Dream 757

'Bubbles & White Handbags'

Date: 14 January 2017

Time: 20:00 - 06:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: Unknown Interior - Location Unknown
This was a very long and complex dream with bizarre themes and imagery. I know that I have forgotten some of the details of this dream. 

I was in an interior which was quite dark. There were other (unrecalled) dream characters in the room with me. I was sitting at a table with some of them, blowing a stream of bubbles into the air from some kind of bubble-making machine. In the dream, this 'bubble-making machine' represented 'marriage'. The act of blowing bubbles was the act of getting married. This made perfect sense in the dream. There was some discussion between the dream characters and I about the 'marriage'. 

I then saw my stepbrother and his partner. They were expecting another baby. I am not sure if I was looking at them - or images of them - it seemed to be a photoshoot from the way they were on the ground posing and the fact I saw them in a number of different poses, one of which was in an open doorway (the front door of a house). NB (the partner) was wearing a  white T-shirt. Their daughter, MM was with them. 

Scene 2: An Exterior - Day
I was then outside, walking down a pavement which had a road on one side, and a hip-height wall with a chain link fence on top of it on the other side. On the other side of the wall/chain-link fence was a park or some green bushes and grass. I could see residential houses in the distance. It was a sunny day. 

I could see - approximately 50 metres away that I had left a white leather handbag on the wall. I could see 4 young, white male dream characters approaching the bag and I feared that they would steal it. I shouted to them: 'Please leave it!' while running towards the bag. They did not touch it and I was able to retrieve it safely.

I cannot recall what else happened in this dream. 

Extra Information: 

• I took 100mg of Vitamin B6 several hours before I went to bed

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Marriage as a dream theme

Dreamsigns: 

• The bubble machine represented 'marriage'

Day Residue

• On the day of this dream I had seen someone's Facebook 'cover picture' which was an image of bubbles with 'West Ham United' written in them (the football team's anthem is 'I'm Forever Blowing Bubbles')
• On the day of this dream I had seen my stepbrother's partner (NB) tagged into a photograph of their young daughter on one of my friend's Facebook profiles. My Stepbrother and his partner treat my Mum and Stepdad really badly and deny them access to their grandchild out of spite, so I dislike both of them very much for this, especially given my parents helped them out a lot and have never done anything to hurt them
• On the day of this dream I was describing a Youtube video to DL which involved a 'white plastic handbag' which was shaped like a chicken

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure if this dream was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as it seems to be mainly influenced by Day Residue. This was a very bizarre dream, not only because of the Dreamsigns, but also the way it made me feel when I woke up. I felt like I had become involved in something problematic - something which left a bitter memory. I cannot explain what I mean. There was a definite negative emotion linked to recalling this dream - perhaps because it involved my Stepbrother, although previous dreams in which he has appeared have not had the same effect. It may be because I had seen the photographs on Facebook that day and had become angry about the situation with my parents, and this transferred into the dream. 

I have most certainly forgotten considerable details of this dream, but if I recall them later, I will record them below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 756

'Student Union'

Date: 13 January 2017

Time: 06:00 - 11:00  (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: University Campus - Day
I was with my Mum and another (unrecalled) dream character in a cafe/restaurant, which was on my university campus. It is not an actual real life cafe/restaurant, just one in the dream. It was a large space, with small, circular tables and most of the furnishings were blue. There were other dream characters present, just walking around or sitting at tables. 

I was telling my Mum that I wanted to get a 1-day-a-week job on campus to earn extra money as my scholarship comes to an end in April. I was thinking about applying to work in the 'Student Union' (I take this to mean the Bar on my actual campus) and as soon as the idea came into my head, I wanted to do this straightaway. My Mum was being impatient and saying that she would not wait for me to do this, as she wanted to leave. We all got up from the table and I decided  I would go and speak to the 'Manager'. My Mum got to the door and turned around to look at me. She was annoyed that I was going to apply for the job now. 

I walked down a corridor where there were a number of doors leading off - this was the 'Student Union headquarters' (in real life, the SU is actually upstairs from a cafe area, so this reflects the actual layout in my real university, except in the dream, everything was on the ground floor). I stopped outside the right room and pressed a button, which was supposed to alert the 'Manager' to the fact that someone was waiting to speak to them. It was not really a 'doorbell' but it functioned in the same way. There was a screen mounted on the wall beside this 'button'. On the screen it told me that 'the Manager's [it used her actual name which I cannot recall] Facebook is broken, so she can't take appointments'. I then heard a voice from within the room summonsing me in. 

I entered. The Manager was there, sitting at a computer, surrounded by a number (over 10) male dream characters, who were all 'SU officers'. I said I was there to apply for a job and she said that I would have to wait to find out if I was successful. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream, but I think there were more events/actions after this scene.

Extra Information: None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

• The layout of the University building and how I made the appointment with the Student Union 'Manager'

Day Residue

• I had been thinking about getting a part-time job in April
• On the day of this dream I had been discussing the Student Union as a result of an initiative whereby some of the Part-time Officers hope to work alongside my colleagues and I - this has not been a popular development and there was a lot of discussion about it in person and on our Whatsapp group

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure if this dream was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as it seems to be mainly influenced by Day Residue. 

I may have forgotten some aspects of this dream, but if I recall them later, I will record them below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 755

'Hair Dilemmas'

Date: 12 January 2017

Time: 03:45 - 11:00 (I woke up from this dream due to my doorbell ringing)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Day
There was an outside scene (sunny day) beside a wall (knee-height, made of brick) in which I was told that a problematic student (with a brain injury and mental health issues) had not left my university, despite no longer being a registered student there. This meant that I was still responsible for his welfare and I was not happy about this. I cannot recall how this scene resolved itself.

I was then aware that there was something wrong with my hair. I was able to see the back of my head, as if I had detached my hair, like a wig and was able to hold it in my hands. It was as if I was holding my own scalp. The inside of my scalp looked like the rough interior of a barrister's/judge's wig and I could see that there was a large bald patch in my hair where this 'wig interior' could be seen through. I realised my head was 'rotten' or 'mouldy' due to damp. This worried me.

I then saw my reflection in a mirror. I am not sure if I looked like the real life version of myself, as there was nothing 'odd' about the reflection. I styled my hair into a centre parting and was happy with the look as it made my face look a lot slimmer. 

Extra Information: 

• I took 100mg of Vitamin B6 several hours before I went to bed

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Something wrong with my hair

Dreamsigns: 

• I was able to hold my own scalp in my hands
• My scalp looked like a wig

Day Residue

• On the day of this dream I had read an article about a woman who developed a bald patch (alopecia) due to use of dry shampoo. I do not use dry shampoo
• I was once told by a female barrister that she had to get her hair cut due to the back of her hair going mouldy from wearing her wig on top of damp hair. Many barristers claim that frequent wearing of wigs can cause alopecia, and this is a thought which has always worried me

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure if this dream was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, as it seems to be mainly influenced by Day Residue. 

I may have forgotten some aspects of this dream, but if I recall them later, I will record them below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 754

'Charity Work & House Parties with Bae'

Date: 9 January 2017

Time: 07:00 - 15:00 (I woke up from this dream due to my phone ringing)

Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Guesthouse (in Norfolk) - Day
I was in some kind of guesthouse getting ready for a house party. There were a number of other dream character guests there, one of whom I was very excited to see was Ewan McGregor. Ewan did not seem to be interested in me at all - he was very cool and aloof. I wished that his room in the guesthouse was closer to my own (his was round a corner of the corridor/hallways, which was dimly-lit with a yellow light). I wanted to see if I could arrange for him to have the adjoining room to mine. The beds in each room were bunkbeds, but I cannot recall any other furniture/features of the rooms. The party was due to start at night, so I decided that I would get involved in some charity work beforehand, so I had something to talk to Ewan about, and hopefully impress him with my compassion.

I went into a different room, which reminded me of my Nan's livingroom. I was sorting through my makeup collection, with the aim of donating it to some orphans who were in a local children's home just around the corner. I separated out the best cosmetics to keep for myself - this included a large palette of gold and bronze glitter eyeshadows. 

I then made a number of hotdogs - in round burger buns instead of the ones you would use for hotdogs. I made about 6 of these and wrapped them in tinfoil (aluminium foil) and then went to deliver them to the orphans at the children's home, along with the items of makeup. The children's home looked like a regular suburban house with a gate and a front garden with a path and some bushes. The door was answered by the manager, who was a middle-aged white woman. I stood at the front door and spoke to her (I cannot recall what was said) and she accepted the donated items from me. It seemed like it was dusk as it was getting darker and it had been raining.

I returned to the guesthouse, where Ewan and the other dream characters were sitting in a lounge area, having drinks. I joined them and waited for Ewan to pay me some attention, but he wasn't really talking to anyone, just sitting there, lost in his own thoughts, drinking a clear drink. I thought that once the party started and he got drunk (Ewan is a former alcoholic, so I am not sure if he drinks alcohol or not anymore) he might loosen up and I could then engage with him. It felt like I was 'playing the long game'. 

I went into my bedroom for a moment and was followed by 2 dream character guests (I cannot recall who they were). We started discussing how Norfolk (the county I live in, which was also the county in which we were located in the dream) had separated itself from the rest of the UK and built a huge gasworks. The Norfolk council (local government) was now going to enter into negotiations with terrorists. This worried me and I wondered what would happen. This scene continued for a while, but I cannot recall much about it.

Scene 2: A City High Street - Day
I then found myself standing beside a bench in the middle of a pedestrianised area of a city - it was not my local city, it just looked like a very generic shopping high street in the UK. It was a very sunny day - so markedly different from the earlier scene which seemed to transition into dusk. From an incredibly short distance from the concrete ground, I dropped my mobile phone. It must have been only a couple of centimetres, but I was dismayed to find that my phone screen shattered. I then noticed I was with about 3 - 4 dream characters, including an old school friend from my local area, CW (one of a set of twins, now a police officer). I asked how much it would cost to fix my phone, because I wanted this to be done immediately. None of the dream characters knew. I wanted to replace the glass screen and wondered how I could do this. No-one had answers for me. I then asked how long a mobile phone contract ran for, before you could upgrade a phone for free. CW said: '24 months' just as I was hoping she would say '12 months' (which is roughly the period of time I have had this phone contract). I was not happy to hear this. The other dream characters present confirmed this. 

There was some kind of shift in the dream - I was back at the guesthouse and was preparing more hotdog-burgers to deliver to the orphans in the children's home. I could see I was in the kitchen of the guesthouse, which looked like a commercial kitchen and another dream character who worked there (another middle-aged white woman) was standing beside me, talking to me.

There was another shift and I was back in the city centre - in exactly the same scenario as described at the start of this scene. Basically, this dream scene was repeating itself, replaying. I dropped my phone and was relieved to see the screen did not break this time. I was aware I had already experienced this scene a short while before, with a different outcome, but was not lucid (i.e. consciously aware this was taking place in a dream).

I then found myself back at the guesthouse, aware that some time had passed. I felt very tired from all of my charitable endeavours involving the orphaned children and just wanted to relax and talk to Ewan.

I think there may have been more scenes/details involved in this dream. as it seemed to last for a very long time. However, because I was woken up by my phone ringing. I might have forgotten some of the details. If I recall anything else, I will record it below, in the usual way.

Extra Information: 

• I took 100mg of Vitamin B6 several hours before I went to bed

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Ewan McGregor as a dream character staying in the same location as me
• A gathering/party
• A broken electronic device

Dreamsigns: 

• I was going to attend a house party with Ewan McGregor
• Norfolk (a county) was in negotiations with terrorists
• A scene repeated itself with a different outcome
• Day turned to dusk and then back to day and the weather went from rainy to sunny

Day Residue

• On the day of this dream I had been thinking about Ewan McGregor after seeing some pictures of him online - he is involved in charity/humanitarian work with UNICEF UK, and specifically in relation to children. On the day of this dream I had mentioned to a Facebook friend about how I have tweeted Ewan with my dreams in which he appears, but instead of telling him about how sexy I think he is, I should have mentioned (at least, initially) that I am a human rights lawyer who respects his continued valuable contribution to humanitarian and philanthropic causes
• On the day of this dream I had been watching makeup tutorials on Youtube
• On the day of this dream I had seen a tweet by Chrissy Teigen where she debated whether hotdogs were a sandwich or not 
• Terrorism is constantly in the news
• On the day of this dream news broke about a siege at a bookmakers in Jarrow, where a man armed with a sawn-off shotgun took 4 people hostage. The defendant was tasered and arrested and all hostages were safe. I had read a comment on Facebook where someone (I cannot recall who) had said that there had been 'no negotiations' with the armed man
• On the day of this dream I had been watching Youtube videos about the universe - several of which were about 'gas giant' planets

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure if this dream was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but clearly, I would LOVE to meet and spend time with Ewan McGregor. However, this is a conscious desire/wish, not necessarily a subconscious one. In fact, his continued appearance in my dreams seems to be as a result of Day Residue. I think that I may have been engaging in the charity work with the orphans in this dream because I was trying to 'win him over' or make him see me in a positive light, rather than someone merely sexually obsessed with him. 

I found this dream so bizarre, because scenes repeated themselves - and in Scene 2, I was able to experience a replay of the scene in the city centre, with a different, more preferable outcome. I was aware that I had experienced the same set of events twice, but not consciously aware that this was a dream (i.e. not lucid). 

The passage of time in this dream was also odd, as it seemed to happen in 'real-time' - i.e. as if it was waking reality and things were happening at a normal, realistic speed.

The fact I have had a couple of very detailed, vivid and enjoyable dreams in recent days may be due to my use of Vitamin B6 which is known to have a significant affect on vividness, content and dream recall.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 753

'Holidaying with Boys'

Date: 8 January 2017

Time: 06:45 - 11:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)

Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Holiday Resort, Location Unknown - Day
I was on a holiday in a sunny resort with 2 male friends, both of whom I know in real life and online (one from my local area and one known through shared interests and mutual friends). Both males have the same first name, and I will refer to them as TB (whose family is from my local area) and TC (known through mutual friends). The resort was very nice and there was some action involving us exploring and walking around. I realised that TB and TC both wanted to have threeway sex with me, and I was not against the idea happening. I left them temporarily and when I returned, they had been joined by a group of blonde females in an area which resembled a sailing boat, but which was in fact just a seating area outside in the resort. I felt jealous, as these female dream characters (wearing bikinis) were taking the attention away from me. I noticed that TC was dressed as a drag queen and I thought this was funny, because he hadn't done his makeup well, was wearing old-fashioned clothes and had a very bad wig. 

I then went into the bar which was in the resort - it looked like a traditional British pub and resembled (to an extent) The Crown, Sheringham. I was required to work for a while as a waitress, so I was walking around and serving drinks (mainly Cokes) and sandwiches - to the customers who were seated in this large area, which was separated into 2 dimly-lit lounges. While I was behind the bar, I realised that my Mum was also working here. I was soon bored of serving customers and I wondered if I could leave the job and return to TB and TC who were still outside. 

I saw one particular male dream character seated on a sofa, with other dream characters sitting nearby. At first I thought he was a friend and former colleague, CMC, who is Irish. I spoke to this dream character and as he turned his head towards me, I saw he was not CMC - he just had similar dark hair and a full beard. He was however, also Irish. He said: 'I know you!' and I wasn't quite sure how we did know each other, although in the dream he appeared to be quite familiar to me. He said: 'We met at football'. It felt like I was 'guessing' when I replied: 'Hibs?' and he said: 'Yes, Hibernian' - clarifying this was in fact how we knew each other.

I was - at some point in the dream - beside a bed, on which my laptop was placed. I tried to lift up my laptop and it made a weird noise. I then saw that the screen was falling off from the keyboard, which really worried me, as all of my academic work was stored there. A friend (from Facebook, but also someone I have met in real life), TT - his last name is the same as TB and TC's first name - was present. I wondered if my friend (a computer specialist), DC could fix it for me. 

I was then sat at a table in the bar. I had a bowl full of cubes of butternut squash in front of me. In the dream, the butternut squash was cannabis. A number of male dream characters (3 - 4) joined me at the table. I did not know them - they were other guests at the holiday resort. They said they would 'look after' the 'cannabis' for me, but I knew they would just steal/smoke it themselves. I said I had to go and find R3A, who I had just realised was also at the resort. I was also wondering if I could leave TB and TC alone for a while so I could spend time with R3A. The dream characters told me to leave the 'cannabis' with them for safekeeping. I stood up, ready to walk away and said: 'No, I'm taking it so I can swap it for a smaller amount of better quality cannabis'. This was an excuse to get away from them. 

I walked around the corner and saw R3A was sitting with a number of dream character guests at a small, round table in another part of the bar. We were pleased to see each other and we had some conversation, but I cannot recall much about this aspect of the dream, as it was right before I woke up.

Extra Information: 

• I took 100mg of Vitamin B6 several hours before I went to bed

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Threeway sex
• An Irish dream character
• My Mum as a dream character
• R3A as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

• I was on holiday with TB and TC and anticipating threeway sex with them
• I had met a random dream character at a (part) Hibernian FC match, despite me not being a football fan or likely to go to a match
• Butternut squash was cannabis

Day Residue

• On the day of this dream I had been harassed by an older man on my Facebook, who is an avid Hibernian supporter (he is Scottish). In Trainspotting (novel by Irvine Welsh, 1993; movie starring Ewan McGregor, 1996), the main character, Mark Renton (McGregor) is a Hibs supporter
• On the day of this dream I had seen my friend DC write online comments about breaking a couple of his previous laptops
• On the day of this dream I had watched an episode of one of Nigella Lawson's cookery shows - where she made a dish using butternut squash
• R3A phoned me on the day of this dream and we had a conversation

Waking Reactions: 

I am not sure if this dream was related to my Dream Incubation Experiment, but it was a very enjoyable dream. It was so nice to be at the sunny holiday resort and I was enjoying the company of TB and TC - and then R3A. 

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 752

'Shark?'

Date: 7 January 2017

Time: 03:30 - 11:00 (I woke up from this dream due to notifications on my phone)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Very weak recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Time Unknown
This dream was very vivid and detailed when I was dreaming it, but unfortunately, I was woken up by notifications on my phone, meaning that I forgot the dream almost immediately upon waking, because I did not record it. All day I have had nagging thoughts about the dream - if you are familiar with the phrase 'on the tip of my tongue' referring to something forgotten which is just out of reach of memory, this is how my dream memory feels in relation to this particular dream. I will record the minimal details I can recall from this dream and hope that more resurface later, so that I can record it more fully. 

• There was some kind of task - this involved something happening, and then returning back to a place from the earlier part of the dream. I recall feeling annoyed/burdened by the task and not wanting to do it, but being under an obligation
• There was a male dream character - I knew him in the dream, or had been introduced to him in the dream - but I do not think it is someone known to me in waking reality
• I think family members were involved in this dream - my Mum and my Nan?
• There was a cake involved
• There was a shark involved
• There was space/aliens involved

Extra Information: 

I took 100mg of Vitamin B6 several hours before I went to bed

I did 2 hours of heavy weightlifting exercise several hours before bed

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• My Mum and Nan as dream characters

Dreamsigns: 

• Sharks and aliens

Day Residue

• The day before this dream I had started compiling an alphabetical list for the interpretation of dream symbols - I had written up 'abduction' and when searching for an appropriate illustrative image had found several relating to alien abduction
• I had read a speculative online article which claimed that the majority of people who believe they have been abducted by aliens  have the blood type Rhesus Negative and went so far as to claim that those with this blood type may have descended from aliens
• On the day before this dream I saw an online article about someone who was attacked by a shark after using an anti-shark bite device of some kind
• On the day before this dream I had seen an online photograph of shark attack survivor Bethany Hamilton

Waking Reactions: 
I know I have forgotten the majority of this dream, but if I recall anything further, I will record it below. I am therefore unable to say whether the content seems relevant to my Dream Incubation Experiment.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 751

'Usurping Racist Police Chiefs'

Date: 6 January 2017

Time: 07:30 - 13:00 (I woke up from this dream due to an alarm)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Fair (External Location) - Day
I have forgotten some of the details of this dream, but I clearly recall the narrative events. The parts of the dream I have forgotten involve conversations with dream characters and the precise identities of some of the dream characters, who were based on people I know in waking reality. This dream seemed a lot more complex while I was dreaming it and seemed to continue for quite a while (i.e. it was a long dream). 

I was at some kind of outside fair - there were some 'inside' areas (i.e. buildings) as well, but I am not sure of the location or what kind of fair this was. I was with my Mum and my friend, CEC amongst other dream characters. 

There was a Chief of Police at the fair - I think he was the spokesperson. He was a middle-aged white male in a police uniform and a stage had been set up for him and other police officers to speak to the crowd/audience who were present at the fair.

The Chief of Police was accompanied by a young male who looked exactly like Adam Driver's character, Kylo Ren from Star Wars: Episode VII - The Force Awakens (2015). I cannot recall his name in the dream, but I really liked him and thought that he was 'on my side' whereas the police were 'against me'. 

The Chief of Police got on stage - there was a band behind him. and other police officers on the stage, which had a lot of microphones arranged for speakers. The Chief of Police started to make racist statements to the crowd, blaming immigrants and asylum seekers for the problems in the UK. I was angry. I took to the stage and went up to a microphone which was positioned at the front edge of the stage. I started to make an anti-racist speech, during which I referred to the fact that the UK is made better by immigrants who bring their skills and ambitions to study and work here, and enrich our diverse culture. I used the word 'pinnacle' during my speech, although I cannot recall what context I said this in. The crowd was applauding me, although there was also some hostility from certain groups in the audience who disagreed with my views. 

I got off the stage and went to speak to the Kylo Ren dream character, asking him to come with me somewhere. He was hesitant as he said that he had to stay with the Chief of Police (who may have been his father or other family member, I cannot recall). I was hugging him while he leaned against a wall in a small building on the site. The Chief of Police was walking around, and although he was annoyed at me for invading the stage and speaking out against him, he wasn't being particularly hostile to me.

I know there was much more detail to this dream, but I cannot recall it.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• An actor involved in the Star Wars franchise as a dream character
• My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

• I was at a fair held by a racist Chief of Police

Day Residue

• The day before this dream I had been writing about my Ewan McGregor dreams
• On the day before this dream, I had been laughing at memes posted on the Facebook page dedicated to 'Sith-Posting' ('shitposting')
• On the day of this dream I had read a shocking Daily Mail article by the heinous, ugly-minded and ignorant bigot, Katie Hopkins, who was making racist statements and criticising Lily Allen for her leftwing remarks about the immigration problem - she also referred to incidents where Allen had been photographed in a state after consuming alcohol and drugs at Notting Hill Carnival last summer. In the comments below the article, some readers (conservative) had also criticised Ewan McGregor's charity work
• On the day of this dream I had a debate about free speech in the comments section of a story about Ellen DeGeneres (and Pharrell Williams) following revelation that Ellen had banned American gospel singer Kim Burrell from her show due to homophobic statements made by Burrell

Waking Reactions: 
This dream seems to be based on Day Residue rather than my Dream Incubation Experiment. It was quite an interesting dream, although I am not sure how much it reflects my subconscious desires or wishes. It most certainly reflects my hatred of racism and hate speech and perhaps, also my distrust for the police or other state authority figures. 

I know I have forgotten large amounts of this dream, but if I recall anything further, I will record it below.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Dream 750 (WILD TECHNIQUE - 2 LUCID DREAMS) (NSFW - ADULT CONTENT)

'Another Ewan McGregor Wet Dream (My Favourite Dream Fantasy)'

Date: 3 January 2017

Time: 23:00 - 07:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: 2 x WILD (Wake-Initiated Lucid Dream)/Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

This is how I achieved the WILD (Wake-Initiated Lucid Dream). I went to bed physically and mentally exhausted after a long busy day. I was not sleep deprived from the night before. A few hours before bed I ate some toast and some vegetables and gravy, but no vitamins or supplements. I did some physical exercise before bed. 

My room was completely dark, with no light/sound distractions. I laid in my bed, on my back and relaxed all my muscles, letting them feel loose. My arms were by my side and my legs were slightly apart, so none of my limbs were touching my body. I used deep, circular 'yoga' breathing (inhale through the nose/exhale through the mouth), keeping the rhythm regular and slow. To achieve the mind awake/body asleep paradox, I tried not to think about my body or be aware of it, remaining completely still. I began to meditate to keep my mind awake, using Paul Tholey's combined techniques of Intention and Auto-suggestion to focus my mind on the notion of having a successful lucid dream. 

I began to feel sleep paralysis set in - my body was rocking very slightly and falling backwards (it felt like I was on a boat gliding over gentle waves). My body began to 'vibrate' or buzz. Strangely (for me) I experienced a small amount of visual hypnagogia during the onset of sleep paralysis, which I estimate began after about 5 minutes or so of my relaxation and meditation - very quickly, which was a surprise to me as I often have to wait for +10 minutes or so. The hypnagogia was in the form of floating white faces - like skulls, but quite indistinct. As soon as I felt the 'roll over signal' (step 3 of the 'Stop, Drop & Roll Technique', which is used for WILD) become unbearable (the desire to roll over into a comfortable position and sleep), I turned onto my left side and fell asleep, immediately entering the first lucid dream.

WILD #1
I was immediately transitioned into a lucid dream, with no lapse in consciousness - it seemed that as soon as I rolled over and fell asleep that I was outside my house, on the field next to the lake. It was dark and the grass was wet. As there had been no lapse in consciousness, I did not need to perform a reality check - it was obvious that this was a lucid dream.

I was outside - and like the last WILD lucid dream (see: Dream 744: 'Obi-Wan Kenobi's (i.e. Ewan McGregor's) Glorious Lightsaber' - WILD Lucid Sex Dream) it was night and had been raining. I was walking down a dark path, trying to find some sign of life, as it appeared that I was alone. The path I was walking on was a dirt path - I could see the gravel and mud. On either side of me were trees/bushes. There were no buildings as far as I could see. 

On my right side, I could see that the path was on a hill and I was looking downwards at what appeared to be a park. There were some wooden benches and other items symbolising a public space and I could see a number of - not yet recognised - dream characters in this area. One was a white male sitting on one of the benches, by himself. I decided to call out 'Ewan!' to hopefully make this character become Ewan McGregor. This dream character male did not respond, but I kept shouting 'EWAN!' hopeful that I could make him appear in my lucid dream. All the time, I was walking down the hill towards the little park area. I then saw that it was surrounded by a hedge that I had to climb over to enter, as there was no 'gap' or other form of entrance. As I kept shouting 'EWAN!' and getting no response, I was about to try and transition into a different dream scene location as I was losing hope that I could have an interesting lucid dream in this environment. However, at that moment, I saw Ewan McGregor running towards me. He was wearing a white T-shirt and grey tracksuit bottoms (one of my favourite clothing items on a man!) and his hair was wet from the rain. He seemed slightly annoyed that I had not seen him sooner, as it seemed that he had also been looking for me in this area. He grabbed me and pulled me over the hedge, lifting me up, so that my legs were wrapped around his waist. He was very strong. He sat me on top of a bin (trash can) and kissed me deeply on the lips, with tongues. I began to feel very sexually aroused at this point - my clitoris was stimulated. I began to feel too excited, and because I had not stabilised my lucid dream, it began to fade away. I am not sure if my eyes were open or closed when I was kissing Ewan, but I felt my body began to lose feeling and I thought I was waking up.

I did not wake up - I entered a normal, non-lucid dream, with no memory of the fact I had just experienced a lucid dream. The normal, non-lucid dream felt like reality. 

Scene 2: A Bedroom, Location Unknown - Night
I was then in a large bedroom with Ewan McGregor and another male dream character. It did not feel as if Ewan and I had ever been intimate and in this normal, non-lucid dream he was my friend, but did not seem particularly happy with me. I think it was because I was distracting him and the other male dream character (I cannot recall who it was - but I think it was someone known to me in waking reality) from getting to sleep. I was sleeping in a large double bed against the wall and the male dream character and Ewan were sleeping on the floor, with pillows and sleeping bags. Ewan was sleeping at the foot of my bed. 

The male dream character left the room to go and get a drink of water. The door was to my right side. Ewan was sat up on the floor. I started talking to him, and decided that we should have sex while the other male was out of the room. I was trying to convince Ewan to get into the double-bed with me, but he was hesitant, telling me that the other male was coming back into the room soon and would see us. The room was very dark throughout this entire scene. I cannot recall what else happened, but Ewan never got into the bed with me and did not seem willing to become intimate in any way. 

Scene 3: A Public Space/Hall - Time Unknown
I was then in a large public space - it was an interior. Like a large hall or community centre. The ceiling was very high and the area was light - although I could not see any windows or doors. The only thing I could see in this area was a stall, which was set up in the middle of the floor with some items on it - maybe brochures or leaflets (I cannot quite recall). The stall was being run by TV comedians of the 1980s/1990s, Hale and Pace - Gareth Hale and Norman Pace). There was some conversation (unrecalled) between us, while we were standing in front of the stall. I then heard a voice-over/tannoy say: 'The 2016 Best Comedy Act Goes to...Hale and Pace!' This surprised me - even in the dream - as they have not been active on mainstream TV since my early childhood (as far as I am aware). I said (to no-one in particular, it seemed): 'BL (my friend/colleague) looks like Hale' (he does not, other than being a white male with brown hair). One of Hale and Pace (I should add here that I do not know which is which in real life, so in the dream, it was whichever one answered to the name of 'Hale') then became BL - who was running around the hall excitedly in circles.

I left the hall and walked down some steps. These steps were concrete, with railings separating them into 2 sets. They were outside, leading down to an interior space, which reminded me of a train station or some other public transport place, with glass walls/windows, so you could see inside while walking down the stairs. I was with PS, my ex-boyfriend - through the glass windows, we could see his mum, CAS and his younger sister, JGH. CAS was using a payphone and JGH was standing nearby. PS and I were still on the steps when one of the Security Officers from my university, wearing his hi-vis yellow jacket, ran up the other set of steps. He stopped when he came level with us on the way down the other steps, he leant over the railing and told me that a student - CW - needed urgent help from me (in my student welfare role) - something to do with a pair of trainers. 

I continued to walk down the steps with PS - seeing other dream characters along the way. We entered through some automatic glass doors, and approached CAS and JGH. CAS was stressed and after she stopped using the payphone, informed us that her telephone had been disconnected because she had failed to pay her phone bill. She then walked round the corner, out of sight. JGH explained to PS and I that the phone bill had been massive because CAS had made a lot of calls relating to some budgies/canaries which she owned. I looked round the corner, and saw that there was a small sectioned off area, made of stainless steel. CAS was standing in this metal sectioned off area, with a number of budgies/canaries in birdcages. 

I then woke up. I felt extremely tired and almost dizzy - I was aware of slight sleep paralysis as my body felt like it was floating. I decided that I would try to initiate another lucid dream using the WILD Technique, as I felt that I was in the right state for this to be successful.

WILD #2
I found myself in a dark bedroom, in the top bunk of a single bunkbed, with 2 males. I was extremely happy to note that one of them was Ewan McGregor. The other dream character was an Irish male (not known to me in real life - in the dream, he was Ewan's friend). Ewan asked me if I wanted a threeway with him and the Irish guy, and I agreed (as I have never had one in real life, and I thought agreeing might lead to sex with Ewan). I started by giving oral sex (blow job) to the Irish guy first. It did not turn me on. Ewan was sitting up, watching this and masturbating. The Irish guy's penis was short, with no girth and bent at a 45 degree angle and I was not aroused. I stopped before he ejaculated (so I did not finish) and asked him to move, so that I could perform oral sex on Ewan instead. They swapped places and I lost awareness of what the Irish guy was doing - it was like he was no longer there as soon as I turned my attention to Ewan, the object of my desire. Ewan had the largest penis I have ever experienced - it was long and had a massive amount of girth. I could not fit it all in my mouth, no matter how much I tried. I was very turned on and wanted to proceed to full sex with him, as he was super-hard and ready for action. However, I felt the lucid dream begin to fade. In order to try and stabilise the dream so that I could have sex with Ewan, I tried to run my hands on my thighs (this is a common lucid dream stabilising technique I use with great success). However, for some reason, I could not find/feel my thighs no matter how much I tried. It was like my hands were hitting empty duvet and there was no substance to my body. 

I woke up in my bed - fully awake, no sleep paralysis. I felt refreshed and got up.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• A lucid dream (WILD) starting at night, outside in rainy weather
• PS as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 

• I was at a sleepover with Ewan McGregor
• I was with Hale and Pace - who had won a contemporary comedy award, despite being out of mainstream popularity for many years
• I was with PS - and the events of this scene were clear dreamsigns

Day Residue: 

• A couple of days before this dream I had mentioned to work colleagues how BL reminded me of a particular movie character
• On the day of this dream a Facebook friend who has the last name 'Hale' interacted with me on one of my statuses
• For my thesis I have to analyse judicial reasoning in conflicting human rights cases - I am constantly studying the judgments of Baroness Hale
• On the day of this dream my colleague/flatmate and I were informed of a potential issue regarding a student, who I will refer to as CW

Waking Reactions: 
It was amazing to be able to really use the WILD Technique so successfully again, given how difficult it is to master (described as the 'holy grail' of lucid dream induction techniques). I feel like my confidence and ability is growing on each occasion I am able to practice and experiment. There is not much I can say about how this dream relates to my Dream Incubation Experiment, given that this was largely a lucid dream and therefore, determined by my conscious mind as opposed to being the product of my subconscious. Much of the normal, non-lucid (therefore, subconscious) elements of my dream seem to be influenced heavily by Day Residue rather than 'wishes' or 'desires'.

In respect of the lucid elements of this dream, I am often told that it is a 'waste' of a lucid dream to concentrate on having sex with lucid dream characters, by other lucid dreamers who are part of the online lucid dreaming community. I am not sure why they are of this view - maybe they are not very successful at having lucid dreams, so as they rarely have them, feel that they can be better used for other experiences. However, I don't see my own lucid dreaming in such a limited way. There is always the opportunity to have another lucid dream in future - they are not in short supply. Actually, for me - being celibate, or more to the point, going through a prolonged sexual dry spell - having a sexual experience with a dream character is incredibly fulfilling - more so than mere waking masturbation. I like to have sexual fantasies and lucid dreams are the best way for me to enjoy this aspect of my sexuality. The fact I am returning to the same celebrity dream character (and therefore, repeating the same lucid experience rather than trying to create a new one) is symptomatic of the fact that it was such an intensely, extraordinarily satisfying experience that I want more. To me, safe, sexual fulfilment, intimate time with the Ewan McGregor dream character - someone I will never meet in real life - and an orgasm is never a waste of my lucidity. 

Additionally, it is very helpful for me to use these incredibly exciting, stimulating dreams as a way of practicing my ability to stabilise a dream and remain lucid - often these kinds of intense lucid experiences can cause us to wake prematurely. 

I am extremely happy with my recent lucid experiences!

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment:

Here is a Youtube video I made describing the WILD Technique (and providing a basic tutorial) and also my earlier Ewan McGregor lucid 'wet dream' sex:

Dreams 746 - 749

I haven't updated my Blog in a while due to it being the festive season, meaning I was more busy than usual. I have decided to make a single post with all my outstanding dreams recorded on it, then I will return to my usual 1 dream per post routine.

Dream 746

'Bad Father'

Date: 26 December 2016

Time: 00:30 - 09:00 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: Sheringham, Day
I was pregnant - wearing a very thick, knitted grey dress. I was aware that the father of the baby was SW (a friend from Sheringham), but he was denying it. I was annoyed and went to see him at his place of work (a shop in the High Street), planning to argue with him. 

I cannot recall what happened after that, but the baby was now born and was a boy. SW was still denying he was the father, but everyone else (I cannot recall who these dream characters were) accepted that I was telling the truth. I went to SW's workplace again, but he was refusing to discuss the issue with me, leaving me really frustrated and angry. 

There was a male dream character called 'Dashiel' or 'Dashielle' - he may have been my son, older now (a child), but I cannot recall.

Scene 2: A Canteen - Time Unknown
I was then in a food canteen with a number of dream characters. There was some discussion which I cannot recall. In the canteen, which was mainly white in colour, there was a large glass hot cabinet in which platters of huge, marinated king prawns were placed for guests to help themselves. I started eating the prawns which were delicious - and in a sticky orange, spicy marinade. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Becoming a mother
• Sheringham as a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 

• I must have had sex with SW

Day Residue: 

• The day before this dream I had been talking about SW with my Mum
• 2 days before this dream I had gone into SW's workplace with my Mum and Nan (while in Sheringham)

Waking Reactions: 
This dream seems to be based on Day Residue rather than my Dream Incubation Experiment. I have forgotten many aspects of this dream as my notes were quite vague (keywords) and there was a lapse of time between the dream and recording it.

Dream 747

'Everyone Abandons Me'

Date: 29 December 2016

Time: 23:00 - 07:40 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior, Location Unknown - Time Unknown
PS and DL were a composite dream character. During the dream I at first thought it was 1 of them, then the other - and their identities were alternating, but on reflection, there were clues that the male in the dream was made up of both. PSDL was standing topless in a room in front of an open wardrobe/closet (I think it was a bedroom of an unfamiliar house, which felt like my home in the dream). He was telling me that he was never going to talk to me or see me again and I was angry and questioning why. 

I then found out that R3A had deleted me from Facebook and was never going to speak to me ever again, which made me angry and frustrated for a second time in the same dream. I was aware that there was 1 particular female who was responsible for turning all my exes/male friends against me. In the dream, this female was a blonde-haired dream character who was also quite fat. I was trying to find a way of contacting R3A, but there was no way. I felt sad.

Someone (a male dream character, I cannot recall who) then showed me a message from him on a phone - it was written in binary, so was something like this: '00011000 0010011110011 1101101 100010110110110111101'. I said: 'Oh it's in Doodlebug'. In the dream, 'doodlebug' meant binary - and the dream character who had showed me the message on their phone (an old Nokia) knew what I was talking about. I cannot recall what the message from R3A said, but I could actually read it in the dream.

I then realised that my former housemate, SH, was responsible for turning the men in my life against me. I found her standing against a bar in a pub; pinned her down on the ground forcefully without saying anything to her; and shot her in the face/neck with a tiny (about the size of a lighter) gun (a .22 type revolver). This made me feel victorious and happy.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Being abandoned by men
• PS & R3A as dream characters
• Feeling of anger and frustration

Dreamsigns: 

• PS & DL were a composite dream character
• A female was turning all the men in my life against me
• I could read binary (or 'doodlebug')
• I shot my former housemate with a miniature gun

Day Residue: 

• My Nan asked me about PS a few days before this dream

Waking Reactions: 
This dream seems to be based on Day Residue rather than my Dream Incubation Experiment. I have forgotten many aspects of this dream, but what seems clear is the fact that I am worried about being abandoned by those closest to me - who happen to be male. I am already no longer in contact with PS - and it seems I fear losing contact with DL and R3A as well. This dream, like the one immediately preceding it, was characterised by feelings of anger and frustration. I do not feel angry or frustrated in my waking reality.

Dream 748

'A Terrible Loss'

Date: 30 December 2016

Time: 23:45 - 13:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior, Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I found out - via contact with PS - that N the Dog was dead. I did not find out immediately - PS told me some time after it happened. I was so annoyed that he bothered to tell me this after a very long time of no contact. I thought he should have not contacted me with the sad news and save me from being upset. I saw some kind of update online about N - although PS had referred to him with an incorrect (yet similar) name on the post, which I was reading on a large computer screen. It seemed to be some kind of invitation. I think the fact N died was communicated to me via the internet/phone, but then I became aware that PS was actually in the same room as me - and I could see the computer was there, with the invitation post by PS still on the screen at the same time. I think we were in a bedroom, but I cannot be sure as I did not recall the particular furniture/decor. It was definitely a domestic interior, however and it was at this point I became aware that I was inside a house specifically. 

PS then said he wanted to get back together with me. I was annoyed that he waited until N had died to say this - because that meant I had not been able to see him for many years. PS was saying that he had been in another relationship and now that was over, he was single. This did not make me happy. 

I was then drinking some orange juice from a carton. It tasted delicious. When I was finished, I opened the carton up fully, to see inside. I started eating some orange mush which was collected in the bottom - this tasted like orange too. As I poked around in the bottom with the straw I had used to drink the juice, I realised this 'mush' was pureed parsnip, brussel sprouts and empty sweet wrappers. Realising this made me feel sick.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 

None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• PS as a dream character
• A sad dream about N the Dog

Dreamsigns: 

• PS wanted to get back together with me
• The items in the bottom of the orange juice carton

Day Residue: 

• My Nan asked me about PS a few days before this dream
• I miss N the Dog every day
• I had decided I would drink vodka and orange juice on New Years Eve

Waking Reactions: 
This dream seems to be based on Day Residue rather than my Dream Incubation Experiment. I think that it is likely however that I do wish to subconsciously see both PS and N the Dog again.

Dream 749

'Hip Hop PhDs & Brexit'

Date: 1 January 2017

Time: 23:00 - 09:30 (I woke up from this dream naturally)

Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Normal recall

This dream is part of my Dream Incubation Experiment - where I ask my subconscious mind: WHAT DOES MY HEART DESIRE? You can read the introductory post (and watch the accompanying Youtube video by clicking HERE - opens in new window)

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior (Bedroom), Location Unknown - Time Unknown
I decided that I wanted to change my PhD topic at the last moment, despite having worked on it for many years. I decided that I wanted to do a study on hip hop MCs and Nike trainers, so embarked upon a field study, which led to me being in a house with a rapper, interviewing him. He was a dream character - a black male in his 20s, named 'MC Sewell'. I was happy that I had managed to successfully change my PhD.

I was then talking to MC Sewell's friend - a white male, also in his 20s who had a twisted ankle. He was sitting on the sofa next to MC Sewell, crying in pain. I told him that because of Brexit, he would not be able to 'see a Strasbourg (i.e. European Court of Human Rights) doctor' to fix his ankle problem and would have to suffer with it. I was hoping that by mentioning this we might be able to stop Brexit. 

I was then drinking a number (at least 5 - 10) cartons of chicken broth/soup through a straw. It tasted really delicious and I could not get enough. After finishing each carton of broth/soup, I was lining the empty containers up in a row on MC Sewell's bed.

There was then some interaction with my Mum's friend, CC - I cannot recall what happened, but it took place in a long, winding corridor of a building - maybe the same building where the rest of the dream seemed to occur.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

• Education
• Liquid in a carton

Dreamsigns: 

• I changed my PhD thesis
• Brexit/European Court of Human Rights was linked to medical care in the dream

Day Residue: 

• I had been working on some hip hop/slam poetry lyrics/verses and have decided to record it soon, as a combination between a music track and some spoken word poetry
• The day before this dream I had discussed both the implication of Brexit and repealing the Human Rights Act 1998/introducing a UK Bill of Rights on my PhD and also the process of taking a case to the ECtHR (Strasbourg) both pre-HRA and in the event the Act is repealed
• I have heard a lot about a rapper, Danny Brown recently - I just found out (by Googling 'MC Sewell' having never consciously heard this name before) that he is in fact named 'Daniel Sewell'

Waking Reactions: 
I consciously wish that the UK was not going to leave the European Union or repeal the Human Rights Act 1998, so in this respect, the dream did reflect something my heart (and head) desires. I also would love to do another PhD - perhaps on hip hop culture! 

I think I may have forgotten some aspects of this dream. but if I recall them later, I will record them below. I think my memory of this dream included further dream scenes which I did in fact remember when I first woke up, before I was able to make notes.

Here is my Youtube video where I describe my current Dream Incubation Experiment: