Dream 1033 (AMAZING LUCID DREAM!)

'Murdering 'This Man' in a Rape Scenario'

Date: 15 August 2019

This dream was as a result of a real life incident which took place the day before this dream - I was out walking alone at night, when I was followed by a group of men. I was in a small, dark wooded area near my house when the men decided to try and find me, while making loud, threatening/intimidating comments which led me to believe they had malicious/sexual intentions towards me. I escaped any harm - but I was unsettled and angry about this incident and in a vlog I recorded a number of hours later, I referred to the fact this might influence my next dream as I have had recurrent dreams of being chased (often near woodland) by a man/men carrying knives. This dream took place during the day (sometime between 07:30 and 14:00 hours).

Scene 1: A 'House of Marble' - Time Unknown
I was in an interior which was made of marble - I don't mean the metamorphic rock, but rather glass marbles - the spherical children's plaything. It was a 'cat's eye' marble (which as a child I used to think of as the most common and basic - and therefore least favourite marble variety, unless it had an odd colour scheme). The walls weren't transparent, although they were made of clear glass (they were too thick to be transparent, so I could not see beyond them). The coloured centre of the glass was a mix of blue and green. I did not question how odd this interior was. I cannot recall any of the decor or furniture, only the actually structure being made on marble. There were some dream characters present, but I do not recall them as my attention was on leaving the marble interior - trying to find a door, which was difficult, as all the walls seemed to be made of smooth glass with no entrances or exits. 

I walked down some marble/glass hallway and found a door which would enable me to leave. 

Scene 2: An Entrance - Time Unknown
I found myself in a scene from a recent dream - it was the exact same place, which had seemed significant in the original dream - Dream 1031 - 'Bowling Green, Sudsbury' (MY DREAM TOWN APPEARS). It is an entrance of a very institutional building - everything seems dusty and old and solid. I got a distinct feeling of nostalgia when in this location - as if I had seen it in childhood. I associated it with being the entrance to a building in London - maybe the entrance to a solicitors, or tax office, or psychiatrists (I know these are random professions, I just can't describe the strong impressionist reaction I had to this banal location). Finding myself in a dream location I have recently experienced in another dream (and one which I felt was significant in the previous dream) should have been a dreamsign, triggering a reality check and lucidity - but I accepted the reality of the dream and the fact I was back in this location, even though I recognised I had been there before. 

I noticed  that behind me (on a wall I had not observed in my previous dream), I saw there was a TV monitor mounted on the wall. I knew that this was a CCTV monitor, showing security footage. The screen was showing a showreel of a Youtuber (a male Youtuber, who I think was just a dream character as I cannot link him to any one particular content creator I am aware of in real life). The showreel was basically the thumbnails of his videos being displayed on the screen. I noticed that some of his video thumbnails were diagrams of brainwaves which I had used on this Blog (uploaded the same day as this dream). I knew they were images he had taken from my Blog, and thought it was odd (and unconnected to his channel), but at the same time, I did not question what was happening to the extent that it acted as a dreamsign - even though I was actively thinking about my dreamwork and dream journal, while in a dream scene location!

Scene 3: Countryside, 'Sudsbury' (My 'Dream Town') - Day
I left the entrance, through the big burgundy/maroon door and found that I was in my 'Dream Town' ('Sudsbury') - for explanation of my 'Dream Town' and links to all dreams in which it has appeared, see Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian'. I was in a countryside location, but I could not see the building from which I just exited. I could just see a typical English countryside, which was very tranquil and beautiful. The sun was shining and the sky was very blue. I knew I was going to a picnic in the forest (which was where I was heading, walking across the fields/meadows) - I knew my boyfriend AJR would be there to meet me, along with other people (who I assumed I would know, although it is unclear who would be there as I did not actively think about the other guests). I was very happy and excited about the prospect of the picnic and was eager to get there. 

I walked to the forest, which was a normal looking forest. I seemed to instinctively know which direction to walk in. I reached a clearing in the trees, which was where I knew the picnic would be taking place. This was in the depths of the forest. 

I heard a noise - footsteps through the forest floor, and I think I assumed it was AJR coming to meet me. However, I became aware it was a strange man and he had malicious intentions towards me - he was a sex offender who was going to rape me. I was terrified, but didn't try and run away (I am not sure why - I didn't even attempt to do this, I was rooted on the spot). 

The man appeared through the trees and I saw that it was 'This Man' (see my post on 'Have You Seen This Man? (Debunking the 'Dream Hoax'). He looked broadly similar to the image used for this hoax - he was in his 30s and very short in height, and squat in build. He was white, with a vary pallid complexion and a wide, creepy smile. His hair was black and thinning on top. He was dressed in a navy outfit which might have been a onesie - or just matching top and trousers. I instantly recognised him as 'This Man' - and as a viral marketing hoax and urban legend/myth. This caused me to become lucid! 

I performed a reality check - trying to push the fingers of one hand through the palm of the other - and found that the outcome was only slightly dream-like and odd - my fingers did not push through my palm, and my hands looked normal to me - the only 'unreal' or dream-like outcome of the reality check was the fact that my palm was a bit like plasticine or dough - malleable to the extent my finger sunk in a small amount, just enough to be impossible in real life. I was certain I was lucid. I began to run my hands together to stabilise the dream, but my hands felt quite numb and disconnected from me so I placed my right hand on the trunk of the tree nearest to me, feeling the rough, realistic bark texture. This seemed to stabilise the dream sufficiently, as I had clarity of vision and thought, and felt grounded in the dream. 

This Man stood in front of me - about 5 meters away, or possibly less. The colours of the forest seemed very vibrant and bathed in an intense green light. I began to shout: 'AJ' trying to summons my boyfriend into the lucid dream so that he could help me. At first nothing happened. This Man said to me: 'He can't hear you from the portal'. I perceived 'the portal' to be the big burgundy/maroon door from Scene 2 and my previous dream involving this entrance (Dream 1031 - 'Bowling Green, Sudsbury') which had also involved AJR being present. I said to This Man: 'the portal is in my dream, so I can summons whoever I want through it'. I imagined that the door was a portal to my Dream Town (I am not sure if that is what it does symbolise, but I have now had 2 dreams when it has led to my Dream Town, so I had a deep belief that this was a possibility). This Man started laughing manically at me and said 'you're just another rape victim today' which was a terrifying statement to hear him say. He did not try to get closer to me - he seemed confident that he had me trapped. I began shouting: 'AJ! AJ!' willing him to appear. AJR appeared through the trees, the same direction This Man had come (straight ahead of where I was standing). He was dressed in a white T-shirt and jeans and looked as he does in real life. This was the first point I became aware of how I was also dressed - I was wearing a pink zip-up hoody and leggings and I assume trainers (the outfit I was wearing in real life on the day before this dream). AJR's facial expression indicated that he was annoyed. He stopped, just behind This Man and said: 'What do you want me to do about it?' which indicated he did not want to help me in any way, which made me feel disappointed. This Man said (directed at AJR): 'this is just a one-off' - which I perceived to be him saying that he was only going to rape me once, and therefore it shouldn't worry AJR too much. 

I realised I would have to fight This Man myself, because AJR wasn't helping (and I did not want to lose focus by trying to control AJR as a lucid dream character). I imagined summonsing power into myself - I guess this is akin to 'psyching myself up' for a fight. I felt a surge of electrical energy pulsate through my body, which was a pleasurable and reassuring feeling - I guess it was literally a rush of adrenaline. I said, out loud, to manifest this: 'I've got superpowers'. This Man was just smiling at me. AJR said: 'You shouldn't lie to him when he's about to rape you'. He did not seem concerned at all about the prospect of me being raped by This Man. I felt that he was trying to undermine me within my own lucid dream, but then had to tell myself that he is a projection of my subconscious and it was actually me trying to undermine my own power. I felt extremely conscious of conscious awareness (as awkward as that sounds, I mean I was very aware of how much insight and logic I was using to interpret my own lucid dream as it was actually happening, and use that to my advantage).

I knew I had to visualise and manifest a weapon of some kind - and the obvious choice (based on my current Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment #10) was a meat cleaver - I had held one in my hand, and could remember the weight and feel of it, as well as it's size and shape. I held out my hand and decided to look up at the sky, visualising the meat cleaver and feeling its weight in my hand. I looked up at the sky, and could see tree branched criss-crossing my field of vision. I thought they seemed higher than they should have been. I had my hand held out in front of me as I tried to manifest the meat cleaver I was visualising. I couldn't feel it in my hand no matter how hard I tried to will it. I wondered if I should close my eyes, but I didn't want to, because that can either change the lucid dream scene (this is my association as I have used this method before), or sometimes wake you prematurely. This Man was laughing at me and he said: 'I'm going to get big on you', which made me feel terrified. I still did not have a weapon. I looked at This Man, and noticed that he had opened a flap on the front of his trousers (or onesie? It was like the flap on the back of a babygro, but at the front) and his penis was exposed - it was erect (I knew this, even though it didn't look like a normal penis) and I knew this was what he meant by the phrase 'I'm going to get big on you'. His penis was actually really short and fat, like a large field mushroom, and a very bright pink colour, with sparse, black pubic hair. It looked unrealistic - like it was a badly-crafted sculpture of an ugly 'choad'-type penis, a caricature, rather than a real penis

This Man then did this tip-toeing walk towards me - I don't know it I can describe it, but it reminded me a lot of a cross between the dancing, theatrical movements of the evil presence in the Creepypasta 'The Smiling Man' (I have seen a video made which was based on this story) and also the creepy, overly-exaggerated creeping tiptoe movements of burglars in The Sims 3. This had a really nightmarish quality about it, even though looking back with hindsight, it actually seems really funny! In the dream, my thought was that he was 'playing with' or taunting/mocking me. I looked down at the floor, and saw the meat cleaver was laying amongst the debris of the forest floor, which also had a lot of wild flowers growing. I picked up the meat cleaver and lunged at This Man. I found my arm were really heavy and it was difficult to lift it with the meat cleaver, so I had to will my muscles to loosen. I told myself this is a lucid dream and moving is harder (because I know that to be true from past experience - I often feel the muscle atonia of REM sleep through my lucid dreams). I managed to pump my arm up and down in a way which made movement easier, but in doing this, I chopped off one of This Man's arms. This made me anxious because my first thought was 'now he's going to kill me', so my only option (or at least the only thought present in my consciously-aware mind at the time this was happening) was 'now I have to kill him, it's my only option'. 

I guess I knew AJR wasn't going to help me. I had also afforded both dream characters - This Man and AJR - almost full autonomy as dream characters, without trying to use lucid dream control to manipulate their behaviour in any way. The fact I could try and change the dream scene or walk away, or even try to use different superpowers to protect myself did not come into my mind at all in the moment. As I was fully-lucid with a fairly decent amount of lucid dream control, and access to a lot of logical reasoning, I would have assumed I would have thought about a less drastic option than murder, or actively associated this entire scene with the real life experience of what happened only a matter of hours before. But I did not - at no point did I think 'this is inspired by real life events, and This Man represents the fear of a man preying on a woman with sexual malice or violent intent, in a woodland setting'. Or consider that in a lucid dream I had limitless options open to me. I am not sure if I had selective memory here - i.e. my memory or conscious awareness did no stretch to these thoughts - or maybe, it was taken for granted that this was inspired by waking events to the extent I didn't even need to consciously acknowledge it in the dream? I also wonder if the fact I could only imagine murder being the solution was because this is how I'd react if this situation happened to me in real life? In my vlog, recorded a couple of hours before I went to sleep and had this dream, I mentioned the fact that if a man or group of men tried to rape me, I'd murder them and plead self defence. 

I started to hack at This Man with the meat cleaver. I went completely crazy. It was the most exhilarating and awesomely powerful feeling I have ever experienced in a lucid dream. I could see blood and entrails and skin and hair flying outwards from This Man, while he looked like a cloud of dust/blur - so the way it appeared to me as I was chopping him up into bits was as it would be depicted in a classic cartoon, albeit probably a lot more gory. I think the dust cloud and the blurring was because of the speed at which I was hacking up This Man with the meat cleaver. As the blade of the meat cleaver made contact with This Man, it felt like I was striking thin air - there was no substance to him, but the meat cleaver was still able to chop him up. I began to laugh at what was happening and how it was depicted in the dream. When This Man was completely hacked into pieces, I stopped. I looked down at the ground, expecting to see his remains all chopped up amongst the leaves and flowers. Instead, I saw a large number (maybe even 100), small square packages of meat piled on the ground - they were about the size of a Rubix cube and identical in size/shape. The packages were in brown wrapping paper, tied with string and I could see the blood seeping through them at the edges.

AJR stepped forward and picked up some of the packages of meat - and I saw he had an empty wicker basket on his arm. He said: 'we can take the meat to the picnic' and then winked at me in a really exaggerated way and said: 'you're halfway to becoming a butcherer now'. I noticed he said 'butcherer' and wondered if he meant 'butcher'. To me, in the dream with my conscious awareness, the distinction was between a 'butcher' working in the meat industry and a 'butcherer' being a murderer. My vision began to go blurry, and then black. I woke up.

I woke up from this dream feeling so happy and satisfied - this was the perfect way of releasing my frustrations at what happened to me in real waking life, when I was feeling threatened/intimidated by men in the forest area. I wish I had been able to use my lucidity for finding out more about Sudsbury and also to explore different sides of my relationship with AJR, given there are real life limitations on our relationship at present, so any chance of interacting him in a sexual way in a lucid dream is a top priority for me. However, in this dream my focus needed to be on dealing with This Man. I am surprised that I didn't become lucid in this dream at a sooner point, given all the dreamsigns which were present, but This Man was the final straw which snapped me to lucidity, just at the right moment. 

I feel this dream was extremely cathartic and therapeutic for me. I didn't like AJR's behaviour in the dream, but I am glad that I recognised he was a projection of my subconscious (and therefore not necessarily reflective of himself in a reliable sense - my subconscious is filtering him through a lot of my own anxieties or fears) as this meant I didn't waste time trying to reason with him or question why he was behaving in the way he was.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#10, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this dream was a highly successful Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment dream - however, it must be noted that I consciously visualised and manifested this dream trigger in a lucid dream rather than it just appearing
• I have been searching for a piece of 'lost media' for some years - since childhood. I have searched across so many websites which aim to track down forgotten books which may be out of publication, and used keywords to find any reference to a children's book which would have been published in, or before the early 1990s. We used to have Book Sales at our primary (elementary) school, where publishers/book sellers would set up stalls in our school canteen after school, and we could attend with our parents to browse and buy books. I recall the book being about a young female protagonist who receives a message in a bottle, which she discovers comes from another young girl - who may or may not have been her doppelganger? The protagonist has a younger brother, who goes missing. She finds where her brother might be by looking into a marble, where she sees a vision of his whereabouts. He has been abducted and appears to be living in an alternative reality within the marble. I had the feeling this book might be called House of Marbles. Due to my inability to find a book with a plot anything like that I I have described here, I began to wonder if this was a false memory and whether it in fact did exist. I had been thinking about asking on social media in the hope someone else might remember this book on the day I had this dream. Whilst writing up this dream, I decided to conduct another online search. I am not sure what different search terms I used, but I found a book which I had not come across before - Amy Herrick, Kimbo's Marble (1993), which is a story about Princess Kimbo who is able to communicate with animals as a result of a magic marble she was given as a baby. Kimbo inadvertently wishes that her mute brother Willy disappears - and must rescue him after he is kidnapped by a troll named 'Grimpoke'. Reading about this book did lead to me believe this might be what I was misremembering - there is a young female protagonist, a marble (in the title too) and a missing/kidnapped brother. Even the reference to him being mute stirred some kind of recognition. The book was published approximately around the time I would have been in primary school and attending the Book Sales, so the time-frame is broadly right. However, there are many inconsistencies between this book and my memory of the one I am trying to track down - for example, I didn't recall the troll, the fact the protagonist was a princess who could talk to animals, or the fact that the book was illustrated. It may be that I grossly misremembered it, or have combined the memory of 2 different books into one. I also have the vague memory of having a dream about this book as a child - so perhaps I am actually remembering aspects of my dream, rather than the actual book? 
• I noticed that on my Blog, the 'Have You Seen This Man? (Debunking the 'Dream Hoax' post had been viewed a couple of times on the day before this dream - although I did not look at my own post, I have a clear and vivid visual memory of how This Man looks and I'm guessing I must have mentally visualised him in this moment. Note that in this dream, I did not remember that I had seen the statistic of page views on my Blog, or briefly thought about This Man in waking reality, despite my dreamsign being the fact that I know he does not exist
• On the day I had this dream, I had mentioned in my vlog that I have had recurrent dreams about being pursued with a man with a knife. I had noticed that on my Blog - my post about weapons - 'Interpreting popular dreams themes (5) - Knives & Stabbing' and 'DREAM INTERPRETATION: Weapons & Violence in Dreams (Knives,Guns, Bombs etc)' have always been the most popular posts of this Blog, on a daily basis, and according to my overall global statistics. I think that the fact I had the real life waking incident, then thought about other instances where I have been pursued or intimidated by men, coupled with my Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment dream trigger and my thoughts of previous dreams which relate to being pursued by a man with a knife (and then acknowledging the fact I have popular Blog posts about knives/weapons in dreams), made such strong associations in my mind, that a dream reflecting that much associated day residue was inevitable - a point I had also consciously acknowledged just before this dream
• The night before this dream I had considered buying a mushroom quiche, shortly after the incident which inspired this dream
• I had watched a Youtube video about the creator's all-time scariest Creepypastas on the night before this dream - although I don't think 'The Smiling Man' was actually on his list
• I had seen a Facebook post on a Sims 3 group about burglar NPCs on the night before this dream
• AJR teases me by giving me the nickname 'Yokey Bear' (based on Yogi Bear) as a reference to how I am disgusted by eggs - Yogi Bear was famous for stealing picnics

Dream 1032

'Rocking Horses & Confusing Repetitions'

Date: 14 August 2019
Scene 1: Unknown Interior Location - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior with AJR and some other dream characters, who I cannot recall. We were sitting on the floor. A male dream character entered - he was tall and very thin, but I cannot remember any other details about him, as he appeared to be in the distance - at the far end of the room. He raised his arm and a big wooden children's rocking horse (painted white with pale pink and blue flowers painted on the rockers) appeared above us. I was worried that the rocking horse would fall on our heads, but as I looked up at it, I realised it was actually a number of babies' cribs - all the same design - painted white with the flowers. 

I then saw an image of my Nan's face, multiple times against a blue, illuminated background. These faces formed a circle/ring and I realised that my Nan's face actually symbolised the face of a clock - this was an abstract thought process I cannot describe. I then saw a pair of leather boots - sort of mid-shin length and made of white leather. I thought to myself (abstractly): 'it will be easier to repeat this image'.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• I have no idea what influenced the imagery or events of this dream!

Dream 1031 (MY DREAM TOWN APPEARS!)

'Bowling Green, Sudsbury'

Date: 13 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was in an unknown interior, which was like we were in the hollows of a huge tree, as all the walls, floors and ceilings were made of gnarled dark wood, and uneven in appearance - very rustic and cosy. There was light. I was wandering around this strange interior, which had no furniture (all seating was carved into out of the wooden material - so there were no 'additional' fixtures of fittings. In a 'hallway' I saw a dog, which was a large grey greyhound type of dog. I perceived the dog to be unfriendly, so I did not approach it.

I walked into a different room, which had seating. There were a number of other dream characters in this area, including my Mum, Nan and cousin HM and my boyfriend AJR. I am not sure if I remember any of the other dream characters, so cannot say if they were known to me in real life. AJR told me that the room was 'contaminated' by dead bats. This horrified me and I said that we should go outside to get into the fresh air. Our party got up to leave - I cannot recall where my family members went after we started to leave.

Scene 2: A Bowling Green, 'My Dream Town' - Late Afternoon
It felt like leaving the interior, was 'coming up' to the surface, like we had been underground, but I am not sure why, as we did not climb any stairs - we walked through a door, which made me think of the past. I do not know how to describe this, because it wasn't as if the door was particularly 'historical' and neither was the surrounding area. It just gave me an impression of halls/doors from my childhood, or just before I was born - as perceived from images I've seen of the 1970s. It was a very vivid, impressionistic and comforting feeling, and quite abstract. I just thought, this is what bureaucracy used to be like - this is what public building entrance halls and doors looked like (in approx. 1970s - 1990s). The entrance was very beige and had blocky wooden furniture - only really a desk as far as I saw. Everything looked very 'solid' and official. There was a dado-rail around the room. It looked worn and not especially well-maintained, but very tidy. The door was very large and painted a maroon/burgundy colour. It also had a very solid, official feel. The entrance and door felt institutional. This whole part of the dream scene was very significant, for absolutely no obvious reason at all. As I was about to leave the entrance hall and step out of the interior, I expected to be in the West End of London (I have no idea why) - I saw a street, which I perceived to be 'Chelsea' in my mind's eye before we left the building. 

AJR and I stepped out and we were in front of a large bowling green. I could see some buildings a the periphery of my vision. The area seemed to be very pleasant and tranquil - I realised this was a quiet and upper-class district of my 'Dream Town' (for information about 'Sudsbury', my 'Dream Town' - see this post for an explanation of the significance of this dream scene location and links to all of my dreams which feature my 'Dream Town' - Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian'). AJR said to me: 'Sudsbury isn't the same as where my family live, but you think it means something' - which in the dream I just accepted as being a completely normal thing to say, but honestly, should have been a huge dreamsign for me, triggering a reality check and a lucid dream. 

The fact AJR was with me in 'Sudsbury' a reoccuring location which I am fascinated by as a weird dream phenomenon (and the fact he was out of prison!) and referencing the phenomenon within the dream, which could have led me to 'remember' Sudsbury only exists in my dreams, should have made me snap to consciousness. In the dream, I just reminded him that it was true, it was a weird coincidence (I don't know what I thought the coincidence was within this dream - as the coincidence would have to acknowledge that 'Sudsbury' is a Dream Town, which only exists in my dreams! This is such an oddity to me, it just seems like I was coming to a conclusion I would in real life - because AJR and I have discussed the fact I dream of a Dream Town, called 'Sudsbury' which is very close in name to the real life town 'Sudbury' in Suffolk, where he will soon live with his family on release from prison. However, I didn't actively think about the nature or implications of that coincidence. AJR thinks my dreamwork is all pointless.

AJR and I looked at the bowling green. I knew it was late afternoon. I felt very happy to be in this location at this particular time with AJR as everything was just at peace. There were some dream character males dressed in white, some distance away, playing bowls. I could see some old-fashioned streetlamps beyond the bowling green's edge, and some wrought-iron fencing some distance away, to my left, which fenced off something which may have been a park or a small city garden. The road led off to taller very grey buildings which were on either side of the narrow street, which was 'uphill' as I could see it rise slightly above us at an angle. I saw that some of the houses I could see were Georgian townhouses and I thought they looked very aesthetic. This whole part of the dream was extremely vivid as well. 

AJR said that we should walk to 'the Solicitors' - I am not exactly sure why we had to go to a solicitors in the dream, as I just accepted that we needed to and did not actively think about the reason (probably because law is such an intrinsic part of both of our lives, him being a prisoner and me being a lawyer). We walked in a road which was pretty much straight ahead of us as we stared at the bowling green - so we must have walked around the perimeter of the bowling green - or straight through the middle. As we reached the other side of the road, I could see that it was also quite a narrow street, with tall and very aesthetic buildings on both sides, and sycamore trees. I knew it was an 'Avenue' (see Additional Notes, below for an analysis of this) and everything felt very cosy and just positive. It is easier to describe how the environment made me feel rather than try and describe the nature of the environment itself, I was just the happiest I had ever been and felt at one with my location. I have included some images of London areas below which illustrate the general environment I saw in my dream.

As we passed by one of the houses, which was a large Victorian (?) townhouse, had the sash windows open. I could see light inside the house, and I got the impression that the residents there were 'bohemians'. I heard a song playing from inside the house - I am not sure what it sounded like in the dream, because I instantly recognised it as being on Chris Morris' Blue Jam (the radio series of 1997 - 1999, which I listen to everyday because it is so bizarre, disturbing and ambient and perfect background material for creative or relaxing activities, I cannot recommend it enough! The song is also on the TV adaptation, Jam (2000)) - having gone through the radio shows, I discovered that the track I heard in my dream was Moodswings, 'The Great Sound of Letting Go'. I knew that this meant that Chris Morris lived in this house - and I knew he lived with Aphex Twin (Richard James). This made me even more happy to be in this area. 

I cannot recall going to the Solicitor with AJR. It was definitely getting dark at this stage in the dream, as I distinctly remember the fact everything was blue-tinged and the streetlamps were on, and the light in the window of Chris Morris and Richard James' house would suggest it was dark if we follow real life logic. I believe that at this stage I had a brief awakening due to my cleaner coming into my house without ringing the doorbell, but then making just enough noise for me to be disturbed, as I remember thinking 'I didn't hear them come in' and some light banging in the bathroom, which is next to my room. I must have fallen asleep again in a matter of seconds. I went back into my dream.

Scene 3: 'My Dream Town' - Early Morning
I was then coming to the brow of a hill on what appeared to be the same street with AJR. It was early morning, as the sun had just risen. Downhill, it was still the kind of streets you would find just outside a city centre in London. AJR and I were going to a fair, which was a short distance away (I knew this was a traditional kind of 'seaside fair' that I have experienced in my childhood - again there was a feeling of nostalgia in this part of the dream, which was so lovely). We were going to get a taxi to the fair - which we were going to meet at a particular building, just down the hill - I am not sure what kind of building this was, but when we got there (very quickly), it was quite a battered looking building, with a large noticeboard with a lot of 'spiritual' or 'New Age' or 'Hardcore Rave culture' (from the 1980s/1990s) flyers, all overlapping each other, and falling off. They were all different colours, some very psychedelic in appearance - just like the aesthetic I associate with the late 1980s or early 1990s. The building was red brick, and there was a broad-ish doorstep which AJR and I were standing on while waiting for the taxi. I saw a number of cars pass on the street and everything seemed normal. I was now very excited to go to the fair and I knew it would be like re-living a particularly pleasurable experience of going to the fair previously (not sure if this was specifically a dream-generated memory of going to a fair on a hot summer day, or a real life memory of going to a fair in the same circumstances, as it felt quite generic, all I knew was it felt like it occurred in the 1990s, and again had that distinct nostalgic feel, although I cannot recall a concrete memory of which memory this would relate to, or if it is just a generalised pleasurable memory of summer fairs in my childhood). I knew that the fair was near the seaside because I thought that AJR and I could eat fish and chips and ice cream on the promenade and enjoy the seaside as well as the fair.

I woke up before I could finish this dream! I was disturbed again by the noise made by my cleaner, and I tried my hardest to return to this dream, but I just couldn't fall asleep. I visualised the dream, concentrating on it for what seemed like half an hour, before I gave up on attempting to dream-chain, but ti did help to consolidate my dream memory immediately upon waking! This was an amazing dream! I loved it. It made me feel so happy and positive in so many ways I cannot describe, some are so abstract and relate to so many weird personal memories and associations. This dream is much more complex than it appears on the surface and it felt significant.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream, I saw a man on the internet argue/supply statistics to prove pitbulls are a 'child murdering breed'
• On the day of this dream I saw Jenna Marble's dog Kermit, who is a grey Italian Greyhound
• On the day of this dream I had read a Facebook comment where a man had said 2 bats died in his basement and how he had managed to convince a female friend to clean one up for payment, but the smell was so bad she refused to help with the second one, so it was still down there
• On the day of this dream, I had a telephone conversation with AJR where he said we should throw a hand grenade at his personal injury solicitors when he is released from prison
• I often associate sycamore leaves and the word 'avenue' in my conscious mind, although this is one of a number of phenomena I cannot explain - I also associate the word and direction 'left' and the song 'Oranges and Lemons' - note that on getting the Wikipedia link for this song I've known since early childhood, I was reminded about the fact this song is about all the big bells that are located around the city of London, which seems pertinent in the context of this dream! 
• Aphex Twin's music is also featured in Chris Morris work - the example I can point to off the top of my head is 'Windowlicker' (1999). Note that once - I would estimate in about 2002 - 2005, I cannot say for certain, I was in the Chelsea area (or had been, but was walking around casually with my ex-boyfriend SL, who knew the area, and therefore I wasn't paying attention to exactly where we were, but it was West London) - we went into a music/book shop and I saw there was a book about Chris Cunningham (the video director for many Aphex Twin tracks, and the main reason I knew of his work) there - I remember standing in the shop (which was very small and sophisticated and minimalist in keeping with the fancy area) and flicking through that book and discussing it with my ex-boyfriend
• On the day of this dream I saw an Instagram image of a flyer from a party hosted by DJ Kool Herc (The famous 'Back to School Jam' of 1973, which took place at 1520 Sedgwick Avenue) - this event is heralded as being foundational in the promotion of early hip hop in The Bronx. New York). Note that when I went to the Wikipedia page for DJ Kool Herc, I noticed the location of the 'Back to School Jam' - Sedgwick Avenue. The day before this dream - around the time I saw the DJ Kool Herc flyer, I noticed I had been followed by an Edie Sedgwick (1943 - 1971) fan account - I only noticed this coincidence while writing up this dream record, although I would have seen the address of the Back to School Jam on the flyer, although I cannot consciously remember seeing it, or linking it to the fact the Edie Sedgwick account had - or a short while later - had followed me
• On the day of this dream a man on Facebook had written a comment on a discussion thread on a food group, stating that eating fish with tomato ketchup was not acceptable anywhere. I reminded him it is normal to eat ketchup with fish and chips in the UK, even though I prefer tartare sauce, and lemon/vinegar on mine

Dream 1030

'Elsagate Abduction Risk'

Date: 12 August 2019
Scene 1: My Former Childhood Home, Pine Grove, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was in an interior location which strongly resembled my former childhood home in Pine Grove, Sheringham. I was in the kitchen/dining-room area, standing up, leaning against the counter where the microwave used to be. I was on my mobile phone to AJR (who in the dream was in prison). His behaviour was very odd and I felt that he was being distant and problematic, although I am unable to recall what it was about the conversation which was worrying me. My Mum entered the room, wearing a dressing grown and holding an (unrecalled) white object in front of her with both of her hands. She was trying to talk to me, which was distracting as I was on the phone to AJR and was getting frustrated. I sensed my Mum was 'on AJR's side' and she referred to him as 'AJR' (so not his real name, but his initials, as I use on this Blog - I'll disclose here that his first name is indeed 'AJ'). This reference to my dream-related Blog did not act as a dreamsign/trigger for a reality check. I ended the phone call with AJR, feeling unsettled. Shortly thereafter, there was another telephone call with AJR which was also unsettling, although again, I cannot recall why. 

Scene 2: A Bedroom - Day
I was then laying in a bed in a small, barely furnished bedroom, which I do not recognise from real life. I was in a single bed, which was up against a wall. Above me was a skylight and I could tell that it was daytime as I could see the sky was blue. Suddenly I saw someone dressed as Spider-Man appear at the skylight. This terrified me. Spider-man opened the skylight and I could tell he was trying to enter to abduct or attack me. He did not say anything to me, but I knew he was a threat to my safety. I jumped out of the bed and ran down the stairs, which were the stairs in my Nan's house in Sheringham. I ran out of the front door and onto the path alongside the front garden. I could see that Spider-Man was on the pavement outside the house - about to get into a car with about 3 adult dream characters, who were my Nan's neighbours in the dream. I shouted out: 'I know you're Elsagate!' (see below for this reference - this should have been an incredibly strong dreamsign for me, but I just accepted the reality of the dream rather than performing a reality check). My plan was to preemptively attack the Spider-Man, but 'he' turned around and took off his mask. I saw that it was a very young child who closely resembled Elsa from Frozen (2013) - blonde hair in a braid, blue eyes, similar facial features. She had a transparent plastic backpack and I realised this was not the Spider-Man who had been attempting to abduct me, as I was looking for an adult male. This was just my Nan's neighbour's granddaughter who was there for a visit and had dressed as Spider-Man. 

I went down the side alleyway between my Nan's house and her other neighbour, which leads to the porch area, where there is a shed and outside toilet on one side and the kitchen window on the other. I passed by the neighbour's side door/gate and the Alsatian dog they used to have ('Jasper') - which used to always bark and scare me - was there, barking, although I did not feel scared (the neighbours either moved or died and the dog died many, many years ago). Standing in the porch area was the adult male Spider-Man, who removed his mask to reveal he was a young (20s) white male with blonde hair and a normal face.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, I think I woke up at this point due to AJR calling me on my landline phone, as I remember waking up suddenly.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had been watching videos about 'Elsagate' on Youtube - this is a phenomenon which has been exposed over the past few years. It involves a number of children's Youtube channels on Youtube Kids, which have names such as 'Webs and Tiaras' and 'Toy Monster' and 'Toys in Japan' - all very child-friendly names. These channels have countless videos, uploaded in quick succession - usually animated, but sometimes claymation or live action, starring actors (and children). The titles are all word salad and gibberish - but have themes of sex and fetishes, child abuse, abduction, pregnancy, abortion, infidelity, urination, excretion, violence and extreme bodily harm. injections, suicide etc - they feature popular copyrighted characters and other recognisable figures such as Spider-Man and Elsa (the most common coupling), Mickey and Minnie Mouse, Minions, Peppa Pig, Hulk, the Joker, Trump, Hitler, Pewdiepie, in addition to dinosaurs, gorilla angels and skeletons. 'Finger Family' is a discreet subset of these videos, involving repetition of a family-oriented song, sang badly in an Indian accent, and featuring the above listed characters as animated finger puppets. These videos have millions of views and many nonsensical comments which people have suggested are coded messages between paedophiles. The videos manage to bypass Youtube's content safeguards, as they are tagged in a way to circumvent the algorithm. Many children are reported to have been traumatised by Elsagate videos - conspiracy theories have tried to pinpoint the purpose of these videos, suggesting it is a form of brainwashing, to desensitise children to the nightmarish content and normalise child abuse
• On the day of this dream I had watched a number of Youtube videos showing timelapse footage of tarantulas molting/shedding their old outgrown carapace/skin. I also saw videos of crabs/lobsters molting - Sheringham is known for being an area where crabs are caught locally and I thought about this when watching the crustaceans 
• I have been dealing with a case for a client involving him being accused of entering a property through a window (burglary of a dwelling)
• The day before this dream I had watched a Youtube video where Jenna Marbles gave herself a Claire's makeover - which included a children's transparent plastic backpack

Dream 1029

'Chief of Police, Corey Feldman, Social Worker Anakin Skywalker & Foster Parent, Morgz Mum 'Is Here For Your Safety' in 4Chan'

Date: 10 August 2019
Scene 1: A Muddy/Wet Marshland - Day
I was in a large marsh, which was muddy, with pools of water. It was a warm day, but it was not sunny. I am not sure what I was wearing, but I think my legs were bare, as I could see the water on my shins as if I was sinking into the marsh. I was with a male dream character who I do not recall from real life. He was in his 20s and white, with brown hair. He was dressed in casual clothing, but I cannot remember what. I do not know his name (I will refer to him as 'John' for ease of reference), but in the dream we were friends. Being in the marsh did not feel unpleasant or uncomfortable. John said that we had to go, or we would miss our bus. I then became aware that we were supposed to be going to Sudsbury (my 'Dream Town' - see this post for an explanation of the significance of this dream scene location and links to all of my dreams which feature my 'Dream Town' - Dream 998 - 'My Dream Town Becomes Victorian'). This did not trigger me to question if I was dreaming or to perform any kind of reality check, so I missed this as an opportunity to experience lucidity by way of a DILD (Dream-Initiated Lucid Dream). I was very pleased that we were going to Sudsbury and we left the marsh area, walking a short distance (it had appeared that we were in the centre of a massive marsh which stretched as far as the eye could see, but when it came to walking onto the road, it appeared we were actually quite near the edge of the marsh). There was some walking down a road, which had the marsh on one side, and buildings on the other. Looking at the marsh (which was now behind a border hedge), it appeared to look like Bowthorpe Cemetery in Norwich, with gravestones and memorials. I did not question this. I cannot recall what John and I talked about on the walk or if we did in fact have any conversation.

Scene 2: Bus Stop - Day
We arrived at the bus stop and there were a number of dream characters present there, who I perceived as 'workers'. It seemed as if we were in a city now - the bus stop was opposite some grey buildings (tall) of which I did not know the purpose. The bus arrived and it was out of service, which felt frustrating. The driver was a white middle-aged fat man. He leaned over from the drivers cabin and said that he'd let us travel on the bus if we would hire him a sex worker in return. I wanted to refuse this, but John agreed before I could say anything. The driver was smiling in a really creepy way that made me not want to travel on his bus. I cannot recall the bus journey or John arranging for the sex worker. 

Scene 3: 4Chan - Day
John and I were getting off the bus (I cannot remember getting on the bus or the journey, so not sure if the dream transitioned suddenly or if this is due to my recall). I realised we were not in Sudsbury (my 'Dream Town') at all, but another place, which was very provincial and rural. I realised that we were in '4Chan' and that this was an English village which was highly significant - as if it were a capital city, such as London. It seemed like this village was a centre of politics or commerce or something - it was just an important place, although I cannot recall why and there was nothing to suggest this about the environment, which was just fields and detached cottages, with gardens and lots of trees, plants and flowers. It was daytime, because the sun was shining and it felt like a nice summer day. 

John said we had to go and show our documentation at the office, which in the dream seemed to be some form of visa check that needed to be done on our arrival. The 'office' was just on the horizon of my vision, down a dirt road, which is what we were standing on at this point in the dream. The 'office' appeared to be a countryside pub with outside picnic benches and parasol umbrellas. We began walking towards 'the office'. 

When we arrived at 'the office' I could no longer see the outside seating, only the building itself, which still seemed to resemble a countryside pub. It was covered in white stone-cladding and had black wooden doors and window frames. John and I entered via a door on the side of the building, near some bins, rather than the front entrance. 

The inside of 'the office' was dark - and resembled a warehouse or factory. It seemed as if the only bits of 'office' furniture were some leather sofas, which were part of a 'waiting area' and a large desk, which was in the middle of the room. The only other thing I could see were cardboard boxes and a lot of dust. John and I sat down on the sofas and I assume we were waiting for our documentation to be checked. 

I then noticed that there was a doorway in the distance - I could see it had a blue light illuminating it. Via the entrance, I saw Corey Feldman and Anakin Skywalker (Star Wars) enter the room. Both of them were exceptionally tall and dressed in stereotypical 'law enforcement' outfits (could have been police or prison officers) with weird white 'man-bags' made of sparkly material hanging down by their sides. I don't think John and I stood up, because it seemed as if Corey Feldman and Anakin Skywalker were bearing down on us, from above. However, this was not intimidating. Corey Feldman said that he was Chief of Police and that Anakin Skywalker was a Social Worker for the Local Authority. This was supposed to reassure us that we would be safe in 4Chan - or at least this was the impression I got from them telling me this fact. I wondered where we would be staying, as although earlier in the dream, it felt like we were 'going home', now it appeared that we had nowhere to stay. I am not sure if I articulated this concern (I cannot recall me saying anything), but Corey Feldman told me that Anakin Skywalker had arranged for a 'Foster Mother' to look after John and I (who were fully grown adults) in 4Chan. This would be 'Morgz Mum' (Jill Hudson, Youtuber - see below) and we would be staying in her house, which was nearby. 

I cannot recall Anakin Skywalker saying anything during this part of the dream scene - everything was said by Corey Feldman, in his role as Chief of Police.

John and I went to leave 'the office' and from behind me I heard Anakin (I knew it was him, even though I did not look around to check for sure) shout 'The Police and Local Authority IS here for your safety'. I specifically noticed he said the word 'is' instead of 'are' and thought it made him sound unintelligent. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#9, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this not a successful dream incubation
• I recently experienced Dream 1027 - 'Men From My Past & Corey Haim' (8 August 2019) after watching documentaries about Corey Feldman and Corey Haim
• I am exposed to Anakin Skywalker every day, as he is my laptop screensaver
• On the day of this dream I had been watching some videos about 4Chan hoaxes and had explained what 4Chan was to AJR during a telephone conversation
• On the day of this dream I had been watching a Jaackmaate Youtube video, where he discusses fellow Youtuber 'Morgz' (Morgan Hudson) who has one video in which his stepdad  ('Martin') appears, dressed in a very bad 'prison warden' uniform (and an equally bad police uniform) and tells Morgz his punishment for losing at a game will be 'beans and burgers' which has now become a catchphrase on Jaackmaate's channel, as he pointed out how stupid it sounded. Jaackmaate was also joking about 'Morgz Mum' ('Jill') who also makes Youtube videos

Dream 1028

'Carnival Day & Destroyed Art'

Date: 9 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
When I initially woke up, my first thought was that I couldn't recall having a dream - but after a moment of concentration, parts of the dream came back to me and I remembered having it, although the memories were somewhat hazy and unclear and I realised I had forgotten a lot of detail about how the scenes linked together. 

I cannot recall the locations of this dream, other than seeing the outside of a normal residential property from a distance, looking across a long garden, which was elevated at the far side. This reminded me - or gave me the impression - of being in Sheringham, which happens to be where the dream characters - and the carnival in question - are linked to.

The first scene took place in an unfamiliar domestic interior. I was with NN, my long-term friend from Sheringham. We were discussing the forthcoming carnival (I assume this was Sheringham Carnival, which takes place in July, but it might have been the nearby Cromer Carnival - the dream was not clear). I have forgotten a large amount of detail about this part of the dream. NN's mum, RT was involved in this dream scene too. There was something ominous and troubling. Something had happened - all I can describe it as was there was an accusation that 4 pieces of highly valuable modern art (abstract paintings) had been taken from a nearby house, which had some kind of significance, and were thrown in a lake. I am not sure if I was responsible for taking the art and throwing it in the lake, but I did feel worried about it, and wanted to sort the problem out, as in the dream, it had dire consequences (although I cannot recall what they were).

I recall looking across the garden at a house, about 200 meters away. It was behind some hedgerows or trees and it seemed like it was dusk or dawn, as the sky was dark-ish. I knew this was the house where the art had been taken from before being thrown in the lake. I was considering how I could get to this house to sort out the problem with the art.

There was more conversation with NN and her mum, RT - about the forthcoming carnival. NN said that we would be meeting up with a group of men (male dream characters) who we would be going on a date with for carnival. I did not want this to happen, and felt trapped by NN and her mum. There is a niggling thought in the back of my mind that something else happened at this point in the dream which was unpleasant and caused me stress or fear. The entire dream was very negative in tone.

I cannot remember anything else about this dream at present, but I am experiencing significant dream residue (the 'hangover effect' of the dream) and memories of this dream feel like they are 'on the tip of the tongue' (or analous, where the memory is just out of reach, but close enough to be frustrating).

If I recall anything else about this dream I will record it below.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had seen a meme on Facebook about Area 51 - it depicted an alien seducing a man, with a Piet Mondrian (1872 - 1944) painting in the background. I made a comment about the alien being rich because he owned a Mondrian
• It is around the time of the carnivals in Norfolk. In a fairly recent Facebook DMs conversation with NN, she asked if I would be coming down for carnival this year so that we could meet. I said maybe, but did not end up going. Many years ago, when I was a young teenager, an incident took place at Cromer Carnival after I had attended with NN - this has had a lasting impact on my life generally, although I do not want to discuss it on my Blog

Pierre Mondrian, Composition C (1935)

Dream 1027

'Men From My Past & Corey Haim'

Date: 8 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I cannot recall the locations of this dream, although I know that the first scene I recall did take place in an interior location, as I later 'went outside' in Scene 2. The general feeling of this dream is more memorable to me than the action, as I have forgotten a number of details (having waited a few hours after waking up from this long, vivid, detailed dream) - the dream felt stifling and suffocating. There was a sense of frustration and stress throughout, as if I did not want to be involved with everything going on in the dream. 

I was with some dream characters who were based on (or actually were) people I went to high school with in Sheringham. We were revising for an exam, which I felt was pointless, because the revision did not relate to a topic I was currently studying (in the dream I was studying one subject, but the homework related to something else). I was being obstructive and arguing that we should not have to revise a subject which was so irrelevant to our actual studies, but one female dream character (I believe this was JF - a girl I went to school with who wasn't academically successful in any way) was telling me that we had to do the revision. We were writing in notebooks. A teacher then entered the room - which at this point, appeared to be bathed in a blue light. I could see a counter, which resembled a marble-effect kitchen counter. The teacher leaned against the counter. She was a middle-aged woman, tall and very slim, with dark hair tied back and glasses, dressed very formally in dark clothing. Everyone lined up to show her their notebooks. I noticed mine had handwriting in blue biro, but I did not 'read' what was written in the notebook. When it came to my turn to show my notebook/revision notes, the teacher told me that the revision was part of an investigation - we (the students) were involved in the Corey Haim case, I'm not sure of the entire context, but it was a truth-seeking exercise aimed at uncovering some kind of secret information. The teacher explained to me that the revision was very important, and at this point I realised that it was, and I had been wrong to dismiss it. I felt glad I had actually done the work as instructed. The teacher told me that my contributions to the investigation would allow for the world to understand better - I did not know specifically what she was referring to, but my assumption (upon waking and looking back at this) was that she was referring to the Hollywood abuse as I had been watching a documentary which referred to Corey Feldman and Corey Haim and that situation.

There was some interaction with my ex-boyfriend, PS in the early part of this dream, although I am not sure what it was at this point. 

Scene 2: An Exterior Location - Dusk
I was then outside, sitting on some concrete. The sky was darkening, indicating it was dusk. I could see some lush green foliage (trees, bushes, flowers and other plants) surrounding the area of concrete, which might have been a courtyard or patio of some type. The environment/location was very aesthetic. PS approached me again. I noticed he was wearing a blue T-shirt. He sat down opposite me, very close and leaned forward to show me that he was wearing a gold amulet or pendant which was not on a necklace as such, but somehow fixed to his T-shirt. It was about the size of a standard dice. He was annoyed as the gold item had torn through the neckline of his T-shirt and he was blaming me for this, although I had no idea how I was responsible. 

Scene 3: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Time Unknown
I was then at my Nan's house. R3A was present, with another male dream character, who I had a strong feeling of familiarity towards - I am sure that in the dream I was able to recognise him as someone I know in real life. I was pleased to see R3A. We were sitting at the dining table in my Nan's living-room. R3A was sitting next to the other male and I was sitting opposite. I was jealous of the attention that R3A was paying to the male - they were getting on really well and I felt 'punished' in some way. R3A was being nice to me, he was just not paying me any attention which I found odd. R3A and the other male dream character were planning a party. R3A then turned to me and said something (unrecalled) about the gold amulet/pendant PS had been wearing in Scene 2 of this dream. This made me feel worried, as somehow this amulet/pendant was linked to the possibility of a nuclear war, and PS had been blaming me for something to do with it, so I felt like I was responsible for the possible nuclear holocaust. R3A and the dream character male did not seem to be worried about the nuclear holocaust - they continued to talk about the party which was being planned. I felt really anxious, and for some reason I knew I would be unable to contact PS to warn him about the nuclear holocaust and the link to the amulet/pendant.

There was more detail to this dream which I cannot recall, but it is itching my memory - the dream equivalent of saying that something is 'on the tip of the tongue'. If I recall anything else about this dream, I will record it below.

Additional Notes:

• On the day of this dream I had seen an email about revision sessions for undergraduate students who were re-taking exams in Law - I was CC-ed into the email as I was an Associate Tutor teaching these modules during the academic year
• On the day of this dream I had been watching documentaries about Corey Haim (1970 - 2010)
• I cannot recall what dream it was (and cannot be bothered to try and find out in a keyword search because I don't think it's a particularly significant dream), bu recently I made a Youtube video which included a dream scene where R3A was at my Nan's house, and this was recorded as a dreamsign because R3A had never been to my Nan's house (this was a contemporary observation in the Dream Journal report) - here in this current dream, R3A is present in my Nan's house. This - and the potential memory of specifically discussing the fact this exact occurrence should be a dreamsign in a dream - could have been used as a dreamsign and prompt a reality check/lucidity 
• On the day of this dream I had been at work in prison, and had mentioned how many prisoners complain about their clothing being damages and the desire to put in a claim

Dream 1026

'I Don't Want to See All of Those Boobs'

Date: 6 August 2019
Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
I was with a group of dream characters in this dream - I recall that they were all male, and adult. The only one I can describe is a white male, who was in his 30s. He had black hair, swept over to one side, and a beard. He was chubby and slightly taller than me. He looked very normal and average. I cannot recall his name, but in the dream I did not like him at all, and thought that he was quite creepy (not scary-creepy, more like just a bit weird and intense). I was in a room with these male dream characters, but I cannot really remember anything about the room or what was happening, although I do recall feeling suffocated and trapped and not wanting to be there with the dream characters. 

My Nan was present at one point in the dream - she seemed much younger than she is (she is in her late 70s, but looked like she was in her 50s or 60s in this dream). She was wearing a fluffy pink jumper and we were standing in a hallway, talking. I felt like my Nan was manipulating me, although I am unsure exactly how - it was as if she was there to convince me to do something I did not want to do, and my emotional reaction was betrayal. My Nan seemed to be involved somehow with the male dream characters, in a way I did not like. I cannot recall anything else about this part of the dream.

Scene 2: An Exterior Location - Day
I was then outside - it was daytime, although it might have been dawn/dusk, as the sky was quite dark. It was raining. I was standing in what appeared to be a suburban street, as I could see rows of houses (terraced) on either side. I was standing in the road. The male dream character approached me, with a large grin on his face. I felt annoyed that he was there. He came really close to my face - uncomfortably so - and began showing me a large number of photographs, all depicting close-up images of boobs - the majority of them appeared to be breastfeeding women. I did not want to see these images, and felt that the male dream character was harassing me. 

Scene 3: A Kitchen - Time Unknown
I have forgotten large amounts of this dream. I ended up walking into a large kitchen, where there was a big wooden table. I was coming to meet the group of male dream characters, who were either peers studying together, or work colleagues - we had some form of shared task. I did not want to be there. All of the male dream characters were seated on one side of the table, in a row. The harassing male dream character was there, being really loud and distracting. Everyone had notebooks and stationary, but the harassing dream character had a plate of melted cheese, which he was eating with a fork. I was really upset to see him there, because of his obsession with showing me photographs of boobs/breast-feeding women. I knew he was doing it to aggravate me. The harassing male dream character stood up and got the photographs out again, intending to harass me with them further. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I experienced it as a very long and detailed dream. It was vivid in my mind when I woke up, but I did not attempt to record it until much later, which is why my recall is poor.

Additional Notes:

• This dream took place after my launch of the Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiments (see video below for QDI#8, and my introductory article - Quickshot Dream Incubations | QDI#1) - this was a highly successful Quickshot Dream Incubation! This was a partially successful Quickshot Dream Incubation Experiment, as cheese did appear in this dream, although it wasn't specifically Halloumi cheese!
• I did in fact eat Halloumi cheese the night before this dream!
• On the day of this dream I had experienced very sore, swollen boobs - maybe it is PMT, as this is a symptom I experience (although my period is not due for quite some time to the best of my knowledge). My boobs still felt sore when I woke up from this dream
• On the day of this dream I had seen a debate about breast-feeding on a Facebook page
• My Nan had a mastectomy last year