Dream 581

'No Dinner'

Dream date: 10 March 2016

This is Day 11 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Interior Scene (Location Unknown) - Day
I was in an interior - it looked like a domestic interior, or a shop which sold domestic items and furniture. I was with some dream characters, although I am not sure who they were. I was looking at the furniture - I could see some overhead cupboards which had a pastel marbled design, sort of fragmented shapes in soft pink and lilac colours painted onto the wood. There was a table with a flamboyant pink design - I cannot really describe how the pattern on this table, and other patterns on other items of furniture I could see as I looked around - but everything looked very unique and decorative. I was aware I had 'designed' these pieces. If I pointed at the items of furniture the design changed. I 'accidentally' changed the design of some of the wooden items, but thought the new design wasn't quite as good as the previous one. I didn't quite understand how I had these powers. It felt like the process of designing furniture in The Sims, and that was the thought I had when performing this action. It felt like I was in some form of competition with other persons, but I am not sure how or why.

Scene 2: An Urban City Street - Afternoon/Early Evening
I was watching a scene take place in a city street. The sky was getting darker and it may have been raining as it looked grey and damp. I saw KC (the daughter of one of my Mum's friends) getting out of a car outside a building. I was aware that she was arriving with her partner to cook a big family meal to which my family were also invited. 

Scene 3: An Interior Scene - Evening
I was late the the dinner party hosted by KC. I attended with a male friend - I think it was DL. We came to the bottom of a large rectangular table with a white tablecloth. Sat around the table were my Mum, my Nan, my cousin HM and her family; GC and KC (my aunt and uncle); KC and her partner/babies; CC (KC's mother) and other members of our respective families - it was a massive feast. The meal was sliced roast turkey and some green vegetable on the side. There was no sauce. The turkey looked dark brown, instead of white. I thought that it was odd that KC was the cook for the party, given I am not aware that she is able to cook at all. There still seemed to be plenty of food left on the table, despite the fact that everyone was almost finished with their food, having not waited for DL and I to turn up. I kept confusing KC and my cousin HM (even though they are nothing alike). Someone said: 'There's not enough food for you, as we all want second helpings'. I accepted this because I hate turkey and would not want to eat it - I did not have a negative reaction to being denied food, even though the party was mainly made up of my own family members, and there seemed to be plenty of food to satisfy everyone. 

Scene 4: A Shopping Mall/Bookshop - Time Unknown
I then found myself in a shopping mall of some kind. It seemed to be an open plan area with shops, but inside a large building. I cannot quite remember the details. I think I may have been standing near some escalators or stairs. I saw CS (an undergraduate Law student I teach - and one of the most pleasant of the boys). We walked together, in conversation (unrecalled) until we came to a stand/stall which was selling second-hand/used books. I was excited and started looking through the books, discussing them with CS. I then saw a bag on the shelf to the side of the books. I started to look through the bag, which contained various items. The item on top (and the only one I recall) was a clear plastic bag of pink and white marshmallows. I thought the bag of items was being sold by the bookshop owner, but CS said: 'That's my bag'.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

TIME: 03:30 - 17:00 hours (I am not sure when this dream took place)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• All of Scene 1 was a dreamsign as I was performing impossible actions

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• A bag on a shelf

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• A couple of days before this dream DL and I had been watching a home interior design challenge TV show
• I design furniture when I play The Sims
• I had been discussing how some women are naturally very lubricated when sexually aroused on the day before this dream. When I was a teenager I knew KC, despite her being several years older than me, because my Mum was good friends with her mum and I knew her brother, as well as us all sharing a workplace connection. One of her sexual partners said 'she comes like a bucket' and I always remembered that expression, so no doubt talking about female vaginal wetness subconsciously brought her to mind
• One of my friends told me he ate turkey the day before this dream. I hate turkey. The turkey in the dream looked like the roast goose being served on a TV show I was watching on the day of this dream - The Supersizers (the episode set in the Edwardian era). The goose was served with stewed celery, which was notably the only green vegetable consumed in the course of a multi-course meal. The plate of food served in the dinner party in my dream looked remarkably like the plate shown in the TV show. This series always features massive feasts, for example in the French Revolution and the Medieval era episodes, which I watched a couple of days before this dream
• I taught CS the day of this dream
• I had visited the library on the day of this dream
• 2 days before this dream I dreamed of another bag on a shelf - see Dream 578

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:

This dream was not linked to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but it was still quite an enjoyable dream to experience, as it was quite vivid and seemed to continue for quite a long time. I also seemed to have very good dream recall when I woke up.

Dream 580

'Police Helicopters'

Dream date: 9 March 2016

This is Day 10 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Exterior Scene (Location Unknown) - Night
There was some notion of moving accommodation or swapping rooms - I am unaware of the context as I simply cannot recall what happened. 

I was in an exterior location - I think it may have been a field. It was night and there were no visible lights - everything was pitch black. I looked up and saw a police helicopter, which was shining it's searchlight down onto me. I did not feel especially panicked. 

TIME: 04:30 - 09:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• The day before this dream I had been discussing students swapping rooms/accommodation - and in particular students who wish to change accommodation due to sexual harassment or violence, often when they are unsupported by flatmates who turn against them - shortly prior to this, I had experienced a nightmare which was located in a university (I was living in a female-only halls of residence, which would not be my choice) and culminated in me being raped by a psychopathic stalker (see Dream 578: 'It's Rape Time!')
• Shortly before I had this dream I watched a true crime documentary about a UK murderer (I have forgotten the specific case as it wasn't very interesting - compared to some of the documentaries I watch within this genre). The police had the murderer in mind as a suspect and sent a police helicopter up to search the local area to find either the suspect or a vehicle linked to the murder. The police found it highly suspicious that the suspect did not look up when he heard the helicopter overhead and decided that this indicated he had a guilty conscious (he was bending down to pet his dog instead of looking up to see the helicopter). I had told DL about this other day - while we were watching a police helicopter circle over my university campus/the local woodlands at night, with a searchlight (a common occurrence recently). We both agreed it didn't seem to be particularly suspicious behaviour in itself, given the suspect may not have even been aware it was a police helicopter

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
I am not sure how much this dream was linked to my Dream Incubation Experiment, although it does seem relevant given that it involves a police helicopter shining a searchlight down onto me and I had recently watched a true crime (murder) documentary involving police helicopters. It may be a simple case of day residue (from seeing so many police helicopters, some with searchlights flying over campus at night).

Dream 579

'Remembering a Dream Within a Dream'

Dream date: 8 March 2016

This is Day 9 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: An Interior (An Office) - Time Unknown
I was in an office, sitting in front of a big desk, with a female dream character. I am not sure who the female was, but in the dream we were both candidates in competition for the same job. Lord Alan Sugar was the 'boss' - much like his role in The Apprentice and was going to choose between us. We were trying to convince him that each of us was more suitable for the job (I am not sure what the job was). The female and I then started to do some kind of task - I am not sure what it was, but it involved supermarket shelves and groceries/food products/makeup, all of which were on the shelves, low down close to the floor. The female and I were bending/crouching down, either stacking the shelves, or taking items from the shelves (I cannot recall what we were doing, but we were on the floor). Lord Sugar was judging our performance. He then said: 'Who can drive?' and I said I could not, but my female rival said that she could, so she got the job. 

I then had a very strange dream experience which I will try my best to explain. A while ago - between 1 - 3 weeks ago (I think it was prior to my Dream Incubation Experiment) I had a dream which I remembered in full when I woke up from it. I remembered a particular scene because it made me think about what happened when I woke up - and I found it amusing. I then forgot this scene before writing up the dream in my Dream Journal on this Blog. When I was writing up the dream, I commented that I had initially recalled more of the action, but had subsequently forgotten some of the dream, stating that if something triggered me to recall more of the dream later, I would update the Dream Journal entry accordingly. I have since forgotten exactly which dream this was, as I often have dreams where I recall much more of the dream upon waking than I do when writing it up, and then state this in the report. 

In this current dream (Dream 579) at the point Lord Sugar mentioned the ability to drive, I recalled the forgotten dream scene. I did not see it replay - I just remembered it, like a normal memory coming back. I was also aware that it was a memory of the forgotten dream scene and I specifically thought: 'I need to update my Dream Journal now I have remembered the forgotten dream'. It also seemed odd to me that I had forgotten it in the first instance, because on reflection, it was a very interesting scene. I am disappointed that remembering a forgotten dream scene in another later dream - and being aware it was a dream scene which I needed to record on my Blog - did not trigger me to become lucid. Perhaps this experience can be considered a pre-lucid or semi-lucid dream? While in this current dream, remembering and thinking about the forgotten dream scene, I also remembered my real-life waking thoughts about the dream scene. The forgotten dream scene was as follows:

I was driving a car around a city, which had tall buildings. It may have been London. It was daylight. I was a confident and competent driver. I am not sure if I had taken driving lessons or not, but I did not have a licence. I was surprised I was able to drive and decided that since it was 'easy' and I was very good at it, I should book a driving test so that I could get my driving licence. I wondered how I managed to be so good at driving. I told my Mum that I was going to apply for my driving licence. She questioned how I was able to drive, and I reassured her that I could. I felt liberated and pleased with myself.

My waking thoughts and emotions had been that this was a very amusing dream scene to have experienced, given I have never ever had a single driving lesson and am not planning to. I have dyscalculia, which is mathematical dyslexia. The most common symptoms of dyscalculia are listed below. I have marked the ones which I particularly struggle with in red:

• Difficulty reading analogue clocks
• Difficulty stating which of two numbers is larger
• Inability to comprehend financial planning or budgeting, sometimes even at a basic level -  for example, estimating the cost of the items in a shopping basket or balancing a chequebook
• Difficulty with multiplication-tables, subtraction-tables, addition tables, division tables, mental arithmetic etc
• Difficulty with conceptualizing time and judging the passing of time - may be chronically late or early
• Problems with differentiating between left and right
• Inability to visualize mentally/perform visuospatial tasks
• Difficulty reading musical notation
• Difficulty with choreographed dance steps
• Difficulty working backwards in time, (i.e. what time to leave if needing to be somewhere at 'X' time)
• Difficulty comprehending things relating to occurrences in different time zones
• Difficulty navigating or mentally 'turning' the map to face the current direction rather than the common North=Top usage/Inability to mentally visualise how an object would look when turned
• Having particular difficulty mentally estimating the measurement of an object or distance (i.e. whether something is 3 or 6 meters away)
• Inability to grasp and remember mathematical concepts, rules, formulae, and sequences
• Inability to concentrate on mentally intensive tasks/attention-span problems (depends - I can concentrate on mentally challenging tasks as long as they fall within my skill-set or knowledge - I cannot focus for long on material which is 'new' to me
• Mistaken recollection of names/poor name/face retrieval - may substitute names beginning with same letter
• Problems with motor skills/coordination

So, you can see I have problems with most of the main symptoms, although some to a greater extent than others. In particular, generally anything mathematical will cause me issues; spatial awareness; visuospatial tasks; and time perception seem to be the most troublesome - and to an extent, all of these abilities are required for driving. My dyscalculia was not discovered until I was 16 years old (despite the fact I was an A* student who was only failing at Maths, this was not investigated by my useless teachers until I started studying Psychology, and my Psychology teacher became aware that although I was her top student, my grasp of basic statistics was far below expected - prompting her to question why this was so). By the time my dyscalculia was identified, I had tried to avoid ever studying/undertaking anything which involved Maths, or relied on other people to help me out, so I feel it hasn't affected my education, although it does affect my day-to-day life to varying extents. I am too hestitant to learn to drive as a result of these issues. When I had the initial dream scene (subsequently forgotten and then 're-remembered') I thought it was funny that I had been such a good and natural driver in my dream and had decided to finally take a test - the feel of driving in the dream was really pleasurable and liberating. I also recalled that although I have never taken a lesson or wanted to try driving in my waking-life, I have managed to smash up 2 cars belonging to friends - one of which was a 'write-off'. I add that my illegal driving experiences were not by my choice - I had been encouraged - compelled to let my respective friends 'teach' me how to drive even though I objected out of anxiety (and on one occasion was quite high and in no fit state to drive, licence or not).

Scene 2: An Interior (Computer Generated) - Time Unknown
I was then looking at an interior scene which was computer-generated. I am not sure if I was watching it on a screen, as this dream scene took up my entire field of vision. I was aware that it was a computer-generated image though, because I could see various characters from The Sims and thought: 'Those are Sims'. Every time I looked at a particular Sim, it's lower jaw would unhinge and become larger, until it fell off the face (it almost seemed to unwind or unpeel, like orange skin), leaving only half of the face, with an exposed skull where the skin had torn away - blood was also pour out (see images below, illustrating exactly how this looked). I thought this was disgusting, but I was aware that I was looking at computer graphics, not a 'real person' (i.e. a dream character who was 'real' to me within the dream). I thought: 'This must be a computer glitch'. This scene kept continuing, but I did not want to keep seeing it as it was quite unappealing to watch.

I woke up from the dream.

TIME: 02:00 - 09:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: PRE-LUCID/SEMI-LUCID (remembering a dream within a dream - this should have triggered lucidity)

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• Another female and I were competing to impress Lord Sugar so that we could get a job
• The 'memory' of my forgotten dream scene and reference to my Dream Journal
• The Sims characters and glitches

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• Cars/driving

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• Donald Trump, Republican Presidential candidate is subject of saturation coverage in the media - he hosts the US version of The Apprentice
• A short while before this dream, in the middle of a game of 'Fuck, Marry, Kill', DL mentioned Lord Sugar, but I said that he wasn't a good option for my round because I actually find him quite attractive for an older man
• I had been watching Mortal Kombat X gameplay videos on Youtube - and in particular Cassie Cage's fatality ('Selfie') where she uses a truncheon/cosh to remove her opponent's lower jaw, before taking a 'selfie' with the corpse to upload onto a social media site (see relevant images below, which basically show exactly how I experienced this in the dream - except it happened to Sims characters rather than Mortal Kombat characters). I also watched some gameplay glitches for Mortal Kombat X and Sims 3

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
I found this dream to be fascinating because I have never (in recollection) experienced the phenomenon of remembering a forgotten dream scene within a later dream and being aware that it was a forgotten dream scene, in addition to also remembering my actual real-life waking thoughts about the initial forgotten scene. This was a very powerful experience in what was otherwise quite a boring dream. 

Dream 578 (NIGHTMARE)

'It's Rape Time!'

Dream date: 7 March 2016

This is Day 8 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Part of a University - Day
There was an earlier scene in this dream where my Mum and EG were present - I cannot recall it in any detail at all and I am not sure where it took place.

I was then in a room which was quite messy and filled with random objects at one end. The random objects - which caught my attention in the dream as soon as I saw them - included a bucket which had a number of balloon-like objects on sticks. These objects were shaped like faces and very glittery, in a number of different colours and patterns (I am not sure what they were). The rest of the room had furniture - similar to the kind you get in university study-bedrooms - and clothing/books and other personal possessions. In the room with me were a number of young female dream characters - none of whom I know in real-life, but in the dream were fellow university students. This was a room in university residences and it seemed that we all shared the room.

There was a large canvas bag on a ledge on the side of the room adjacent to the entrance. Another female dream character and I started to look through the bag. This bag did not belong to any of us and we were not sure who the owner was. Inside were notebooks and pieces of paper. We started to read the notebook entries - which were all written in red ink, handwritten. We soon realised that the handwritten notes were 'copies' of my own written work (not academic, personal - so like creative writing or diary entries etc). I wondered how the person who had written these notes had accessed my personal writing. I then saw a scrap of paper which contained handwritten notes relating to DL - I think it had a date, time and address on this note, but I cannot recall the context. This made me aware that the person who owned the bag and had made these notes was actually a psychopathic stalker who was targeting me and had gained access to my personal possessions. I became terrified and started warning the other female dream characters that we must be careful as there was a psychopath coming to get me. We kept looking through the bag and finding more and more notes which made it so obvious that the psychopath stalker had been spying on me for a very very long time. I was so confused as to how he had managed to access and copy down so much of my private and personal writings/notes and other information, or how he had come to do the same to DL. One of the females said: 'I am going to meet DL' and I objected saying: 'No, I'm not letting you!' I also wondered if the psychopath stalker had impersonated DL to encourage the female to meet him, given the note relating to DL in the bag. The part of the dream relating to finding the notes in the bag was incredibly significant and seemed to take a long time - I must have forgotten some of the details/action/conversation which took place, as when I woke up I had remembered this section of the dream to be interesting and complex.

There was something to do with/a reference to/a scene involving a garden with lots of ornamental objects and flowers in it. This was also linked to the psychopath stalker - he had either been there, or was hoping to find me there - I simply cannot recall.

None of the females - except the one who had helped me search through the bag - were taking me seriously and they seemed to be laughing about the matter and walking in and out of the room casually. 

There was some more looking through the bag and more shock as the items inside (I cannot recall) indicated that this psychopath posed a serious threat to my safety. 

I walked into a different room in the same building. Some of the female dream characters were in there and the room was brightly lit. Suddenly, a tall, fat white man with huge reddish coloured hands apprehended me and grabbed hold of me. He was standing behind me and his hands went almost all the way around my waist, he was so much bigger than me. He said: 'It's rape time!' I knew that it was the psychopath stalker and in the dream I identified him as BF, a Scottish male on my Facebook, who is a little strange, but in no way an advocate of violence against females, as he supports LGBT+ causes and activism. I could not get away from the rapist and I was fighting him, but his hands were too big and strong and as much as I struggled, it made no difference to his grip on me. None of the female dream characters present seemed shocked or tried to help me, they just watched. The rapist then started to run his hands up and down me - somehow even though he changed his grip, I could not get away. One of the females - a slim white woman, with shoulder-length straight black hair said: 'You might as well get the rape out of the way so we are all safe'. I was shocked by this. Neither I nor the other women even seemed to consider calling the police or anyone else to assist in removing the rapist. The rapist dragged me out of the room - to go into a private area for the rape to take place. I woke up.

TIME: 04:00 - 12:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• I identified the psychopath stalker rapist as BF, even though they were physically dissimilar and the rapist represented much of what BF stands against - there was nothing to indicate why I thought the rapist was BF

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• I had spoken to EG just before this dream and we had discussed fraud - particularly fraud committed by men against vulnerable female victims
• I am currently teaching property offences - including all forms of fraud - under the Fraud Act 2006 to undergraduate students taking the Principles of Criminal Law module at university
• I had also been in a discussion about rape and sexual violence just before this dream - which included reference to my own personal experiences of both. I also mentioned why I was reluctant to involve the police in an incident in London where I was sexually assaulted - grabbed from behind and touched inappropriately and violently, while one man held me against my will - it seems this dream was a direct result of this memory being recounted
• I recently told DL (a short while before this dream took place) that property offences do not interest me as much as drugs offences and offences against the person (violence)

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was experienced as a nightmare. I was a helpless victim, receiving no help from the females in my presence, who just seemed to be glad that they were not the target of the psychopath stalker rapist. I am not sure if this is a partial success for my Dream Incubation Experiment - since serial killers are often (or at least sometimes) also psychopaths and/or rapists. However, again I am meeting/victimised by the criminal, rather than being the serial killer, just like in my last dream (Dream 575 - 'Meeting Ian Brady'). I guess this is a very real risk of undertaking a dream incubation experiment of this nature - it is bound to have highly unpleasant, violent or disturbing themes involved and if I am in the role of victim, then that is part of the experience. I would not want to experience a dream like this again, as I was frightened, panicked and distressed, but I am prepared that I will probably have a lot of traumatic dreams during the course of this experiment. 

Dream 577

'Bad Butt Tattoos'

Dream date: 6 March 2016

This is Day 7 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Interior Scene - Time Unknown
I became aware that JJ - a male I went to high school with, who is a Facebook friend (although I have not been in contact with him for many years) had (prior to the start of the dream - so I had a 'dream memory' of this) got me so drunk that I became unconscious and then tattooed my butt, hips and thighs. The tattoos were all cartoon images of disgusting stuff, such as shit, vomit, violence, penises (by disgusting I mean, the way the images were depicted and the fact they were tattoos on my body were disgusting - a lot of them referred to bodily functions or fluids, which are not disgusting per se). I was horrified and wanted to call the police and be taken to hospital so that I could get them removed via a laser. I was wondering if the NHS would take this problem seriously and let me get the tattoos removed for free, based on the fact that they had been put on my body as a crime. I kept saying to dream characters - my Mum and other persons were present in this dream scene - that I had been assaulted by JJ. My emotions were extremely distressed - I felt unsexy and unattractive and wondered if I would ever be able to get a boyfriend with my whole lower body covered in such hideous tattoos. I felt my personal autonomy had been violated in an extreme way. My Mum pulled down my trousers and looked at the tattoos, saying: 'Oh there is one of a man pissing himself and vomiting at the same time'. I was frantic and in a state of shock. I was also concerned because I could not see the tattoos on my butt properly and I did not have a mirror to check them out. 

Scene 2: Exterior Scene with Large Brick Wall - Night
I then saw Eminem standing in front of a wall - the wall was so tall I could not see the top of it, but it was made of red/orange bricks and was outside. It was night. Eminem was wearing very baggy white clothes - a T shirt and white baggy tracksuit bottoms. Eminem did not look like Eminem - I cannot say what was different about his face, but I was aware even within the dream that something was odd about his appearance and I was questioning if it really was him.. I was also aware that he wanted to date me and I was pretty happy but  I could not stop wondering why he looked different to how I would expect him to. Another dream character (unrecalled) seemed to answer my thoughts by saying: 'It really is him' which satisfied me and I started thinking maybe I had just been confused.

Someone then showed me a necklace, which was gold with an orange gem stone. I just saw a hand come into my field of vision, holding the necklace out in front of me. I could not see who the hand belonged to, although I think it was a male (from the voice). The dream character showing me the necklace said: 'It's a present from Marshall (i.e. Marshall Mathers III, aka Eminem) but it is worthless'. I disagreed - I thought (or knew) the necklace was very valuable. Eminem was still standing against the wall while this happened a short distance away.

I was worried what Eminem would think if he saw the horrific tattoos on my butt, hips and thighs.

TIME: 02:00 - 10:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• The tattoos on my butt. hips and thighs
• Eminem did not look like Eminem, and he wanted to date me

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• I have had previous dreams of Eminem - one where he was dressed in baggy white clothes, but I was aware that he was an impersonator (Dream 395) and another where I was in a marital relationship with him (Dream 443)

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• The night of this dream I was working in my student welfare job and was called out because a student with mental health problems, who was not living in residences, turned up and drank a whole bottle of vodka. The police were present and the ambulance had to be called - before it arrived she vomited all over the kitchen
• On the day of this dream I had uploaded a new video onto my Youtube channel (in relation to my Dream Incubation Experiment success - see below, where I have posted the video for you to see). When I uploaded the video, I saw that my butt, hips and thighs (what you can see of them, given I am laying down on my side) looked massive and I felt self-conscious
• The day before this dream I saw a couple of online articles about Celebrity Big Brother (2016) contestant Jeremy McConnell, who was Mr Ireland 2012. I thought that Jeremy was incredibly sexy and attractive, but for his strange neck tattoos. I do quite like some neck tattoos, but his look like a collar as they cover all of his neck up to the chin (see image below) - I had thought that his neck tattoos would put me off him a little bit - this may have also influenced the 'necklace' which appeared in this dream
• The day of this dream I had seen a joke meme featuring Eminem, which said: 'How much does Eminem look like B-Rabbit from 8 Mile?' (for those of you not aware of the context, B-Rabbit is the character Eminem plays in 8 Mile (2002) and it is a semi-autobiographical portrayal of a white battle rapper living in poverty)
• A couple of days before this dream DL had shown me a couple of Lil Dicky tracks - we had said how he was the 'new Eminem' because of his style (comedic). I had said that his 'self awareness' made him the 'post-Eminem Eminem'

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream felt quite horrible, because I was so disturbed by the fact I had been tattooed against my will! It was almost a nightmare, although it was not frightening. It was more that the emotions experienced in the dream were so disturbing and negative, and I woke up with a feeling of having had a very nasty dream.

MY SERIAL KILLER DREAM INCUBATION (UPDATE: MEETING IAN BRADY)

Dream 576

'Finding Shoelaces'

Dream date: 5 March 2016

This is Day 6 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Interior Scene - Time Unknown
I cannot recall any of the specific dream scene locations in this dream, although at one stage, one of the rooms in the interior I was in resembled a section of my bedroom in my former childhood home in Pine Grove, Sheringham - it was the built-in wardrobe next to the window, but the rest of the room was different and part of the general interior scene where the majority of this dream took place. 

I was with a male dream character who in parts resembled RBA, PS and AD respectively, although he did not look especially like any of them. I said to him: 'Do a different accent' and he said something to me, to which my response was: 'No! You said it in Scottish!' This made me think it was RBA. 

The male dream character, who I will refer to as RADS (for ease of reference) was supposedly dating LT1, a girl I was at high school with in real-life, and have not seen for many years. I disapproved of this relationship - I am not sure if I wanted to be with RADS myself, or if I just wanted to break up his relationship with LT1 for the sake of it. It wasn't clear in the dream, or at least my memory of it. I was telling RADS repeatedly that she was not right for him and he deserved better. RADS was telling me that it was an 'arranged relationship' and he had not chosen to be with LT1, they had simply been assigned together as a couple and there was nothing he could do to change the situation. I said: 'You can do whatever you want' and was urging him to use his own mind to decide what he wanted to do. I was frustrated that I could not make RADS see that it was his decision who he was in a relationship with. Eventually, I managed to convince him that he should not be with LT1 and he said he would break up with her later. This made me happy. 

There was a weird scene where I was with RADS and we were looking at a street - a normal suburban residential street, with a road in the middle and lawns on either side, with pavements (sidewalks). It was a bright sunny day. I am not sure if we were looking out of a window, watching this on a screen, or actually standing in the street. I think it may have been the latter, given the angle I was viewing it at was the same as if I was standing a few meters away. Suddenly, a number of dogs - they looked like golden retrievers or labradors - came into the centre of the road (no cars were driving down it). There were no humans. This was 'a parade' and the dogs lined up in formation (a few horizontal rows, with about 5 dogs per row). They started using their paws to 'drum' on some weird instruments which looked like large sets of panpipes, made out of bones. The dogs were not really 'dancing', but they were moving in time to the drumming. We watched this, fascinated for a while.

I was then looking through a wardrobe, which resembled the one which I used to have in my bedroom in Pine Grove. I was rummaging through a bag of rubbish trying to find something, although I am not sure if I knew what it was at this point in the dream. Someone from in the same room as me - it may have been my Mum - called out asking what I was doing. I said I was 'looking for the shoelaces' and was very relieved to find a pair of pink shoelaces in amongst the rubbish. I took them out, feeling proud.

I cannot recall what else happened during this dream, although I did wake up with more memory than I have now, so hopefully some more of the detail will come back to me later, as it often does.

TIME: 03:00 - 12:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• The composite dream character and the fact all dream characters (from various different stages in my life) all knew each other
• The parade of dogs playing bone panpipes in the street

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• RBA/dream character from Glasgow, Scotland
• Trying to find clothes which have been lost/discarded somewhere

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• The day before this dream I had a successful dream incubation dream about the serial killer Ian Brady (Dream 575 - click to read this dream). Ian Brady was originally from Glasgow, Scotland. On the day that I had this dream I had messaged RBA, making a joke about him being Scottish and had also referred to him in my Dream Journal entry, written shortly before, which may have been Day Residue, influencing the Ian Brady dream. This current dream I am recording herein may have been influenced by the earlier Ian Brady dream, which in turn was influenced by RBA
• On the  day before I had this dream I dyed my hair a shade of deep red, which was only visible on the roots, where my hair doesn't have the navy-blue/black dye from a number of months ago. I then remembered being at primary school and the teacher's daughter, LT1 (who wasn't the nicest girl, but then, in nursery school I did bite through her finger for no reason, making me not so nice too!) having waist-length dark hair like my own. LT1 had said her hair was better because it had different colours in it naturally (it was blonder due to being sun-bleached). I had mentioned to my Mum that my hair was 'boring' (I was only about 5 or 6 years old at the time) and my Mum had pointed out my hair had a deep red wine shade to it, even though it looks black from a distance. This memory triggered by my dying my hair red, influenced LT1 (who I have not seen for many years) appearing in my dream
• On the day of this dream I had been watching a number of Youtube videos. One of them was a makeup artist who was able to recreate Egyptian kohl eyeliner - the museum she was working with produced a replica of the container the ancient Egyptians would have kept their kohl in - but bone was used instead of ivory. I then watched a video which showed a number of medieval instruments in various scenes.
• I had been looking through the drawer in my bedroom on the day of this dream - there are a number of pairs of shoelaces in the drawer from when I was cleaning my Nike trainer collection and had not re-laced them yet
• On the day of this dream I had been thinking about my wardrobe in my former childhood home (Pine Grove, Sheringham) and how I would hide dirty glasses/cups and a number of other items I should not have been keeping in a wardrobe, in the bottom under my clothes, which my Mum would have to come and remove when she tidied my room. It is a constant source of annoyance and dissatisfaction that I am an untidy person. Both my Mum and my Nan are on the untidy side of the spectrum - we all tend to accumulate clutter and then try to make it look tidy, by rearranging it rather than throwing it out or finding a better storage space for it - my Nan and I are worse than my Mum, who has a really nice tidy flat now. I have got a lot better since I have been living independently (and wanted to impress boys rather than turn them off!) but I am still someone whose natural inclination is to be messy and untidy - my teenage bedroom used to look like a boy's room, with graffiti on the walls (not to mention hundreds of random pictures, photos, posters etc) and the entire floor space covered with skateboards, clothes, mixtapes and magazines etc. My Mum used to take photographs of my room and show it to people in an attempt to shame me into keeping it tidy, but it rarely worked, despite the fact I LOVE the feel of having a clean and tidy environment, because I have a very active and jumbled brain and having an organised space helps my thoughts to be more structured and less 'busy'. I just can't do it myself! My wardrobe always used to be the place I kept 'secret' things, which were not at all secret, because my Mum would be forced to clear it out and would therefore find them, just like I knew she would (I never really cared about her finding 'naughty' things' because I was very open about drinking alcohol underage and smoking cannabis from the age of 13/14 years old anyway, regardless of whether my Mum approved or not - I was strong-willed and rebellious, but also truthful about it, which my family respect me for, on top of the fact I was always academically successful and productive in my local community). I remember my Mum finding my bongs (some homemade) in the wardrobe and taking them into her work so she and her colleagues could have a joke about them! Unfortunately, one of her friends, CC, noticed that one of the bongs was made from a juice bottle missing from her kitchen, which implicated her son in the homemade bong making enterprise we had going! Sorry for the diversion into a long story about my rebelliousness as a young teenager and the wonders of my wardrobe, but I had been thinking about these things the day of the day of the dream, and no doubt this was a large influence on what happened in the dream!

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was not related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but it was still experienced (while dreaming) as an enjoyable dream, although when awake and thinking back to what happened in this dream, it seems a little boring. I think a lot of the excitement of the dream did not come from the action, but from the emotions experienced in the dream.

* I have forgotten some parts of this dream, but if I remember anything else I will record it below.

Dream 575

'Meeting Ian Brady'

Dream date: 4 March 2016

This is Day 5 of my Dream Incubation Experiment - and a successful dream incubation! You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: My Nan's House in Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in my Nan's house in Sheringham. I was talking to some members of my family - or at least some dream characters who I cannot recall specifically. I went into my Nan's front room - her formal room where she keeps her favourite possessions. The room was quite dark. Sitting under the window, in a chair was serial killer Ian Brady, the Moors murderer and notorious serial killer or children. Brady was unwell - he had a cold or a viral infection of some kind. He looked young - the age he had been at the time of the murders/his trial (so in his 20s). Brady demanded I give him some tissues, which I did (so he could blow his nose). I was then told by a member of my family (standing behind me as I stood facing the seated Brady) that Brady was moving in to my Nan's house and I would have to look after him as I would be his carer. I was disappointed and frustrated by this, as I disliked Brady so much and thought he was pure evil (I was fully aware of who he was and the fact he was a serial killer).

Please note that I was not aware (while in the dream) that this was a successful dream incubation - I wasn't triggered to recognise that I was dreaming of a serial killer because of my Dream Incubation Experiment, nad I did not become lucid. Had I realised I was meeting Brady as part of a dream incubation, this might have prompted a reality check and lucidity.

Scene 2: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I was then somewhere (I cannot recall where at all) with the UK rapper, Giggs (Nathaniel Thompson). He looked like Giggs and I was calling him 'Giggs' but from the conversation, I was aware that he was actually another UK rapper, Klashnekoff (Darren Kandler), who used to be part of a group called Terra Firma. I knew Giggs was actually Klashnekoff because while I was talking to this dream character I referred to a real-life incident (a gig I attended in Cambridge with PS, where LRB, a friend of PS, was a support act). I was reminding Giggs/Klashnekoff about this gigs and the fact that PS used to own a hip hop video promotion channel. I cannot recall what else happened in this scene.

Scene 3: The Two Lifeboats Hotel, Sheringham - Day
It was a Sunday and it was in the summer, or at least it was tourist season in Sheringham. My Mum and I were back working at the Two Lifeboats Hotel, the pub my Mum used to manage (and where I worked) during my childhood and teenage years. I was begging my Mum to let me work a shift as it was very busy and I wanted to earn some tips. The pub/restaurant was a lot bigger and looked very posh in the dream, with white table cloths and pink decorations. My Mum did not want me to work, but I managed to persuade her. I then was working a shift as a waitress. I cannot recall exactly what happened during this part of the dream. I then became aware (in a panic) that I had left some belongings under the long table of customers I had just served with their food. My Mum was telling me to forget about the possessions, but I was adamant that I wanted to retrieve them, as it was important to me. I had to crawl under the table, through the legs of the diners to find a carrier bag underneath there - in the bag were 3 skirts, all mine. Something had happened to the skirts, but I cannot recall what exactly. I was pleased to get them back, however.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, although I know there was far more action and events in Scene 3.

TIME: 02:00 - 10:00 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: SUCCESSFUL DREAM INCUBATION (RELEVANT THEME)

Dream Information:

• Ian Brady and his girlfriend Myra Hindley (see below for their mugshots) were carried out 5 murders (some with sexual elements) of children (aged between 10 - 17 years) in the Greater Manchester area between 1963 - 1965. They went to trial in 1966. They buried the bodies on the Moors. Please click on THIS LINK to visit the Wikipedia page which provides full information about Brady and Hindley and their crimes

Dreamsigns:

• Meeting Ian Brady in a dream
• My Mum and I were working in the Two Lifeboats Hotel again, although it looked slightly different

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• A couple of days before this dream I had been reading about Ian Brady. Ian Brady was originally from Glasgow. On the day of this dream I had messaged RBA, making a joke about him being Scottish and had also referred to him in my Dream Journal entry, written shortly before. Hindley, and later on Brady as well, lived with Hindley's Nan in her council house (the way I live with my Nan, when not at university)
• Ian Brady was ill in the dream and needed tissues for a cold/flu - DL had told me earlier on the day of this dream that he was unwell with a cold. Ian Brady is currently under a hospital order in Broadmoor Hospital, so I associate him with poor health (he is diagnosed as being at risk to his safety as a result of insanity, preventing him from being transferred to a normal prison, where he is likely to starve himself to death in accordance with his desire to end his life (in Broadmoor he can legally be force fed, which he claims is against his human rights). I also think of him as being 'sick and twisted'
• I had been reading about super injunctions for my legal research - footballer Ryan Giggs is notorious for obtaining a super injunction against the media, preventing them from disclosing his extra marital affair, which led to him being a figure of ridicule and gossip
• Klashnekoff most popular track is called 'Murda'
• The day of this dream I had watched a Youtube video in which Nic Haste from Pixiwoo was showing off a skirt she was wearing to a celebrity event. I remember thinking she looked sexy in the skirt and had flawless legs
• '3' may be a reference to the Youtube video I made the day I had this dream, where I discussed 3 techniques for dream control

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This was a very exciting dream experience as it was a (very early) success, even though I met a serial killer, rather than dreaming that I was the serial killer myself. I take this as a massively positive indication that my Dream Incubation Experiment is already proving to be successful.

* I have forgotten some parts of this dream, but if I remember anything else I will record it below.

DREAM INCUBATION EXPERIMENT - SERIAL KILLER DREAM (UPDATE 1)

HOW TO CONTROL YOUR DREAMS: 3 TECHNIQUES

Dream 574

'Broken Phone, Going Bald'

Dream date: 2 March 2016

This is Day 3 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. You can read the details and methodology of my latest Dream Incubation Experiment by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown (the scenes may have changed throughout the dream, but I cannot recall)
I have no memory of the dream scene and am not sure I really saw much of it in any event. I saw myself in the third-person at one point early on in the dream. I noticed I had blonde hair and liked the look of it. However, I pulled up one side of my hair and found that I was completely bald underneath, which shocked me a bit. I wondered if dying my hair blonde had caused my hair to fall out and whether it would grow back again.

Later in the dream I realised (while sitting in an interior, although I cannot recall any details) that the screen of my mobile phone had broken. I remember thinking: 'It would be terrible if my mobile phone screen smashed' and then looking at the phone and noticing that it was. I was upset - more upset than I had been to notice the bald parts of my head in the earlier scene - and told the dream character I was with that I could not afford the £300 it would cost to fix the screen. I was then told that the phone was worth £350 and I had only been under contract with it for 16 days, which meant I had nearly 18 months before I could get a new one. This also worried me, as I did not want to use a broken phone for 18 months.

Later Scene: Supermarket - Day
I was then in a supermarket checkout. I was about to get to the front of the queue to pay (although I don't think I had any shopping) when I saw a freezer contained some reduced price meats, which looked very good quality. I picked up a pack of the meat to take to the cashier, and as I was about to pay, I noticed it was veal. I have never eaten veal before, and I was aware of this in the dream. I was indecisive about whether I should buy the veal, as I was not sure that it was an ethical meat or that I would enjoy eating it, knowing how it is farmed. I was aware that there were other dream characters waiting to pay for their goods, and I was holding up the queue. I thought to myself (this being a thought which reflects something I have heard a long time ago, justifying the farming and eating of veal): 'The veal calves are older than lambs at the age when slaughtered and I eat lamb...' I decided on this reasoning to buy the veal.

Later Scene: Exterior, Location Unknown - Day
I then saw PS. I think he was sitting in the driver's seat of a car, although I cannot recall exactly. I saw his arms were hanging out of a window (again, I think it was a car window) and they were very long, although not to the extent they looked inhumane or deformed (PS is very tall and slim - he is 6 foot 5 inches, compared to my 5 foot 3 inches). I was begging PS to get back into a relationship with me, and in the dream I was desperate to be with him again. PS was telling me that we were over for good and could never get back together again, which was making me feel panicked and sad.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

TIME: 21:30 - 06:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• I saw myself in the third-person perspective and noticed I had blonde hair and a large part of my head was bald
• The details of my mobile phone contract were wrong and the cost to repair a smashed phone screen was too high

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• PS as a dream character

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• I had been watching a Youtube makeup tutorial video and saw the makeup artist had a smashed phone screen
• I had seen a video of a young woman who had suffered terrible burns to her face and body as a young child, but made a successful career as a makeup artist and was able to totally hide her scars - I saw one image of her where she showed the bald parts of her head and another where she had blonde hair
• A couple of days before this dream I had mentioned to DL that PS had very long limbs - this was in a discussion about how difficult it was for tall men to find trousers long enough to fit them

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream didn't really create any strong waking thoughts and emotions, although I did wake up feeling a bit confused as some parts of the dream which seemed significant while I was dreaming them were quickly forgotten upon waking, and I just had vague memories.

* I have forgotten some parts of this dream, but if I remember anything else I will record it below.

Dream 573

'Cockblocked'

Dream date: 1 March 2016

This is Day 2 of my Dream Incubation Experiment, which you can access by clicking HERE.

Scene 1: A Small Bedroom, Location Unknown - Day
I do not recall the start of the dream, although I think I did when I first woke up as I remember running through the dream in my mind, trying to get the sequence of events in order. 

I saw either EB1 or JD (both former male friends) in 'the Square' (the central location of my university campus) and was trying to avoid him, hoping he would not see me, even though I was only standing a short distance away. 

Some further action happened and I was persuaded by RBA to join him in a bedroom. The bedroom was dark and it was so small only a single bed could fit in it. I think it may have been the spare bedroom (which was used by my Stepbrother when he lived with my Mum and Stepdad - his Dad - during our childhood/teenage years) in my former home in Pine Grove, as the layout of the room (the position of the door and windows) was the same. RBA wanted to have sex with me, but in the dream I felt hesitant, although I am unsure of the reason why. I laid down on the bed, on my left side, with my back to the wall, so I was facing RBA who was standing beside the bed. He started to undo his jeans, to take them off.

Just as RBA was about to get undressed (and presumably have sex with me), the door to the room opened and I saw my Mum and PS in the doorway. My Mum said something. I was annoyed that they interrupted us at the wrong time. RBA was standing behind my Mum. He waved a piece of paper at me, which I knew was a contract of some kind. He said: 'You need to pay back the money you owe me!' I thought it was rude of him to come and ask for the money right now, and ruin the mood.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

TIME: 22:30 - 07:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• PS was with my Mum in my former childhood home

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• I have never seen RBA wear jeans in memory - I was thinking how he always wears tracksuits, this being something I noticed as tracksuits are one of my favourite items of clothing on males and females - RBA and I once discussed the fact he always wears tracksuit bottoms (they don't restrict movement as much as jeans)
• The day before this dream a friend of mine had messaged me asking for advice about a small claim regarding a debt owed to him by a friend
• I currently owe DL some money, although I always pay money I am lent back within the same week, so was not anxious about this

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream was frustrating in the sense that it would have been a sex dream had it not been for the disturbance by my Mum and ex-boyfriend, PS. 

* I have forgotten some parts of this dream, but if I remember anything else I will record it below.

Dream 572

'Muddy Fields'

Dream date: 29 February 2016

This is Day 1 of my Dream Incubation Experiment. Please click HERE to see my article on the experiment and methodology I am using. Ordinarily, I use a different template to record the dreams which take place during a Dream Incubation Experiment, but since this is a long-term one, I thought it might interrupt the flow of my Dream Journal to use a different format, given I have a lot of 'unsuccessful' dreams while trying to incubate my chosen theme. Therefore I will be using my standard dream record template and making special notes if I have a successful dream incubation.

Scene 1: Exterior (a Field), Location Unknown - Day
This dream was very vague and I do not recall much at all. I was standing in a very muddy field. There were rows of blue chairs in the mud. My Stepdad was present - in an excited mood.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

TIME: 22:00 - 07:30 hours (I woke up from this dream)

LUCIDITY: NO

SPECIAL NOTES: NONE OF NOTE

Dream Information:

• None of note

Dreamsigns:

• None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes:

• None of note

Potential Day/Dream Residue:

• On the day of this dream - and many days prior to that - I have had to walk across a muddy field, which is quite slippery

Waking Thoughts & Emotions:
This dream did not cause any particular waking thoughts or emotions.

* I have forgotten some parts of this dream, but if I remember anything else I will record it below.

Dreams: Dream Interpretation, Dream Incubation & Lucid Dreaming