Sunday, 20 November 2016

DREAM INCUBATION EXPERIMENT - WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE?

So, I have been having a few problems with dreaming/dream recall recently, due to a number of reasons which I have outlined in my new Youtube video, which I have posted below. In order to refocus and invigorate my dream work, I like to conduct experiments from time to time. I find that this gives me a goal and motivates me to try harder with my dream practices. I have noticed from the comments/messages from my subscribers/followers, that my Dream Incubation Experiments are pretty popular and often some of you lovely people like to follow along with me and try your own Dream Incubation Experiment, using the same methodology (see below). I love hearing about your dream incubation experiments and whether they are successful! 

I find that the more vague and general my Dream Incubation Experiments are, the more likely they are to be successful. If I try to be too strict or prescriptive about my chosen Dream Incubation Experiment theme, it tends to fail. In the past I have chosen specific dream themes, dream characters or dream contexts and found varying levels of success, but mainly failure. I am therefore going to chose a more traditional approach this time - asking my subconscious a very open-ended and broad question. This will allow me not only to analyse each individual dream and see how it relates to my question, but also assess the course of my dreaming as a whole, to analyse whether there are any recurrent themes or a 'golden thread' which runs through them. With the more specific, prescriptive dream incubations, my success tends to be rated on whether I have that particular dream or not. With this open-ended general question, I will have much more scope for interpreting my dreams and the ways in which my subconscious is attempting to answer my question. 

In this respect, my current Dream Incubation Experiment is much more along the lines of the approach espoused by psychologist Deirdre Barrett of Harvard Medical School, who uses dream incubation for objective problem-solving and creative inspiration. Barrett sees dreams as 'thinking in a different biochemical state' and has done extensive work in the area of dream incubation. I urge you to read up on some of her experiments or studies in this area and other dream-related subjects. 


My question for this Dream Incubation Experiment is:
WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE?

This can be interpreted in a number of ways: General lifestyle; career options; ambitions; romantic/sex-life etc. Typically I am someone who lives each day as it comes, with little future planning. I hate making decisions and try to avoid them. I also rarely know what I genuinely want and tend to take the easiest, least stressful route or simply put things off until they absolutely have to be confronted. I am hoping my subconscious can give me some clue as to what I really want from my life, and give me some guidance. I do actually choose certain life paths based on what my dreams tell me - in the past I have acted on ideas expressed in my dreams and had positive results, so I place a lot of trust and faith in my subconscious!

I will do the following to incubate my chosen dream theme:
  • Perform the MILD Technique for lucid dreaming on a daily basis. If this dream is a lucid dream, it will therefore be a DILD (Dream-Initiated/Induced Lucid Dream). However, lucidity is not a specific aim of this Dream Incubation Experiment - if it happens during the course of the experiment, it will be a happy eventuality, not an intended result I am working towards.
  • Incorporate elements of Tholey's Combined Technique for lucid dreaming, which has been reviewed as the most successful (cognitive) method for lucid dream induction and works well in conjunction with MILD, which is based on similar cognitive programming of the mind. I will adapt the key steps of critical reflection, intention and auto-suggestion so that I not only encourage myself to become lucid, but use these as a way of incubating my desired dream theme.
  • Use visual aids - such as a written reminder of my specific question - as well as immersing myself in material relevant to my dream incubation during my waking hours. I will also keep the written prompt for my dream incubation under my pillow and make sure I read it before going to sleep each night.
  • Where possible, I will perform the Wake-Back-to-Bed method.
  • Incorporate my chosen dream theme in both my daily reality checks (15 - 20 per day) by thinking clearly and positively about my incubated dream theme after each reality check.
  • Train myself to spot dreamsigns when reflecting on my Dream Journal entries each day following a dream.
  • Meditate on my incubated dream theme for at least 10 minutes before sleep and perform specific affirmations alongside the normal MILD Technique/Tholey's Combined Technique ones ('I will lucid dream about [incubated dream theme] tonight, and I will remember it') - this should also encourage successful dream recall.
  • Use Dream Visualisation before sleep - using my previous dreams based on the incubated dream theme as inspiration.
  • 100 - 150 mg of 'lucid dream supplement' Vitamin B6 (2/3 x 50 mg pills) where I am able to remember to do so before sleep - I will specifically note when I have taken this supplement.

I have had some successful and unsuccessful previous dream incubation experiments, which you may like to read (click on the title of each experiment to be taken to the post, which will open in a new window):

Friday, 18 November 2016

Dreams 713 - 725

In recent times, I have not been focusing on my dream practices as rigorously as I would like to, due to bad sleeping patterns and trying to balance a number of different work/study-related deadlines, with my usual disorganised schedule. Where I have recalled a dream, I made notes in my notebook so that I could write them up later when I had sufficient time. Therefore, I have only a small number of dreams for the past few weeks and I have not recorded them in the usual level of detail. 

Dream 713

'Hullabalucy'
Date: 16 October 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

Scene 1: A Classroom Interior - Day
I was in what appeared to be a classroom of some sorts. I was looking at a laptop - which I think was mine - with a broken keyboard. The keys had fallen off and the actual keyboard was cracked and broken, beyond use. I was trying to fix it, with someone - a dream character (unseen), behind me, watching me. I wondered if my friend - DC, who is a computer specialist - might be able to fix it for me. 

Someone was saying - or I somehow heard - the word 'Hullabalucy'. I am not sure of the context of this word or it's meaning (an actual existing word 'hullabaloo' means a loud noise or noisy confusion). 

I could see the tables in the classroom - which appeared to look like one of the common rooms at my university which we use for training and social events (Crome Court). There were a number of students seated around each table and my colleagues from my student support/welfare job were present, standing around, like myself. We were leading a session or a social event for the students seated at the tables. Something was being handed out - at first I thought it was boxes of chocolates or sweets (which we do hand out to our students in real life), but then I noticed that the boxes contained my makeup/cosmetics. I was annoyed and wanted to reclaim my possessions, but it was too late - the students had taken them all and I could not get them back. I wondered why my colleagues had done this to me. 

There was a child - very young, white and I think female. I was tasked with 'balancing her rights' (I am currently doing my PhD which is themed around the balancing of children's rights and welfare interests). The child was really scary and I did not want to be involved with her 'case'. 

PP - a male I had a crush on when I was doing my undergraduate degree and someone who I have chatted with periodically over the past few years since graduation, despite him now having a family - was present. I was not sure if I still fancied him and was quite annoyed that he was still flirting with me, after all this time. This part of the dream appeared to take place in a hallway, which was on a high level (i.e. a number of storeys up) and had floor to ceiling glass windows. It was day - the first time I realised this in the dream - and outside I could see a cityscape. PP and I were standing in this glass hallway while we had a conversation, which was flirty, but I am not sure of what was said specifically.

I was aware that I needed to leave the classroom as I was having 'booty injections' to improve my butt. These were booked by an appointment and I was worried that I would be late and not be able to get my injections. I then saw myself from third-person perspective from behind - I was wearing short red hotpants, which showed off my butt cheeks. I thought my butt looked pretty sexy.

I then had a phone conversation with RBA, but I am not sure what was said.


Dream 714

'Bald Hedgehog'
Date: 21 October 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

Scene 1: An Interior (Workplace?) - Day
I was in an interior which was like the shell of a building. There were a number of hallways and rooms, but none of them seemed finished - it was as though this was some kind of half-built building, with no ceiling and just the foundations and temporary walls in place. The 'rooms' were mainly occupied with dream characters, doing some work, although I am not sure what was actually happening. There were no doors, so you could see into each 'room' from the hallways.

I saw a bald hedgehog - all it's spines were removed. It was running through the 'hallways' of this weird building. My friend AM was present and she told me to catch the hedgehog. I tried to catch it in a bag - to transfer it to a cage on the floor. 

I then saw that a number of male dream characters were approaching me. I knew their intentions were bad and I did not want them to see me, so I started to run away. 

I managed to run to the road near my Nan's house in Sheringham. It was the place where the 'woods path' starts (see Google Maps images). This is a recurrent location in my dreams, often dream or nightmares which involve me running away from a male 'enemy' or encountering some form of negative interaction. I am not sure what happened after this.


Dream 715

'Frenemies'
Date: 24 October 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior (it may have been my house in Norwich) - Time Unknown
I was looking at some handwriting - I am not sure of what it said or the context.

A colleague CR was present. I knew - or suspected - that she was trying to make my housemate SC hate me, or at least create bad feeling between us. She was laughing at the situation and I felt uneasy and angry with her.

I was performing some kind of work-related task: I am not sure if I was working alone or as part of a team, but I was worried that my performance was not good enough.


Dream 716

'Bad Chocolate'
Date: 26 October 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
This dream took place while I was in Glasgow, Scotland, UK. 

I was given a chocolate spread sandwich by a male dream character who was my friend in the dream. We were standing in front of something which looked like a drinks cabinet or a shelving unit of drinks that you might see behind the bar in a pub. I was asked by the dream character to eat the chocolate spread sandwich. The taste was really bad - as if it was spoiled. 

There was a male rapist in the location - an old white man. 


Dream 717

'MM the Drug-Addict'
Date: 30 October 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in my Nan's house, in Sheringham. My Nan was present. MM - an online friend from USA - was sitting on the floor in the doorway of the 'front room', with my Nan and I standing there looking down at him. MM had dyed his hair rainbow colours and I was aware that he was a drug-addict and homeless - which is the reason he was now staying at my Nan's house.

I then was informed that my ex-boyfriend (although I am not sure if he was my ex-boyfriend in the dream) was now considered to be a menace to society. I saw an image of him standing outside, leaning against the wall of a building. It was clearly SL (my university boyfriend, who is of Asian heritage), although my Mum told me (in the dream) that his last name was 'Singh' (the name of a different boyfriend, who was half-Asian). I was confused about why SL had PS' name in the dream, although this did not lead me to realise I was dreaming. SLPS was involved in some form of theft.

I wanted to buy some cannabis - the cannabis was being stored in my Nan's front room.

I had a video call with RBA.


Dream 718

'Cousins'
Date: 2 November 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

Scene 1: A Bedroom - Time Unknown
I was with my cousins, HM and CAJ in a bedroom, where there was a huge bed which we were all laying in. HM was curled up in a foetal position. We were all on some kind of family holiday, but the details were unclear. There were 3 men present - all dream characters, but one was a composite between RBA and someone else. My cousins and I were supposed to be 'given' to these men. 


Dream 719

'Brian Harvey Calendar'
Date: 5 November 2016
Type of dream: Dream fragment
Dream recall: Weak recall


Scene 1: Unknown - Time Unknown
I had been given a Brian Harvey calendar. 

* Brian Harvey is a British celebrity, who used to be in 1990s boyband, East 17. He became a national joke in 2005, following an incident where he managed to fall out of his Mercedes and reverse over himself after opening the door of his car to vomit - as a result of gorging on a number of jacket potatoes. 



Dream 720

'University Drugs'
Date: 6 November 2016
Type of dream: Dream fragment
Dream recall: Weak recall


Scene 1: My University, Norwich - Time Unknown
My university had started selling drugs - if you wanted to use drugs, you were forced to buy them from the university.


Dream 721

'Blind Girl'
Date: 8 November 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall


Scene 1: A Bedroom - Day
A little girl - white with blonde curly hair, approximately 8 - 10 years of age - had been blinded by some kind of monster (not seen in the dream). This was really scary, because I feared that the monster would return and try to blind other people. I was with other dream characters (unrecalled) and we wanted to find a cure for the girl's blindness. 

I was then in an unfamiliar bedroom, sitting on a bed with my former friend EB. We were discussing something and almost arguing, but not quite. We were disagreeing passionately, but not in an angry way. However, I was not happy to be in the room with EB. He was trying to make friends with me, but I was unwilling. I then received a message from RBA, which had an angry tone. I was trying to read the message, but it was written completely in text-speech/slang and was barely legible. One phrase said: 'You murked my GF' which I perceived to mean that I had caused her some form of harm. EB wanted to see the message, but I was not showing it to him, There were many pieces of paper spread out on the bed. 


Dream 722

'Sea of Dogs'
Date: 10 November 2016
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall


Scene 1: Unknown - Time Unknown
I was with a male dream character and we were trying to make a 'Barbie Diarama' - basically we had a cardboard structure with the front open, and were trying to pose Barbie dolls in a creative scene. I think it was for a competition. The one we had done looked very amateur and I was embarrassed about how bad it looked. Everything was very basic and wonky.

I then looked at a map of London. London was shown as being on the UK coastline. At the top of the map, right on the coast was a place called 'the Sea of Dogs'. In the dream, I thought this meant 'Isle of Dogs' and I wondered why the name of this location had changed. 



Dream 723

'Arranged Marriage'
Date: 14 November 2016
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall


Scene 1: 'RBA's Family Home' - Time Unknown
I was at RBA's family home. I should note that I have not been to his home nor have I met or seen any members of his family, so everything in this dream was a figment of my imagination. 

The dream took place in the lounge area - which was a very normal room in a normal family home. There was a woman (middle-aged) sitting in a chair, dressed as Wonder Woman. She was a prostitute, but at the time I did not know it was supposedly RBA's mother. In the dream he lived with his parents, his sister and 2 brothers. Both brothers were very attractive and had light brown hair. His sister had straight, black shoulder-length hair and she was tall and thin. The entire family was trying to arrange a marriage, but neither I nor RBA was interested. His 'sister' tried to hug me while we stood in the centre of the room. I was trying to get away from her. She was urging me to marry her brother, and I was trying to tell her that this was not what I wanted. One of the brothers told me he wanted to take me for a ride in his car. I followed him into a bedroom and he picked up something which had been on the bed. I am not sure what. I was happy to be invited to take a ride in a car with him, because I was attracted to him (as opposed to RBA, who was the only person I knew in the dream, having just 'met' the rest of the family). The other family members were annoyed at me for wanting to spend time with the 'brother'. RBA did not seem bothered, in fact, he wasn't really present in the dream, being somewhere in the background of events and not interacting with me. 


Dream 724

'Weird Relationship'
Date: 16 November 2016
Type of dream: Dream fragment
Dream recall: Weak recall


Scene 1: Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in some kind of interior. I was in a relationship with LM - a male I went to school with, who has one arm. I was sitting or laying on the floor and he was standing over me.


Dream 725

'Red Clog Party'
Date: 17 November 2016
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall


Scene 1: Sheringham - Day
I was aware that a boy I went to school with - JS - was holding a party in my hometown. I was desperate to go - I think I wanted to go and have sex with JS (I have actually had a sexual encounter with him, many years ago, when we broke into a building). I had not been invited to the party, but I was trying to figure out a way of going anyway. There were some events in my hometown - it seemed that everyone was getting ready to go to the party, including some members of my family. My friend from school, SVF, was also present and she wanted to come to the party too. It felt like we were teenagers again - at least the events of the dream seemed to be us as adults, but everything else was like my memories of when we were still at school.

I ended up standing on a doorstep, knocking on the door of a house. The door was opened by a white female with dark hair. In the dream she was JS's elder sister. I informed her that I wanted to go to JS's party and she asked me: 'Have you been given the red clogs?' In the dream 'red clogs' were required before you could attend the party - they represented an invitation. I said that I did not have red clogs. JS's sister seemed to take pity on me, She told me to wait at the door and went further into the house, to get something. When she returned she informed me that because she wanted me to be able to go to her brother's party, she would give me a pair of red clogs which she had bought in Amsterdam. I was really pleased and wondered why she wanted to help me.

I somehow got to the party - it was still daylight. The party was being held in a huge house and it was full of dream character guests - including people I recognised as having attended school with JS, SVF and I. I really wanted to have sex with JS (I have no idea why, this is not an experience I have ever wanted to repeat). I went into a bedroom, where there were a number of dream character guests. The room was quite dark - as if the curtains were drawn. There was a bed in the room and I sat on it. I noticed I was wearing a mini-skirt and a yellow top. I removed the top and was shocked to find that my breasts had shrunk and were now very small and triangular-shaped - being not much more than pointy nipples. I worried that this would ruin my chances of having sex with JS if he saw them, but he entered the room and seemed to want to become intimate with me. He was standing beside the bed, and was about to get into it. I was still anxious, but soon we were having sex. The sex was not especially arousing (i.e. this was not a 'wet dream' as some of my sex dreams often are). I cannot recall what else happened in the dream.


Saturday, 15 October 2016

Dream 712 (NIGHTMARE: NSFW)

'Sex Offender in the House'
Date: 12 October 2016
Time: 00:30 - 07:15 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Interior (My House in the Dream) - Night
I was in a house which in the dream was my family home. My Mum and my Stepdad lived there with me. It looked like a normal family home, except it was much bigger than any I have previously lived in. 

I was in the house with my family and some other dream characters, who I cannot recall, although I did have a male friend with me - someone who I am close to in real life. I became aware that a rapist or paedophile had been invited over to the house - some kind of sex offender anyway. He was a white man with dark hair, which was greying. He had a long, thin face and was tall and lean in build. He looked scruffy - he was wearing dark clothes. I would guess his age as being in his 50s. I saw him up close through a window which had lead panelling - so the window was separated into little squares of glass, Tudor-style. I knew it was night at this point in the dream, because I saw it was dark outside the window and I seemed to be aware that it was night as well, in my own mind.

I was scared and the male friend was too. We started to think of ways to stop his getting inside the house, but it was too late, he was inside. We debated whether to call the police or not, but we weren't sure if it was a good idea because my friend was reminding me: 'He was invited over as a guest' and he had not committed a crime (yet).

We kept walking around the house and noticing that the sex offender was casually following us from room to room and up and down the stairs, even though he  did not say anything or do anything. This felt terrifying. 

I then became aware that my Mum and Stepdad were packing suitcases in the lounge, which I could see from a mezzanine level (the top floor was a mezzanine floor - I have never lived in a house with a mezzanine floor before). I wondered what they were doing, and went downstairs. They told me they were going on holiday - they started to walk out of the house and get into the back of  taxi. I became aware that night had become day - it was sunny outside. I begged my parents to stay and said: 'You're leaving me alone with a sex offender!' They did not seem to care - they were happy and laughing as if nothing was wrong.

I went back into the house and my male friend told me that he had decided to call the police and ask them to remove the sex offender from the house. I could not see the sex offender at this stage, but I was aware that he was still in the house. I felt relieved that my male friend had called the police. I was aware that I was wearing a white top and miniskirt - I think this was the first point in the dream I realised what I was wearing.

I decided to go and do some laundry. I went into a small laundry area in the kitchen. I was sorting out clothes in the white laundry basket which was beside the wall and a washing machine, when the sex offender suddenly entered the room in a very rapid was. His face popped up close to my own in an almost cartoon way. I was terrified and froze. I could not scream. The sex offender then raped me, and I woke up as this happened. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • I lived in a family home with my parents - not a home I have ever lived in
  • A sex offender was invited into the home
  • Night became day when I walked outside

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching a Louis Theroux documentary - LA Stories: Among the Sex Offenders (2014) which involved Louis interviewing a former sex offender who ran a housing complex for others convicted of sex crimes, who have to be placed outside of communities for child protection
  • The day before this dream DL had been describing a flat in his building which has a mezzanine level

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This was a horrible dream - because obviously it involved a horrific sexual offence against me at the end, which was powerful enough to wake me instantly; but also because I felt let down by the dream characters - they did not seem concerned for my safety. My parents had decided to leave to go to hospital and my male friend had delayed calling the police. I had sensed the danger from the outset. I did not feel upset or distressed after the dream; it did not trigger any negative waking thoughts or feelings, as I have been subjected to sexual offences in real life and I don't trigger easily as a result of coming to terms with instances in my own life. However, the emotions experienced within the dream were intense and unsettling for the first part and then extremely traumatising at the very end.

Tuesday, 11 October 2016

Dream 711

'Lost Clothes'
Date: 10 October 2016
Time: 03:00 - 11:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Interior (Train Station?) - Time Unknown (Day?)
I was with my Mum and was planning to go somewhere - I am not sure where. The scene later seemed to be a train station or somewhere from which people were getting ready to depart/travel, but at the start of the dream I had no idea where we were (reflecting from a waking perspective - in the dream everything seemed to make sense). In preparation for me going to the location as planned, I was getting dressed and packing a bag of clothes - dresses and high heeled shoes, makeup/jewellery and hair straighteners - all the stuff which would be necessary if I was going somewhere special and wanted to make an effort. 

My Mum and I met with - or became aware we were in the company of - 2 males, both black. One of them looked like a cross between Richard Blackwood and Nas and his name was Liam (see the morphed composite image I have created to illustrate this dream character, below). He was a minor celebrity, although I do not know what his job was as it was not revealed in the dream. He was wearing a white hoodie, with the hood up. The other male was a very tall fat man whose name was Peter Harvey. He seemed to be quite stupid and in the dream I got the impression that Liam was his carer or was in some way supervising his behaviour. 

At some point the men left. I then noticed that Peter Harvey had taken the box in which I had packed all of my clothes. Until this point I had not been aware I had packed them in a box. I do not think he stole them, I got the impression that he had taken them by accident or mistake. I was very annoyed and concerned, as these were possessions that I valued and needed. 

It was at this point in the dream that I became aware that we might be in a train station - we were in a well-lit area which had the kind of tiled walls you see in a London Underground station and people were passing by, as if rushing to catch a train. I realised that Peter Harvey had taken off his trousers and I was surprised that he was going round in public in just his underwear. I picked up his trousers - a pair of baggy beige chino-type trousers which he had abandoned on the floor, hoping to find a mobile phone, but all I saw was a wallet. Inside the wallet was a banknote for 20 units of whatever currency it was in. My Mum said that it was 'Canadian money' so I accepted this, and put it back in the wallet. At this point we walked outside and it appeared that we were on my Nan's road in Sheringham. It was daylight. 

Scene 2: A Domestic Interior (Our Home in Dream) - Night
It was now evening and my Mum and I got home - to a house which was ours in the dream, but not one we have ever lived in in real life. I saw that we had a front garden with a small wooden gate and seemed to be living in a small housing estate. 

My Mum said that we should call Liam and ask him to help us get my possessions back. At this point in the dream I realised (my Mum may have told me this fact, or I might have just remembered it) that my aunt VF was having an affair with Liam, who was married. My Mum said because Liam was like a member of the family he would definitely want to help. 

My Mum called Liam's house. I could tell by her conversation with whoever picked up the phone that she was speaking to a very small child - she said: 'Can I speak to Mummy or Daddy please?' and I realised that Liam had a very young daughter. My Mum then started talking to a woman with a Jamaican accent - it was Liam's wife. My Mum seemed to know her well and get on with her. She asked Liam's wife to get her to return the call after they had spoken for a while. When she came off the phone she told me that Liam's wife would get him to help retrieve my possessions from Peter Harvey when he got back home. 

Scene 3: A Classroom - Day
I was then in a large classroom. The 'students' were my colleagues from my Student Services job and the teacher was my former primary school teacher, Mrs Patterson. I was sitting some way towards the back of the class, chatting to my friend LD2, who was lounging casually on a sofa to my left hand side. As we were chatting (I am not sure what about), a blonde female - one of our colleagues in the dream, but not someone we know in real life - came up to LD2 (running), laid her full body against him, and slid down it - replicating a move used in lap-dancing clubs, where the dancer establishes full body contact with a seated client. She did this very slowly, hardly moving and I found it to be distracting and rude. LD2 did not react to it and continued to chat to me, but I got up and said something to the effect of me leaving him to it as he seemed 'busy' - this was said in an offhand way. 

I moved to the front of the class, where a former colleague (who in the dream still worked with us) was speaking aloud to the 'class'. Mrs P then turned to me and told me it was my turn. I had no clue what the exercise was and so was confused and anxious. Someone - SC or Mrs P - pointed to the chalkboard and told me that we were reading poems from my work training manual (the actual manual we use for my work training - but the content was different, as described hereafter). We then had to orally list the range of emotions we felt in relation to each verse of the poem. On the chalkboard was SC's writing - her poem had been 3 verses, and she had written 3 lists of emotions in relation to each. 

I was looking in the working training manual for the poetry section, but I could not find it anywhere. I thought I would be in trouble. I stopped on a page which was a picture of a beach scene. There was a white (very pale) male - only the legs were shown. He was wearing very short shorts and was bending over in a way which highlighted his legs, which were quite curvy and thick, and very hairy. I thought that if I started a conversation about this image then Mrs P might forget to make me do my recital of poetic emotions. She was now seated next to me. I said: 'This is a nice picture' and she replied: 'I'd love legs like his' while stroking the image of the man's legs with the tip of her finger. As I was still eager to not do my recital in front of the class, I agreed and said I wanted to have legs like his too, although in my mind I was thinking that I definitely did not want pale, hairy men's legs, even though they were a nice shape. Mrs P then reassured me that I would not have to do my recital. 

There was more conversation and I cannot recall what happened right at the end of this dream, although I feel I have remembered almost all of the important details, which is rare for me.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The situation with the lost items and how we dealt with it
  • The fact my colleagues and I were involved in some kind of workplace training that involved my primary school teacher and a poetry recital

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I had seen a picture of Nas which people were sharing on Facebook - I think it was photoshopped, but it showed Nas sucking on someone's toes (assumed to be female, but with the biggest feet I have ever seen). I think the original picture had been Nas smoking a bong
  • Liam is the name of one of my best friends - who later appeared in Scene 3 of this dream
  • The day of this dream I had been standing in a queue in my university shop and overheard the people behind me discussing 'Canadian stereotypes'
  • My aunt VF had left a comment on my Facebook status which I had read a few hours before I went to sleep and had this dream
  • My Mum and I had been talking about Jamaican friends 3 days prior to this dream
  • Several days ago, DL and I were watching a documentary on contemporary art and were introduced to an amazing Glaswegian artist, Katie Paterson
  • A couple of hours before this dream I had tagged LD2 into a status about grammar
  • A couple of hours before this dream I had been discussing lapdancing with a male friend and he asked if touching was allowed in the strip club where I formerly worked
  • CS had been mentioned in a conversation on the day of this dream
  • On the day of this dream I had been complimented on my thick thighs and big butt

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I really loved this dream - it was so vivid and seemed to be really significant at the time - as if I was experiencing important events which were meaningful. I woke up remembering so much of this dream and even though I did not record it straightaway, the memories of what happened were very strong and persistent. 


Monday, 10 October 2016

Dream 710

'My Chinese Boyfriend'
Date: 9 October 2016
Time: 06:00 - 15:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a house - a family home, which in the dream belonged to the parents of my friend, NN. NN's parents were present, as was NN and a number of other dream characters. I think that I was staying with them, although I am not sure. I was playing with a golden retriever dog when suddenly people started screaming. NN's dad came over and I noticed that there was a lot of blood on the pale beige floor - about a pint, splattered everywhere. I said: 'The dog must be hurt', but the dog was fine. NN's dad said that it was my period blood and I should not worry about it. He went to get something to clean the blood from the floor. I felt embarrassed about the situation and kept telling the people present that the dog must have cut itself and bled on the floor, although no-one believed me and they all knew it was my period blood. 

Scene 2: A Different Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a different domestic interior - the house which belonged to the parents of my boyfriend in the dream. My boyfriend was Chinese and resembled my actual ex-boyfriend. HL. It was clear that my boyfriend's parents did not live in the house anymore, but we had been staying there. We were going to do a house swap and were preparing for this. My boyfriend was cooking some food at the oven/stove - I think it was spaghetti bolognese. I asked my boyfriend if we needed to pack belongings, but he said it was already done. I asked if we needed to clean the house for the new resident who would be moving in that day. My boyfriend reminded me that the house had already been cleaned the day before, by his parents and as I looked around the room, I remembered this and wondered how I had forgotten that fact. I saw a TV and a real open fireplace - the house was a typical family home with traditional decor. The lounge was next to the kitchen. The door to the back garden was next to the cooker and I could see that it was open. My boyfriend then 'remembered' that we had leftover food in the fridge and said that he should not have bothered cooking more, since we would only be in the house for a few hours and could not take the food with us. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but there were definitely some details I have forgotten. The way this dream is recorded does not reflect the length of it, as experienced in the dream state. The dream seemed to last a very long time and was much more vivid and intense than I am able to capture in the write-up  given my dream recall was affected between the dream and me sitting down to write it up. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • The amount of period blood on the floor
  • My boyfriend in the dream resembled my ex-boyfriend, HL

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I saw a friend post a picture of a golden retriever/labrador dog on Facebook
  • I woke up from this dream and discovered that I had unexpectedly started my period
  • The day of this dream I had been chatting to  Chinese guy in my local area and I wondered if he knew my ex-boyfriend (given that many of the local members of the Chinese community know and socialise with each other - as I experienced when I was dating HL)
  • The day of this dream my Mum came to visit me and bought me some food, even though I had some leftover food in the fridge

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I really enjoyed this dream - not the part where the period blood spilled onto the floor, because that was really embarrassing as it would be in real life. I enjoyed the part where I had a boyfriend as I seemed happy with him - maybe I have been single for too long! The dream seemed very vivid - I have simply forgotten some of the detail because my alarm would have woken my at around 11:00 hours (this was the time it was set for), but I cannot recall it going off or me waking up. Depending on whether I had this dream before or after the alarm went off and my sleep was disrupted, this may have affected my waking dream recall. I find it pretty interesting that I had a dream about my period starting and then woke to find that this had happened in real life - especially since I had not experienced any PMT prior to going to sleep (to indicate I was about to start my period) and my period was actually earlier than expected, so I could not have predicted it starting. If I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.

Dream 709

'WOW'
Date: 8 October 2016
Time: 00:30 - 09:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location  - Time Unknown
I was with my Mum in an interior which was quite dark and had sofas running along a wall. My Mum was sitting and I was standing. I pulled up my top and noticed that my belly was bright red and covered in golf-ball sized lumps. I wondered if I was pregnant and was worried, because I really did not want to have a baby. I tried to show my Mum, but she wasn't paying attention. 

I was then looking at a piece of jewellery, which came in 2 parts. I think it was a necklace, but one piece separated from the other. The necklace spelled out 'Wow' in white plastic lettering on a gold chain, and was in the Timepiece font from the title of my favourite movie, A Clockwork Orange (1971) (see below image). I really wanted the necklace because of this association. 

Scene 2: A Bedroom - Time Unknown
I was then in a very large (king-size) bed in an unfamiliar bedroom. The bed had a white duvet and I was under the duvet with some other (unseen) dream characters. This dream scene seemed sexual, but there were no explicit sexual acts taking place as far as I can recall. I saw my hand come out from the duvet along with a number of hands belonging to other dream characters. This was all I could see of myself and the others. We all held onto each other's hands - I noticed in particular one belonging to a female, with red nail polish - the fingers of this hand were interlinked with my own.

I then was getting ready for a party - getting dressed in a short black corduroy miniskirt with a belt. I thought: 'I must have lost weight to fit into this skirt' and was relieved that my belly was no longer red and lumpy and I knew I could not possibly be pregnant. My Mum was also involved in this scene.  

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but there were some details I have forgotten. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character
  • Party

Dreamsigns: 
  • The appearance of my belly

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream someone asked what kind of movies I liked and I thought of answering A Clockwork Orange, but instead just described my preferred genres
  • The day of this dream I saw a picture of a blogger I follow, wearing a large statement necklace (an anatomical representation of a human heart)

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I did not enjoy the first part of this dream, because I was in fear that I was pregnant and this left me feeling anxious. The second scene was quite confusing as I was not aware of what was going on, and it seemed sexual, but unclear. The rest of the dream left me with no particular reactions. I know I have forgotten some of this dream, hut if I recall anything else at a later stage, I will record it below. 

Friday, 7 October 2016

Dream 708

'Top of the Class'
Date: 6 October 2016
Time: 20:00 - 02:00 (Unintentional Nap - I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location (University) - Time Unknown
I was in a room which looked like a classroom, but there were many dream characters present. It reminded me of my primary school more than a university, but I was aware that this was a university and I was on an undergraduate degree course. On a desk in the corner of the room was a pile of papers - marked exam sheets. I was aware the exam was in Law - my real life academic subject and the one I was studying in this dream also. I went to find my paper to get my grade, expecting to fail. I saw that I had scored '89' which I assumed was a percentage and made me top of the class. However, I then saw that someone had a score which was something like '10,000'. I wondered how this was a possible mark, and the middle-aged female teacher (who I had not seen before this moment) said: 'They [she may have named the student] wrote their answers lots of times to clock up that score'. I then realised that this person had 'cheated' by putting the same correct one-word answer a number of times to increase their mark, but in essence, I had come top of the class with my mark, because I had only written each correct answer once. 

I walked over to my Mum who was sitting with some other people a short distance away, on the floor. My Mum was ignoring me while I was trying to tell her about my exam grade, which in the dream meant that I had successfully completed my Law degree. She didn't seem to care, so I screamed: 'I failed Maths!' to get her attention. This made her turn to me, so I said: 'I mean, I passed Law'. My Mum started crying with relief, but I felt angry that I had to lie about me failing something to get her to pay attention to my achievements. 

Scene 2: An Interior Location - Night
I was then in a room which may have been within my university. It was quite dark in the room, and in the middle of the floor was a white screen - a curtain on a metal structure which shielded part of the room from view. I had acquired a special printer/photocopier, which came in two parts - one part had a projector attached to it and was pushed up against the white screen/curtain. The other part was the printer, which was so high powered it could reproduce the actual pen/pencil/paint etc it was copying in colour and texture. A dream character present in the room encouraged me to demonstrate how the machine worked. I had a flyer in my hand, which had a children's picture drawn in pastel crayons - I think it was a picture of a clown and I noticed that lilac was the main colour. The flyer was for a party and had been designed by my friend/colleague DB. I decided to photocopy it and looked in the paper tray of the printer. I noticed that the paper there was not blank, but were the pieces which had been printed on in error (so some of them had small amounts of black text along the top) and were being recycled so that they did not go to waste. I was not confident the printer would work. I was frustrated as I did not know how to operate it. I eventually managed to get another copy of DB's flyer, but in my opinion there was something wrong with the copy and my printer had not worked as expected (although judging by the fact that it did produce a replica of the original flyer, I am not sure what the problem was).

I was then planning to go to a party - taking my cousin HM with me. My Stepdad was insisting on giving us a ride to the party, but I wanted to walk there with HM instead. HM looked like her younger self. I think I wanted us to be able to walk to the party because we could have more fun on the journey.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I think there are some details I have forgotten. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character
  • Party

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was studying for an undergraduate degree which I have already completed 
  • The printer/photocopier came in two parts, one of which had a projector 
  • HM looked like her younger self

Day Residue: 
  • I have been doing a lot of studying (Law Research) and also applied to mark exam papers for extra income
  • A couple of days before this dream I had a conversation with a new undergraduate student about academic degrees and exam stress
  • The day before this dream I had been discussing my learning difficulties in relation to maths and how I had performed very badly at this academic subject - the only one to have ever caused me any problems, as I find academia and studying comes naturally to me
  • Shortly before this dream I had been to the library to use the printers - to print the first draft of my postgraduate thesis. I had specifically thought about how sometimes I used to find people had tried to recycle pieces of paper where only 1 or 2 lines of text had printed on them in error and how annoying this would be. I also had hoped the printer would not run out of paper as I needed to print 150 sheets
  • The day of this dream I saw a meme online which read: 'Clown Lives Matter'
  • My friends DB and RS invited my colleagues and I to a gathering in their flat next week

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This dream was enjoyable, even though not much happened. It seemed to be a confusing dream while I was still in the process of dreaming it. I think that the final part of the dream - where HM and I were preparing to go to the party - was much longer, but I have forgotten a lot of information about  this section of the dream. If I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.

Dream 707

'FV, the Drug Dealer'
Date: 4 October 2016
Time: 15:00 - 17:00 (Afternoon Nap - I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: My House in Norwich - Day
I was in my new home in Norwich (on my university campus), where I live with my friend, SC. SC and I were in the lounge, where we have a window seat. In the dream, this window seat was much longer and had a corner section. The seating was red leather, instead of the real life grey. I was standing in the corner. 

Our mutual friend and colleague, FV came round and walked over to me. He said he was delivering some cannabis to me and handed me several cling-filmed quantities (I think they were '8ths' or 2g scores). I was confused and wondered if FV was a drug dealer. FV was trying to get me to keep the drug selling secret from SC. 

I called DL on the phone and asked if he knew FV was selling cannabis and DL told me that he did know and hoped that I had taken some from him because he was relying on this transaction. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I think there are some details I have forgotten. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • FV was a drug dealer 

Day Residue: 
  • Shortly before this dream, FV had come round to our house to discuss work-related business. At the precise point he rang the doorbell I had been talking about prescription drugs with SC in the lounge

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I didn't really have many waking reactions to this dream as it was so brief, taking place during a short nap. When I woke up from it, I was surprised I had such a vivid dream during that nap as I had not intended on falling asleep (I was just laying on my bed watching a TV show online) and did not recall having done so, until I woke up having had a dream. I think that I have forgotten a small amount of information about this dream but if I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.

Dream 706 (NFW)

'My First Boyfriend'
Date: 2 October 2016
Time: 22:30 - 09:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location - Time Unknown
There was some travelling in this dream - and I arrived at a location which was an interior scene, where some dream characters were present. My Mum was one of the dream characters, but others were present.

I saw my first ever ex-boyfriend (from high school), MS. MS is currently an employee of my university, although I have only seen him once on campus and did not speak to him. He works in the same department as one of my friends/colleagues, DC. MS now has a partner and a family. 

In the dream MS looked like his younger self, but I was aware that the real life events of his adult life had taken place (i.e. he was a father). I realised I fancied MS and he returned the feelings, so I started to give him a blowjob (oral sex). I became aware that there was a small piece of metal embedded in the end of his penis, near the opening, which caught on my lip. I wondered if it was possible to remove the metal so that I could have sex with him. 

MS and I then had to go to a party, which was being held nearby. I recall that it was red inside the building that the party was going to take place in - when the door opened, it was like the light inside the crowded room was red. I saw DC was at this party and I shouted out to him: 'Look who I've pulled!' (meaning MS). MS was holding a baby. I felt triumphant about the fact I could shock DC with the news that I was going to have a sexual relationship with someone he knew, from his university faculty.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I think there are some details I have forgotten. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • MS was like his younger self
  • The metal in the tip of MS' penis
  • MS's baby appeared from nowhere

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I read a news story about a woman from Europe who was seeking compensation after a piece of metal surgical equipment was left in her vagina - she only noticed when it caught on a piece of toilet paper
  • Dreams about penises - see Dream 705 - '£5 for a Long Hug'

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. It was really strange to dream about a sexual relationship with MS, as when we were dating we were too young to go beyond kissing and light foreplay - no oral sex or anything like that. I am not sure what inspired this dream, other than the news story I cited i the Dream Residue section. I think that I have forgotten a lot of information about  this dream but if I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.

Saturday, 1 October 2016

Dream 705 (NSFW)

'£5 for a Long Hug'
Date: 1 October 2016
Time: 18:30 - 21:00 (Afternoon Nap - I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location - Time Unknown
Someone - a male known to me in real life - was a heroin addict. I cannot recall much about this scene. I was worried about my friend. There was some cannabis which I saw, although I am not sure who it belonged to. 

I saw a huge penis - it was human-sized and did not appear to be connected to a person, although I may have been looking at a large photograph or an image on screen. The penis was yellow and scaly, with a very large tip, which was deformed looking. This was disgusting. The penis started ejaculating. The semen dripped down the shaft of the penis - it was white and bubbly looking.

Scene 2: A Shop - Time Unknown
I cannot recall the context for this scene, but I had to go somewhere - I think it was for a social event, or something that I actually wanted to do. RBA was present in this dreamscene, but I cannot recall at what point he came into the action. I had packed a number of bags. Other dream characters were present, but I cannot recall what was happening. I think my Mum was involved.

I - and some of the dream characters involved in this scene (all people I knew from real life) were in a building, which had a little shop in the corner of the main room, which was dark. The shop was in a small room in the corner of the main one, with a counter. The shop keeper was a fat middle-aged man, wearing a white apron. He had grey-brown hair and a beard. I went to the shop counter and was shown a colourful leaflet, which unfolded into a longer document. I cannot recall what this leaflet said, but I read it and found it significant in the dream. The shop keeper then offered me a small amount of cash for a kiss on the cheek, so I said: 'Yes' to this offer because I needed more money for my trip/event.

A short while later (same day), I decided to go back to the shop counter. I was going back to see if I could 'earn' more cash. This time the shop keeper held up a piece of paper, on which was handwritten in pencil; '£5 for a long hug'. I considered this for a moment, because I am not a fan of hugs (with some exceptions), then decided that it was a good deal. I went round the corner to a doorway which led me into the shop unit, which was more brightly lit than the main room. The direct area between the staff door to the shop and the counter was a storage space where the stock was kept, and also items belonging to the shop keeper. He told me to step back into the corner, so that we would not be seen by any customers coming to the counter (the shop area was very small). He then indicated for me to hug him. I saw he was wearing jeans. As soon as I hugged him - for only a couple of seconds - I could feel his erect penis against my leg and he made a noise and spasmed, indicating he had immediately orgasmed (while fully clothed). I pulled back to see if there was a wet patch on my clothing/thigh. At this point I noticed I was wearing a beige miniskirt with a matching rope-like belt. There was no wet patch on my leg, but the shop keeper seemed worried and said that he would pay my cleaning bill. I told him not to worry, as my skirt was clean. I accepted the £ payment, thinking how easy it would be to get more money from him in future. 

Scene 3: A TV Studio - Time Unknown
I saw a TV studio, where a quiz/talk show was being filmed. The entire set was blue, and there was a male host - a white adult man in a dark suit and tie - standing at a podium in the centre of the stage, the floor of which was white. He showed a video (projected on a big screen behind him, which had previously looked like a blue background) of a woman's bare legs in high heeled shoes, while she leaned against a railing in an outside location. 

When the scene cut back to the host in the studio, he was walking back to his podium on stage from the audience seating area - so it appeared he had been talking to members of the audience. The host was drinking a carton of orange juice through a straw. He said: 'They should let all hosts drink like this on TV' and I got the impression he was breaking the rules. He then showed another video on the screen. This was an image of a computer display, although everything was blank and white, other than the address bar, where instead of a URL, there was numbers counting down from 17000 - it looked like this: 17000/17000, then 16999/17000, then 16998/17000. It was as if something was loading on the screen. I thought it would take ages to count down, but the numbers started counting down more quickly, until 0/17000 was shown. I felt relief as this had taken only a moment. The numbers then started increasing from zero - counting back up to 17000. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I think there are some details I have forgotten. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • The fact I would hug strangers for £5 and be happy about this arrangement
  • The TV show in Scene 3

Day Residue: 
  • The day of this dream I had been watching a documentary on drug addiction
  • I received a Facebook message from RBA just before I went to sleep
  • The day of this dream I had been discussing male/female strippers with DL. We then discussed penises
  • The day of this dream - just before I went to sleep, LD2 gave me a hug because I was doing him a favour. He mentioned that he knew that I did not like hugs. The truth is, I don't, but I do actually like occasional hugs from my closest friends, LD2, DL and RBA, because they are different and special to me - and therefore I guess there are some people who I like hugging (no payment necessary from them ha ha!)

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. Despite the content being bizarre and quite disgusting at times, I actually enjoyed having this dream as it was so weird and had a lot of references to pensises, one of which was deformed. The physical sensation of the shop keeper's erect penis and him ejaculating against my thigh was very prominent within the dream. I think that I have forgotten a lot of information about  this dream but if I recall anything further about this dream, I will record it below.