Sunday, 4 November 2018

Dreams 941 - 949

Dream 941
Date: August 2018
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was in an unknown room, sitting at a large table with my Mum and Nan. There was a window next to the table, so I could see it was daylight outside. My Nan was wearing a pale pink fluffy mohair jumper and I was aware that (just like in real life) she had had a mastectomy, but this was not visible. I knew my Nan was in good health and the conversation was positive, although I cannot remember what was discussed. We stood up and started walking down a corridor together. There was an optimistic feel to this dream. 

Dream 942
'Eye Problems'
Date: July 2018
Scene 1: Unknown Location - Time Unknown
I was in an unrecalled location, with other persons. I think my Mum was present, but I am unable to recall this. I was waiting for my ex-boyfriend, KU (who I broke up with in very unpleasant and acrimonious circumstances). I was aware that KU was shooting a music video somewhere. I then became aware that there was a long threadlike piece of skin coming from my eye. I was like an umbilical cord and grey-pink in colour, with a twisted texture, about 10 inches long. I could stretch it out really far and it was elastic/stretchy. I was scared and decided to try and cut it off. My Mum (or whoever the other dream character was) said that I would not qualify for surgery on the NHS so I took a pair of scissors and snipped the long protruding skin from my eye successfully, without pain. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

At this point, I cannot recall any further dreams from July 2018. My dreams from this point forward reflect a new relationship. To avoid vagueness or confusion as to some of the recurrent themes in the below dreams, I will disclose the following details about my private life: 11 years ago, when I was a trainee lawyer I met a man in prison (19 years of age). He fancied me, but I did not know. This year he contacted me via social media, while still in prison. At first I was quite cold and distant because I was in a negative relationship with KU and I was very stressed about that, and my Nan's ill-health, and other issues. He decided to give me space and stopped trying to talk to me. He then contacted me again and this time I was more interested. We began a serious relationship. He was due for parole a few weeks ago, and we have now found out he will be going to open prison. 

Dream 943
Date: September 2018
Scene 1: An Unknown Outside Location - Day
I was outside on a sunny day. I am not sure where I was, because all I knew was that I was walking on a concrete ground. I could see a group of male and female dream characters in front of me, sort of sitting or squatting on the ground in a group - like a roughly circular shape, so they were all facing in towards each other. As I approached them, I was aware they were all hip hop heads, dressed in clothing styles which reflected this. I could see R3A was present - on my right hand side, with two female dream characters (white, attractive) on either side of him. He had his arms around his shoulders. I thought he had a smug look on his face. I think there was some conversation, but I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 944
'Baby Daddy'
Date: September 2018
Scene 1: A Hospital - Time Unknown
I was in a hospital, which also resembled a post office, with a counter and glass screen, behind which a female worker was standing. There was a sofa which stretched along the opposite wall and the room appeared to be very narrow. 

I was with my Mum and other members of my family and we had just arrived. I was aware that I was pregnant and about to give birth, although I did not feel like I was in labour. I was wearing a white baggy T-shirt. I was wondering where the father of my baby was - and at this stage in the dream, I did not have any idea who it might be. I looked down at the sofa (which I now saw was pale blue fabric). LD1 was there, laying on his side sleeping. He woke up as I looked at him. I saw a 'thought bubble' appear over his head (like in The Sims, when it shows you the sim's motive). I could tell from what was in his 'thought bubble' that he assumed he was the father of my unborn baby and that was why he was in the hospital waiting room. I was not happy with this, so I hoped he was not the father. I then became aware that he was not the father and I was pleased. I realised that AJR was the father. This made me happy. I sat down with my Mum on the end of the sofa furthest away from LD1. 

The next thing I knew, I had already given birth, although neither the baby nor AJR were present. I was standing in front of an unknown male dream character, who was in his 20s and white. I cannot recall any other detail about him and I do not know what his role was. We were in a darkish room. He pointed at my body and I lifted my top (now a pale blue one) and discovered I was really skinny, which made me feel good as I had lost all the weight from being pregnant. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

* Note that I have a feeling I know what LD1 appeared in this dream as the 'potential father'. I know I have written about his elsewhere on this Blog, although I cannot find any of those dreams to link here in order to offer some explanation as to who he is. Basically a few years ago, LD1 (perhaps anonymised as LD in a previous dream) contacted me (or maybe I contacted him first, I cannot recall) on social media. I had not spoken to him properly since high school. He had married and separated from a girl we had gone to school with, who is also subject of many of my dreams. We began talking, but never got round to meeting up. He seemed overly keen and attached very quickly. We eventually 'ended' our chatting/flirting when he slut-shamed me over the fact I have sent thousands of nude photos of myself to previous boyfriends/lovers and he was overly jealous, despite us not being in a relationship or even physical company and him having been happy to receive some photos himself. During our earlier flirting conversations, he made some references to the fact that he thought we would end up in a relationship. This was a huge leap. He said he'd like another child (he has a son from a previous relationship). I said I did not want children and he said he wanted to change my mind about that. This actually made me feel really negatively towards him, in addition to other things. We have not spoken to one another nor interacted in any way since then. I have never wanted children. However, now I am with AJR, we have discussed our future plans and my mind has changed as I now realise I have never been in love properly before now.  

Dream 945
'Family Feud'
Date: October 2018
Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Time Unknown
I was in a domestic interior, which was my family home in the dream. A large number of my family were present, as was AJR. Someone - an unrecalled male relative - began to make fun of me, or say things which made me annoyed, although I cannot recall what. AJR began defending me aggressively and I was pleased. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 946
Date: October 2018
Scene 1: Outside the Prison Visits Centre - Day
I was standing outside the visits centre of the prison AJR is in. I was aware that he had been released from prison, but I am not sure why I was there. An unknown female dream character (white, youngish, with brown hair) approached me in a panic, and told me that AJR had been recalled to prison and was about to be arrested. I frantically went to find AJR before he was arrested and taken back into custody. I am not sure why he was being recalled.

Scene 2: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
This scene seemed to repeat itself twice, without the narrative of the dream developing or the scene changing. I found AJR and told him I knew he was about to be recalled to prison. In the dream (as in real life) we had never been in a situation where we were unsupervised and able to have sex. We took off our clothes and I was encouraging AJR to quickly have sex with me before he was found and arrested. I laid down - it appeared we were in an interior location where there was a bed. AJR got on top of me and was about to have sex with me when the door of the room opened and I was aware he was about to be arrested before we could have sex. This then repeated, making the dream doubly frustrating. I woke up feeling sexually aroused.

Dream 947
'The PA'
Date: October 2018
Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was aware that AJR had hired a female Personal Assistant. She was small and white, in her 20s and had a black bob hairstyle. There was some action in the dream which I cannot recall. Something led me to go upstairs in my Nan's house and enter my bedroom. AJR was sitting on the bed, sideways, leaning against the wall. His PA was in bed with him. They had the duvet over their legs. I assumed AJR was cheating on me. I walked over and grabbed the PA by her arm and dragged her out of the bed. I then began to aggressively attack her with my fists, beating her into submission on the floor in front of the bed. AJR was very angry at me and was shouting, questioning why I was attacking his PA for no reason. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Scene 2: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior, sitting on or beside a bed. My mobile phone was smashed beyond repair, which made me unhappy. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 948
'Hugging Dogs'
Date: October 2018
Scene 1: Unknown - Day
I was in an unknown location, with others present. I cannot recall details, other than my Mum was there. Some kind of gift exchange took place. During part of this dream my field of vision was filled with a beautiful pink colour which felt very magical. I was then crouched beside a chain-link fence, waiting for something to happen and feeling nervous/anxious. A dog ran over to me - pale beige fur - and leapt into my arms. I hugged the dog, burying my face in the fur of it's neck, which felt very comforting. I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Dream 949
Date: October 2018
Scene 1: An Unknown Exterior - Day
I cannot recall anything about this dream other than AJR and I were outside, walking together in the sunshine which made me feel extremely happy.