Saturday, 19 March 2016

Dreaming & False Memory Syndrome

“Most people, probably, are in doubt about certain matters ascribed to their past. They may have seen them, may have said them, done them, or they may only have dreamed or imagined they did so.”
– William James

False Memory Syndrome
False Memory Syndrome, is the phenomenon by which an individual's identity, emotions and relationships are affected by a fabricated or false memory which they believe to be true. There have been numerous, interesting studies into the phenomenon of false memory and mistaken beliefs in both dream studies and in other contexts, such as eyewitness testimony. First, we shall consider some of the psychological studies into the phenomenon of false memory, and then consider how this theme relates to dreams and dreaming.

Please note that nothing in this article is intended to discredit or ignore victim narratives, disclosure and testimony about early childhood sexual abuse. This article looks at the ways in which therapy and dream interpretation may create false memories in some individuals and my criticism is restricted solely to those in a position to abuse their professional role, damaging their patients or clients. I have experienced one case, in my on personal life as a law student, in which the possibility of false or distorted memories, encouraged and drawn out by a counsellor resulted in criminal proceedings - although the defence did not rely on false memories (there was no need as the defendant was able to raise an iron-clad defence with evidence), this highlighted to me the dangers of therapists suggesting that someone has been abused where there was no other corroborative evidence. In this case, the complainant was a young adult. She accused her grandfather of childhood abuse. Until she went into therapy, she had never suspected childhood abuse or had cause to think about it. She went into therapy for depression and anxiety. She was recommended to the therapist by a friend, who told her that she was seeing the therapist herself because she had been a victim of abuse. The complainant asked her new therapist 'what if I was also abused?' and the therapist was able to - using a variety of techniques - uncover repressed memories, including one incident which allegedly happened when the complainant was in her mid-teens, and was 'recalled' vividly (while childhood amnesia may explain why early experiences are repressed and not accessible by normal memory i.e. events taking place before the age of 3 years - there is no suggestion that the complainant could have repressed the event that took place when she was in her teenage years, as she was able to recall everything about her life at that time and even gave evidence as to what the weather was like on that day and where her family were when she was in the house with the defendant). The therapist gave evidence of her techniques which expose flaw in the way she had treated the complainant - in fact, she made the complainant's mental health and emotional trauma worse as a result of drawing out 'memories' of abuse she had not 'remembered' and the consequential breakdown of her family. The jury were persuaded that the defendant had not abused her and in fact, if her 'memories' were the basis of the evidence against him, they were inaccurate and imagined - not through any fault of her own, but as a result of an 'expert' encouraging her to imagine herself as a victim, until she was confused as to what was real and what was not. 

As we all know, the brain is far too complex for humans to fully understand and explain. Neuroscience and psychology are continually finding new evidence which increases our awareness of mental phenomenon. However, it is correct to say that memory is one area of mental process in which errors or distortions regularly occur. One of the many theories of memory function and error is the fuzzy trace theory, which was developed by Charles Brainerd & Valerie Reyna. Under this theory, people create two kinds of memory traces: verbatim traces (which record surface sensory information such as smell, colour, and sound); and gist traces (which are identified with more abstract details of an event, such as interpretations, elaborations, or meanings). Verbatim traces are more robust over time, while gist traces are susceptible to interference and fragmentation – as well as re-interpretation. According to the proponents of such theories, false memories are created when people’s memories rely exclusively in gist traces, or when verbatim memories are confused with memories from another source. An error of 'omission' relates to forgetting; while an error of 'commission' relates to the creation of a false memory. Some false memories may be spontaneous and natural, while others may have been implanted. While children are more susceptible and suggestible, research has found that younger children are less likely to create false memories than older children or adults. False memories are no less stable than true ones either - false memories may actually be more persistent than true ones. This is because they are formed from gist traces, rather than verbatim ones, and therefore are less vulnerable to interference or forgetting.

Another theory, the source monitoring framework, argues that false memories are created when people mistakenly believe imaginary events are autobiographic events. According to this theory, people don’t have the memory outright, instead we look for a variety of sensory cues. A source monitoring error may occur when a specifically recollected event is wrongly believed to be the source of a memory. 

In 1990 George Franklin became the first ever US citizen convicted of murder by a witness who recovered repressed memories more than 20 years after the event. The witness was his daughter, Eileen. Franklin was released in when irregularities were discovered in Eileen’s evidence: it emerged she had been hypnotised before testifying. In many jurisdictions, it would be impossible for a hypnotized witness to give testimony due to the fact that hypnotised persons are highly susceptible and therefore not credible witnesses. Even without the use of hypnosis, memories can be very vulnerable to external influence, and there is considerable empirical evidence that false memories of events which did not happen can be implanted into a person’s mind.

False memories are hard to research for one simple reason: it’s difficult to verify whether the memories in question are false or not (Loftus, 1993). Often a considerable amount of time has passed since the original event and it’s not possible to corroborate what people say or find evidence to support or reject the validity of the memory.

Jean Piaget, the esteemed child psychologist, claimed that his earliest memory was of nearly being kidnapped at the age of 2 years. He remembered seemingly vivid details such as sitting in his baby carriage, watching the nurse defend herself against the kidnapper, scratches on the nurse's face, and a police officer with a short cloak and a white baton chasing the kidnapper away. This dramatic account was reinforced by the nurse, the family and others, who had heard the story. Piaget was convinced that he remembered the event, despite the fact it never actually happened. Thirteen years after the alleged kidnapping attempt, Piaget's former nurse wrote to his parents to confess that she had made up the entire story. Piaget later wrote: ‘I therefore must have heard, as a child, the account of this story...and projected it into the past in the form of a visual memory, which was a memory of a memory, but false’.


In a seminal study, Loftus & Pickrell (1995) recruited 24 participants who were to be presented with 4 stories from when they were between 4 - 6 years old, (3 of which were true, and 1 false). The true stories were sourced from the participants’ families, and involved events which were not traumatic or emotionally difficult to recall. The families were then asked to provide the circumstances for the ‘false’ event – a plausible event which could have possibly happened, but actually had not. The participants were informed that they were involved in a study about their ability to recall details of childhood memories and were each given a written description of the 4 events provided by their family. They were asked to provide information about which events they remembered. Afterwards, the participants were interviewed and were reminded of the 4 memory events they had been asked about. They were asked to recall as much information about them as possible. A week later, a second interview took place and a similar procedure was followed. The participants then rated the clarity of their memories. 

It was then revealed to them that one of the memories was false and they were asked to guess which one it was. Of the 24 participants, 5 falsely recalled the fabricated event as a real memory, although participants understandably found the implanted memory much less clear than the memory of actual events which had indeed taken place. Considering the very low level of suggestion or coercion involved in the interviews, the experiment reveals that it is possible to implant false memories. 

A later study with more participants which examined a wider range of memories was carried out by Hyman & Pentland (1996). This study revealed that, depending on experimental variables, at least some kind of false memory could be implanted in between 20% and 40% of participants. 

In ‘A picture is worth a thousand lies’, Wade et al used a doctored photograph of a fictitious balloon flight to implant false memories (Wade, Garry, Read & Lindsay, 2002). Using similar interview procedures to Loftus & Pickrell (1995), they found that 50% of participants created either complete or partial false memories of the flight. 

One major problem with these sorts of studies is that they only implant inconsequential memories. Traumatic memories, such as those claimed by Franklin’s daughter, might be a completely different matter. However, it would be unethical to conduct an empirical study in which traumatic false memories are implanted into a participant, which means it is extremely difficult to obtain data on this area. Despite this, the Paul Ingram experiment is one of the most bizarre and dramatic false memory studies ever documented and provides some insight into the phenomenon. 

In 1988 Paul Ingram (a police officer) was arrested for sexually abusing his 2 daughters, an allegation he strongly denied. Over an extended period of 5 months, however, he was subjected to pressure by fellow police officers, psychologists and other advisors, suggesting he had committed child abuse, including having raped his own daughters. Eventually Ingram began to confess to all manner of rapes, child sexual abuses and even to participation in a Satan-worshipping cult which had allegedly murdered 25 babies. 

The prosecution at Ingram’s trial brought in renowned memory researcher, Dr Richard Ofshe, who became suspicious of Ingram’s credibility. To test Ingram, Ofshe fabricated a story in which Ingram’s son and daughter claimed he had forced them to have sex with each other while he watched, this having been confirmed as false by the son and daughter in advance. 

Over a period of hours, Ingram, who had initially denied the memory, began to generate false memories of the event taking place and was eventually able to write a 3-page confession to the crime which had not taken place. This raised serious questions as what else Ingram may have falsely confessed to under such intense pressure and suggestion. Unfortunately the evidence from Ofshe was not made available until after Ingram’s conviction and the defendant was unable to withdraw his guilty plea. He remained in prison until 2003 and remains a registered sex offender, despite significant doubts as to his actual guilt. 

Both the case of Paul Ingram and the experimental laboratory studies on false memories represent two extremes of a continuum. At one end, when politely and subtly asked (within the context of a psychology study), some people can be induced into believing relatively benign false memories - perhaps as many as 50%. At the other end of the spectrum, when placed under incredible psychological pressure, such as in the case of Ingram, dangerous or traumatic false memories can be implanted, which may have long-term and highly adverse consequences for either the subject or others, such as parents/carers accused of abuse, recovered through therapy.


Eyewitness Testimony
Studies into the implanting or false memories or the misattribution/distortion of memory have impact on how we treat the issue of eyewitness testimony and it's reliability. Another dramatic case study which highlights the potential dangers of false memories/beliefs.

In 1975, Australian psychologist Donald M Thomson appeared on a TV show about the psychology of eyewitness testimony. The day after the television broadcast Thomson arrested by local police following an allegation that he had entered the apartment of a female, and raped her, leaving her unconscious. The victim named Thomson as her attacker. This was despite the fact he had a water-tight alibi – at the time of the rape he was being recorded for the TV show and in the presence of the assistant police commissioner who was able to corroborate his offence. It appeared that the victim had been watching Thomson on TV immediately prior to her attack and then confused his face with that of the actual rapist – encoding Thomson’s face instead. How ironic that a psychologist, discussing eyewitness testimony in criminal cases, was falsely accused as a result of a grossly distorted memory of an event occurring at the same time he was explaining the phenomenon on a TV show. 

Thomson was completely exonerated of the crime for which he was accused, but many others have not been so lucky. Wells and his colleagues have identified 40 separate incidents of miscarriages of justice in the USA, which have relied on eyewitness testimony (Wells et al, 1998). Many of these falsely convicted people served many years in prison, some even facing death sentences. 

Misattribution
Thomson’s ordeal, though, is a perfect example of Harvard psychologist Daniel Schacter’s fourth sin of memory, 'misattribution' (Schacter, 1999). Unlike the first 3 sins, which all involve being unable to access memories, this is the first sin that involves the creation of false memories. When a memory is ‘misattributed’ some original true aspect of a memory becomes distorted through time, space or circumstances. 

While misattributions can have disastrous consequences, most are not so dramatic in everyday circumstances. Like the other sins of memory, misattributions are probably a daily occurrence for most people. Some examples that have been studied in the lab are: 
  • Misattributing the source of memories. People regularly say they read something in the newspaper, when actually a friend told them or they saw it in an advert. In one study participants with ‘normal’ memories regularly made the mistake of thinking they had acquired a trivial fact from a newspaper, when actually the experimenters had supplied it (Schacter, Harbluk, & McLachlan, 1984) 
  • Misattributing a face to the wrong context. This is exactly what happened to Thomson. Studies have shown that memories can become blended together, so that faces and circumstances are merged 
  • Misattributing an imagined event to reality. An experiment by Goff & Roediger (1998) demonstrates how easily our memory can transform fantasy into reality. Participants were asked either to imagine performing an action or actually asked to perform it i.e. breaking a toothpick. Sometime later they went through the same process again. Subsequently, they were asked whether they had performed that action or just imagined it. Those who imagined the actions more frequently the second time were more likely to think they’d actually performed the actions the first time 

Schacter (1999) also identifies another very common type of misattribution: when we attribute an idea or memory to ourselves that really belongs to someone else. The individual falsely recall generating the idea (of another) and experience the memory of the material erroneously, interpreting it as 'new inspiration' or an original idea of their own. Unintentional plagiarism (Cryptomnesia) has been examined in a number of studies. In one straightforward early study people were asked to generate examples of particular categories of items, like species of birds. It was found that people, without realising, plagiarised each other about 4% of the time (Brown & Murphy, 1989). 

Subsequent studies using more naturalistic procedures have found much higher rates using different types of tasks – sometimes as much as 27%. That’s a very high rate and probably helps to explain why we see so much unintentional repetition across many different areas of human culture. For example, former Beatle George Harrison was sued for breach of copyright on the grounds that he (unintentionally) plagiarised a Chiffons’ hit ‘He’s So Fine’ in his own song 'My Sweet Lord' (1970), a claim which started in 1971 and was not settled until the 1990s.

Additionally, the brains of infants and very young children are capable of storing fragmented memories. These fragmented memories may be disturbing for adults who cannot piece together the entire memory of the actual event. Schacter notes the case of a rape victim who could not remember the rape, which took place on a brick pathway. The words ‘brick’ and ‘path’ kept popping into her mind, but she did not connect them to the rape. She became very upset when taken back to the scene of the rape, though she didn't remember what had happened there (Schacter 1996). Whether a fragmented memory of infant abuse can cause significant psychological damage in the adult has not been scientifically established, though it seems to be widely believed by many psychotherapists who focus on this phenomenon.

Although memories often have some basis in reality, whether we’ve mixed up some details or even the memory’s source, sometimes they are just completely false. During the 1960s and 1970s psychologists discovered a way of reproducing this false memory effect in the lab. 

In the classic study conducted by James Deese at Johns Hopkins University, participants are given lists of semantically related words, for example a list of colours (Deese, 1959). Later they have to try and recall them, at which point they often recall related words that were not actually presented. 

Later studies have replicated this finding using more complicated procedures that help to counteract some of the problems with this early study. Nevertheless there is still the question of whether these laboratory-based tasks really do tell us anything about how we behave in the real world. Are we really this prone to completely false memories in real life? New evidence suggests we may well be. Brown & Marsh (2008) found that some people could be induced to think they had visited an unfamiliar place simply by being shown photos of that location. 

These types of studies on the misattributions of memories can be existentially disturbing, because each of us is effectively the accumulation of our experiences and memories. The nature of our identity is inextricably linked to what events we have experienced and what we remember about our life. 

Discovering the scientific evidence for how easily memories become confused, distorted or falsified is like discovering that part of ourselves is fabricated. Memories are derived not only from our real-lives, but also our fantasies, dreams and imaginations. 

Schacter suggests that misattributions may actually be useful to us (Schacter, 1999). The ability to extract, abstract and generalise our experience enables us to apply lessons we’ve learnt in one domain to another. Often, we simply don’t need to know the exact details of an experience: just the outcome or general gist of what took place. Additionally, when we actually do need to know the details, we can take steps to encode the memory securely so we are less likely to make misattributions.

Dream Interpretation & False Memories
Dream interpretation is a useful tool for understanding the self and the subconscious, and is often employed by therapists in a clinical setting. However, there is some research (Mazzoni et al, 1999) to suggest that dream interpretation could lead to false beliefs about the subject's past which could be detrimental to them. 

Freudian dream interpretation dominated psychology until the 1950s, when it's importance as an analytical method began to waver with the increase of cognitive and behavioural psychology, which largely overlook dream work as an effective form of therapy. Despite a decline in the use of dream interpretation in psychology, there are still a number of professionals who emphasise its role and significance, particularly when dealing with subjects who have suffered previous trauma or abuse.

Dreaming represents a direct link to the subconscious mind, a process in which repressed memories may present themselves in symbolic fragments - Freud described them as the 'royal road to the unconscious' and used dream interpretation as a means of uncovering traumatic experiences which have been repressed. 

Until the 1950s psychoanalysis and dream interpretation was used prominently in therapy, but since the emergence of other disciplines, such as behaviourism, humanism and cognitive psychology, there is less emphasis on dream interpretation in the clinical setting. However, some therapists still use dreams as a tool for clinical treatment and view dreams as an 'exact replica' of the traumatic event (van der Kolk et al (1984)). Frederickson (1992) has stated that dreams are often the first sign of emerging memories - specifically within the context of sexual abuse. 

One of the issues with this conceptualisation of dreaming is the potential for false beliefs and false memories to be accepted as real. This is particularly true if the dreamer received subtle suggestion from the therapist - a study by Mazzoni et al (1996) showed this effect. It was shown that after a single subtle suggestion, participants falsely recognized items from their dreams and thought that these items had been presented in a list that they learned during the waking state. The participants first learned a key list of words and in a later session, they received a false suggestion that some items from their previously reported dreams had been presented on the key list. Finally, in a third session, they tried to recall the items that had occurred on the initial key list. 

A major finding was that participants often falsely recognized their dream items and thought they had been presented on the key list, sometimes as often as they accurately recognized true list items. Despite the high rate of false recognition, and the conviction that participants had about these false memories, it is reasonable to question whether the same kind of results would occur with more personally meaningful events, for example - the sexual abuse referred to above.

In the Florence False Interpretation Study, Mazzoni developed a new methodology for testing whether dream interpretation can lead to participants developing false beliefs about the past. In the study of 128 undergraduate students, the participants were asked if they had experienced a number of critical life events before the age of 3 years old - such as being lost in a public place or feeling abandoned by their parents. The study focused on students who reported that such critical life events had (most likely) not taken place. 

The participants were then divided into 'dream' groups (the experimental group, which would receive manipulated dream interpretations) and a control group. The participants in the 'dream' group then underwent a therapy session with a clinical psychologist and received dream interpretation. In each dream interpretation, regardless of the actual dream content, the participants were told that the dream indicated they had experienced the critical life events they had denied happening. The key feature of the manipulation of the dream interpretation was the suggestion that the dream was the overt manifestation of repressed memories relating to events which took place before the age of 3 years. The clinical psychologist did the following:
  • He commented on specific items in the dream and tried to relate those items to possible feelings that the participant might have - i.e. a cold day was symbolic of cold emotions etc 
  • He tried to induce the participant to agree with and expand on his interpretation 
  • He provided a global interpretation of the dream's meaning. In the example, the clinician suggested that possibly the participant was not totally happy with himself, needed challenge, resisted help, and so forth 
  • He suggested the possibility that specific events of childhood are commonly associated with dream reports like the one provided by the particular participant he was interviewing 
  • He explicitly suggested that such events had happened to the participant, and he asked for the participant's agreement with that suggestion 
  • When the participant did not recall such an event, the psychologist explained that unpleasant childhood experiences can be buried (repressed), and remain unremembered, but are often revealed in dreams 

A period of 10 - 15 days lapsed between the therapy session and a final session, where the participants were again asked if they had ever experienced one of the critical life events mentioned by the psychologist.

Analysis of the results showed that participants in the 'dream' group were caused to become more certain they had experienced the critical life event which they had previously claimed they felt was unlikely. The critical life events the participants reported having experienced in the first 3 years of their lives were the specific ones referred to by the psychologist. This raised questions as to whether the participant's belief they had experienced a negative event was restricted specifically to the critical life event suggested to them, or created a general notion that they had experienced other negative events in infancy. 

Both the 'dream' and 'control' groups were tested on a number of 'negative filler items', such as 'witnessing someone dying' or 'threatened by a stranger'. The researchers found that there was no significant link between the manipulated dream interpretation and a participant reporting having experienced one of the negative filler items - the manipulated dream interpretation only had influence on the critical life events specifically suggested by the psychologist. 

One explanation put forward by Mazzoni is that the manipulated dream interpretation created a 'true belief' in the participant, reminding them of a true experience which did occur in their early life, which had been forgotten, The memory was unlikely to have been triggered during the therapy session itself, because no participants reported such, but was probably recalled in the period between the therapy session and the final session. The age of 3 years was chosen, as many adults are unable to remember childhood events before this age (due to childhood amnesia). It was concluded that the where the report of the critical life event happening was given, the participant may have remembered the event which happened after the age of 3 years, but mistakenly 'remembered' it as taking place at an earlier age. This is a distorted belief or memory. The other conclusion which can be drawn from the data is that the manipulated dream interpretation created a false belief in the participant, who was susceptible to suggestion. 

This study has important implications for therapists who undertake dreamwork. It show that people are susceptible to suggestion which takes place in a therapeutic environment. There is evidence to suggest that some therapists do make suggestions to patients/clients based on dream reports (Cartwright & Lamberg, Crisis Dreaming (1992), p. 185). The fact that it may be possible to subtly manipulate a person into falsely believing that they have experienced an event which did not in fact take place, so that the person has a 'false memory' of the event taking place is very dangerous - and highlights the power that a therapist holds. It is especially problematic where a therapist encourages a patient/client to believe they may have experienced childhood abuse and repressed any memory. 

My Experiences of False or Distorted Memories & Dreaming
Dreams may create false memories due to familiarity. Dreams seem to be made up mainly of memory traces and fragments which are reconstituted into a new narrative form and may be given a new meaning within the context of the dream. 

Michael Willmann 'Jacob's Dream of a Ladder of Angels' c. 1690 (original pictured top, middle & bottom are my distortions of the image, an analogy to the distortions which occur in our memories)

In some of my dreams, my 'dream mind' tells me that I am re-living a 'real-life memory' such as in Dream 585- 'I've Seen this Before', where I was convinced within my dream that I was 'remembering' a real-life memory where I had performed the same action (avoiding watching a scene where an eyeball is sliced with a razorblade). In the dream, I had a clear visualisation of the real-life memory - in this 'real-life memory' DL and I were in his flat watching the same film as I had been watching in the dream, and - just like in the dream - when the eyeball scene came on, I (and DL) covered our own eyes to avoid seeing it happen. In the dream I 'remembered' that this was on a weekend evening (given I go round to DL's house on weekends and we watch TV together) and the dream me specifically thought: 'I have seen this before in real-life'. However, DL cannot recall ever watching this film with me on his TV, and therefore it seems my dream created a false memory of a real-life event. Additionally, in Dream 514 - 'Rap Battles Gone Wrong', I had seen a poster advertising a gig by an American hip hop artist. However, when in a real-life waking conversation with DL, I had to ask him if this was a dream memory or an actual real-life waking memory. DL was able to confirm that this was something which could only have happened in my dream as this hip hop artist was not currently doing a tour. DL also reminded me that I had not recently travelled outside of my home city, which only had 2 large live music venues, one being on my university campus, the other being a university-owned venue in the city. Therefore, if there had been a real gig taking place, the posters advertising it would have actually been on campus - and clearly there were none, a fact which was easily checked. I have had a number of dreams where my waking memory and dream memory becomes confused and I have to ask people if an event or conversation actually happened. Sometimes, I become aware by myself the dream created a false memory which I had accepted as being a real-life memory until evidence proved otherwise or I applied a logical analysis to the 'memory' which revealed it to be false. Another example is the brief scene in a dream where I cut the bottom of my hair and I believed this happened in real-life, until I realised it was impossible, as the dream scene had taken place in my Nan's home, and I had not visited her for some months, not cut my hair recently (because I then realised I did not actually own the hairdressing scissors which I had used in the dream). I only started to question the validity of the memory of cutting my hair, when I noticed I still had 'split ends', my hair was no shorter indicating any recent cutting; and I possessed no decent scissors to cut it with in real-life, despite having some in the earlier dream. 

Regular readers of this Blog will be aware of my recurrent 'Dream Town' which is basically a town which only seems to exist in my dreams, but which creates a strong sense of 'remembering it' (familiarity or previous experience)or déjà vu - the phenomenon in which the individual experiences of having 'seen it before'. It creates a strong sensation of having already experienced something, when in fact we are in a new situation. Some people see dream déjà vu as a form of precognition when they experience a real-life event which they have seen before in a dream. However, my dream town does not fall into this category, because the déjà vu feeling happened in a dream - and I was therefore trying to search my memory for a past real-life visit to such a place to explain why the town felt so familiar in my dream. 

I have even conducted some dream incubation experiments to try to return to the town to ask my subconscious questions about this matter. I do not believe I have ever really visited this location, or that it in fact exists in reality. In a number of dreams where I have been either non-lucid or even lucid, I have noted facts about the town and conducted some investigation. I have tried to locate the town on a London underground tube map, as the town feels like a location in the London suburbs. I had the name 'Sudsbury' in my mind in this dream. There are locations in the UK, such as 'Sudbury', but after Googling this location I am persuaded it is (a) a place I have never visited in my life; (b) nothing like the dream town in appearance, size etc. 

The dream town is quite urban in areas (there is a train bridge and tal commercial looking buildings which give this impression). There are a lot of mock-Tudor buildings and areas of green grass and trees. Near the area with the Tudor buildings is a doctor's surgery. I have visited this surgery in a dream. I know I have never visited a doctor's surgery in any location outside my places of residence, in real-life, and none of them resembled the locations in this dream. There is also a traditional pub and a hotel. The hotel is large, and looks out onto a patchwork of countryside fields. I have also been in another location where there were fields - and a hill. At the top of the hill was a large shop selling only freezer-foods, from huge chest freezers. I have walked by the canal. My interpretation of the dream town is that my dream has created a location which is a composite of lots of other locations I have experienced in my life. I may have repressed or simply forgotten the exact real-life experiences where I saw say, a canal like the one in my dream town; a freezer shop; Tudor-style architecture etc and then re-configured them, as one location in my dream, based on traces of memories from waking events. This is why the town has such a sense of familiarity - and I may be more likely to 'visit' this town, or interpret a random dream scene location as being part of the 'map' of this 'town' (given some of the locations attributed to the dream town are diverse and perhaps not likely to all be part of the same UK city/town) because I focus on my desire to do so, to better understand the experience. My subconscious is doing precisely what I want - revisiting a situation I keep questioning 'it' (through dreamwork) about - a form of Freudian 'wish fulfilment' perhaps? In this sense, I enjoy the false or distorted memories I have created in both my subconscious and conscious (because I am aware they are false memories) mind, because I am able to experience a different reality to my own, in the safe hyper-reality of my 'dreamverse' - it is the relatively banal living of a fantasy version of reality. 

These personal examples are fairly innocuous demonstrations of how dreams might create false or distorted memories, which are confused or misinterpreted as real-life events, but it also highlights how, under different circumstances, it can be highly dangerous to rely on dreams as a projection or reflection of reality or to trust all of our memories as fact, without evidence to suggest events did take place, particularly if the memories refer to the harmful actions of others. I have had dreams where family members have been projected as 'abusers' or perverse and evil in some way, with myself and my cousins regressed in age to childhood, and back in the family home. These dreams were vividly recalled and extremely easy to understand in terms of the narrative of the dream (they were not fragmented or abstract dreams). 

However, I know them to be imagined events and feelings, not ones based in my lived reality. I can either identify day residue which influenced me dreaming that particular dream with that narrative, those events and those dream characters from my real-life; and further, I have the opportunity to ascertain facts from my family (given the persons identified in the dreams are no longer residing in the family home, so there would be no divided loyalties or need to protect anyone from the truth). I have felt no need to do the latter; I trust my memory and lived experience and also fully understand the power of dreams - and the fact that we don't fully understand why we dream in the ways we do, and cannot trust our dreams to reflect real-life, even if they are clearly aroused and influenced by it. I have also experienced an abusive sexual incident in my own life, as a teenager and therefore have been able to trace any dream references to sexual abuse as a theme to this remembered actual experience than to interpret them as having to have happened in my early childhood, and then being repressed into my subconscious.

Another issue which may complicate the issue of dreams and memories further, is that some scientists view dreams as having a memory processing function. But in order for the dream to do it's work, we need not actually remember it's narrative or content. In fact, many theories of dreaming suggest our brains are not designed to remember all of our dreams, on a simple level, because it simply does not have the memory capacity, and dream memories are completely expendable, freeing up memory space for more important memories which aid our functioning as humans. Therefore, if we remember our dreams, and the dreams we have also contain other material from our memories - such as locations, people, objects, events, emotions etc, our waking brain might have some difficulty in sorting through which memories were created by the dream and which relate to an actual waking life experience which really happened. 

Considering I have personal experience of also having false waking memories being presented to me as real memories which supposedly relate to a real event, within a dream itself - so in effect my dream is telling me: 'this dream action is the same as something which really happened to you in the past', it is possible to see how we might become confused as to whether our memory is accurate or distorted. If DL had said to me - when I told him about Dream 585- 'I've Seen this Before': 'Yes, it's possible we watched that eyeball scene when you were at my house one time', I would definitely have interpreted my 'dream memory' as having related to a real-life event. This would be in the absence of any intention on the part of DL to implant a false memory, or suggest something to me - it would be an innocent remark, whether right or wrong, which would validate my own memory. The same could be said of Dream 514 - 'Rap Battles Gone Wrong' - if DL said: 'Yes, I hear that artist is doing a UK tour' (without adducing any corroborative evidence to support his statement was in any way true), I would have accepted my memory may have related to a real-life event i.e. seeing the poster advertising the gig. I am constantly astounded by how complex our dreams really are, and how malleable dream and real memories are when they become intertwined. 

I am aware that I am fortunate that I have (a) coped with the issues of sexual violence in my own life to the extent that I can also deal with this theme occurring in my dreams; and (b) coped with mental health problems without encountering a therapist who has used unorthodox means to treat me. Some of the case studies I have cited in this article involve persons who have really suffered as a result of therapists and experts relying on the strength of false, implanted or distorted memories, resulting in the breakdown of relationships and additional trauma and emotional distress being given to the patient/client. This should be borne in mind when you read the following section of this article in particular.

Sexual Abuse, Incest & Satanic Ritual
It is as unlikely that all recovered memories of childhood sexual abuse are false, as much as the notion that they are all true – caution must be taken before a conclusion is drawn either way and all disclosures should be investigated fully and fairly, regardless of how they came to be made, or what triggered the person claiming abuse to make a disclosure. What is understood scientifically about memory makes it especially problematic to sort out true from distorted or false recollections.

However, some consideration should be given to the fact that certain brain processes are necessary for any memories to occur, and thus, memories of extremely early infant abuse (so, for example, before the age of 3 years, a period which is usually forgotten due to natural 'childhood amnesia'); or of abuse that took place while one was unconscious are unlikely to be accurate. 

Memories that have been directed by dreams or hypnosis are notoriously unreliable, because dreams are not ordinarily direct playbacks of experience, but involve distortions or confabulations. Furthermore, the data of dreams is generally ambiguous. Hypnosis and other techniques that work upon a person’s suggestibility must be used with great caution lest one create memories by suggestion rather than unlocking and retrieving them by careful questioning. 

Furthermore, memories are often mixed; some parts are accurate and some are not. Separating the two can be especially troublesome, especially when such memories (such as that of childhood abuse) will have grave consequences – such as the breakdown of a family or criminal proceedings being taken against someone identified as a perpetrator in a dream. 

While it would be highly unconscionable and immoral to ignore accusations of abuse, or discredit them as 'false' because they surfaced in a dream, it is also unethical to act upon such memories as if they are accurate without any supporting evidence or attempt by a therapist to separate the real from the imagined or delusional. Children are especially vulnerable to suggestion and the influence of adults, and even adult memories may be pliable and subject to the suggestible nature of therapeutic intervention, or for example, media coverage of an event.

I watched a documentary entitled Child of Rage: A Story of Abuse (1990) which featured a child, 'Beth' who was adopted as an infant, along with her baby brother. It later emerged that Beth had suffered from sexual abuse at the hands of her biological father, resulting in developing reactive attachment disorder. This manifested (in Beth's case) in inappropriate sexual behaviour (daily public masturbation and molestation of her younger brother); extreme violence towards her family and pets (she killed a number of baby birds and harmed dogs and cats); and a lack of any kind of moral conscience. While the fact of the abuse taking place is not in any way disputed, it was interesting to note that during a therapy session, Beth was able to vividly recount a nightmare which contained flashbacks to the abuse which happened to her when she was 1 year old. It is interesting to note, that Beth's adoptive mother, Nancy, was an advocate of the highly controversial 'attachment therapy', which is used to treat traumatised individuals abused in childhood. It is not regarded as a mainstream psychological technique, and has been labelled as dangerous pseudoscience, by some critics - particularly as it endorses coercion, aversion and restraint (some of these methods are used as a form of punishment). Children are made to regress back to early infancy, in order to be 'rebirthed'. In one notable case, the asphyxiation (during the 'rebirthing' process) of an abuse victim, Candace Newmaker led to her death and criminal proceedings being brought against the therapist Connell Watkins.

Loftus in Remembering Dangerously (1995) states that in an age where we are more knowledgeable about the extent and seriousness of child abuse, some accused individuals are being imprisoned on the 'evidence' provided by memories that come back in dreams and flashbacks - memories that did not exist until a person was admitted into therapy and was asked point-blank: 'were you ever sexually abused as a child?' If the individual believes they might have been abused, the process of excavating the 'repressed' memories through invasive therapeutic techniques, such as age regression, guided visualization, trance writing, dream work, body work, and hypnosis begins, and this can have devastating consequences, not simply because it may lead to a miscarriage of justice and the wrongful accusation of another person, but because it is likely to also encourage the individual to 're-live' the (imagined or suggested) trauma and suffer the adverse effects of believing they have been subjected to childhood sexual abuse. 

Loftus (1995) recounts a case study about false memories of Satanic ritual to illustrate the point. The case was described by expert witnesses (Rogers 1992) and is briefly reviewed by Loftus & Ketcham (1994).

A woman in her mid-70s and her recently deceased husband were accused by their two adult daughters of rape, sodomy, forced oral sex, torture by electric shock, and the ritualistic murder of babies. The older daughter, 48 years old at the time of the lawsuit, testified that she was abused from infancy until age 25 years. The younger daughter alleged abuse from infancy to age 15 years. A granddaughter also claimed that she was abused by her grandmother from infancy to age 8 years.

The memories were recovered when the adult daughters went into therapy in 1987 and 1988. After the breakup of her third marriage, the older daughter started psychotherapy, eventually diagnosing herself as a victim of multiple-personality disorder and satanic ritual abuse. She convinced her sister and her niece to begin therapy and joined in their therapy sessions for the first year. The 2 sisters also attended group therapy with other multiple-personality-disorder patients who claimed to be victims of satanic ritual abuse.

In therapy, the older sister recalled a horrifying incident that occurred when she was 4 or 5 years old. Her mother caught a rabbit, chopped off one of its ears, smeared the blood over her body, and then handed the knife to her, expecting her to kill the animal. When she refused, her mother poured scalding water over her arms. When she was 13 years old and her sister was still in diapers, a group of Satanists demanded that the sisters disembowel a dog with a knife. She remembered being forced to watch as a man (who threatened to divulge the secrets of the Satantic cult) was burned with a torch. Other members of the cult were subjected to electric shocks in rituals that took place in a cave. The cult even made her murder her own newborn baby. When asked for more details about these horrific events, she testified in court that her memory was impaired because she was frequently drugged by the cult members.

The younger sister remembered being molested on a piano bench by her father while his friends watched. She recalled being impregnated by members of the cult at ages 14 and 16 years, and that both pregnancies were ritually aborted. She remembered one incident in the library where she had to eat a jar of pus and another jar of scabs. Her daughter remembered seeing her grandmother in a black robe carrying a candle, being drugged on 2two occasions and forced to ride in a limousine with several prostitutes.

The jury found the accused woman guilty of neglect. It did not find any intent to harm and thus refused to award monetary damages. Attempts to appeal the decision have failed.

There are questions as to the authenticity of these memories. The infancy memories are almost certainly false memories, given the scientific literature on childhood amnesia. Moreover, no evidence in the form of bones or dead bodies was ever produced which might have corroborated the human-sacrifice memories recounted by the women. The question as to where these likely false memories originated from remains. George Ganaway, a clinical assistant professor of psychiatry, has proposed that unwitting suggestions from therapy play an important role in the development of false Satanic memories in such cases.

Other evidence of how reckless or irresponsible therapeutic methods may cause false memories comes from several cases in which private investigators, posing as patients, have gone undercover into therapists’ offices (Loftus 1993). 

In one case, the pseudopatient visited the therapist complaining about nightmares and trouble sleeping. On the third visit to the therapist, the investigator was told that she was an incest survivor. In another case, Cable News Network (CNN, 1993) sent an undercover employee to the offices of an Ohio psychotherapist (who was supervised by a psychologist), wired with a hidden video camera. The pseudopatient complained of feeling depressed and having recent relationship problems with her husband. In the first session, the therapist diagnosed 'incest survivor', telling the pseudopatient she was a 'classic case'. When the pseudopatient returned for her second session, puzzled about her lack of memory, the therapist told her that her reaction was typical and that she had repressed the memory because the trauma was too horrific for her conscious mind to recall. A third case, based on surreptitious recordings of a therapist from the Southwestern region of the United States, was inspired by the previous efforts.

In the summer of 1993, a woman ('W') had a serious problem. Her older sister, a struggling artist, had a dream which she reported to her therapist, who interpreted it as evidence of a history of sexual abuse. Ultimately the sister confronted the parents in a videotaped session at the therapist’s office. The parents were mortified by the allegations, which were denied and the family was wrenched irreparably apart.

W tried desperately to find out more about the sister’s therapy. On her own initiative, she hired a private investigator to pose as a patient and seek therapy from the sister’s therapist. The private investigator called herself 'Ruth'. She visited the therapist (a counsellor) twice, and secretly tape-recorded both of the sessions.

In the first session, Ruth told the therapist that she had been rear-ended in an auto accident a few months earlier and was having trouble getting over it. Ruth said that she would just sit for weeks and cry for no apparent reason. The therapist seemed totally disinterested in getting any history regarding the accident, but instead wanted to talk about Ruth’s childhood. While discussing her early life, Ruth volunteered a recurring dream that she had had in childhood and said the dream had now returned. In the dream she is 4 or 5 years old and there is a massive white bull after her that catches her and gores her somewhere in the upper thigh area, leaving her covered with blood.

The therapist decided that the stress and sadness that Ruth was currently experiencing was tied to her childhood, since she’d had the same dream as a child. She decided the 'night terrors' were evidence that Ruth was suffering from post-traumatic-stress disorder (PTSD). It was decided that they would use guided imagery to find the source of the childhood trauma. Before actually launching this approach, the therapist informed Ruth that she (the therapist), was an incest survivor, stating: 'I was incested by my grandfather'.

During the guided imagery, Ruth was asked to imagine herself as a very young child. She then talked about the trauma of her parents’ divorce and of her father’s remarriage to a younger woman who resembled Ruth herself. The therapist wanted to know if Ruth’s father had had affairs, and she told Ruth that hers had, and that this was a 'generational' thing that came from the grandfathers. The therapist led Ruth through confusing/suggestive/manipulative imagery, involving a man holding down a little girl somewhere in a bedroom. 

The therapist decided that Ruth was suffering from a 'major grief issue' and told her it was sexual, stating: 'I don’t think, with the imagery and his marrying someone who looks like you, that it could be anything else'.

In the second session, when Ruth questioned the idea that she was the victim of childhood sexual abuse, she was told that the dreams of being held down by her father in a bedroom, and the imagery of blood on thighs, gave a clear and persuasive indication of sexual abuse. Even when Ruth expressed doubt, the therapist would not be convinced otherwise. She told Ruth that many people cannot recall early childhood abuse, and the memories had probably been triggered by her car accident. 

The therapist then shared her own experienced of childhood abuse, which had resulted in her adopting destructive behaviours, such as excessive drinking and spending, developing anorexia nervosa and bulimia etc. She then encouraged Ruth to read a book about recovering and healing from childhood sexual abuse, and made reference to the sections on confronting the perpetrator/abuser, which although not suitable for all, may be a very empowering experience. The therapist then recounted her treatment of W's sister, in such detail, that it was possible for Ruth to identify the patient. 

The therapist described how memory may be sometimes inaccurate in terms of ages, times or places. She then told Ruth about a 'new memory' recalled by W's sister, which had emerged while she was laying awake in bed. The memory involved her hands moving uncontrollably fast - faster than would be possible in real-life - and implicated the act of masturbating a male. 

Ruth's mother was then brought into her second session, towards the end. It was suggested to her that she was guilty of neglecting or betraying Ruth. When Ruth again questioned the possibility that her imagination was responsible for the memories, she was told that it would be highly unlikely that she would imagine such a traumatic and negative experience - in the therapist's view, it would be more likely that her imagination would have created a positive or pleasant false memory. She also stated that a therapist friend had indicated that the only proof you require in order to determine if something really happened was that the person thinks that it did. The therapist would not be persuaded away from her abuse-agenda and she brought this interpretation of events into every aspect of her therapy with Ruth - from the way Ruth answered questions, to her approach to dreaming.

Some authors have offered individual case studies as evidence that a stream of traumas can be massively repressed, although such studies may omit to include critical information relevant to the issues. Take for example, the case of Jennifer H, offered by Kandel & Kandel (1994) which describes a corroborated de-repressed memory. 

According to the case study, Jennifer was a 23 year old musician who recovered memories in therapy of her father raping her from the ages of 4 - 17 years. As her memories resurfaced, her panic attacks and other symptoms receded. Her father, a mechanical-engineering professor, denied any abuse took place. Jennifer sued her father, and at trial 'corroborative evidence' was produced: Jennifer’s mother testified that she had seen the father lying on top of Jennifer’s 14 year old sister, and that he had once fondled a babysitter who was in her early teens at the time of the sexual assault. The defendant’s sister recalled him propositioning young girls. However, the account by Kandel & Kandel neglects to include some important facts which are relevant to how we interpret this matter.

Jennifer’s case against her father went to trial in June 1993 in the U.S. District Court for the District of Massachusetts (Hoult v Hoult, (1993)) and received considerable media attention. From the trial transcript, we learn that Jennifer, the oldest of 4 children, began therapy in the fall of 1984 with an unlicensed New York psychotherapist (for problems with her boyfriend and divided loyalties surrounding her parents’ divorce). 

Over the next year or so, Jennifer reportedly experienced recurring nightmares with violent themes, and waking terrors. Her therapist practiced a Gestalt method of therapy, in which Jennifer was encouraged to visualise events from the past. She claimed: 'I started the same thing of shutting my eyes and just trying to feel the feelings and not let them go away really fast. And [my therapist] just said ‘Can you see anything?’...I couldn’t see anything..and then all of a sudden I saw this carved bedpost from my room when I was a child...And then T saw my father, and I could feel him sitting on the bed next to me, and he was pushing me down, and I was saying, ‘No’. And he started pushing up my nightgown and...was touching me with his hands on my breast, and then between my legs, and then he was touching me with his mouth..and then it just all like went away. It was like...on TV if there is all static...It was, all of a sudden it was plusssssh, all stopped. And then I slowly opened my eyes in the session and I said, ‘I never knew that happened to me'.

Later Jennifer would have flashbacks that were so vivid that she could feel the lumpy blankets of her childhood bed. She remembered her father choking her and raping her in her parents bedroom when she was about 12 or 13 years old. She remembered her father threatening to rape her with a fishing pole in the den when she was about 6 or 7 years old. She remembers her father raping her in the basement when she was in high school. The rape stopped just as her mother called down for them to come to dinner. She remembered her father raping her at her grandparents home when she was in high school, while the large family were cooking and kids were playing. She remembered her father threatening to cut her with a letter opener, holding a kitchen knife to her throat. She remembered him chasing her through the house with knives, trying to kill her, when she was about 13 years old.

Jennifer also remembered a couple of incidents involving her mother. She remembered one time when she was raped in the bathroom and went to her mother wrapped in a towel with blood dripping. She remembered another incident, in which her father was raping her in her parents’ bedroom and her mother came to the door and said: 'David'. The father then stopped raping her and went out to talk to the mother. Jennifer’s mother said she had no recollection of these events, or of any sexual abuse taking place. An expert witness testifying for Jennifer said it is common in cases of incest that mothers ignore the signs of abuse.

Jennifer was involved in years of therapy. During the course of her memory development, Jennifer joined numerous sexual-abuse survivor groups, read books about sexual abuse, wrote letters and newspaper columns on sexual abuse and contacted legislators. In one letter, written to the President of Barnard College on 7 February 1987, Jennifer claimed: 'I am a victim of incestuous abuse by my father and physical abuse by my mother'. 

In another letter to her friend Jane, written in January 1988, she talked about her therapy, stating: 'Well, my memories came out...when I would sit and focus on my feelings which I believe I call visualization exercises because I would try to visualize what I was feeling or be able to bring into my eyes what I could see'. She told Jane about her Gestalt therapy: 'In Gestalt therapy, the sub-personalities are allowed to take over and converse with one another and hopefully resolve their conflicts. Each personality gets a different chair, and when one new one starts to speak, the individual changes into that personality’s seat. It sounds weird, and it is. But is also an amazing journey into one’s self. I’ve come to recognize untold universes within myself. It feels often very much like a cosmic battle when they ate all warring with one another'.

In one letter, written on 11 January 1989, to another rape survivor, Jennifer said that her father had raped her approximately 3,000 times. In another letter, dated 30 January 1989, she wrote: 'Underneath all the tinsel and glitter was my father raping me every 2 days. My mother smiling and pretending not to know what the hell was going on, and probably Dad abusing my siblings as well'. In a letter written on 24 April 1989, to Mother Jones magazine she said that she had survived hundreds of rapes by her father.

Before October 1985, Jennifer testified, she didn’t 'know' that her father had ever put his penis in her vagina, or that he had put his penis in her mouth, or that he put his mouth on her vagina. She paid her therapist $19,329.59 to acquire that knowledge.

In summary, Jennifer reported that she had been molested by her father from the ages of 4 - 17 years of age; that she was molested hundreds if not thousands of times, even if she could not remember all of the incidents; that this sometimes happened with many family members nearby, and with her mother’s 'involvement' in some instances; and that she buried these memories until she was 24 years or age, at which time they purportedly began to return to her. 

These are a few of the key facts that the Kandels left out of their case study. Jennifer was on the stand for nearly 3 days during the trial of her father. She had 'experts' to testify that they believed her memories were real. These experts were apparently unaware of, or unwilling to heed, Yapko’s (1994) warnings about the impossibility (without independent corroboration), of distinguishing reality from invention and his urgings that symptoms by themselves cannot establish the existence of past abuse. At trial, Jennifer’s fathers defence was that the memories were implausible and false. The jury awarded Jennifer $500,000.


Alien Abduction, Demonic Visitation, Hauntings & Sleep Paralysis
The creation of false memories through dreams is not limited to theme of childhood sexual abuse. For example, many 'alien abduction' accounts have been attributed to false memory syndrome and dreaming. Research from Harvard University (Clancy, 2005) has suggested that many memories of alien abduction - or alien visitation - occur during false awakenings and sleep paralysis. This is because, often, sleep paralysis is accompanied by visual or auditory hallucinations, such as flashing lights or buzzing noises. The dreamer may see figures and feel the physical presence of another being in their bedroom. Sleep paralysis occurs when the ordinary separation between wakefulness and sleep goes out of synchronization. It has been described as 'dreaming with your eyes open'. I tend to describe this phenomenon as a 'limbo' between dreams and reality. This experience encourages the dreamer to believe that they are actually awake and really experiencing events, which may include levitation, electric shock, probing or sexual penetration by the alien being. 

Clancy states that 25% of the population experience sleep paralysis, with 5% experiencing hallucinations which appear to suggest alien abduction to the dreamer. The individual who seeks therapy to explain what has happened, may undergo processes such as hypnosis, regression, guided imagery and relaxation, all of which may place them in a suggestible frame of mind, which further validates their memories of what happened and convinces them that this was an actual event, not a simple dream. False awakenings with sleep paralysis and hypnagogic hallucinations may also explain accounts of demonic visitation and hauntings by ghosts, as well as the occurrence of other paranormal phenomena which resists alternative explanation. 

There is a wealth of literature on the phenomenon of false memory syndrome and dreaming. This article contains a few notable studies and examples, but entire theses and books have been dedicated to the theme and research into this area continues.

Thursday, 17 March 2016

Dream 587

'My Nan Takes my Side'
Dream date: 16 March 2016

This is Day 17 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE. 

This is the second dream which took place on 16 March 2016. The first was during a period of sleep I took in the night, before waking up in the early hours. This is recorded on my Dream Journal as Dream 586 ('Eliminating Potential Witnesses'), and this was a very interesting dream in light of my Dream Incubation Experiment (Serial Killer Dream). I highly recommend you have a read and see what you think!

This current dream took place when I returned to sleep at around 06:30 hours.

Scene 1: My Nan's House (Sheringham) - Afternoon/Early Evening
This dream took place mainly in my Nan's living-room in her house in Sheringham. There were certain times when I became aware of another dream location, but these were not new 'dream scenes' - more like visualisations, with me remaining within the main scene. You will see what I mean as you read the dream report :) 

I was with my Nan and my cousin HM. My cousin HM was her adult self, but in some ways, reminded me of her younger self, before she was married and had a child. HM had some form of homework to do (HM is not an academic person and has not had any education beyond high school). I wanted us to go out, so I said I would help her with the homework. In fact, I ended up deciding it was easier to do the homework by myself, so I almost immediately told HM she should go and get ready for us to go out after it was completed. As I looked at the homework, I was aware I could not really read the text, it was scrambled and I wasn't sure if I was looking at letters or numbers. I thought the assignment was to put names together in pairs, so I attempted to do this. I am not sure if I completed the assignment and thought I had done so badly, or whether I gave up completely, as I recall not being satisfied with my performance, and wondering how HM had been set homework, which I - as a PhD student - was unable to do effectively. 

HM was sitting in the chair I usually sit in when at my Nan's house - the one by the kitchen door. My Nan was in the kitchen. I stood behind the sofa. The lights were on in the room, giving me an impression of bright yellow. HM was cross-legged. She was wearing white shoes or socks. I said: 'We should get ready to go out' - I was imagining a scene by the sea at the bottom of the high street, where there are several pubs. There were many local people and tourists all drinking and having fun - like it was a carnival celebration. It was dusk in this vision. I wanted to go there now, myself with HM and join the party. HM said: 'We have to go to my Dad's first' - HM's dad does live near my Nan, but not in the same town, although in the dream it seemed like HM's dad (RC) lived just down the road. I said: 'Well if I get ready now and we get some alcohol, we can pre-drink at your dad's and then go on to the party'. This seemed like an efficient way to save time - the indication was that we were only going to HM's dad's house for a brief visit -I think HM had to drop something off, or pick something up. 

I went upstairs to get changed. I wore a black cocktail-style dress - much like the one shown in the image below. This is not at all something I would have chosen to wear in real-life, as it is far too plain and conservative for what I would wear if dressing up - I am either super-casual or super-dressed up. Even in the dream I thought it was an odd choice of dress for me, and was wondering if it would suit me. I saw myself in third-person perspective admiring myself wearing the dress (preening). I felt confident I was well-dressed. I could not tell what upstairs room I was in, as I only saw myself, none of the furniture.

I went back downstairs. HM was still sat in the same chair. My Nan was sitting in her usual place, in front of the TV. I said to HM: 'You should have got the alcohol, I did your homework so we could go out!' HM was being hostile or obstructive. She said, in an angry way: 'I don't want you getting drunk near my Dad like you did last time!' I was shocked by her attitude and the fact she clearly did not know what really happened. I said: 'Your dad likes drinking and was also drunk. I stopped drinking, but he was the one trying to get me to drink more'. I was thinking about the real-life event (see Dream Information, below) and had an accurate memory of what happened. I was feeling really annoyed that HM was challenging me. She said: 'No, you can't get drunk near my Dad!' I again protested, saying: 'Your dad was giving me more drink and I refused it!' I walked round to where my Nan was sitting and stood beside her. I said: 'Nanny, you were there and saw what happened!' My Nan said: 'HM, I sympathise with [my real-life name]'s position on this one'. I felt vindicated. 

I woke up from the dream.

TIME: 06:30 - 14:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)
LUCIDITY: NO
SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:
  • HM's dad, RC, was married to my aunt, VF, when they were teenagers. HM is the only child they have together, and they separated, both having further children with subsequent spouses. My family have remained in close contact with RC and he usually comes to family functions, such as the respective birthday parties of my cousin JC1 and JC2, as RC is good friends with GC, my uncle (VF and my Mum's brother). I had been talking to RC at JC2's 18th birthday party and we had smoked a joint together with GC in the garden. I had then been talking to some of the teenage guests in the garden, while continuing to smoke weed. RC had tried to find me, with a second bottle of Prosecco which I had brought to the party, but declined to drink, because after one, I felt I was drunk enough to enjoy myself without getting too intoxicated, so was trying to moderate my drinking. My Mum and my Nan had told RC that I probably shouldn't be encouraged to drink any more alcohol, as I had started smoking weed and drinking soft drinks. This was the specific memory which I 'remembered' in the dream

Dreamsigns:
  • I was unable to read in the dream - see my article on 'Reading in Dreams' which explains this phenomenon
  • I saw myself from the third-person perspective

Recurrent Dream Themes:

Potential Day/Dream Residue:
  • I had an earlier dream that night about an assignment which was causing me difficulty - however I could read text in that dream, whereas I was having great difficulty in this dream, that being the issue which made the assignment virtually impossible
  • I had been annoyed when my Nan refused to concede to a point I had made (regarding comments made, which I disagreed with on a political and personal level) which implicated HM - or at least, had caused me to consider her implicated. I am aware my Nan was just trying to stay neutral on the issue, but because I felt it directly affected me and not anyone else in my family, I had been annoyed that no-one was backing me up, especially my Nan, who usually always does
  • Considering this was the second dream of the same night, it is interesting to note that I had just uploaded a video to my Tallulah La Ghash Youtube Channel (click on red links to be taken to a new page) about 'How to Remember Your Dreams' and one method for remembering more than one dream per night mentioned in that video, was the technique of waking yourself up from each stage of REM sleep which occurs in the sleep cycle. I do not do this, myself. However, on this occasion, I naturally woke up after the first dream (Dream 586 - 'Eliminating Potential Witnesses'), even though I had not got my usual amount of sleep

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was clearly not related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but it felt quite significant. In fact, it felt like a 'wish fulfilment' dream, such as Freud's dream of 'Irma's Injection' where the dream was interpreted by Freud as - in part - symbolising his 'wish' to be absolved from blame regarding the health of one of his patients. The dream provided him with the answer to who was to blame for Irma's decline - a 'bad injection' by a physician and friend of Freud, and thus, fulfilled his wish of being  guiltless. I encourage you to click on the link to read the article about Freud's 'Irma's Injection' Dream, not only because it is a fascinating dream, but it is regarded as the 'specimen' dream of the psychoanalytic movement, and the one which enabled Freud to develop the psychoanalytic method of dream interpretation. It is also a good demonstration of how day residue influences the content of dreams. 

Dream 586

'Eliminating Potential Witnesses'
Dream date: 16 March 2016

This is Day 17 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE. I am not sure if this counts as a relevant dream in relation to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as there was a reference to 'eliminating witnesses', and a hit-man task, but no violence actually took place in the dream.

This dream took place early in my sleep. I tried to get an 'early night' by going to bed at 22:00 hours, but I woke from this dream at 02:00 hours.

Scene 1: A Boardroom/Classroom (Location Unknown) - Day
I was in a boardroom - or a classroom - sitting around a long table with a group of dream characters who were all adult students on the same course as me. I am not sure what course this was, but the assignment we had been given was to plan and host a party for a group of very fancy guests. I was with one person who I know from real-life - a female - although I cannot recall who this was. 

In order to assign ourselves specific tasks for the event planning, we had a large, dark blue leather bound manual, with many pages. The manual contained all the tasks which needed to be completed by us students and we had to read through and nominate ourselves for the task we thought we would be best placed to complete. The event would have a 3-course meal and live music and entertainment. There was only one manual, which needed to be passed around each of us. 

I was keen to plan the menu for the dinner (listed in the manual as 'organise the ingredients into delicious meals for the guests'). I nominated myself for this job. One mature male (in his 50s) with a grey beard said: 'No, that's the job I want'. I stood up and walked down the table to where this male dream character was, and said: 'Everyone who has experience of working in a professional kitchen, raise your hand' (in order to see if anyone had more experience than me, having worked in a professional catering environment for 7 years during my teenage and early adult years, and then returning to a job in catering several years ago to earn some extra money). Every single person raised their hand. I asked the mature male dream character, who was the most keen to do this task 'Have you got more experience than me?' to which he replied: 'I am a chef'. I allowed him to take this job, but was not happy that he got to plan the menu. We had to write our name next to our chosen task. I had hold of the manual, and returned to my seat at the top of the table, to write his name (unknown/unrecalled) next to the menu planning task. He came to sit next to me (so I was between my real-life friend and him) and said: 'You can help me, so put your name second'. I was grateful, but knew I still needed to nominate myself for my own task. I laid the manual on the table so my friend and I could see which tasks we wanted. The mature male tried to move the manual towards himself, and I said: 'No, leave it in the middle so X (my unrecalled friend) can see, you don't need to look anymore as you have chosen your task'. He relented. He suggested I nominate myself for 'costumes', but I thought that it was a difficult task, as I would have to get details of all the dress sizes of the guests and then order costumes of my choice for each, which seemed like a lot of work. I started reading through the manual, but it was so long! The pages were the very thin type you get in Bibles. I stopped on one page, which interested me. 

The task I was drawn to, was called 'Swim with Fishes: Eliminating Potential Witnesses' and this entailed 'getting rid' of unwanted persons on the guest list (like a hit man, it seemed). I thought my legal training might come in useful here. In this section of the manual, there was a list of the 'unwanted' guests on the 'hit list' and underneath, a list of possible students in our group who might know them personally - based on living in the same location. I found I could easily read the writing - it seemed to be in normal text, with normal spelling, which is unusual in a dream, as often text is bizarre and does not look as it should. The list started with the name of a female, called 'Shellee [last name beginning with S, which I cannot recall]. Underneath, it suggested that I (my real name appearing in text) might know her (because she came from Sheringham) as well as a few other students in my group, including someone called 'Ghaboni' (note my real-last name starts with 'Ghash'). I thought 'I don't know Shellee', then I realised I did because she was actually a colleague of my Mum's and my Mum had mentioned her (this was a dream memory - my Mum has never mentioned she works with a 'Shellee' in real-life, nor can I recall someone of this name in real-life). I was therefore, not keen to 'eliminate her'. Underneath Shellee's name was a band, called 'Phrob of Phrones' (which in the dream was a play on Game of Thrones). This band apparently would play at The Crown, a local pub in Sheringham, although my name was not noted as someone in my group who might know them. I thought: 'I don't know this band, but they have a stupid name with a stupid, confusing spelling - phonetically it was supposed to be pronounced 'Throb of Thrones' in the dream). I then read the names of the unwanted guests beneath that, many of which lived in posh, wealthy, upper-class areas of London, such as Knightsbridge, Chelsea or Kensington. I felt jealous that many of my peers in my group also seemed to live in these areas, and were named as potential people who knew these guests. I decided that to 'eliminate potential witnesses' would be far too much work: I would have to travel to where they lived, find them and then eliminate (kill) them before the party'. I decided to keep looking through the manual. I was worried I was holding onto it for a long time, due to my indecision over what task to select, but then noticed the girl (female dream character) seated next to 'the chef' (who was seated to my right) had already photocopied the manual and therefore did not require it to be passed to her. I kept looking at it. I then woke up.

TIME: 22:00 - 02:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)
LUCIDITY: NO
SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:
  • None of note

Dreamsigns:
  • One of the tasks was the 'eliminate potential witnesses'

Recurrent Dream Themes:
  • None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:
  • The day of this dream, a newly added (and unknown) male on my Facebook contacted me and chatted about law and imprisonment. He then indicated that he was a chef and worked freelance, specialising in molecular gastronomy.  He asked me out for a coffee, and I said 'maybe' but indicated that I lived a long distance away, so it would depend on him being in my local area for work, and me being in the right frame of mind to meet, given I don't like to meet people I simply know 'online' even if they have a number of mutual friends who I do know in real-life. This is the link between the legal references in the dream 'eliminating witnesses' and the catering aspect (menu planning)
  • The day before this dream I had told someone - I cannot remember who - about my experiences in working in professional kitchens and my love of cooking
  • The day of this dream I had seen a name very similar to 'Ghaboni' on my Facebook friends list, and thought than it sounded like a cross between an Iranian and Italian name (many Iranian names start with 'Gha' like my own)
  • The day before this dream I had been reading about my icon, Amy Winehouse (plus I recorded a Youtube video for my Tallulah La Ghash channel while wearing my hair and makeup in an Amy-inspired style). The section I was reading about was her former husband, Blake Fielder-Civil's arrest and conviction (in 2009) for perverting the course of justice. Fielder-Civil and a co-defendant, Brown had caused s. 18 Grievous Bodily Harm (GBH) with Intent on a pub landlord, King in 2007. Fielder-Civil and Brown, then recruited 2 men to act as a go-between and offer King a substantial sum of money (thought to have been provided by Amy Winehouse, although this was not proven) in order to not give evidence against them in the GBH trial, which would potentially lead to the case being thrown out of court, as the lead witness (the victim) would not be testifying against them. The 'middlemen' then tried to make profits from Fielder-Civil and Brown, by threatening to expose evidence of the witness interference and bribe, which led to Fielder-Civil, Brown and King being charged with perverting the course of justice (King had accepted the money and agreed not to testify in the GBH trial). This was an interesting case of double-duplicity
  • The day before this dream, a friend of a friend had received a note from the police asking him to attend at the police station, but refusing to give him details of what they wanted to interview him about. He asked 'how can I find out who snitched on me?'

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was really interesting - not because of the manifest content, which was pretty banal, but the associations I was able to draw from it and the links to my day residue. This was also a dream which may have been linked to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as I had effectively been provided with a 'hit list' of 'witnesses' to 'eliminate' which had the implication I would be hunting them down to kill them. This seems like the actions of a serial killer! However, like all my dreams which have referred to murder or killing, I was reluctant to get involved in the dream- although for reasons of laziness as opposed to morality in this case. It is interesting that the 'unwanted guests' were referred to as 'witnesses' in the manual. 'Sleep with the fishes'  is a phrase which  appears in the classic movie The Godfather (1972). It refers to being killed and the body being disposed of in deep water. This adds a very exciting and significant perspective to this dream.

Dream 585

'I've Seen This Before'
Dream date: 15 March 2016

This is Day 16 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in my Nan's house in Sheringham. SH, a girl I went to high school with, had moved into my Nan's house with her, abandoning her partner and several children. I was wondering why my Nan had let her move in, because this meant that she would be using my bedroom (the other 3 bedrooms in my Nan's council house are used are the main room, which my Nan uses; the 'back bedroom' which used to belong to VF, which contains all my belongings in storage; and the box room, which used to belong to my uncle GC, and is used for storage by my Nan). My Nan did not want to explain her decision to me, and I was following her around the downstairs of the house, questioning her and not giving up. I do not know where SH was. I was feeling frustrated. I cannot remember what else happened.

Scene 3: An Art Gallary (Location Unknown) - Day
I was then in an art gallery, which was painted white. It was filled with visitors. I cannot recall any art being on the walls, but I was in a particular room which was showing video installations and art films. I was standing slightly to the side of the section where they were showing Salvador Dali & Luis Buñuel's Un Chien Andalou (1929), a surrealist film, which shows a woman's eye being sliced by a razor (an actual dead animal's eye was used for this scene). In real-life I have always been unable to watch this scene as it makes me feel too squeamish. In the dream, I ducked down behind a white bench on the gallery floor, so that I could no longer see the film showing. I managed to time this just right, so I missed the scene with the eye. I felt very pleased with myself and 'remembered' (in the dream) about managing to do this in real-life when the scene with the eye was shown recently on a TV show (my 'memory' was seeing this scene at DL's flat on his TV and telling him 'don't look now' - I am not sure if this ever took place in real-life, or was a 'fake dream memory i.e. an example of 'dream déjà vu'). It seemed that I realised that this was a 'dream scene' reproducing a real-life memory within the dream - I was thinking: 'I've seen this before in real-life'. However, I did not become lucid, although I think this was a pre or semi-lucid dream

TIME: 03:30 - 11:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)
LUCIDITY: PRE-LUCID/ SEMI-LUCID DREAM - Realisation that I had seen a dream scene before in waking life i.e. recognizing a distinction between the real world and the dream world
SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:
  • None of note

Dreamsigns:
  • None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes:
  • Someone else sleeping in a bedroom which used to be mine

Potential Day/Dream Residue:
  • The day before this dream I had explained the concept of dream déjà vu to someone on the lucid dreaming page I follow on Facebook. I used the phrase 'seen before'. This is quite compelling given the nature of my own dream déjà vu in this dream - seeing a scene where an eye is blinded by a razor
  • The day before this dream I was explaining my approach to dream interpretation (neo-Freudian) to someone else on the lucid dream page - I was telling the person who asked me to help them about day residue and latent/manifest content

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was not related to my Dream Incubation Experiment in any way. It was quite a banal dream, other than the fact that I had a 'dream memory' which was quite clear in the dream. The dream memory was me 'seeing' the allegedly real-life event play out - me and DL sitting on his sofa, watching the eye scene from Un Chien Andalou, which seemed to be shown as a clip on a TV show - perhaps one of the music documentaries that we sometimes watch in the early hours of the morning on BBC4. In my dream I was aware that the 'remembered' scene had 'replayed' to me in the dream scene which took place in the art gallery, as I explained above, allowing me to be able to mentally distinguish (while in the dream state) between what I was experiencing in the dream and the real-world, where I supposedly watched Un Chien Andalou with DL. When I spoke to DL about this dream, he did not indicate that the real-life 'memory' was accurate or that we had ever watched the clip from Un Chien Andalou together, he simply said: 'I can't watch that scene either' - as if implicitly accepting that this was just part of my dream, not based on real-life events/memories. This was a very interesting way in which day residue and verbal associations were linked.

Wednesday, 16 March 2016

Dream 584

'Living with a Psycho'
Dream date: 14 March 2016

This is Day 15 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

This dream was so frustrating! It was a very relevant dream to my Dream Incubation Experiment - I was being forced to live with a child-killing psychopath! Unfortunately, as soon as I woke up and was consolidating my dream memory, ready to record it, I received a call on my mobile phone, which distracted me, and I forgot most of the details of the dream!

Scene 1: A Bedroom (Location Unknown) - Time Unknown
I was in a bedroom, which was large and quite dark, although I am not sure if it was day or night. Everything just looked dimly lit. There were a number of beds in the room, all of them with grey bed covers. There was a male dream character with me - I cannot describe what he looked like, as I cannot remember, but he was quite young, perhaps in his 30s or so. He had a hostile personality. I was aware he was my room-mate and we both lived in the bedroom together. I was also aware that he was a psychopathic child-murderer and was an evil, horrible person, but I had no choice but to live with him. He was telling me that I had to sleep in the bed what he chose for me, despite the fact there were many available beds in the room, and only he and I lived there. He was saying things to me which made me hate him more - he was so nasty and vicious, and my knowledge of his criminal background made me want to escape from him and have him arrested by the police, but I was resigned to the fact I had to remain in the bedroom, living with him. There was a lot of conversation - an argument - although not violent. I cannot remember what was said. At some point another dream character entered the room and as I looked towards the doorway, I became aware that the bedroom was just a larger version of my childhood bedroom in my former home in Pine Grove, Sheringham. This was a very clear thought. I cannot recall anything else about this scene.

Scene 2: A Small Grocery Store (Location Unknown) - Night
I was then in a small grocery store - it actually looked (in lay-out) very much like the one on the road opposite my former childhood home in Pine Grove, other than the cashier was positioned in a slightly different location in relation to the doorway. I was aware that this was not the same real-life shop, because I was on a 'university campus' - although I don't think it was my real-life university either. It was night and I was in the shop with another dream character - a male. I am not sure who it was, but it was someone I know in real-life, an actual friend of mine. We were browsing the produce in the store, looking at snack foods. I then heard a familiar voice and looked up to see EB (a former friend) was at the cashier's till, waiting to pay for some alcoholic drinks. I was aware that he would need my 'ID card' to make the purchase - as only people attending the university could purchase alcohol from this shop. This was despite EB not appearing to know I was actually in the shop - because the shelf I was looking at was behind him, so I was not in his field of vision. I quickly ran over to a tall stand-up freezer unit - and crouched down beside it, 'hiding' from EB. My companion male dream character asked what I was doing, so I told him. I then watched EB - the cashier refused to serve him without someone's ID to validate him. EB was arguing, but to no avail. Suddenly, the bottles of alcohol he was still holding in each hand shot a stream of liquid into the air, like an ejaculating penis.

TIME: 02:30 - 10:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)
LUCIDITY: NO
SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:
  • In real-life, at my university, the campus is open to public - but if you want to visit the student union bar, you must be accompanied by a student with a campus ID card, due to a change in rules a couple of years ago - EB used to come to visit me and go to the bar, but needed me to vouch for him as a visitor before he could buy a drink - although they don't actually police this system rigorously at all

Dreamsigns:
  • I was being forced to live with a psychopathic child-killer
Recurrent Dream Themes:
  • Red hair - EB has very ginger hair

Potential Day/Dream Residue:
  • The day before this dream I received a message on Facebook from JN, a friend of EB, whose house we used to visit when I was friends with EB. JN wanted me to go round and hang out with him - he has asked me previously, but I had been too busy with my studies/work. I had concerns EB would be there and I would be forced to talk to him - even though I am confrontational, I think it would be a pointless endeavour, given once my friendship is over with someone, I cut them out of my life ruthlessly (not a necessarily positive trait, but I have to be really pushed to my limits to break the friendship in the first place, it's not a decision taken lightly). EB was a very negative influence in my life, even though he was my best friend
  • The day before this dream, I posted a funny image of a 'geoduck' on my Facebook (because it looks like a huge penis, and in the image - posted below - it looks like it is spraying semen). This resulted in a number of men thinking it was a penis, getting a little bit aroused (no idea - don't ask) and started messaging me in sexually harassing ways

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was so frustrating, because it was fairly relevant to my Dream Incubation Experiment, yet I forgot many many details. Again, it is interesting to note that I was not the serial killer and I was very distressed by being in the presence of another person, who was a serial killer. This dream was not experienced as a nightmare and was not scary.

* I have forgotten many aspects of this dream, but if I recall them subsequently, I will record them below.

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Dream 583

'Red Hair'
Dream date: 13 March 2016

This is Day 14 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. I did not recall a dream from Day 13 (12 March 2016). You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior (Location Unknown) - Day
I was in a domestic interior - it looked like a bedroom or a bedsit flat. The room was filled with normal furniture and possessions, and there was a island counter in the centre of the room, which split the room in half. I am not sure who lived in this location, as it was not my home - I was visiting. I was with a male dream character who was someone I know in real-life, but cannot identify from the dream. This male and I were discussing a female Chinese student, who was also in the room. Something had happened to her family - a natural disaster or accident, which meant that they were unable to send her money. We were both discussing this situation in sympathetic tones. There were 3 Chinese females in the room - 2 were seated at the island counter in front of me. The third was the female who had suffered the 'family tragedy'. She had bright red dyed hair. I admired her hair and thought to myself: 'I wonder how she bleached her naturally black hair in order to dye it red, because whenever I used to do this, it took 3 bleaches to strip out the dark colour'. I decided I wanted to dye my own hair red again, but was worried that - based on my previous, real-life memory of doing this - the red hair dye would come out of my hair whenever it got wet, leaving stains on my clothing. I decided to just dye a section of my hair red at the front, as this would be easier to manage. 

I then saw myself in the third-person. I was lifting up my hair at the back and I had a large bald patch. 

TIME: 06:30 - 12:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)
LUCIDITY: NO
SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:
  • None of note

Dreamsigns:
  • I saw myself in the third-person perspective

Recurrent Dream Themes:
  • None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:
  • The day before this dream I was talking to DL about how I used to have bright red hair and how I once tried to bleach the dye out, leaving it a weird peach colour. I told him my red hair had been as bright as Rihanna's had been a few years ago (see image below). I also asked him what he thought of my current hair - I had used a deep cherry red dye, but it had only shown up on the roots (because that was 'new' natural undyed hair, whereas the rest of my hair would still have the remnants of the navy blue/black dye I usually use). DL said it looked like I intended it to be that way and it looked fine. This discussion took place while we were watching AMY (2015) - the documentary film about Amy Winehouse. Just before I went to sleep and had this dream, I had been re-watching a section of the documentary again
  • The day after this dream, I washed my hair and the current cherry red dye I have in it made the bath water bright red

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was not linked to my Dream Incubation Experiment, and I have forgotten some of what happened - I think I recalled further details about the Chinese girl's family tragedy and this was the 'main theme' of the dream, although I cannot remember enough about what happened to describe it in any further detail.

* I have forgotten some aspects of this dream, but if I recall them subsequently, I will record them below.

Sunday, 13 March 2016

Tallulah La Ghash Guide to Dream Interpretation & Meaning

I have recently received criticism on some of my Youtube videos from people who disagree with dream interpretation being used as a tool by dream explorers such as myself. One person who watched one of my videos told me that it was 'dangerous' to offer to help someone interpret a dream and tried to remind me that there is no one universal, objective dream interpretation/meaning which can apply to everyone's dream symbol. I have never claimed this to be true. If my critics had delved a little deeper, such as visiting the Blog articles I linked in the information box below my video, or even listened more carefully to my explanation in the video, they would realise that I take a very subjective approach to dream interpretation and specifically state that I disagree with the 'one-size-fits-all' method of dream interpretation, or even the notion of universal dream archetypes proposed by Carl Jung.


I will provide a very basic and simplified version of the perspective I adopt towards dreaming and dream interpretation. I take a neo-Freudian approach, which takes Sigmund Freud's psychoanalytic approach to dreaming as a starting point and then applies a postmodernist understanding to symbolism and meaning. 

I believe that dreams provide a psychological function - Freud suggests they perform 'wish fulfilment' and display violent and sexual impulses which come from the animalistic part of the brain. The logical part of the brain is deactivated or functioning in a limited way during a dream, so that we can 'believe' in the reality of the dream and do not wake up from it. Day residue is very influential with regard to dream content. 

Like Freud, I see the 'events' of the dream as manifest content, under which sits the latent content - or 'true' meaning of the dream. The manifest content is likely to be made up of things from our waking memory, to which attach subconscious associations and symbolic meaning. Dream characters may represent either people we know in our waking life or projected aspects of ourselves.


While some symbols within a dream have a relatively objective and clear meaning - such as a heart meaning 'love' or a dollar sign meaning 'money'. We understand these symbols because they are embedded deeply into our culture, or have been produced and reproduced and recycled until they become shorthand representations for an agreed meaning. This is the influence of postmodernism. These symbols may have shared cultural, or even universal meaning. However, it is the latent content which holds the real meaning of the dream for the dreamer. The latent content can only be unlocked, by probing below the surface of the manifest content, which 'hides' the real meaning. To do this, the dreamer must discover the personal, subjective and individualistic/unique associations, symbolism, memories, thoughts, feelings, experiences which are woven into the manifest content. 


This cannot be achieved by looking up dream interpretations in a book, although a book may provide examples of the range of meaning typically given to manifest content as a result of cultural norms or universal archetypes or shared meaning. It just cannot find the subjective associations - the latent content. This is how a dream interpreter might be able to help. I think it is only possible to help a dreamer interpret their dream by entering into a dialogue about the dream and asking them to search for the associations and personal symbolic meaning they can attribute to their dream. By getting the dreamer to undertake stream of consciousness/free association techniques and asking them probing questions about the dream, it is possible to assist the dreamer in interpreting their own dream in a personal and relevant way. It also provides them with the tools and techniques to continue to analyse their dreams. I have helped many people find meaning in their dreams, and in every case the dreamer was able to tell me that analysing the dream and attributing meaning helped them gain insight into either a waking life scenario/situation; a mental or emotional conflict; or a past experience. 

Am I qualified dream analyst/interpreter? No. I am not sure there is such a qualification - most 'professional dream analysts' are actually counsellors or psychologists who have an interest in dreaming and provide this as an additional chargeable service or as part of a therapeutic package. Some psychologists/psychiatrists are experts in dreaming, as are a section of neuroscientists or other scientists concentrating on sleep studies. These persons are not dream interpreters either. Most dream analysts/interpreters operating on the internet are simply dream explorers who have a personal interest in dreaming, much like myself. My 'qualification' for helping others interpret their dreams is a number of years worth of experience and a lifelong interest in dreaming, being someone who has experienced natural, spontaneous lucid dreams and lucid false awakenings since my earliest memories; and starting to learn dream recall and dream incubation techniques from around the age of 8 years, having read a library book about dreaming. I have been seriously researching and writing about dreaming and lucid dreaming for approximately 6 years, and apply my skills as a postgraduate researcher to my dream studies. I do not charge any money for helping people interpret their dreams: I also do not make any money from this Blog at all; and have not started earning any money from Youtube. All my advice is from personal experience or comprehensive research, neither endorsed nor sponsored by any other person. I am the sole author of this Blog. I do not seek to be known as an expert in my field, but neither am I an amateur. I just like dreaming and talking to others interested in dreaming. 

I write dream interpretation articles because they provide a good starting point for dream interpretation. They not expected to provide complete answers or explanations for individual dreams and I make this clear on each post which provides some dream interpretation. I compile these articles, which are completely authored by myself, from research into different cultural meanings of common dream themes and from my own personal insight into symbolic meaning. These articles are intended to be a bit of harmless fun for people who want to know what meanings have traditionally been given to certain dream symbols. 


Here is a list of some of my Dream Interpretation articles which you might find interesting - just click each 'HERE' for the relevant article to open in a new window: 

  • Colour Symbolism - click HERE
  • Snakes & Serpents - click HERE
  • Teeth - click HERE
  • Crocodiles & Alligators - click HERE
  • Knives & Stabbing - click HERE
  • Weapons & Violence - click HERE
  • Cats - click HERE
  • Clowns - click HERE
  • Falling - click HERE
  • Nakedness/Nudity - click HERE
  • Phallic & Yonic Symbolism - click HERE

I hope you have enjoyed reading these Dream Interpretation articles. Please leave me a comment to let me know if there is a special dream symbol which you would like an interpretation for.