Friday, 24 February 2017

Dream 785

'Green Glass Needles'
Date: 23 February 2017
Time: 18:00 - 22:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: A Classroom/Office -Time Unknown
I was excited because I had been offered a place and funding to do a new PhD on Irvine Welsh's Trainspotting (1993). This was a literature PhD and I was standing in either a classroom or an office at a university, telling an older white female dream character, who was a member of staff about how pleased I was. 

Scene 2: Coronation Street. Weatherfield, Greater Manchester (Fictional Town from Coronation Street) - Day
I was then in the fictional town from the British ITV soap opera, Coronation Street. I could see the streets which appeared to be in a northern town, with the red brick terraces, which would be similar to the actual sets in the soap. I could see a male character, wearing a brown jacket. He was an older white male, and although he did not look like the real life actor/character, I knew him to be (in the dream) 'Ken Barlow' as played by William Roach. I was watching the scene as if I was actually there, standing a short distance away. 'Ken' had found a missing child - a small white female with brown hair, approximately 8 years old. She had run away from an orphanage and 'Ken' was now wanting to look after her. They sat on a bench with some bushes behind them, while I was standing on the corner of a street (leaning against a corner shop wall), watching them. 'Ken' had his arm around the little girl and his face was close to hers - I thought his face looked distorted and creepy from the profile view. The little girl had a package with her, which was from her 'real father'. 'Ken' opened the package and inside was a homemade greetings card, which had a very shiny front cover and words (I cannot recall what) written in glitter text. Underneath this was a photograph of 'the father', who was 'Ken's' son in the soap - 'Peter Barlow' played by Chris Gascoyne. This meant that 'Ken' was her paternal grandfather. I was not shocked by this revelation,  but it appeared that 'Ken' was and he was saying that 'it didn't matter who her father was' and it was clear that he was not going to tell the little girl who it was or how she was related to the Barlow family. 

Scene 3: A Snowy Scene - Night
I was then watching a scene which was of a snowy location - it was night and very dark. I was not actually there - this was an active depiction of a movie I was involved in making, which was to be set in a very snowy place and involved some form of warriors/knights on horseback who were going to be fighting against rival warriors/knights. I was trying to decide what weapons should be used in my movie, as it was not set in any particular time or location (other than 'snowy location'), so I was free to be as creative as possible. Currently, the warriors/knights (there were about 3 in view) were holding swords, but I was debating if there was a better weapon they could use, as I wanted the fight scenes to be dramatic and well-choreographed and I thought swords were too boring. I considered guns, but also realised that these would be too boring. I was then trying to work out if it would be possible to design a weapon which was powered by crystals and worked in the same way as lightsabers, but was aware that this would plagiarise/copy Star Wars, so was probably a bad idea. I saw the swords - held downwards by the warriors/knights sitting on horseback - glowing a bright white colour, and was disappointed that I could not borrow the lightsaber idea. I was getting bored of trying to design my movie at this point as I could not think of an appropriate weapon to make the fight scenes and plotline exciting. 

Scene 4: An Interior Scene, Sheringham - Evening
I was then in my home town of Sheringham, in a domestic interior which appeared to be my family home (living with my Mum and Stepdad), but was not one from real life. Judging by where I exited from the house (at the sea end of the high street) a short period of time later, I was able to locate the position of this dream house as being near the amusement arcades and sea front pubs (where I did used to live as a young child, although our home was right on the promenade, not on the actual high street in real life). I was talking to my Mum and was aware that it was carnival day. I cannot recall what task I had to do, but it involved me leaving the house to go out into the street. It was dusk. 

I was walking up the high street towards the 'top' of town - I think I had to go to a shop, but I cannot recall the details. I passed by a waste bin on the side of the pavement (outside a shop) which had some white glass lamps stacked on it. I then saw that on the ground in front of me was a small green glass bottle. I would describe the shape as an 'elixir bottle' (see image, below - the most similar image was available under the description 'green glass decanter bottle') and it was about half the size of a Coke can. I threw this bottle into the road and it smashed beside a parked white van. I felt a stabbing pain in my foot and looked down to see I was bare foot and a long needle-like shard of green glass was piercing through the inner side of my left foot - in the instep/arched part. This was very deeply imbedded and I was worried, so stopped to remove it. A female (dream character) pushing a child'd pushchair walked past on the right side of me (the road side) while I was standing removing the glass from my foot. She said something (unrecalled) to me and I replied that I was 'making my foot safe'. After I removed the glass in one long piece I realised that I had some kind of clear plastic valve attached to my foot in the exact same place that the green glass needle had been imbedded. This had not been there when I had been pulling the glass needle out of my foot, as other than being impaled by glass, my foot had definitely appeared as normal when I was looking at my foot. The presence of the valve did not bother or concern me - it seemed normal and natural. I pulled the end of this valve outwards, seeing that there was a black nozzle on the end - the clear plastic tubing extended for about 5 cm from my foot. It was like the kind of valve you use to blow up an airbed/paddling pool - or some other form of inflatable item (see image, below). I adjusted this valve/nozzle on my foot so that I could continue my journey up the street.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Star Wars as a dream theme

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was going to do a second PhD
  • I was watching a character from a soap opera in the fictional location where the TV show is set
  • I was watching a live-action of a plan for a movie I was making
  • I lived with my parents on Sheringham High Street
  • My foot had a valve/nozzle growing out of it

Day Residue: 
  • I have recently been reading Trainspotting
  • 2 days before this dream I had been reading a magazine in the waiting room of the medical centre - I read an interview with a cast member from Coronation Street in which she referred to William Roach/'Ken Barlow'
  • A short while before this dream I watched a Grav3yardgirl video on Youtube where she was using glitter to customise a MAC lipstick
  • On the day of this dream I had read an online conversation in a Facebook comment thread where a young woman was telling other people that her baby 'did not have a father'
  • In Dream 782 - 'The Omen' I had made reference to After Last Season (2009) which is set in a snowy location
  • I had a recent dream, Dream 773 - 'Kylo Ren's Lightsaber' - in Star Wars: Episode VII - The Force Awakens (2015) there is a scene in snow. I see numerous Star Wars references on a daily basis as I follow a number of fan/meme pages online (Facebook)
  • A short while before I had this dream I had to go and speak to some students in my capacity as a Senior Resident. I had a frustrating conversation with 2 males who were trying to argue against the action being taken in relation to the behaviour of one of them. I then randomly recalled an email from another student in this flat who had (separately) complained of broken glass being smashed outside the flat a few weeks ago. She had informed me that her friend had nearly stepped on the broken shards of glass and was asking me who to contact to get it safely cleared up

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was highly influenced by Day Residue, some recent and some more general. I feel that analysing the influences that come from my Day Residue really help me to become more conscious of my waking thoughts, memories and feelings and also improve my ability to recall waking influences I have been exposed to, some of which are quite subtle. 

Thursday, 23 February 2017

Dream 784 (NIGHTMARE)

'Knife of Ice'
Date: 22 February 2017
Time: 18:30 - 22:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in my Nan's house, Sheringham, in my bedroom. Laying on my bed was a white male, with medium brown hair. I recognised him to be a boy from my year at high school and someone I knew in real life, but I was completely unable to recall who it was when I woke up - so it may have just been a dream character who I thought I knew in real life within the dream. I was in a new relationship with this male and I was finding it hard to believe, because I had never been attracted to him before and I was wondering what other people who knew us would think about us unexpectedly ending up together. It seemed weird to me - in the dream - that we were in a relationship and I was not sure if this was what I wanted. I laid down on the bed with him and we started to engage in some foreplay, which was enjoyable in this dream and I was assuming that we were going to have sex. 

The next thing I knew, I was in the bed by myself, laying on top of the covers. It seemed to be very light, so it may have been day time. Out of the ceiling above me, a figure started to emerge through the plaster. It was a small (child-sized) being - I think it may have been female, although it was difficult to tell because the entire being was dressed in a white lacy shroud which looked like a white outfit, with a hood. I did not see it's face and assumed it might be a ghost of some sort. Everything looked pointy and floaty at the same time. The being was holding a knife which appeared to be made from ice (and slightly resembled a unicorn's horn) and I knew that it was going to stab me to death. I was terrified and could not move from the bed - the being was lowering itself down, ready to stab me, so in fear I managed to eventually fall off the side of the bed and run out of the house.

I ran down the road, right to the bottom, where I came to The Dunstable Arms pub. It was now night. There were a number of dream characters - locals in the dream - in the car park outside the front of the pub. They were mainly male and I was pleased to see that the pub was open and busy, as I assumed that this meant someone would help me. The being was not behind me right now, but I knew it was coming for me and I was in a state of shock and panic. The men outside the pub were shouting in a jolly way and started calling out to me as I entered. I approached the bar - the room was very busy with customers. I approached the female dream character who was serving behind the bar and said: 'I need help, I'm going to be stabbed!' The barmaid laughed, as did the rest of the customers in the pub. I tried to say that it was no joke, but the female grabbed my purse and keys and threw them in a large dumpster behind the bar, meaning I could not get home and had not access to any money. I quickly realised that the people in the pub were also my enemies and were trying to make things impossible for me to escape or reach safety, which is why they took my purse and keys from me. I was now even more scared.

I left the pub and went back up the road. I was joined by DL and I was telling him that we needed to find a place of safety because the being was coming for me. I then saw the being, and as soon as I looked in it's direction saw that it also saw me. It seemed to be floating above the pavement (we were on the road just a short distance from my Nan's house) and was always holding the knife above it's head, ready to bring it down to stab. I told DL that we should hide in the telephone box which is a short distance from my Nan's house, on the side of the road where there is a bus stop (and behind this, the woods). We went into the phone box. Suddenly, the being's arm - with the ice knife - was coming through the metal roof of the phone box. I screamed and DL and I got out of the phone box, and climbed down the small bank onto the path which runs adjacent to the roadside and the forest (known as 'the woods path') - this is runs opposite my Nan's house (see Google Maps images, below). On the woods path, there was a group of young people - they all seemed to glow a very light colour in a strange way (it did not seem strange in the dream however, only on waking recall). There were about 4 of them, both male and female, with backpacks. These young people were 'on a visit' and suddenly I realised that in order to save ourselves (DL and I) from being stabbed by the being, we could transfer it onto these new victims. This seemed to be possible somehow. I then noticed a very bright, low-flying flashlight above us, illuminating the area. I realised that this was a police helicopter flying very low and the searchlight was intended to find us - the police were also working on the side of the being. This was incredibly scary, but I told DL that we should get back into the phone box, because the police helicopter searchlight could not see through the metal top of the phone box or see through the glass sides. We got into the phone box and started discussing how we could transfer the being onto the new victims, who were just walking past the phone box at this moment. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • I have had previous dreams where I have been pursued by an enemy, intending to stab me with a knife - most of which have taken place in the exact same location - the road on which my Nan lives

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was in a relationship with a dream character who was supposedly someone I went to high school with
  • The nightmare being with the ice knife
  • The persecution by the local community/police in Sheringham

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I had been reading Irvine Welsh's Trainspotting (1993) and in particular the chapter where Mark Renton is going through cold turkey and hallucinates that the dead baby Dawn, who died of cot death due to the negligence of the heroin addicts supposedly caring for her, is crawling on the ceiling of his childhood bedroom (in his parent's home) while he is laying in the bed below
  • I seem to recall having a random memory of being in The Dunstable Arms pub - or someone in real life referring to an event/incident in the pub while I was falling asleep
  • On the day of this dream I had been telling SC that when I was a young child my Nan would go to the phone box across the road to make a phone call, rather than run up a charge on the landline in the house
  • I had been discussing 'crime' and my lack of fear for authority with SC and ML the day of this dream
  • On the day of this dream I had seen a girl I went to school with in Sheringham write a Facebook status about being chased by a drone
  • On the day of this dream I had seen an online discussion about horror movies, which included references to Ring (1998) and the US remake, The Ring (2002) - this movie involves passing the 'curse' onto another victim before 7 days is up to prevent the Sadako/Samara from coming to kill. The person subject to the curse is notified by a phone call

Waking Reactions: 
This was a horrible nightmare, although looking back on it, it doesn't seem quite as scary in content, something which is common with nightmares. I just felt so helpless and persecute in this dream. It is odd that the majority of my persecution/stabbing dreams involve a small/short being pursuing me/stabbing me on the very same stretch of road/area of town in Sheringham. It is usually on the road where my Nan lives or at the very bottom of that road, near The Dunstable Arms pub, where my Mum used to work when I was a child (her friends were the owners of that pub at the time). I wonder what the significance of this is. I used to live in this house - throughout the majority of my childhood and for a period as an adult, but cannot recall any real life memory where I have been followed/pursued by anyone or felt in danger. It is a very quiet community. 

Dream 783

'Rule-Breaking Shark'
Date: 21 February 2017
Time: 14:45 - 17:15 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: An Exterior - Day
My Facebook friend, BD was now in a relationship with my cousin, HM. In real life HM is married with a child, but in the dream she seemed to be much younger. She was wearing a white dress. I realised that now BD was not interested in me as a person, as he had moved onto HM. I was looking through the window of BD's car. He was in the driver's seat and HM was laying down in the passenger seat. I wondered how they had met.

Scene 2: My House, Norwich - Time Unknown
I dropped my phone - only a short distance onto the carpet in my lounge. I realised that the screen of my phone had cracked and I thought this was strange, as my phone had only fallen a matter of inches onto the soft floor. I was annoyed and wondered how much it would cost to fix the glass screen. I then realised that my phone screen was not actually broken.

Scene 3: Under the Ocean - Time Unknown
I was under the ocean - I realised that I was a male shark. I was being told by another sea animal (I cannot recall what it was) that I was only allowed to eat the fish which were swimming in the waves creating  by the bottom of ships/boats, as this was 'fair'. I saw the bottom of a boat moving through water, creating waves in which a school of small silver fish were swimming. These fish were allowed to be my prey as they were 'within the rules' but I decided that I was a shark and I could break the rules if I wanted, because I was the more ferocious, dangerous creature and could overpower any of the other sea animals in my undersea society. I was not going to listen to authority and I could eat whatever I liked.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Breaking the screen of my phone

Dreamsigns: 
  • My Facebook friend BD was in a relationship with my cousin HM, who seemed younger
  • I was a shark and could communicate with other sea animals living in the underwater society

Day Residue: 
  • BD messaged me the day of this dream
  • I saw BD post a photo of himself sitting in the driver's seat of his car
  • A couple of days before this dream ML had broken her phone screen and was searching online for the cheapest place to replace the glass
  • I had seen one of my female friends on Facebook refer to 'Shark Week' (in a joke about periods)
  • I had been discussing 'crime' and my lack of fear for authority with SC and ML on the day of this dream

Waking Reactions: 
It was very weird to experience myself as a shark in a dream. This is the first time I can recall dreaming of myself as an animal or at least a non-human. I found this to be a humorous dream.

Dream 782

'The Omen'
Date: 20 February 2017
Time: 21:45 - 05:50 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: An Interior(?) - Time Unknown
I was with DL and we were watching a scene take place - I am not sure if we were watching it from above (for example, from a balcony) or on a screen. The scene was of what appeared to be the inside of a very grand religious-themed location - a palace combined with a cathedral/church. There was a lot of white columns and a short staircase with a royal blue velvet carpet. On the platform at the top of the stairs were some thrones and the scene was luxurious and extravagant. I realised that there was a christening or baptism of a female baby taking place. The family of the baby were all 'Italian Mafia' types - which is why they were in such a fancy location, dressed in fine, fashionable clothing. I was then aware that we were watching a remake of The Omen (1976), with the main characters - the parents of the Anti-Christ being Italian gangers. The 'father' of the Anti-Christ then came into view, walking down the stairs. He was an Asian man - wearing a turban, which led me to believe he was a Sikh. I was surprised that he was Italian as he was supposed to be 'Italian'. I asked DL: 'Is that racist?'

Scene 2: A City Street (assumed to be New York City) - Day
I the found myself on a city street - it was a very urban area, with a lot of tall buildings and skyscrapers; traffic and pedestrians. I assumed that it might be New York City. It was a very sunny day, even though I knew it was supposed to be the end of winter. I went into a large coffeeshop on the left side of the street. At the counter was a white female server. I ordered a coffee and said to her: 'It's really hot outside' to which she replied: 'It isn't'. I was confused, as it was a very summer-like day, especially for wintertime. 

Scene 3: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I do not know where this scene took place. I received a message on my mobile phone. It was from R3A saying that he had not been in touch with me for a few days. His message said: 'I haven't been in touch - or words to this effect] because I've been hanging with the bullet of Glasgow, know what I mean?' I took 'bullet of Glasgow' to mean a gangster/thug-type of person, or someone with a reputation for being a 'hard man'. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • R3A as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The weird remake of The Omen
  • I was in NYC

Day Residue: 
  • The day before this dream I had been reading Wikipedia articles on The Omen (all novels and movies) - as this was a book I had bought from a secondhand bookshop when I was just 10 years old and I wanted to refresh my memory of the entire story arc
  • Recently there has been controversy about white actors playing a number of non-white roles in Hollywood movies (and terms such as 'whitewashing', 'blackface' and 'yellowface')
  • The day of this dream I finished watching the worst movie ever made - After Last Season (2009). This movie is set in a snowy location and there is one scene where the main characters, Sarah and Matthew discuss the fact that the day before had been hot and summery (which did not make sense, as the scene from that day had shown snow and freezing conditions)

Waking Reactions: 
This was a very strange dream, with clear references to Day Residue influencing the content. 

INDEX FOR DREAM INCUBATION EXPERIMENT - WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE?

This is an index page for my current Dream Incubation Experiment, so that all of the dreams and material relating to this section of my dreamwork is in one single post with clickable links. 

Here is the post which explains the Dream Incubation Experiment and the methodology I am using: Dream Incubation Experiment - What Does my Heart Desire?

The Dreams
Dream 741 - 'Female Competition'
Dream 742 - 'Explaining Han Solo to a Baby'
Dream 743 - 'Top Knotch'
Dream 744 - 'Obi-Wan Kenobi's (i.e Ewan McGregor's) Glorious Lightsaber' (WILD Technique - 3 Lucid Dreams & 'Wet' Sex Dream)
Dream 745 - 'Ewan McGregor - The Return of My Favourite Jedi'
Dream 746 - 'Bad Father'
Dream 747 - 'Everyone Abandons Me'
Dream 748 - 'A Terrible Loss'
Dream 749 - 'Hip Hop PhDs & Brexit'
Dream 750 - 'Another Ewan McGregor Wet Dream' (WILD Technique - 2 Lucid Dreams)
Dream 751 - 'Usurping Racist Police Chiefs'
Dream 752 - 'Shark?'
Dream 753 - 'Holidaying with Boys'
Dream 754 - 'Charity Work & House Parties with Bae'
Dream 755 - 'Hair Dilemmas'
Dream 756 - 'Student Union'
Dream 757 - 'Bubbles & White Handbags'
Dream 758 - 'Working Mice'
Dream 759 - 'Toilet Paper Supplies'
Dream 760 - 'Gifts & Phones'
Dream 761 - 'French Language, Teeth & Tongues'
Dream 762 - 'Seaside Boarding House'
Dream 763 - 'Matchmaking Ex'
Dream 764 - 'Screamo Band'
Dream 765 - 'Jealousy & Abuse'
Dream 766 - 'Arranged Marriage'
Dream 767 - 'Benches for Children'
Dream 768 - 'The Best Place in London'
Dream 769 - 'Weird Building'
Dream 770 - 'Finnish Ham!'
Dream 771 - 'A Big Mess of Mugs'
Dream 772 - 'Baby Shower Presents'
Dream 773 - 'Kylo Ren's Lightsaber'
Dream 774 - 'Crashing Weddings'
Dream 775 - 'Incest Pets'
Dream 776 - 'Page 10'
Dream 777 - 'Stolen Handbags'
Dream 778 - 'My Son, Darth Maul'
Dream 779 - 'Cancer & Makeup Molestation'
Dream 780 - 'Green Shoes & Fire Dance Parties' (False Awakening)
Dream 781 - 'Ewan is Stuck in a Fence'

Youtube Videos






Dream 781

'Ewan is Stuck in a Fence'
Date: 19 February 2017
Time: 20:45 - 04:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window).

This is the last dream that I will be recording for this Dream Incubation Experiment. I am ending this experiment today, because this means that the duration of the experiment has been exactly 3 months, which I feel is an adequate period of data collection to allow me to spot trends and recurrent dream themes from which to draw conclusions. I will be writing a separate article which contains my analysis of this Dream Incubation Experiment in due course, so please stay tuned to my Blog to see my final results.

Scene 1: An Exterior - Night
I was in an outside location - it was night, but I could see my surroundings very clearly, so the area may have been illuminated with some kind of lights. I was standing on concrete and in front of me was a large wire chainlink fence - I think it was chainlink as there were metal parts which went across and down. Behind the fence, which was very tall, perhaps 3 - 4 meters tall, were some trees or bushes, and a very steep drop, so the fence was on the side of a ledge. I saw that on the ground, Ewan McGregor was stuck, by the head and the neck, in the fence. His head was on my side, and his body was on the edge of the ledge. I noticed that Ewan looked the way he did when he was much younger - approximately 25 years old. I successfully saved him and then was extremely pleased to realise that he was so grateful to me that he wanted to start dating me. I started hugging him and was feeling so ecstatic, I could not believe my luck.

Scene 2: A House - Day
I was then in a house - it was not one from real life, but in the dream I lived there with my stepbrother. My stepbrother wanted a relationship with me, and I was telling him that we should not  do this as it would make our family angry and people in the small local community would gossip about us. This made my stepbrother more keen to have a secret relationship and I started to think that it was a good idea. We were having this conversation in the kitchen of the house. 

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • Ewan McGregor as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • A young Ewan McGregor was stuck in a fence
  • I wanted to have a relationship with my stepbrother

Day Residue
  • Ewan McGregor is always on my mind
  • The day before this dream DL and I had a conversation about the estimated ages of Obi-Wan Kenobi in Star Wars, given he appears to have excessively aged when you consider Ewan McGregor's version (who appears to be in his 20s/30s in the prequels) and Alec Guinness' original version, who appears to be very aged, despite it only being 20 years into the future
  • Around the time we were discussing the age of Obi-Wan Kenobi (and Ewan McGregor) DL and I walked past a male with shoulder-length curly chestnut brown hair - I consciously thought that he strongly resembled my stepbrother
  • The day before this dream I had been writing up Dream 780 - 'Green Shoes & Fire Dance Parties' (False Awakening) in which I referred to 'JM' who is a friend and colleague. I wondered if I had used the same anonymisation (the 'JM' initials) in previous dream reports featuring y stepbrother, who has the same initials. I think this is likely
Waking Reactions: 
I would hope that only Scene 1 of this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment. I have no desire to have any kind of relationship with my stepbrother, familial or otherwise. I do not think that he is a nice person and although we have been far more amicable as adults, when we were young children, there was a lot of hostile conflict between us. 

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Saturday, 18 February 2017

Dream 780 (FALSE AWAKENING)

'Green Shoes & Fire Dance Parties'
Date: 18 February 2017
Time: 22:00 - 02:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream - False Awakening
Dream recall: Strong  recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night
I 'woke up' in my bed, thinking that I was really awake - but this was a false awakening. At no point in this dream did I become conscious/aware/lucid - I completely believed I had woken up after going to sleep. When (in real life) I had gone to bed, my flatmate SC and ML were at home, in the lounge area. In my dream I could hear that they were in SC's bedroom and there were a few other voices audible too, so I assumed they had guests over. I walked out (or somehow could see) that there were 2 pairs of shoes in the hallway outside our bedrooms - a pair of emerald green high heel shoes and a pair of trainers - male-sized. I recognised (in the dream - as I have never seen either person wear shoes like this) that the shoes belonged to friends/colleagues DB and DC. I was also aware that JM, another friend/colleague was also in my house. Their voices were loud and they were laughing. 

I went back into my room and I heard DB, DC and JM leave - while they were in the lounge, I heard SC say to DB: 'You should leave the wine for ML'. DB then shouted through to ML, who was still in SC's bedroom. SC told her not to shout so loudly, as it was 'past 02:00 am'. The friends then left.

I could see that the curtains in my room were open. The entire room was dark, as it had been when I fell asleep in real life. Outside my window, on a small patch of grass at the back of the house, a number of students - including a female in a cropped top and a miniskirt were starting a fire. It was a 'fire dance party' and they were laughing, screaming, dancing and having fun. I wondered if - in my job in student welfare and discipline - I should take control of the situation and inform the students that they were not allowed to start a fire or create a noise disturbance. I wondered if SC and ML - who both do the same job as me (as do DB, DC and JM) knew what was happening and whether they would intervene if I did not.

I then woke up for real.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • The entire situation was a dreamsign

Day Residue
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was not related to my Dream Incubation Experiment as it was a false awakening. I am disappointed that nothing in this short, vivid dream caused me to question if I was dreaming, perform a reality check and then proceed to lucidity. 

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:


Wednesday, 15 February 2017

Dream 779

'Cancer & Makeup Molestation'
Date: 14 February 2017
Time: 02:30 - 05:40 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream; Pre-Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong  recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: An Exterior - Day
I was outside with my Mum - it was not a bright sunny day, it seemed grey and dreary. My Mum told me that she had cancer and that it was terminal. I was so shocked and upset and kept asking if she had 'had a biopsy yet?' even though it was clear she had been fully diagnosed. I was asking when she would start treatment and she was telling me that there was no point. The thing which was bothering me was how cheerful and happy she seemed, as if nothing was wrong at all. We were walking on a path and it took a while for me to realise that I had not even asked her what type of cancer it was. She told me the a medical term, which I understood (in the dream - I cannot recall the words, but I think the medical term included the word 'trapezium') as 'cancer of the shoulder blade'. I was experiencing a muted or less 'strong' version of the same emotions I would feel if I had been told this news in real life - shock, fear, sadness, desperation, unfairness...etc. I asked my Mum if I may have 'predicted she had cancer in one of my dreams' - remembering (within this dream) an actual previous dream I had - see Dream 739 - 'Gifts & Chemotherapy Wigs'. This was quite a relief to me, because I think I may have been pre-lucid and aware that I was actually asking: 'is this dream a prediction of reality?'

At some point, I was in my Nan's house. I cannot recall what happened during this scene.

Scene 2: An Interior - Time Unknown
I was then sitting on a blanket on the floor, surrounded by makeup and cosmetics. In front of me, also sitting on the floor was a female dream character. She was small and had a very round face, very pale skin, straight black shoulder-length hair with a fringe and light blue eyes. I was applying her makeup and aware that I was working as a makeup artist. I was putting pale blue eyeshadow on the female, the same colour as her eyes. I accidentally dropped the glass jar of blue eyeshadow I was holding and thought it had gone down my shirt, as I could feel something touching my chest. When I went to look, I saw that the female dream character was sexually assaulting me, touching my boobs under my top. I was angry and shouted at her to stop.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • My Mum as a dream scene character
  • Reference to cancer in relation to my Mum

Dreamsigns: 
  • The situation with my Mum
  • I was a makeup artist

Day Residue
  • I have recently experienced temporary shoulder pain (right shoulder) after sleeping
  • It is likely I saw references to cancer at some point prior to this dream
  • I had been reading through all the dreams uploaded on my Dream Incubation Experiment Index Page (click on title link to go to Index Page) - and saw the entry for Dream 739 - 'Gifts & Chemotherapy Wigs'
  • A couple of days before this dream I had been talking about my Dad's side of the family with SC and ML and how I first met my paternal aunt when she came over from Iran for his funeral - my Dad died of lung cancer a number of years ago
  • A couple of days ago I had been discussing how I used to be obsessed with my aunt's (medical training) anatomy books when I was a small child
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching makeup videos on Youtube and had also been applying my own makeup
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching Jenna Marbles videos on Youtube and not only watched some of her makeup-themed videos, but also one in which she discussed unwanted touching by strangers, so perhaps the themes of makeup application and physical molestation were connected in my subconscious due to this - I also watched a video where she introduced her mum, Debbie, and another where she applied makeup to her Mum. This may have resulted in my Mum being linked to these themes as well. During the video where Jenna introduces her mum, she continually pokes and prods her which her mum jokingly says she wishes Jenna would stop doing because the constant touching is annoying her

Waking Reactions: 
This dream may be related to my Dream Incubation Experiment in that it reveals a subconscious (or actually, conscious) fear - as nightmares or bad dreams often do. I see this as a Pre-Lucid Dream as it appears that I was asking my Mum whether my dreams were predicting the future, not only because I was aware that I had a previous dream about her having cancer - and seemed to be on the brink of being aware that this dream was actually a dream - about cancer. This was one of my most troublesome and negative dreams in a long time.

I have found out (now, while recording this dream) that there is a trapezium bone in the hand and a trapezius muscle in the area of the neck/spine/shoulder - so in my dream I subconsciously used an almost correct anatomical term for the relevant area of the body (shoulder blade). I have probably seen reference to the trapezius muscle and where it is located on the body while using weights machines at the gym.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 778

'My Son, Darth Maul'
Date: 13 February 2017
Time: 20:30 - 04:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Car - Day
I was in a car with my former friend, EB. EB was driving and I was in the front passenger seat. The car was parked. EB and I had a baby son, in a car seat. The baby was Darth Maul, but baby-sized. Neither EB nor I liked our son. 

We went to EB's family home, where he still lived - separately from me and our Darth Maul son. EB's mother (who I have never met in real life, despite visiting the family home on many occasions when friends with EB) was present and for some reason she was angry at me. In  relation to the baby, she said (in a very harsh, hostile way): 'You'll bisect him with breastmilk' (Darth Maul was bisected by Obi-Wan Kenobi's (Ewan McGregor's!) lightsaber in Star Wars: Episode I - A Phantom Menace (1999), so this appears to be a clear reference to that). I did not know what she meant in the dream however. We were standing beside a welsh dresser full of fancy fine china.

EB, Darth Maul son and I then drove to the beach.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream as I have forgotten the details, having woken up from this dream, then falling back asleep a short while later.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • Star Wars themed dream
  • Rejection of motherhood as a dream theme

Dreamsigns: 
  • EB and I were together and had a son who looked like Darth Maul

Day Residue
  • I am always exposed to Star Wars based on pages I follow on Facebook (Sithposting)
  • I had been discussing 'negative friendships' with ML on the day of this dream - and used EB (who ML does not know) as an example of someone who was not a good friend worth keeping

Waking Reactions: 
I do not think that this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, other than it seems to reaffirm my resistance to motherhood. I do not wish to be back in contact with my former friend EB, as he is an incredibly negative influence. When I first woke up from this dream, the dream recall was very strong, However, I did not record the dream immediately, and instead drifted back to sleep, which meant that when I woke up a second time I had forgotten massive amounts of this dream unfortunately. If I recall any details at a later stage, I will record them below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Tuesday, 14 February 2017

Dream 777

'Stolen Handbags'
Date: 13 February 2017
Time: 05:00 - 12:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong (initial) recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: An Exterior - Day
I was outside with DL walking on a path which had grass/trees on either side. It seemed to be some sort of park, perhaps. It was daytime, but I am not sure of the weather. In front of us was a female dream character - she was black, with long box-braids in her hair, wearing a skirt - I was aware that she was a 'TV star' or a 'TV celebrity', but only in the dream, not real life. Suddenly DL started chasing her, shouting something aggressively. I wondered if he was going to racially abuse the female, so I tried to grab him, to stop him. He was telling me that the female was 'an enemy' but I was refusing to listen to this and told him that he had to stop. 

I cannot recall the location of the other dream scenes.

I saw my PhD supervisor and felt concerned that I had not emailed him any work in quite a while. I wanted to avoid him, and successfully managed to do so.

I was with R3A - and we were planning to go somewhere. I then realised that my handbag had been stolen, which meant that all my money was gone as well as other possessions. I was annoyed as I needed to get public transport, which I would not be able to pay for now. I was telling R3A that we could not go to wherever it was we had been planning to go. I then managed to find my handbag on a counter in what appeared to be a bathroom - perhaps a public bathroom. 

I cannot recall any other aspects of this long. vivid dream - see below.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • R3A as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • DL is not the type of person to (racially) abuse anyone

Day Residue
  • I need to concentrate on my PhD thesis and submit some chapters to my supervisor very soon - I had been discussing this with my flatmate SC on the day of this dream
  • On the day of this dream I had watched a Jenna Marbles Youtube video in which she talked about the numerous car-related problems she had experienced after her handbag was stolen from a public bathroom
  • I had a phone conversation with R3A at around 04:00 hours just before I went to sleep. During this conversation we discussed meeting soon, public transport and an incident involving not being able to use a bathroom while stuck on a bus

Waking Reactions: 
I do not think that this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment. When I first woke up from this dream, the dream recall was very vivid and strong, However, I did not record the dream immediately, and instead drifted back into a light doze, which meant that when I woke up a second time I had forgotten massive amounts of this dream unfortunately. If I recall any details at a later stage, I will record them below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Sunday, 12 February 2017

Dream 776

'Page 10'
Date: 11 February 2017
Time: 15:00 - 20:45 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Workplace (Unknown Location) - Time Unknown
There was a scene involving a female boss - I cannot recall the exact scene, but this female boss (a dream character) and I were in a room - there may have been other dream characters present. Some kind of disaster had happened - it involved a flood or water coming out of a tap and not being able to stop, and had happened within a kitchen/bathroom (somewhere with a sink). The female boss was angry and was shouting, but seemed to be resolving the problem, which was a relief to me (despite it not being my fault or affecting me in any obvious way). I cannot recall anything else about this aspect of the dream.

I was then reading a magazine. On the contents page, I saw that on page 10, there was an article about my friend, R3A. I went to page 10. The article was written by a female journalist. The only part of the article I can recall was the opening line, which was describing her meeting R3A (for an interview) in a nightclub. The opening line was: 'He wasn't paying me any attention because I'm not blonde and beautiful'. I laughed at this.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I do not have a female boss
  • The article about R3A in the magazine

Day Residue
  • R3A recently did a performance which was positively received/reviewed 

Waking Reactions: 
I do not think that this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment. There is really not much I can say about this dream, as not much happened. 

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:


Dream 775

'Incest Pets'
Date: 10 February 2017
Time: 20:00 - 04:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: My Home, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was in my lounge/kitchen area of my home in Norwich. It looked like it does in real life. I was standing beside the front door, facing into the room, and my flatmate SC and colleague/friend DC were present. DC was sitting on the sofa. He asked me: 'How is your boyfriend?' but I did not know what he was talking about as I do not have a boyfriend.

Scene 2: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I then found myself in a domestic interior, which I assumed was my home in the dream. I was panicked to suddenly realise that I had a number of pets which I had not fed/cared for/seen in ages. It felt like I had neglected these pets for months, and knew that I had left them in a basement area with no-one checking on them. I was concerned that they would all be dead and I would have to dispose of their decayed and rotten corpses. This thought frightened and disgusted me, and I was confused as to why I had ignored these pets or forgotten about them. 

I went down to the basement which appeared to be a brightly lit room, with 2 large cages in it, on the floor. In one of the cages were black gerbils and in the other cage were some other small fluffy animals - which I at first thought were rabbits and then realised were guinea pigs. All the animals were alive, but I saw that while there was a small number of rabbits/guinea pigs, there were hundreds of gerbils - I had left a male and female together and they had bred. I was scared that the offspring had also mated and produced incestuous offspring - thinking that this might mean that some of the gerbils were deformed or disabled in some way. I did not know what to do. I then decided that I should separate the males and females, placing the females in the rabbit/guinea pig cage and leaving the males in the gerbil cage. I started to do this, wondering if gerbils can safely live with rabbits/guinea pigs, but also knowing that this was the only option or else the gerbils would keep incestuously interbreeding. As I was removing the gerbils, checking their sex - I noticed the number (generally) kept getting bigger - due to the incestuous interbreeding I had feared.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • None of note
Dreamsigns: 
  • DC asked about a boyfriend - I do not have a boyfriend
  • The situation with the neglected pets - they had survived without food or water and bred

Day Residue
  • A few days before this video I had mentioned in a conversation with someone (unrecalled) that I have rescued 2 baby bunnies
  • The day before this dream I saw a meme on a Facebook meme page which referenced the consequences of incestuous interbreeding
  • When I was a child at primary school, we were given stick insects, which we would keep in jars filled with privet leaves. I didn't like my stick insects, they freaked me out and I hated looking at them (but wanted to have some, just like my classmates). I shoved them in the bottom of my wardrobe and neglected them - and eventually was too scared to look at them again in case they were dead (they were). My Mum had to remove them from my wardrobe

Waking Reactions: 
I am not sure how this dream is related to my Dream Incubation Experiment. This wasn't a nightmare, but it was a scary dream because of the fact I had neglected the pets and then feared what I would see when I went down to the basement. I do not have many waking reactions to this dream.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment: