some suitcases, but the rest of the items still looked like a load of junk. My vision was somewhat unclear because of the darkness and dim red glow of the light. I started shouting: 'Hello?!' feeling very anxious that I was about to be confronted with something malign/nightmarish, as I could still sense a presence in the house and knowing that my dream control was minimal, was worried I was under threat.

A male figure came into view. He was very misshaped and deformed - with one shoulder hanging much lower than the other and crooked. He was wearing a baggy, ripped red jumper and ripped jeans, which was about all I could make out, mainly because he was standing in shadows and red light. He looked like a zombie/walking dead, as a result of his terrible form and posture. I wondered if he was my new housemate, CGD. He started to walk towards me - in a zombie-like crippled limp, dragging one of his feet behind him. I was anxious as I did not want this confrontation. It seemed to take him ages to reach my room, even though this is only a couple of steps from where he was standing in the hallway. As he approached me, all I could focus on was the red jumper. I thought this might be because I did not know what CGD looked like in real life, so my mind could not imagine his face. He said to me: 'I'm CGD, I moved in early'. I stood up and he hugged me. I stopped worrying that something nightmarish would happen and relaxed.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • The Lucid False Awakening

Day Residue: 
  • I had been talking about my new housemate and how I did not know what he looks like as I could not ascertain his Facebook profile when I was looking to see if I could find him online before meeting him
  • On the day of this dream DL and I had been discussing drums (and cymbals) and also how the vintage 1990s fashion trend does not translate well into the digital age, particularly the 'grunge' look, which was not about being 'fashionable' and had a very different set of aesthetics and ethics than the Instagram generation can ever appreciate when they attempt to recreate the looks and culture of this era. DL and I also very briefly discussed zombies
  • My new housemate has the same last name as an ex-boyfriend, who was a drummer

Waking Reactions: 
I actually anticipated a false awakening before I went to sleep, as I was so exhausted when I went to bed and felt myself falling asleep as soon as I laid down and closed my eyes. I always get this rocking/falling back feeling preceding a false awakening, so when I experienced this before sleep, I think I was actually anticipating this. It was neither a positive nor a negative experience, but it was certainly not enjoyable. I felt so hopeless and helpless while in this multiple false awakenings - it becomes so that I feel trapped by the experience and cannot bring it to an end.

Dream 870
'Grandad Peanut'
Date: 28 August 2017
Time: Time Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Day
I was in an unfamiliar domestic interior, which in the dream was a family home. My cousin HM was present - looking as she did when she was a young child, although in the dream we were both adult. It was daytime, as I could see this through a window in the room. There was a sofa against the wall and HM and I sat down on it. I then stood up again and stood in the middle of the room, looking towards a doorway, which led to the kitchen. An elderly man crawled through the doorway into the room HM and I were in, which I assume was the lounge. This man had a beard and was abnormally small and seemingly shrouded in an orange glow. I realised that this was my cousin HM's paternal grandfather, who (in real life) was nicknamed 'Peanut' (coincidentally. both HM's grandfathers - the maternal one she shares with me, given our mums are sisters - and her paternal one, who is no relation to me, have the exact same names, with the first and middle name switched - so RDC and DRC respectively). 

I went somewhere by myself - I do not know where. When I returned back to the family home some time later, members of my family were present, eating Christmas dinner. My Mum told me to get my serving, but when I approached the table where all the food was set out for people to help themselves, I realised there was none left for me (only scraps of food and none of the things I would most like to eat), which made me resentful and angry. Everyone was enjoying and my Mum shouted out jokingly 'Didn't anyone leave any for her?!' I felt disconnected and annoyed with my family for forgetting to save me some of the dinner. 

I then saw a male dream character who was a member of campus security (indicated by the hi-vis jacket with my university name/logo) standing at the window, looking in. This male was white, with dark hair and a moustache/beard - he looked to be in his 20s or early 30s. 

I then realised that there was something wrong with my teeth and that I needed an operation to correct it. I was really panicked and anxious and my Mum was nonchalant, telling me not to worry. She didn't seem to care. I looked in the mirror and saw that my 4 lower front teeth were really big and egg-shaped with gaps between them. One was made of pearl, one was made of black and white marble, one was white with brown speckles and one was rust coloured. I wondered how my teeth had transformed in this way, but the more I looked at them, I realised I actually liked how different they were from normal teeth and decided that I should keep them like this.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character
  • Something odd about my body, causing me anxiety which I overcome after inspecting it

Dreamsigns: 
  • My cousin was an adult in a child's body
  • I think (I am not 100% sure) that my cousin's grandfather has died. I will check this with members of my family
  • My family had forgotten about me
  • Campus security was at my family home
  • My weird teeth

Day Residue: 
  • I had a long discussion with the cleaner at university, DW, with whom I get on very well. We had discussed food and family, and I had shown her a photo of me as a child, which also had HM on it. We also talked about nut allergies
  • I had been discussing grandfathers with DL the day of this dream
  • I have anxiety about my teeth and had been thinking about them. Just before this dream I had read an online story about someone having dental surgery and had also watched a Grav3yardgirl video in which Bunny described how she is content and comfortable with her imperfect 'pony teeth' (her description)

Waking Reactions: 
I woke up from this dream in a very negative and depressed mood, which I attributed to the dream in my waking thoughts.

Dream 871
'Ewan's Babymama'
Date: 29 August 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Weak/Normal Recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
The dream started off in an interior - a house I think, although I am not sure. CEC and NN (both of whom I have been friends with since school) were present in the dream, although I am unable to say how they played a part in the dream narrative. There was also something relating to a piano, which I cannot recall clearly.

Scene 2: A Bus Stop. Cromer - Day
I was at a bus stop in Cromer, which was not the main bus stop (which featured in a recent dream - 'Dream 865 - 'Jimmy Savile Victim' inspired by a recent rape incident which took place in this location in real life). It was day time, but not sunny. I was sitting on the bench of the bus stop and I was aware that I was pregnant. I was joined by Ewan McGregor, who was the father of my unborn baby. I was not happy and I felt really oppressed and trapped by my relationship with Ewan, who was a moody and nagging person who constantly suffocated me with attention and lack of independence. I just wished I was on my own and not about to become a mother. Ewan just loitered over me, really close, so I did not have personal space. He was saying something (unrecalled) which I felt was negative and annoying. He was wearing a navy jumper and had his hair parted at the side, but other than that, looked exactly how he does in real life, in the present time. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • A bus stop in Cromer as a dream scene location
  • Ewan McGregor as a dream character
  • Not enjoying Ewan's company due to his bad personality

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was pregnant and Ewan McGregor was the father

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This was really odd - I love Ewan so much that I cannot imagine being unhappy to be in a relationship with him. Although I do not want children, I would imagine that if I did, Ewan would be the man I would want to procreate with, given how obsessed I am with him! I am not sure what my subconscious was trying to tell me in this dream!


Dream 872
'Female Darth Vader Impersonator'
Date: 2 September 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: A Flat/Restaurant, Norwich - Night
I was with DL in a flat, which in the dream was above his real life flat. However, it was much bigger than would be possible for the real life size of the building. The flat was also a restaurant and was owned by a female dream character, who was a tall, slim white female with a black straight bobbed haircut (jaw-length) and dark eyeliner and lipstick. I knew that DL was attracted to her. On the TV in the flat, I could see that a video was playing. It was footage filmed by an amateur and featured the female dream character, who in her spare time was a 'Female Darth Vader Impersonator'. The video showed her dressed up as Darth Vader, but I did not hear the audio or know the context of the video. 

DL and I walked around the corner, where there was one table, with food laid out on it. The food was from the restaurant run by the female. There was a large cake stand (the multi-tiered ones you see high tea served on), with had hundreds of white bread rolls, with ham in them. DL informed me that the restaurant (it wasn't really a restaurant, but rather a flat that had a dinner table where you could eat food prepared by the female) was famous for giving you unlimited ham rolls with each meal ordered. I thought this was excellent value - as you could eat as many ham rolls as you wanted for free, no matter what you ordered. DL told me that the restaurant usually served Italian food. 

The female and I left the flat, while DL went down to his own flat. He was going to meet up a short while later after he had finished doing what he needed to do in his own flat. I noticed at this point, that instead of being located where DL's flat is in real life, it was in some kind of courtyard, with buildings forming a quadrangle. 

Scene 2: Common Lane, Sheringham - Night
The female and I walked off and instead of being in Norwich, we were suddenly standing on Common Lane, Sheringham, which is the road which leads up to my Nan's house. We were standing outside a tall building, which the female told me was DL's house (instead of being a house, it was a block of flats). She said we were to meet him outside his house, and he was inside with the woman that lived above him - who he was in a relationship with. I did not question the fact that in the previous dream scene we had left the building DL apparently lived in, and the 'female resident' who lived above him had been the woman with whom I was not standing, not someone else. We were waiting for ages, just talking. 

I then received a phone call from DL. I asked him why he had not come out of his building. He said that he had, and that he was looking for us. I then realised that we had been at his house before (when in the female's flat/restaurant) and that the female had led me to Sheringham by mistake. I said to her: 'DL lives in your building, we didn't need to come here!' She laughed at her mistake and we walked back to the building she lived in, which was DL's home. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Food

Dreamsigns: 
  • The flat/restaurant with the Female Darth Vader impersonator
  • DL's house was in a random courtyard
  • We walked from DL's flat (Norwich) to Common Lane, Sheringham in a matter of minutes, but in real life, this is a 25 mile (or more) distance
  • The dream logic was completely distorted - the Female Darth Vader impersonator forgot DL lived in the same building as her, and while she was the resident in the flat above him, she later seemed to suggest that there was a different woman living above DL, with whom he was in a relationship, although in the dream I put this down to the fact she had been confused about the locations

Day Residue: 
  • I had been watching an edited video of Darth Vader in various scenes from Star Wars which had been overdubbed with Gordon Ramsey's funniest meltdowns or insults from Hell's Kitchen or Kitchen Nightmares
  • I had been chatting to a guy online and he asked me if I liked to do Star Wars cosplay. He was trying to get me to talk about cosplay in a flirty. sexual way and got annoyed with me when I said I did not want to have a sexual conversation with him 
  • DL and I had been discussing gender-bending of fictional characters in popular culture shortly before this dream
  • DL has Italian heritage
  • DL had recently complained to me about the woman who lived above him, who makes a lot of banging and also orders takeaways late at night, often resulting in the delivery person ringing DL's doorbell and annoying him. He hates this woman, so he found it funny that in the dream he was in a relationship with a woman who lived above him

Waking Reactions: 
I found this dream really confusing while I was dreaming it, but reflecting on it, it was actually a very enjoyable and funny dream. 


Dream 873
'Incompetent Star Wars Remake, featuring 'Binmanwoman''
Date: 4 September 2017
Time: 05:00 - 12:00 
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: Sheringham Market - Day
I was in Sheringham market (this happens on a Saturday), which looked as it used to when I visited it each weekend as a child/teenager, except it was slightly larger and had some interesting clothes stalls with fashion items which would unlikely to be in the actual real life market, and more suitable to somewhere like Camden or Wembley Market (both of which I regularly visited when I lived in London).

 I was with a huge group of dream characters and we were involved in a remake of all the Star Wars movies - the dream characters I was with were the cast and crew. We were remaking the movies in chronological order, starting with Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999). Sheringham market was supposed to be Tatooine. I wanted to play Padme Amidala, but instead, I was cast as a character called 'Binmanwoman' which I was not happy about. The filming seemed disorganised and chaotic - no-one seemed to know what they were doing, and everyone was just standing around debating how to best start this project. I got bored and wandered over to a market stall which sold pens. I wanted to buy some green biros, and I asked the man who ran the stall if he had a scrap of paper for me to test them out. He was moody and rude, and handed me some paper, which I scribbled on to test the green pens out. I decided to buy them, and then returned to the Star Wars cast and crew to continue filming.

Scene 2: The Crown Public House, Sheringham
The next scene where we were filming the new Star Wars remake was The Crown pub in Sheringham. I noticed that some locals - who I knew from when I lived in Sheringham - were in the pub, sitting in the part of the room where the fruit machine and dartboard is, just to the side of the entrance/bar. CSS and TC were present, as well as a couple of other locals. They were all having fun, laughing and drinking pints of beer. We were waiting to film a scene where the child Anakin Skywalker is first introduced into the story, as a child slave. However, the actor playing (adult/Sith Lord) Darth Vader came in, prematurely. He looked very threatening, but instead of having the black Darth Vader costume, he just looked like a very tall man - resembling a much larger and younger Will Self, wearing normal clothes of the type you might expect Will Self to wear (a tweed jacket and shirt). He also spoke with Will Self's voice, so in the dream I perceived this actor to actually be 'Will Self'. The only thing odd about his appearance was that his lower jaw was robotic and made of plastic/metal (white) and was protruding, having been bolted on with big brown bolts at either side, which made him look terrifying (his actual jaw had fallen off during his 'days as a football thug' - in the dream I was aware of his history and the fact that he had undergone reconstructive surgery to replace his lost lower jaw with a cybernetic/robotic one, which I guess is pretty fitting for someone playing Darth Vader!). Darth Vader was not supposed to even be in this movie (given it we were staying fairly loyal to the premise of The Phantom Menace and therefore, Anakin was still only a small child). Everyone was so scared of the Darth Vader actor and his history as a football thug/hooligan that no-one dared to tell him that he was not required 'on set' until we filmed the end of the third movie (Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005)). The Director of the movie came in from the beer garden at the back of the pub, with the child playing Anakin (looking very much identical to Jake Lloyd, the real actor who played child Anakin), on his shoulders. The Director looked a lot like George Lucas, but he was a 'local' (so not actually George Lucas in the dream) and he wore a Safari Suit as he was doubling up as Qui-Gon Jinn (for some reason the Jedis were all wearing weird outfits that did not resemble the correct costumes from Star Wars). He stood with 'Anakin' beside the cigarette machine/men's toilets (so just a short distance from where I was standing with Will Self/Darth Vader) and said words to the effect of: 'I'll re-write it so Anakin is a child and an adult at the same time'. Basically he meant he would edit the script to incorporate the Vader character as he was too scared to tell Will Self/Vader he wasn't needed on set for filming yet. I thought the Director was a pussy. The child Anakin looked like he had been crying as his face was very red. 

The  Will Self/Darth Vader very impatiently ordered a drink at the bar and started showing off, boasting about his expensive designer watches and showing off the really flashy and fancy one he was wearing for the Darth Vader role. Everyone was being super polite to him, to keep him in a good mood and admiring/complimenting his watch, which was making him act more smug and annoying. I thought he was rude, arrogant and aloof. I was standing beside him. The drink he ordered was some form of cocktail (brown, in a short, squat glass) and I offered to pay for it, to do my bit to keep him in a good mood. He said: 'I'm very rich from being Darth Vader' and paid for the drink himself, with a banknote which he waved in my face in an aggressive way.

A waiter then approached and put some plates down on the bar which he had cleared from some tables of diners. The leftover food on the plates were huge piles of boiled cauliflower - bigger portions than you would serve for a huge banquet, let alone a single serving. I was surprised that food was being served while we were using the pub to film our Star Wars remakes. I wandered into the kitchen where I saw 2 male chefs, in chef's uniforms. One of the chefs was Indian heritage, the other was white. Both seemed to be older than me. I was aware that both chefs were also playing Jedis in the film. I thought this was bad casting as neither of them looked like Jedis and they both seemed to have bad attitudes.

The Indian chef said sarcastically to the other: 'Oh, it's Binmanwoman'. I felt both famous and annoyed at my character name. The kitchen looked like a dark concrete basement. There were more huge plates piled high with cauliflower, awaiting a waiter taking them for service. One of the chefs angrily pushed a metal bell to summons a waiter to take the food. Then both chefs stripped naked and then started wrestling on the floor in a 'blood orgy' (they were covered in blood, almost immediately - I did not see how this happened). It did not seem as if the blood was from physical injury to either chef, but was just a 'prop' to help them have more fun wrestling. 

I walked back into the main bar and rejoined Darth Vader and other members of cast, crew and locals drinking in the pub. A man in a grey suit with a clipboard then entered the pub. He was in his 40s/50s and looked very official - and also not happy with what he saw. He informed all of us that this pub was actually the 'Eastenders set' and it was unlawful to serve food while there was a blood orgy between the chefs. I was aware he was an Environmental Health Inspector and had the power to do these actions. He ordered us to stop filming Star Wars in this pub and said that he would be shutting down the kitchen for hygiene reasons. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Sheringham as a dream scene location
  • Star Wars and the character of Darth Vader
  • Food

Dreamsigns: 
  • The entire premise and narrative of this dream was a huge dreamsign!

Day Residue: 
  • I always think of R2D2 as a 'bin' based on something sarcastic said by Karl Pilkington to Warwick Davis while they were making An Idiot Abroad Series 3 - The Long Way Round. Warwick had kept mentioning how he starred in Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983) as 'Wicket' the Ewok. Karl is moaning, saying that you can't even tell that it's Warwick in the Ewok costume and then makes a reference to what sounds like '321 in the Bin'
  • I had watched a space documentary on the day of this dream, which showed a recent discovery of a planet which orbits around 2 suns - like Tatooine 
  • I had been watching true crime documentaries on the day of this dream and in one, the mother of a murder victim referred to a 'lady policeman' which made me laugh, despite the tragic circumstances of what she was talking about
  • I had been thinking about buying some new pens as I noticed that the ones I have been using seem to be running out of ink
  • I saw my Stepdad post a reference to The Crown on Facebook a couple of days before this dream
  • A few days before this dream I had been telling DL about a documentary I watched about the 'Radium Girls' - female factory workers in America at the start of the 20th century, who suffered radiation poisoning after employers at United States Radium Corporation failed to warn them of the dangers of working with radium and actually instructed them to lick the paintbrushes they used to paint watch dials, to keep the tips precise and pointed. As a result of constantly ingesting radium and also painting their faces with the luminous radium paint for fun, many of the woman developed necrosis of the jaw ('known as 'radium jaw' or 'phossy jaw') and litigation was initiated against US Radium Corp, who denied responsibility, even though it was alleged that many of the more senior workers were aware of the danger of radiation exposure
  • I had been watching a documentary about the 'road rage murderer' Tracie Andrews, who has been in the media recently as a result of her marriage to a man she met while working as a server in a pub (after her release from the life sentence she served following the murder of her partner, Lee Harvey in 1996). The article about Andrews' life post-release referred to an operation she had to correct her jaw - her lower jaw protruded too far. I coincidentally watched another true crime documentary about a child who was murdered and found in the wood. His body was dismembered and decapitated and his lower jaw (described as a lower mandible) had been removed and never found
  • I vaguely recall hearing/seeing a reference to expensive watches somewhere (probably online) shortly before this dream
  • I had seen someone tag CSS on Facebook a day or so before this dream - I do not have CSS on my Facebook, so this was the first time he had come to my attention in years. I think the person who tagged him was TC - which would explain his presence in this dream as well. I  certainly recall seeing TC post something on Facebook around this time, as I recall thinking about what he was like when he was younger and we were good friends
  • I had been watching some true crime documentaries about Satanic cults, which contained references to 'blood orgies'
  • I had been watching Celebrity Masterchef - one of the older series I had been re-watching had a number of Eastenders actors as contestants

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was absolutely amazing and so vivid. I enjoyed it so much, and took a lot of pleasure remembering it when I woke up. The narrative involved so many aspects of Day Residue, interwoven in a fascinating and humorous way. 


Dream 874
'I Love You'
Date: 7 September 2017
Time: 06:30 - 12:00 
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham
I was in my Nan's house in Sheringham, although in the dream this house looked to be much larger and was actually the home of my love interest, who I will refer to as 'RDTA', and a very long distance away from where I lived. My bedroom in my Nan's house looked pretty much the same as it does in real life, and this was where RDTA and I were in the dream. The second bed (which used to be in this room when I shared it with my Mum as a child) was there once again and there were a number of items which I was looking at. RDTA was dressed in a white hoody and grey tracksuit bottoms.

I had been invited to RDTA's house to spend time with him, and in the dream I found this to be odd as I did not think that he would want me to know where he lived. I just wanted to be sexually intimate with him, but RDTA was not initiating anything and I was too nervous to initiate physical contact myself. Even though I had been invited, RDTA did not seem to be interested in my company at all and he had invited a number of  his male friends round, who were in another room, rowdy and making a considerable amount of noise. I kept asking RDTA if he wanted me around and he sort of indicated that he wanted me to leave and regretted inviting me to his house (as I now knew where he lived). In the dream I was actually surprised that he had trusted me with his address. RDTA was messing around with his phone (texting or checking messages) and I was anxious in case he had a girlfriend. I was really jealous and I just wanted to communicate my feelings to him. I took a blue biro and wrote in large capital letters on the second bed (which actually seemed to be made of wood) 'I LOVE YOU'. Then I regretted it and while RDTA was still looking at his phone, I tried to wipe it off with a cloth I found on the bed. The writing was really difficult to wipe off - almost impossible, no matter how hard I rubbed at it. RDTA came over and looked at the writing. I was embarrassed and realised I did not want him to know I was in love with him after all as I could not stand the rejection. I tried to cover the writing (which was still largely intact) with my hand before he could read it, but it was obvious he had already seen what it said. I apologised for writing on 'his bed'. RDTA asked me when I was leaving, as he wanted to spend time with his male friends. I got the impression that he actually wanted to see another woman instead, which was why he was trying to get me to leave. I said I would leave now, but I then realised that I needed to take a number of connecting trains and the journey home would take me an entire day. As it was now 16:00 hours, I would not be able to get a connecting train; it was far too late. I asked if RDTA minded if I stayed the night and left early in the morning. At this point, he seemed to relent and relax and said that I was welcome to stay. He presented me with a bouquet of flowers and I felt really happy now, because he was warmer and friendlier than he had been earlier. 

We went downstairs and he explained that this was his parents' house and he lived here with them. The downstairs of the house was also my Nan's house - and looked pretty much the same as it does in real life. On the table was a woman's handbag and some other items. RDTA started picking up the items and wrapping them in some gift wrap. I wondered if these were presents for a girlfriend or someone he fancied, and again, I felt very jealous. One of the items was a crocheted white blanket. RDTA then explained that his sister had just given birth to a baby and these were presents for her and his niece/nephew (I cannot recall the gender of the baby). I was again relieved. 

There was other action in this dream which I cannot recall, even though I think I was able to remember more of this dream when I first woke up from it. If I recall anything else I will record it below.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Sheringham as a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 
  • My Nan's house was RDTA's house

Day Residue: 
  • I was talking to a guy (from my local area) on Tinder and he was pressurising me to give him my address as we share the same postcode. When I refused to give my address to him - basically he was a complete stranger and I had only been talking to him for a few minutes at that point - he got annoyed with me. I hate Tinder and am never tempted to date my matches when we start chatting as they are either rude or just not right for me. I have an idea of who my ideal man would be (the RDTA in this dream), but it seems like I will not ever be with this person in real life - hence the feelings of frustration and unrequited love in this dream, which symbolises and conveys my waking thoughts

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was quite negative for me as I felt undesirable to a man I saw as my ideal partner. I think this dream adequately sums up the state of my love life right now - non-existent.