Thursday, 15 September 2016

Recurrent Dream Character 'Elliot'/'Elliott'

On 13 September 2016, I had a dream which involved a dream character called 'Elliott'. This is Dream 696 ('Elliott' - NIGHTMARE). In this dream, I had a 'memory' of an earlier dream involving this dream character. Before I had a chance to research my Dream Journal to find out if I did in fact have an earlier dream about a dream character called Elliott, I had a further dream on 14 September 2016 during an evening nap - Dream 697 ('Elliott's Return') which featured the same dream character Elliott - and again referred to the fact that this dream character had appeared in an earlier dream.

Therefore this post is dedicated to the dream character Elliott. I will reproduce all of the Dream Journal entries involving Elliott below:

Elliot/Elliott Dream #1

'My Daughter' - click HERE to open the original Dream Journal entry
Date: 14 August 2016
Time: 04:00 - 10:45 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Moderate recall

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior  - Time Unknown
This dream seemed very vivid when I was dreaming it, but because a few hours lapsed between me waking up with a good memory of this dream and then recording it, I have forgotten a lot of the action and detail. 

In the dream I had a baby daughter - I do not recall her name. I was surprised to discover that I had an even better, slimmer body than I had before - i.e. before I had a baby. 


The father of the baby was a white male, but I didn't recognise him - I am not sure who it represented. I was not in a relationship with him in the dream. I was anxious about giving him the baby for the day - the baby was swaddled in a pink blanket and I was talking to my Mum, voicing my concerns about handing the baby over. 


The father of the baby arrived at the house and I had a conversation with him about our daughter, before eventually deciding to trust him with her for the day. I cannot recall what else happened at this stage, but I know that I felt comfortable at the end of the interaction. 


I then saw someone's customised Myspace page - it was very glittery and had a galaxy wallpaper background. The name of the person was 'Elliot' and I recalled - in the dream only, not a real life memory - that 'Elliot' was the name of a character created by DL. I wondered if 'Elliot' meant 'Technology' and decided that it did, because 'Elliot' was the name of the main child character in ET (1982) - although in this movie, Elliot contracts to 'ET' meaning 'extra-terrestrial'. I wondered if the owner of the Myspace page was copying DL in using this name. 


I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • I had a baby daughter
  • I 'remembered' facts about DL which were not true in real life, only the dream

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream I had been watching Youtube videos on the SomeOrdinaryGamers channel - where Mutahar has a series 'Exploring the Deep Web' where he shows and comments on random websites he has found while surfing the deep/dark web. Many of the sites he referred to had reference to aliens. I saw one which had a galaxy wallpaper. The majority of sites had very bad, outdated designs - which led me to think about how Myspace pages used to be customised

Elliot/Elliott Dream #2


'Elliott' - click HERE to open the original Dream Journal entry
Date: 13 September 2016
Time: 02:00 - 08:40 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 

Type of dream: Normal Dream/Pre-Lucid (questioning dream state)
Dream recall: Normal recall

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior Location  - Day
I was in an interior location - a house, but I am not sure who lived in this house (it may have been me). My Mum and other dream characters - such as DL, who I realised was present a short while into the dream - were around me. We were anticipating a terrible catastrophe - a kind of apocalypse, which was not quite clear in the dream. Basically, I was aware - and I discussed with the other dream characters - that something dramatic was planned to happen - perhaps by the government? It felt like there might be a nuclear war or some danger coming and we had to wait in this house until we were asked to go to the shelter. I wanted to get to the shelter quickly and was packing bags to get ready to leave when we were called for, or picked up, or got the signal to go (I did not know how we were going to be brought to the shelter or where it was). No-one else seemed to care about packing and they were trying to joke, saying I was being over-dramatic. I felt very uneasy and frustrated. 

I then got a telephone call on my mobile phone. It was RBA. I remember leaning on a table while I spoke to him, and the lights being very bright yellow in the room. RBA called me 'Comrade' and told me that I could get to the shelter quicker (so be more safe) if I adopted a person and took him with me. I suddenly saw that I was holding what looked to be a playing card, which had a photograph of Elliott on it. I have made an image (below) to illustrate what Elliott looked like. He had blonde-brown messy hair and big blue eyes. He had a very smug expression on his face. Just seeing Elliott made me angry and scared. I remembered that I had met him in a previous dream and that he had been evil. I said to RBA that I knew Elliott from another dream and I did not want to meet him again, telling him that Elliott was evil and dangerous. RBA said I could not go into the shelter unless I adopted Elliott and protected him, 


I then saw - either on a screen in front of me, or maybe in my mind's eye/imagination - a huge explosion of light, which looked like an atomic bomb blast. I knew that this was a preview of what was going to happen in the apocalypse. I was frantic with the fear of having to meet this awful Elliott again, or risk being killed or harmed in the bomb blast (or whatever catastrophe it might be). I decided that I might be able to sweet talk RBA into changing the rules for me (i.e. letting me go into the shelter without having to adopt Elliott). I said to him (trying to be casual): 'You never told me whether you know who Francis Bacon is' to which he said something along the lines of: 'Why are you so obsessed with knowing if I know who that is...is it someone you're fucking?' I said: 'No' and then called him 'ignorant' because I felt like he was being judgmental and rude. RBA laughed at me and said that as a comrade I was unable to refuse to take Elliott into my care. He said he would send a car.


I came off the phone and told my Mum and DL about what RBA had said and about Elliott. I was really upset and scared, and also panicked because I knew the apocalypse was coming and it would be terrible and kill us all. I was trying to tell them both that Elliott was evil and DL kept saying: 'It's Elliott from Star Wars' (but in the dream Star Wars meant ET (1982) - so I knew which film he meant. I was showing them the paying card which had Elliott's photograph on it (I also noticed that there were decorations drawn around the outside of the photograph, on the white border). My Mum and DL referred to the photograph as a 'party invitation' and did not seem to accept that Elliott was evil, saying I should be pleased to 'go to the party' (in the dream, 'go to the party' was interpreted to mean 'go to the shelter'). DL kept talking about 'Elliott from Star Wars' which annoyed me. I was trying to tell them that I had met Elliott in a previous dream so I knew what he was like. DL said: 'You need to trust RBA about Elliott or you'll die'. I felt trapped in a nightmare. 

Extra Information: 

None of note


Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • RBA as a dream character
  • 'Elliott' as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The catastrophic event which was going to happen
  • The conversation and scenario involving 'Elliott'
  • The fact I remembered I'd dreamed of Elliott before, which should have been a sign I was dreaming now 
  • I saw a preview of the apocalypse 
  • Language had a different meaning in the dream

Day Residue:
  • It was recently the anniversary of 9/11 - so references (and conspiracy theories) about this event has been in the media recently A few days before this dream I watched a video which illustrated what happened to Earth when the meteor/comet which led to the extinction of the dinosaurs would have looked like - I then saw a news story online which stated that a meteor/comet was heading towards the Earth (I am not sure of the validity of the article, as I did not click on it) 
  • In recent Dream 689, I dreamed of something which reminded me of a Francis Bacon painting. RBA was a dream character in the dream and I asked him if he knew who Francis Bacon was (I was lucid), to which he replied that he did not. I did not find this surprising because I don't think RBA is interested in art history. I was then filming a Youtube video about this dream and a few other recent dream experiences, and in the video mentioned the fact that my subconscious clearly thought RBA was ignorant about art. I then scrapped the video because I thought that was a bit rude and I wasn't sure if RBA did know who Francis Bacon was. I messaged him to ask him, but he hasn't answered the question yet.

Elliot/Elliott Dream #3

'Elliott's Return' - click HERE to open the original Dream Journal entry
Date: 14 September 2016
Time: 18:30 - 20:00 (Evening Nap - I woke up from this dream due to an alarm) 
Type of dream: Normal dream/Pre-Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Scene 1: An Airport - Day
I'm in an airport - I know it is daytime, because I can see through the massive floor-to-ceiling windows. The sky seemed a pale, dusty yellow. The window showed a view of the runway, and I could see one airplane.

My Mum. other members of my family and DL were present in the airport, which seemed to be pretty empty. We had a lot of luggage with us, but I did not know (or recall) where we were supposedly travelling to. I felt left out of something, like I wasn't invited to something about to happen, or I was missing something which everyone else was involved in. There was conversation between my family while I stood beside the window. 


My Mum then said we were waiting for Elliott to arrive. This made me feel weird and I recalled that Elliott was someone I had dreamed about (Dream 696 - and perhaps an earlier dream, as referenced in last night's dream). I said to my Mum: 'I dream about Elliott' to which she said: 'You created him on The Sims'. I then saw an image of Elliott - looking as he did in the earlier dream I had of him, the night before, but as a Sim, so cartoony and animated-looking rather than a real human. I felt relieved that he wasn't a real human-being and did not question that (real life) fact that I had not actually made Elliott in The Sims. My Mum then shattered this relief by saying: 'He's been around since the 1970s', which meant (in the dream) that he was actually alive. My Mum said: 'He's your responsibility now' and I was aware that the apocalypse from the earlier dream (Dream 696) was still going to happen and this was why we were in the airport with bags. 


Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Elliott as a dream character - and events of previous dreams 
  • Feeling disconnected or left out of events

Dreamsigns: 

  • This was a continuation of a dream from the night before - I seemed aware that the events of this dream were related to my earlier dreams (Pre-Lucidity)

Day Residue: 
  • At work I have been assigned to supervise a journey to Heathrow Airport, London next week - to collect new international students and transport them to university
  • I cannot recall what I watched a couple of days ago, but there was a reference in a TV show/video to someone jumping out of a plane without a parachute. A male said he would not jump out of a stationary plane while it was on the runway (for £5 million) if it meant he would be injured - this is a vague memory, but I think I wasn't really paying attention to the video which was playing in the background, hence I cannot recall the specifics
  • I had a dream about 'Elliott' last night - Dream 696, which referenced an earlier dream which also involved this dream character, although I have not yet researched this earlier 'Elliott' dream - this dream seemed like a continuation of last night's dream

Do not take notice of the fact that Elliot's name is spelled differently in these Dream Journal entries - at no point in any of the dreams did I see how to spell the name of this dream character, but when writing up the dreams, I Googled the spelling of the name, and these were the two most popular spellings. 

This is a very interesting dream experience, because the first Elliott dream took place exactly one month prior to the recent dreams. That dream was also called 'My Daughter' (in which I had a baby) whereas, in the later Elliott dreams, I was being told that I would have to adopt the dream character. I also find it strange that in the second (and third) dreams about Elliott, I was certain that he was evil, but there was no indication in the first Elliot dream that he was evil. In fact, he was character allegedly designed by DL, another fact that was not referenced in the later Elliott dreams. In the third dream I was told I had created Elliott. There was also no indication of what Elliot looked like in the first dream, but I saw this clearly in the second and third dreams. 

I wonder if I will have any further Elliot/Elliott dreams?

Dream 697

'Elliott's Return'
Date: 14 September 2016
Time: 18:30 - 20:00 (Evening Nap - I woke up from this dream due to an alarm) 
Type of dream: Normal dream/Pre-Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Airport - Day
I'm in an airport - I know it is daytime, because I can see through the massive floor-to-ceiling windows. The sky seemed a pale, dusty yellow. The window showed a view of the runway, and I could see one airplane.

My Mum. other members of my family and DL were present in the airport, which seemed to be pretty empty. We had a lot of luggage with us, but I did not know (or recall) where we were supposedly travelling to. I felt left out of something, like I wasn't invited to something about to happen, or I was missing something which everyone else was involved in. There was conversation between my family while I stood beside the window. 

My Mum then said we were waiting for Elliott to arrive. This made me feel weird and I recalled that Elliott was someone I had dreamed about (Dream 696 - and perhaps an earlier dream, as referenced in last night's dream). I said to my Mum: 'I dream about Elliott' to which she said: 'You created him on The Sims'. I then saw an image of Elliott - looking as he did in the earlier dream I had of him, the night before, but as a Sim, so cartoony and animated-looking rather than a real human. I felt relieved that he wasn't a real human-being and did not question that (real life) fact that I had not actually made Elliott in The Sims. My Mum then shattered this relief by saying: 'He's been around since the 1970s', which meant (in the dream) that he was actually alive. My Mum said: 'He's your responsibility now' and I was aware that the apocalypse from the earlier dream (Dream 696) was still going to happen and this was why we were in the airport with bags. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Elliott as a dream character - and events of previous dreams 
  • Feeling disconnected or left out of events

Dreamsigns: 
  • This was a continuation of a dream from the night before - I seemed aware that the events of this dream were related to my earlier dreams (Pre-Lucidity)

Day Residue: 
  • At work I have been assigned to supervise a journey to Heathrow Airport, London next week - to collect new international students and transport them to university
  • I cannot recall what I watched a couple of days ago, but there was a reference in a TV show/video to someone jumping out of a plane without a parachute. A male said he would not jump out of a stationary plane while it was on the runway (for £5 million) if it meant he would be injured - this is a vague memory, but I think I wasn't really paying attention to the video which was playing in the background, hence I cannot recall the specifics
  • I had a dream about 'Elliott' last night - Dream 696, which referenced an earlier dream which also involved this dream character, although I have not yet researched this earlier 'Elliott' dream - this dream seemed like a continuation of last night's dream

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. However, this was an incredibly interesting dream in itself because it was a continuation of my dream from the previous evening and involved the 'Elliott' dream character again. I was going to research my previous Dream Journal entries to find any earlier references to a dream character named Elliott, which would be the subject of a later post. I still have not done this, but I will research and write up that post after I have finished recording this current dream. 

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

Dream 696 (NIGHTMARE)

'Elliott'
Date: 13 September 2016
Time: 02:00 - 08:40 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Normal Dream/Pre-Lucid (questioning dream state)
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior Location  - Day

I was in an interior location - a house, but I am not sure who lived in this house (it may have been me). My Mum and other dream characters - such as DL, who I realised was present a short while into the dream - were around me. We were anticipating a terrible catastrophe - a kind of apocalypse, which was not quite clear in the dream. Basically, I was aware - and I discussed with the other dream characters - that something dramatic was planned to happen - perhaps by the government? It felt like there might be a nuclear war or some danger coming and we had to wait in this house until we were asked to go to the shelter. I wanted to get to the shelter quickly and was packing bags to get ready to leave when we were called for, or picked up, or got the signal to go (I did not know how we were going to be brought to the shelter or where it was). No-one else seemed to care about packing and they were trying to joke, saying I was being over-dramatic. I felt very uneasy and frustrated. 

I then got a telephone call on my mobile phone. It was RBA. I remember leaning on a table while I spoke to him, and the lights being very bright yellow in the room. RBA called me 'Comrade' and told me that I could get to the shelter quicker (so be more safe) if I adopted a person and took him with me. I suddenly saw that I was holding what looked to be a playing card, which had a photograph of Elliott on it. I have made an image (below) to illustrate what Elliott looked like. He had blonde-brown messy hair and big blue eyes. He had a very smug expression on his face. Just seeing Elliott made me angry and scared. I remembered that I had met him in a previous dream and that he had been evil. I said to RBA that I knew Elliott from another dream and I did not want to meet him again, telling him that Elliott was evil and dangerous. RBA said I could not go into the shelter unless I adopted Elliott and protected him, 


I then saw - either on a screen in front of me, or maybe in my mind's eye/imagination - a huge explosion of light, which looked like an atomic bomb blast. I knew that this was a preview of what was going to happen in the apocalypse. I was frantic with the fear of having to meet this awful Elliott again, or risk being killed or harmed in the bomb blast (or whatever catastrophe it might be). I decided that I might be able to sweet talk RBA into changing the rules for me (i.e. letting me go into the shelter without having to adopt Elliott). I said to him (trying to be casual): 'You never told me whether you know who Francis Bacon is' to which he said something along the lines of: 'Why are you so obsessed with knowing if I know who that is...is it someone you're fucking?' I said: 'No' and then called him 'ignorant' because I felt like he was being judgmental and rude. RBA laughed at me and said that as a comrade I was unable to refuse to take Elliott into my care. He said he would send a car.


I came off the phone and told my Mum and DL about what RBA had said and about Elliott. I was really upset and scared, and also panicked because I knew the apocalypse was coming and it would be terrible and kill us all. I was trying to tell them both that Elliott was evil and DL kept saying: 'It's Elliott from Star Wars' (but in the dream Star Wars meant ET (1982) - so I knew which film he meant. I was showing them the paying card which had Elliott's photograph on it (I also noticed that there were decorations drawn around the outside of the photograph, on the white border). My Mum and DL referred to the photograph as a 'party invitation' and did not seem to accept that Elliott was evil, saying I should be pleased to 'go to the party' (in the dream, 'go to the party' was interpreted to mean 'go to the shelter'). DL kept talking about 'Elliott from Star Wars' which annoyed me. I was trying to tell them that I had met Elliott in a previous dream so I knew what he was like. DL said: 'You need to trust RBA about Elliott or you'll die'. I felt trapped in a nightmare. 

Extra Information: 

None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • RBA as a dream character
  • 'Elliott' as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The catastrophic event which was going to happen
  • The conversation and scenario involving 'Elliott'
  • The fact I remembered I'd dreamed of Elliott before, which should have been a sign I was dreaming now 
  • I saw a preview of the apocalypse 
  • Language had a different meaning in the dream

Day Residue:
  • It was recently the anniversary of 9/11 - so references (and conspiracy theories) about this event has been in the media recently A few days before this dream I watched a video which illustrated what happened to Earth when the meteor/comet which led to the extinction of the dinosaurs would have looked like - I then saw a news story online which stated that a meteor/comet was heading towards the Earth (I am not sure of the validity of the article, as I did not click on it) 
  • In recent Dream 689, I dreamed of something which reminded me of a Francis Bacon painting. RBA was a dream character in the dream and I asked him if he knew who Francis Bacon was (I was lucid), to which he replied that he did not. I did not find this surprising because I don't think RBA is interested in art history. I was then filming a Youtube video about this dream and a few other recent dream experiences, and in the video mentioned the fact that my subconscious clearly thought RBA was ignorant about art. I then scrapped the video because I thought that was a bit rude and I wasn't sure if RBA did know who Francis Bacon was. I messaged him to ask him, but he hasn't answered the question yet 

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. It was a very interesting dream however, not only because we were awaiting some kind of apocalypse at the start, which was pretty scary, hence this dream being quite nightmarish for me. I also notice that this was a pre-lucid dream in that I seemed to be approaching awareness of the fact I was dreaming, in my reference to a previous dream where I met Elliott and the fact I knew I had messaged RBA about a dream I had experienced recently in which he was a dream character. I felt incredibly terrified when I became aware I would meet Elliott again, and am sure that I must have dreamed about a dream character in a previous dream before, although this is only a vague memory. I have not researched this fact by going back through my Dream Journal yet, as I wanted to record this dream in full and then check my previous dreams to see if I did meet a dream character called Elliott before and how I described him. Because I have no strong memories (or certainty that I am remembering things correctly, or simply relying on a vivid dream idea) I cannot say for sure that Elliott was 'evil' in the previous dream. It will be very interesting to find out, so I will post on that separately. 


Monday, 12 September 2016

Dream 695 (NIGHTMARE & LUCID DREAM)

'Rape & Murder'
Date: 11 September 2016
Time: 00:30 - 08:15 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Normal Dream/Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Induction technique: None - spontaneous DILD (Dream-Initiated Lucid Dream)

Reality checks: None required
Level of lucidity: Fully-Lucid 
Approximate time spend lucid: 3 minutes
Clarity: Weak
Control: Fair
Additional techniques: None
Extra information: None of note

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Exterior Location (Sheringham?) - Night
I was outside, although I am not sure where because it was so dark and there were no street lights in the area. I thought I might be in Sheringham, based on the later events where I was able to see some of my surroundings, but given dream scene locations can change and transform suddenly, this is not certain. I was about to be raped, but I could not see the rapist. I was on the ground (concrete) and I think it was raining or maybe I was near the sea, because there was wetness on the ground. I could not get up because the rapist was either crouching or standing over me. Part of what made this dream scene so terrifying (it was experienced as a nightmare) was the fact that I could not see my attacker and the rape felt like it would be inevitable and I could not escape.

Scene 2: Common Lane, Sheringham - Night
Somehow, I managed to get away from the rapist, because I found myself running up Common Lane, towards Woodland Rise, which is where my Nan's house is in Sheringham (where I live when not at university). It was still night. Something made me turn around and I saw that at the bottom of the road (where it meets Cromer Road), 2 men behind me, following me. I realised that one of these men was the rapist from before and I was even more scared. I froze on the spot. I could not see the faces of the people behind me. They shouted something to me, but I could not hear what they said. It sounded aggressive. I then realised that I had to fight, because I could not run - everything was slowed down and I was standing in the middle of the road, helpless. I didn't have any weapons on me. I then suddenly became lucid. I decided to try and use lucid dream control to fight the men behind me, so I raised my hand and visualised a gun. No gun appeared, but as I willed myself to be able to fight my attackers, I realised I could shoot bullets from the tips of my fingers. I aimed and I saw a flash of gun fire and one of the men at the end of the road screamed and fell to the ground. I then aimed and shot the second man, I lost lucidity and returned to a normal dream.

I have forgotten some action/events, which I did recall when I first woke up from this dream.

Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was then in my Nan's house, sitting on the sofa. There was a weird feeling of disconnection - like I did not belong there or was not wanted. I found a canvas and some paints in the living-room and started painting an abstract painting of many colours, which was a collection of different shapes, mainly in red, orange, yellow, green and blue. The painting felt significant. I had some conversation with my Nan - which seemed hostile on her part. She was angry with me for some reason, which I cannot recall.

My cousin HM entered the room and sat in the corner, by the window. She told me that her Nan had died, and I knew she meant her paternal grandmother, as we share a maternal grandmother - and she was alive and well. I asked HM if she meant her 'Nanny J', to which she said: 'No, my great grandmother'. 

Scene 4: My University Shop, Norwich - Time Unknown
I was looking at the chilled meat/seafood cabinet and saw a huge bag of prawns for a low price. I was undecided whether or not I wanted to buy the prawns.

At some point in this dream - I am not sure when - I looked at my Facebook and saw that I had 61 new notifications. I wondered why there were so many and whether this was an error. I think I may have used Facebook to talk to RBA in this dream, or maybe I spoke to him in person or on the phone.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream. I know I have forgotten some aspects of this dream. There was more of this dream after I found out HM's paternal great grandmother had died. 

Extra Information: 

None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 
  • HM as a dream character
  • RBA as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The events of the rape and the chase

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream (very shortly before I fell asleep), I had been watching the artist Tracey Emin on Who Do You Think You Are? a British genealogy documentary series, where she traced her great grandparents 
  • On the day of this dream I had bought some tom yum flavoured prawn noodles and had been looking for fresh prawns in my university shop, but there had been none available. The next day (today - 12/9/2016) I was in the shop and saw a bag of prawns in the exact location they had appeared in my dream (the shop had restocked that morning)
  • RBA sent me a Facebook message while I was in bed, trying to fall asleep.

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This dream was quite lengthy and the first part was a terrifying nightmare, which led me to become lucid. I feel that my lucid dream control is improving, even though I do not experience many lucid dreams. I know I have forgotten many interesting aspects and details of this dream (the non-lucid parts), but I may recall more of this dream periodically as is often true of situations where I have recalled a dream well immediately upon waking and then forgotten some of it as the day progresses. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below.

Sunday, 11 September 2016

Dream 694

'Prison, Pancakes & Domestic Abuse'
Date: 11 September 2016
Time: 16:00 - 19:30 (Afternoon Nap - I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: A Prison Interior - Day
I was in an interior which looked like a prison - there were a number of 'cages' for cells, which were in rows in a large dark room. These cells/cages had metal bars, so you could see right into them. I was in a cell in the centre of room, so I could see into each and every cell adjoining mine, and all the way through into those beyond. The other cells were occupied by my work colleagues. Each cell had a flap with a wooden shelf. The flap was about the size of a large letterbox/catflap and could be lifted to pass items to and from each cell - such as food. 

I had a conversation with my friend/colleague NB. 

I then made some chocolate-flavoured pancakes, with whipped cream. I am not sure what I made them from, as I did not see any ingredients or a stove/source of heat - the plate of pancakes just appeared on the small wooden shelf. 

I then started to having a conversation with RBA via Facebook Messenger - I had my mobile phone with me in my cell. RBA said he wanted me to make him strawberry pancakes, so I agreed that I would do this. I cannot recall what else we discussed. I started making the strawberry pancakes - the pancake batter was very bright pink, but there were no 'real' strawberries in it. I knew the pancakes would taste like strawberry Angel Delight. I was aware that someone else - maybe a colleague - had already made the same pancakes and been praised for them by my boss for doing such a good job. Someone (in another cell) was trying to provoke me, saying I wouldn't be able to make the pancakes well enough.

There was more conversation with my colleagues, and some form of disagreement (unrecalled) which led me to feel left out and annoyed. 

I looked into the cell next to mine and saw a young adult female (a dream character, but in the dream she was a 'new colleague'). My boss, DT was hugging her, and looking over her shoulder at me (frowning at me, as if he was angry with me), he said: 'She's been domestically abused!' Other colleagues managed to get out of their cells and joined my boss in the abused female's cell, all hugging her and giving her sympathy and attention. Someone (unrecalled) told me that the female had lied about the domestic abuse to gain sympathy and was a fake. I felt vindicated, as I had thought there was something odd and disingenuous about her when I first saw her. I looked at her again. She had very thin, straight black hair which was shoulder-length and her makeup (eyeliner/mascara) was smeared under her eyes and on her cheeks like she had been crying. My boss DT was still hugging her and looking at me with an angry expression, My colleagues who had joined them in the cell were all talking to her. I then became aware that everyone - other than me - was allowed out of their cells, but I was locked in permanently. I decided to occupy myself with continuing to make strawberry pancakes. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream. I know I have forgotten some aspects of this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • RBA as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was in a weird room full of prison cells occupied by my work colleagues

Day Residue: 
  • On the day of this dream (very shortly before I took this nap) I was at a work training session (led by my boss DT) where I met new team members. Part of the training was discussing dispute resolution and communal living
  • During the work training session I was messaging RBA on Facebook
  • At the work training session (during the break) I was talking to NB about a former female colleague who was annoying to work with and 'fake'

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This dream seems semi-traumatic, because I was locked in a prison cell, but this was not a nightmare or a particularly negative dream. I know I have forgotten some of the details, but I may recall more of this dream periodically as is often true of situations where I have recalled a dream well immediately upon waking and then forgotten some of it as the day progresses. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below. 

Dream 693

'Alison Steadman's Lacy Stockings'
Date: 9 September 2016
Time: 23:00 - 06:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm) 
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Weak recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I have forgotten quite a lot of detail about this dream because I did not record it when I first woke up.

I was in a room with some dream characters, standing at a tall desk/counter. The room was pretty dark. One of my childhood friends was present - I think it may have been SVF. She was next to me and other dream characters (unrecalled) were behind me. SVF was showing me pictures of babies in a magazine (which seemed to just feature photographs of babies). I told her I was not interested in it, and she kept showing me, putting the magazine in my face and flicking through the pages, until I lost my temper and shouted at her. 

Scene 2: An Exterior - Day
I was in a car - sitting in the front passenger seat. I am not sure who was driving the car, as I cannot recall. We were on a roadtrip. We passed by Alison Steadman, who was by the side of the road, doing a live performance in which she  put on white and pink frilly lace stockings and did the can-can dance. 

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I have lost contact with SVF and have not seen or spoken to her in a number of years
  • The Alison Steadman performance

Day Residue: 
  • A couple of days before this dream, DL and I were talking about Alison Steadman - which inspired me to watch her in the Mike Leigh television play Nuts in May (1975)
  • The day before this dream I had read an online news story about a Headteacher who was sending children home for wearing the wrong school uniform items. I specifically recall reading that one of the rules was 'plain socks, no frills'

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I cannot really recall any interesting detail about this dream at this stage. I may recall more of this dream periodically as is often true of situations where I have recalled a dream well immediately upon waking and then forgotten some of it as the day progresses. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below. 

Friday, 9 September 2016

Dream 692

'Reluctant Sex & Nude Pix'
Date: 8 September 2016
Time: 22:30 - 08:50 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior by Seaside - Day
I have forgotten quite a lot of detail about this dream because I did not record it when I first woke up.

I was in a bedroom which was in a location near the seaside. I was with SW, a male friend from my hometown (Sheringham), who went to my high school. We were laying on a bed together and began to have sex, but SW was reluctant for some reason and did not seem sure that he was doing the right thing. We had some conversation about the situation, but I cannot recall it.

There was something relating to a handbag - which I think belonged to me.

There was some action involving some of my family members - my Mum and Nan and also my aunt CJ and her daughter CJA. I think CJ and CAJ were dressed up in costumes - I recall that they were both wearing a lot of makeup and CJ was wearing a hat with a netted veil across the face. I think they may have been outside by some bushes and I had the sensation of looking up towards them, at an angle, like I was laying on the ground and they were looking downwards. I felt left out of whatever was going on with my family members. There was something relating to a cake. I think I then saw my cousin HM - it was a younger version though and she seemed to have a tan.

I then was looking at my Facebook - either on a mobile or a laptop. I realised - looking at my profile - that someone had hacked my computer and posted hundreds of nude photographs of me online. I was really anxious and felt violated as the images were explicit. I tried to delete them, but I couldn't. In anger and panic I began arguing with someone in the room with me - I cannot recall who it was - because they didn't seem to be taking the matter seriously. I was unable to remove the nude pictures of me from the internet. When I was looking at these images my vision was blurry - but only in relation to the photographs - like they were 'censored' from my view, although I knew they were my photographs and I could see the general outline of my body and the colours of my skin well enough to be able to tell that each photograph basically looked like. I kept trying to focus my eyes to see them better, but I could not. This whole episode of the dream was very frustrating and stressful.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • None of note

Day Residue: 
  • A few days before this dream I received a Facebook message from SW. I had also mentioned him in a real life conversation. SW lives in my hometown (beside the sea) and knows my family - my Mum, Nan and possibly my Stepdad
  • My Mum mentioned that CJ and CAJ are coming down to Sheringham to celebrate the 1940s weekend soon - and asked if I was able to also attend
  • A couple of days before this dream I realised that while I was in temporary accommodation my spare mobile phone was stolen. The situation was this: I lived in House A, which needed renovations. I moved into House B, leaving many of my belongings in storage in House A. I then found out I would not be living in House A next year, but instead moving to House C. I was in House B for nearly 3 months over the summer. I then moved my belongings from House A and B into House C. My spare mobile had been in a box, inside a drawer in House A while I was temporarily living in House B. I was unable to go into House A for the 3 months during the renovations. During this time many builders and construction workers (from 2 different firms of contractors) had access to my bedroom in House A. I did not notice my spare mobile was missing until I moved into House C and was looking through all of my possessions to find it. I was most annoyed about the fact that this mobile has a lot of explicit nude photographs of me - I would say there could be over 100. There is every chance that these photographs have been viewed - and maybe circulated by the person who now has my phone. There is even the risk they could end up online, although I would not necessarily be aware of it.

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This dream was a little negative - as SW did not seem to want to have sex with me. This seemed to be the most significant aspect of this dream, other than the fact that my family were celebrating something and I felt left out. I know that I have forgotten much of this dream, and I have some nagging vague memories, which seem to just be out of grasp; I cannot quite reach them. This makes me think that I may recall more of this dream periodically as is often true of situations where I have recalled a dream well immediately upon waking and then forgotten some of it as the day progresses. If I do recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below. 

Dream 691

'Ewan McGregor'
Date: 4 September 2016
Time: 00:30 - 08:45 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in some kind of interior - no recall of the location/environment. I was with Ewan McGregor, my favourite male actor. I was pleased to be with Ewan, as I really fancy him. However, I was surprised to see that he looked much older than he usually does in his photographs.

I then saw a middle-aged white female, with shoulder length blonde hair. She was average height and slim, I realised that this woman was insane, and she was the subject of a screenplay I was working on with Ewan. I wished we didn't have to write a screenplay about a mad woman, as I would rather just have sex with Ewan, but I knew we had to work instead.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was with Ewan McGregor

Day Residue: 
  • Ewan McGregor is my phone screensaver
  • A day before this dream I read an online news article which mentioned that Ewan McGregor is making his directorial debut - in American Pastoral (2016)

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. This dream had the potential to be awesome, because it featured my absolute heartthrob as a dream character. However, it was quite a boring dream, as I didn't get to have sex with him and we had to work on a screenplay about an insane woman, which did not please me.

Dream 690

'Red Hair'
Date: 1 September 2016
Time: 21:30 - 06:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Dream fragments
Dream recall: Weak recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - Eminem / Marshall Mathers III Dream - click HERE (post will open in a new window) to see the details of this Dream Incubation Experiment, including the methodology and results of previous Dream Incubation Experiments.

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I saw myself in third-person perspective from behind - my hair was dyed an orange-red colour and was very straight.

Playing cards

My university colleagues

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 
  • I saw myself in third-person perspective, with different hair

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This dream did not reference my Dream Incubation Experiment or Eminem. I cannot recall enough about this dream to comment on it.

Dream 689 (NIGHTMARE, FALSE AWAKENING, SLEEP PARALYSIS, OBE-EXIT TECHNIQUE, LUCID DREAM, DREAM-CHAINING)

'My Weirdest Dream Experience'
Date: 29 August 2016
Time: 02:45 - 06:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally) 
Type of dream: Lucid Dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

Induction technique: None prior. OBE-Exit Technique used during False Awakening/Sleep Paralysis (click for link)

Reality checks: None required
Level of lucidity: Fully-Lucid/Super-Lucid
Approximate time spend lucid: 20 minutes
Clarity: Good
Control: Good
Additional techniques: Dream stabilisation; dream visualisation; dream-chaining/DEILD (Dream-Exit Technique)
Extra information: None of note

Scene 1 (Non-Lucid): An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a room, but I did not see any furniture or decoration. I think there was another dream character present, but I am not sure who, because they were behind me and I did not turn around. I think they were male. In front of me was a large screen, suspended in the air - it may have been a TV. On the screen was a male - a normal looking adult white man with brown hair. The image showed just his face, close-up. It was turned at a three-quarter profile, his eyes looking directly at the 'camera'/viewer. I was aware that this male was part of some 'game' I was involved in - something to do with gambling, I think. I looked away from the screen momentarily, and when I looked back, the male had turned into a leering demon/troll-like monster - maybe an evil goblin would also be an accurate description. His features were more pointed and large, other than his eyes, which were now tiny. His skin was a blue/green colour and looked either scaly or wrinkled, and his tiny, pupil-less eyes were a bright green colour. I was really scared. I tried to look away, hoping that when I looked back, he would be human again, but he remained a demon. Every time I looked away and then back at him, he became more evil looking. I was terrified, and this part of the dream experience was a nightmare. 


False Awakening 1: Lucid

I woke up in bed, on my right side, staring at the wooden ledge. I was aware that this was a false awakening, because I had sleep paralysis and I could hear an electronic buzz in the atmosphere. The light was on in the room - as it was in real life. 

I tried to move, worrying that I might see a hallucination. I remembered the demon face in Scene 1 and was really scared that this dream character might be in my room, as I couldn't stop thinking about it. I eventually managed to look up, and saw that my fan (which should have been on in real life) wasn't straight ahead. I could sense something to my side, but the sleep paralysis was preventing me from fully turning or moving the duvet down, even though I was willing my body to break free. 

I tried to use my voice, screaming: 'Someone come and help me!' but my voice would not come out more than a broken whisper. I willed someone I knew to come and save me, hoping that I could use this experience to have a lucid dream if only I could change my immediate circumstances with dream visualisation and control. I felt so tired, like I was on the brink of falling back asleep, and I tried to fight it. I must have fallen asleep. 

False Awakening 2: Lucid 
I had another false awakening, with sleep paralysis. I was now worried, as this was the second in a row. I still felt terrified that something was in the room with me, just to my left side. I had 'false awoken' on my right side again. I struggled to move and also use my voice, but neither were working. I was able to touch the ledge next to me and I tried to do this, but then realised it was only my 'dream body' doing this. I tried to shout: 'Someone come and help me!' Again, my voice was no more than a whisper, which is the most frustrating feeling. One of the other reasons I was so scared was because I felt like I might be trapped in a cycle of false awakenings, which often prevent me from being able to 'really wake up', even though I am fully lucid. I must have fallen asleep again. 

Scene 2 (Non-Lucid): An Unknown Interior, supposedly to be my Bedroom - Time Unknown 
I was looking at the floor of a room, which I guess was supposed to represent my bedroom. On the floor was a huge pile of clothes - taking up most of the available space, and higher than my waist. My Mum was present. I was aware that I was looking at 'my dirty laundry' and wondered how long it would take to wash all these clothes. The task felt insurmountable. 

False Awakening 3: Lucid 
I had a third false awakening with sleep paralysis. Again, I woke on my right side and this time felt another body in the single bed beside me. I only became aware they were in the bed because I felt them lean in a little closer, which meant the thing touched my back. I was so scared, and kept telling myself 'this is a dream, you can change it' - because I was so lucid, I was certain I could use the power of my mind to transform the experience into a more positive dream experience. I called out: 'Someone come and help me!' my voice still very weak - and sleep paralysis stopping me from turning round. I tried to persuade myself that I could make the rules in my dreams, and the volume of my voice didn't matter as I could use my mind to summons someone friendly to come and help me. I started willing someone to come to my rescue. I then heard a voice, which sounded like RBA (Scottish accent), so I called out his name and he said: 'Yeah'. I then found I was able to speak out loud and move. I turned round and saw the chair with my laptop on it beside my bed, where it would be in real life. Behind that and slightly to the side was another chair (not there in real life), on which RBA was seated. At first, my vision was slightly blurry. He was wearing something red. 

I could not get out of bed, no matter how much I tried. I therefore decided the best thing to do would be the OBE-Exit Technique, so I laid on my back and imagined myself leaving my body. I began to float out of my body. 

I then found myself in a hotel room, lucid. The hotel room had fancy decor, most of which was red. RBA was sitting on the edge of the bed, facing an oval mirror on a stand. I was standing next to him. I decided to stabilise the dream, and began to rub mys hands together. The following conversation took place: 

RBA: 'Why are you rubbing your hands?' 

Me: 'To stabilise the lucid dream'. 

RBA: 'What dream?' 

Me: 'This is my dream' (I wondered if he would disagree with this, as some dream characters react unpredictably when they are told they are part of the dreamer's dream). 

RBA: 'Is it my dream?' 

Me: 'No, you're a character in my dream'. 

RBA: 'Should I rub my hands together too?' 

Me: 'No, this is my dream'. 


The lucid dream then became very stable and clear. 

RBA: 'How do you know this is a dream?' He stood up and came close to me. I decided to try and control the dream in a way to prove to him that this must be a dream. 

I turned to the side, where there was an antique floor lamp in front of a window with red curtains. I raised my hand and like Sub-Zero in Mortal Kombat, I made the entire lamp turn to ice. RBA did not look convinced, so I said: 'Look at this' and raised my hand again to make the lamp burst into flames. RBA said: 'You can do that in real life', so I said: 'No, I can't, I don't have super powers' and he seemed to agree with this. I felt the lucid dream then began to fade to black. 

False Awakening 4: Lucid 
I then woke up again in my bed - a lucid false awakening. I decided to use the OBE-Exit Technique again, to return to the same dream scene as before, so I visualised the hotel while I imagined myself leaving my body. 

I found myself in the hotel again, with RBA - but we were in a different part of the hotel. It was a very wide corridor, which had rough black fabric walls, and some partition walls. I could not see much in the corridor - no doors or furniture. It was like being in the inside of a black box. To the right side, there was a partition wall - like the type you get in offices. Mounted on it was a drinking fountain. I then noticed that I was naked, but I did not feel self-conscious about this. I started rubbing my hands again, to stabilise the lucid dream. RBA then tried to push me into a bending over position - so that he could have sex with me from behind, against the drinking fountain. I complied, because I enjoy lucid dream sex. RBA stopped and said: 'Do we need to use contraception?' to which I said: 'Not now'. He started to have sex with me in this position. 

Something from behind us then distracted him, because he stopped. I turned around to see what had made him stop suddenly, and I noticed that behind us was a red leather armchair, on which was a strange double-person (not a conjoined twin) - it looked like 2 naked men who had melted into each other, so there was no distinction between their faces and bodies. I said to RBA: 'That reminds me of a Francis Bacon painting' (although in the lucid dream I could not recall what this painting was called). RBA said: 'I don't know who Francis Bacon is' which did not surprise me. The double melted man was writhing in a scary way - it looked disgusting. RBA said: 'We have to kill it'. I didn't know why we had to kill this thing, so I said I would not do it. RBA was getting annoyed with me, because he knew I had 'super powers' and could do this easily, but I was still refusing. Eventually, I said: 'You have to get the weapon then'. RBA handed me a spade/shovel. I said: 'This is the worst weapon!' I tried to imagine that the spade was a better weapon, but I could not control this aspect of the lucid dream. I then used the spade to beat the thing to death. RBA was laughing and said: 'We could be Ian Brady and Myra Hindley'. This thought disgusted me, but I decided to try and make a joke, rather than argue with him and ruin the lucid dream. I said: 'Because I'm English and you're Scottish?' to which he laughed and said: 'No, because I can make you commit murders'. 

I woke up.

Francis Bacon, Three Studies for a Crucifixion (1962)