Dream 1068 ('The Dogtooth Incident')

'The Dogtooth Incident'

Date: 26 March 2020

Sleep times: Unknown

Dream type: Normal/Dream Fragment

Scene 1

Location: A Promenade

Time: Day

I was standing on a typical British promenade (seafront), looking over the sea wall at the ocean. It was a sunny day. I was with AJR. I cannot recall what was said other than he turned to me and said words to the effect of: 'I wish you'd shut up about Dogtooth'.

• This dreams relates to the movie Dogtooth (2009) which is Greek. The reference to me 'shutting up' about Dogtooth is a direct reference to the fact that I was planning to make a Youtube video (see below) about what I call 'Dogtooth Incident' which goes as follows. A few weeks or even months ago, AJR were talking on the phone and having a normal conversation about our taste in movies, TV, music, books, art etc. To summarise, I was telling him that anything he likes I am unlikely to like, as his taste is mainstream and basic. I was being pretentious and saying I like world and art house cinema and abstract art and meta stuff etc. AJR said he does not like subtitled movies as he is dyslexic and cannot be bothered to try to read. I then said that I wished he would expand his tastes more and at that moment, a thought popped into my brain at random: I wish AJR could watch Dogtooth. I am not even sure why I would think that, as there many other movies I would have chosen before that. At the same moment, AJR said: 'I saw a movie called Dogtooth once'. I find this really weird as I cannot imagine that movie being shown and AJR turning on and watching enough of it to get interested in the plot - especially since it would be a post-watershed film (so shown after 21:00 hours), and he gets an early night. Take into account it is unlikely to be a movie screened regularly on UK terrestrial TV, so the chances of him actually tuning it at the right time randomly was also slim. It felt like he was reading my mind.

Dream 1067

'Transgender Boyfriend'

Date: 3 February 2020

Sleep times: Unknown

Dream type: Normal

Scene 1

Location: An unknown exterior

Time: Day

I have forgotten the majority of this dream. The only part I can recall is that I was standing in a circle of people - I think I knew them (i.e. they represented people known to me in real life), but I cannot recall who was there. We were outside and it was daytime, but I have no idea as to the location.

A person entered the circle of people, and stood in the middle. This person was clearly biologically male, but was dressed as a female, although not convincingly. I realised that it was my boyfriend AJ and he/she/they (I do not know what pronouns to use as AJ is a 'he' in real life) was now a transwoman. Their hair was shoulder-length, fluffy and blonde. They had poorly applied makeup - with bad blue eyeshadow and pink lipstick. They were wearing a long skirt and a high-necked top (I thought they was dressed modestly) and was clutching a handbag in both hands. They began to dance wildly and erratically in the centre of the circle of people, while we all held hands. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

• I cannot identify any relevant influences (i.e. day residue) for this dream. I have forgotten significant detail about this dream. However, I do read (and often talk) about LGBTQ+ issues on a daily basis and I had discussed a transwoman who is serving the same type of sentence as AJ and experiences great challenges within a male prison.

Dream 1043

'Rejection by my Ex'

Date: 16 December 2019

Sleep times: 22:30 - 07:10 hours

Dream type: Normal

Scene 1

Location: A house belonging to my ex-boyfriend's family

Time: Unknown

I was in a domestic interior, which in the dream was the home of my ex-boyfriend, PS. This was not his real-life house in London. He lived in this home with his mum and his 2 sisters, as he did when I lived with them. There was some conversation with PS's younger sister, JGH. I cannot recall what the conversation was about, other than it involved their mother, CJS. 

I wanted to get back together with PS - it appeared that I was single in the dream, or at least there was no notion that I was already in a relationship or was cheating on my real-life boyfriend. PS told me he had experienced serious mental health issues and as a result, he was unable to rekindle our relationship. I felt rejected and abandoned.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

I cannot identify any relevant influences (i.e. day residue) for this dream. I have forgotten significant detail about this dream.

Dream 1042

'Codface Shopping Trip'

Date: 15 December 2019

Sleep times: 01:00 - 09:30 hours

Dream type: Normal

Scene 1

Location: Unknown interior

Time: Unknown

I was in an unknown interior which seemed quite dark. I cannot recall any specific details about the location. I was with my Mum and her friend CC - there may have been other dream characters present, but I cannot recall. I saw CC's face up close, looking at me disapprovingly. I felt like I had failed at something, but I cannot recall what this was. 

I had seen a post on Facebook by CC's daughter, and thought that she has aged to look a lot like her mum.

Scene 2

Location: A street in a city/town

Time: Day

I was in a street which was in a city or town, but not one which I recognise from real life. I was standing with my Mum and perhaps some other unrecalled dream characters. I was looking at a shop which appeared to be a clothing boutique, but one which sold very cheap clothing. I was looking at the sign. I then looked at the window displays and saw that the clothing in the shop was mainly very cheap, poor-quality evening wear - sparkly mini-dresses and suchlike. I entered the shop and found that it was an outlet store which sold end-of-line or catalogue returns at a low price. There were a number of dream character customers browsing the shop. I began to wander around and I found that the shop was quite sparsely stocked. I had a memory (within the dream) that this shop used to have eclectic and varied stock and now it had limited items, which were all the same and very low quality. I picked up a yellow, cropped hooded top and without trying it on, knew that it was too small for me. I then realised that all the clothing sold in the shop was too small. I complained about this to either my Mum or an unrecalled member of staff in the shop. I recall looking at the counter and seeing that the cashier was a male dream character, but cannot recall any further details about him. I also recall discovering another section of the shop (which was L-shaped) where a range of cheap, ugly handbags were being sold. I felt disappointed by the shop.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

This shop appears to be based on a similar shop I used to frequent in Sheringham, which was called 'Ivans' and thereafter 'Wardrobe Warehouse'. When I was a child or a young teenager, the shop had a huge range of cheap clothing in a diverse range of style and quality and I was a frequent customer as you could find some real bargains, which were on-trend or at least from the previous season. There were a number of one-off items as well as larger collections. When management of the shop changed (and perhaps buying habits meant less people were buying clothing from catalogues), the shop began selling limited stock (not on-trend, mass-manufactured and poor-quality) and lost all popularity. The day before this dream I had seen a post on a Facebook group which shares design fails - there was a photograph of a clothing boutique with a very poorly designed sign. I remember looking at this photo and noticing the dresses in the window display. The angle I observed the shop from in the dream mirrored the view of the photograph.

Previous dreams:

Dream 254: 'Thuggin', Freddie Gibbs & the Little Shop of Horrible Clothes' (3 June 2014) - This dream featured the Wardrobe Warehouse shop and my disappointment at the clothes sold there.

Dreams 1036 - 1041

I have taken a looong break from my Dreamwork, which has resulted in me not posting here or making videos (nor posting on my social media at all, other than my private Facebook, which is not linked to my writing or social media ventures in any event). I hate it when I lapse in my Dreamwork, because I lose all motivation to even write up the dreams I do recall, and as a result I have a number of remembered dreams floating around in my memory, without the precise information I like to include when recording my dreams here on this Blog. That deters me from sharing those dreams - which is counterintuitive in any event, as it makes me avoidant of consistent posting, or even making a fresh start. 

Today I decided I needed to 'break the ice' and begin posting on here again - and hopefully making Youtube videos. I have no real excuse for the break in making content - I have been working really hard, in legal practice, teaching, student services and (not to much) my own academic work. I also support my boyfriend, AJ who is in prison. 

The following dreams are not recorded as accurately and in as much detail as I would like. I often do not have the full memory of the dream (so I have recorded the dream fragments I have recalled) or the date and circumstances in which these dreams took place. I know I have recalled a large number of dreams in the past few months which I have since forgotten because I did not record them in a timely manner. These dreams are not recorded in the correct order - I have maintained my usual numbering system so that it retains the style and consistency of my Blog.

My future posts will be of an improved quality moving forward.

Dream 1036

'Warden Work'

Scene 1: An Office Interior - Time Unknown
I cannot recall the first part of this dream. I do recall telling AJR about this dream in real life, the day after it happened. I remember there was a scene, which changed to the part I do still recall. AJR and I were sitting around a large, orangey-brown polished wooden table, where there was some kind of board meeting related to my work for Student Support Services at university. AJR was taking an active role, and I felt this was odd and inappropriate (it appeared AJR was released from prison) - however no-one else thought his presence and participation was weird, and everyone seemed to accept his ideas as being the best ones put forward. I cannot recall anything else.

Dream 1037

'Skull Bite'

Scene 1: An Dark Unknown Domestic Interior - Night
I was in a dark interior - which seemed to be a lounge/living-room. I could not see much in the room, I was aware that I was sitting in a hard, high-backed armchair and that opposite me was a window with leaded panels - old-fashioned. It reminded me of a lantern (?) I could see it was night outside - I think I saw the moon or streetlight shining in the window because I could also see a male dream character standing outside looking in. He looked like a Victorian gentleman in a tall hat and a long jacket, but everything about him seemed pointy or spiky, giving him the impression of being evil. I saw his beard and nose was pointy - but I could not see his face clearly due to it being very dark. I was then aware that I was in a city and the house I was in belonged to my best friend DL and was a high-rise flat. 

I then became aware that a witch was sending in a floating skull to bite my hand. I could not avoid this happening - it was some sort of challenge, and I had to endure it. I was quite accepting of this and remained seated. I did not want a floating skull to bite my hand, and I was quite afraid, but I was resigned to the fact I was obliged. The floating skull came in through the closed window. It was transparent - like a hologram - and the same size as an adult human skull. It drifted down to the left side where my hand was hanging beside the armchair. It bit me. I felt the teeth of the skull clamp down on my hand and was surprised that I didn't think it hurt that much. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 1038

'Saying Goodbye to Dead Dogs'

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I cannot recall what happened in this dream. I only recall the narrative of what I consider to be 'the main part' because it upset me so much, and during an emotional crisis, I told my friend LD* (I simply cannot work out if I refer to my best friend LD as LD1 or LD2 in this Blog - this is relevant as the other person with the same initials is someone I do not want to confuse with my friend) about this dream and the impact it had on me. I also had a conversation about the subject matter of this dream with someone else. The context is, when I was with my ex-boyfriend PS in 2007/8 - 2012, we had a dog, N (an orange-coloured Staffordshire Bull Terrier, allegedly crossed with a Rhodesian Ridgeback). I have always been aware that I will never know when and how N's life will end - because I am no longer in touch with PS. This means that one day N will die - perhaps he has already died, as this is highly possible - and I will be ignorant of the fact, despite raising him from a puppy and him being such a huge part of my life during a mental breakdown. It hurts me to look at photographs of him. Further I also have a memory of my ex-boyfriend PS telling me that he wanted to give his (formerly our) dog N away some time after we broke up, as he didn't have the time to care for him. I cannot imagine this is a memory of a real life event, so I assume this conversation occurred in a dream (I can research this Blog for further clues) - it frustrates and upsets me that I cannot remember. 

The dream involved N being dead and coming to visit me (he looked real and alive, not like a ghost) to say 'goodbye' to me. We sat under some draped fabric (like a tent or den) and I hugged N for ages, crying.

Dream 1039 (LUCID DREAM)

'Don't Look Out of the Windows'
Scene 1: An Unknown Domestic Interior - Night

I was in an unknown domestic interior and it was night. AJR's mum, HT was present. She was warning me and a number of unrecalled dream characters (perhaps 2 - 4) that we had to keep the curtains closed until the morning. If we looked out of the windows, or the windows were left uncovered in any way, something terrible and evil (undefined in the dream, I do not think it was explained, it appeared to be an ominous mystery to me and the others, even in the dream itself) would happen. I was terrified, as were the other dream characters. I began to draw the curtains of a window in what appeared to be a kitchen/dining area. The curtains had the tabs stitched across the top, where there are hundreds of small hooks (like bra clasps). The tabs/hooks came undone and the curtain began to fall down. With the help of the other dream characters, I began to frantically re-hook the curtains, but it was really difficult and they kept coming undone. I was afraid we would not hang the curtain/cover the window in time (it was already night/dark outside, which seemed illogical now). I was now aware that the world was changed outside the covered window - the world as we knew it disappeared and an alternative, but dangerous world replaced it, which looked like nothing/the end of the world. This only happened at night. I was holding the curtain up to the window, wondering if we would have to stand like this all night. 

I am not sure what happened with the curtain/window. I was now standing in a brightly lit corridor, which was white and empty. I became lucid - I am not sure what triggered my lucidity. I looked towards the end of the corridor and saw an opening/doorway. There were some male dream characters (2 - 3) - white, middle-aged adults, the one at the front had ginger facial hair, but I cannot recall anything else about them. I pointed my fingers at them in a gun gesture and told them I was dreaming and had the power to control the dream. I did this as a warning, as I was unsure of the motives of the male dream characters. I then lost lucidity and cannot recall anything else. 

* The day after this dream I was standing at the window in my house, talking to HT on the phone. She initiated a conversation about curtains randomly (discussing items AJR wanted for his release from prison) - and then referred to tabs/hooks and curtain rings. This was a bizarre coincidence! Upon writing this dream up now, it suddenly occurred to me that I had been listening to a Creepypasta on Youtube which included a plot about a town where no-one was allowed to look out of the windows at night

Dream 1040

'Kylo Ren, Infidelity Moderator'
Scene 1: An Unknown Exterior Location - Day

I was with Kylo Ren (Adam Driver) from Star Wars and my boyfriend, AJR in an outside environment (unrecalled) - it was sunny. We were standing facing one another. I was aware that there was mutual suspicion that either AJR or I had been unfaithful. I knew I had not been unfaithful, but knew AJR suspected I had been. I believed AJR had been unfaithful, but I did not know. Kylo Ren was holding a mobile phone. We knew that depending on what a text message on Kylo Ren's phone said, it would reveal who had been unfaithful. I was sure the text message would indicate it was AJR and I challenged him on this, making him angry. I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Dream 1041

'Parenthood'
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior Location - Day

I was in an unknown interior (maybe it was bedroom, perhaps in a hotel?). I was pregnant and AJR and I were not that excited about the prospect of parenthood. I could not wait for the pregnancy to be over. AJR seemed nonchalant and not really bothered. I was complaining to those present in the room, which appeared to be members of my family, including my Mum. No-one really cared about my concerns. I did not feel anxious or upset, just bored. 

Dream 1041

'Ordinary Dream'
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior Location - Day

I was in a house, which was not my home in the dream. I was standing in a dark corner, watching a large family of dream characters (perhaps about 7 - 8 people ranging in ages) gathered around a large table in a well-lit kitchen area, about 5 meters away from me. They did not seem aware of my presence and were just doing normal things, talking and eating/drinking etc. I cannot recall anything, other than waking up from this dream and having a very clear and strong thought of 'that was a very ordinary/normal dream' which felt positive and reassuring.

Dream 1035

'IDubbbz is Bae & Haunted Beaches'
Date: 30 August 2019

Scene 1: Sheringham Train Station - Day
I was at Sheringham Train Station, in the shelter (see image, below). I do not know what was happening at this time, because I cannot remember. I know it was day and other dream characters were present. I was standing facing into the shelter. Something with sharp teeth clamped it's mouth around my right hand. I do not know what this was at all - I do not know if it is because I do not remember, or because I did not look/know in the dream. It did hurt, but it left me with no injuries, which seemed odd to me, even in the dream. I assume it was an animal which bit me. 

I then became aware that Youtuber, IDubbbz (Ian Carter) was behind me - in his character as 'Content Cop' (see image, below). The Content Cop was a real person - not a fictional character played by IDubbbz, although in the dream, the Content Cop was actually called IDubbbz. He wasn't policing Youtube content - he was the actual police. He was frantically trying to find me because he needed me to help him investigate a 'haunted beach'. I did not want to investigate a haunted beach, but I was strongly attracted to Officer IDubbbz, so I was trying to tell him that we should go and get some food and hang out together. Officer IDubbbz was adamant that the haunted beach had to be investigated there and then - he was treating it as if it was a crime. He said we would have to climb a tree to keep some sort of surveillance of the haunted beach. We ended up walking down the high street to the beach. I was telling Officer IDubbbz that there was no way I could climb a tree and would not do it. It turned out - that exactly as it would be in real life - there were no trees near the beach. IDubbbz said that we could do a stake-out at the old council apartment building, Seacliff, which used to be 'Salty Towers'. This location has appeared in previous dreams as it was a significant place in my younger days. I was happy with this plan, as I thought I could convince Officer IDubbbz to take a break from investigating the haunted beach, and chill with me instead. 

We went into the building and seemed to climb a lot of stairs. It was typical inside - very bare, typical concrete and metal stairs and hallways that you would expect in an apartment building which primarily houses those on benefits or using it as a probation address. I think we went to the fourth floor, but I do not know. We entered a flat, which was just one big room and decorated sparsely in a very dated way - sort of like it hadn't really been redecorated for decades. There was a big window to one side of the room, looking out at the sea, but actually, the beach/sea was a lot closer than it is in real life, as shown in image, below. 

I sat down on a sofa and began to roll a joint. I had a grinder and weed and other necessary items. I did not seem to care that I was with Officer IDubbbz on a criminal investigation stake-out, and Officer IDubbbz did not seem to mind either. H He was standing bent over at the waist, looking out of the window at the beach, using a pair of binoculars. I could see in my mind's eye what he could see through the binoculars - it was just the Sheringham beach as it would normally look. I felt bored because Officer IDubbbz was taking the investigation too seriously and I wanted him to relax with me. Although the scene Officer IDubbbz (and I) had been looking at through the binoculars was daylight, but while sitting in the flat, it seemed to be night. Or at least, the lighting felt like nighttime lighting, whatever I mean by that!

Officer IDubbbz then summonsed me to the window in a panicked and sudden way, which made me jump because I wasn't expecting it and it was silent in the room before that. I cannot recall exactly what he said, but it was 'come and look at this!' sort of thing. I got up to look. I did not look out of the binoculars, I looked out of the window. It still looked like daytime out of the window. There was a ghost on the beach - I cannot say what it looked like much more than a transparent floating white sheet with a vaguely human shape, but not fully formed. Officer IDubbbz told me that the ghost was a heroin dealer and he needed to arrest him now because he 'crosses county lines'. He left the flat quickly, but I remained inside, at the window, looking at the heroin dealer ghost on the haunted beach. Within mere moments, Officer IDubbbz was on the beach with the heroin dealer ghost. He had a shotgun, and he shot the ghost point blank many times. It fell to the sand as if it was an actual formless sheet, and Officer IDubbbz kicked it into the sea. 

I woke up.


Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had read a post on Facebook, where someone was venting about pitbull owners who are vocal about how calm and loving their dogs are - stating that a pitbull mauling a child is very likely
• I had been watching IDubbbz videos a lot before this dream, and I find him very attractive. Many of the references in this dream (the beach, climbing trees, shooting something with a shotgun etc) are direct references to IDubbbz, and in particular scene from his Content Cop series
• Seacliff, or Salty Towers actually appeared in Dream 1000 - 'Choosing the Love of My Life in a Dream'
• When I was in the stake-out flat with IDubbbz, I felt a weir familiarity of that flat, but I am not sure that it was definitely somewhere I had visited in Salty Towers. I have 2 random, but seemingly associated memories which seem linked to this flat. One of them is being in a flat at some point during my teenage years, when I was still living in Sheringham. However, I think this flat might have been in Cromer instead (note my friend DL just visited Cromer). I also have a vague recollection that it might have been during Cromer Carnival (note I had been discussing Cromer Carnival with 2 friends in different contexts around the time of this dream). I also think that a girl (MJ) might have been present (perhaps it was her flat? I think this might have been around the age of 17/18 years old) or maybe she was just there. She was an exceptionally strange girl, who was in social services care and used to be sexually inappropriate from a very young age - she used to touch other children and make obscene remarks. She was probably abused. My family knew her mum who had issues. Her dad and 2 brothers lived with the biological dad of all the children, opposite my home in Sheringham. MJ has had a very chaotic and messy life. Aside from this vague memory, I also had the associated one of sitting around a large table at school - I think it may have been primary school. One boy, at the end of the table is the focus of this memory. I think the book area (a small area with beanbags and bookshelves) was behind us. I do not know if this is a real memory or just a sort of constructed one, but it seems vague and vivid at the same time (I know that is contradictory, but I know what I mean - it seems like a real memory of a moment in time, which is weirdly significant for no reason I can remember)
• AJ and I had briefly discussed something which involved someone who had been involved in 'county line' drug dealing

Dream 1034

'HMP Goodtimes & Bad Times'

Date: 17 August 2019
Scene 1: A Prison - Day
I was in a prison - I was sitting in what I thought might be the visits hall, with my Mum, at one of the tables. The room was very brightly lit and the table was round and wooden (so not resembling a real life visits hall). I was discussing something with my Mum, but I cannot recall what it was. There was the sense that something was going to upset my boyfriend AJR - and I had to deal with it. I then got up and walked over to a small legal visits room, in which there was a prisoner, who was my client in the dream. He was a tall, light-skinned black male, quite large and wearing a bandana and blue overalls. He was angry, but I am not sure why. He was not threatening, but he was shouting and directing it at me. I did no feel worried. The prisoner stormed out of the legal visits room - into the main visits hall, where my Mum was still sat (and a number of other dream characters were present). He shouted, but this time in a happy way: 'Tell AJR I'm going to HMP Good Times!' I knew this would upset AJR as he wanted to be transferred to HMP Good Times, and this prisoner was taking his place.

Scene 2: An Unknown Exterior - Day
I was then outside, standing next to a red brick wall, which was slightly higher than me. It was daytime and sunny. I was using a mobile phone, and was trying to contact AJR - who also seemed to be a composite of my him and my ex-boyfriend PS, who I was with when I first met AJR in real life. I knew AJR had a mobile phone and a Whatsapp account, but when I tried to message him, I saw he had blocked me. This made me very upset, as I knew this meant he had broken up with me. I then 'remembered' he had another Whatsapp account and tried to find that one, butt then discovered I was blocked on that also. I wa devastated and began trying to find someone to ask for help. I recall talking to another dream character, or maybe even several, and walking around in a state of panic, but I cannot recall exactly what happened in this scene, up until there was a change.

I was now able to stand and reach the top of the wall. I was standing there, and had an eyeshadow palette. I was trying to grind a marble into sparking dust, to add to the eyeshadow and customise it (with crushed glass!) I thought it would make the eyeshadow look like a galaxy. I did not know which shade of eyeshadow to add the crushed marble powder to - I considered the matte white, but 'did not want to ruin such a useful shade'. I then considered a very pale, neutral, creamy-beige nude tone, but also concluded I did not want to 'pollute' that shade with the marble powder. I decided to add it to purple, because that was a colour I'd rarely use. 

Additional Notes:

• The angry prisoner dream character is probably inspired by a real life situation where a client was recently aggressive to me - I did not tell AJR, but he eventually found out via another client
• The reference to 'Good Times' relates to the management company of the same name which worked with Tana Mongeau on the notoriously disastrous TanaCon event
• I had a significant dream about marbles recently - Dream 1033 - 'Murdering 'This Man' in a Rape Scenario' (AMAZING LUCID DREAM!)

Dream 1032

'Rocking Horses & Confusing Repetitions'

Date: 14 August 2019
Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior with AJR and some other dream characters, who I cannot recall. We were sitting on the floor. A male dream character entered - he was tall and very thin, but I cannot remember any other details about him, as he appeared to be in the distance - at the far end of the room. He raised his arm and a big wooden children's rocking horse (painted white with pale pink and blue flowers painted on the rockers) appeared above us. I was worried that the rocking horse would fall on our heads, but as I looked up at it, I realised it was actually a number of babies' cribs - all the same design - painted white with the flowers. 

I then saw an image of my Nan's face, multiple times against a blue, illuminated background. These faces formed a circle/ring and I realised that my Nan's face actually symbolised the face of a clock - this was an abstract thought process I cannot describe. I then saw a pair of leather boots - sort of mid-shin length and made of white leather. I thought to myself (abstractly): 'it will be easier to repeat this image'.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• I have no idea what influenced the imagery or events of this dream!

Dream 1031 (MY DREAM TOWN APPEARS!)

'Bowling Green, Sudsbury'

Date: 13 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior, which was like we were in the hollows of a huge tree, as all the walls, floors and ceilings were made of gnarled dark wood, and uneven in appearance - very rustic and cosy. There was light. I was wandering around this strange interior, which had no furniture (all seating was carved into out of the wooden material - so there were no 'additional' fixtures of fittings. In a 'hallway' I saw a dog, which was a large grey greyhound type of dog. I perceived the dog to be unfriendly, so I did not approach it.

I walked into a different room, which had seating. There were a number of other dream characters in this area, including my Mum, Nan and cousin HM and my boyfriend AJR. I am not sure if I remember any of the other dream characters, so cannot say if they were known to me in real life. AJR told me that the room was 'contaminated' by dead bats. This horrified me and I said that we should go outside to get into the fresh air. Our party got up to leave - I cannot recall where my family members went after we started to leave.

Scene 2: A Bowling Green, 'My Dream Town' - Late Afternoon
It felt like leaving the interior, was 'coming up' to the surface, like we had been underground, but I am not sure why, as we did not climb any stairs - we walked through a door, which made me think of the past. I do not know how to describe this, because it wasn't as if the door was particularly 'historical' and neither was the surrounding area. It just gave me an impression of halls/doors from my childhood, or just before I was born - as perceived from images I've seen of the 1970s. It was a very vivid, impressionistic and comforting feeling, and quite abstract. I just thought, this is what bureaucracy used to be like - this is what public building entrance halls and doors looked like (in approx. 1970s - 1990s). The entrance was very beige and had blocky wooden furniture - only really a desk as far as I saw. Everything looked very 'solid' and official. There was a dado-rail around the room. It looked worn and not especially well-maintained, but very tidy. The door was very large and painted a maroon/burgundy colour. It also had a very solid, official feel. The entrance and door felt institutional. This whole part of the dream scene was very significant, for absolutely no obvious reason at all. As I was about to leave the entrance hall and step out of the interior, I expected to be in the West End of London (I have no idea why) - I saw a street, which I perceived to be 'Chelsea' in my mind's eye before we left the building. 

AJR and I stepped out and we were in front of a large bowling green. I could see some buildings a the periphery of my vision. The area seemed to be very pleasant and tranquil - I realised this was a quiet and upper-class district of my 'Dream Town' (for information about 'Sudsbury', my 'Dream Town' - see this post for an explanation of the significance of this dream scene location and links to all of my dreams which feature my 'Dream Town' - Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian'). AJR said to me: 'Sudsbury isn't the same as where my family live, but you think it means something' - which in the dream I just accepted as being a completely normal thing to say, but honestly, should have been a huge dreamsign for me, triggering a reality check and a lucid dream. 

The fact AJR was with me in 'Sudsbury' a reoccuring location which I am fascinated by as a weird dream phenomenon (and the fact he was out of prison!) and referencing the phenomenon within the dream, which could have led me to 'remember' Sudsbury only exists in my dreams, should have made me snap to consciousness. In the dream, I just reminded him that it was true, it was a weird coincidence (I don't know what I thought the coincidence was within this dream - as the coincidence would have to acknowledge that 'Sudsbury' is a Dream Town, which only exists in my dreams! This is such an oddity to me, it just seems like I was coming to a conclusion I would in real life - because AJR and I have discussed the fact I dream of a Dream Town, called 'Sudsbury' which is very close in name to the real life town 'Sudbury' in Suffolk, where he will soon live with his family on release from prison. However, I didn't actively think about the nature or implications of that coincidence. AJR thinks my dreamwork is all pointless.

AJR and I looked at the bowling green. I knew it was late afternoon. I felt very happy to be in this location at this particular time with AJR as everything was just at peace. There were some dream character males dressed in white, some distance away, playing bowls. I could see some old-fashioned streetlamps beyond the bowling green's edge, and some wrought-iron fencing some distance away, to my left, which fenced off something which may have been a park or a small city garden. The road led off to taller very grey buildings which were on either side of the narrow street, which was 'uphill' as I could see it rise slightly above us at an angle. I saw that some of the houses I could see were Georgian townhouses and I thought they looked very aesthetic. This whole part of the dream was extremely vivid as well. 

AJR said that we should walk to 'the Solicitors' - I am not exactly sure why we had to go to a solicitors in the dream, as I just accepted that we needed to and did not actively think about the reason (probably because law is such an intrinsic part of both of our lives, him being a prisoner and me being a lawyer). We walked in a road which was pretty much straight ahead of us as we stared at the bowling green - so we must have walked around the perimeter of the bowling green - or straight through the middle. As we reached the other side of the road, I could see that it was also quite a narrow street, with tall and very aesthetic buildings on both sides, and sycamore trees. I knew it was an 'Avenue' (see Additional Notes, below for an analysis of this) and everything felt very cosy and just positive. It is easier to describe how the environment made me feel rather than try and describe the nature of the environment itself, I was just the happiest I had ever been and felt at one with my location. I have included some images of London areas below which illustrate the general environment I saw in my dream.

As we passed by one of the houses, which was a large Victorian (?) townhouse, had the sash windows open. I could see light inside the house, and I got the impression that the residents there were 'bohemians'. I heard a song playing from inside the house - I am not sure what it sounded like in the dream, because I instantly recognised it as being on Chris Morris' Blue Jam (the radio series of 1997 - 1999, which I listen to everyday because it is so bizarre, disturbing and ambient and perfect background material for creative or relaxing activities, I cannot recommend it enough! The song is also on the TV adaptation, Jam (2000)) - having gone through the radio shows, I discovered that the track I heard in my dream was Moodswings, 'The Great Sound of Letting Go'. I knew that this meant that Chris Morris lived in this house - and I knew he lived with Aphex Twin (Richard James). This made me even more happy to be in this area. 

I cannot recall going to the Solicitor with AJR. It was definitely getting dark at this stage in the dream, as I distinctly remember the fact everything was blue-tinged and the streetlamps were on, and the light in the window of Chris Morris and Richard James' house would suggest it was dark if we follow real life logic. I believe that at this stage I had a brief awakening due to my cleaner coming into my house without ringing the doorbell, but then making just enough noise for me to be disturbed, as I remember thinking 'I didn't hear them come in' and some light banging in the bathroom, which is next to my room. I must have fallen asleep again in a matter of seconds. I went back into my dream.

Scene 3: 'My Dream Town' - Early Morning
I was then coming to the brow of a hill on what appeared to be the same street with AJR. It was early morning, as the sun had just risen. Downhill, it was still the kind of streets you would find just outside a city centre in London. AJR and I were going to a fair, which was a short distance away (I knew this was a traditional kind of 'seaside fair' that I have experienced in my childhood - again there was a feeling of nostalgia in this part of the dream, which was so lovely). We were going to get a taxi to the fair - which we were going to meet at a particular building, just down the hill - I am not sure what kind of building this was, but when we got there (very quickly), it was quite a battered looking building, with a large noticeboard with a lot of 'spiritual' or 'New Age' or 'Hardcore Rave culture' (from the 1980s/1990s) flyers, all overlapping each other, and falling off. They were all different colours, some very psychedelic in appearance - just like the aesthetic I associate with the late 1980s or early 1990s. The building was red brick, and there was a broad-ish doorstep which AJR and I were standing on while waiting for the taxi. I saw a number of cars pass on the street and everything seemed normal. I was now very excited to go to the fair and I knew it would be like re-living a particularly pleasurable experience of going to the fair previously (not sure if this was specifically a dream-generated memory of going to a fair on a hot summer day, or a real life memory of going to a fair in the same circumstances, as it felt quite generic, all I knew was it felt like it occurred in the 1990s, and again had that distinct nostalgic feel, although I cannot recall a concrete memory of which memory this would relate to, or if it is just a generalised pleasurable memory of summer fairs in my childhood). I knew that the fair was near the seaside because I thought that AJR and I could eat fish and chips and ice cream on the promenade and enjoy the seaside as well as the fair.

I woke up before I could finish this dream! I was disturbed again by the noise made by my cleaner, and I tried my hardest to return to this dream, but I just couldn't fall asleep. I visualised the dream, concentrating on it for what seemed like half an hour, before I gave up on attempting to dream-chain, but ti did help to consolidate my dream memory immediately upon waking! This was an amazing dream! I loved it. It made me feel so happy and positive in so many ways I cannot describe, some are so abstract and relate to so many weird personal memories and associations. This dream is much more complex than it appears on the surface and it felt significant.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream, I saw a man on the internet argue/supply statistics to prove pitbulls are a 'child murdering breed'
• On the day of this dream I saw Jenna Marble's dog Kermit, who is a grey Italian Greyhound
• On the day of this dream I had read a Facebook comment where a man had said 2 bats died in his basement and how he had managed to convince a female friend to clean one up for payment, but the smell was so bad she refused to help with the second one, so it was still down there
• On the day of this dream, I had a telephone conversation with AJR where he said we should throw a hand grenade at his personal injury solicitors when he is released from prison
• I often associate sycamore leaves and the word 'avenue' in my conscious mind, although this is one of a number of phenomena I cannot explain - I also associate the word and direction 'left' and the song 'Oranges and Lemons' - note that on getting the Wikipedia link for this song I've known since early childhood, I was reminded about the fact this song is about all the big bells that are located around the city of London, which seems pertinent in the context of this dream! 
• Aphex Twin's music is also featured in Chris Morris work - the example I can point to off the top of my head is 'Windowlicker' (1999). Note that once - I would estimate in about 2002 - 2005, I cannot say for certain, I was in the Chelsea area (or had been, but was walking around casually with my ex-boyfriend SL, who knew the area, and therefore I wasn't paying attention to exactly where we were, but it was West London) - we went into a music/book shop and I saw there was a book about Chris Cunningham (the video director for many Aphex Twin tracks, and the main reason I knew of his work) there - I remember standing in the shop (which was very small and sophisticated and minimalist in keeping with the fancy area) and flicking through that book and discussing it with my ex-boyfriend
• On the day of this dream I saw an Instagram image of a flyer from a party hosted by DJ Kool Herc (The famous 'Back to School Jam' of 1973, which took place at 1520 Sedgwick Avenue) - this event is heralded as being foundational in the promotion of early hip hop in The Bronx. New York). Note that when I went to the Wikipedia page for DJ Kool Herc, I noticed the location of the 'Back to School Jam' - Sedgwick Avenue. The day before this dream - around the time I saw the DJ Kool Herc flyer, I noticed I had been followed by an Edie Sedgwick (1943 - 1971) fan account - I only noticed this coincidence while writing up this dream record, although I would have seen the address of the Back to School Jam on the flyer, although I cannot consciously remember seeing it, or linking it to the fact the Edie Sedgwick account had - or a short while later - had followed me
• On the day of this dream a man on Facebook had written a comment on a discussion thread on a food group, stating that eating fish with tomato ketchup was not acceptable anywhere. I reminded him it is normal to eat ketchup with fish and chips in the UK, even though I prefer tartare sauce, and lemon/vinegar on mine

Dream 1030

'Elsagate Abduction Risk'

Date: 12 August 2019
Scene 1: My Former Childhood Home, Pine Grove, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in an interior location which strongly resembled my former childhood home in Pine Grove, Sheringham. I was in the kitchen/dining-room area, standing up, leaning against the counter where the microwave used to be. I was on my mobile phone to AJR (who in the dream was in prison). His behaviour was very odd and I felt that he was being distant and problematic, although I am unable to recall what it was about the conversation which was worrying me. My Mum entered the room, wearing a dressing grown and holding an (unrecalled) white object in front of her with both of her hands. She was trying to talk to me, which was distracting as I was on the phone to AJR and was getting frustrated. I sensed my Mum was 'on AJR's side' and she referred to him as 'AJR' (so not his real name, but his initials, as I use on this Blog - I'll disclose here that his first name is indeed 'AJ'). This reference to my dream-related Blog did not act as a dreamsign/trigger for a reality check. I ended the phone call with AJR, feeling unsettled. Shortly thereafter, there was another telephone call with AJR which was also unsettling, although again, I cannot recall why. 

Scene 2: A Bedroom - Day
I was then laying in a bed in a small, barely furnished bedroom, which I do not recognise from real life. I was in a single bed, which was up against a wall. Above me was a skylight and I could tell that it was daytime as I could see the sky was blue. Suddenly I saw someone dressed as Spider-Man appear at the skylight. This terrified me. Spider-man opened the skylight and I could tell he was trying to enter to abduct or attack me. He did not say anything to me, but I knew he was a threat to my safety. I jumped out of the bed and ran down the stairs, which were the stairs in my Nan's house in Sheringham. I ran out of the front door and onto the path alongside the front garden. I could see that Spider-Man was on the pavement outside the house - about to get into a car with about 3 adult dream characters, who were my Nan's neighbours in the dream. I shouted out: 'I know you're Elsagate!' (see below for this reference - this should have been an incredibly strong dreamsign for me, but I just accepted the reality of the dream rather than performing a reality check). My plan was to preemptively attack the Spider-Man, but 'he' turned around and took off his mask. I saw that it was a very young child who closely resembled Elsa from Frozen (2013) - blonde hair in a braid, blue eyes, similar facial features. She had a transparent plastic backpack and I realised this was not the Spider-Man who had been attempting to abduct me, as I was looking for an adult male. This was just my Nan's neighbour's granddaughter who was there for a visit and had dressed as Spider-Man. 

I went down the side alleyway between my Nan's house and her other neighbour, which leads to the porch area, where there is a shed and outside toilet on one side and the kitchen window on the other. I passed by the neighbour's side door/gate and the Alsatian dog they used to have ('Jasper') - which used to always bark and scare me - was there, barking, although I did not feel scared (the neighbours either moved or died and the dog died many, many years ago). Standing in the porch area was the adult male Spider-Man, who removed his mask to reveal he was a young (20s) white male with blonde hair and a normal face.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, I think I woke up at this point due to AJR calling me on my landline phone, as I remember waking up suddenly.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had been watching videos about 'Elsagate' on Youtube - this is a phenomenon which has been exposed over the past few years. It involves a number of children's Youtube channels on Youtube Kids, which have names such as 'Webs and Tiaras' and 'Toy Monster' and 'Toys in Japan' - all very child-friendly names. These channels have countless videos, uploaded in quick succession - usually animated, but sometimes claymation or live action, starring actors (and children). The titles are all word salad and gibberish - but have themes of sex and fetishes, child abuse, abduction, pregnancy, abortion, infidelity, urination, excretion, violence and extreme bodily harm. injections, suicide etc - they feature popular copyrighted characters and other recognisable figures such as Spider-Man and Elsa (the most common coupling), Mickey and Minnie Mouse, Minions, Peppa Pig, Hulk, the Joker, Trump, Hitler, Pewdiepie, in addition to dinosaurs, gorilla angels and skeletons. 'Finger Family' is a discreet subset of these videos, involving repetition of a family-oriented song, sang badly in an Indian accent, and featuring the above listed characters as animated finger puppets. These videos have millions of views and many nonsensical comments which people have suggested are coded messages between paedophiles. The videos manage to bypass Youtube's content safeguards, as they are tagged in a way to circumvent the algorithm. Many children are reported to have been traumatised by Elsagate videos - conspiracy theories have tried to pinpoint the purpose of these videos, suggesting it is a form of brainwashing, to desensitise children to the nightmarish content and normalise child abuse
• On the day of this dream I had watched a number of Youtube videos showing timelapse footage of tarantulas molting/shedding their old outgrown carapace/skin. I also saw videos of crabs/lobsters molting - Sheringham is known for being an area where crabs are caught locally and I thought about this when watching the crustaceans 
• I have been dealing with a case for a client involving him being accused of entering a property through a window (burglary of a dwelling)
• The day before this dream I had watched a Youtube video where Jenna Marbles gave herself a Claire's makeover - which included a children's transparent plastic backpack

Dream 1029

'Chief of Police, Corey Feldman, Social Worker Anakin Skywalker & Foster Parent, Morgz Mum 'Is Here For Your Safety' in 4Chan'

Date: 10 August 2019
Scene 1: A Muddy/Wet Marshland - Day
I was in a large marsh, which was muddy, with pools of water. It was a warm day, but it was not sunny. I am not sure what I was wearing, but I think my legs were bare, as I could see the water on my shins as if I was sinking into the marsh. I was with a male dream character who I do not recall from real life. He was in his 20s and white, with brown hair. He was dressed in casual clothing, but I cannot remember what. I do not know his name (I will refer to him as 'John' for ease of reference), but in the dream we were friends. Being in the marsh did not feel unpleasant or uncomfortable. John said that we had to go, or we would miss our bus. I then became aware that we were supposed to be going to Sudsbury (my 'Dream Town' - see this post for an explanation of the significance of this dream scene location and links to all of my dreams which feature my 'Dream Town' - Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian'). This did not trigger me to question if I was dreaming or to perform any kind of reality check, so I missed this as an opportunity to experience lucidity by way of a DILD (Dream-Initiated Lucid Dream). I was very pleased that we were going to Sudsbury and we left the marsh area, walking a short distance (it had appeared that we were in the centre of a massive marsh which stretched as far as the eye could see, but when it came to walking onto the road, it appeared we were actually quite near the edge of the marsh). There was some walking down a road, which had the marsh on one side, and buildings on the other. Looking at the marsh (which was now behind a border hedge), it appeared to look like Bowthorpe Cemetery in Norwich, with gravestones and memorials. I did not question this. I cannot recall what John and I talked about on the walk or if we did in fact have any conversation.

Scene 2: Bus Stop - Day
We arrived at the bus stop and there were a number of dream characters present there, who I perceived as 'workers'. It seemed as if we were in a city now - the bus stop was opposite some grey buildings (tall) of which I did not know the purpose. The bus arrived and it was out of service, which felt frustrating. The driver was a white middle-aged fat man. He leaned over from the drivers cabin and said that he'd let us travel on the bus if we would hire him a sex worker in return. I wanted to refuse this, but John agreed before I could say anything. The driver was smiling in a really creepy way that made me not want to travel on his bus. I cannot recall the bus journey or John arranging for the sex worker. 

Scene 3: 4Chan - Day
John and I were getting off the bus (I cannot remember getting on the bus or the journey, so not sure if the dream transitioned suddenly or if this is due to my recall). I realised we were not in Sudsbury (my 'Dream Town') at all, but another place, which was very provincial and rural. I realised that we were in '4Chan' and that this was an English village which was highly significant - as if it were a capital city, such as London. It seemed like this village was a centre of politics or commerce or something - it was just an important place, although I cannot recall why and there was nothing to suggest this about the environment, which was just fields and detached cottages, with gardens and lots of trees, plants and flowers. It was daytime, because the sun was shining and it felt like a nice summer day. 

John said we had to go and show our documentation at the office, which in the dream seemed to be some form of visa check that needed to be done on our arrival. The 'office' was just on the horizon of my vision, down a dirt road, which is what we were standing on at this point in the dream. The 'office' appeared to be a countryside pub with outside picnic benches and parasol umbrellas. We began walking towards 'the office'. 

When we arrived at 'the office' I could no longer see the outside seating, only the building itself, which still seemed to resemble a countryside pub. It was covered in white stone-cladding and had black wooden doors and window frames. John and I entered via a door on the side of the building, near some bins, rather than the front entrance. 

The inside of 'the office' was dark - and resembled a warehouse or factory. It seemed as if the only bits of 'office' furniture were some leather sofas, which were part of a 'waiting area' and a large desk, which was in the middle of the room. The only other thing I could see were cardboard boxes and a lot of dust. John and I sat down on the sofas and I assume we were waiting for our documentation to be checked. 

I then noticed that there was a doorway in the distance - I could see it had a blue light illuminating it. Via the entrance, I saw Corey Feldman and Anakin Skywalker (Star Wars) enter the room. Both of them were exceptionally tall and dressed in stereotypical 'law enforcement' outfits (could have been police or prison officers) with weird white 'man-bags' made of sparkly material hanging down by their sides. I don't think John and I stood up, because it seemed as if Corey Feldman and Anakin Skywalker were bearing down on us, from above. However, this was not intimidating. Corey Feldman said that he was Chief of Police and that Anakin Skywalker was a Social Worker for the Local Authority. This was supposed to reassure us that we would be safe in 4Chan - or at least this was the impression I got from them telling me this fact. I wondered where we would be staying, as although earlier in the dream, it felt like we were 'going home', now it appeared that we had nowhere to stay. I am not sure if I articulated this concern (I cannot recall me saying anything), but Corey Feldman told me that Anakin Skywalker had arranged for a 'Foster Mother' to look after John and I (who were fully grown adults) in 4Chan. This would be 'Morgz Mum' (Jill Hudson, Youtuber - see below) and we would be staying in her house, which was nearby. 

I cannot recall Anakin Skywalker saying anything during this part of the dream scene - everything was said by Corey Feldman, in his role as Chief of Police.

John and I went to leave 'the office' and from behind me I heard Anakin (I knew it was him, even though I did not look around to check for sure) shout 'The Police and Local Authority IS here for your safety'. I specifically noticed he said the word 'is' instead of 'are' and thought it made him sound unintelligent. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#9, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this not a successful dream incubation
• I recently experienced Dream 1027 - 'Men From My Past & Corey Haim' (8 August 2019) after watching documentaries about Corey Feldman and Corey Haim
• I am exposed to Anakin Skywalker every day, as he is my laptop screensaver
• On the day of this dream I had been watching some videos about 4Chan hoaxes and had explained what 4Chan was to AJR during a telephone conversation
• On the day of this dream I had been watching a Jaackmaate Youtube video, where he discusses fellow Youtuber 'Morgz' (Morgan Hudson) who has one video in which his stepdad  ('Martin') appears, dressed in a very bad 'prison warden' uniform (and an equally bad police uniform) and tells Morgz his punishment for losing at a game will be 'beans and burgers' which has now become a catchphrase on Jaackmaate's channel, as he pointed out how stupid it sounded. Jaackmaate was also joking about 'Morgz Mum' ('Jill') who also makes Youtube videos

Dream 1028

'Carnival Day & Destroyed Art'

Date: 9 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
When I initially woke up, my first thought was that I couldn't recall having a dream - but after a moment of concentration, parts of the dream came back to me and I remembered having it, although the memories were somewhat hazy and unclear and I realised I had forgotten a lot of detail about how the scenes linked together. 

I cannot recall the locations of this dream, other than seeing the outside of a normal residential property from a distance, looking across a long garden, which was elevated at the far side. This reminded me - or gave me the impression - of being in Sheringham, which happens to be where the dream characters - and the carnival in question - are linked to.

The first scene took place in an unfamiliar domestic interior. I was with NN, my long-term friend from Sheringham. We were discussing the forthcoming carnival (I assume this was Sheringham Carnival, which takes place in July, but it might have been the nearby Cromer Carnival - the dream was not clear). I have forgotten a large amount of detail about this part of the dream. NN's mum, RT was involved in this dream scene too. There was something ominous and troubling. Something had happened - all I can describe it as was there was an accusation that 4 pieces of highly valuable modern art (abstract paintings) had been taken from a nearby house, which had some kind of significance, and were thrown in a lake. I am not sure if I was responsible for taking the art and throwing it in the lake, but I did feel worried about it, and wanted to sort the problem out, as in the dream, it had dire consequences (although I cannot recall what they were).

I recall looking across the garden at a house, about 200 meters away. It was behind some hedgerows or trees and it seemed like it was dusk or dawn, as the sky was dark-ish. I knew this was the house where the art had been taken from before being thrown in the lake. I was considering how I could get to this house to sort out the problem with the art.

There was more conversation with NN and her mum, RT - about the forthcoming carnival. NN said that we would be meeting up with a group of men (male dream characters) who we would be going on a date with for carnival. I did not want this to happen, and felt trapped by NN and her mum. There is a niggling thought in the back of my mind that something else happened at this point in the dream which was unpleasant and caused me stress or fear. The entire dream was very negative in tone.

I cannot remember anything else about this dream at present, but I am experiencing significant dream residue (the 'hangover effect' of the dream) and memories of this dream feel like they are 'on the tip of the tongue' (or analous, where the memory is just out of reach, but close enough to be frustrating).

If I recall anything else about this dream I will record it below.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had seen a meme on Facebook about Area 51 - it depicted an alien seducing a man, with a Piet Mondrian (1872 - 1944) painting in the background. I made a comment about the alien being rich because he owned a Mondrian
• It is around the time of the carnivals in Norfolk. In a fairly recent Facebook DMs conversation with NN, she asked if I would be coming down for carnival this year so that we could meet. I said maybe, but did not end up going. Many years ago, when I was a young teenager, an incident took place at Cromer Carnival after I had attended with NN - this has had a lasting impact on my life generally, although I do not want to discuss it on my Blog

Pierre Mondrian, Composition C (1935)

Dream 1027

'Men From My Past & Corey Haim'

Date: 8 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I cannot recall the locations of this dream, although I know that the first scene I recall did take place in an interior location, as I later 'went outside' in Scene 2. The general feeling of this dream is more memorable to me than the action, as I have forgotten a number of details (having waited a few hours after waking up from this long, vivid, detailed dream) - the dream felt stifling and suffocating. There was a sense of frustration and stress throughout, as if I did not want to be involved with everything going on in the dream. 

I was with some dream characters who were based on (or actually were) people I went to high school with in Sheringham. We were revising for an exam, which I felt was pointless, because the revision did not relate to a topic I was currently studying (in the dream I was studying one subject, but the homework related to something else). I was being obstructive and arguing that we should not have to revise a subject which was so irrelevant to our actual studies, but one female dream character (I believe this was JF - a girl I went to school with who wasn't academically successful in any way) was telling me that we had to do the revision. We were writing in notebooks. A teacher then entered the room - which at this point, appeared to be bathed in a blue light. I could see a counter, which resembled a marble-effect kitchen counter. The teacher leaned against the counter. She was a middle-aged woman, tall and very slim, with dark hair tied back and glasses, dressed very formally in dark clothing. Everyone lined up to show her their notebooks. I noticed mine had handwriting in blue biro, but I did not 'read' what was written in the notebook. When it came to my turn to show my notebook/revision notes, the teacher told me that the revision was part of an investigation - we (the students) were involved in the Corey Haim case, I'm not sure of the entire context, but it was a truth-seeking exercise aimed at uncovering some kind of secret information. The teacher explained to me that the revision was very important, and at this point I realised that it was, and I had been wrong to dismiss it. I felt glad I had actually done the work as instructed. The teacher told me that my contributions to the investigation would allow for the world to understand better - I did not know specifically what she was referring to, but my assumption (upon waking and looking back at this) was that she was referring to the Hollywood abuse as I had been watching a documentary which referred to Corey Feldman and Corey Haim and that situation.

There was some interaction with my ex-boyfriend, PS in the early part of this dream, although I am not sure what it was at this point. 

Scene 2: An Exterior Location - Dusk
I was then outside, sitting on some concrete. The sky was darkening, indicating it was dusk. I could see some lush green foliage (trees, bushes, flowers and other plants) surrounding the area of concrete, which might have been a courtyard or patio of some type. The environment/location was very aesthetic. PS approached me again. I noticed he was wearing a blue T-shirt. He sat down opposite me, very close and leaned forward to show me that he was wearing a gold amulet or pendant which was not on a necklace as such, but somehow fixed to his T-shirt. It was about the size of a standard dice. He was annoyed as the gold item had torn through the neckline of his T-shirt and he was blaming me for this, although I had no idea how I was responsible. 

Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was then at my Nan's house. R3A was present, with another male dream character, who I had a strong feeling of familiarity towards - I am sure that in the dream I was able to recognise him as someone I know in real life. I was pleased to see R3A. We were sitting at the dining table in my Nan's living-room. R3A was sitting next to the other male and I was sitting opposite. I was jealous of the attention that R3A was paying to the male - they were getting on really well and I felt 'punished' in some way. R3A was being nice to me, he was just not paying me any attention which I found odd. R3A and the other male dream character were planning a party. R3A then turned to me and said something (unrecalled) about the gold amulet/pendant PS had been wearing in Scene 2 of this dream. This made me feel worried, as somehow this amulet/pendant was linked to the possibility of a nuclear war, and PS had been blaming me for something to do with it, so I felt like I was responsible for the possible nuclear holocaust. R3A and the dream character male did not seem to be worried about the nuclear holocaust - they continued to talk about the party which was being planned. I felt really anxious, and for some reason I knew I would be unable to contact PS to warn him about the nuclear holocaust and the link to the amulet/pendant.

There was more detail to this dream which I cannot recall, but it is itching my memory - the dream equivalent of saying that something is 'on the tip of the tongue'. If I recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had seen an email about revision sessions for undergraduate students who were re-taking exams in Law - I was CC-ed into the email as I was an Associate Tutor teaching these modules during the academic year
• On the day of this dream I had been watching documentaries about Corey Haim (1970 - 2010)
• I cannot recall what dream it was (and cannot be bothered to try and find out in a keyword search because I don't think it's a particularly significant dream), bu recently I made a Youtube video which included a dream scene where R3A was at my Nan's house, and this was recorded as a dreamsign because R3A had never been to my Nan's house (this was a contemporary observation in the Dream Journal report) - here in this current dream, R3A is present in my Nan's house. This - and the potential memory of specifically discussing the fact this exact occurrence should be a dreamsign in a dream - could have been used as a dreamsign and prompt a reality check/lucidity 
• On the day of this dream I had been at work in prison, and had mentioned how many prisoners complain about their clothing being damages and the desire to put in a claim