Date: 5 August 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day I was in an unknown interior, which was not somewhere I recall from real life, but in the dream it appeared to be my family home. I was present with my Nan and other members of my family - I recall my Mum and cousin HM being present, but cannot specifically remember who else was in the location. The house had a lot of hallways and corners - I cannot recall being in a specific room. My Nan was telling me that she was remarrying (she has never had another relationship since divorcing my late Granddad many many years ago, and is not interested in this). I knew her boyfriend was Darth Maul from Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999) and Star Wars Rebels. I saw an image of Darth Maul appear before me, but he wasn't present. In the dream he was a Sith Assassin and appeared to exist as he does in the Star Wars universe. My Nan said Darth Maul would be late for the wedding because he was in due in Norwich Crown Court for a trial on 'abuse' charges and was likely to be found guilty. I realised that Darth Maul had been visiting the prison AJR (my boyfriend) is currently incarcerated in and had been abusing members of Healthcare staff. It seemed that it was sexual abuse that dated back a number of years. My Nan did not care about the sexual abuse or trial and she was laughing about it, which annoyed me because she wasn't taking things seriously and did not have empathy for the victims. I did not want her to marry Darth Maul as I thought this was a mistake. I went to find my cousin HM, with the aim of getting her to convince our Nan not to marry Darth Maul. I wandered through some dark corridors in the 'house' and found my cousin standing beside a closed door in one of the hallways. She was dressed in a long, flowery dress which I understood to be her formal outfit for the wedding of my Nan and Darth Maul. I started shouting at HM, because I was angry that she appeared to be supporting the marriage between my Nan and Darth Maul. HM told me that it was only me that had an issue/problem with the marriage and she was looking forward to Darth Maul becoming our step-grandfather. She said that it would be a 1970s themed wedding (her dress was not a 1970s-style dress as far as I recall - it looked modern). I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day of this dream DL and I had a conversation where we discussed the fact my Nan prefers the company of men to women
On the night before this dream I was watching a Star Wars Theory video about the death of Darth Maul in Star Wars Rebels on Youtube
On the day of this dream I had been looking at vintage photographs of 1970s fashion on an Instagram account
The day before this dream I had been recording a Youtube video about my Star Wars dreams - specifically sex dreams relating to Luke Skywalker - see my video Tallulah's Dream Palace | Sex Dreams (Luke Skywalker Edition - 1) embedded below the image of Darth Maul
'AJR Ruins my Life with HMP Drama & an Affair with Instagram Model, Rose West'
Date: 4 August 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day I was in an interior, I am not sure what kind of interior it was, because throughout this dream, my focus was on action and dream characters, not dream locations, although I know that this part of the dream was an interior for sure - possibly a domestic interior. I was with AJR, his mum and a number of other dream characters, many of who I know are known to me in real life. The feeling was I was surrounded by people who know me and know the circumstances of my relationship with AJR. Something was happening in my relationship with AJR to make me feel anxious and insecure, and the dream started off with me feeling really tense and stressed. My emotions were very clear in the dream throughout. I then became aware - by directly witnessing it as if it was a scene in a movie that I was passively watching - that AJR had got together with a gang of men, who were all criminals. These men all wore blue - for some reason I was looking 'up' at this scene, rather than from eyeline level. This was their uniform or gang dress-code. All the men were white and in their 20s - 40s approximately - there was about 5 - 7 of them. AJR was wearing white 1960s-style 'Jackie O' sunglasses, although I did not become aware/realise that this was a successful dream incubation as per my Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment #7 (see below). This symbolised him as being the leader of the gang, and I thought he looked very handsome in the glasses - they made him look cool. The gang, led by AJR, were planning a series of armed robberies and murders, which made me feel fearful, because in the dream AJR was out of prison on licence, and would not only be recalled to prison immediately if suspected of any criminal activity, but also on the basis of 'poor conduct' alone, even if not found guilty in legal proceedings. I wanted to tell him not to get involved with the gang (even though he was the leader, I felt like he was being influenced and taken advantage of by the other male dream characters). However, I felt hopeless and helpless and did not try to intervene - it was as if I knew that I couldn't, or that it wouldn't make a difference if I tried. I was very passive during this scene. It was very frustrating. All the men - AJR included - were excited about the prospect of the crimes they were going to commit. The were crouched down slightly - as if symbolising 'stealth' or 'creeping' (this is how I perceived it in the dream), and shouting for joy, loudly. I then realised that AJR had been arrested for the armed robberies and murders that had been committed (I did not see the crimes get committed, or the aftermath - just the scene described above). He was going to be sentenced to life in prison and would never ever come out. I was highly emotional and distressed and was crying and feeling like my world was ending. I was really angry at AJR for throwing away our future together, wasting his opportunity of freedom and ruining his and my life. AJR didn't seem to care at all. I could see him in the room I (and the other dream characters present) was in, although I knew he was also 'in prison' at this time, having already been convicted and sentenced. He was laughing and not taking anything seriously at all. I could not communicate with him in a reasonable manner, and I was becoming very frustrated because I wanted a proper conversation with him about what was happening, yet he was joking and ignoring me. I then realised that AJR was cheating on me with another woman, and had been for some time. I cannot recall who this woman represents in real waking life (because I had the distinct impression she was someone known to me and maybe also AJR, or someone representative of someone we are both aware exists). In the dream, she was a 20 or 30-something white woman, with shoulder length blonde hair and slim build, who was an 'Instagram model' and a police woman. Her name was Rose West and she had an 'Instagram filter' installed on her face, which could make her eyes look like 1990s smiley faces - at some points her eyes looked normal, and at other times, they looked like smiley faces, which in the dream was a desirable thing - it was a trend and symbolised her being superior to me. I was so jealous and resentful of her - not only because AJR had been having an affair with her, but because I felt inferior to her. She kept running in front of me, as if taunting and mocking me. I knew it was hopeless to try and convince AJR not to be with Rose West. I was in a state of inconsolable distress and upset. I was begging with AJR's mum to come into a bathroom with me so that I could show her something on a mobile phone. AJR's mum came with me into the next room, which was a bathroom. We did not put the light on, so the room was quite dark, but we were standing beside the open door, so it was possible to see. I had a white mobile phone in the dream. I showed AJR's mum a direct message which I had received on Instagram (I cannot recall who sent me the message). It informed me that the 'Instagram filter' installed on people's faces (i.e. the one seen on Rose West) caused death from eye cancer. AJR's mum and I thought this was the solution to our problems - as it would 'get rid' of Rose West from AJR's life, and he could go back to being with me. AJR's mum was trying to calm me down and reassure me. We came out of the bathroom, back into the main room, where the other dream characters and AJR/Rose West were. AJR was saying something about his Probation Officer being very annoyed that he had been recalled - he was still treating all of this like a joke. I noticed that he had shackles and chains around his ankles (he was still wearing the blue gang outfit from before, but not the sunglasses anymore). I was enraged by Rose West and decided that I did not wan to wait until she died of eye cancer from the Instagram filter smiley eyes. I was screaming at AJR that I 'wanted to fuck him up' (since he was the one who was getting life sentences and cheating on me), but since he was serving life in prison, there was not much I could do against him and I was aware of this. I then decided spontaneously that my only option was to murder Rose West in front of AJR to pay him back. I did the murder by punching her twice, once in each eye. She immediately fell down dead on the floor, with her eyes pushed into her skull and blood pouring out of her eye sockets. I felt pleased with myself but also really angry that I had been pushed to commit a murder like this. My anger was directed a AJR. AJR then told me that he was really happy to be in prison for life, because the prison was really a theatre company, which were constantly and continuously putting on stage productions and musical dramas. I knew these productions were very low quality and no-one wanted to watch them because no-one could act, sing or dance in the prison. AJR seemed to think that the prison theatre company would make everyone famous so he was looking forward to becoming a prison actor, using the name 'HMP Drama' which was going to be put on all his official paperwork, meaning a lot of hassle for the prison system and authorities. He said everyone had to wear white to perform on stage and was going to be ordering a number of white T-shirts for his new acting roles. I cannot recall anything else about this dream - I think I woke up at this point.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#7, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this was a highly successful Quickshot Dream Incubation! I was very surprised to see just how successful this dream incubation really was - my dream trigger ('white 1960s-style 'Jackie O' sunglasses') was so very clear in the dream!
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
This was a very vivid dream, and one which caused me a great deal of anxiety - so it might be correct to refer to this as an anxiety dream. It had a lot of dream residue - the events of the dream have been in my conscious waking mind all day, and the emotions I experienced in the dream are also being experienced in my waking reality, which seems odd, because I should be able to dissociate my dream self from my waking self, and realise that this dream is not necessarily a reflection of my life, but rather a distorted version, which might not be as simple as it appears on the surface. I genuinely want to address the dream with AJR via telephone call, but I know this is totally inappropriate, because it's my subconscious which has caused me to feel anxious and insecure, not him!
On the night of this dream I had recorded a Love on Lockdown video, detailing recent events with AJR's parole
I had mentioned my all-time favourite movie A Clockwork Orange (1971) in a conversation with AJR a few days before this dream - he had said he hates the themes of rape in the movie, so disapproves of it, although I am not sure if he has actually watched it, because I think he would genuinely love the plot if he did - he could relate to the prison system and idea of rehabilitation from violent crime and how the media, government and society view such issues etc. I had also mentioned to DL (last week) that the only 2 vinyl records I own are a Nirvana picture record and an original edition of the A Clockwork Orange soundtrack - this would have linked the ideas of A Clockwork Orange and the white Jackie-O sunglasses I was using in my Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments - as these glasses are associated with Kurt Cobain, who was my inspiration for buying my first pair back in the 1990s. I also saw a still image of Alex (Malcolm McDowell) on the internet the night before this dream. You may also note that I have been using the 'Synthemesc Regular' font on my social media branding - this is the font used in A Clockwork Orange - in the Korova Milkbar (where synthemesc is an available drug, hence the name of the font)
On the day before this dream, AJR had mentioned that I should wear the fake square-framed glasses I used to sometimes wear on visits to see him (this is a turn-on for him, and he requested this) - not only because they make me look 'sexy', but because they also make me look 'more professional' in his view. I have previously got him to the glasses on and thought they made him look really sexy - like a 1950s/60s man - I specifically referred to his likeness to Kurt Cobain in the video for 'In Bloom' (1992) from Nevermind (1991)
On the day of this dream I had a conversation with a friend GB about armed robbery and during the same conversation I mentioned that I am more submissive in relationships than in other areas of my life
On the day of this dream I had been discussing notorious serial killers Fred and Rose West with DL after he had asked about a book on my table - Gordon Burn, Happy Like Murderers (1998) which has a front cover design by Damien Hirst which is a smiley face (associated with 1990s rave culture) laying on some dirt. Note that Nirvana used a variation of the smiley face on a lot of their merchandise and branding
On the day of this dream AJR and I had been joking about a very immoral former 'friend' of his who had become dangerously obsessed with him (we have since removed her from his life) - we had been laughing about her selfies, which always have a Snapchat filter on them (she is a large, overweight 37 year old with blonde hair, who we refer to as 'Parsnips' or 'the naughty nurse')
A few days before I had this dream, I had been to prison for a legal case (independent adjudication) and my client had left the segregation unit (block) so that he could attend a social club instead of having his case heard. This meant that my travel to the prison and the waiting around was pointless. I was allowed to go with an officer to the social club to speak to my client briefly, and get my legal aid papers signed. In the social club, all of the prisoners wanted to come and talk to me. There was a prisoner playing an Oasis song on guitar and singing (both done really badly). When I told AJR about the social club, he referred to it as 'Fraggle Club' and said it was for socially outcast people to get together - obviously he was mocking it
While in the middle of writing up this dream report, AJR phoned me. I mentioned the dream to him and how it made me feel - he thought it was really funny and was laughing at the dream. He also referred back to my previous dream - Dream 989 - 'AJR Rockstar' (31 May 2019) - which I was going to be noting in this section, due to the fact it featured AJR playing guitar and singing in a prison environment - and had been something which made me laugh when I experienced the prisoner playing Oasis songs in Fraggle Club
On the day of this dream AJR had told me about a 'Lifer Day' held at the prison, where close family (and Probation Officers) could attend for an all-day event. He had applied for me to attend (I've never spent more than 2 hours at a time with AJR), but I had been wrongly listed as a 'friend' not his girlfriend. This is odd, because on every other list I have been correctly listed as his girlfriend. I felt like this might have been intentional, as I am aware the prison dislike the fact I work there as a prison lawyer and represent clients who are prisoners serving alongside my boyfriend and have to challenge staff in hearings etc. By the time AJR had managed to get the prison staff to amend the list to confirm I am his partner. it was too late to book us onto the event
AJR ended his phone call by saying: 'I was going to say 'sweet dreams' but I want you to have more bad dreams about me' (as a joke!)
Date: 03 August 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Domestic Interior This was a very vivid dream, which would have been strongly recalled, but I was woken from sleep by AJR phoning me, so by the time I came to record this dream, I had forgotten a lot of detail. I was in an unknown domestic interior, and it felt unfamiliar and odd to me in the dream - I felt anxious and apprehensive throughout this dream, as if I was waiting for something bad to happen, but I did not know what it was. I was walking around the interior, which was very brightly lit and decorated like a modern home - I could see that the kitchen and living space were open-plan and there were a lot of plants in this room. I could see a pile of books stacked beside a metal staircase, which was actually a ladder. This indicated that I was on the upper floor, as the ladder was going down. I cannot recall how I came to be in another room with dream characters, but this is the next part of the dream that I remember. I was with a group of young adult male dream characters - at least 5 of them. One of them was very short and white. He had curly dark brown hair and a 'cute' face, and was dressed in a yellow T-shirt and blue jeans. I think I knew who this was when I was dreaming it - I seem to recall him being based on someone I know from Sheringham, but I have since forgotten who I associated this dream character with. In the dream, I was going to marry this male dream character, but it did not feel like a romantic relationship - more like one of convenience which was being arranged. We were friends, but not in love with one another. I saw the fact that I was set to marry this dream character as being a way of protecting myself from the unknown threat in the house. At some point I communicated the threat or my fear to the dream character boyfriend - but I cannot recall how I did this. He was supposed to go somewhere with the group of male dream characters, but instead, he cancelled his plans with them so that he could stay with me in the house I was afraid of. I have forgotten all other aspects of this vivid dream, but I do remember there was a lot of walking up and down the metal ladder with my boyfriend, and both of us were in fear of what was happening in the house. The walking up and down the ladder felt like the dream repeating itself.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
A few hours before I had this dream I was searching for images on Google (related to dreaming) and saw an image of a boy climbing a ladder into the sky
Date: 30 July 2019 Scene 1: A Domestic Interior I was in a domestic interior, which I do not recognise from real life, but in the dream was my home - and specifically semed to represent my own house in Norwich (as I was expecting a new housemate who would also be a work colleague at my university). I was in the kitchen/lounge, which was large and open-plan and seemed to remind me of an alpine cottage (this was just my impression, although I cannot describe what I mean here). There was a counter, which was 3-sides of a square shape. Instead of the appliances being on the 'internal' part of the 3-sided square, they were beneath the counter on the external side. I was standing at the counter. I recall there being something bright red in the room, and the windows (to my left) reminding me (somehow) of the view outside of the Music Block in my former high school. I had an ominous feeling - I knew I was having a new housemate move in with me shortly (this is true in my real life). I did not want this to happen. The dream had a mixed positive (I liked my house) and negative (anticipating a new housemate moving in) feeling. There was also a bad feeling about something else. Something or someone (I cannot recall who or what it was - the message was communicated to me, and I was in fear, considering it to be coming from an evil or demonic source) told me that I had to have the oven on - and then turn it off. When it was turned off, it was in this state that some kind of phenomenon was going to occur, but the sense was that this phenomenon was going to be dangerous. I went to look at the oven - it had a screen which made it look like a TV showing what I would describe as 'black sound waves'. This showed me that the oven was on. I did not want to turn it off and witness the phenomenon (which would require me to do something to the oven, while it was turned off) because I knew it would lead to a terrible event (this was all quite bizarre and abstract and difficult to describe in words). I knew this oven phenomenon somehow related to the new housemate. I had not left the room - I had been kneeling down by the external edge of the counter, just beneath the window, looking at the oven - which was under the counter, more like a washing machine, as there could be no stove top. As I was underneath the window while kneeling down by the oven, it felt much lighter in this area of the room. I stood up and looking at the counter I noticed that there were keys, a purse and about a quarter ounce of cannabis on the counter. The cannabis looked like a block of cheese with a hard rind - or like blue cheese (Stilton). I thought it looked weird in the dream, and wondered if I should take some of the cannabis, as I knew it did not belong to me. I then realised these items belonged to my new housemate, who had already moved in without me realising, I thought this was early, and I was not happy. I went to the front door and opened it. I saw that outside was a very pleasant looking environment - there was a path running through some grass and I could see a number of small one-storey houses (which also had an alpine or forest-looking quality). There were a number of trees and I could see some other dream characters in standing around - I guess the area reminded me of a ski resort, without the snow or skiing. It was dusk and the sky was a violet colour. Walking down the path towards my house was a female dream character. She was white and short and chubby. Her hair was auburn-brown and she had very pink shiny cheeks. She was wearing an orange-red flowing smock top/dress and holding a small handbag in front of her, with both hands. I realised this was 'Bella' my new housemate. She had a big smile on her face and seemed pleased to be moving in with me. I would describe her as looking 'vibrant'. We both went into the house and I was trying to anxiously tell Bella about the weird oven phenomenon, which I was linking to something evil/demonic and dangerous. Bella was not concerned and told me that she 'usually worked with radioactivity', which scared me even more, because I was worried that she would bring nuclear waste into our home, and we would get radiation sickness. I really did not want her to live with me. Bella said she was moving her things into the house - she began to do so. All of Bella's possessions were CDs - just lots of CDs. There was some kind of dispute between Bella and I over my landline telephone. I was trying to tell Bella that we could share the phone, but it had to remain in the kitchen and I was the one who had most use of it because it was my main means of communication with AJR (who was in prison in the dream). I cannot recall exactly what was said in this conversation, but it ended with me screaming at Bella: 'HE'S IN FUCKING PRISON!' to get her to understand. I was being aggressive and confrontational, but it felt necessary. Bella seemed to be a nice and passive person. I did not feel guilty to be so confrontational. Bella and I walked outside. The scene reminded me of an area outside the former Teen and 20 (youth centre) which was around when I was a child/teenager in Sheringham (I have found an image of the Teen and 20 online, see below). I am not sure what part of the exterior it was i.e. but I think it was just outside the side entrance. I feel that this part of the dream distinctly recalls a real life memory of walking out of the Teen and 20 after a gathering of a number of us who were skateboarders and meeting to organise the fundraising and building of a skatepark, but I also remember other non-skateboarders being present, so I think my mind is combining a couple of memories of being in the youth centre. It was sunny outside. I realised 'Bella' was actually my friend NN from Sheringham. We were laughing at this, as if we both knew we had only just worked this out, in the dream. I cannot recall what else happened in the dream - I think I woke up at this point.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day before this dream I had been pre-heating my oven for some time, and forgot about it
2 days before this dream AJR had made a joke about me consuming a lot of 'cheese' - using 'cheese' to mean a certain type of cannabis. He was saying 'cheese' instead of cannabis because he was on the prison phone. This was the same conversation where I was discussing 'edibles', which influenced Dream 2020 - 'Unwanted Marriage & Baby'
I had been watching Tana Mongeau videos - indeed I had a dream about Tana Mongeau - Dream 1021 - 'Tana Mongeau Drama'. Tana used to/may still date Bella Thorne. Also I had watched another Youtube video about another social media influencer. I cannot remember the name of this social media influencer (and I had never heard of them before they were mentioned on the video I was watching) - however, I remember the narrator mentioning that the influencer had a sister named Isabella, known as 'Bella'
In various recent conversations with my friends (and AJR) I had mentioned that I did not want a new housemate, and in particular, did not want to share my landline phone with them, since I rely on it to talk to AJR
I had a text conversation on Facebook with NN a few days before this dream
The Teen and 20 was found to have asbestos - and a few days ago I had a dream involving asbestos (and talking to AJR on a telephone when feeling anxious) - Dream 1017 - 'The Roast Office'. These things might have linked in my head, along with the reference to radioactivity and toxicity
About a week before this dream DL was joking with me (trying to trigger me) and asked what I would do if my future new housemate worked in nuclear physics, meaning they could bring traces of radioactive materials into my house
Date: 29 July 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown I was in an unknown interior - I could not guess what the room I was in actually was, because it appeared to be like an airport lounge, a bar/club and a shop all at the same time. The lighting was quite colourful, and it was dark, but I do not know what time of day it was. There were some seats - sofas (maybe blue), and I could see a number of dream characters and other objects/items in background, although I did not pay attention to them. I was with AJR and he was trying to be a celebrity manager or PR agent - something connected to helping celebrities stay out of drama. We were going to meet Tana Mongeau and Channon Rose who wanted AJR to manage their scandals (I am guessing Channon Rose's scandal related to her recent fabricated harassment 'drama' for views incident - it was not clear in the dream). When we found them, after walking around this room for a short while. they were both sitting on one of many (blue?) sofas. AJR and I stood the whole time. I notice Channon Rose was silent and seemed to be in a bad mood the whole time. Tana Mongeau was very loud and animated - appeared to me as she does in her videos. She also looked like she was dressed in many bright colours, but I cannot recall her outfit. She looked 'dressed up' though. Tana Mongeau was shouting that her marriage to Jake Paul (this happened on 29 July 2019 - i.e. today) was fake and that she didn't know how to tell everyone, but she was also talking about 'refunds' as if she would have to refund 'everyone' if they found out that Tana Mongeau and Jake Paul's wedding was fake. She seemed to be very desperate and wanted AJR to do something. AJR did not seem to know what to do, and I did not either. I cannot remember saying anything to Tana Mongeau and cannot remember AJR doing so either. There seemed to be a lot of standing around and not much action taking place, this being something I vividly recall. AJR and I were then walking into another room, which was also difficult to describe as any one thing - again, it could have been many things - a shopping mall/train station. There were many dream characters present, leading me to believe both locations in this same building were public locations. None of the dream characters were known to me, and I did not pay them much attention, if any - the way it would be in real waking life, if something more important than people-watching was on my mind. I remember there being some white/gold decor in this room, and a high ceiling, which may have been domed. It seemed to incline upwards. The floor may have been marble or tile. We were trying to decide what to do about the Tana Mongeau and Jake Paul drama, but from the conversation, it appeared tha AJR had confused Tana Mongeau with Channon Rose - and got the 2 identities mixed. I said the only thing we could do was to force Channon Rose to pretend that she was married to Jake Paul. This seemed like the only logical answer. AJR said that we needed to buy a piano to play at the Tana Mongeau (Channon Rose) and Jake Paul wedding reception, so that the media would believe it was real. I did not want to go piano shopping. It appeared the piano shop was actually inside the same building we were in (which made me think it was a shopping mall). However, when we got to it, I recognised it - or knew I was in - a music shop I used to visit in Manchester, back in 1999 - 2001. I cannot recall exactly where in Manchester City Centre this music shop was - and me and my ex-boyfriend CW and friend CG used to visit many. However, I remember being in the rear room of the shop (in real life memory) and looking at some sheet music for piano (I cannot play piano or read music). I also remember seeing a cow bell and discussing it with CW. In the dream I knew I was in this shop in Manchester as soon as we entered, but it did not surprise me. AJR began talking to the man about buying a piano, but the conversation was confusing for me to follow, because the shop owner (who was a non-descript middle-aged white man) was whispering his answers to AJR, so I could not hear what he was saying. I was standing some distance away from the counter when they were talking. Scene 2: A City Street - Day AJR and I walked outside and we were on a street - but I have no idea if it resembled the street I remember the real life Manchester music shop being on. It did seem familiar in the dream, as in I knew where I was. It was sunny and the street was in a city. There were a number of tall buildings, which I think were shops and businesses and residential premises, because it looked like a typical city street, the dominant colour being beige (not grey as I usually see cities in dreams). AJR and I were standing outside on the pavement. Tana Mongeau came running over to us. She seemed to be very short in height - much shorter than me, and I am 5 foot 3 inches. She said that we were late to her and Jake Paul's wedding and it had already taken place, but no-one attended and the media had turned against her. She seemed to be very anxious and upset. Now the situation seemed hopeless, and it felt devastating to me in the dream (maybe the loss of Tana Mongeau as a client?) I suggested that we go to the carnival. This was my idea of 'winning' Tana Mongeau over and appeasing her so that she would remain as AJR's client. The carnival took place in the first room of the original building in Scene 1. Scene 3: An Unknown Building - Day We went back inside the original building, although we did not go back through the music shop (which had been our exit from the building), we walked down the street. I saw a small bridge over a river, which was part of the road. This separated one part of the street from another, which seemed to be at a downwards angle - like it was downhill from the other side of the bridge. The city street on the other side looked recessed into the ground at an odd, unnatural angle. We did not cross the bridge, we stayed on the upper side of the city, and entered the original building again through an entrance to a building on the same side of the road we had always been on. The door was a really nice indigo/deep cobalt blue colour and I noticed that I liked it in the dream. It looked like a door to a domestic property. I think the building was red brick and the last building before coming to the small bridge in the road. Inside the building, we were 'at the carnival' although I could not tell what was different than before. We were in the room with blue sofas, which could have been an airport or a nightclub. Tana Mongeau started crying and said she thought her fake wedding would make her more famous. I thought maybe we could create a new scandal/drama which would make her famous, so I told her we should steal alcohol from what appeared to be a cabinet, very lit up - more like a cosmetics display in a fancy department store than a normal alcohol cabinet. I could see a lot of shining glass when looking at it. I do not recall seeing it at any point before I came up with the idea to steal the alcohol. All of the alcohol was in ornate, highly decorative bottles, which made me think they were expensive. Tana Mongeau and I went to the cabinet, but we couldn't open it, it was impossible as there was no door/opening at all - it was a solid object with no separate parts. I am not sure what AJR was doing at this point.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
The night before this dream, I had been binge-watching Tana Mongeau videos on Youtube, and was aware of her forthcoming marriage to Jake Paul and the rumours that it was a fake marriage for views (note that it is pay-per-view and there is no evidence of a licence to marry being filed in Las Vegas where the wedding took place). I fell asleep while an entire playlist of Tana Mongeau Storytime videos was playing - so could possibly have heard her voice penetrating my dreams, given this was a short sleep, between 05:30 and 08:30 hours
On the night before this dream I had also watched a Youtube video where Channon Rose admitted to faking her recent scandal/drama
On the day before this dream I had seen my former best friend CG post a photograph of a guitar he was selling (in Manchester) on Facebook
On the day before this dream I had been thinking about Cromer Carnival
On the day before this dream - and the days preceding that - AJR had been very stressed, trying to terminate his representation by an incompetent lawyer
Date: 27 July 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day I was in an unknown interior for the start of the dream. I was 3 months pregnant, but my body had changed and I looked and felt 9 months pregnant, which disturbed me greatly. I was really uncomfortable, and could not move around easily. I recall I was wearing a white T-shirt. I felt very unattractive, and was not happy that I was pregnant. I knew AJR was the father of the baby, although he was not present. There was some more action in this dream scene, but I cannot recall what it was. Scene 2: A Shopping Mall - Day I then remember going to a very small, weird shopping mall with my Mum and other (unrecalled) members of my family. The aim was to buy a wedding dress for me, but I did not want to buy a wedding dress and was angry and upset - also because I was pregnant and felt very overweight and tired. The shops in the mall (I think it was a 'strip mall' as it just seemed to be a row of shops in a white tiled interior building) were all very cheap and tacky. My Mum took me into one particular shop, where all the clothes were very disgusting - they seemed like cheap, low quality 'nightclub' style dresses mainly. My Mum showed me a very awful, frilly peach satin mini-dress, which had very ragged edges as part of the design. I thought the dress was horrific and I rejected it, but my Mum and everyone with us was trying to convince me that it was the perfect dress for me to marry AJR. There was more walking around this horrible clothing store, looking at dresses I would never want to wear. I knew that I was unable to smoke cannabis now that I was pregnant, so I asked my Mum if she would bake me some edibles i.e. space cake. My Mum did not say 'No' but I perceived the fact that she was not going to make me any edibles and we were going to continue the shopping trip which I did not want to be involved with. I began crying in a really whinging, whiny way over the fact I could not get my Mum to make me any edibles and the fact I was pregnant and shopping for a wedding dress I did not want. I cannot recall anything else about this dream. I woke up desperately needing to pee - which might have accounted for my discomfort in the dream, and the sensation of being pregnant, as my bladder felt very full and uncomfortable.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day before this dream I had a discussion with AJR where he mentioned that I would have to stop smoking cannabis regularly when we have a baby (I agreed, because...I do agree with that!) I had made a joke about still being able to consume edibles
In the same conversation, AJR and I had talked about decorating our future home. I had said AJR would want to be fully in control of the decor (as he is much more interested in that than I am) - he had said, no we would participate equally, until I mentioned that I like peach as a colour scheme
Date: 27 July 2019 (Early Afternoon Nap) Scene 1: A Ship - Day This was nothing more than a dream fragment, which took place during a short nap in the early afternoon. I had been woken by a lunchtime telephone call from AJR (in real life). After the telephone call, I went back to my bedroom, and while laying down in my bed, fell asleep again (unintentionally). I was on a ship - everything was a very rustic, dark brown wood - I could see the planks of wood were very textured. The sea was very grey, but the sky was blue and sunny. There were a lot of (I recall them being male) dream characters on the top deck of this ship with me - they were walking and not interacting with me. I heard AJR's voice - very disconnected as if it wa coming from somewhere above me, saying: 'Can you come and see me tomorrow?' My heart leapt (skipped a beat) because I was excited by this (AJR has not wanted any visits for a number of months, so I haven't seen him since perhaps April time). I immediately said: 'Yes!' I was awoken by AJR calling me again on the telephone, right at this point in the dream. Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
Date: 26 July 2019 (Evening Nap) Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown I was in an unknown interior location. There were dream characters with me, who I do not recall. Also present was Bungle from the children's TV show Rainbow (1972 - 1992), although in the dream his name was 'Amble'. Amble had bitten through all of the electrical wiring in the building, meaning that an electrician would need to be called. This made everyone really angry. Amble was a really passive and stupid person. I am not sure what happened next, but I was in a conversation with AJR and another male dream character, being shown a photograph of Amble in a courtroom. There was a black fluffy object (which looked like a large pompom) next to Amble in the photograph, and also a gun, which Amble was holding, although it was down by his side and did not make him look threatening or dangerous. I was being asked to interpret the photograph and describe it to AJR. A first I was trying to describe it as a crime scene, but then I 'realised' that if I took another look at it, it wasn't a crime scene, but an 'innocent' scene which wasn't as it first appeared. I cannot describe what I mean here, but it was as if I was reminding myself that looks can be deceiving and all was not what it seemed, and required re-interpretation. At this point, I became aware that this was a 'dream fragment', which makes it sound as if this was a successful lucid dream - but even though there was a reference to me being aware this was a dream fragment, I did not experience a lucid dream - more like a semi-lucid dream. The realisation this was a dream fragment was what helped me realise the photograph was deceptive. I cannot recall anything else about this dream, which seemed to only last a couple of minutes.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day before this dream there had been an electrical storm, which caused power cuts. On the day of this dream an electrician had come to my home to check the fuses
A few days before this dream I saw an image of Bungle from Rainbow online
I dreamed of a gun on 25 July 2019 - Dream 1016 -'Returning to PS with Possession of a Gun'. This dream involved my ex-boyfriend, PS (who I just randomly remembered used to have a T-shirt with Bungle on the front of it!)
Date: 26 July 2019 Scene 1: A Post Office Interior - Day I was working in a post office with Anakin Skywalker, who appeared as he does when a Padawan in Star Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002), although in the dream, he was already quite involved with the Dark Side, because he had yellow Sith eyes. The post office was actually called the 'Roast Office'. In the dream, there was no significance to the name of the post office - it did not seem odd and I did not question it. Anakin and I seemed to get along as colleagues - we were talking. but I cannot recall the conversation. The 'boss' entered. This was a white middle-aged male dream character wearing a business suit. He had brown hair and the only thing distinctive about him was the fact that he had a very large balloon-shaped head. He seemed to be in a bad mood with both Anakin and I. He said that we must be careful not to 'spill the beads' - referring to some wrapped gift boxes which apparently contained beads in them. These gift boxes were stacked behind the counter (on the floor) of the Roast Office, and were very square, around the size of 4 Rubix cubes stacked, and wrapped in different colours of shiny wrapping paper (red, blue, yellow, green, pink, purple etc) - there were a large amount of these boxes. Anakin had a can of fizzy drink. He dropped it and it spilled on the wrapped gift boxes containing the beads. Anakin started laughing, but I did not find this funny as I knew we would get in trouble for this. I was called out from behind the counter to speak to the boss about the spilled drink ruining the gift boxes. We sat beside one another on a bench which was beside the window (I could see it was a sunny day outside - I also recall seeing trees). The boss was leaning into me very closely, which felt threatening. He began telling me off for the fizzy drink spilling on the gift boxes, even though this was Anakin's fault, not mine. I looked up at Anakin, who was still behind the counter (I could not see any customers at this time, nor had I previously). Anakin was smirking in a smug way, because he was not in trouble for his accident, I was. I was frustrated and angry at both Anakin and my boss, because I was innocent. My boss was still leering at me, very closely. He told me that the matter was going to go to court and I would be sentenced to a long period of imprisonment unless I took a plea bargain (we don't have plea bargaining in the UK, although you can negotiate a deal which we used to refer to as 'carving up' the case - pleading to certain matters on an agreed basis, so that lesser matters get dropped etc). I was very anxious and worried about the prospect of a criminal conviction. I went behind the counter again, in a very bad mood. I used my mobile phone to call AJR to tell him about what happened. AJR reassured me that no action could be taken against me because the gift boxes of beads were illegal and contained 'hot gas and asbestos'. This calmed me down and I felt relieved. I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.
Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
This dream also took place during a Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#6, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this was not a successful dream incubation
'Roast Office' could be a play on words as AJR had asked me to post some Legal Aid forms to him after a mix up with some post - this requires me to go to the Post Office. At the same time there has also been an extreme heatwave in the UK - and AJR has been working outside with no sun protection (and sensitive skin, which has not had much sun exposure for many years), meaning he now has drastic sunburn and blistering/rash. The Roast Office might also have been a reference to Anakin Skywalker being burned on Mustafar in Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005)
A couple of days before this dream I had a conversation with a friend, GR about him going to an event in London where Hayden Christensen would be in attendance. In the same conversation, we discussed different flavours of Coke and which ones we preferred
Looking back on this dream, the boss resembled Steve Carell playing Michael Scott in the American version of The Office, which I have been binge-watching recently
A couple of days before this dream I was watching an (unrecalled) Youtube video which referenced the relatively recent Claire's (Accessories) scandal where children's makeup products were found to contain asbestos
Date: 25 July 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day I woke up recalling this dream very vividly, but due to the fact I fell back asleep quickly after waking up and recalling it, I have since forgotten a lot of detail. In the dream I was with a number of dream characters, some of whom I know from real life. One of them was SHL, a girl who I went to primary and high school with. I was unhappy that SHL was present, but I did not know why. Something about her presence made me feel uncomfortable. I then saw that PS was present, and I was back in a relationship with him, but he was very hesitant and did not seem to want to be with me. I got the impression that he had 'grown apart from me' and wanted to end our relationship. I also realised that we had previously broken up, and spent some time apart, before getting back together again. I also realised that the reason I had a problem with SHL was because PS was close friends with her, and I was jealous, assuming that he wanted to be with her instead of me. There was a lot of negativity connected to this dream. I remember having conversation and moving around with PS (maybe we walked together?) but cannot recall specifically what we discussed. I just recall that it seemed like we were disagreeing or arguing. I also noticed that PS's trousers were worn very high up, with a brown leather belt (when we were dating, he always wore his trousers extremely low - below his butt cheeks). I cannot recall what else happened at this time in the dream, but at some point I realised that I had possession of a gun, which was in my waistband. It was a handgun - I think it was a revolver, because it had a short barrel. It was a goldish colour and felt heavy. I was worried when I noticed I had the gun in my possession, because my worry was that I would get caught by the police and arrested for possession of a firearm. I must have told PS that I had a gun, or he became aware, because he refused to help me. It felt as if he was abandoning or betraying me in some way and I was more upset now. I cannot recall anything else about this dream. Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day of this dream I had seen a photograph featuring SHL on someone else's (RR's) Instagram account (it was photograph of her dressed up as 'Ginger Spice' (Geri Halliwell) in Spice Girls, taken at Cromer Carnival sometime in the 1990s. Note that PS's mum CJS has ginger hair. I had also seen my friend GR who has ginger hair on the day of this dream
On the day of this dream I had referred to the period of time when I had been living in London with PS, while in a telephone conversation with AJR's mum, HT
On the day of this dream I had made a video for my Youtube channel, and referred to me previously wearing my own trousers very low. I also watched a movie review of The Visit (2015) which references the male child character wearing his trousers very low because he is a 'rapper'
I had recently referred to 2 incidents involving guns in Youtube videos - one incident took place at the home I shared with PS - when we were victim of an armed robbery (nothing was stolen and the weapon shown to me might have been a replica, it was in the waistband of one of the gang attempting to rob us) - and on the day before this dream, I had a dream involving robbery in a different context - see 'Dream 1015 - 'Robbery of my Boyfriend's Sidepiece While he Dreams of a Pigeon'
'Robbery of my Boyfriend's Sidepiece While he Dreams of a Pigeon'
Date: 24 July 2019 DREAM #1 Scene 1: A Large Interior - Time Unknown This dream seemed to take place in the same location, which was a large interior, very reminiscent (looking back with hindsight) to a prison-themed game I started playing on Roblox. It was on one level and very spacious, with grey walls and not much furniture or decor. You could walk around corners, some of which were quite dark and had benches or other very basic items (chairs etc). The location also seemed reminiscent of a high school corridor too. I was with EW (an 18 or 19 year old white male, who was a former friend of my friend AK and therefore someone I was on fairly friendly terms with). There was some kind of party going to be held in this building. EW and I were walking around, not in a particularly happy mood. Something (I cannot recall what) was bothering/troubling us and we were walking in a somewhat confused, directionless way. I recall EW having a red backpack and a white T-shirt. I walked off by myself and turned a corner, to find AJR lying on a bench/bed built into the wall. Sat astride him - in a sexual way, although both were clothed - was my colleague VV (Italian postgraduate student). They were to my left. This area very much reminded me of my old high school corridor. It was quite dark in this area too. I was horrified that AJR was cheating on me with VV. He had a very stupid, dreamy look on his face. In the dream I realised that this meant that he was wishing to own a pigeon - and this led me to the conclusion that he wasn't really cheating on me with VV, doing sexual things with her symbolised him 'wanting a pigeon'. However, I was still not happy, if a little relieved that he didn't want to have sex with VV for the purpose of sexual fulfilment. I wanted to get revenge on VV. I grabbed her by her hair and pulled her off AJR, to the ground. I then demanded she give me all of her cannabis and money - I robbed her. I felt extremely powerful and pleased. AJR also seemed pleased with me, and I told him in a forceful way: 'I'm not a mug'. This seemed to be a very positive aspect of the dream. I then went to find EW again. We ended up in what was a very yellow room down the hallway, which had a table in it. The yellow might have been lighting and/or the colour of the walls. I saw a fern hanging on the wall for decor and this made me aware that this was a kitchen/dining area. I somehow become aware that HT (AJR's mum) had been in the Magistrates Court for a motoring offence (reckless or dangerous driving - however, HT's mum does not drive). I don't think HT was present, I think I found out some other way. I was able to see the Prosecution (CPS) papers (I may have had the actual papers or I might have seen these on my mobile phone screen - I seem to recall it being the latter). The papers were also yellow and were written out like text messages (although it is often a huge dream sign to try and read text in a dream, I recall the words looking 'normal' in this dream. Here is my article 'Reading in Dreams' and here is another on 'An Introduction to Dream Speech'). The text was very large and in a weird font - like a 'Halloween' or 'creepy/spooky' font, with slightly jagged edges, which could be used to brand a horror-themed product. The text was in the centre of the 'page' and had large gaps between each sentence/paragraph, which meant not much fit on each page. I think I was reading these from my mobile phone, as I think I 'scrolled' to flick through the 'pages'. The text represented the submissions from the Prosecution/CPS lawyer, who I knew was a male (I am not sure how - maybe I recognised his name on the 'papers'). he submissions were just a series of extremely bad language - swearing and threats. The word 'fucking' appeared a lot. I was horrified that the Prosecution/CPS lawyer would be using such extreme and unnecessary language and display such terrible, deeply unprofessional conduct in court and I was very anxious to make a phone call to discuss what had happened, as I felt in shock. I think I might have been calling HT. Whoever I spoke to on the telephone (I cannot recall who it was) told me to look at the last 'paper' - I saw that the text on this page was multicoloured and appeared to be 'digital' as it flickered, like text on a TV screen which had been distorted (look at the thumbnails for the 'Zombieface Horrorshow Series' of videos on my Youtube channel - in particular, the text reading 'Weird Childhood Vol.1' - this is what the text looked like, but the 'horror-style' font, and less stretched/distorted. I realised that due to the Prosecutor's behaviour during the court case (trial), the charges against HT had been dismissed. I was very pleased and relieved about this. I then woke up. I was still very sleepy and I wanted to return to this dream, so I continued to visualise the last scene as I fell back asleep. This worked! This is a very basic form of 'dream chaining' although I did not induce a lucid dream this way (the technique for that it known as Dream Exit-Induced Lucid Dreaming of DEILD - I haven't written a dedicated post for DEILD yet, but I did refer to the OBE-Exit Technique in this article and also described a dream chaining experience in Dream 689 - 'My Weirdest Dream Experience' (NIGHTMARE, FALSE AWAKENING, SLEEP PARALYSIS,OBE-EXIT TECHNIQUE, LUCID DREAM, DREAM-CHAINING)'). DREAM #2 Scene 1: A Large Interior - Time Unknown I found myself back in the interior building, in the grey space (corridor-like) which I had been in in Scene 1 of DREAM #1. I 'knew' that I had returned to somewhere I had been before, as if I knew I had intended to come back to this place, but I was not consciously aware that I was dreaming, and therefore this was not a lucid dream, just some successful dream-chaining and a fairly vivid dream experience. I was aware that there was a large, dangerous wolf loose in the building and this made me feel panicked. I knew that I had to find EW to warn him to 'hide his chipmunks' (it seemed that he had pet chipmunks with him, which would be at risk of being killed by the wolf). I did not see the wolf, the chipmunks or EW, but I felt a sense of panic. I began walking alone through the grey part of the building. I saw other dream characters (unrecalled). At the end of one of the corridors was a cello player - male, but cannot recall any other details about him. I cannot recall anything else about this dream. Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
On the day of this dream I had watched a Youtube video by Laura Lee in which she mentioned adopting her niece, who has the same first name as EW
On the day of this dream I wrote a Facebook comment, defining the legal meaning of robbery
AJR and I have a joke about birds - he owns 2 budgies and he always says that he wants to cross-breed them with a chicken to make a 'budgen'
A few days before this dream I had a discussion with DL about Lil Yachty who had mixed up a cello and clarinet in his lyrics for Peek A Boo (where he says 'she blow that dick like a cello')
'Tranakin Skywalker (Instagram Influencer), Neil Breen (Incompetent ICE Agent) & Manny MUA Being Problematic - A Trio of Terrible People'
Date: 23 July 2019 Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day I don't know where I was when this dream began, but I think I was inside an interior location. I was with Anakin Skywalker from Star Wars(i.e. Hayden Christensen). Despite him being my real life crush, in the dream I did not fancy him or even like him, because he was really annoying and intense. He seemed awkward and creepy, but not dangerous. Just someone you wouldn't want to be friends with. I cannot recall what we discussed, but I had a clear recollection of being annoyed and irritated. Anakin told me that he wanted to become transgender so that he could become famous as an Instagram influencer. I am not sure that I questioned it in the dream, but looking back now I am awake, it did not seem like he was saying he was a woman - more than he was purposefully trying to become transgender for the sake of it. Anakin said that we should find a doctor or I knew he wanted to find a doctor. I am not sure how we tried to contact a doctor, because the next section of this dream appeared to be like a movie - as if I was watching it from a removed, third-party perspective, like I wasn't present alongside the other dream characters. I am not sure if Anakin saw it from this perspective, as later we discussed what we saw as if we both viewed the same thing? (see below). The movie scene played out as the following: I saw my Mum walking into a shower room, which was all very clean, white tiles - and had a lot of steam. My Mum was wrapped in a white towel. I saw this from a position behind my Mum - looking in through the open doorway of the shower room. Cut to another scene - by a brick wall. There is a girl - who I do not recognise in real life - and I am not sure if I knew her in the dream. I remember thinking she looked/seemed 'cool'. If I had to describe her I would say she looks like Audrey Tautou in Amelie (2001) or Noomi Rapace (or rather, the way I thought Noomi Rapace looks with short, dark hair - upon searching for images of her now, I am not quite sure why she was the person who first sprung to mind when recalling this dream. I thought about Audrey Tautou after reconsidering the way the girl looked). I knew the girl was a musician and to me she seemed very 'Bohemian' and arty. She was wearing grunge-style clothes, I cannot recall specifics, but I remember thinking she had good fashion. She had an instrument with her, I cannot recall what it was as it was in a case and I cannot remember the shape. The girl was sitting on the ground. I cannot recall the scenery or weather. I then saw her getting off a train in an old-fashioned, or at least, grand and traditional-looking, train station, where the dominant colour was gold or bronze - highly decorative walls and ceiling. It also gave me the impression of a grand hall of some kind as everything seemed really ornate. I realised it was Christmas, as there was a large decorated Christmas tree in the building, this stretching up to the ceiling. It had baubles, tinsel and fairy lights on it. There were a large number of other dream characters present - which also made it feel like a large public space. It felt like I was watching this scene from above, somewhere near the roof, looking down at the girl from an angle. I noticed that she was wearing brown leather lace-up shows with white socks and a black mid-calf length skirt. I thought this outfit was 'one of her worst' and had a strong reaction of dislike and disappointment in her shoe choice. Someone called to the girl from behind, and I saw Neil Breen running towards her. He was dressed as an old Hollywood leading man - in a smart suit with a long overcoat and a hat. I knew he was an ICE Agent (USA Immigration and Customs Enforcement), but I also knew he was the doctor that Anakin and I were trying to contact. The man seemed to know the girl and he said something to her. He then lunged towards her and kissed her breasts, which were large, with a lot of cleavage on show, as she was wearing a black dress, with a low neckline (with a brown coat on top, I recall seeing her outfit clearly throughout this scene). Neil Breen seemed to 'wipe' his mouth across her cleavage for a long time, and I remember thinking this was one of the grossest things I had ever witnessed. The girl was shocked and upset at the sexual assault. I then realised that Neil Breen had been under investigation within ICE because he was 'incompetent' and had permitted vast quantities of Xanax to be trafficked into the USA illegally. It then cut back to me talking to Anakin about Neil Breen as a doctor. I said he should not trust Neil Breen to perform gender-reassignment surgery - this was based on what we knew from the scene with the girl (which makes me think we had both watched the same thing as Anakin was also aware of Neil Breen's history). Anakin was fretting and was still being annoying in his behaviour - there was a lot of 'indecision'. I think he was pacing about. I told him he should ask people on Instagram what they thought, because it appeared Anakin was already an Instagram influencer to some extent. Anakin said that Manny MUA (Manuel Gutierrez) could perform the gender-reassignment surgery for free if we went out with him to eat octopus. I knew the octopus would be served raw and I did not want to go to eat it. I am not sure how Anakin contacted Manny MUA, as I did not experience that part of the dream, or I do not recall it. Manny MUA was going to do Anakin's gender-reassignment surgery bit-by-bit, taking each section of his body, starting with 'hair and makeup'. I remember feeling uneasy about this, but I am not sure why. I cannot recall if anything else happened in between the scenes of this dream, as it seems to jump to after Anakin had the gender-reassignment surgery from Manny MUA, and I feel like I might have met Manny MUA in the dream - but I actually cannot even recall definitely seeing him! Anakin came into a room, through a white door. I distinctively remember the door had gloss paint on it and it being shiny. Anakin was now a trans-woman, but I could not see her body as she was wearing Anakin's brown Jedi robes fromStar Wars: Episode II - Attack of the Clones (2002). Anakin now had longer hair, which was very 'bouffant', and very '1980s' makeup (blue eyeshadow, a lot of blusher, bright pink lipstick). I thought she looked out of style and wondered how she was going to be an Instagram influencer with that style. Anakin told me that Manny MUA was suing me because I had refused to eat the octopus with him. Anakin's expression was 'smug' or patronising - she seemed pleased to tell me this. I felt enraged and betrayed by Anakin and said I was going to expose Manny MUA for fraud (pretending to be a doctor? doing bad hair/makeup on Anakin? not sure what I was exposing) - this felt like a good idea and a way of making things right. I decided I would do this through 'Royal Channels' which was a TV show hosted by Neil Breen and involved people telephoning during a live broadcast to receive counselling about personal matters. I cannot recall anything else about this dream. Additional Notes:
This dream took place during the period in which I am testing the Awoken Lucid Dreaming App - please click HERE to read my introductory post which provides all relevant information about this app which is designed to help you train your mind for lucid dream induction!
I think about Anakin Skywalker all the time and he is the screensaver on my phone
The day of this dream I had been involved in a Facebook discussion about transphobia in comments sections
On the day of this dream I had been rewatching some of my favourite online movie reviews - one of them was of Stephen King's IT (1990) - the TV mini-series - I distinctly recall the review mentioned the shower scene where Pennywise first introduces himself to Eddie. I had also been watching reviews of Neil Breen movies. While on the subject of things I had watched online the day of this dream which obviously influenced it in terms of Day Residue, I had watched some drama channels discussing Manny MUA's most recent 'dramas' (specifically, the fact he is late in launching a summer palette). I had also began watching the US version of The Office - and saw the Christmas episode from Season 2 on the day of this dream, which features a Christmas tree
I mentioned Noomi Rapace in a conversation with DL a few days before this dream - in the context of her role in A Nightmare on Elm Street (2010) remake - he did not correct me at the time, but I have just realised from searching for the Wikipedia link to the movie, that all this time, when I had Noomi Rapace in my mind - not only as the person I mistook to be in A Nightmare on Elm Street (2010), but also as the person the girl in this dream resembled - I actually meant Rooney Mara! So, my subconscious, dreaming mind made the same mistake as my conscious one!
I had seen a lot of online discussions about the controversies surrounding the operation of ICE
On the link between ICE and a corrupt doctor - a few days before this dream, I had seen an online discussion in which people were comparing ICE detention facilities with Nazi concentration camps. In a separate conversation with DL around this time, Dr Josef Mengele, the SS Officer and Chief Physician at Auschwitz, who performed human experimentation
I had a (telephone) conversation with AJR about sexual assault the day of this dream (or at least the word 'nonce' was mentioned, which has connotations of sexual misconduct)
I saw a video thumbnail of a girl eating an octopus and also saw a clip of Belle Delphine playing with an octopus/squid a couple of days before this dream
On the day of this dream I had been finding and following a lot of Instagram accounts themed around old Hollywood, vintage fashion etc - I saw male Hollywood movie stars wearing the kind of outfit seen on Neil Breen in this dream. In fact, Neil Breen and the girl may have been influenced by stars such as Humphrey Bogart (1899 - 1957) and Audrey Hepburn (1929 - 1993) as I saw photographs of both these old Hollywood stars on the day of this dream, and Neil Breen's outfit resembled Bogart's classic look, and the girl did resemble Hepburn. I also saw the kind of hair/makeup seen on Anakin, on some 1970s/1980s themed accounts
Thinking about the mix of exposing drama and counselling/therapy - I had watched some Youtube videos criticising Rewired Soul which is ostensibly a 'therapy' and mental health channel (despite the creator not being a qualified therapist, although I am not sure if he actually claims to be a professional or not), yet descended into drama/commentary, which was generally considered to be problematic
