Wednesday, 31 January 2018

Dream 902

'Sex with Luke Skywalker'
Date: 30 January 2018
Time: 04:30 - 10:00
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Hotel/Boarding-House/Dorm Room - Day
I was in some kind of hotel/boarding-house or perhaps a university dorm-room - it was not exactly clear. At one point I thought there might be 2 rooms, as although the room remained the same in style/furniture, at different points in this dream (I am not sure when exactly), the be changed position and was against a different side of the room. The room was pretty basic - there was a single bed, a wardrobe and some drawers. It was not hugely dissimilar to my own bedroom in real life. It was day and I was aware that I was only in this place temporarily - I was staying there on a visit.

There was some reference to ironing clothing (I think I felt like I needed to do it, but did not want to) and at some point I stepped outside the room and saw other dream characters standing around in a hallway which was lined with doors, making it seem more like a hotel/university halls of residence. I did not know the other dream characters and I felt a bit lonely. I went to lay down in my bed and I was facing the wall.

Shortly after this, I felt another person's presence in the room. They got into bed and started spooning me. I then became aware that this was Luke Skywalker, as he appears in Star Wars: Episode VIII - The Last Jedi (2017). I was aware that Luke wanted to have sex with me, and without saying anything, I indicated that I was consenting bu reaching behind me and trying to undo the fly of his trousers - which were jeans. Luke started removing his jeans so that we could have sex. He seemed able to have sex with me without me removing (or recalling removing) any of my own clothing. The sex was really enjoyable, although I am not sure if I experienced a wet dream in real life. The experience felt very pleasurable in the dream though, and I was disappointed that it did not last very long (it wasn't as if Luke prematurely ejaculated - the sex seemed to last for a few minutes, I just wanted it to continue). Luke then told me that he had some business to deal with, but he would soon return and spend some more time with me. He seemed genuine, but for some reason I did not believe or trust him.

I was feeling anxious being alone in the room, so I kept looking out into the hallway to see if Luke was coming back. At one point I was walking down the corridor and saw some more dream characters. I tried to start a conversation with them, but I cannot recall what happened.

I went back to my own room to wait for Luke, and I looked in a mirror which was mounted on the wall near the door to my room. I saw that I did not have any eyebrows and all my eyelashes were white. This did not make me feel happy.

Luke did return and I was really glad to see him. I asked him to not leave me alone again, but he said that he would need to keep leaving as he was a Jedi and had matters to attend to, but he would make sure he saw me in between. I felt sexually obsessed with him.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Star Wars characters 

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was having sex with Luke Skywalker

Day Residue: 
  • I have been in hotels where the person I am staying with has had to leave and I have been alone and bored
  • On the day of this dream I was tweeting using an alternative Twitter account I have - and Mark Hamill (the ACTUAL LUKE SKYWALKER!) liked my tweet, which was really exciting for me! He is an awesome person and I was happy he paid me a second of attention
  • A few days before this dream I had been watching the latest Petscop videos on Youtube. Previously, when staying in a hotel, I had shown my friend R3A some of the Petscop analysis videos on Youtube. In the 'game' there is reference to a character named 'Care' who is not growing eyebrows. This has been analysed as being a reference to child abuse of some kind
  • I have been applying vaseline to my eyebrows and eyelashes before sleep to help them grow and also stay in place
  • Once, I was having sex with someone who knew I love Star Wars, but instead of role-playing as Anakin (the character I would most like to have sex with), he said: 'Imagine I'm Luke Skywalker' which I found funny as I have never felt/expressed a desire to have sex with Luke Skywalker and he had made a mistake 

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was really enjoyable - other than being anxious about Luke returning to me and the loss of my eyebrows. I really enjoyed the dream sex with Luke.

Dream 901

'Blue Sky Photography'
Date: 28 January 2018
Time: 02:30 - 11:130
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Exterior - Day
I was in an outside location, although I do not know where it was - it seemed like I was sitting on a beige or sandy coloured clifftop or ledge, looking out over an (unknown) rural landscape. I was with a male dream character, who was something I think I know from real life, but who I cannot recall. It was someone I felt was a friend. 

I was looking at the sky, which was a bright blue, with long, thick, criss-crossing diagonal streaks of an even brighter blue colour, which looked phenomenal and spectacular. I started attempting to take photographs of this amazing skyscape with my mobile phone.

Scene 2: An Unknown Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was then in a domestic interior, which I cannot recall. I had a pain in my left thumb and my Mum, who was present with me, was telling me I needed to go to see a doctor to diagnose what was wrong. I did not want to go to the doctor. The pain was really bothering me, so I examined my thumb and found that the entire thumbnail had fallen off and my skin was red and raw underneath. After seeing this, I felt no more pain and I was not worried about my lost nail. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • The way the sky looked
  • The situation with my thumb

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I had noticed that the dusk sky was really beautiful
  • On the day of this dream I had seen an 'unaesthetic' image of a foot where the toenail had fallen off or been removed - my own thumbnail in the dream closely resembled the real life image I saw. In my own life I have previous removed a fingernail after it became infected and then deformed from wearing fake nails. It did not bother or disgust me and the pain was not unbearable, although I do have a high pain threshold when it comes to 'self-surgery'
  • I knew my friend was waiting for test results from the doctor

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was not in any way as unsettling as it seems upon reading. 

Dream 900

'Do You Know This Man?'
Date: 26 January 2018
Time: 21:30 - 04:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: An Exterior Location - Day
I received a message on my mobile - I think it was an email. I cannot recall what it said - but it was something related to a real life email I was waiting for (perhaps from my academic Supervisor?) and confirmed something which I felt positive about. I did recall the email/message upon waking, but I cannot recall it now. I think there was an image attached to the message. 

I found that I was standing on some kind of balcony, which seemed to be an outside theatre of sports stadium. Myself and the dream characters present on this upper level were looking down over an orange railing at whatever was going on below (unrecalled). 

Next to me was a male who at first I thought was a local friend, RD. He had a bike with him, he was standing astride it on the balcony, so the bike was between his legs, with his feet on the ground. I saw his face close up, very large in my field of vision. He was wearing a woollen hat. Another (unrecalled) male dream character, standing beside me, asked me: 'Do you know this man?' I said that I did know him, but when I looked at RD again, I realised that it was not RD but Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Changing identity

Dreamsigns: 
  • RD changed into Anakin Skywalker

Day Residue: 
  • I  spend a lot of the waking day in the Star Wars/Anakin Skywalker fandom, so it is not at all odd that this enters my dreams on a regular basis

Waking Reactions: 
There is not much to say about this dream.

Saturday, 27 January 2018

Dream 899

'Wedding Day Violence'
Date: 25 January 2018
Time: 23:30 - 09:10
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a domestic interior which was filled with a number of dream characters, none of who I know in real life, but who I knew in the dream. There was a large table in the room and we were standing around this. The house was inhabited by a male dream character who was of (Indian) Asian origin and it was the day of his son's wedding, although at another point in the dream, this 'son' was actually his daughter. However,  this gender switch did not seem odd in the dream, I just accepted it. This father was in his 50s and very slim, wearing a grey business suit. All the dream characters (and myself) were invited to the wedding, which was due to take place much later in the day. Preparations were taking place and everyone seemed really busy and excited.

I did or said something which angered the father of the bride(groom). I do not recall what I did/said, but the father's reaction was extremely dramatic and he threatened to kill me by bashing me with a large metal poker. I was terrified and in order to evade the father's wrath I (spontaneously and immediately) transitioned into a male version of myself and somehow obtained a fake passport, which I showed to the father to prove I was a different person. He believed that the male version of me was a different person, which enabled me to leave the room unscathed. I felt very relieved and somewhat smug at my deception. I went into a lift (elevator) in order to leave the building and at this point I became the normal version of myself again. 

Outside, I sat on a concrete step outside some buildings. Although I do not recognise the area from real life, in the dream I think I was on my university campus, which is jokingly referred to as the 'concrete jungle'. The step I was sitting on was between 2 tall concrete buildings and I felt that I was in a good hiding place, as I was still keen to avoid the father, given I now resembled my normal self. There was a small stretch of grass and a path between the buildings I was sitting outside and those opposite, which appeared to be residential buildings. It was a sunny day. I began to smoke a joint. I had laid the possessions from my bag out on the concrete step beside me. One of these items was a key, with no keyring attached to it. 

As I was sitting smoking the cannabis, a male dream character approached me. He was young and mixed race and resembled a boy I knew from my hometown, LT, who I have not seen for many years. He saw me sitting on the step and approached me. I realised that this dream character had been at the wedding guest gathering earlier, and therefore I was keen that he not recognise me and tell the father where I was in case the father came and attacked me as he had wanted to do earlier. The male stood in front of me and looked down at the key. He recognised me from the key, rather than my actual physical appearance and said that he knew who I was. I asked him not to snitch on me to the father and he said he would not, but I was not really convinced and felt like I should run away and hide somewhere better.

Scene 3: An Interior - Time Unknown
I then found myself in a building. The wedding guests were aso in this building and I had rejoined them because I now planned to attend the wedding. I was no longer scared of the father. I was with the sister of the bride - a young woman of Indian heritage, who was quite chubby, wearing bright red lipstick. This is the point in the dream where I knew that the I was with the family of the bride as opposed to the groom, which had been my perception in Scene 1. The sister and I were standing at a table upon which there were a number of fake fingernails scattered all over. They were pre-painted with a sparkly pink nail polish, the same as the one I most commonly use in real life. I was trying to find the right size nails for each finger and this was taking a long time. The father of the bride/sister approached us, and did not seem to recognise me, or perhaps care about the earlier altercation. He said that we had to hurry as we needed to get to the wedding venue. I tried to argue that I needed more time to find the right size fake nails and apply them, but he told us that we had the amount of time it would take for him to inflate '2 tyres of a bus'. I thought this was a very short space of time and I would not yet be ready. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Changing identity
  • Switching gender roles
  • University campus

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was able to change identity to avoid violence

Day Residue: 
  • I  had had a recent conversation about keys to university buildings the day before this dream
  • On the day of this dream I had been playing my modded version of The Sims 3 - I have modded the game so that my sim can be an assassin and one of his weapons is a 'poker' which he can use to bash other sims to death
  • I had recently had some fake nails which were painted with pink nail polish, although not the exact polish I saw in the dream, although the one in the dream was one I actually own and am currently wearing on my toenails
  • On the day of this dream, I had watched a Pixiwoo video on Youtube, in which Nic discussed some gel nails she had got done in New York which had been painful

Waking Reactions: 
This was a really weird dream, which felt a little unsettling, although it wasn't perceived as a 'nightmare'. It also felt quite significant while I was dreaming it and immediately upon waking, but I feel that this was because it was vivid rather than because it communicated an important subconscious message. 

Friday, 26 January 2018

Dream 898

'Documentary Footage'
Date: 23 January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Sheringham - Day
I was in Sheringham with AM, my friend and former housemate for all 3 years we spent as undergraduates at the University of York. AM's partner was also with us, and they were visiting me in my hometown (although I live in Norwich). We met up with a male dream character, who I cannot really recall to describe, other than he was a documentary film-maker and had made a documentary about AM and I and our time at York. He started showing us a preview of this documentary on a mobile phone or a tablet. It was quite normal, just showing us walking around and chatting. There seemed to be no real action worth making a documentary about and I wasn't sure why it had been made. The thing which annoyed me the most was AM was herself in the documentary, but the director had used an actress to play me and although she was a similar archetype (short, curvy, olive skin, thick black hair), she did not really resemble me that much and in any event, while I was a student at York, for the majority of the time, my hair was much shorter nd dyed a number of different colours (blonde, pink, bright red), so it seemed that he had used an actress who looked more like I do now than I had at the time the documentary was set in. AM seemed pleased with the documentary, but I was disappointed. At this stage in the dream, I then realised that we were near the train station and we decided to walk down the high street into the main part of the town. AM was holding hands with her partner and the mood was one of pleasure and enjoyment. 

AM then decided that she wanted to buy some flowers from a woman called 'Jan'. This was a dream character, and I cannot recall specifically seeing her in the dream, but AM got into an argument with Jan about the flowers she wanted to buy. While we stood beside the Town Clock in the centre of town I was trying to convince AM that she should insist on buying the flowers from Jan, as it appeared AM had given up on the transaction and left whichever (unrecalled) shop she had intended to purchase them from. AM was saying that it was too much hassle, but I was saying she had a right to buy the flowers if she wanted them. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was with AM and her partner
  • A documentary had been made about AM and I when we were students at the University of York

Day Residue: 
  • I had been discussing documentaries in a Facebook group on the day of this dream

Waking Reactions: 
I didn't have any specific waking thoughts or emotions about this dream other than it was fairly pleasant.

Dream 897 (LUCID DREAM)

'Glasses Growing Out of the Carpet'
Date: January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream/Fully-Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Unknown Location - Day
At the start of the dream I was in a location I cannot recall. I was standing at a railing, which I think was on an upper-floor of a building or some kind of balcony. I was wearing white underwear and I was much fatter than usual. However, soon after noticing the weight gain, I then found that I was back to my normal weight/size and I was now wearing a white vest top and miniskirt. I was pleased to see I was no longer fat. 

I was with a male dream character - I think it may have been DL. I was telling him that I wanted to buy an external hard-drive (in real life I had mentioned this to him in a phone conversation). 

Scene 2: My Bathroom, Norwich - Night
I then found myself in my bathroom, standing beside the bath. I think there was someone else present at this point, but they soon disappeared or left and I cannot recall who it was. I was looking into my bath, and saw that it was filthy and some clothes were laying in there. I was annoyed because I realised I should clean the bath. At this point, I then became spontaneously lucid. I walked into my lounge (which is round the corner from the bathroom) and saw that there the room was relatively similar to how I would expect it to look in real life, just a bit larger, with more floor space between the kitchen area and the seating area. There were a number of drinking glasses and cups (too many to count, but more than 20) upside down 'growing' out of the carpet. I decided to walk into my bedroom in an attempt to see if the dream scene changed (as often dream visualisation techniques fail in my lucid dreams). I lost lucidity during this very short walk. 

Dream 896

'Female Racing Car Driver'
Date: January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream/Dream Fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Exterior - Day
I was in an outside area, but I either did not recognise it, or I cannot recall. R3A was present at some point in this dream, but I cannot recall what he was doing/saying. He was wearing a white T-shirt and there was some reference to a rap battle - either one from the past or the future. 

I saw myself in a mirror at some point and I looked like a male sim from The Sims 3, but my skin was so white it was almost translucent and my hair was a light brownish-grey, even though I was a young adult. I did not find it odd that I looked like a male sim in my reflection, but I was then aware that I 'transitioned' back to looking like my female self, although I did not specifically see this in the mirror, it was a realisation after noting my reflection and walking away from the mirror which was mounted on the wall. 

I was then standing on the side of a pavement, watching a road. There was someone with me, but I cannot recall who, other than one of the dream characters was a composite of R3A and another male friend I know (but cannot remember). I remember he was a composite dream character because upon waking up from this dream, I had a clear recollection of this element of the dream, but due to a delay in making written notes of the dream, I later forgot. 

A racing car approached and stopped at the side of the pavement. This car had suicide doors, which opened to reveal a female racing car driver. She was very young and white, with dark hair and a very round, open, pretty face with freckles across her nose. I was informed by one of the dream characters present that this racing car driver was a 'superstar' and had won many awards. She was the 'best racing car driver ever' and I felt surprised that the best racing car driver was female (so my subconscious clearly internalised misogynistic attitudes towards gender roles!). There was some conversation with the racing car driver, but I cannot recall what was said. Her 'trainer' or 'manager' then appeared. This was an old woman with grey hair in a bun. She started talking to us and I cannot recall what was said, or what else happened in this dream. 

Dream 895

'Bad Diagnosis'
Date: January 2018
Time: Time unknown
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: An Educational Institution (Unknown) - Time Unknown
I was in some kind of educations establishment/institution, although I am not sure if it was a school or a university as I have forgotten many of the finer details of this dream. I was with a group of people who I recall that are known to me in real life, but I cannot remember who they were, or in what context I knew them (i.e. hometown friends, local friends, university colleagues etc). These friends/acquaintances were all enrolled on the same course of study as myself in this dream.  There was an assignment which needed to be completed and submitted the next day, which was a lengthy thesis requiring binding. I had not even started the thesis. I cannot even recall what subject we were writing the thesis on, but my peers had done the bulk of the work and no-one was telling me what I needed to do. I saw some completed theses - they were bound in a red covered book. I was panicking as I knew I would never be able to meet the deadline. I then realised I wasn't even signed up on this course and therefore I was not required to complete this assignment anyway. This was a huge relief. I believe this dream reflects current anxiety over my PhD and my efforts to seek a retrospective intercalation, extending my deadline in real life.

I then was speaking to one of my best friends, who told me he had been diagnosed with cancer. I don't even wish to use his initials, as I usually would because I feel this would be inappropriate in the circumstances. I was devastated and didn't know what to say to him. I woke up from this dream feeling like crying and was really emotionally affected by it. I did not tell my friend about this dream for obvious reasons. 

Thursday, 25 January 2018

Dream 894 (LUCID FALSE AWAKENING)

'My Ex-Boyfriend's Teeth'
Date: January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Dream Fragments/Lucid False Awakening
Dream recall: Weak recall 

Scene 1: Unknown
I do not know the location in which the start of this dream took place. I recall seeing my ex-boyfriend, PS and seeing a close-up of his teeth, which looked perfect (while we were together PS had some extensive dental work to correct some discolouration and fix some smashed teeth after he was attacked by some men with a knuckleduster). I wondered if this really was PS or whether it was someone else and I had mistaken their identity. I cannot recall any conversation. 

At some point later in the dream I was sitting beside someone (unknown) on a park bench which seemed to be outside. N the Dog was on my lap and I was stroking him. 

I woke up in my own bed. This was a false awakening and I was aware and fully lucid. I was laying under the covers of my bed and I could see a ghostly white translucent hand above the duvet, reaching for me. I could see my laptop on the desk chair beside my bed, which was where it was in real life. I was aware that the ghost hand was trying to touch me. I started screaming out for someone to come into my dream to help me. No-one came. I shouted for both DL and R3A, my friends. Neither of them entered my dream. I closed my eyes and tried to change the dream scene. I found myself standing in a glass room, with light glowing from my arms - as if I had super powers. All I could see were the glass walls of the empty room and darkness beyond. I tried to stretch my arms out and saw the glowing light was bright red. It reminded me of an old commercial for the breakfast product, Ready Brek ('Central Heating for Kids'). I was on guard and thought that something from somewhere might come and attack me while I was stuck in the glass room. I wished for a weapon and looked at my right hand, trying to visualise this. Instead I saw a blue diamond shape, which looked like a plumbob from The Sims. I realised this would not help me. The blue diamond glowed in my hand. It was around the size of a matchbox. I then lost lucidity and fell back asleep. 

Monday, 22 January 2018

Dream 893

'Home Invasion'
Date: January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Family Home - Evening
I was in a family home which my family lived in - my Mum, Stepdad, Nan and various aunts uncles and cousins. The house had a large lounge and a kitchen running alongside this. Adjacent to the lounge and kitchen was a conservatory which overlooked a large, L-shaped garden enclosed by a chain-link fence. 

My family were in the kitchen, plating up some takeaway fish and chips for the evening meal. The dining table was in the lounge. In the lounge were my former housemates (one of whom is a former colleague, and neither of whom know each other), CD3 and SH2. In the dream they were in a relationship with each other, and this annoyed me. They were sitting on an armchair. SH2 was sitting on the arm. They had invited a number of guests over. I was not aware why they were in my family home or why they felt it appropriate to invite guests over. I was really angry by the fact they were 'invading' my homelife. 

There was a TV on in the lounge - a very small screen. It was showing an episode of Star Wars: The Clone Wars, although this episode was showing Anakin Skywalker, Grand Moff Tarkin, Obi-Wan Kenobi and Ahsoka Tano in one of Anakin's Starfighters. They were looking out of the front glass, so the view was as if the 'audience' were in space, just in front of the Starfighter. SH2 did not seem to understand what we were watching and she asked: 'Who is Anakin?' I started explaining who Anakin was and what the Clone Wars was about. I then found out that CD3 and SH2's guests had ordered an Indian takeaway and planned to eat it in the lounge, which meant that my family would not have space to eat our meal. I went into the (dark) kitchen, where my family were all gathered to tell them. My Mum went into the lounge to deal with the situation. 

I then walked through to the conservatory area with my Nan. My uncle GC (wearing an apron) was also there and we started talking to him. Through the glass windows, I saw there were a number of young men trying to break through the chain-link fence into the garden. My Nan started panicking and told me to go and sort it out. I went out into the garden, and saw there was an alien there. It looked like a large green-grey ghost-like being, the size of a tall human adult and composed of slimy ectoplasm. It was passive and for some reason I perceived no threat from it, so I left it and went towards the chain-link fence, shouting at the males to leave us alone or we would call the police. A number of the males then jumped the fence - which was at least 7 feet high. They ran towards me and I was backed into a corner of the garden. One of the males - with dark brown hair and a beard - pushed me to the ground and started punching me in the face. I was trying to defend myself, but as I was laying on the ground and other males joined in, punching and kicking me it was no use. A female joined them, but I did not see her (or recall seeing her). She began to spit on me and I was completely covered in her saliva. This was more demeaning and abusive than the physical assault by the males. The majority of the saliva gathered in my right armpit area. I managed to get up and break away from the attackers. Back inside the house, I was really traumatised. I cannot recall what else happened in this dream. I perceived it as a nightmare. Although I did not note the specific date of this dream (as my dreamwork lapsed again in recent times), this dream took place the night after my last nightmare - Dream 892 - 'Murder by Choke-Out'.

Dream 892

'Murder by Choke-Out'
Date: January 2018
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day
At first, I was on the road walking up to my Nan's house. I recall being on the part of the road which often appears in my dreams, which is where the 'woods path' entrance can be seen, and is halfway between my Nan's house and her former workplace, a nursing home for elderly people. I cannot recall the precise reason I was keen to get to my Nan's house, but I think it was because my ex-boyfriend, PS was there and I wanted to see him. 

As I entered my Nan's house, I became aware that there were various people in the house - a couple of drug dealers in one room and my uncle GC and his wife KC in another. I am not sure if PS was there, but he had been there previously. The drug dealers were in my Nan's bedroom, where they were sleeping (renting the room from her) and my uncle and aunt were in a different room (one which does not exist in real life). I do not know where my Nan was. 

There was a knock at the door and I opened it to find 2 young women - both of them were dressed in sparkly tops and mini-skirts and at least 1 of them (she looked Chinese) had bare feet. The other girl had shoulder-length orange-brown hair. They were dream characters, not anyone I know from real life. The girls said they were there to see PS and I perceived their attitude to be rude and dismissive. I said PS was not there. The girls pushed past me and started to run up the stairs. I could not stop them. I could see up their short skirts from the position I was behind them. They were laughing hysterically as they went up the stairs.

They went into my bedroom. I went into my Nan's bedroom and asked the 2 male drug dealers if they would help me remove the girls. They said they were too busy to help. I therefore went into the (dream) bedroom, where I found my uncle and aunt sitting in a double bed. This room appeared to be a replica of my own bedroom, with the bed in a different position. I asked my uncle to help remove the girls from my own bedroom and the house. He came to help.

In my bedroom my uncle grabbed one girl and I grabbed the other (the Chinese dream character). My uncle told me to choke the girl I was holding, and he would do the same to the one he was holding. We put our arms round their necks and began to choke them out. There was little resistance, and the girls' faces went bright red. Both fainted from lack of oxygen, but instead of releasing them, both my uncle and I continued to use squeeze their throats. Both girls suffocated to death. 

My uncle and I then took their bodies and in panic, tried to decide where to dump them. Instead of looking for a suitable spot in the woods which are opposite my Nan's house, we just left them in the grass beside the trees, visible from the roadside (see image). In the dream there was also a chain-link fence at this spot. We saw that there were a number of local residents and children nearby watching us. We went into my Nans' house and looked out of my bedroom window, which has a view of the woods and the area where we left the bodies, about 100 yards from my Nan's house. There was a police car pulling up outside the house. My uncle said: 'They won't know it's us' but at that point, I saw there were CCTV cameras right outside the house, filming both the house and the road where we left the bodies. I panicked even more, knowing we would be arrested for murder and told my uncle we needed to get fake passports and go somewhere in Europe where English was spoken as a second-language. In my mind, I was thinking 'Amsterdam' because that is a place I find appealing. I felt extreme fear at the idea of going to prison for life. This dream was experienced as a nightmare.