Time: 22:30 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream Dream recall: Weak recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: An Interior - Time Unknown My Nan was screaming at me in anger about something - but I cannot recall what it was or why she was so mad at me. I was getting frustrated by this. I then went over to a bed, which had a shelving unit on one side. Sitting on the duvet, resting against the pillows was a baby (I think it was female, but I cannot recall). My Nan sat on the other side of the bed, next to the baby. I leaned towards the baby and started trying to teach her to talk. I was trying to get her to say 'Han Solo' and 'Princess Leia', but this was failing. My Nan asked me what I was doing and I replied: 'Explaining Han Solo'. There was a scene where I saw a large, unopened bottle of vodka, which belonged to me. There was another scene where I was with some other dream characters and checked my bank balance on an ATM, finding that I had £695. I felt surprised and relieved.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
My Nan as a dream character
A baby as a dream character
Dreamsigns:
I was trying to teach a baby to talk in a very unusual way
I had £695 in my bank account
Day Residue:
I had been discussing Star Warswith R3A and we had been talking about a funny Youtube review of the movies
On the day of this dream I had seen a news article about Harrison Ford which described his extra-marital affair with Carrie Fisher while filming the first movie
On the day of this dream I had mentioned to SC, my housemate, that I had some vodka left in a bottle which was at DL's flat - I intended to ask him to bring the vodka so that I could drink it at a party which would take place at the weekend
I was worried about how much money I had left before payday (because I don't get paid until after Christmas this year)
Waking Reactions: I have forgotten large amounts of this dream, however, it does not seem to be related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, so much as a reflection of my recent Day Residue. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 00:30 - 09:30 (I woke up from this dream due to a fire alarm test)
Type of dream: Normal dream Dream recall: Normal recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: Sheringham - Day I think I was in Sheringham, but I am not actually sure as I have forgotten various details of this dream. I recall that there were 2 main 'scenes' or elements of this dream - and both were connected by theme. In the first scene, I was aware that my colleague CR was attempting to get intimate with EG, someone I briefly dated a while ago and someone who CR does not know in real life. I was angry about this fact, thinking she was 'moving into my territory'. I discussed this with DL - and he referred to the fact EG (who he does not know in real life) is originally from an African country. This conversation may have taken place on a phone. There was some action around shopping or obtaining some items. I cannot recall specifically. Scene 2: An Exterior - Day I was then aware that PS was going to start dating AWB again and this made me very unhappy. I was trying to place obstacles in the path of their emerging relationship, out of jealousy. A conversation with PS took place outside in this location, where we were surrounded by rolling green hills and trees. I was telling him that he should be with me instead, and he agreed, but said he could not let AWB down, as she needed him. I wanted to talk to AWB and tell her that she could not have PS - she was in a different location (London) from where PS and I were. PS was going back to London to be with her, this making me feel angry and frustrated. I referred to the fact she was now disabled (true in real life) and PS told me that he was going to be her carer. I then 'remembered' a previous dream in which AWB was a main dream character, albeit transformed into a half human/half baboon-type being. When recalling this dream, it felt like these were 'real life events', not a memory of a past dream. This dream was Dream 506 - 'Two Boyfriends and Lots of Bad Behaviour!' (quite coincidentally, as I only noticed this, while writing up this particular dream and searching through my Dream Journal to find the earlier dream. However this current dream also features 2 boyfriends and a little bit of bad behaviour! To add more strangeness, the past dream also took place within a Dream Incubation Experiment too - the 14 Day Dream Incubation Experiment - Kurt Cobain Dream. This scene was much more detailed than I can recall. I cannot recall anything else about this dream, as although it felt vivid when I was dreaming it, because I was awoken suddenly by an unexpected fire alarm test, I forgot many of the details.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
Sheringham as a dream scene location
My ex-boyfriends
Jealousy
Dreamsigns:
I recalled events in a past dream, as if they were memories of a real life incident
Day Residue:
I have recently become aware that AWB is now disabled. I was reading her Blog. She hates me because I didn't want her to date PS after me and I made those feelings clear, but there were many reasons behind this which I won't detail here, but it wasn't as straightforward as me just being jealous or hostile; since she has been disabled, I have wanted to reach out to her and let her know that events in the past were motivated by scenarios she might relate to now we have both moved on; and to show her that I understand some of what she is currently going through (as indicated in her Blog posts)
Waking Reactions: This dream seemed to suggest I wanted to be back with my ex-boyfriend (PS) and also had the strong theme of not wanting my exes to move on to new people. I am not sure how much the content relates to my current Dream Incubation Experiment. However, it was very interesting to experience a memory of a dream within this dream - and then discover the strange coincidences which I was not consciously aware of until I went back through my Dream Journal to find the past dream from last year. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 22:30 - 11:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream Dream recall: Normal recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham Again, this dream did not start at my Nan's house, Sheringham, but this is the only location I recall from the start of this dream. I had a new baby - but the baby looked older than newborn - at least one year old. It was a girl, with black hair in small bunches, with a fringe/bangs. She wore a blue frilly dress. I am not sure what her name was in the dream. She strongly resembled the child, 'Boo' from Monsters Inc. (2001). I was not happy to be a mother and felt like everyone had abandoned me, leaving me to cope with a new baby. I had no clue what I had to do and did not like my daughter at all. I felt trapped and frustrated. I did not even know how to feed the baby. I was feeding her raw carrots, but aware that she should be drinking milk, not eating solid food. Although she looked older, she was definitely a newborn baby. I wondered if I should ask someone for advice, so I tried to contact my various female relatives to ask them how I should feed the baby. None of them seemed to care, and when I told them I had been feeding her solid food, they told me I was doing everything wrong and putting her at risk of harm, but would not tell me the correct way to do anything. I assumed that I should sterilise the equipment I was using to feed her - but did not have a sterilisation machine. I boiled a big pan of water on the stove and dumped all the baby bottles and spoons I had found into it. I then sat down on the sofa. My daughter climbed onto me for a hug and I moved her off me, onto the sofa because I didn't want to have physical contact with her. This scene with my daughter and me rejecting her seemed to dominate most of the dream. Scene 2: A Record Store, My 'Dream Town' - Day I was then in a record store, which I realised was in my 'Dream Town' (see Dream 738 - 'Makeup Brushes & Oily Skin' which links the relevant posts which explain what my 'Dream Town' is). I felt like I had visited this record store before (I may have done, although I cannot find a relevant entry in my Dream Journal at the time of writing this dream up). It was a normal record store, with nothing out of the ordinary. I was involved in some kind of 'swap' (I cannot recall the details). I have forgotten the rest of this dream, as I was distracted upon waking by my phone. I recalled more of this dream when I first work up than I do now, when recording it.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
My Nan's house, Sheringham as a dream scene location
Rejecting motherhood
Feeling alone and abandoned
Swaps
Dreamsigns:
My newborn daughter looked like a toddler
I was feeding a newborn baby raw carrots
I was in my Dream Town
Day Residue:
Recently, there has been some fraught and frustrating discussion at work about rota swaps
Waking Reactions: It was interesting that during the course of my Dream Incubation Experiment, I have had yet another dream about rejecting motherhood. This - and marriage - have been the predominant recurring dream themes, which fascinates me. This dream was frustrating as I really did not want to be a mother and knew I was doing a really bad job! I have forgotten a lot of detail about this dream, which seemed much more vivid when I first woke up from it, although being distracted soon thereafter meant my dream memories faded. If I recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 23:00 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Normal dream Dream recall: Normal recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown The dream did not actually start at my Nan's house, but I cannot recall the first location. I was trying to get some gifts together for someone (unrecalled). I was aware that my gift was not adequate and that someone else (unrecalled) had purchased a much more expensive, luxurious gift for the same recipient. I felt our gifts were in competition. I then found myself standing at the dining table in the living-room of my Nan's house. On the table were the 2 gifts - the one I had bought and the one bought by the other (unrecalled) dream character which I had managed to secretly intercept. Both gifts were wrapped up in fancy pink boxes, with bows. I opened the one I had bought and found that it contained makeup items. I decided I would swap the gifts, and pretend the more expensive, luxurious one I had intercepted was actually from me. I opened it to see what was inside and found that this gift was also cosmetics - but was surprised to find that they were not actually as 'luxurious' as I had anticipated - they actually looked pretty cheap, meaning my own intended gift was indeed the better one. My housemate SC was talking to another colleague with the same first name - SU - in a doorway. I saw SU's ginger hair very vividly. I am not sure where this short dream scene took place. The scene changed again, but I am not sure of the location, as I could only see my Mum, with whom I was interacting. My Mum was bald, and I was aware that she was suffering from cancer and was undergoing chemotherapy. Although this sounds like a nightmarish scenario - and one which would be deeply traumatic if it happened in real life - it did not feel that negative in the dream. I gave my Mum my hair, for her to wear as a wig. I handed her my hair - in one piece, as if it were a ready-made wig. It was styled in a side braid, with a fringe/bangs - as my own hair was in real life. As my Mum adjusted my hair on her own head, I thought: 'If she still had her own blonde hair underneath, you would see it at the edges of the hairline, and it would be obvious she was wearing a black wig'. The fact she didn't have her own blonde hair, meaning my dark hair looked like it was her's was perceived as a positive thing. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
My Nan's House, Sheringham as a dream scene location
Makeup/cosmetics
My Mum as a dream character
Dreamsigns:
I was able to remove my hair for my Mum to wear as a wig
Day Residue:
On the day of this dream I had been discussing buying Christmas presents for my family, and mentioned how I often buy cosmetics for my Mum and Nan
A few days before this dream, DL and I had been talking about UK hip hop producers and he mentioned 'Chemo'
On the same day as the conversation about 'Chemo', I heard that the father of my friend was undergoing surgery to remove a tumour
On the night of this dream I went to bed with my hair in a side braid
Waking Reactions: This dream didn't really reference my Dream Incubation Experiment. As noted above, this seems like it would be a nightmarish or negative dream, but it was not perceived that way within the dream itself. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 23:00 - 04:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream Dream recall: Normal recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: A Shop - Time Unknown I was in a shop - standing beside the counter. I am not sure what the shop sold, other than makeup and cosmetics, which were in a glass case beside the counter. I was with an older female dream character - a middle-aged white woman - who was a makeup artist. She was trying to convince me to buy some of her own-brand makeup brushes, which were on a 3-for-2 deal. She handed me a number of brushes, which she took from the glass cabinet. I thought the brushes were a strange shape - the hairs were cut in a wonky way. I asked the makeup artist about this, and she said that the brushes were designed this way so that they could fit into the grooves of the face. She demonstrated by showing me how one of the brushes fit into the shape of my eyelid, but I was not convinced. I was able to pick 2 of the brushes which I thought I could work with - one of them being a brush designed for contouring the face. However, I was struggling to pick a third brush, which was necessary as part of the deal. This scene continued with me looking at the brushes and being indecisive. I then discovered I had a lot of other items in my hands - all of them cosmetics. I was holding a black liquid eyeliner, and I decided that I did not need this product, so put it back on a shelf. I wanted to buy some Boots No.7 Protect & Perfect Serum (which is an anti-ageing serum which I have used for many years and love - I currently do not have any). I wondered if I could afford to buy the serum, or whether I should wait until I was paid by university at the end of the month, when my budget would be much larger. I discussed the makeup brushes with the makeup artist again and mentioned to her that I had oily skin. She didn't seem to believe me (despite this being something very obvious to most people just looking at me). I touched my face with my fingers to show her the oil which would transfer - and saw that my hand was dripping wet. Scene 2: A Car, Sheringham - Day I was the passenger in a car which was driving through Sheringham - but the town was very different. The road was winding and uphill, and as I looked out of the rearview, I could see that this was a residential area with a huge number of houses which were arranged in a somewhat haphazard manner (i.e. not straight lines), from the seafront, all the way up the hill in the direction that we were driving. It did not seem like Sheringham - or any place I have ever been before - but I noticed that at the bottom of the hill, set between the houses, was a pub which I recognised as one I had visited in a previous dream - Dream 701 - 'Special Cannabis Bar'. It wasn't a feeling that I had 'dreamed' of this pub before - it was a feeling that I had visited it many times before when in Sheringham (which was how I knew that this dream scene was set in Sheringham). This time, the pub was a low one-storey building which was rectangular-shaped and painted with a beautiful fresco/mural on the outside - vines and flowers in green, yellow and pink colours, which made it stand out from all of the other houses surrounding it. The whole area looked like a model 'toy town' - I cannot describe what I mean, other that everything looked so provincial and picturesque and charming. There were a lot of trees and plants in the front gardens of the residential houses. I felt an intense sense of familiarity and belonging in this area, and vowed to return as soon as I had completed the car journey. As we drove along the road, we went past a family home - a red brick house, which had a very pointed roof, as if it was a church with a steeple. A white bridal veil, with a white ribbon tied in a bow, was on top of the steeple and this was flapping in the wind. I could see that the front of the house was a large window - so you could see directly into the house. Inside the window, the residents - a male and female - were posed like mannequins in a shop window. The residents were older people, dressed as a bride and groom. I was told by the driver of the car - a male dream character, who was my friend in the dream (not sure who he was meant to represent, if anyone), that this husband and wife couple dressed in their wedding outfits and posed this way everyday, as a way of honouring their marriage. I was fascinated by this, and kept staring out of the rearview to see, until we drove too far past. I then started wondering if I was in my 'Dream Town' (see below) instead of Sheringham - and maybe I had been confused earlier about my precise location. I wanted to get out of the car to explore and make sure. I wondered how I had assumed I was in Sheringham at all, and supposed that it was because the pub was one which I had thought was in Sheringham, but I was now doubting myself so much that I felt confused and bewildered.
Extra Information: I have a Dream Town location, which I often end up in, within my dreams. This Dream Town fascinates me, as I have never been able to ascertain if it is a place which actually exists (highly unlikely) or a composite of many different places I have been/seen before, which have been fused in my subconscious to form an 'ideal' location within my dreams. I did once attempt a Dream Incubation Experiment where I attempted to visit my Dream Town to find out more information about it. Clicking on the link HERE will take you to that experiment, where all the dreams based on my Dream Town, which occurred prior to the experiment are linked. Dream 430 - 'The Grand Continental Hotel, Dream Town' was a successful conclusion to that particular Dream Incubation Experiment. There may be more 'Dream Town' dreams in my Dream Journal, but I cannot find them without performing a rigorous search of my previous posts. I think this would be an interesting exercise/topic for a future post on this Blog. Recurrent Dream Themes:
Marriage
Dreamsigns:
Sheringham looked completely different
I dreamed of a dream scene location which had been part of an earlier dream
I wondered if I was in my 'Dream Town'
Day Residue:
On the day of this dream I had a conversation about DL about the Pixiwoo sisters (Sam Chapman and Nic Haste), local makeup artists and Youtube stars, who I admire a lot, having followed their careers for the past 5 years. I referred to the makeup brushes (Real Techniques) which they design and the fact that they use foundations suited to their skin type (dry) while my own skin type is incredibly oily
I showed DL my 'fake' Beauty Blender-style makeup application sponges, which are shaped like butt-plugs
I am receiving my payment for marking undergraduate law assignments at the end of this month
Waking Reactions: Again, I had another dream which referenced marriage! I am not sure what to make of this; is it my subconscious trying to answer my Dream Incubation Experiment, or is it simply the result of Day Residue, as I am obviously writing about marriage/relationships and my dreams on an almost daily basis at present. Nevertheless, this dream was incredibly interesting to me, as not only was it heavy with clearly identifiable Day Residue in much of the content, but I was thinking about my 'Dream Town' within this dream (my favourite dream theme) and also a previous dream scene location which I had enjoyed visiting in a previous dream (the 'special cannabis bar'). Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 21:00 - 08:45 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: False Awakening/Fully-lucid dream/Vivid dream Spontaneous Lucid Dream following FA - approximately 3 minutes Dream recall: Strong recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: My Bedroom, Norwich - Night I woke up in my own bed - it was dark, as would be expected. I was immediately aware that this was a False Awakening with Sleep Paralysis, as I was unable to move and I could hear a strange electronic buzzing noise in the room with me. There was no need for a Reality Check to make sure. I was fully lucid. I then noticed that sitting on top of the duvet, which was covering my body, was a small pointed witch-like being - about the size of a kitten. I felt the weight of this on my left wrist, but I could only see the outline of this because it was so dark. The being did not move or make a noise, and I was fearful, but calm, as I understood the experience and knew it was part of my dream. The being then tried to bite my wrist, which made me desperate to change the dream situation and progress to a different dream scene. I tried to break through the sleep paralysis by shaking my body until it moved freely. Eventually I was able to get out of bed and walk towards the door of my bedroom. Instead of leading to the hallway, the door to my bedroom led to a small, white tiled room. In the doorway of that room was R3A, with a white towel wrapped around his waist and a dark towel thrown over his shoulder. As I was pretty pleased to see someone who I enjoy spending time with in real life, I did not try to control this aspect of the dream or change it in any way. The lucidity felt quite stable at this point too, with good clarity. I wanted to check that this was really R3A, so I greeted him using his name and he replied, me being able to detect it was actually his voice I was hearing. I joined him in the small room, which seemed to be some kind of laundry room, and had a discussion with him - referencing events in waking life. I will not include the nature of our interaction herein, as it was something personal and private which I wanted to talk to him about within a lucid dream to see what would happen. The response I got from him was - to a large extent - what I might expect him to say in real life if we were having this conversation. I may well try and have this conversation with him in person so I can compare the 'real life' responses to the subconscious ones I experienced in my lucid dream. R3A then proceeded to try and have sex with me from behind, in a standing position, but I am not sure how far this progressed as I must have fallen back into a normal non-lucid dream. Scene 2: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown I was at my Nan's house, panicking because I had just got a positive pregnancy test. I could not recall having sex recently (the sex from Scene 1was not on my mind within the non-lucid part of this dream). I was panicked and wanted to end the pregnancy, but was reluctant to take this step. I was pacing around my Nan's living-room in a panic. My family were present, but none of them seemed to care about my predicament. I wondered if I had been so drunk that I had forgotten I had sex with someone. There was a vague recollection of me having attended a party 2 weeks previously (in the dream). I decided that I needed to text a friend - TT - to find out if he knew what had happened. I contacted TT, asking him if I had been so drunk at the party that I may have done something that I had forgotten about. He said that he did not think that I had had sex with anyone at the party. This left me feeling confused as to how I got into this situation. I wondered if I could buy some drugs over the internet to sort it out quickly. Scene 3: An Outside Restaurant - Day I was then in an outside environment - sitting at a round table with my Mum, Nan and cousin HM. We were having a Christmas meal. We were brought food and I realised it was turkey and was annoyed, because I dislike this meat. I was also served a red/pink coloured dessert in a glass. I was aware that the portion sizes were inadequate and the food was of a low quality, but no-one else seemed to have a problem with it. After the meal - some time after - I was with my family, discussing the meal. I became aware that I could not remember a single thing about the meal - I could barely even recall being present. My cousin HM told me that I had been very intoxicated. I asked if I had eaten anything and I was told that I had eaten the turkey, which annoyed me. I was also very concerned, not only by my memory loss, but the fact I also could not recall drinking any alcohol in the first place. Scene 4: Law Firm - Time Unknown I had gone back to working for the law firm where I had previously worked in real life - and in the dream the events surrounding me quitting the job were the same as the real life situation. The law firm was different - much bigger, but also in a real mess. There were desks everywhere, piled up with paperwork and files and no-one was taking decisions on what needed to be done or showing me what I should be doing. I was dismayed to find that I had forgotten all of my skills and didn't know how to start again. There were many dream characters and some ex-colleagues from real life - including MJF, HF and JA. JA was the boss. I was given a file - it was made of white plastic. I assumed that this was a client file and that I needed to fill it in with client details. which I began to do with a black permanent marker pen. I was also drawing something on the file. I then became aware - looking at the files of other colleagues - that this was supposed to be my personal file. I was worried as I had included someone else's name on the front of it. I then went to ask JA what I needed to do. At first she seemed to be in a bad mood with me. I was directed to 2 booklets which were mounted on a shelf over a desk. One of them I cannot recall - the other one was for a modelling agency. I was instructed by JA - and another colleague (dream character male) that every time a client called the office, we had to pretend that we were either the modelling agency or the other business to which the second booklet related. I wondered why we had to lie to the clients, and risk losing legitimate business from them (i.e. legal representation). I was told that the aim was to keep them on the phone for as long as possible, because we had a special phone line where we got income from long calls. I thought this was unethical. I then walked over to a desk where JA was putting together a collage of photographs of the people who worked in the office. I noticed that she was including a photograph of me from 2003, when I was very skinny and had short, bleached blonde hair. In the photograph I was holding a tray of champagne glasses on the palm of one raised hand and smiling. The photograph had been cut out around the outline. I took this as a sign that we were now on good terms. I was then aware that Louis Tomlinson from One Direction was present and that he was my love interest. I could not recall that his name was Louis when I woke up, so I am not sure if it was indeed in my mind when I was dreaming, although I knew who he was (I am not a One Direction fan). There was some action involved with Louis which I cannot quite recall - but I was keen to be his lover. Scene 5: An Exterior - Dusk I was then outside with Louis. He was sitting on a grassy hillock/sloped bank, which was a short height from ground level, with a chain link fence behind it. I was standing on some gravel in front of him. We were having a conversation where Louis told me he had to leave to catch a ferry to an island called 'Henry' (North West of the UK) which was where his family lived. He said he had to leave from 'Enfield', which in real life is a London Borough, but in the dream was a Northern town. I was trying to persuade him not to go, as I wanted to spend more time with him. He was telling me - while drinking a red cocktail from a plastic cup, using a straw - that he would come back for me. We became aware that someone was filming us using a phone or a video camera. Louis jumped down from the hillock/grassy bank and started to run, with me following. We were joined by the other members of One Direction. I decided that I should make sure that I got into the camera shot so that when the video was put on the internet/released to the media, I would be seen to be involved with a celebrity. I wondered if my ass looked too big in the black trousers I was wearing. I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I am aware that the scene with Louis Tomlinson was more detailed and significant than I am able to remember for the purposes of recording this dream.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
R3A as a dream character
My Nan's house as a dream scene location
Not wanting to become a mother
My family as dream characters
My former law firm
Dreamsigns:
I was pregnant, but could not recall having sex
I texte TT to find out if I had been so drunk at a party that I had sex without being aware
I was returning to work in my old law firm - which was operating as some kind of fraudulent business (the phone situation)
I was dating/in a relationship with Louis Tomlinson of One Direction
Day Residue:
I have a phone screensaver of Ewan McGregor - my favourite Scottish (or any nationality) man ever - wearing a towel around his waist and one thrown over his shoulder
I had been having a long, humorous conversation with R3A earlier on the day of this dream
On the day before this dream I had read an online article about a girl who was sexually assaulted at a party
I had seen TT post a Facebook status which referred to rape/sexual assault
On the day of this dream I had been talking to SC (my housemate) about how much I hate turkey and why it is stupid to eat it at Christmas for the sake of tradition when British people don't seem to like it enough to eat at other times of the year. I also recalled my Mum telling me about having to complain to an expensive restaurant about a Christmas meal she and my Nan had once been served
A couple of days before this dream I had told SC about the working conditions in my former place of employment - the law firm
Just before I went to sleep I watched an episode of Peep Show (S09E03 - 'Threeism') in which Jeremy writes 'I love you' on Mark's eyelids in permanent marker, as a message to April, Mark's love interest who is coming over for a dinner party - he panics when he realises that April will be bringing her husband. Angus because he is unable to wash off the permanent marker
Waking Reactions: This dream was very fascinating for me. Firstly, it was the first False Awakening/spontaneous lucid dream I have had in ages, and that always feels significant. However, even in the non-lucid parts of this dream felt so vivid and intense that it was interesting despite the lucidity. Some of the dream content was disturbing, but did not feel like a nightmare to me. It was more confusing - especially since there were many instances in this dream where I was supposed to have acted in a certain way without remembering - the indication being that alcohol was to blame in some way, despite me also not being able to recall getting intoxicated. Recurrent dream themes which may relate to my Dream Incubation Experiment are being in a relationship of some sort and the rejection of motherhood. I am not sure how much this dream relates to my current Dream Incubation Experiment, but it is particularly notable that again, I am dreaming of a return to legal practice. I must note that I do not find Louis Tomlinson physically attractive in any way, so this was an odd choice of dream lover for me! Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 21:00 - 06:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Vivid dream Dream recall: Strong recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: A University/Classroom - Day I was in a classroom, aware that it was nearly 'break time' - I was looking out of the window, which was in front of the desk I was sitting at - I could see that it was sunny outside. Next to me was SMH - a girl from my high school who I have not seen (nor thought about) since that time. She asked me if I could sign her passport application. I said that I wasn't sure if I was authorised to do this, and she said she had checked and I just needed to put my signature on it. I asked when she wanted me to do this, and she said that I should come to her house at break time. I was not pleased about this, as I wanted to go into Norwich city to do some shopping and didn't think I would have time. I agreed anyway, although I did not want to. Scene 2: St Stephen's Street, Norwich - Day I was then on St Stephen's Street, Norwich. It was still a sunny day and there were a lot of pedestrians and traffic in this area. I walked down to towards the city centre, on the right side of the road. I then stood at the bus stop, beside a bus that was parked there. There was something very different about this street in the dream, although I could not work out what it was (thinking back - it was that the area had less buildings than it does in real life, and appeared to be more 'open' in the dream, with a different composition - looking at very old photographs of this area of the city, my dream reflected what this location looked like back then, rather than how it does now - see images below which are from August, 1964). I was aware that (at the top of the street) I had just bought an ice lolly and some strawberries. There was something relating to a (Friesian) cow - but I cannot recall what this was. I just woke up recalling a scene, or part of a scene where a cow was involved. Scene 3: My Nan's House Sheringham - Time Unknown I then found myself writing up the events which had just taken place on St Stephen's Street, as if I was recording them in a diary (buying the ice lolly and strawberries). I was sitting on the floor of the living-room, in front of the TV/sofa/gas heater. I was writing this in pencil, and I was not pleased, because I thought the pencil was 'too impermanent' - I wanted the permanence of pen ink. I flicked through some other writing, which was on lined A4 paper in a bundle and noticed that I had actually done at least 50% of my notes/writing in pencil, which surprised me. I looked at my Youtube channel and found that most of my subscribers had unsubscribed - I was confused as to why this might be. I was in a room with a bed in it - there were other dream characters present, and I was in the bed with my ex-boyfriend, SL. I started panicking because there was a large squirrel in the bed next to me. I was screaming at SL to get it out of the bed and he told me to calm down and then removed it. It stood on the floor beside my side of the bed. I was then in my own room in my Nan's house, sitting on one of the beds which used to be in that room, but has since been removed. I was with DL and we were discussing battle rap. I was the downstairs in the living-room with DL and a male dream character, who reminded me of TC - a friend of DL who I also know and like. It was night. TC was sitting in the chair in the corner of the room, beside the door and had a plastic bag - containing alcohol - by his feet. He was asking me what I would recommend to him about my university. I told him it was 'like Hollyoaks' (i.e. full of young, glamorous people with very chaotic, drama-filled lives). I told him that my university's nickname is 'the University of Easy Access' (this is true in real-life). He asked me to show him on his iPhone and stood next to me, scrolling through the internet page. He then handed the phone to me, so I could find the right information. The screen showed text and a video which had no loaded properly - everything on the screen was fuzzy and grey. I tried to scroll with my thumb, but the screen was unstable, and kept jerking up and down. I could not work out how to use the phone. I handed it back to TC and he sorted it out. While this was happening, I saw that under he dining table was a green plastic grocery crate, filled with food. On top were a number of Muller Light yoghurts. I said to DL: 'Should they be stored in the fridge?' and he said 'yes'. I was worried that the yoghurts were now spoiled and mouldy.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
Standing beside a parked bus
My ex-boyfriends
Battle rap
University
Dreamsigns:
St Stephen's Street, Norwich was different - something I did notice in the dream
I was in bed with my ex-boyfriend and a squirrel
Day Residue:
On the day of this dream I had seen a Facebook friend post about their passport application
A couple of days before this dream I had a conversation with an office within my university about me needing to produce a form of valid photo ID - I was told I could not use my passport as it is has expired
The day of this dream I had seen a Facebook friend ask a riddle on his status: ('what is in the front of women and the back of cows?' - answer: 'w')
The day before this dream I had seen part of a TV cooking show where a chef was cooking a savoury dish with strawberries
I have recently been making a real effort to eat at least 5 types of fresh fruit a day - I prefer exotic fruit (pineapple being my absolute favourite)
I have been editing my thesis and the day before this dream, posted an image of my typed and handwritten drafts online. Recently when I was marking undergraduate essays, I had to do this in pencil - which I hated, as it does not feel natural to me as I gave up writing in pencil at primary school (I can only comfortably write using a Bic Medium Crystal pen - the cheapest most basic form of biro). I had also been telling DL and SC a story from when I was at primary school, which I will repeat here for the purposes of being complete and giving an insight into my memories. At primary school we were being taught cursive handwriting. When we displayed adequately neat, joined up handwriting we were allowed to move from writing in pencil to using a handwriting pen (which was not a good pen to write with in my opinion). I was prevented from graduating onto using a pen because I applied to much pressure when writing and did not join up every letter. This is despite the fact I had been moved up a class with a few of my classmates and was still top of the class in most subjects, other than maths (a few of us were moved up, because we were too advanced for our own age group - so I was in fourth year with the older pupils, when I would have normally been in third year with my peers). This has always annoyed me, because my handwriting was still neat and very readable, even if it wasn't perfectly joined up. I still do not write fully joined up and as a result, people always find they can read my handwriting easily. Further points: I recall that SMH was in my A-level Psychology class (this class was referenced in Scene 2 of Dream 734 - 'Dating the President's Son') - she missed most of the classes and because she was a 'stoner friend' back then, she would photocopy my notes because they were the most detailed and legible (I think I was the only student in that class to pass with a good grade, even though I missed a couple of exams myself).
The night before this dream I had recorded and uploaded a new Youtube video on my channel, relating to dreams which have occurred during the course of this experiment
The night before this dream I had been thinking of how weird i is when my housemate SC gets me to look at something on his Mac laptop and I am completely unfamiliar with it and unable to use it intuitively
Waking Reactions: This was a really weird dream - again with some recurrent dream themes, such as ex-boyfriends and university. I am not sure if this was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but I did enjoy this dream. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 00:00 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)
Type of dream: Dream fragments Dream recall: Weak recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown I was with WK - a friend on Facebook. We met Beyonce Knowles. There was a scene involving a treehouse. WK and I were asked to select between some (female?) dream characters as part of a task. I have forgotten so much of this dream, as I did not record it upon waking, then got distracted. Initially, I did recall much more detail and narrative context upon waking.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
None of note
Dreamsigns:
I was with WK who I have never actually met
Meeting Beyonce
Day Residue:
On the day of this dream I had seen a Facebook post where someone (cannot recall who) was asking who was more beautiful - Beyonce or Aaliyah
On the day of this dream I had seen WK post a Facebook image which compared Lauren Hill and Beyonce - suggesting Beyonce was not a good role model for black women (WK disagreed with the sentiment of the image/caption)
Waking Reactions: It is unfortunate that I did not record this dream as soon as I woke up, as I recalled so much more of it - the forgot a lot of the detail due to being distracted. I cannot make much commentary about how this dream relates to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as it does not seem to be relevant. If I recall anything else, and it does seem to relate to the DIE, I will note it below. Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Time: 21:00 - 01:30 (I woke up from this dream due to noise outside, a Facebook notification alert and my housemate SC checking to see if I was still awake - which all happened around the same time)
Type of dream: Vivid dream Dream recall: Strong recall This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)
Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown I cannot recall where this scene took place. I will add at the outset, that this was one of the most emotionally- impactful dream scenes I have had in ages. And strangely, it occurred on the same day I had a conversation with DL about how I lack a strong emotional expression of sadness or upset. I became aware that after we ended our relationship, PS had abandoned N the Dog, by leaving the door of the house open and forcing him out. N had wandered around by himself and become mangy, dirty and starving. I found him in this state - I could not believe that PS had done this, since he loves N more than anything else in the world. I wondered if he had done it to punish me. I took N the Dog to the vets to be healed. I cannot recall if I went into the vets in the dream. When I went to collect N, I was told that he had been adopted by a new family. I was so upset and wanted to find him and rescue him, taking him into my care, as I had raised him with PS when we lived together. Somehow, I met up with PS and told him that I had found N. PS said that N had been homeless and stray for a few years and he had regretted abandoning him. I was so angry with PS, but glad that he now wanted to save N with me. PS and I found N - we were about to take him, when we saw that he was wearing a new collar, with his new owner's details engraved on it. The new owner was called 'Daisy Walker'. Scene 2: 'New York City, USA' (Camden, London, UK) - Day This dream scene seemed to last for ages. All of the of following locations took place in the same general area. The context of this part of the dream was that myself and my Mum had been joined by a group of young Australian adults who were in 'America' for education reasons. However, the location which was perceived as 'NYC' looked like Camden Lock, London - with more skyscrapers. At one point, while looking down Camden Lock (towards Primrose Hill direction), I thought: 'The Australians' accents are becoming more American'. I walked towards the side of the Lock - so I was able to see the canal. Parked by the pavement of the street was a large white bus. I went and stood beside it. I was joined by a (handsome) young white male with blonde hair. He was 'the President's son' (the US President). I am not sure if 'the President' was Donald Trump as I did not find out the name of the son, nor his father. I was surprised to find that I was in a relationship with the President's son - but was aware that there was some kind of pressure on us to end the relationship. The President's son hugged me from behind. I felt sad that we might have to end our relationship. The President's son took me to NASA headquarters - I cannot recall how we travelled there, but it was nearby to the location we had been in in NYC/Camden. We went to NASA by stealth, knowing that we should not be there. I was not too worried as I was with the President's son and assumed that he was powerful enough to not get us into trouble for trespassing. When we were inside the main control room, it was dark - but lit up from green light emanating from hundreds of computer monitors, which were all turned on, showing numbers and chart and other technological data. The computer monitors were mounted in long rows of 3 along each wall. The only space was for the doorway, which looked like a cupboard. The President's son and I had sex on the floor of the NASA control room - this was very exciting, partly because of the danger of getting caught, and partly because this was the President's son and I was being taken to locations I would never usually be able to access. This was not a wet dream (i.e. I did not experience a real life orgasm), but it was very stimulating and enjoyable. I was then supposed to attend a Psychology lecture. I went into a lecture theatre, holding some textbooks. The lecture theatre was mainly blue in colour, and was half-filled. I sat down in an empty row, on the end seat next to the stairs - the only other student sitting on this row was CW, a friend from Sheringham (who was actually in my A-level Psychology class at Sixth Form College in real life). She started to put away her books and papers, and told me that the class was over - I had arrived too late. I stood up again and put my own belongings away in a backpack I had been wearing. I then went outside - I saw my Mum and a blonde female dream character (one of the Australian students who were with us on this trip). It was now dusk. The blonde Australian female was standing in front of a large blank white billboard. She was gesticulating with her hands, but I could not make out what she was saying (if anything) or what she was trying to communicate. I noticed she was wearing a beaded friendship bracelet and had a Chinese symbol tattoo on her wrist. Her presence annoyed me for some reason. My Mum started to tell me that I had to marry the President's son. She said there was a bonds scheme where you could buy 'bonds' which were 'cashed in' when the named party on the bonds was married. The value of the bonds was unknown until they were cashed in - they might be worth little or a fortune - it was a gamble/game of chance. She had bought some bonds in my name. I said that I could not marry the President's son - we were being forced to end our relationship. My Mum was putting pressure on me. I was saying that if I married the President's son, the bonds scheme was irrelevant - he was already a billionaire. I was standing with my hand resting on a brick wall next to the billboard while this conversation took place. I felt stressed. I was then standing in line in a shop of some kind, waiting to pay for items which were being held by my female companion in a wire shopping basket - one of the Australians on the trip with my Mum and I. To my left were some shelves with books on them. I wanted to check the books, as I thought some of them might be useful for my PhD in Law (my real life course of study). However, the dream character I was with (I don't know her name) was hurrying me along, telling me that there was no time for me to stop and look at the books. This annoyed me. I felt everyone wanted me to do what they wanted and were not listening to my needs and desires. I was then in a train station - at first, it reminded me of Norwich train station, as I walked from the platform to the entrance/exit. However, as I approached the entrance, which was made of ornate red brick design, I realised I was still in NYC/Camden. I had not travelled anywhere - I had been waiting for a train to arrive so I could meet someone (not sure who) off the train, but they had not arrived. I walked through the archway of the entrance - towards the street, which was a busy part of the city, with some large planters containing brightly coloured flowers on a paved area directly outside the front of the station. It was not lighter outside (i.e. no longer dusk) - it felt like late afternoon. I was behind a middle-aged white man and his adult son. I listened to their conversation. The father was saying to the son: 'Failed barristers make the best battle rappers' and he was explaining why this was. I took out my phone, deciding to text R3A and tell him what I had overheard. I then decided to go back to the shop where the books were. The shelves where the books were were quite empty- with only a few books on each. There was also a circular stand with more books on it. I was looking for a book called 'Media Law', but I could not see it at first. I kneeled down beside a low white metal shelf and looked at the books there. I was frustrated as I just could not find the one i wanted. However, I found a very small book which was entitled 'Marilyn & Her Mother'. I flicked through the book. It was about Marilyn Monroe and her relationship with her mentally-ill mother, Gladys Baker, and contained a number of photographs I had not seen before. I checked the price and although I cannot recall what it was, in the dream I decided that it was reasonable. This made me pleased as I really wanted this book to add to my collection of Marilyn Monroe books. I then saw a thick book with a black cover. It was called 'Media Law' - it was the book that I had been looking for. I wondered why I had not seen it before, because it was the largest book on the shelf, which was quite empty. I checked the price of this book and was pleased to see that I could afford to buy both. The prices were written on the inside of the cover - in pencil - which is how books tend to be priced in secondhand bookstores.
Extra Information: None of note Recurrent Dream Themes:
PS as a dream character
Education/learning institution/classroom
Career in law & legal practice
R3A as a dream character
Marriage
Sex dream
Dreamsigns:
PS would NEVER abandon N the Dog
NYC, USA was Camden Lock, London
I was dating the President's son
I visited NASA headquarters
Day Residue:
On the day of this dream I had been discussing how much I loved Staffordshire Bull Terriers with a Facebook friend - this is the breed of N the Dog
This month I had a glitch on my Facebook which sent out friend requests on my behalf, without permission. This resulted in over 1,000 random people being added to my account. One of them is named 'Daisy Walker' although I only know this because I entered the name into the search bar while recording this dream (to check the possibility I had subconsciously seen it appear on my timeline). I do not know this person and have not specifically looked at their profile
The day before this dream DL and I had had a conversation about the humour of British/Australians compared to Americans
The day of this dream I had a conversation with R3A about accents
On the day of this dream I had a conversation with DL about The Martian (2015) and specifically referred to the set design for the NASA headquarters
On the day of this dream I had read an article about Rosie O'Donnell who had caused controversy for posting online speculation as to whether Donald Trump's son Barron Trump is on the autistic spectrum
The situation with the bonds is reminiscent of scratch cards. I have a scratch card my Mum gave me - with £10 winnings to be cashed in. Last week I bought a scratch card for my housemate SC's birthday and he won £10 also
On the day of this dream I had a conversation with a male on my Facebook who had asked me out - he had mentioned that his goal in life was to marry and have a family. I had told him I am not interested in marriage or children
A couple of days before this dream I had a conversation on my Facebook thread about hardcopy books in the library v the internet as sources of information for university courses
Just before going to sleep I had been messaging with R3A on Facebook and we had been trading insults/burns to one another
Waking Reactions: This was such a weird dream - with so many elements.The first part of the dream was very very emotional for me. I cannot state exactly how upset this made me feel. It was devastating for me. The dream seemed to take place at 2 different times; Scene 1 was quite separate from the rest of the dream. The second part of the dream, written under the heading of Scene 2, was in reality a number of related dream scenes. in discrete locations of the NYC/Camden area, but I did not label each separately. as this entire part of the dream seemed to be one long continuation and I was aware throughout that it was all taking place in one location over the course of at least one day. I really enjoyed the events of Scene 2 - there was some frustration, but actually, also a lot of excitement. Again, marriage and education were themes - these have been recurrent themes during the course of my Dream Incubation Experiment. It is also notable that reference was made to 'failed barristers' - I wonder if this was a hint at a subconscious notion that I feel that I am a 'failure' because I decided to forego working in legal practice (after my professional training, in which I did very well), to continue as a postgraduate student in an academic role? Is my subconscious telling me that I should reconsider going into legal practice again? Note this strange coincidence: on 27/11/2016 I had Dream 732 - 'Falling from Great Heights & Sexy Boys'. In this dream, I had referred to a male dream character who I strongly believed was based on ED2, a male friend of mine who I met (randomly) in person after interacting on a BuzzFeed comment section (and realising that we lived in the same city). ED2 eventually moved back home to Kent - and we have not been in contact for over a year. Randomly, on the night of the present dream (29/11/2016) I woke up to discover that I had a random Whatsapp message from a number which was no stored in my phone. I could not work out who the message was from - it just had a greeting and informed me that the sender had found my number in an old phone. The message contained my name, so I knew it was meant for me. I ignored it, because it was late and I thought it might be someone who I didn't really want to speak to, especially not when I was tired. I received a subsequent message from the same sender, informing me that it was ED2! This is so weird, given 2 nights before I had experienced a random 'sexual dream' involving him, completely out of the blue! Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:
Tallulah La Ghash, I Could've Been a Battle Rapper [2016]
