Monday 19 March 2012

Dream Interpretation 33

DREAM 33

Dream date: 15th March 2012

NOTE: Due to a busy work schedule I have not been updating my Blog and therefore have a backlog of dreams to write up on here. Unfortunately I have also had many dreams which, due to poor techniques and a lack of practice over the past few weeks, were not recalled clearly enough to record. Dream experimentation is a continuing practice and I have learned that as quickly as skills of dream control and recall are learnt, they can just as easily be lost. From henceforth I will make more of a concerted effort to practice my once successful techniques and update my Blog regularly.


Lucid dreaming experiments/techniques 
  • Mental/training – MILD technique before bed – simple practice of meditating on my phrase ‘ACR’ (‘dream intentions’ of Awareness, Control and Recall) for several minutes before drifting off to sleep
  • LDS – Flaxseed Oil enriched with Omega 3, 6 & 9 (4000 mg); Multivitamins A – Z with evening meal; Sea Kelp (90 mg); CoEnzyme Q-10 (150 mg); Fenugreek (3000 g); Gingko Biloba (120 mg); and Vitamin B Complex with additional Vitamin B6 (10 mg); Hydrolysed Collagen (6000 mg); Iron (28 mg)
  • No use of binaural beats

Potential triggers/’day residue’   
  • I received a text from TB in the days leading up to the dream
  • I had used Facebook on the day of the dream, although not the chat facility
  • I study crime
  • I had mentioned to a friend (in the week prior to this dream) that I found it really difficult to find jeans that fit properly due to my size 8 (26 inch) waist and size 14 (42 inch) hips. She mentioned she had bought some cheap jeans which made her butt look bigger than usual
  • A second friend asked if I had heard the news about the former Eastenders actress who had recently been killed (and apparently ‘beheaded’ or ‘disembodied’ – my friend wasn’t sure of the details, nor her name – by her brother). I had heard vaguely of the story, but also had no knowledge of the specific details, but the idea of murder and disembodiment of a family member made me think of Fred West, in particular the murders of Catherine Bernadette ‘Rena’ West (1944 – 1971); Charmaine West (1963 – 1971); and Heather Ann West (1970 – 1987). I then wondered if it would have been possible to write a legal thesis on the West case and felt I had missed an opportunity, bearing in mind my long-held interest in their life stories/case

Main dream environment(s) 
  • (Scene 1):
An internal scene – I did not recognise the house as any I have seen in real-life. I was in a room which had a door leading to the back garden of the property.

  • (Scene 2):
I was in the back garden of the property. I saw that I was now in my grandmother PC’s garden (although the interior had not been her house). I could see the hedge separating her garden from that of her neighbours to the rear and right side. Instead of her rear neighbour, there was now a path, lined with trees, leading into a woods (there really is woodland in real-life, but it is not directly to the rear of PC’s house, rather to the back and then some distance left - if you followed the route taken in the dream, although with many other houses on route. You certainly wouldn’t try to cut through the gardens to reach forest in any event, as there is woodland less than 20 feet from the front entrance to the house – with a tree lined path). In the middle distance was another house, with the lights on. As this house was set in a forest clearing, it seemed pretty dark and I could not see much more than the lights behind the windows.

  • (Scene 3):
I was in my bedroom in London – looking at the PC on the desk I use. It was exactly as it appears in real-life, even down to the minute detail of the same books and stationary left on the desk the night prior to this dream.


Characters
(Present in all scenes):
  • Myself (I only saw the reflection of my butt in the mirror, but I think I was as I appear in real-life)
 (Scene 1):
  • The now-dead serial killer, Fred West (1941 – 1995)
 (Scene 3):
  • TB – by Facebook chat

Dream narrative
  • (Scene 1):
I was standing with my back to a full-length princess mirror, looking at my butt. I was wearing tight-fitting black jeans. I went to exit the property via the back door. I felt a hand slap my butt. I turned to see that it was Fred West. I saw his face close up. I said: “I thought you were dead”. He said: “You look very pretty...” His face was leering and I knew I had to get away or I would become his victim. He tried to grab my arm, but I shook him off and ran out of the door, into the night.

  •  (Scene 2):
I was in PC’s garden. I looked over the hedge at the back of the garden (which is situated behind a lilac bush, which was not obscuring my view in the dream as it would in real-life). As soon as I could see over the hedge, I was over the other side and I could see the tree-lined path leading into forest. There was a house at the bottom of the path, in a forest clearing. I thought it would be a safe haven. I became aware that it was a house for women only, which inspired confidence in me. As I got near to the house (or at least within close range) I suddenly felt uneasy and realised that if I entered the house I would become imprisoned and Fred West would eventually capture me. I thought I woke up.

  • (Scene 3):
The next part of my dream was so vivid, I thought I had woken up and was now in a real-life situation. I recalled that I had ‘dreamed’ of Fred West and made my way to the computer. This false awakening could so easily have triggered lucidity in me had I had a suitable trigger or noticed something to remind me that I was in fact still asleep and dreaming. However, as this part of the dream was so close to a real waking situation, I did not question it and missed a chance at a lucid dream. As I approached the computer, I moved the pile of clothes from the chair so that I could sit down (I do this every morning). I saw that I was logged onto Facebook already and the chat window was open (this would have been the lucidity trigger – I never leave Facebook logged on and rarely sign into the chat facility. Before I had gone to bed I had turned the computer off). The chat window showed a conversation with TB. It said: “are you here?” I asked him where ‘here’ was supposed to be. He replied: “I thought you were here now, you told me you were here”. I checked my phone to see if I could find out what he meant, but there was no text from TB. I woke up.
Fred & Rose West
Facebook page
Facebook chat window open
Interpretation/analysis
I will interpret some of the dream symbolism at a later stage, but you will find some of the symbolism analysed elsewhere.

Dream Interpretation 32

DREAM 32

Dream date: 27th February 2012

NOTE: Due to a busy work schedule I have not been updating my Blog and therefore have a backlog of dreams to write up on here. Unfortunately I have also had many dreams which, due to poor techniques and a lack of practice over the past few weeks, were not recalled clearly enough to record. Dream experimentation is a continuing practice and I have learned that as quickly as skills of dream control and recall are learnt, they can just as easily be lost. From henceforth I will make more of a concerted effort to practice my once successful techniques and update my Blog regularly.


Lucid dreaming experiments/techniques 
  • Mental/training – MILD technique before bed – simple practice of meditating on my phrase ‘ACR’ (‘dream intentions’ of Awareness, Control and Recall) for several minutes before drifting off to sleep
  • LDS – Flaxseed Oil enriched with Omega 3, 6 & 9 (4000 mg); Multivitamins A – Z with evening meal; Sea Kelp (90 mg); CoEnzyme Q-10 (150 mg); Fenugreek (3000 g); Gingko Biloba (120 mg); and Vitamin B Complex with additional Vitamin B6 (10 mg); Hydrolysed Collagen (6000 mg); Iron (28 mg)
  • No use of binaural beats

Potential triggers/’day residue’   
  • I read an article in an online newspaper and later, a magazine about the singer Shakira getting attacked by a sea lion on 14th February 2012
  • I do not recall any other relevant triggers and none were recorded in my notes upon waking

Main dream environment(s) 
  • (Scene 1):
I was in a huge, well-lit room. Instead of internal walls, there were stacked crates and partitions separating off different sections of the room. I was in a sectioned off area where there was a huge bed. I later realised that we were in fact in a film/television studio. There were huge glass windows with many people working behind them and bustling around

  • (Scene 2):
I was looking at an ambiguous material which seemed to make up the surface of a massive wall, which filled my entire field of vision – it was brown and textured – perhaps like carved wood. It was all I could see in front of me, but I did not turn around to see what was behind/to my sides. At some stage the perspective of the ‘wall’ shifted and it became tilted down towards me at an incline, but still spread out as far as I could see. Small pale pink square icons/boxes were floating down the wall and I was ‘checking them off’ with a pen – i.e. marking them as they floated past my line of vision. It is difficult for me to describe this element of the dream as I was not fully aware of what was happening myself


Characters
(Present in all scenes):
  • Myself (I did not see myself at first, but I think I was as I appear in real-life)
 (Scene 1):
  • A male, I really do not know who this was as I never felt like I properly ‘saw’ him although his presence (thankfully) felt familiar
  • A strange deformed, half-human, half-goblin creature – approximately 3 feet in height with a blonde tousled wig
  • Busy workers and businessmen on the ‘film set’

Dream narrative
  • (Scene 1):
I was laying in the bed with the male and we were having sexual intercourse. It seemed perfunctory and not particularly passionate - in the spoon position. I realised that the act was perhaps being filmed by an unseen third party and the (unseen) male acquaintence and I stopped what we were doing and got up from the bed.  We walked round the partitions which enclosed the bed area and turned a corner. On top of a stack of boxes with a spotlight pointing at it, was a small goblin creature. It was very ugly, greenish-grey in colour with warts on it’s face and hands. It was wearing torn sackcloth and on it’s head was a long blonde wig which resembled Shakira’s hairstyle. It was head-banging (in the style of old school heavy metallers). I communicated to my male acquaintance that this was a media-created version of Shakira, but I felt that it was wrong of the film studios to try to turn a goblin into the singer and market it as if was really her to the public

  • (Scene 2):
I was looking at the carved wooden wall, which then slanted towards me as if it were a drawing-board. I saw the pink squares floating towards me and I was marking each one with a pen. I could feel the presence of the male over my shoulder, but I did not turn round to look at him or anything else surrounding me.
Film Studio
Goblin/troll creature
Shakira
Approximate representation of Goblin/Shakira Hybrid
Carved wooden wall
Pale pink box marked with a tick
Interpretation/analysis
I will interpret some of the dream symbolism at a later stage, but you will find some of the symbolism analysed elsewhere.

Dream Interpretation 31

DREAM 31

Dream date: 22nd February 2012

NOTE: Due to a busy work schedule I have not been updating my Blog and therefore have a backlog of dreams to write up on here. Unfortunately I have also had many dreams which, due to poor techniques and a lack of practice over the past few weeks, were not recalled clearly enough to record. Dream experimentation is a continuing practice and I have learned that as quickly as skills of dream control and recall are learnt, they can just as easily be lost. From henceforth I will make more of a concerted effort to practice my once successful techniques and  update my Blog regularly.


Lucid dreaming experiments/techniques 
  • Mental/training – MILD technique before bed – simple practice of meditating on my phrase ‘ACR’ (‘dream intentions’ of Awareness, Control and Recall) for several minutes before drifting off to sleep
  • LDS – Flaxseed Oil enriched with Omega 3, 6 & 9 (4000 mg); Multivitamins A – Z with evening meal; Sea Kelp (90 mg); CoEnzyme Q-10 (150 mg); Fenugreek (3000 g); Gingko Biloba (120 mg); and Vitamin B Complex with additional Vitamin B6 (10 mg); Hydrolysed Collagen (6000 mg); Iron (28 mg)
  • No use of binaural beats

Potential triggers/’day residue’   
  • I watched the film Napoleon Dynamite (2004) as I was falling asleep
  • I have experienced a gang coming to my home with weapons, threatening violence in January of this year

Main dream environment(s) 
  • (Scene 1):
I was at home (my home in London) but it did not appear as it does in real-life. Instead there was no definite form or decoration to the room which I could recognise. I was standing by a window, leaning on the arm of a sofa, which was brown. I just instinctually knew where I was without recognising any real-life qualities of the room itself, which in the dream appeared to be empty but for the arm of the sofa and the window. The room was brightly lit with a yellow-toned light

  • (Scene 2):
I was in an outside environment at night, illuminated by street lights. It wasn't the real-life exterior to my home in London, but that is how it felt in the dream. There were rows of two-storey houses, arranged in lines, with the lights on, seen through the windows, whereas in real-life I live on an estate with towerblocks. I was on a strip of concrete which could have been either a road or a pavement - it seemed fairly wide. There was a bench on the side of the concrete strip and some trees/bushes
  

Characters
(Present in all scenes):
  • Myself (I did not see myself at first, but I think I was as I appear in real-life - when I did view myself in the third person I did not notice any difference to my mirror image)
 (Scene 1):
  • PS
  • Some males (some white males, others wearing balaclavas) outside, seen from the window
 (Scene 2):
  • One white male with blonde hair and a blue hooded top - in his late teens or early 20s (unknown to me in real-life)
  • Three further males, who I did not get a clear view of - they had their faces concealed, but I could not make out any other distinguishing features
  • A very masculine female with blonde hair, wearing a lycra leotard. She had huge muscles and resembled the character of 'Starla' (Carmen Brady) from Napoleon Dynamite

Dream narrative
  • (Scene 1):
PS and I were standing at the window, inside the house. We could see a group of males, some white and in teens/20s and others with balaclavas disguising their appearance. I felt both concerned and trapped in the house and wondered what to do. The situation felt desperate.

  • (Scene 2):
I was suddenly outside, in the street, illuminated by the glow of street lights. I felt terrified and confused as to why I had ventured outside. I was turning round quickly, trying to think how to best get to safety. I felt as though I was close to home, but also in the middle of a hostile situation. All of a sudden I was apprehended by the young blonde male, who grabbed my arm and started to steer me towards the bench, which was situated by some bushes. I knew something bad was going to happen. I looked at the houses lining the strip of concrete we were standing/walking on. The lights were on and I hoped someone would see my plight and come to rescue me. The male said something I could not remember upon waking. He didn't sound as hostile as the situation felt, however. I was surprised that he said whatever it was in a pleasant manner. He pushed me down on the bench. I thought I was going to be raped. However, the other three males jumped out suddenly. Everything happened very quickly and in seconds I became aware that the barrel of a gun had been put in my mouth. I saw myself in the third person, but did not see the faces/upper bodies of my attackers, only the hand of the male holding the gun and the arms of those males holding me down onto the bench. I started to kick out and my perspective switched back to 'first person'. I fought the males off me and freed myself from their grasp, getting up off the bench and beginning to run. The original blonde male caught me there was a tussle as we grabbed at each other before I punched him square in the face, knocking him to the floor. As I turned to run in another direction I saw the 'Starla' character running towards me swinging a huge medieval flail (mace) with spiked ball on the end. As she apprehended me and swung her mace at my head, I woke up.
Helmut Newton, Jo Champa, Chelsea Hotel, NYC (1988)
Carmen Brady - 'Starla' from Napoleon Dynamite (2004)
Medieval spiked mace
Interpretation/analysis
I will interpret some of the dream symbolism at a later stage, but you will find some of the symbolism analysed elsewhere.